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Time to stim away the stress of whatever the fuck last night was.
#time to blast take you to hell loud af and stim like mad#i reeeaaallly need to stop being so scared of people seeing me stim 😮💨#like it does me so much good. but fuck is it hard to stop them years of extreme reactions i got as a child doing it.#like the feeling and fear that gave me.#ryder speaking
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Sweet dreams, Periwinkle.
#this is so stupid#ARE PEOPLE EVEN GONNA NOTICE??#i feel like I made the joke too subtle and ppl are just gonna glance right over it jfkdjfkld#and yes i gave him the aroace flag who do you take me for. someone who won't shove aroace peri propaganda everywhere? perish the thought#periganda if you will. peri-sh the thought if you will. cackles maniacally#fop#fairly oddparents#fopanw#fop a new wish#the fairly oddparents#fop peri#peri fop#periwinkle#peri fairywinkle cosma#peri fairly oddparents#periwinkle fairywinkle-cosma#I JUST NOTICED A BIG MISTAKE thank god i chose to stare at this in fear of what i had created for 5 minutes it's fixed now. phew
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I really appreciated the natural progression in this episode with spooky sailor tattoos. We all knew ink5soul was gonna be recurring, but I like how it's playing out.
Also the format? Cornwall council email complaints? He's just like me fr fr
#almost feeling like new age leitners#the way it gave me strong vast/lonely vibes#like theyre a conduit for fear and terror#but ugh being haunted by the seas a sailor was claimed by?#to be called by it?#brilliant wish it was me#tmagp#tmagp spoilers#the magnus protocol
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dan and phil are like jesus in that they’re dramatic ass fruity men in their 30s always going like “i am making this SACRIFICE for THE PEOPLE” and everyone is like “no one asked you to do this in fact we’d all rather you just did not do this” and they’re like “IT IS TOO LATE NOW YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH THE CONSEQUENCES THIS IS WHAT YOU WANTED” and we’re like “no no we didn’t want this actually and you made this decision with your whole ass adult brain you truly could have just not done this and we’d all be better off for it but now we all have to suffer because YOU refuse to say no to shit” and i think that’s ridiculous stupid annoying awful beautiful
#/j#dnp#jesus did NOT have to die on the cross like pilate gave him so many outs and he was like ‘noooo i have to be a martyr’ and that’s#why pilate washed is hands of him#he’s like ‘this bitch is too messy i don’t wanna be involved’#good for him#dan and phil#‘oh we HAVE to do this thing for this sponsor oh we HAVE to do this really gay embarrassing coupley thing on the gaming channel’#i swear someday they’ll be like ‘this video is sponsored by dragon city so we’re gonna be doing the chapstick challenge!!’#‘can’t believe you guys and dragon city and the whole world literally begged and forced us to make out for a video but here we go 🙄🤣’#if i ever saw that shit in a video i would immediately click off unsubscribe block them report them delete my youtube account#move change my name get a fake id go off the grid and try to start over somewhere else#i know there are some of you freaks who actually wanna see them kiss but seeing that is genuinely my biggest fear lmao#like gross rosa those are our dads#actually dan feels like my cousin and phil feels like my cousin’s husband if that makes sense#i was 16 when i started watching so they didn’t really raise me maybe that’s why#dan howell#daniel howell#phan#amazingphil#phil lester#danisnotonfire#yeet my deenp#yeet my deet#danandphilgames#d&p#dip and pip#hbdnell
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Sometimes I think to myself "actually maybe I'm exaggerating the terror I felt from being stalked", but then I remember that the person in question followed me and waited for me outside my school every day, tracked me down on every website I'd spent even the slightest time on, left physical letters in my mailbox, sent creepy as hell novel length messages on a near daily basis on FB. And then when I was living abroad and I answered the phone I told the caller to text me cause I couldn't hear, after which I had to read "I was saying that you would probably be VERY scared if you knew who's calling... hehe" with my own damn fucking eyes...
And then I'm like yknow what nevermind!!!! the fact that I'm still terrified of being perceived and seen in public not just IRL but also FFXIV might be understandable actually!!!
#im not saying its what caused my psychotic breakdown cause there were many factors#but needless to say it played a HUGE part especially surrounding the debilitating paranoia i was left with for years#i should mention that i only learned LAST YEAR that this person supposedly gave up according to them#by an old mutual classmate (the only one im still in contact with sadly because this person destroyed all the connections i held dear)#(we were classmates for years and this fucked me up cause we were friends for years before it all went down)#but yeah so last year they gave up apparently and it started 2012.#id managed to evade their notice online since 2019 when they last contacted me on facebook and i assumed id simply shook them off#given the habits i developed as a result of it that still affect me in ways i hate#but yeah its only been about a year of feeling relatively safe for the first time since 2012... and even then only relatively#cause i have no idea how permanent that is. and i dont dare to fully relax knowing what the person is capable of in terms of violence#hysterically tumblr is one of the very places online where they never found me it seems#but yeah. apparently they can just move on and here i am meanwhile still feeling the effects#such as feeling like im drenched in ice even in fucking *ffxiv* just because someones targeting or emoting at me#even though its never actually a problem! its a normal thing! and yet that brief moment of dread and fear seems to stick#IDK WHY IM RANTING ABOUT THIS I WAS JUST REMINDED AND. AURGH#awful. horrible. hopefully itll be fine forevermore and that ill be able to relax one day#silvi talks
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what do you think every st character's favorite movie would be? (including movies up to today)
oh i really like this ask! most of these are 80’s movies, though, because that is a good majority of what i watch lol.
will: i think that will would like Alien, but i can’t really be sure if that’s one that would be his all time favorite- just one i think he’d like. that’s really all i got, unfortunately
el- i think el would like Dirty Dancing, Ten Things I Hate About You, Firestarter, Barbie, etc. i can’t explain why i believe these things they just come to me 😭
mike- i feel like mike would like Zombieland (once again, as a favorite movie, i’m not sure) and definitely The Outsiders. ( Star Wars too, but that’s an obvious one)
max- i cannot explain this but i sense that max would like Scream- probably one of her favorites.
dustin- Back to the Future & Gremlins. no further words
lucas- i don’t know why but i feel pretty confident that lucas would like the Brekfast Club… do with that what you wish. (i also sort of believe he’d like Baby Driver. cant explain it)
robin- i feel like she’d like A Nightmare On Elm Street (and But I’m a Cheerleader, although i can’t say either of those with any real belief in it)
steve - steve would like the Spiderverse movies, he’s a Marvel fan. and probably Heathers- Indiana Jones?
nancy- Top Gun (i say with confidence)
jonathan- jonathan would probably like IT (MAYBE A Quiet Place, I haven’t decided on that one yet)
#honestly feel free to add to or correct me#i do love movies but i am not a big fanatic i fear- so i gave you options here lol#mike wheeler#will byers#el hopper byers#max mayfield#lucas sinclair#dustin henderson#steve harrington#nancy wheeler#jonathan byers#robin buckley#i was going to do joyce hopper erica etc.#but truly i feel like i’m out of ideas#thanks for the ask!#ask#byler#stranger things
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#ran out of tags LOLLLL#and then .at least on fords end . be able to witness the moment of collapse . in which all his ‘righteous’ feelings r sucked out like a#vacuum or some star collapsing on itself bc not only is he like . having to come to terms w his own flaws#and the insidious like . stomach churning guilt associated w that but also the panic and fear (realized#w the portal or bills deception) into looking outwards and having that silent ‘oh’ moment where its like yeah#thats why he left . why wouldnt he#GRAAAAA LIKE I WANT DESTRUCTIONNN I WANT THINGS 2 FALL DOWN SO HE CAN FINALLY REBUILDDD#let me innn😭😭😭😭💥let me in to the self reflection those thirty years😭😭😭💥💥💥💥💥#who did you meet that reminded you of himm😭😭😭who wronged u in similar ways who gave u a reason to be betterrr whoo what did you see#and when you finally came back what did u FEEEL .. and dont lie and say there wasnt that wisp of nostalgia laced arnd ur heart#girl…..talk to me focus on me u know me u know these things#stanford pines#gravity falls#sry for taggingn these i need it for my own blog i prmmy i need to reference this . i will#ok im back bc i read fords end snd i want to rip my hair out bc fiddleford has such good ‘collapse’ imagery too#like we liteally got the soc of the blind eye videos . HIS DOCUMENTSRYYY#oohhhits rly over for us (me) now (and stanford and fiddleford.and stanley bc i feel bad excluding him💔)#only talking ab ford bc i need a reason to connect it to stan bc im sick in tbe brain and i need the familial conflict aspect too#but fidds .. ur misery does not go unnoticed by me ‼️#anyways. ik i said idc if they didnt get back together but the beauty of multiplicity is also liking the idea#HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHlike whenb im over the conflict im like dude they went through so much tgether it must be nice to find urself in the#familiarity again. uugughh.AUUUH./
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Your influence in this world doesn't need to be all-encompassing and World Changing. It can be small ripples. It can be gentle and easily missed.
Let yourself do small things. So often, people have this idea that to do "good things," it must be a grand gesture that changes every little thing. Honestly, that can be so intimidating and scary. We weren't meant to carry the world by ourselves. We each contribute, often in small ways, often in ways that aren't seen by everybody. But the people you affect might just take that kindness you gave them and let it light them home. Let yourself be that in whatever way you want. You don't need to carry the world alone.
#positivity#encouragment#encouraging words#ngl i gave a customer a lot of food for free because i could tell they were down on their luck and they deserve to eat#and i hope i contributed to them realizing this world will cherish them and they aren't forgotten#because it's scary not knowing if you can eat or drink or if you will be safe enough to sleep and while i don't know their story...#...does it matter if i do? i will do whatever i can to make sure the people around me are well-fed and taken care of#i think small things like this are honestly what make this life worth living#i don't think i would want to be here if it were not for moments like these#it's never not worth it to do what you can/are comfortable doing#and i hope it can come back around to reward you tenfold <3#i used to labour under the idea that Changing the World is the only way you can 'be good'#and that made me scared to do small things like this. and i partially regret that. but i don't blame myself or anybody else who feel...#...the way i did. doing 'good things' can be scary and intimidating and it's okay to be uncertain or fearful. it's okay; i promise <3#i just wanted to remind somebody that you don't have to change the world in one fell swoop. it's okay to Just Be#i love you (platonically) if you have read this far. i hope you do something kind for yourself#you - too - deserve good things. you deserve kindness and satisfaction and wonder
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Interestingly enough, there are so many different views on why Ace didn't run away in marineford, despite the fact that Oda tried to provide an explanation. It feels like I have barely seen the same conclusion between two people.
#it feels like a math problem everyone found different ways to solve for themselves#for example I myself never took “Luffy was behind me” as a direct parallel to mg#mf*#I think it's one of those cases where Oda wants you to think deeper#while yes Luffy was in danger during mf and while they were running he wasn't in direct danger at that moment#mf put the focus very obviously on wb#I find Ace turning back very connected to the scene of him sobbing at everyone trying to save him#this is a boy who was told he was worthless and unwanted all his life#because of Roger#and WB as someone who knew Roger well told him it just did not matter to him and in general#Ace made his own mistakes and disobeyed direct orders and still wasn't abandoned#(this also strongly differs from Garp's relationship with him)#and then when the man who gave him all of that was dying because he saved Ace#and when he was totally helpless and unable to save that man#Ofc the insult from Akainu would be triggering#and comparing the man he considered a savior to one he considered to had ruined his life too#a lot of people say the insult was too simple#I don't think what the insult was mattered at all#the nature of it was enough to get to him#I know “never running” has always been in Ace's nature and a habit#but still the reasons aren't exactly the same#it's meant to show Ace's protective nature and his fear of losing those dear to him as Garp said#am I digging too far into this?#Am I making it deeper than it is?#maybe but this is just my take on it and what has convinced me#lulu rambles#one piece#portgas d ace#portgas d. ace
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i really do appreciate laois doing things that are absolutely bonkers. Like i did have a thought wrt him going So Ham on the dog impression but it occurred to me thinking about a shapeshifter who can read your thoughts you really would have to Go All In, and while it is still presented as being comical (bc it is objectively funny to watch him get on all fours and bark like a dog while the camera's doing barrel rolls) it didn't feel like Just A Joke. This is unsaid, maybe it wouldn't be necessary, but i think it demonstrates the strength of laois's convictions. It's what makes him so good at what he does. he really does have that dog in him....
#fishes rambles#dungeon meshi#it esp made me think about w kitsune a lot of the legends about defeating them having to do w the fear of hunting dogs specifically#interfering w their magic which was neat#also wrt to him stimming before going into Dog Mode touched me really bc i remember so often b4 shame was hammered into me#about doing silly things like pretending to be an animal bc some aspect of how they moved or acted was soothing in some aspect? or somethin#i wanted to emulate bc i thought it was cool bc b4 years of karate i had extremely bad coordination and athleticism in general#and idk it was just so. it gave me some feelings.
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Stonn x T'Pring and Sybok x Angel are the only SNW ships I like. Honestly, with the way the show is written, I'm rooting more for the Gorn than the Enterprise at this point.
With how that show's writing Vulcans I'm like 70% sure they're gonna make Stonn a bad guy or make T'Pring cheat on Spock so their relationship ends with "They both cheated!" or so that Christine can comfort Spock as if he hasn't been cheating on T'Pring pretty much the entire time he's been on screen. I watched a 'short trek' I think they're called? Because I heard T'Pring was in it but it was REAAALLY bad like humor I might have laughed at in middle school...anyway T'Pring was only in it so they could make a joke where the premise was "T'Pring keeps breaking up with Spock because she falls in love with other people and Spock is SOO sad about it" and I was like Hey. Are you even WATCHING your show???? You're taking potshots at the WRONG CHARACTER. Like, even if you wanna make that joke - Christine'd make more sense because Christine and Spock ARE actually 'keeping it casual' and Christine DOES actually date around whereas T'Pring is committed to Spock in SNW and trying at every turn to make their relationship work. It still wouldn't be funny if the girl constantly breaking up with Spock was Christine but having it be T'Pring literally doesn't even make sense. You can say "it's just a funny little joke" (as people say about a lot of SNW'S issues) but T'Pring is a female character who's been viciously maligned for YEARS and if their 'jokes' or 'comedy' come at the expense of their characters or the message of ultimate togetherness and hope in the galaxy then I don't find it funny. SNW isn't supposed to be a comedy I don't know why they keep trying to be 'funny' at the price of being earnest. This isn't a marvel movie. The pro-eugenics trial, killing the disabled character, killing the chronically ill character (and framing this as a beautiful relief), 'being disabled is worse than death' messaging, turning the Gorn into horror movie killer monsters (especially when they could have just made up another species), the bioessentialism, constantly maligning Vulcans as racist bullies (with Spock's half Human blood saving him) <- Which I hate ESPECIALLY when Spock has always been a symbol for mixed people in which he struggled equally with feeling belonging in BOTH cultures whereas in SNW it feels like "If he could only be released from Vulcan's evil clutches he could be happy!" + The laziness of cheating being a plot point in so many main characters' romance stories so far. [La'an wants to be with Kirk but that'd be cheating, Spock is cheating on T'Pring with Christine, Pike sleeps with another woman in 'Lift Us Where Suffering' despite having a girlfriend <- They COULD be open but I don't think this is explained. That's Five or Six characters involved in potential cheating and more if you count M'Benga wink-nudging Spock and Christine's relationship when he most likely knows Spock is engaged to T'Pring.] I just have no faith in SNW. It doesn't feel earnest, and it doesn't feel kind and I don't want to watch a show where they'll sacrifice someone's character at any time for an ultimately meanspirited joke.
#anti snw#Q&A#anon#& regarding La'an I was talking to a friend who told me that they basically#just took an Asian Male Stereotype: Unemotional Honor Bound Man and gave it to a woman instead - so yay progress#racial stereotypes are now gender neutral#also: I don't know for sure since I couldn't stomach whatever episode it was in but I've heard stuff about how they made#M'Benga like 'the most vicious killer in the army' or whatever for their war ptsd storyline bc of course they have a war ptsd storyline#against the klingons#and I don't like THAT because of how much black men are already feared and seen as inherently 'violent' and 'animalistic'#If you want to say 'it's to contrast how gentle he ACTUALLY is - war is hell v_v' then why not give that title of 'most brutal killer ever'#to christine???? I just don't feel like SNW is very thoughtful about real world issues and how they're reflected in their shows#or worse - they do recognize it and just don't care#Anson Mount is also a zionist so WHATEVER
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i've been dying to share what i've been up to in minecraft btw. long post warning!! spoilers for minecraft i guess
so i found a bunch of black stuff in a cave, and when i looked it up, everyone just said to RUN 😭 terrifying
there was also an ancient city which i decided to go to eventually but when The Warden came out i panicked and left. luckily a big waterfall spawned right next to the ancient city so i just swam up it and left. i should go back soon tho... i was pissed off actually bc even tho i placed wool everywhere, merely jumping set the alarms off!! why!! all i did was jump on a block of wool!!!
i also built a cool house :3 i might add stairs to the roof. undecided.
i did a good job on the roof tho! i think playing the sims has paid off.
a cool attic for storage (i need more cobwebs though)
with my fun enchantment setup (don't ask me how many cows i murdered for it... i still feel bad)
i also made a bedroom! that has a basement with furnaces and more storage
made a dock in my backyard
made a dance hall for my allays but they all got lost in a cave. which is ok with me because they got kind of annoying after a while.
made a neat bridge with another dock! the dock is only there bc i miscounted by one when placing the pillars and didnt wanna redo them all.
also built a coop for my chickens :D
and the lead on the wandering trader's llamas broke so they're mine now. i bred them but the baby despawned fr some reason :( the donkey baby i bred also despawned :(
also found this super cool bow from fishing! i just wanted infinity because i was having trouble getting flint but i got so much more. (enchanted it from iv to v myself tho)
#( 💭 faun thinks )#minecraft#long post#i finally got blaze rods and made underwater breathing potions so next i wanna go back to this ocean monument i found#where the fishies showed up and i nearly had a heart attack#subnautica gave me a fear of the ocean lmao#also ive realized i think my fave genre of games is survival games#also slime rancher which isnt exactly survival but plays v similarly to one#spoilers#minecraft spoilers#btw i set the fps to 30fps because i keep trying out shaders and the fps jumping up and down made me feel sick#i like shaders in theory but in practice a lot of them are just Too Much
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I've had an odd nostalgia for the Once Upon a Time series of mediocre short-novel-length fairy tale retellings. I've been wanting to read the retelling of "East of the Sun, West of the Moon" from that line.
The trouble is that there is no such book.
Which makes me want to write it.
Unfortunately, the only straightforward traditional retelling of that fairy tale I want to write doesn't fit with that style.
But thinking about it got me excited about that old idea all over again.
#adventures in writing#why do i get all my best and deepest ideas when in line for confession?#had the above train of thought while waiting#and it brought that story idea back vividly and gave me all sorts of enthusiasm for it#you see there's a strong thread even in the original of christianity vs. paganism#and it could be drawn out to make something very interesting#the heroine is brave and bold and wants to be a saint#recognizes the potential for heroism when she agrees to marry the bear (knows that the old ways hold him under a curse)#but the doubts that her mother introduces are the first time she truly faces fear and she fails#but she insists she can fix everything#and after going around the world and getting help from mysterious women and all four winds#earning treasures and sacrificing them for her husband's sake#she gets the nights alone with him and he won't wake#and she has to face that she *can't* make up for what she did and her best efforts *can't* save him#and finally has to admit that she did an unforgivable wrong#and it's her tears of remorse that finally wake him#(a parallel to the wax that woke him when she betrayed him)#and only *then* does she get the opportunity to wash out the stain (the wax on the shirt) from her sin#and it's not a perfect parallel but there's resonance and it could be lovely#unfortunately i feel like i'd have to do more research on nordic cultures and folklore and i don't really want to do that
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Lan Siwen has inherited grandpa wwx's terrible naming sense? His spiritual bunny has a pun name, his sword probably has a pun name, and if he ever acquires a kid, he probably gives the kid a pun name too. Or maybe he's like his great-grandma cssr, who named her baby "baby."
I don't really think Wei Wuxian has bad naming sense (afaik the only "silly" name he ever chose was Little Apple, since Jiang Fengmian named Suibian, and Jin Ling's courtesy name is actually quite beautiful)...but Siwen digs out the generation poem from Sizhui's maternal family and uses that to choose his child's formal name. Until said Wangxian great-grandbaby turns five, though, he answers to the baby name of "Salty Porridge." ᕙ( : ˘ ∧ ˘ : )ᕗ
#asks#lan siwen#i feel like wwx and jfm are a little alike in that sense#wwx jokingly names the demon slaughtering cave#and jfm jokingly names suibian#but the name wwx chose for Jin Ling was both thoughtful and very lovely#and jfm gave jc a courtesy name which feels very much like his own (to me)#and calls up the image of a night at lotus pier (to me)#meanwhile he knew from jyl's birth that she was probably going to be sent far away#much further than he himself would have liked her to go#and he named her in fear and anticipation of that parting#again this is all conjecture on my part#and there's jyl's place in the narrative as someone who's marked for death and all#but i feel like jyl's name was chosen (in-verse) to remind her that her parents didn't want to part from her#or at least just jfm#since i can't really see yzy choosing that specific name for her#or for jc for that matter
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i made it to the artists house and my friend suggested i take the guest room if i don't want to be woken up by dogs but thats exactly what i want so i took the couch 🤣
fox friends
#jrnlsht#those drugs in the iv they gave me make me feel so good omg#you know for like an hr there my ptsd fear of the dark just didnt kick in at all#i turned the lights out in the hospital room and fell asleep while waiting for the doctor#he was the nicest dr ever too :)
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Hi!! I’ve never had a pet snake so this might be a dumb question but is it harder for snakes to see when they’re in blue?
It's not dumb, snake eyesight is different from our own so we can't assume they see exactly how or what we do. For the longest time people believed they couldn't see red, and used red lights to light their enclosures at night- that's bad for them. Please do not light your snake like a rotisserie chicken, they can see it. Red light can be detrimental to reptiles because it can make it difficult for them to perceive depth, which can lead to mental distress. Red light bulbs can mess with your pet's ability to tell if it is day or night, since a light is always on, and that can cause stress and health and long term sight issues too.
But back to your original question, yes, snakes have difficulty seeing when they are in blue. Many will stay buried and hidden, not even eating until they've completely shed. That is the norm, and if a snake wants to be left alone, they should be. Sakura will hide most of the time, but I'll sometimes see the tip of her nose near a burrow hole, and I'll dangle something tasty in front of it and she'll eat it- but I won't dig her up if she's having alone time. Scoria will hide unless I'm around- they both know my voice and scent, and Scoria has complete trust in me so much that even when blind she knows I'll keep her safe.
She allowed me to take her out and feed her today, and then asked for pets. This behavior is unique to her, and if she were not specifically asking to be pet I would not do it after feeding (any other snake might throw up). I'd stop petting her and she'd ask again and again like, "Nope! Need more, come back and pet me." I really don't mind, she's found a way to tell me she enjoys being pet, and that's amazing- and also makes me happy. After many many pets (I guess we had a few days to make up for, I've been leaving her alone for the most part, only saw she was in blue, and then it was food day and saw her looking at me from her mossy hide) she buried herself underground in her bioactive area.
Perhaps some day Sakura will trust me to touch her while she's in blue too- but if not that's just fine. Sometimes we all need a few days to ourselves.
Oh, and don't feel bad asking snake blogs questions. It makes us happy when we get nonbot or spam asks! I imagine most of us love sharing about our snakes! And if sharing what I've learned helps lead a snake and their caretaker to a better life or bond then they would have had before, that's such a win for everyone!
#Snakes#shedding#in blue#hognoses#reptiles#Scoria is the most loving trusting baby#She rarely hisses and usually does it to say no#The other day I wasn't sure if she was thirsty and while holding her lowered my hand into her pool so she had an opportunity to drink#She gave a little hiss “no!”#So I took her out. Communication successful. We cuddled a bit before she asked to go back in her enclosure#Sakura wants very much to be social#she is overcoming crippling fear of people#And my goodness she has been so good and so brave#She learns by watching her sister#She saw me hold my hand protectively over Scoria (like a cave) and Scoria nuzzle it#Scoria will often curl into a cinnamon roll under my hand and nuzzle me while we both relax together#our happiest moments are with each other#Sakura saw this and tried to understand#So she asked to come out and actually went into my hand (usually she likes the door open so she can dangle and look around)#And then she went under my hand for about five seconds to try to see what we were doing#She is so shy and skittish so I'm proud she found the bravery to do it at all#She immediately got scared and asked to go back to her enclosure#I did it immediately as knowing they can go back any time helps them feel safer and will want to come out more#Rather than have a scary memory of being trapped and unable to get back home#She asked to come out later and I had her out about five minutes and when I TRIED to put her back she wrapped around my hand!#She wanted to spend more time with me!!!!#She WANTED more time with me#As someone who has been struggling to reach this frightened shy girl#There are no words for what I felt in that moment#I must never break her trust she's worked so hard to get
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