#like that’s the system babey

[vebokki]

i present to you for your consideration: luo binghe and sha hualing as roommates. also they're both going to be late to their respective dates

[rockwgooglyeyes]

Really, what CURE highlights is Ivan's sense of self- or lack thereof.

"you can break me apart"

"to quiet my fears, I'll drown in you"

"consume me, yes, me"

Maybe this is why, overall, I think Ivan wrote the lyrics more than I believe Till did. While we know Till to be a producer and lyricist, the content of the lyrics themselves are really what put that final nail in the coffin for me. I don't really believe that Till would have a desire for Mizi to hurt him, even in a romantic way. His affection for her seems far more pure than that, something where violence and injury are absent, something happy and bright where there are no worries. Mizi might be Till's reason to believe in the world and the future, as she shows him a possibility of goodness and happiness, but she doesn't seem to distract him from his own fears. In fact, his admiration of her from afar is a behavior that's an extension of his fears and insecurities, stemming from his superiority complex where people don't like him, it's because he's better than them and they know it. But not only that, adding onto that superiority complex, Till has a fear of vulnerability (or he just doesn't want to be perceived as weak) due to his traumas and I don't think that he would want Mizi to "break him apart." Then again I might be splitting hairs and I might be wrong. These are just my thoughts at the moment

Back to Ivan, though. He's . . . *sighs* his sense of self worth is pretty much nonexistent. He thinks very poorly of himself, he's part of the crowd who call him a freak and a pervert and a monster. He believes himself to be something wretched and broken, in need of fixing and yet, unfixable. He's just as afraid of vulnerability as Till is, ironically, but it's for a different reason- Ivan is afraid of laying it all bare and having someone confirm his suspicions that there's something irrevocably wrong with him. He's not insecure in the same way Till is, because he believes wholeheartedly that he's fucked up and that he's unlovable and that's how he got here. It's not Till who *needs* to love him back, or anything like that, it's Ivan that's the problem.

That's why "consume me" and "you can break me apart" and "to quiet my fears, I'll drown in you" are so utterly Ivan. Ivan would be happy to be consumed by someone he loved because that way, he's useful. He's sustaining them. He would be happy to be broken apart by someone he loves because that way, they can get their anger out on someone without any consequences, because he doesn't mind, he's happy to be the meat on their chopping block. He will use a person he loves as a distraction from his own doubts and fears because, hey, he already knows what's wrong with him but there are so many wonderful people around him, who he can help support. His problems aren't what's important because he doesn't have problems, not real ones, anyways. He can't compare to any of his friends, he has a guardian who doesn't actively physically abuse him, and he's famous. What more could he ask for?

Also I think the "sick of these nights to come" is in reference to the possibility of Ivan winning and being forced to live in a world without Till, a comparatively quiet universe. Anyayws. starred crossed doomed yaoi my belvoed. if anyone calls them toxic i will have questions because i want to know your reasoning and if i can dispute it because maybe im wrong!

[frogs-smoking-cigarettes]

big day for public transport enjoyers

[simplyender]

look i love spot just as much as anybody else but if i see somebody actually unironically siding with him and saying hes in the right, im gonna think theyre fucking insane

[k7tt1]

Literally any character having to pick up Kitty like a goddamn fucking Chihuahua when she tries to square up with other Fizz Bots....

[just-a-creep-babe]

i am twirling my hair giggling kicking my feet at every masky cosplayer i see on tiktok i am living my best life so SOME PEOPLE (headmates) can stop LAUGHING (bullying me) -system anon's hoodie

[wolfcat-hybrid]

Do any of yall play deep rock galactic? I've been getting really into it and would love to do some more of the team missions but interacting with strangers is intimidating

[killuaisaprincess]

🐙🌸🐙🌸

[z-paladin]

Riley, know that if I didn't recently spend Big Money on this new laptop, I would 100% go for the Big Name Tier (of course in Comic Sans)

And for everyone else but Riley - go back Interstitial 2e

[constantvariations]

After playing Baldur’s Gate 3, where there's several situations where ascension is continuing a cycle of violence and abuse, V9's ascension plot is somehow even dumber and ickier than before

[adhbabey]

Honestly y'all need to accept that systems literally are gonna be contradicting themselves and be vaguely inconsistent with others. Like, it's probably not only systems. But my GOD, I fear ending up on a drama channel video, where someone picks apart what I've said because it was different from something I've said previously.

Like stop assuming people will have consistent opinions. I never do. It's only consistent with which alter is speaking.

Like I'm sorry I said something last week. I'm a different person now. Literally.

[vio1315]

Thoughts again

A lot of people will say things like 'never tell someone x' and 'this phrasing is horrid' kind of stuff

But honestly I think peoples thinking is a lot narrower in this kind of advice than I had previously thought

Like you know how when someone has a sort of saying they fall back on for everything and you feel kind of put off when they give you that advice?

Generally that saying was helpful to them is why they're parroting it.

And you don't have to adopt this kind of advice yourself, and you can find it frustrating etc, but I don't know if removing it from everyone's use should be the thing to strive for either

[wewontbesleeping]

nothing is more therapeutic than typing a long tumblr post and then deleting it

[doppoorochisimp]

One of the greatest things Doppo ever did was rip off the ribs from some random child murderer he decided to stalk because he's a freak like that

And one of the worst things he did was drop the f slur but it's ok he can reclaim it

[pizzabookbuying]

how far is too far with an AU??? How do you know when to stop?? Surely developing a new religious system is too far…surely

[just-a-cup-of-anxietea]

Latest obsession!!!!! Dimensional!!!! This app is SO heckin cool!!!! It takes TONS of personality system and combines them ALL into an easy to use system with UNDERSTANDABLE and moderately interactive data!!!! MANY lil data points with explanation and your individual relationship to each trait, pattern, or archetype!!! IM SWOONING. If any of you even consider getting this PLEASE lmk bc there are some features that are only accessible if i send you a Special Connecting Link Thing. It’s got MBTI, OCEAN/Big 5, DISC (!!!), love languages, and a few other major systems of categorization plus LOTS of additional data points to wander through.