#like they can all blog like normal after that. idk. im so livid

[timothylawrence]

genuinely need all the users from last weeks racist brigade against palestinians on this website to suffer a fate worse than death idk

[james-bucky-barnackle]

random story

before anything: i just want to say sorry for not updating any of my fics, i have an explanation and i will post it as soon as im able, as for now thank you to everyone whos read it, reading it, and will read it!

Okay, back to my story. Went on tinder bc hello, then found this cute guy which felt like the male version of me. He felt really okay, and we didn't talk consistently, meaning: reply after reply. Which I honestly didn't mind, but of course it would've been okay if we both responded fast to each other's texts.

He asked me out and I haven't given him a date, because I'm very much slumped in work and school right now. I can't even have 3 hours to myself without being texted by my boss or my schoolmates. We talked on the phone and it was honestly fun, he's a real funny guy. And if you guys haven't been an avid reader of my personal blog, (which if u want to - is linked on my bio) I am such a huge flirt. Mostly because I've had my heart broken before, badly and some family issues I won't dive into this text post. But bottom line is, I'm the toughest girl you can imagine, or at least that's what I think. I never really let anyone in, even when I spend so much time with someone, it never really registers to me as anything.

So when this tinder guy put out a disclaimer about: Hey, I'm not the commitment type of person blablabla, I still want to continue flirting with you but not guarantee exclusivity. I laughed my pants off, honestly. Idk how tinder is on the other parts of the world, but in the Philippines, it's pretty much an automatic that anyone you meet there will ghost you in a few days or weeks if you're lucky to last that long. I mean, I have friends who met their boyfriends there, but it rarely really happens. So when this guy told me this, it sort of ruined the vibe for me. I know he was trying to be nice and put a disclaimer out, but I've been through so much that I basically invented ghosting (im not proud of it, but its true).

I joked and told him, if u want to leave u can honestly just ghost me, and I'd appreciate that. I felt our age gaps suddenly form. This is funny because I'm just one year older than him, but back in my day, there wasn't a Senior High school curriculum, we just had high school and that's it. He had two more years of that shit. I started college at 15 and am now soon going to graduate (thank God!) and he's a freshman now. With the age, there's not much of a difference, but with the emotional growth of having to be forced to mature at an early age made me feel older than him.

It was his fresh out of high school self that thought oh this might be cool to tell her, cos I don't want to hurt her, but it ended up just making things funny and petty. This was honestly me when he told me that

I was livid, and I get mean sometimes, but I just didn't HAHAHAHA IM SORRY FUCK. I just was like??? Just enjoy it while it lasts boo, you don't have to say anything. Just do you, mama's a big girl, for all I know, I could be the one to ghost him.

Ghosting is never a good thing, I want to let that out. But I just didn't like the fact that he even thought there was a need to tell me that. And now he pleaded for us to be normal again, and I'm like?

I don't want to be a bad person, but I told him I'd be free on Wednesday, and ladies - we bout to be what we in the PH call "TOTGA" or the one that got away. And I'm excited, I tbh really liked him, but the audacity. I'm bout to give him the best date of his life and make him regret he even bothered to say it.

ANY DATE IDEAS??? LMAO ILYALL

Post note: there's alot more that happened when he told me to like beware of me blablabla but it would take years to finish this post so... Sigh, boys who think theyre such fuckboys. I think this one falls into the category of the Nice Fuckboy (do look it up).