#like pls i just rant imagine thinking i could ever word something so beautiful without the aid of a blunt

[watermelonlicker]

Isn’t it kind of hilarious that people genuinely believe two of the most guarded, tight-lipped, blackout-curtain-loving humans on earth would ever flaunt a real relationship in public? Harry and Louis — two walking vaults — willingly parading around a legit romance? Be serious.

I get it, I do. People want to trust what’s said out loud. It’s comforting to take things at face value. But the thing is — nothing about them has ever been surface-level. These two have practically made a career out of subtext. Lyrics that ache with double meaning, silence that screams, glances louder than press releases — it’s all there. You just have to look. (And apparently not everyone passed “Reading Between the Lines 101.”)

The double standards from antis? Actually comical. “Well, they denied it,” they say. As if we haven’t all denied ordering that third McFlurry at midnight. As if denial is truth and art is just… decoration? They’ll ignore entire albums that read like personal diaries and instead cling to one interview quote from 2013 like it’s the gospel. It’s like watching someone throw out a whole novel because the blurb on the back confused them. They blindly believe a stunt that was “confirmed” by headlines and a “relationship” that’s only a press release.

Honestly, if you need a neon-lit billboard or a press release titled “We’re in Love, Please Take Us Seriously,” maybe this mystery isn’t for you. Some of us are thriving in the poetry of it all — the crumbs, the parallels, the quiet matching tattoos.

Anyway, I’m tired. My brain is doing backflips trying to make sense of people who refuse to see. But I’ll keep connecting dots and laughing at the absurdity while they keep asking, “Where’s the proof?” with a blindfold on.

THIS IS THE MOST BIG BRAINED THING I’VE EVER READ AND HONESTLY WORDED SO PRISTINE. i have no notes anon you ate this up please send me more 🙏🏻

[ahappydnp]

okay i'm gonna make seperate posts for the highlights but here are my raw thoughts from my notes app as i watched

dnp 10/19/15

“hello everybody welcome to the show hello everybody welcome to the show” nostalgicccc wahhhh

all these 2015 younow top fans feel like distant relatives at a family reunion 

this is their one day off between shows and they’re doing a liveshow (2015 work schedules at it again but also those younow contracts really made them go live ANYWHERE)

them talking about what they do during their shows and they’ve retired the drawing game and guess the crime rip

if this were current times phil would have just drank out of dan’s bottle without a second thought but i still love that he snatched it so naturally asdsafsgjk

dan asks them how they’re feeling and phil is “interested” in the words

“imagine being ecstatic right now” PHIL ILYSM

“happy 6 year friendaversary” and 6 years of dinof (phil remembered but not dan). they reallyyyy moved past that to focus on dinof lmao

they’re anti spoiler policy and don’t want to talk about it all the time (which is so interesting because you can tell they’ve kept that thinking except promo is important these days, especially for dan during WAD some promo would have massively helped)

dan split his pants and phil bonked his noggin on stage (it’s still them <33) phil has a steel head 😭

phil wants to put a camera in a penny and just see where it goes (he’s so beautiful i love him dearly). do you think you’ve ever used a coin benedict cumberbatch 😭

DAN DO YOU KNOW WHAT YAOI IS

love phil just taking over the liveshow and telling dan they’re going to try and think of a better name when dan just wanted to move past it

pretty odd opinions (phil singing nine in the afternoon changed my brain chemistry jfc)

A level geography + phan 4eva

dan got an A in case you forgot

WAIT WAIT WAIT for the us tour (dnp doing everything themselves is still insane)

“i’m guessing one of you as probably uploaded the video of this already and thank you for doing a service” dan used to be Such an advocate for fan reuploads for accessibility and i genuinely love him for it 

phil likes being remembered :3 the 1975 remembers them 

they like touring <33 try new things!!!!!!!!! “five people die” and you don’t wanna know who adsfdgsfgkj phil stopped the whole bus for a fish and chip shops HE’S SO VALID ILYSM KING 

a fun fact about them seeing derren brown in 2012 is they accidentally left their tickets at home and then had to go all the way back in a taxi to go get them 

OMGGGG DANS NOSE TOUCHED HIS SLEEVE!!!1!

martyn shoutout (remember when IRL was good 😭)

dan coughing in his face is sooooo current dan like that is dan on the gaming channel in 2024 

your enemies didn’t get a good morning (funniest man alive)

bbc breakfast show is like a plain yogurt but nana watches it. the infamous squirrel bite story <33333 phiw

GET OVER IT HE ENJOYS A THEMED DRINK GET OVER IT

dans loubs are on akinator (the time on the internet when you quite literally could not escape dnp was so special)

miss dan’s tv show rants soooo bad waahhhhh pls come back and yell about shit 😭

THE BEST MOMENT IN ANY LIVESHOW EVER phiiiillll 

dan’s face talking about the 3D movies…i fear i love him too much :((( let him watch the movie

them writing that dan’s chair is hiding a huge secret….

genuinely it’s so so incredible how much they loved the book and how much care and effort they put into something they could have very easily just slapped their name on 

dan thinks an apocalypse is going to happen..he was pregnant with WAD here

my favorite thing is the MINUTE they hit that hour mark phil gets “”hungry””” without fail like yes kings get that minimum and dip <33

[filthyslashertoad]

Omg! So this might be long and a lil detailed but pls bear with me😩 A request of an angsty oneshot!

A childhood friend of Stu Macher having a crush on him from a young age and having to keep on smiling while listening to his rant about the girls he liked as they grew up (Casey Becker is one of them). Years passed on and now they're in high school, they know that Stu would never view them as more than friends so they start to move on but Stu is actually slowly realizing his true feelings towards his childhood friend when they started to distant themselves.

This idea was heavily inspired by: Taylor Swift - Enchanted😔. If you decide to write this, I'd be so ever grateful and say go ahead and turn up the angst😩

Oki, I wrote most of it and it didn't save so this is gonna be a lower quality version.

(I didn't know what to do for the last part so it kinda sucks)

Stu Macher Angst Oneshot

You and Stu had been through practically everything together, you went to each others birthday parties, watched your first horror movie together, you even went to your first dance together. Sometimes you even wished you could be closer with him, imagining what it would be like to hold his hand or to spend time with him in more ways than just watching movies or hanging out at school, you wanted to tell him how you felt and for him to share those feelings, but you knew that wouldn't happen. It never would. And it almost felt like he knew how to hurt you. Telling you about the girls he would meet at parties and how beautiful they were. And every time he opened his mouth about it you wanted to hate him, to tell him you didn't care but you could never bring yourself to tell him that.

Either way, you couldn't think about this anymore. You needed to work on your homework. There was a test tomorrow and you wanted to be prepared for it, but as you thought about the answer to questions you began to worry about Stu. What if he called you asking you to hangout or knock on your window. In your head you relayed the message 'Please don't call, Please don't call, Please don't call'. And almost as though it worked, Stu didn't show up. When you went to bed you were able to fall asleep in silence without the sound of a loud movie in the background or Stu telling you about a movie he wants to watch with you.

But apparently if a good thing happens a bad thing happens too. Because when you arrived at school you walked over to your usual friend group, Billy, Sidney, and Stu. You weren't even close to them and you could hear Stu talking Billy's ear off about a girl he had met at a party, saying how hot she was and that she had huge tits.

For whatever reason those words hurt more than they should've. You turned on your heel walking to a bathroom so you could be alone, but you were too late, Stu saw you and he was now walking over to you. "Heyyyyy Y/N, where you goin'?"

"Get away. From me, Stu." You started to cry as you walked away faster.

"What's wrong with you? Someone break up with you or something." He teased you, trying to grab your hand and pulling you closer to him.

You turned to him, "I said. Get. Away. What do you not understand?" He stopped in front of you, his eyes staring down at you, seeing the tears covering your face.

"Calm down, I was just joking." His arm goes to wrap around you and just when you felt like you were about to pour your heart out to him, you looked around. People were staring at you. You didn't know what to do anymore. What could you do? The person you had loved and cared about for most of your life couldn't even gauge your emotions, much less reciprocate your feelings.

"I think...I'm just gonna go." Was the last thing you said to him before completely distancing yourself from him. While you were away from him you did begin to move on, focusing more on class work than trivial parties and time wasting movies. Stu on the other hand had no idea what was going on, he didn't understand why you left him and because of this it lead to many nights where he would bother Billy with all of his problems and thoughts about you.

"Y'know instead of talking to me about this you could just go ask Y/N what you did wrong." Billy yawns, tired of hearing Stu go back and forth with him for the past 3 hours.

"Yeah, but what if she doesn't wanna listen." Stu pouts, staring at Billy.

"It's just an apology, doesn't matter if she listens or not." Billy falls back on his bed, laying down next to Stu. Looking at him.

"I want to say more than just sorry though." Stu looks over at Billy for a moment before turning his attention to his hands, trying to focus on something else other than the conversation.

"Why? What do you wanna say?"

"..."

"Stu...I swear to god, if you're saying what I think you're saying, I'm gonna be so pissed with you."

"Sorry to break it to you, Billy, but I guess you're gonna have to be pissed with me then." Stu moves his eyes to look over at Billy, trying to hide an awkward smile.

[dasomlimie]

mayhaps could you write some sanzu and rindou bf headcanons pls ur mitsuya one was so cute

%% SANZU AS YOUR BOYFRIEND #!/

character ; aged up!Sanzu Haruchiyo

a/n ; i only write one character for bf hc sorry ! in this hc Sanzu would be a normal person who leave his delinquent era, if we're talking about bonten!sanzu as your bf man i don't think it would be a healthy relationship 💀

sanzu as your boyfriend he would be that i hate everyone except you bf (?) or that soft bf you would die to protect him no in between OHHH OR THAT BF WHO IS VERY ELEGANT AND CALM BUT ACTUALLY A DORK

from how i see him, in the manga, ofc he's very loyal *cough*

in the beginning of your relationship, he would actually treat you like sort of royalty

and is not much a talker he love to listen more than talking so most of the times he would listen to your little rant with his closed eye smile

when he loosen up he would be a noisy boyfriend but in a good way like he open up to you telling you how was his day with Toman, how he dislike someone or something its actually very cute when he talk about something he dislike with that little frown and more can you imagine it? cuz i can

anyways you know how he always wear mask right? in the beginning of your relationship he would refuse to reveal his whole face you rarely see him without mask and sometimes he overthink what if one day you saw his scars and leave him

but when then when you accidentally walk into his room while he was not wearing mask he start panicking while you just stare then walk toward him cupping his face ignore all of his empty threat toward you

"woah is this how you look like without mask?" you said stare at him while he shut his eyes then feel you place a kiss on each of his scars, then he open his eyes, he noticed no sign of disgust nor any other negative emotion other than adoration he start to relax a smile appear on his face

"you're not disgusted?" he ask you frown heart a little hurt from his words "why would i be? you look absolutely stunning and beautiful and handsome with this scars damn you're even hotter with this scars" you gushes he giggle before shutting you up with his palm

HE HAVE THE PRETTIEST GIGGLE AND LAUGH EVER so its your goal to make him laugh :( because he rarely laugh even if you joke about something ( he only give you his closed eyes smile )

he's also very insecure of his scars so when you start praising and gushing how pretty his scars is he blush or have a smile on his face then shut you up when the compliment start to overwhelm him

he also let you braid his hair yk his hair is long right? he also didnt mind walking around with whatever hairstyle you made even with little butterfly clip and shinny clip he did not care if anyone dare to say anything he would beat them up yay!

date with him would either be a regular date or home date with both of you watching movie ( dont even ask this i feel like he prefer being indoor more than outdoor )

OHHHHH he let you dress him up in any type of clothes cuz Sanzu said "its just a clothes they doesn't have gender" yes Sanzu say it louder so the one at the back can hear you

anyways~~ he would also let you paint his nail only if you wear matching colour as him ( he didnt mind you paint his nail he just want to match with you tbh )

he's also the type that get you a matching bracelet and he would never take it off ever

he'll get sad when he saw you not wearing the bracelet but will never tell you he try to ignore it but end up asking you why you didn't wear it when you were cuddling

he's also very possessive, not in unhealthy way but in unhealthy way, he would always to tell anyone you're his and he's yours, either kissing you in public or have his hands around your waist or shoulder

he's just afraid you would leave him :( please reassure him you're not

anyways he's also be that type of boyfriend who get jealous easily but will never admit it but you'll always knew from how petty he is

"Haru are you jealous?"

"pfft no why in the hell i would be jealous?"

"then will you help me with this?"

"ask (random name) to help you"

"ok"

"wait no!-"

ok lets say the division captain, vice division captain, the president and vice president of Toman was very close with each other and have a scheduled hang out twice a month and they were allowed to bring their s/o

then when one of them *cough* Mucho ideas *cough* try to make him jealous just for fun and start taking your attention from him

then him noticed what they were doing and start bring you close to him glaring at them "she's mine dumbass find you own s/o" yk like that one horimiya scene this as preference how he and maybe Mikey or Baji or even Emma 'fight' over you

he love tickle fight!!! because he love to hear your laugh no matter how ugly you think your laugh is he would still think its beautiful

when cuddling he prefer being a small spoon but he didn't mind being a big spoon if you wanted him too but most of the time he want to be a small spoon because he love the feeling of feeling safe

what else let me think

oh he would be that type of boyfriend who bluntly turn anyone down or just ignore them if they tried to flirt with him then when he saw you he would have this adorable smile and jog toward you talking about how someone was annoying him *cough* that person who flirt with him *cough*

he would also be that type of boyfriend that need to touch you all the time when he's start to getting comfortable with you

his love languages are physical touch and act of service

he would be that yk type of boyfriend who literally drag you away from anywhere when he find put you overwork yourself like training or whatever you did because he doesn't want his precious s/o to get sick

speaking of getting sick he suprisingly have a low antibody (?) and always get sick especially during winter so he love it when you come over and take care of him

when holding hands he love to intertwine your hands together or holding one of your finger—like yk how babies hold your finger yeah that one idk how to explain— or both of you would link your pinkies together <33 so cute

love to have you on his lap while his head resting on your shoulder and both of his arm wrapped around your waist or shoulder he didn't mind your size

i think he's secretly a sweet tooth but will never admit it—i just got the vibe from his hair colour—he love it when you bring sweet for him

!%! © HNEULWH— i did not allow my work to be used or adapted in any form without my permission !#//

[herherteartear]

blanket kick

précis— Peter's not the suave man he would hope to be in front of his crush. instead, he's a blushing mess that haunts his memories and causes him to take out his frustrations on his blanket. luckily, you prefer cherry cheeks over smooth lines any day.

pairing— Peter Parker x enhanced!maximoff!reader

a/n— this is my first standalone written story and my first time writing for marvel! i hope you guys enjoy thisss<3 i'm also open to creating drabbles to continue this if anyone's interested????! pls enjoy and pls comment and let me know ur thoughts!!!

there are many ways to describe Peter Parker, but none could ever wholly capture the true essence of the boy

besides the obvious stuff,, his intelligence , his insanely good looks , his teenage awkwardness,,

it was a hard feat to string along words to describe the way he carries himself , the way he is with others , the way his heart loves with the same ability a sponge soaks up water and soap

Peter's had crushes before

perhaps more than he'd like to admit

(can't blame the boy, who gave Ty Lee the right be that cute!?)

but when he sees her, his heart begins to swell and suddenly, he forgets how to breathe..

or how to think... talk. y'know normal human stuff

in all honesty, Peter has tried his absolute hardest to block out their first meeting from his memories

he doesn't regret meeting her, of course not! never would he even repent that embarrassingly wonderful day

he only wishes it would've gone a little differently

let's set the scene, shall we?

the sun was shining brightly, the sky was a Carolina blue, the clouds were the prettiest porcelain color, rimmed with lace

Peter was riding in an awfully silent car that Happy was driving to the airport. despite being terrified of what's to come,, the fight Mr. Stark had recruited him for,, the boy was thoroughly enjoying this adventure.

the car came to a stop, which did little for Peter's nerves. he gathered his courage before stepping out, eyes squinting at the brightness of the yellow sun. once his eyes adjusted, they landed on the prettiest head of hair he had ever seen

(although he did think the same for Hermione Granger)

Peter had never been on a plane before that day. but even then, his sparkling eyes stayed trained on her,, completely ignoring the brilliant private jet behind her

"oh? Happy, i thought it was just us?" her voice made Peter's ears burn. he swallowed thickly. you blinked at Peter, curious but also intrigued , you smiled.

to which Peter choked. on air. your eyebrows furrowed in worry.

"a-are you okay?"

"god, kid, get ahold of yourself."

"i-i'm okay! it's– i'm– i'm fine!" Peter quickly stuttered out.

"well, Yn, this is– uh,, what's your name again?" Happy turned towards the boy who's cheeks were now redder than a firetruck.

"oh! i'm Peter– Peter Parker. it's nice to meet you- not that i don't know you. well i don't, y'know not personally. but like from the news.. not that i believe the news! they're awful to you, but i mean i guess i do sometimes– but never about what they say about you–"

"i'm Yn Maximoff. it's nice to meet you too, Peter." you cut him off before Happy strangled the cute boy. you had an amused smile

he was cute

finally getting on the plane, Peter had hoped he would be able to sit far away from you and wallow in his embarrassment,

maybe sneak a glance or two.. imagine a couple of scenarios where he wasn't a doofus,

but that's not quite what happened.

after witnessing just how much the new kids was able to ramble,, Happy was not about to spend a whole ass plane ride remotely close to him

so he took it upon himself to make the kiddies sit together.. much to Peter's dismay.

like!!? did Happy not see how Peter crashed and burned in font of you?!

you, on the other hand,, had the opposite reaction.

being the youngest avenger, you don't get to be around people your age too much,, which isn't something you're complaining about!!

you totally made the decision to be an avenger and you happily welcomed the consequences..

that didn't mean you didn't get lonely at times. especially now with the accords and the team breaking up., things got a whole lot more lonely

your sister, Wanda, had made her choice to leave the compound. you completely understood why, but a part of you had hoped she would've taken you with her

although, staying at the compound did ensure your safety.

it was a weird time for the avenger's , it felt wrong for you to say some of your teammates were criminals

it left a sour taste in your mouth

you glanced from the window seat to see Peter nervously wringing his fingers. you frowned.

"are you okay?" you asked, gently. Peter's eyes widened and his heart jumped to his throat. he wanted to say something, something cool or aloof, something that would make up for his ranting earlier

"i've never been on a plane before." Peter squeaked out. he dropped his shoulders, rolling his eyes at himself. that was the highest pitch he had ever heard his voice. you took in his clearly anxious posture.

"lets switch seats? maybe looking out the window will help you." you stated. before Peter could quickly shake his head, because how rude would it be of him to take your seat?, you were already stood up.

"oh god!" Peter breathed. he quickly shifted over to the seat you once occupied. he wanted to put up more of a fight, but the way you were swaying due to the turbulence, made his palms sweat in fear for your safety.

"you, like, swing from buildings and stuff, right?" you asked. he turned to you with a nod. "are you afraid of heights? or do you just not like planes?"

oh god. oh. no. you thought– you thought he was scared of being on the plane. Peter wanted to shrink in a hole and hide. you probably thought he was such a baby! that he could handle swinging from hundreds of feet in the air, but a plane is where he drew the line?

but what else is he supposed to say? 'oh, no! it's not the plane I'm scared of. it's just your beautiful smile and the way you smell like cocoa that gets me sweating'

wtf.

that was so wrong in so many ways.

"um, no, no. i'm okay, just– just a little nervous, is all." Peter tried to force out a chuckle. but it come out more like a cough. you mouth formed an 'o.'

"ohh, okay." you paused before your eyes lit up. "how about we play a game? to distract you?"

"o– okay.."

"can you talk with spiders?" Peter lifted his eyes from looking at his hands hovering above yours,; he let out a much more relaxed laugh than earlier.

you took advantage of his distraction to swiftly bring your palm from underneath his and slap the top of Peter's hand. he jumped.

"ouch!" he playfully pouted. you eyes glanced down at his lips. you giggled nervously. your hand went to hover over his, him now being the one to do the slapping. "of course i can't talk to spiders! i– i feel like i should probably be able to shape-shift into a spider in order for that to happen, y'know?"

you nodded thoughtfully. "that's true.. you didn't hear this from me, but i heard there's an Ant-Man going around." Peter looked at you with wide eyes.

"no way! that's crazy! does he like turn into an ant?" you bumped his hand with yours in order to get his attention back to the game. his hand burned at the feeling

"i don't know-" you said in a singsong tone. "it's just what's being said around the compound." you quickly slid your hands to avoid Peter's attack. he huffed.

"how are you so good at this?" he knitted his eyebrows to focus on how to attack quickly without hurting you.

"it's a game i used to play with my brother and sister." you answered. Peter finally took his chance to slap your hands, to which you squealed excitedly as you had tried to move in time. Peter and you fell into a fit of giggles.

you both leaned against your seats, still facing each other. your hands fell on top of Peter's.

the brown haired boy quickly slid his hand out from under yours, not because he didn't enjoy the contact, but because he was worried you'd feel how clammy his hands were

you frowned slightly at the loss of contact.

"a– are we really fighting your sister?" Peter wondered out loud, without a second thought.

you shifted uncomfortably. Peter quickly noticed; his heart sped up and he mentally scolded himself for being so inconsiderate.

"not because i think she's evil! i mean,, i know that's what the news says.. but they also think Spider-Man's like thirty. and i'm not thirty! its just everything's crazy right now.. with the accords., i can't even imagine how you're feeling! probably terrible.. oh, g od wait, not terrible, i'm s–"

you had been watching with an endearing look in your eye. you had come to find that you enjoy watching Peter ramble.

his eyes would become unsettled and shaky, his body would begin to become more and more animated, but his voice

gosh, his voice was something you wanted to listen to for the rest of your life

but you could tell he was getting more and more skittish. so you put him out of his misery

"terrible probably wouldn't be my go-to word, it's up there though.. at least i got to meet you." you smiled softly.

Peter's eyes ran over your soft features. night had fallen, so the windows of the plan displayed an almost picturesque display of the moon and stars. the light hue of color the moon provided painted your face in a way that clouded Peter's thoughts.

with your comment of being grateful to have met him, Peter wasn't in control of his mouth for much longer.

"so pretty." he breathed. both of you guys froze.

Peter's face quickly morphed from love-sick to mortified. you blushed violently.

deciding you didn't want Peter to fall into another rant-like apology (because if you got to listen to him talk for that long in this setting, you might just drop the 'L' word) , you said,

"let's watch a movie?"

the two of you sat, shoulder to shoulder, watching Scott Pilgrim Vs. the World, but being too hyper aware of their thighs pressed together and brushing hands to actually pay attention

upon arrival, both teenagers walked off the plane, sleep deprived , but with thumping hearts and dazed grins.

Peter threw himself on his hotel bed that night,, hiding under the covers

his thoughts replayed your interaction over and over (and over and over) in his head

the boy shoved his head, face first, into the stiff hotel pillow and let out a muffled groan

Peter flipped himself over, stared at the ceiling, before remembering his spouts of unnecessarily long explanations

he thrashed his body, kicking his poor blanket in frustration but most of all, out of embarrassment

he calmed himself down once his memories refreshed themselves over your gentle giggles and how soft your hands were

Peter fell asleep with cherry red cheeks and a blissful grin.

because despite those small mess ups, despite the futile way he beat his covers in humiliation, Peter treasures that day like no other.

[pastelninjaimagines]

B, F, K, L, X for the founder trio? 💕

 Hashirama

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

He really loves your pretty smile, and the way your eyes light up when you see something you like or when you’re talking about something you’re passionate about. He loves how happy your face gets and that endearing sparkle to your eyes. He’s just so taken by your eyes (no matter the color) bc it’s the most expressive part of you, “the gateway to your soul” as he puts it. He could stare into your eyes for hours and be the happiest man on earth. 

He truly admires your enthusiasm and your passion for life. He loves that you’re just a genuinely happy person bc you both just enjoy life’s joys with one another. 

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

He hatesss fighting with you, like it really kills him inside. He tries to do everything in his power to keep you from being angry at him, whether it’s through jokes or kind gestures. He’ll try to make whatever it is right, say extremely smooth things. Basically you can never stay mad at him for long. However when he gets angry, it’s a pretty scary thing and you know to avoid his path. Though he calms down pretty quickly. This man just hates fights with you, he wants tranquility and happiness, and for that, he’s pretty accommodating. 

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

The god of kissing. Like my god his lips make you swoon like nothing else. He takes your breath away, literally. His lips are incredibly soft too, so it’s incredibly enjoyable and comfortable. He can literally kiss you for hours. Pls kiss this man’s ears, it’ll drive him literally insane and ravage you with even more kisses. Super big on kissing the palms of your hands. Honestly, just loves kissing you anywhere and everywhere. Completely unabashed kissing you in public too. 

You and him were having a rock skipping competition. And the bet was whoever could skip the rocks farther got to request one thing of the other. Hashirama won (ofc) and he turned to you, an uncharacteristically smug expression on his face, and gestured for you to come closer. He leaned down to whisper in your ear, “As the victor, I have one request.” He placed a finger under your chin and tilted your lips towards his. It only lasted a few moments, but he was grinning from ear to ear when your lips parted. 

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

Incredibly nonchalant about it. You felt a bit blindsided by his confession only bc he’s flirtatious and kind to everyone, not just you. So you never expected to be the object of Hashirama’s affection. Of course you’d fantasized about the man, bc who wouldn’t? But you never imagined that he felt this way about you. You occasionally accompanied him on walks he likes to take to decompress and emerge himself in nature, when he threw his arm around you and said, “You know, I haven’t been able to get you out of my head for a long time. You mesmerize me, y/n.” This accompanied by the wink he gives you just obliterates you on the spot. You’re just a gushy mess as he asks you to be his. 

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

The king of cuddles. Like you can’t pry this man off you. He’s always touching you in some way whether you’re in public or in private, his hands are always on you. When you’re in public it’s normally his arm around your waste or he’s holding your hand. In private he’s all over you. He loves nuzzling his head to your neck, loves burying his nose in your hair. loves picking you up in a big hug and swinging you around. He lovessss nose kisses, forehead kisses. All kisses are good kisses. Shower him in kisses, he’ll shower you in kisses. It’s a never-ending affection train with Hashi. 

Tobirama 

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

Already answered here

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

He’s incredibly cold when he fights. Will give you the silent treatment. And he’s good at it too. won’t talk at all. Not even pleasantries. If he’s not talking to you he means it. It has to be a serious fight to get to that point too and that means you’re both on complete opposite spectrums of things or one of you majority messes up. Sometimes giving you the silent treatment is Tobi’s way of punishing himself if the fight is bc of him and he knows it. 

Your more petty fights, he’ll have a very sharp tongue and be very cold and logical. Not much rage or emotion goes into his arguments with you. And if you get emotional, he’ll walk away telling you to come around when you’ve stopped having a childish tantrum. He’s not dealing with you crying or yelling, he’ll tell you to take it up with someone else. Develop thick skin to deal with arguing with him bc it’s not pretty. He will apologize if he really hurts your feelings undeservedly, but it’s just a simple sorry without much fanfare. 

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

He gets good after a while into the relationship. At first he’s incredibly hesitant with his kisses, but after a while, he learns exactly what works and what doesn’t. He’s a little cold, preferring little pecks here and there. But when he actually deems to make out with you it does drive you wild bc he’s very skilled with that tongue. 

Your first kiss was late at night. You were helping him with his research, pouring over scrolls. You moved to show him something when he put his hand on yours. He silenced your words with his lips, just a simple peck, fleeting, but when he pulled his lips away, he had a little smile and said, “You don’t know how long I’d been waiting to do that.” And then he gets back to work like nothing happened while you’re at a loss for words. 

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

Tobirama never truly confesses per say. He kind of just assumes that you understand his feelings for him in the beginning of your relationship. He treats you completely differently than everyone else and it’s very obvious. He’s softer around you, concerned after your health, your well being. He looks after you, is more lenient with you. And of course, the way he looks at you, the way he smiles often in your presence. It’s incredibly obvious that he has feelings for you. Him confessing is him getting more physically intimate with you. His hugs, when he kisses you. It’s just something that’s understood. You’re the only person he’s doing those things with you. Months after you’re actually in a relationship you’ll be like, “Are we officially together, or…?” He’ll give you a scathing look and say, “You’re kidding, right?” You have to laugh bc you knew that was exactly what he’d say. 

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

Already answered here 

Madara 

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

So he’s a sucker for your lips. He loves the little flush of pink they have, and how they’re always parted when you’re absorbed in whatever he’s saying. He loves how plush and soft they are, and how pretty you look when you say his name. 

He admires the fact that you actually put up with him and how patient you are. You have the patients of a saint. You take your time with him, listen to his endless rants with a sympathetic ear. You understand him. At times it feels like you’re the only one who can. And he loves you and admires you for it. To Madara he sees things as that it’s you and him versus the world and he loves you for it. 

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

Fighting with Madara is like the unstoppable force meets an immovable object meme. He is stubborn. He will not admit when he’s wrong. And he will outlast you. He refuses to speak with you no matter how long it takes for you to either apologize or admit that you were wrong bc he certainly won’t. And if you try to argue your case he will get nasty. He’ll twist your words, say harsh things, he’s not above fighting dirty. Unfortunately when either of you are mad about something, it’s easier for you to just yes him to death bc he won’t quit until he feels like he’s completely in the right. And Madara’s petty as hell, so watch him get mad over stupid shit that means nothing and have you explain yourself to him bc he misinterpreted an offhand comment of yours that he hella took offense to. He just gets upset sometimes and you can’t figure it out, his ego’s kind of fragile when it comes to you. So you’ve gotta placate him a lot. Arguing is never good, avoid it when possible, bc while he will apologize if he realizes he’s said something that’s taking it really too far, he is brutal and will tear you down to win an argument. 

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

Yessss he’s amazing. He’s a little aggressive. Loves to bite your lip and the dominant one with how you’re kissing. He’s always gotta be in charge and leading your little dance. Also kissing you down your neck is his favorite thing ever, giving little bites here and there just to hear you gasp. It drives him crazzzyyy. 

Your first kiss was after a battle. He found you and in the heat of the moment grabbed hold of you without saying a word, still on an adrenaline high, and kissed you hard on the lips. You were too frazzled to process, but he noticed how you kissed him back. He apologized afterwards for being so abrupt, but it came off as such an offhand comment that you knew he fully meant it.

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

Oof him confessing is a little awkward. He wants to get you alone so he takes the pressure off himself having a potential audience. So that might take some doing. He’s busy, your busy, he also doesn’t wanna blow his intentions right off the bat. So he’ll make some really shitty excuse to get you alone like “I need some help with something. Come over later tonight.” Super cryptic. Won’t give you any further information no matter how much you pester.  

But once he gets you alone, he’ll come right out with it. No fanfare just say, “For a long time I’ve had feelings for you. I hope you feel the same.”

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

Madara is only affection when he wants to be. He’s very much like a cat. When he wants attention he’ll be all up in your space, but if he doesn’t want it, he’ll be a prickly and tell you to leave him alone. And you better leave him alone or you’ll receive a death glare you wish you hadn’t. 

He’ll really only be lovey dovey in private. He’ll want you on his lap to give you little kisses and hold you close when you’re all alone, preferably in your home. One of his favorite things is to rest his chin on top of your head while he’s holding you. He also loves when you play with his hair while cuddling. Like yes please fix his tangled mess of hair bc he sure as hell won’t

[bowl-of-shortness]

*Sending this anonymously since I'm not out* (please don't try to out me, I will cry. If you think you might know who I am, pls don't ask if you're right. I have anxiety and I'm scared to share this as is)

So what you said about being asexual and demiromantic and not feeling like you can contribute to conversations, I FELT that.

I feel like the only way to join conversations about attractive people is by lying. I feel so guilty because I have never figured out what else to do. They all just look like people?

I've literally created a checklist in my head of society's standards because I have no idea what else to judge on. Calling everyone beautiful feels so fake but to me they just... are. People are only "ugly" to me when they're mean. Like to me, beauty is based on personality and I dont understand how other people do it. How can you rate a face without a story? (Like I can only do that when I assume things about people's lives based on their looks??? And it's normally wrong assumptions because "don't judge people based off looks alone" is correct??? Yet people just... do this? Like "they're hot" but isn't that what you're not supposed to do, like???)

I recently came out to my best friends as ace, and even then, they still bring it up every time they're rating people or talking attractive characters, as in the "we know you have no opinion or whatever" and I hate it. Like now that they know I'm ace, it feels like they're actively pushing me out of conversations or want to see what an ace rates them as. (They wouldn't if I asked, but it's kinda fun to participate, I feel more normal. Even if I am just lying) I feel a bit uncomfortable rating people because they think it's based of asthetics but to me I'm just making up numbers. (Its less lying now that they know I'm not sexually attracted to people, but it still hurts. It's nice that they recognize I don't relate and I'm not banning a conversation topic, it just hurts and I'll just take it silently instead of making a fuss. I guess this is just what I was just born to endure, huh.)

Literally, people used to ask me if my ex (SO at the time) was cute or whatever and I always said yes. I was making it up because ya know, I didn't feel that way. I had NO sexual attraction to them but I sold that lie to be normal. I finally came to terms with the fact that I am asexual recently, almost a year to the date I broke up with the only SO I ever forced myself to have. (That tale is a tragedy and I have massive amounts of guilt for the lies I told them to sell that I was a normal hetero cis person. I did so much wrong by them and I hope someday I can forgive myself for it.)

I thought I was bi when I first let myself belive I'm not a normal straight because I felt the same level of attraction across the gender spectrum. (I accepted how I felt about the person of the opposite gender was a crush and then realized I felt the same way about someone of the same gender. That was a crisis) Zero equals zero, wasn't really lying.

Anyway, all that to say that:

You are valid and realateable AF. Conversations about attraction is so uncomfortable and isolating and I'm so thankful you're brave enough to bring it up

I'm also really trying to figure out if I'm panromantic, or demiromantic, or whatever and I'm unsure what to do. Why can't there just be an accurate uquiz.... :(

Like, I think I may be demi something because I have literally only ever had "crushes" on my best friends. I'm not 100% sure what a crush is, but I'm assuming that when I tell myself "don't think of your friends like that, that's wierd" that I'm just mad at myself for acquiring a crush on my bestie.

I have no one to talk to about this because they are firm believers in not dating friends (both have been burned) and I am terrified they'll find out that I can't imagine a relationship with anyone other than a best friend. Like what do I do? I'm so tired fam. I don't think they will be mad if I tell them I'm demi romantic (I'm currently going with panromantic since that just seems easier) and I'm scared they'll find out I realized my sexuality through crushed I had on them, since they're opposite genders and I've had the same "crush" on both of them.

Only wanting romance with friends is so hard because to most people, friends aren't for dating but for talking about potential dates and I hate it.

It's nice to know that I'm following a fellow ace person who gets the romantic struggle. I think you're an icon, and I'm glad that you're in a place where you can be out.

I know we're not close or anything, but I'm really happy to know that there's someone else out there who I can relate to when I can't say a word anywhere else. I hate keeping up the charade, but I'm not in the kind of place where I can drop it. If you're interested in my situation and why I'm forever closeted, I've got quite the tale. but I've ranted enough here. (I won't force my life story on you, I know you want a positive blog and this ramble isn't very positive. I can shut up and vanish if you never want to hear from me again)

Thanks for having your anons on <3

I wish I could dm you and just chat (if you were even interested) but I can't (IRL people know my Tumblr and I dont want to make a new one unless it's necessary.) If there's anything you wanna chat about, I hope I stumble across it on my dash. I hope its okay if I hide behind anon asks.

Thanks for representing people like me. Sorry for the ramble, I guess I needed to get more off my mind than I realized. Thanks for being a safe space to vibe for a while. It's nice to be around other, perfectly valid people like me. I look up to you in a sense ♡

(But seriously, if this is too much drama and you don't want me to do this again, you don't even need to post this I won't bother you again without your consent)

I- wow.

That’s really all I can say.

I’m very glad that you feel just as recognized here as an asexual as you should be. And I know what every single one of these struggles is like. Personally, I never Liked to force things onto myself which has been Both a blessing and a curse.

It’s great because I don’t have to deal with a relationship but over time people stop wanting to be around you for it. But eventually, I found a friend group who respected what I did and didn’t want to talk about. And unfortunately even though some people may be nice and friendly to you, that doesn’t mean that you and that person are going to click.

I think you might want to start being more open about not wanting to talk about these things when you’re around them, and if that’s scary and difficult, start small. I get it. But the more you stay quiet and the more morning is going to change.

So yea, I don’t mind the ask! I guess I didn’t even realize that me just openly existing as Aspec was a huge thing to a lot of people, so I’m glad I could help, I hope everything gets better for you anon. Have a lovely day/afternoon/evening 💖💖💖

[eduardoandale]

42 pls

OMGG thank you @anellope you’re my first ever ask!

I had so much fun writing this, hopefully you like it :D

Word Length:1583 

42: The Big Damn Kiss from this list

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Richie Tozier, his childhood best friend and crush, was absolutely the last person he expected to see at his boss’s new years eve party. Eddie would have thought after almost ten years of no contact, his feelings for the Trashmouth would have gone away. But no, the mere sight of his lanky frame and curly black hair made his heart sprint uncontrollably.  

He was undoubtedly Richie Tozier, but he looked different, more Hollywood, Eddie supposed. His crooked, buck teeth had been fixed, and his coke-bottle glasses were gone, instead replaced by a trendier pair, that attractively framed his face. His shirts no longer encompassed his thin frame, and his pants actually reached his ankles. In fact, he looked like a well-dressed mannequin from a high fashion urban department store.

In comparison, Eddie hadn’t really changed much. Yeah, he finished his business degree, managed to drop all contact with his mother and had a well-paying job driving around celebrities for Patrick. But, he still wore the same pastel polo shirts, and had the same haircut he had since he was 13 and never quite felt at home in the big city. 

Throughout the night, he talked to his co-workers, finished a few glasses of champagne and tried his best not to stare at Richie openly. 

He definitely wasn’t the only one, almost everyone else at the party would sneak glances at the semi-famous comedian. People were practically lining up to get a chance to speak to him. 

It was almost midnight when Eddie sneaked off one more glance at the dark-haired man when Richie turned his head and looked straight at him before Eddie looked away immediately. It was one thing to know Richie was in the same room; it was certainly something else to have Richie’s attention, even if it was for a brief second. 

A flood of childhood memories hit him with a massive force leaving Eddie nauseous at the sudden impact. He excused himself from the conversation and made his way over to the balcony to get some air and calm himself down. 

Eddie leaned against the balcony railing and enjoyed the beautiful view of LA night sky. There weren’t any stars in the sky at least nothing that could be seen with all the light pollution from the city. As much as he hated Derry, he sometimes missed its simplicity; he missed the memories, the dreams of escaping. He missed the stars that would splatter across the night sky. 

The balcony door opened suddenly, and Richie Tozier was on the other side of the balcony about to light a cigarette. 

“Those things give you cancer, you know?” Eddie said his voice slightly quivered at the end; hopefully, Richie would blame that on the cold air rather than his nervousness. 

“Really?” Richie said, taking the cigarette out of his mouth. “Well, a wise old man once told me the reason there is so much cancer in the world is that no matter how much you shake off your wiener, the last two drops always end up in your pants.”

“Beep Beep Richie, that was never funny.” 

“Eds! My love, I knew it was you, how have you been? How has life been treating you?” Richie said as he crossed balcony to where Eddie was standing. 

“I’m good Richie,” 

“Bullshit, tell me more, it’s been so long since I’ve heard from you Eds.” 

“Don’t call me Eds,” Eddie retorted immediately, “but um… I work currently work for Patrick, but you probably knew that. I’m starting my own business, and my loan got accepted so uh we’ll see where we go.” 

“That’s amazing, how’s your mother, has she been asking for me? I knew the nights we had were probably the best I’ve ever had.”

“I uh, I don’t really keep in contact with her anymore, not since I found out since she’s been feeding me sugar pills for instead of all the medication was fake, I didn’t even have asthma.” 

“Oh Eddie, I’m so sorry, sometimes my mouth runs so much faster than my mind can think. I don’t even know how I hid my gigantic crush on y-.” Richie suddenly cut himself off, his cheeks pinkened with embarrassment.

“You had a crush on me?” Eddie asked softly.

“I uh, yeah.” Richie looked 

“So did I.” 

“I knew you couldn’t get enough of all of this,” Richie said, pointing towards his slender form, eliciting a soft giggle from Eddie. 

“Sure, but I never thought you had any feelings for me.” 

“Really? Not even with my regular visits to Nurse Kaspbrak?”

“Wait. What?”

“Come on, I know I was clumsy, but did you really believe all my injuries were from tripping over my own two feet?” 

“You moved like a new-born baby giraffe, and you never tied your shoelaces, it was a believable lie.”

“Ohh and the constant muscle pain, Eddie my back hurts,”  

‘To be fair, you had the worst posture,” 

“Yeah, yeah you would give me an endless rant about how I will get scoliosis if I don’t sit up straight, which I still don’t believe, by the way. But you’ll still give me a massage.”

Normally, he would have been embarrassed by being called out but seeing his old friend gave him a sense of confidence that he hadn’t felt for a long time. “I guess I took whatever excuse to touch you,” Eddie said slightly slyly.

 Richie looked almost taken aback by Eddie’s sudden confession. His face went through a range of emotions before softening. 

“We were such idiots back then,” Richie said, looking at Eddie through his long eyelashes. 

“We really were.” 

They fell into a comfortable silence as they looked over the balcony. Eddie was painfully aware of the contrast between the chilly breeze and the warmth radiating from the other man. 

“Are you um, are you seeing someone?” Richie asked, finally breaking the silence. He looked almost blase, but Eddie noticed him fiddling ever so slightly with his jacket, something that he did whenever he was preparing himself to be disappointed.

Eddie’s love life was never that interesting, he had dated around, even tried his hand at a relationship a handful of times, but they’ve never worked out in the end.  

“No, not currently, are you?” 

“Not right now.”

“How’s it like being famous?” Eddie asked, trying to release the slightly uncomfortable silent tension that was starting to form. 

“Honestly, it’s really fucking lonely.” Richie laughed darkly, his smile not reaching his eyes.  

Eddie could see it now, the man and the mask. Two separate entities that to the untrained eye were near indistinguishable, but Eddie’s known Richie since he was a child, and he could finally see through the facade. 

When he was younger, he saw Richie as an unpredictable enigma, that would never fail to surprise Eddie. But soon enough Eddie came to realise that he was just a guarded individual that had just as many insecurities as the rest of the losers. 

Without his larger than life persona, Richie looked like the lost child that Eddie had found once tapping his glass window in the middle of the night. Who came through the window and without explanation, would get Eddie to sit on the window sill together looking at the Derry night sky until they were both tired. The boy who would lie on the right side of Eddie’s bed breathing erratically, until Eddie held out his hand.  

They never talked about it, but from then on Eddie left his window unlocked, and he never questioned Richie whenever he woke Eddie up in the middle of the night, to sit silently at the window sill. 

As they say, old habits die hard, and without thinking, Eddie grabbed Richie’s hand and squeezed it. Richie breath hitched as he looked from his own hand to Eddie and smiled, his eyes sparkling with joy and raw adoration. 

Eddie didn’t even realise how close they had gotten until he could feel Richie’s warm breath on his cold skin. From this distance, he could make out the constellation of freckles on Richie’s face. They were scattered all around his face, some darker than the others, but they were near infinite. One night, when he couldn’t sleep, Eddie had tried to count how many he had before, he couldn’t remember what number he was up to before he had fallen asleep from pure exhaustion. 

“I missed you Eds,” Richie finally said, leaning his forehead against Eddie’s.  

“Don’t call me Eds, you know that I-,” At the stroke of 12, Richie crashed his lips onto Eddie’s silencing him before he finished the sentence. The world exploded into colour, as Eddie tasted Richie’s slightly chapped lip. Richie tasted as sweet as chocolate, as bitter as wine but his lips were addictive as nicotine. All his senses were overwhelmed, as Eddie pulled Richie’s jacket closer, their bodies flushed against one another. The fireworks escaped coloured the dark night sky as Richie put his arms around Eddie’s waist deepening the kiss. It was everything, and nothing like Eddie had imagined, but it was perfect. 

“Happy New Year,” Richie said, pulling away slightly.

“Trashmouth that better not have been a one-time thing,”

“I’m not letting you get away this time, Eds.” 

“For the millionth time, I hate it when you call me that,” 

“No, you don’t,” Richie smiled adoringly. 

“No I don’t,” Eddie said softly leaning in again, this time for a softer kiss. In Richie’s embrace, he finally felt like he was home.     

[dear--charlie]

Dear Charlie,

It’s been awhile, right? I’ve decided to write you weekly letters, don’t know exactly why, but I really love your existence and knowing you’re here makes me feel better. I guess that’s why I’ve decide to do that.I don’t recall the last time I wrote you, I guess it was in the beginning of January. So let me apologize in advance for the long ass letter you’re about to get.

Today is Feb 22, the year has barely begun, I know. But Charlie, so many things already happened to me, and the best part of it? I’m actually okay ever since 2019 came around.

I’ve already told you Christmas is always a hard holiday for me, I don’t like it at all. Unfortunately it’s not only Christmas, this bad feeling lasts till february. So as soon as 2019 started, I was already expecting it to suck for the next couple month, but you know what? It didn’t. I hate the best New Year’s eve EVER. Me and my friends (15 of us) traveled to one of our friend’s house for three days and let me tell you, Charlie, ít was amazing, I really did had the time of my life. We got really drunk a few times, played smash, danced in the rain, cooked a lot of weird food and etc. I entered in 2019 on a great mood.

On the first week after New Year S came back to disturb my life. You remember her, right? The girl who broke my heart. She said she loved me very much and was thankful for me, cause I really did a lot for her and helped her through some thought moments of her life which is why she should have treated me better and a bunch of other shit. It made me mad, Charlie. It upset me how she could come back to the same “i’m sorry i love you” when I had said how much it hurt me, so the only thing I said was “pls don’t”. S obviously didn’t understand - like always - and started saying how amazing I was, how beautiful of a person I could be, that I deserved all the love in the world and bla bla bla. Honestly? I don’t believe in one single word that comes out of her mouth. Not after what she did to me, not after playing with my feeling like she did. I don’t know about you, Charlie, but I have a rant acc on twitter just to get things out of my chest and only 7 people know this acc. S was still one of them back in january. After the things she told me I tweeted “i’ve never wished this much to not know how to read like i’m wishing right now”. Oh boy, why did i ever do this. She started subtweeting me like a 12 yo child does, and i absolutely hate people that throw shade instead of talking there problems out, so I did what any decent mature person would do, I told her if she had something to say, she should say it to me, not subtweet me.

Whenever I’m too overwhelmed I can’t help but switch from english to my mother language so i started tweeting in my first language about mYSELF and clearly she had to make it about herself, distort everything - she was stupid enough to use google translate - and make herself the victim like she always does. The thing is, Charlie, that I no longer liked her, I still loved her, don’t get me wrong, but i didn’t liked her anymore. She was bad for me, she was one of the most toxic things in my life AND I KNEW IT, so I didn’t fall for her charms again, I didn’t feel bad for what I said. And you know what? She managed to try to make people believe our friend had turned me against her - she was being a bitch with this friend and even if I never take sides, this time I took our friends because S really did fucked up - and all my posts were about her. Once again the Cinderella complex strikes and she made the whole situation about herself. Well, to finish the telenovela, she blocked me. I don’t know why but the instant right after S blocked me I felt the weight of the whole world get off of my shoulders. I didn’t cry, didn’t feel any kind of sadness. Nothing. Just relief. That’s when I realized I needed to get her out of my life in every single way, so I shut her down, deleted her from every social media, deleted her number and moved on. You can never imagine how happy and relieved I felt, Charlie. I have no idea what’s going on with her life now and I hope I don’t get to cross paths with her ever again. I’m happy without her.

A few weeks after the drama with S, I realized that I was looking forward to celebrate my birthday. Do you understand that, Charlie? The first time I was excited for my birthday ever since my mom passed. I was literally making a countdown for Feb 12. I had hated my birthday for 4 years, Charlie. It was a time of the year where I would shut myself in my room and endlessly cry cause my mom wasn’t there and three days after that day it would be her death anniversary. Yes, my mom passed away three day after my birthday. I spent that birthday cleaning her vomit and helping her taking one of her lasts showers. You can imagine why I hated this date so much. So I also think you can understand a bit why it meant so much to me to finally feel okay to celebrate it. Charlie, my boy, it was the best week of the year. I went out four times with my friends, got a lot of free food and booze, the most horrible cake ever - i loved it tho -, a ridiculous birthday card with a BTS edit (yeah i do like kpop fuck it)  where they were at a birthday party with me and tons of baby alive dolls - it was so fucking creepy but i also love it -, got the news that I was traveling to go to my two favorite bands concert (The Maine and BTS), had my therapist tell me I was looking bright and happy for the first time in years and some other things. My birthday’s week was truly amazing, I didn’t even cry on my mom’s death anniversary, I was happy on that day.

I don’t exactly remember when this happened, but my uncle came out to me. I’ve always knew he was gay because he came out to my mom in 2012 (the only person that knew in our family)  and she told me about it, but I never asked him cause I knew he would do it when he felt comfortable enough. I took the chance and came out to him as well, which was funny since he was zero surprised like every single one of my friends. He also told me he started doing drag!!! I got so excited when he showed me his pictures in drag and boy, listen, my uncle’s drag is fucking gorgeous. I told him about RuPaul’s Drag Race and we spent that day watching it together. We bounded so much more after this day, Charlie. He made sure to let me know I wasn’t alone, I wasn’t supposed to fight through life by myself cause he was there for me and would always be there. I love him for being my only family that makes me feel safe and loved.

Well, Charlie, that was a bit of what happened after my last letter to you. I’m sorry for the giant letter and the typos, but I wanted to let you know that I’m finally okay. Life has been pretty good to me, I’ve been surrounded by people I love and love me back and I think that’s good enough for now. I hope 2019 be good to you just like it’s being to me. I’m extremely grateful for your life, Charlie. Thank you for always listening.

Love Always,

Bia.

[cananybodysea]

omg pls some headcanons for dating the awkward tree boy

me? writing about evan?? again??? ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿

[If you sent in headcanon requests they may take a bit of time to complete cause i’m going back to the start of my inbox and answering headcanon requests from a while back up until the most recent! Hang in there i promise i will post your headcanons!!]

Ok, here we go kiddos.

Evan is so sweet. and soft. and he believes that being with you makes him a better person in every way. You make him feel so happy and you make him feel beautiful and valued and you listen to him and he feels like he can trust you with everything. He does everything in his power to make you happy.

His favourite place to have date nights with you is on the beach?? or at the orchard or the park or something. He prefers to go to the beach at night time when it’s very quiet and the sun is setting and you can sit on the sand and not care about anybody seeing you because the place is so empty! He likes sitting in the sand with you and smooching you and maybe y'all go get ice cream (even tho it’s almost nighttime) and you take your shoes and socks off and go dip your feet into the water. it usually ends in splashing each other and laughing and giggling and evan is so so happy when he gets to spend time with u like this. Also, when u go to the beach - he loves to find nice shells and take them home because he wants to collect them!! idk why,,, he just thinks they’re very pretty.

Whenever u go to the orchard or the park or something like that,, you n him will walk for a while, holding hands and he’ll point out all the ‘coolest trees’ and tell you stuff about them !! and it’s the cutest thing ever !! he really will just rant about how good trees are and how their leaves are all different and stuff like that. You and him sit on the grass for a while and just lie next to eachother and maybe play that game where you say what the clouds are shaped like ?? idk what it’s called - but evan loves it.

He has an Instagram - but before you started dating him he only had two photos on it. One of him and his mom and another of him getting his cast put on. After you start dating, he uploads a lot more. Not just pictures of you etc but he uploads photos of trees, of his mom, of himself! He’ll also upload videos or boomerangs of him walking through forests or whatever,,, and of course there are lots of photos of him holding your hand, or of you kissing his cheek, or just pictures of you that he captions ‘😇❤️’ He starts uploading a lot more because he learns how to use it properly from you and he feels a lot happier and does a lot more things after u start dating so he is able to upload more pictures if that makes sense.

Heidi adores you. I mean adores you. She has your phone number !! And she’ll text to sometimes saying ’Just made spaghetti! Feel free to come over for dinner if you’d like!! :-) ’ oh my god she’s so cute. Also, there’s times where Evan will come back from Jared’s or something and you’ll be standing in his kitchen baking cookies with heidi before she goes to work and he’s like ??? ok ??

ok so,, i feel like evan has a little scrapbook or something. Heidi bought him a polaroid camera for his last birthday and he found an empty scrapbook under his bed from years ago and his goal is to fill it up by the end of the year with things that make him happy. (His therapist said that this can help ease his mind and distract him if he’s feeling down)! so !! He has photos of you, photos of you and heidi, photos of him and you, photos of jared and zoe and alana and connor, photos of trees, a random cat he saw all alone in the street, he has photos of heidi making dinner, he has pictures his hand holding yours and stuff like that stuck down in this scrapbook. He looks at it whenever he’s sad or scared or having a bad night. He will always smile when he looks at his little book!!

Once when you’re doing your homework- you got a facetime call from evan and when you answered it he looked so happy and his nose was crinkling and !! he was so happy!! and he asked you if he could come over and you were like !! ok!! and when he arrived he practically tackled you onto your bed and started cuddling you immediately and you were like ?? what’s going on !!!! Turns out he was just happy that you love him as much as he loves you and he just wanted you to hold him. lmao

!!!!! u and evan always go to zoe’s jazz band concerts!!! and ur sweet boy loves it !!! he loves the music and he bounces in his seat while watching it and his little leg starts to jiggle and he sways a lil without even realising it !!! and it’s so cute because he genuinely loves this music !! he sometimes records their performances on his phone and uploads them to instagram or just watches them whenever he feels like it !! oh my god !!!!! it makes me giddy just thinking about this

i can imagine evan dancing to the music like that video of ben platt dancing with his wine glass… u know the one…. he looks so so happy… kinda like that but a bit less because he’s evan and he’s shy™

Ok you’ve probably heard me talk about this before but i will not live this headcanon down. Evan sits on your lap. He loves to just straddle you (not in a sexy way at all) he just thinks that it’s really comfortable and it makes him feel really nice and happy and he just loves to sit there.

Sometimes you’ll be in his bedroom studying, and he stands up to go get something but then he just turns around and walks over to u and kinda gives you the eyes™ and u smile at him and then he knows it’s okay to sit on ur lap. He just kinda…..slides…into your lap and shoves his head into your neck and his arms wrap around your shoulders and you pull him real close and oh my god your boy loves it. He goes bright bright red when he does it and sometimes if he’s feeling a lil tiny bit confident… he kiss ur cheek or ur neck (like one tiny smooch) !!!!!! and hnNnNnNnNg this is my favourite headcanon for him tbh.

He’s a lot more calm around u. Like of course he’s still very nervous and quiet at times because anxiety isn’t something that just goes away - but he’s able to be more relaxed around you because you make him feel so safe ?? and you’re so kind to him and you don’t rush him when he’s struggling to get the words out you just listen and you snuggle with him when he needs it and he loves you so much.

the boy can sing. he has a pOWERhoUse VoIce i mean it’s ben platt were talking about here!! Once you caught him singing,,, and he was really going for it,,,, he was singing his little heart out and he was so In The Zone he didn’t know you were there and when he saw you he was like !! oh no !! and started rambling and turned beet red and he….he was actually nearly crying he was so embarrassed but you just grabbed him by the shoulders and told him it was ok,,,, no evan i didn’t record u singing,,,, no evan i won’t tell jared,,,, no evan i didn’t think u were awful,,, evan nO

he tells u that he really enjoys singing,,, but he obviously wouldn’t do it in front of anyone,,, so he learns how to play piano and if you’re lucky….. sometimes when u go to his house he’ll play piano and sing for you. (only if u promise to not look at him)

There’s not really many nicknames tbh… it’s not a bad thing y'all have just never discussed pet names or anything… u kinda just call eachother by your names or sometimes u call evan ‘ev’! but,,, on rare occasions evan will call u babe. (only sometimes) and once you called him ‘gorgeous’ and he was. silent. he froze. and was bright red and almost crying because he loved it so much. so sometimes u say stuff like “i’ll see you later, gorgeous” and he’s. a goner. he almost whimpers and he’s like omg i love when u call me that.

he texts u every night just making sure you’re okay. and if he can’t get to sleep because his moms not home and he’s a little uncomfortable in the house by himself - you’ll come over or else he’ll facetime you and he just talks to you for a few hours and he’s constantly apologising for keeping u awake on a school night but you don’t care. he needs u and you’ll b there

i think he enjoys baking,,, him and heidi used to do it a lot but then she started working a lot more and she just doesn’t have the time for it now so he just kinda forgot about it

bUT,,,,one day he came to ur house after school and u were baking cookies cause u were rlly craving them and evan walked into ur kitchen and he smelt the cookie dough and he was like hnnnNnNnNnBbBGg,,,, yUm and he saw u standing there with flour all over ur hands and ur face and there were smudges of chocolate from the chocolate chips on ur fingers and evan was like,,,,, binch i want to bake

so he helped u with the rest of the baking and at first u were going to tell him what to do but then u realised,,,,. shit,,,,,,, he’s really good at this !! he doesn’t need ur help !! BOY !! and he was so in the zone and excited and he basically finished baking them for u tbh,,, !!

evan ends up with a little smear of chocolate on the corner of his mouth n ur like,, i wonder if i should do that cheesy thing and kiss it off for him,,

yES. he would love that

anyway, u both sit in ur bedroom munching on the cookies and smooching and watching tv and evan realised how much he missed baking so then it becomes a regular thing that u both do!!

i’ve done some kissing hcs for evan before,,, but,,, i feel like every single time after u kiss him - it doesn’t matter how long you’ve been together - he will keep his eyes shut. like after u pull away he doesn’t open his eyes for a moment because wow he needs to take it all in cause ur lips are so soft and u love him and he loves kissing u and he just needs a minute. kinda like this ??? like u see how his eyes stay closed for a sec ?? and he’s got this look on his face that’s like :-) wow i just kissed someone i love !!! that’s what he does !!!!!!!!!!! i’m scremememememe kiss him !! pls kiss him

me, sobbing, clutching my hands to my chest, holding a million tissues: *INHALES* plEA SE !! give him some eskimo kisses ??!!!!2!2!/!3&/ !! hello !! they are his favourite !!!! oh my god !! he gets this warm fuzzy feeling in his belly !! when u rub ur nose with his and he does the nose crinkle and he’s smiling and giggling and !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i’m sorry i love this boy !! can u tell

he. has. warm. fluffy. fuzzy. pjs. ! ! ! like??? he has lots of those winter pajamas that are fluffy and big and cozy and they have lil animals on them and some of them are sparkly and !!! he loves em !! also,,, in the summer when he can’t wear them he’ll wear like big tshirts and shorts,,, or else just boxers ya know ?? but he likes to wear slipper socks. cause his lil feet get cold very easily,, also he doesn’t like his feet being out in the open so he just wears them !! and u take lots of pictures of him in his cute night clothes because he’s just…. so sweet and cute and beautiful and he lets u upload them to instagram !! (u try to yell at jared every time he teases evan about it but he will never stop)

listen to me. listen good. listen close. listen hard. evan hansen. is a little spoon. always. (unless ur upset or u just want to be the little soon cause he’ll do anything for u.) it feels so nice for him when he gets to b the little soon. snuggle him and keep him safe pls.

idk if i mentioned this but uhhh… this is an au where the whole connor thing never happened and evan doesn’t lie or anything. yeet.

very much enjoys going shopping with you ?? idk dude,, he likes helping u pick out clothes and he likes to see u trying them on and everything! he thinks it’s fun to help u create outfits ,,, and he likes to shop at stationary stores because he always picks up little funky pens and weird photo frames and stuff ! and once the two of u went into a dollar store or something and it was completely empty (cause it was like 2am lol) barr like one member of staff that was busy!! so u played ‘the floor is lava’ and videoed it and out it on ur snapchat story and it to this day is the funniest thing,,. the look of fear on evans face when u say it,,, it’s so f u n n y!!

That’s another thing,,, when u or evan can’t sleep u call the other one and if they’re awake u both drive to the dollar store and pick up a few snacks and just sit somewhere quiet and eat them and talk about stuff ya feel ??

the secret to calming him down after a bad panic attack: read to him. Read him a book, or an article from a magazine, or just something that see on ur phone while runnin your hand through his hair and letting him sit on your lap and hide his face in your shoulders. (ps if the whole ‘having evan sit in ur lap’ thing makes u uncomfortable,,, then tell him and he will back off) He likes to listen to ur soft voice and the way ur talking is really nice and calming and he needs u right now to distract him from all of his thoughts etc.

also,,, he likes to doodle on ur hands with lil colourful gel pens that he found in his bedroom,,, he draws smiley faces and stars and flowers and trees all over ur hand (if u let him !!) and he giggles while he does it because he feels a lot better than he did 10 mins ago and he’s sitting there giggling with big red puffy eyes from crying :-(( and he looks so cute :-’(

at school, u two don’t like to show too much affection bc jared and connor will tease u endlessly, so he holds ur hand underneath the lunch table,, and smooches u if ur alone in the library or smth,, and its actually quite sweet?? ur relationship is v cute and private and special and :)))) u love him.

when prom finally comes around,, despite what people might think,, evan is actually excited,, because zoe’s band is going to perform !! and his friends will be there and it will be a good night. (he’s still a very very anxious bean tho). u go shopping for ur outfit with zoe and alana and connor (jared helps evan) ((so does connor)) !

so…. on the night….he’s wearing a dark navy suit, with a lil tiny yellow flower poking out of the pocket (heidi put that there) and his hair looks nice n curly,,, and he’s blushing because ?? he feels confident for once ?? he likes how he looks ?? and he can’t wait to see you ohmhykdosbaiab

u come to his house and when he sees u he like. has to stop and recollect himself because you look so unbelievably beautiful and ur here with him and ur dating him and he is so confused as to what he did to deserve it…. and he just takes a deep breath and walks towards u and gives u a big ol smooch and mumbles that he loves you against ur lips and !!! ughhhhh!!!

heidi took a picture of it happening and also took a whole load of pictures of u and evan in her driveway and posted them to facebook and wrote a nice paragraph about how happy she is that ur a part of her and evans lives and !!! eeekk !!!

the whole night was spent with ur friends and u did a little bit of dancing with your whole squad (after zoe’s band had finished performing) and after a few hours,,, u guys were like,,, hmmmm let’s go somewhere else. so you all went to a random field and sat there in your fancy prom outfits at like midnight just laughing and having a great time and it was the happiest you’d been in ages.

he loves you. so so so much. pls love him and treat him well.

send me an ask if you’d like me to do part 2 !!! i have so many more :))))

[cafephan]

dan vs phil - dumb ways to die: a summary

i squealed when i saw they did this game like it was my life at one point "DanandPhilGames beans" // "i thought you were going to say dummies" // "i wouldn't be mean to them!" // "DUMBARSES" "you're our tiny beans that need to be protected" phil your biffle is trying to impress you with a full-out performance here just humour him pls dan gives up just as phil looks at him wow savage "that song has been stuck in my head for like a billion years" relatable as ever howell "we've never done it" who needs context "it's quick and impossible to bant over" i'm sure you'll give it a good go anyway "this should be a trainwreck from start to finish" this is their new branding, it fits well don't you think "i didn't know it was dangerous to put a fork in the toaster, like, i didn't know, so my mum just walked in on me going 'i'm just going to get my toast out' she was like what are you doing" see this is why i use a knife to get my toast out of the toaster i shouldn't be allowed near appliances should i "who's your daddy is an educational game" // "it is!" listen lads we all know you ain't talking about the game you played a while back we all know your interpretation "we've got to protect these beans from death" everyone reading every hunger games/apocalyptic au ever "that's getting worse every time" dan cuts phil off how rude before the action starts i want to give honourable mention to phil's fashion sense that high neck shirt is doing a lot for him and a black shirt at that is just helping everything no wonder dan is going out of his way not to look anyway on with the non-bants "who's going to go first?" // "you." // "me? but then you can learn the secrets" // "i know" why is this entire exchange literally the most domestic thing i've ever seen they're gross dan makes eye contact with the camera whilst doing that ever so suggestive hand movement like stop looking at me i don't want to be exposed to that dan just scissored phil on camera can you believe 2017 phan "i swear you're psychic" // "yep" *raises eyebrows* someone make phil singing alien into an audio post please and thank you i want it as my alarm tone "have we cracked this ipad?" // "what the-" *both dramatic gasp* // *we've cracked our ipad..." apple are 110% gonna send them a new one by next week i guarantee "that's my ipad... did you just say our ipad?" // "i said this ipad" // *that weird voice he does sometimes* "that is my personal ipad" // "you definitely dropped it" // "probably" it was definitely phil aka mister biter of controllers and spiller of ribena onto other controllers also dan going out of his way to say they have separate possessions like... you'd give the clothes off of your back if phil ran out of toilet paper don't make out you don't share legit everything "just don't touch my body." *dan looks momentarily gloomy* "you can talk but i don't want you to wobble it" phil lester, ever the professional king of words king of adjectives wobble in an attempt to make his dejection funny dan starts to sing which just amplifies it "fed the snek" two games in and dan is already subtly accusing him of cheating the amount of times phil's let you win on this channel,,, shut up man okay phil is atrocious though "okay i'm focusing. no banting." dan sarcastically claps phil's failure honestly same like pal you were awful i love you but you sucked at least on that round "best of three!" phil begs as dan takes the ipad without acknowledging what he said "let's see what happens with dan" me in every fic ever "okay this could be the shortest dan vs phil video ever" "yours are so much easier than mine!" they really aren't philly bobs... they really aren't "straight into the ambulance, check out that accuracy" *licks his lips* okay who's keeping the list of dans kinks because we've found another one "i'm a fast tapper" "get off the wiener!" again who needs context "shaking his private parts around" the stitchy stitch song is strangely catchy "like... you've already won" // "i'm a surgeon... i'm just amazing" someone try and find a dan vs phil video on this channel where dan doesn't call himself amazing does one even exist "we'll discuss this after, see how incredible i am" i think we got an insight into 2**9 just now i'm not sorry i thought he said mexican instead of hexagon i must have his tweet on the brain "frick you, you mother fricker" "connect the fucking wires you dildo" he just went from family friendly to full on dan in the space of ten seconds such a wholesome influence in so many people's lives phil looks silently pissed *phil puts his hand in front of dan's eyes* "nope. screw you." // *phil giggles and does it again* "i didn't touch you!" "you're getting extra practice from watching me do this, i think i'm setting the highest score of all time right now" phil's face lit up when dan failed the man has no shame and i love it "that looked painful..." // "right in the nads" "fuck that train one" honestly i bet he would of given the chance "right, i'm just going to say..." *dan sighs and says his score in what i can only presume is a breathy post-org*sm voice jumpcut what was phil just going to say though #letphilspeak2k17 "so i have an idea, phil. and it's not just letting you have another go, because you had your go" // "i had my go" he still looks pissed // "we're gonna do all or nothing" // "I DIDN'T SUGGEST IT, DAN SUGGESTED IT" *dan looks over fondly* // "we're going to take it in turns every level" // "sudden death?" // "and the first person to die once, never mind the three strikes, loses." shiiiit guys it's all going down here on a thursday evening are you holding on to the edge of your seat "and no holding the ipad. i'm going first." phil just lets dan have his way all the time doesn't he what a prince "what do you mean no holding the ipad?" phil honey it's self explanatory // "as in you have to give it to the other person when the level's over" dan looks off camera and tries not to laugh but fails "are you scared??" bring the fighting talk philly bring it the preparation editing and bird sounds just makes me focus on dan's crusty ass lips like for the love of all that's holy you can get a chopstick for like under a pound "this is a very edutational game" // "edutational?" PHIL THE SAVAGE RETURNS YES WELCOME BACK MY LOVE dan carries on what he's saying without bringing attention to phil's drag "hold up the ipad though, i need to be able to get it. that's a thing." "i don't know what the story of the moose and the man was there..." phil why do you suck so much at this game i had faith in you dan the ever subtle gloater "oh my contact lens has fallen out i got so excited" dans hysterical laugh returns yes my other love as deafening as you are it's a treat for the ears "let me see!" protective bf mode activated "hold your top eyelid and look down... i think it's just come down... yes it's peeling off and it's like going backwards into your brain" okay i take back what i said before, THIS is the most domestic thing i've ever seen "you need to go to the bathroom and you need to take it off right now" protective bf dan gets stricter *phil leaves the room, thank you for that beautiful leg shot* dan's little rant about contact lenses we get it you like phil's glasses so do we but he never listens to us please convince him to wear them more "imagine waking up and not being able to see until you put glasses on... i can't relate to that, my able-sighted privilege... it's checked, and because i don't have to worry about my contact lenses drifting backwards into my brain, um, i feel quite lucky." what the fuck just happened "build a bean... aw it kind of looks like me already! that's fun! i mean, i'm kind of orange, let's go there... i'm really tall, that's a skinny one... what hair do we have?? ah we don't have any coins... i mean i have eyebrows so i don't know about you... the smile, there we go... some sick shades, i mean that's not me is it... what is the skull there?? oooh, ah that's how he dies. well there we go, that is the- the dan bean." i feel like we just went on a journey there, that was more intimate than when they created dil and customised tweety "hi. i had to take out my contact lenses, something went horrifically wrong..." HELLO GLASSES PHIL MY LONG TIME LOVE also watch dans gaze as he watches phil sit down i am convinced love is real and it resides in that flat "what just happened?" // "basically my contact lens turned itself inside out within my eye. i don't know how that happened, i think it was the stress of this game. and tilting beans. and not dying." // "dumb ways to die?? playing this app and then getting your contact lens flipped inside your eyelid and going into your brain and murdering you." *phil points to himself flamboyantly* "that is a dumb way to die!" *dan gestures to phil in a way not entirely dissimilar to will smith does on that red carpet picture you know the one* phil please pay him some attention he can't make it anymore obvious "he's wearing glasses!" yes dan, yes he is, everyone is happy, everyone has a reason to live "why will you not get laser eye surgery" i'm sure dan would pay for it himself like phil wouldn't have to spend a penny *the award sticker ceremony* "here is my flaming bean" i said the same thing when the picture of dan with the black nail polish came out "majestic!" dan howell user of fine adjectives i approve "phil, i'm just saying, mine goes from top to bottom, and it's staring to fill horizontally..." // *phil starts speaking at the same time making this incredibly hard to quote ffs* "you're just stretching it out! you're just stretching it out." i said this last time but PLEASE TAKE IT IN TURNS AND LET EACH OTHER SPEAK they actually forgot to put the dvp switch sticker on the board... okay potential rematch?? "give us a tickle on the like button" // *phil overlaps him again i stg he's doing it to stress me out* "give us a little like, subscribe if you're still alive..." "don't do any of the things that happened in this video including wearing contact lenses apparently." beanisonfire AFlattenedPhil (the closest he'll ever be to being flat stanley)

[depressedtheatregirl]

@hollywoodforeverr

who’s your celebrity crush?

probabl tom holland or 90′s leo dicaprio <3 

are you single or taken?

taken, just got my first bf!

rant. just do it

I think that abortion should be legal because as of right now the only reason it’s illegal is because stupid men keep passing idiotic laws on womens bodies. Young ladies are told to be responsible and they wont get pregnant, but that’s not always the case!!

do you think its ok to separate the artist from the art?

No, I think that the artist should always at least get a credit if thats what you mean

how many accounts do you have?

Three. This one ( @depressedtheatregirl )

this one ( @fangirl-all-the-time-bi​ )

and this one, which i almost never post on ( @cottagecore-darkacademia )

how many pairs of shoes do you have?

We’re moving, so I got rid of a lot, but mainly 7

opinion on… (specify to the person you’re asking to)

i am confusion

how many accounts do you follow?

um let me check

180 because sometimes i sit and just follow all my recommended because people want followers and i think im a pretty nice person :)

favorite brand of clothing?

Idk but i love almost anything from shein and hot topic but im not goth i just love dark academia

name a dog

kingsley

or like BB so i could just call him/her baby

what unusual talent do you have?

crying for hours on end for no reason

i have a wide vocal range

what’s the most interesting schools gossip you’ve ever heard?

Best friends since 4th grade broke up because one called the other “fat and disgusting”

School hoe (my best friend) rejects popular “bad kid” for like the fourteenth time and switches to homeschool, screw it

ever prank called a store?

yeah me and my sister used to prank call Bojangles and just say in our most valley girl voice possible “Is this that WE HAVE THE MEATS place?” “omg NO beth, thats AR-BEES”

what’s your coffee order?

Starbucks: Venti Mango Dragonfruit Refresher with extra ice (call me basic but its good)

Dunkin: Small Caramel Latte with Extra Whip

what’s a question do you constantly get asked?

are you ok?

are you and Christian ever gonna date?

what the heck are you doing?

if you had to get a tattoo right now, what would you get and where?

I would get an anchor or a cross on my wrist (we love jesus here in this household)

I kind of want to get a tattoo that says ‘FEMINIST’ on my arm 

google the top song from the year you were born

LOVE STORY BY TAYLOR SWIFT BABYYY (Also pls dont try to find out my age from this)

rant about your favorite musician

ok I love Barrett Wilbert Weed. She plays Janis in Broadway’s Mean Girls and Veronica in Broadway’s HEATHERS (My favortie musical) and she just has such a wide vocal range and strong belt, its just beautiful.

I LOVE TAYLOR SWIFT She has the same political views as i do, she’s such a boss, but she has a man too so yeah, she writes such great music, she just seems like an all around great person. Love her and my fave album is reputation.

what’s your favorite teacher you’ve ever had?

This is hard so im gonna put the top 3: NUMBER 1: My 4th grade teacher Mrs. Stone. She was super fun, she let us stand up and walk around during class if we needed to move, she read the first book of my favorite series, a series of unfortunate events, to the class, introducing me to it, and she and the 5th grade teacher had an ongoing prank war that ended up being a thing between the classes too. She moved to Scotland though. shes cool.

My 6th grade history teacher, now the principal of the school. He just made history SO fun, and he loves fanboying over harry potter with me. He’s just such a fun and hilarious person.

My 6th grade math teacher, now works at a performing arts school... teaching math. He had such a soothing monotone voice, i dont even know what was so great about him, other then he used to fanboy over harry potter with me and his voice was soothing. He was a great teacher and he loved making dad jokes and bringing his newborn to school. When he left, he wrote EVERY STUDENT IN THE SCHOOL A PERSONAL HANDWRITTEN GOODBYE NOTE. He had been there for like 10 years.

describe your blog in 3-5 words

Theater-kid-esque

swiftie 

click

kind (ig i say nice things abt random blogs on it a lot so)

what’s a conspiracy you believe in?

nothing comes to mind 

I dont believe in this, but i remember a cray alex jones theory that hillary clinton is the ringleader of a child s3x trafficking ring

if you could see any concert tonight what would you choose?

Taylor Swift Lover Stadium tour if it was still happening

if you could break one of your bad habits which would you choose?

NAIL BITING (I AM SO CLOSE)

can you dance? sing?

... can’t really dance without choreography, but I think I can sing. I love musical theater and so therfore i know most the words to a lot of broadway songs, which require a large vocal range, which i practice on a daily basis

what’s something you can’t stop buying?

various types of candy

anything organization

crowds or small groups?

depends I perform for crowds, but am uncomfortable performing for small groups. 

I love hanging out with small groups, but get anxious with large crowds.

how long before a trip do you pack?

for summer camp, literally 2 months ahead i start packing

for trips, usually a couple days, maybe a week

what celebrity would you rate a PERFECT 10?

Barrett Wilbert Weed

Taylor Swift

LIZZO

what quote or inspirational setting do you think is bs?

your limitation is only your imagination

if you had to dye your hair an unnatural color right now, what would you choose?

red or yellow

you can change one thing about your life right now. what are you changing?

I go to a bigger private school with a better campus (i know which one I want to go to but i wont say) 

how old do you get mistaken for?

14 or 15

what do you think about a lot

Christianity and sin, and interpretation of the bible. For example, i often wonder if watching porn is a sin or not? Not that Im interested in porn, cuz im not, but just is that a sin? 

do you like your hogwarts house or do you wish you were a different one?

Even before I knew I was a Ravenclaw, i thought it was the best. We stan.

what does home mean to you?

The water must not taste weird

I must know how to use the shower

I must love the inhabitants of the building. My best friends house is home. My house is home. My grandparents house is home,

what do you think you’d be arrested for?

murder or jaywalking

have you ever been called down to the principals office?

Yeah, the most recent time was I made a girl mad and I tried to apologize to her but she walked away and her two friends formed a wall around her and hurled insults to me as she cried, and i yelled “WELL IF YOU DIDNT WANT ME TO APOLOGIZE THEN YOU SHOULDNTVE CAUSED A SCENE” and i slapped her

post a picture of the outfit you would choose if you could have any outfit you wanted

i tagged you in it

describe your aesthetic

dark academia-cottagecore

basically libraries and flowers, kind of a prep feel to it, but more depressing, which boosts my serotonin

answer with one of your ‘school memes’ (inside jokes you have with your class/grade) with no explanation

OH, GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME. There’s a back!

feel free to reblog or send me some if you’d like! this took forever so reblog please!