#like this is pinsan!!!

[southbound-in-the-sky]

This AA5 character is so filipino-coded...

[not-so-rosyyy]

still quite shocked that Olivia Rodrigo's GUTS World Tour stop here in Manila in a 55,000-capacity stadium will sell for only 27USD ticket price (for all seat tiers!!) with one hundred percent of the profit going to charity. I didn't know my pinsan could be a queenie like that, she deserves all the lumpia and 30 minutes of uninterrupted karaoke next fiesta.

[xxfromthestartxx]

New Recruit? (Miguel O'Hara)

pairings: Miguel O'Hara x Filipino F!reader

summary: You're the Spider-woman in your universe and you recall the day when you met Miguel.

edit: I've added an accurate translation so you guys wouldn't google it anymore!!

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 (COMING SOON)

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You could remember how you met him, how you met Miguel O'Hara. It was the usual day for you except it wasn't because it was your little cousin's birthday.

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You were helping your tita's with cooking because they were throwing a big party that could pass into a charity program. The house is full of people who was switching between cooking and setting up the house for the party.

With a sigh, you chopped your 10th carrot of the day, shouting at your male older cousin to tone down the karaoke. It's nothing new to you, except last night you were fighting a villain who drained all your energy for today's celebration.

"Hoy! Ang aga aga pa ah! Marami pang tulog!!" You exclaimed, glaring at the young man before continuing your chopping. (Hey! It's early in the morning! There are a lot of people who are still sleeping!)

"Ay nako, ineng. Ang aga aga high blood ka." One of your tita's chirped, the one who was peeling the carrots beside you. (Oh my, child. It's early in the morning and your blood pressure is high already.)

"Ay nako, tita. Tottoo naman kasi. Ba't nga pala ang gara ng handaan netong pinsan ko eh 2 years old pa lang naman yan." You scoffed, chopping the carrots faster. (Oh my, Auntie. It's true, no lies. Anyways, why is my little cousin's birthday party so much when they're literally 2 years old.)

One of your older Tita's looked at your state, you look like you haven't had any sleep yet, dark circles around your eyes. "Ineng, halika ka nga dito." She ushered you, making a come here motion with her arms. (Child, come here.)

"Bili ka nga muna ng juice dun sa baba, kay na aling Bebang." She ordered, getting her coin purse in her pocket and giving you 50 pesos. (Buy some juice down the street, in the store of Bebang.)

"Tita naman, ako pa talaga uutusan, bakit ako?" You scratched your head before heading out, making sure you have your necklace with you. (Auntie, why am I always the one running errands?)

You passed by the karaoke and glared at your cousin before warning him. "Pag-alis ko dapat hindi ko maririnig yang boses mo na nakakabwiset ha." (When I leave I shouldn't hear that annoying voice of yours.)

You put on your slippers and exited the gate, walking towards where the sari-sari store is. You were halfway there when a string of loud shouting filled your ears. Your spider senses went crazy and you searched for a place to settle.

You went to the alleyway filled with garbage and tons of cartons before checking if there were any CCTV cameras. You smiled when you saw nothing and pressed your necklace, creating a holographic suit over you.

It was the one you used when an emergency happens like this. You shot a web from your wrist and swung away, finding the source of the screams. Your spider sense tingled when you saw a weird-colored guy who seemed to be glitching, he resembles one of your enemies but you can't get your mind to remember.

You swung your way there and began examining the area. You squinted your eyes at the sight and began evacuating people. "Hoy!" You shouted, shooting a web at the guy, your eyes widened when he turned around.

He looks like your tito, and it looks like he was the one causing the commotion. You gulped before you fixed your stance, readying yourself for a fight.

Your mind raced with questions, your tito was dead- why is there a carbon copy of him in front of you? You watched him die in front of you- you watched him get shot.

You pushed away your thoughts and remembered your job, swinging by the buildings and shooting webs at him. The man looked at you before he aimed at you with his fingers, lightning coming out of it.

You easily dodged it at first, swinging by trying to get him stuck. He continued shooting lightning toward you, dodging your webs.

You clicked your tongue in annoyance before you noticed that the electric post was hit by the lightning he shot. You quickly shot webs at the post and steadied it, saving the people near the post.

"Ano bayan?! Alam mo ba kung gaano katagal ayusin ni Meralco 'tong mga to?!" You huffed, looking at the damaged wirings. (What is that?! Don't you know how long it takes for Meralco to fix these things?!)

"Ilang araw na naman kami walang kuryente neto." You shook your head, shooting at the near building and lifting yourself up. (We won't have electricity for the incoming days.)

You thought twice about the situation, he seems to have the same ability as your enemy Electra but for some reason, has the same face as your uncle.

You watched as he started flying, you knew what to do when it comes to flying enemies. You smirked before swinging towards him, pouncing at him mid-air as he lost his balance.

"Hey! Get off me!" Your eyes widened when you heard him speak English. He shot lightning bolts everywhere, wrecking most of the building insight. You huffed and webbed his hands, only for him to zap you with the other.

You flinched at the lightning, making your whole body fall to the ground from the damage. Your fingertips were quite burned and most of the part holographic suit where he shot you was missing.

You grit your teeth together and tried to stand up, "Tangina naman." You swore, getting up from the ground, the missing suit was now materializing once again. (You son of a bitch.)

Just as you were about to stand up, a weird portal opened up, you furrowed your brows together as a person came out of it, he rushed towards your enemy and began fighting him.

The portal closed leaving you stunned, you watched as they wreck more of the buildings. Sighing you started evacuating the people whose houses were getting disintegrated. "Tangina! Ayusin n'yo naman!!" You shouted, swinging and dodging the falling cement. You saved all the people and decided to help the masked man. (Son of a bitch! At least be careful!!)

"Hell-O!!" Your voice screeched when a bolt of lightning was almost shot at your head, luckily you ducked just in time. "Focus on the fight." He groaned, hitting his back at the building.

Your ears perked up at his voice, "What?" You asked, your voice full of Tagalog accent. "What do you mean what? Don't you speak English?" He retorted, getting up and dusting his back.

'Aba, tangina neto ah.' you thought, "I can speakining in dollars just fine." You scoffed, rolling your eyes at him. "Doesn't look like it." (Tsk, this son of a bitch.)

You shot him an irritated glare but decided to play along. "You are right. No habla engles." You said with a broken English and Spanish accent. (I don't speak English.)

"Tu hable español?" He asked, sounding amused at your broken Spanish accent. "Ah, eh, ih, oh, uh... Sí?" You replied, understanding his words. (You speak Spanish?) (Yes?)

"Maiintindihan mo talaga syempre, ikaw ba naman, sakupin yung bansa mo ng espania ng 333 na taon." You scoffed, joking to yourself. "What was that?" (Of course you will, imagine getting your country colonized by Spain for 333 years.)

"Mga Español nga naman. Nothing, I said nothing." You replied, shooting a web at your uncle look-alike's face. (Spanish people, am I right?)

Now that he was distracted by your web, you used the opportunity to start webbing him up, putting him in a cocoon-like web. You shot webs from the buildings and stuck him in the air.

Now that the both of you are side by side, you noticed how much taller he is than you, given that most Filipino has short genetics. "Tangkad mo naman..." You whispered to yourself, rolling your eyes. (You're so tall...)

"Okay, now that the fight is finished. Care to tell me who are you?" You asked, knowing that he isn't from here. "Isn't it obvious?" He asked back.

"Luh." You replied to his sassiness. "You're not from here, are you? I mean come on..." You squinted your eyes as he threw something at the enemy.

"Miguel, Miguel O'Hara." His voice scratched that part of your brain, making your guts flip. "Uhh- I'm Y/n, Y/n L/n." You introduced yourself with a smile.

"Hey! I was talking to you!" You glared at him, "I'm from another universe." He replied as a red screen like started forming around the enemy. "No shit." You scoffed, crossing your arms at him.

"You know, I was planning on recruiting you," He started "Recruit me?" You asked. "It's better if I just show you." He then clicked on his watch and a portal appeared.

You stayed silent, "I got trust issues." You simply stated, looking at the portal in front of you. "But... I don't want to prepare for my little cousin's birthday so I'm gonna go."

He hummed at your words, "Let's go then." He walked towards the portal, you following him behind. As soon as you entered the portal, it felt like you were sliding, your heart almost fell.

"PUTANGINA!" You shouted, traveling between the multiverse, shutting your eyes close as you tried to calm yourself. Repeating cursing and praying. "Lord, alam ko na masama akong tao pero wag n'yo pa po ako patayin." (SON OF A BITCH!) (Lord, I know that I'm a bad person but please don't kill me yet.)

"Lord, magsisimba na po ako araw-araw hindi na po ako mangbabackstab ng mga kapitbahay, hindi na ren po ako makikipag chismisan sa mga tita ko, Lord wag muna." You repeatedly prayed, doing the sign of the cross a lot. (Lord, I will attend mass everyday, I won't talk shit behind people's backs anymore, I won't gossip with my aunties anymore, Lord please just don't kill me yet.)

You fell with a thud, breaking you from the trance you are in. You slowly opened your eyes and immediately clasped your hand together. "Lord, salamat po Lord, kahit ilang beses na kita sinabihan na patayin n'yo nalang ako dati." (Lord, thank you so much Lord, even after many times of asking you to just kill me in the past.)

You nodded your head and raised your clasped hands. "Are you done now?" Miguel asked, amused by your antics. Your eyes trailed up at his, his mask long gone.

"Gago, gwapo ka pala." You covered your mouth instantly, getting up and patting your backside. "Did you just call me handsome?" (Oh, you're handsome, asshole.)

"Whaat??" You turned to him, "I didn't, you wish." You replied, making your mask disappear too. "So, where are-"

You stopped mid-sentence and were surprised at the number of spider people hanging around everywhere. "Wow." You muttered.

Miguel started at you, he knew how you looked way before he met you but this time you looked different, you looked way more tired than originally and your hair looks like you haven't taken a bath for weeks. He cleared his throat as spoke.

"I know you know about the multiverse, given that you have an experience with it, I decided to recruit you." He explained, his accent giving you chills. "How'd you know?" You raised an eyebrow at him. "I just do." He shrugged, "Oh, and welcome to Spider Society."

He started walking and you immediately followed, catching up to him. "I was creating a portal to the multiverse by the way, if I didn't meet you I'm sure I'll be finishing it in 4 months or more." You stated.

"Your suit. What is it made of?" He asked, seeing how you just made your mask disappear. "It's holographic, I use it for emergencies." You answered with a beam.

"I see." He kept his answers short, "What about yours?" You asked before you glitched, falling into the ground with a thud. "Aray ko." You muttered, putting a hand on your head. (Ouch, that hurt.)

Miguel looked back and realized he hadn't given you a day pass yet. He threw one at you before saying something. "That would keep you from glitching." You picked it up and wore it. "Thanks." You thanked him, standing up.

"My suit is also holographic." He answered your question before you glitched.

"There's a lot of spider people in here, huh?" You asked, in awe at the view. "Sure is. I'm sure you know a lot when it comes to the multiverse, I'm looking forward to working with you."

The way his voice sounds makes you feel weird, "Oh, uh- I don't know what you're talking about?" You felt unsure, "You graduated with flying colors, someone who has experience on and off the field, you'll be a perfect recruit for this." He said, walking towards the elevator.

"Thank you, really. I'll think about it." You said, walking upside down now because of the elevator. "So uhm... " You tried to talk but nothing came into your mind. "Who was he? You know, the man who came to my universe? He looks just like my uncle."

He looked at you, pressing the top floor. "As I said earlier, you have a fair share of knowledge about the multiverse. I know you know the answer." He answered, looking at your eyes that seemed to be darting everywhere.

"What universe is he from?" You asked, fiddling your fingers. "Earth - 36910," he answered as the elevator stopped. The both of you walked away from the elevator, a ton of spider people greeting Miguel and he just grunts or nods in reply.

As Miguel toured you in his universe, he explained and educated you more about what's happening in the multiverse, hours passed and you remembered the celebration.

"Shit, it's been 4 hours already?" You clicked your tongue as you made a part of your wrist into a holographic watch. Miguel looked at you before you spoke once again.

"It's been great and all, Miguel, and I really do appreciate the offer, but right now, I need to go back to my universe before my tita unleashes hell on everyone." Miguel nodded, getting something from his table and giving it to you.

"Come back to us when you're ready, we'll be waiting for you." He simply said, the warm tone of his voice makes your heart speed up.

"I will," you smiled, putting on the watch and typing your universe, opening up a portal. Walking towards the portal, you turned back at him last time. A smirk spreads on your face.

"Don't miss me too much, Gwapo!" You laughed, winking at him before the hologram covered your face. Running into the portal with a wide smile. (Handsome.)

Miguel was left in his office, a small smile forming on his lips as he recalled everything that happened. "Lyla." He called his AI.

"What now?" Lyla materialized in front of him, crossed arms and a small teasing smile on her face.

"When will her canon event happen?"

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a/n: I'm accepting requests and so far I got one request and it's ongoing!!

[stuckybarton]

Heads Under Water XV

Summary: Things come to a head for everyone to see. Character: K'uk'ulkan/Namor x Atlantean Descendant! Filipino! Female Reader. Word Count: 1,317 Chapter Warnings: Mention of Alcohol Consumption. K'uk'ulkan is groveling! A/N: Not yet back, just thought I could post this just for the hell of it. Just gave birth and me and the baby are back home so there is that little reason for me still not being able to be back.

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Part XV

Somehow, the worse decision you have made was drinking. Catching up with your cousins meant sharing a good few beers and array of other alcohol that they could get in a short notice. You’ve consumed a beer too many from the likes of it and after everyone was asleep, you were sitting by the sand, watching the moon.

One hand held onto the remaining can of beer and the other held onto the conch shell K'uk'ulkan had given you before you left Wakanda. It still made you wonder how such an ordinary shell could communicate with the bastard. You had done your best to tinker with the damn shell without damaging it but all leads to the fact that it was an ordinary shell. The bastard must be fucking with you one last time.

“Fuck it.” You muttered downing the remaining beer before taking a deep breath and holding the shell against your lips.

It was midnight and you were certain that no one would be awake at this time so you did was you do best in times of drunken stupor, you cursed in your mother language right at the shell, over and over again, you called the man every choice words in your book for the shit he has placed on you. Making you like him, trusting him, and making you feel the very thing you tried your best to avoid all your life—love.

 “I fucking hate you for making me feel like this. For making feel like I deserve even a sprinkle of love then you all crush it down to hurt me.” You spat before you threw the shell onto the water with a resounding plop.

Wobbling back up, you tried to regain your balance in your drunken state and somehow you felt a little bit lighter for what you’ve done. Taking a deep lungful breath of the cold air, you exhaled and made your way back home. Praying you wouldn’t have to deal with the hangover that was always accompanies your drinking.

Stumbling your way back home, the familiar sensation of someone watching you was ignored as you shut the door behind you and went to bed, the dream of the man with dangerous brown eyes was there to keep you company for the next morning.

It was the fluttering warmth of the morning sun that brought you back to consciousness the following day. Making your way down to the kitchen, you caught sight of your parents in the dinner table. A hearty breakfast and strong coffee freshly brewed was there to welcome you for the morning.

“Morning,” You greeted plopping down besides your father, head resting on his shoulder while you tried to recover from the antics of last night.

“Unang gabi mo sa bahay alak agad inatupag mo kasama mga pinsan mo. (It’s your first night back and the first thing you do is drink with your cousin).” Your father playfully scolded. Hand already going right at work with rubbing your aching forehead. “Uminom ka ng kape para mahimasmasan ka. (Drink your coffee so you could recover).” He continued on.

You did just that. Drinking the kapeng barako with gusto, never minding the scorching heat from it and it did help with the headache a little but it would take you the entire day to recover the rest of it out of your system.

“Ano mga gagawin mo habang nandito ka sa bahay? (What are you planning to do while you’re in the house?)” Your mother inquired, handing you a plate of fried rice, dried fish, and spam.

“Papahinga lang muna ako ngayon siguro. (Maybe I’ll just recover for today).” You pointed out.

“Oo nga pala, Anak. Dumaan pala yung isa mo pang kaibigan. Sinabi ko nagpapahinga ka. (That reminds me, Baby. Another one of your friends stopped by. I told them you were still sleeping).”

The hairs at the back of your head stood at your mother’s words. Looking at her she seemed unfazed by whoever stopped by, but after what had happened from last night—the recollection of your drunken spree, you somehow feared for the worst.

“Sino? (Who?)”

“Namora ata yung pangalan niya? Hindi ko rin matandaan. Basta babae sya na kulay blue. Okay lang bang sabihin ko yun? (I think Namora was her name? I don’t really remember. But she was a blue-colored girl. Is that okay for me to say?)”

They have actually found you.

~ ‘I fucking hate you for making me feel like this. For making feel like I deserve even a sprinkle of love then you all crush it down to hurt me.’

When he had first received your message, he was happy that you eventually did want to talk to him. But what followed was a shrilling scream that almost woke the entire Talokanil population. Then it was an array of foreign words that he didn’t know the full context but caught glimpses here and there that he was for certain were curse words directed at him.

The next thing he had picked up was the slight slur in your words that had worried him for a moment fearing you to be in danger but only realized you were drunk by the hiccups that followed. Then it had ended with a confession that he would have never thought would ever come out of your lips.

Over and over those words had haunted him. It had been a week now since you’ve left, a week of him trying to handle the damage caused by the people of Atlantis, the cleanup had been a nightmare and the worry of his people was something he constantly needed to reassure. He genuinely had his hands tied behind his back and he could not choose to go to you as he is needed by his people first and foremost.

He needed to figure out where the enemy resides before anything else. Before he could truly pursue you in a mission to gain your forgiveness and trust back.

“K'uk'ulkan,”

He didn’t need to look behind him to know who it was. Since that fateful day in his chambers, Namora had tried her best to keep him at arms-length, focusing more on helping with the search, as well as assisting with whatever the people of Talokan would need while they recover. It was the first time in days since they had even spoke to each other.

“Namora,” He turned to acknowledge her, the frown that was now constantly evident in her features shook him still. It was because of him that she felt like so.

Without another word, the familiar shell he had given you a week ago was thrown towards him. The frown that reach his face could not fully express the utter confusion of why Namora had it in her possession. It was supposed to be with you.

“Leti' u ma'alo'ob u u ts'ook le ken estuvo waye'. (She is doing better than the last time she was here).” Namora explained his confusion. “Bey u náachkunta'al Wakanda yéetel Talokan ti' betaji' ba'al ma'alob. (It seems getting away from Wakanda and Talokan had done her some good.).”

He found himself visibly flinch at her words. But he was still, at fault for what had happened to you even throughout the days that you were in his chambers. Try as he might to deny it there was the underlying truth of your captivity in his chambers and the effect it had on your psyche as a result.

“Yaan in meentik le ba'alo'ob ma'alob. K'abéet in meetej ma'alob. (I will make things right. I need to make things right).”

In this moment in time, he was uncertain who he was making such a promise to. If it was to Namora, to you, or to himself. But one way or another, he needed to keep his word even if it means compromising everything else just to make it so.

[sunb0rn]

sabi ng roommate ko (si Kar pa din to) next time daw na may itatapon syang gamit icoconsult muna nya sa akin.

*alam nya magiging reax ko kaya nga di nya sinabi sa akin na itatapon na nya. sinabi nalang nya, "nagtaka kaba wala na sa shoe rack ung Hush Puppies ko? tinapon ko na eh. yung nakalagay don sa plastic na pinakuha natin, kaya ko dinoble" and I was like ??? akala ko kasi inuwi lang muna nya sa kanila.

ganto kasi, she just bought a new office black shoes (CLN) coz nagustuhan nya style tas tinapon na nya yung one year palang niyang Hush Puppies na wala namang major sira. ngayon etong si CLN after 2 weeks ng gamit nafeel at nakita (nangitim toe nails) nya na di maganda fit sa paa nya. ayun binenta sa workmate namin. thing is, if di nya basta basta tinapon yung Hush Puppies edi sana meron syang magagamit ngayon habang di pa sya nakaka bili ng pamalit don sa pangit ang size. na suggest ko din naman sa kanya na okay yon na may another shoes kapag maulan kahinayang gamitin ung mas bago.

alam ko gamit niya yun and she has all the right kung ano gusto nya gawin; pero mej kaasar. if ayaw na kako nya, maayos pa naman eh sana sinabi sa akin pamimigay ko nalang sa mga pamangkin ko. *di ko type style (at di ko din size) but if I did di ako mahihiyang hingin yun para sa sarili ko. keber sa hand-me-downs talaga ako. tska DREAM SCHOOL SHOES KO YUNG HUSH PUPPIES na masyado talagang pricey for us.

This is the second time na ginawa nya yan, yung una was yung New Balance na tinapon nya after she bought AF1. inawitan ko sya non na isasama ko nalang sa ipapamigay sa pinsan ko. Nag okay sya but after a week sinabi nya na tinapon na nya kasi namumuti (suede material) at pudpod na. pero minimal sign of usage lang yun. nag okay nalang ako non sa knya and inimagine ko na super sira yung sapatos kaya nahiya na sya ipamigay.

sabi ko nga sa kanya netong huli, sana nilagay nya ng maayos yung shoes sa basurahan para if makita nung collector at tingin nya magagamit pa eh makukuha. hindi ung basta basta binasura.

sabi ko din na para sa mga taong walang wala ang laking bagay na may masuot na maayos na sapatos, given pa na may brand yung mga tinatapon nya at magtatagal pa yun if binigyan nya ng chance na magamit ng iba.

ayoko na nga lang masyado pagalitan kasi feeling ko more of impulse problem yon. na feeling nya nakaka sikip sa shoe rack or in a way nakaka sikip sa space na ginagalawan nya (nakikita man nya o hindi). feeling daw nya at peace sya kapag nakakapag bawas ng gamit since may bago syang binili.

huhu di ko alam kung masyado ba ako pa- "deprived thinking" mode o ano. pero yon na eenlighten naman sya.

[funsize-mermaid]

I feel guilty na hindi ako nakapunta sa friend namin ni Elle na pumunta dito sa Manila from Davao. Everytime na nag pupunta ako sa Davao, he makes time to meet us, pero ngayong nandito sya sa Manila, hindi ko sya na meet, kasi honestly tinatamad ako mag commute huhu. Davao commute is sooooo much easierrrrr than commuting here in Manila, kaya kahit from Panabo pa kami, one ride lang to Davao City. But here in Rizal? Para makapunta akong Binondo, ang daming byaheng dadaanan at paka traffic so muchhhh. 😤😤

Sa mga gantong pagkakataon nagdadasal ako na sana marunong na talaga ako mag drive. Takot man kasi ako mag drive dahil sa bumper to bumper situation here sa PH. Minsan nga yung mga pinsan ko sa US at Canada na mas babata pa sakin puro sila nag ddrive na tapos sasabihan ako ng mga relatives na “Sila _____ nag ddrive na dun, ikaw di ka parin marunong”. I was like… helloooo compare mo naman mga drivers dito vs sa mga motorista sa US. Ni daan nga dun napaka luwag. 🙄 Hay minsan napapa isip ako kung need ko na ba matuto mag drive or mag motor nalang ba ako HAHAHA ano ba gagawen 🤦🏻‍♀️

[jezawitha-z]

✨6-29-24 | FETE DE LA MUSIQUE PAMPANGA✨

Sobrang nakakatuwa na maka discover ng mga indie artists/bands. I'm glad that this event really gathered them and I can say na sobrang gini-gate keep talaga ng ibang fans nila tong mga banda na 'to. Ang saya lang ng jamming, intimate at ang cool ng mga tao.

Yung banda na Cheats, i didn't know na si Saab Magalona pala yun. Sabi ko sa pinsan ko nung nag appear vocalist na babae, "uy parang magalona". Agree din sya na kahawig nga daw.

Nagustuhan ko agad yung banda nila lalo na rock. Bothered talaga ako while nakiki jam at inuulit ulit ko sa pinsan ko na parang Saab talaga. Tas sabi nya na baka may bloodline ng mga Magalona yung vocalist. Tapos yung guy pa na nag guitar at vocals din, medyo makulit at medyo familiar boses.

So nung nasa jeep na kami pauwi, sinearch ko yung banda. My jaw dropped when I read "...Jim...Saab Magalona..." like what the — HAHAHAHA. Inisip ko agad na what if narinig pala ng mga fans nila yung sinabi ko na parang si Saab yung vocalist hahahaha. Naiinis ako na natatawa kasi bakiiiit hahahaha. Pinapakinggan ko lang kasi podcast nila kaya siguro naging familiar sakin yung boses ni Jim. Pero di rin kasi ako naging super deep like halungkatin past nila and all to know the band. Pero ngayon, di na ako nagsasawa pakinggan songs nila. What a gem!

I'm also blessed to have a cousin na nakakasundo din pagdating sa love of music. Sya talaga una naka discover netong event na 'to. So ako naman as I really love going to music festivals, gora naman. Glad to see and hear Unique performed live as well.

[nice2meetyouu]

Long Essay

Sabi ng pinsan ko (29M) sometime last year sa isang family gathering, huwag daw muna akong mag-anak. Ang point nya ay napakahirap palang mag-anak. Sabi ng asawa nya, dapat sa 'kin mo sinabi 'yan dati! Tapos nagtawanan.

Recently, tinanong ko 'yung kaklase ko noong elementary (26F) na conventionally successful nang tao (may bahay, nakapagpatapos ng kapatid, may kotse... at sa US nakatira at nagwowork) kung susundan na ba niya 'yung anak niya para isang hirap na lang sa pagpapalaki. Sabi niya, ang hirap daw pala talaga, at saka nag-resign siya sa work, at baka umuwi dito, para magpatulong mag-alaga ng anak. Okay na raw 'yung isa, tama na raw.

Ang age gap namin ng mga kapatid ko ay 7 at 15 years, which meant na habang lumalaki ako, laging may baby sa bahay. Sa isang kwarto lang kami lahat nags-stay para makatipid sa kuryente (at wala rin namang masyadong kwarto talaga), kaya sa hatinggabi o pag may umiiyak, gising din ako. I felt na my life was easier compared sa mga kaklase ko noong elementary na parang pangalawang nanay na talaga, and can run the household (in terms of chores) by themselves.

Still, I didn't really hate children and thought na the "normal" way of life is to find a partner and have children. My parents married young and had me right after college, and I thought I'd be settled down at an early age, too. I had a boyfriend late in high school who copied the courses and colleges I applied to, and eventually enrolled in the same course with me. After a few months of college though, he said, ayaw na niya, and made every effort to avoid me throughout four years of university life.

I felt that relationships were so unpredictable and caused unnecessary stress, so I didn't enter a new one until college ended. My early 20s was a prime time and there were a number of people who showed interest in me, and during med school I had two relationships which didn't work out for various reasons. But that last relationship, at 23 years old, "woke" me up from thinking that I have to be partnered and eventually have kids. That was when I really realized that it's not a requirement in life.

Discovering childfree groups later on made me even happier, because it made me feel accepted and normal. I didn't experience pregnancy and childbirth myself, pero growing alongside my mom opened my eyes to the reality of taking care of a child. My mom says things like masaya pag may bata sa bahay, and now I hear the same sentiment from high school friends whose siblings have had children by now, but I can't correlate it with their behavior.

I mean, the way my mom says things like gusto mo pa akong pasigawin lagi, umagang-umaga nagpapaluan pa tayo, wala kang ginawa kundi manood! and more, and her irritable mood make me wonder nasaan 'yung masaya. I also know that she wanted to work and do other things like travel, but will use us as an excuse na walang kasama 'yung kapatid ko, walang mag-aasikaso, etc. and the youngest is always the priority. Hindi pwedeng umalis, or kahit umalis, kailangang umuwi agad, kasi walang mag-aasikaso o walang kasama 'yung batang kapatid.

Aside from a coworker who is very vocal about being childfree, I don't really know any other male who's on the same ship. In contrast, I have at least 5 girl friends who don't want children. Even a coworker of mine who recently got married at age 41 plans on having children still, so I don't really know if I and the people I know will remain childfree, but the point of this essay is that:

You don't need to have children to know how difficult it is to raise them.

I don't see the need for it, I don't see the appeal of having kids.

I'm glad that there are more visible childfree communities out there.

I don't know why parents have to defend* the status quo by saying things like, you can have children AND travel or go out on weekends, you can have children AND excel at your job, you can have children AND still save money.

*Joyce Pring comes to mind. May sinabi siya na women have been lied to, or something. From my perspective though, there are more parents than non-parent adults, so it's not like people are keeping it a secret that raising a family is difficult.

This is anecdotal, but my female coworkers are the ones taking sick leaves and emergency leaves when something's wrong with one or all of their children. One has educational stuff on her work laptop (apparently, she doesn't have any other device) for her child's projects and whatnot. The burden falls on moms to still take care of the household and children even when the mom has a full-time job. So, it's not like we've been lied to or anything, we just want to opt out of those things.

To be fair, a colleague said that for her and her spouse, a child will eventually grow up, as opposed to a pet that will be dependent on you for food and shelter for as long as it's with you. But unless you had your kids young (a lot of people tell my parents, buti ka pa, may doktor na), you will probably be already retired when your child's old enough to be independent.

[neoswift]

LABYRINTH [15]

PAIRING. haechan x fem!oc

WARNINGS. language

SUMMARY. hyuck and via have been in the same friend group for years, pero dahil sa dalang nila mag-interact, everyone thinks they don’t like each other. siguro ‘di lang talaga sila close… right?

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markvia started dating nung shs pero they’ve known e/o since they were kids (their families are friends)

maraming may crush kay mark (kasi ba naman whole package na ang koya moH)

yung tatlong tao na nagtanong kung nagkabalikan na ba markvia ay sila johnny (also a family friend but mostly mark’s friend, absolutely rooted for them dati), seungkwan (jowa ni vernon, close sila ni via dati kasi parehas nasa banda jowa nila), and yuna (mas batang pinsan ni via, and really liked markvia together)

yung nangyari six months ago was five months after markvia’s break up. you’ll find out what happened soon hehe

also pause to read yung video narrations HAHAHAHAHHA

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[akonaman]

Ikakasal na yung pinsan ko sa sabado and tuwang tuwa sila mama sa ganda ng reception. Sofer ganda talaga somewhere in Bulacan. Then habang kausap ko yung kapatid ko she mentioned na what if daw pagsisihan niya yung pagpapakasal in the future?

Sabi ko beh ang dark naman ng naiisip mo haha. But she’s serious. Napaisip din tuloy ako. Sobrang complicated for me yung thought na pano pag nagsisi ka after getting married. I know it’s a lifelong commitment and it would hurt really bad pag may nag cheat or may na fall out of love. Like ghad pano ka makakaalis sa situation if those shit will happen. For me it was scary? Imagine being tied to a person who will constantly remind you of all the pain they have caused you? Damn! That’s terrible.

I’m also still curious how other ppl decides if they’ll marry a person or not. Sabi nila in a guy’s perspective, they just knew it. Like what the fuck is that. Sa babae kase pag di kapa nag propose in 3-4 years span susuko na yan.

[shirpowbra]

"Pinsan" (cousin in english) His name is Dante by the way I haven't been posting much cause I was so, sooo busy with taking care of things that my tiny brain can't even comprehend what I'm doing anymore haha Also since it's like independence day tomorrow, prolly prepare for something cause it's kinda exciting in my opinion haha anyways, happy pride, guys! Their orientations might change as time goes on but that's how I view them for now heh

[carajellyybean]

happy friday!

was too tired to play codm so naka-3 or 4 rounds lang ata kami ni bebu ng alca hahahaha babawi nalang ako this weekend bc kapoy kaayo for realz 🥲

also reinstalled ml a few weeks ago kasi ung pinsan and mga pamangkin ko bibisita next week so most likely un ang iaaya nila laruin (yeeey bc super nakakastress mga randoms dun loilch)

anw, hope y’all will have a fun and exciting weekend! 😋

[definitelyhandsome]

Ipapako nalang sa krus si ppjiss di pa ako nakapag kwento eto na nga guys, HAHAHAHAHAHA.

MARCH 7 - Shet sobrang pagod ko dito ko may pasok pa ako kasi 7pm out ko tas syempre bilang lowkey excited kahit pagod hindi naman ako nakatulog 12 midnighr prep na kami then 1:30AM dumating kami ng airport tas apakahabang hintayan pa 7am pa kami nakalapag ang hassle tanda ko dyan ako nagbreak out kung kelan magbabakasyon pero oks lang minsan lang magbakasyon lets go.

MARCH 8 (Morning) - Mga 10am kami nakarating ng Capiz then lunch tas meet and greet woth cousins wow as a main character HAHAHAHAHA ayon, nakaidlip naman ako tas nung hapon nag -batchoy hunting kami alam nyo sa 3 days ko Capiz naka 7 bowls ako (syempre iba ibang araw) alam nyo favorite ko talaga sabaw kala ko naman unli sabaw dito tulad ng pares dito samen so sabi ko pa-refill nag usap sila in hiligaynon and it goes like this wow (nakakaintindi ako guys kaso words lang kaya kong banggitin haha or phrases ganyan)

Pinsan ko: Ate magkano pa refill ng sabaw loko tong pinsan ko inubos nya lang yung sabaw eh

Tindera: Nagbabakasyon sya dito?

Pinsan: Oo akala nya daw kasi unli yung sabaw

Tindera; Tumawa sige ibigay ko nalang muna ng free.

Me: Salamat po!

Tindera: Nakakaintindi ka?

Me: Opo hindi lang ako marunong po magsalita hehe.

Tindera: Ah okay next time pagbalik mo may bayad na to ha?

tas sabi nung pinsan ko magpapabreast feed kaba? tumawa nalang kame lahat HAHAHAHAHAHAHA kahit apakainet sabaw yung parang kape ko then nag color game ako nyan kinagabihan kase disperas palang naman ng fiesta non nanalo ako 450 then biglang sibat pinang inom nalang namin ng mga pinsan ko then kinagabihan 7pm may luto na yung auntie ko para bukas tas may freedrinks kaso tanduay kasama yung mga tito ko buti nalang kamo graduate nako sa redhorse at nakapagpractice nako ng matagal mag alfonso tubig guys pang championship yung tagayan dito kalahating baso 8:30pm umuwi na kami tas buti nakapagpahinga ako nakapag gin pa kami 2 tas 2 mojito ng mga pinsan ko siguro mga 11pm narin kami natapos sleep tight talaga ako buti nalang wala namang hangover kahit halo halo na ininom ko hahaha

[sunb0rn]

(unplanned) productive weekend dito sa apartment, part I

short zoom meeting with my Sunlife FA, na sobrang na-happy ako after.

i was planning kasi na iwithdraw na funds ko at ilagay sa bank muna kung wala pa naman pag gagamitan. na confuse kasi ako na continous payment pala yung policy ko until mag 80y/o ako. dba?? ayaw ko mag bayad ng insurance hanggang umabot sa age na yon but after talking to her i realized na mas magiging beneficial for me na iretain yon or maybe withdraw it some later time.

not that she made me change *my mind, inexplain lang nya yung mga dating hindi ko gets and na refresh ako about my policy since I had it at only 20, kakasimula ko lang mag work. it was just my mom's idea initially tapos pinsan ko pa FA ko (bago na yung ngayon ksi nag venture into real estate si kuya) kumbaga all trust na ako at di ko na binusisi fully mga naka saad sa contract.

dami ko gusto ishare about this kaso baka TMI or what. hingi nalang ako mg insights niyo sana into getting an insurance? like kelan ba dapat? and kung ayaw ninyo bakit?

kasi when I got mine, di naman yun with full conviction. hindi ko pa plano pero naisip ko "sige ipon naman" and "akin din naman mapupunta". andon din yung part na gusto ko makampante mom ko na from the start ng pag ttrabaho ko makakpag save ako.

si Miss Mia, hindi siya hard-selling. sabi nga nya she understands yung circumstances ng mga tao kung bakit gugustuhin o aayaw sila to have themselves insured, how soon o kung later pa. and if i decided right there and then na mag withdraw, she would assist me all the way.

another thing na naiiisip ko though, if ever mag kakaron ako mg kid/s at dumating yung time na magkakatrabaho na sila hindi ko gagawin yung katulad ng akin especially aa unang year of working nila, unless personally ready at gustong gusto nilang kumuha. sa isip ko, mas gusto kong ienjoy nila mga unang sahod sa paraan na gusto nila as long as hindi makakasama sa kanila, and to be able to do that dapat wala din akong financial hang ups. not that I woul tend na umasa sa kanila pero yun bang maipasa ko yung mga takot ko for their future eh dapat mas mag focus sila sa present lalo at age 20s. ayuuun.

[jezawitha-z]

Happy Christening and birthday Bb Jiro!

I just met them today pero super saya ko na nakakakulitan tong Kuya ni Jiro, si Zedrick. Imagine kukunin kang ninang na di mo pa naman talaga na-meet yung bata ever since?! Hahaha. Pumayag naman ako dahil yung lola nila(mama ng asawa ng pinsan ko) yung nag invite sakin which is also close to my heart. She messaged me last April na bumisita daw sa kanila pag may time ako (hanggang ngayon di nakabisita 🤧). I was surprised kasi alam ko nasa Canada sila. Then conversation goes on and she asked me if okay lang daw ba ako mag ninang sa apo nya kaso daw Christian ako. Nag yes naman ako since wala naman issue sakin yun.

10am yung nakalagay sa invitation so I was there on time at magsstart palang pala yung misa. Akala ko binyag na agad. Hihi. Okay na rin atleast nakapag attend naman ng mass. Natutuwa ako makita sa simbahan mga kompletong pamilya. Like after nung peace be with you na moment, parents and their children will hug and kiss each other. Nalulungkot lang ako na ganyan din naman kami noon but it turns out hindi na ngayon na hindi ko rin ma imagine na mararanasan pala namin yung broken family. I was there praying to God na sana magkaroon ako ng kompletong pamilya soon and I'll promise to have one.

Noong nasa reception na kami, halos ayaw na umalis sa tabi ko si Zed. Tatabi sya kung saan ako nakaupo, tapos nung kukuha ako ng pagkain, sasama din sya. Tapos natuwa sila dahil napaparami kain nya nung sinusubuan ko sya na usually daw sobrang hirap pakainin. Baka ako talaga nanay neto?! Hahahaha

I'm just glad that I spent my time with them as idk why i really like kids that much pero ayaw ko pa magka anak muna. I also love their giveaways which consumable and cute tumbler na magagamit ko talaga. Mas prefer ko talaga mga ganito as a minimalist like me kaysa sa mga ref magnets, or yung mga iba pang anek anek na pang display lang. 🥹

[kimhortons]

january dump.

unang araw ng january, nanuod kami ng rewind. sobrang late nito haha pero okay naman maganda, predictable. may ginayahan lang palang movie, sabi ng iba.

after christmas break, we also had our team dinner, dito namin ginamit yung prize na nakuha namin for winning the award last year.

nakakatuwa kasi naka uwi ulit ako ng manila after nung christmas, sakto kasi kinailangan namin gamiting yung remaining leave credits from last year. nag set kami mag pipinsan ng pajama party since umuwi rin ng pinas yung isa naming pinsan from japan. parang late christmas celebration, like what we used to do nung mga bata pa kami, nag exchange gift kami. hehe. aim na ulit namin gawing yearly 'to just like before.

maganda rin pala tumambay sa arcovia, kaya dun ako bumaba. nakakahiya lang kasi my ghad, natanga ako sa gripo dun, de padal pala haha. natatawa talaga ko sa sarili ko non. anyway, tuwing uuwi ako ng manila nag aangkas lang din naman ako, dun nalang siguro ako bababa at sasakay, malapit lang din naman sa bahay.

tinry namin yung bagong nail and lash salon dito sa legazpi, nagustuhan ko naman yung ua wax, gusto ko rin itry yung foot spa nila, pero kung gel or soft gel siguro, dun nalang ako ulit sa yashano, may suki na ako dun e. medj na stress kasi ako sa procedure ng gel dun, wala pala kasi sakanila ang marunong talaga. napaka tagal ng gawa, tapos hindi naman pulido.

nag swimming din kami ng mga pinsan at kapatid ni J sa guinobatan, ang ganda nung lugar mahirap lang puntahan lalo na kung mag cocommute ka. dito sana plano ng cluster namin mag swimming kasi holiday nun, pero di natuloy kasi daming nag back out haha.

tagal ko naring di nakakapag simba, hindi ko na matandaan kelan yung huling beses ako nakarinig ng misa. after nung check out sa casita, nag simba sila uncle, hindi na kami pumasok nung kapatid ni J at nag stay nalang sa parking kasi naka short lang kami. di kasi kami informed na mag sisimba pala after haha. sa anniversary namin ni J ayain ko nalang siya mag simba kami.