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pepprs · 5 years

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ok not to vague or anything but :( i need advice. i just woke up (cuz someone from maintenance was knocking on my door and i didn’t even know he was coming???????) and like. ah. idk what the plan is for today. i mean i vaguely do bc we’re supposed 2 go in2 town but idk who.. im going w or if anyone is going w me and. it’s complicated but idk i don’t wanna get hurt 😞

#ive been hanging around w these 2 girls and one of them is my roommate and she has a dietary restriction 2 so we’ve stuck togethwr and all 3 #of us are english majors. but....... the two of them are both english education and im not and theyre taking all their classes together or l #like most of them and they also met each other accidentally @ the train statjon and have spent a lot more time together than i have w #either of them and basicalltwhats starting to happen is im third wheeling them. again. bc im always the wheel 🙃#so........ idk. last night i was MISERABLE and homesick and i sat in front of them on the bjs home and theyd barely talked to me at the rest #restaurant and then on the bus i heard them making plans and buying tickets and stuff.. it was a lot and they didnt talk to me and then they #disnt even realize i was there until we got back to the flats bc i got off the bus last and was trailing behind everyone and. god idk #i also dont rly feel well physically so im not sure.. theres stuff i deaperately need but i also just dont feel great mentally or physically #and im scared to ask rhem what the plan is cuz im 99% sure theyve already changd what we were gonna do and itineraried it all out and thats #not stuff that would make sense for me to do or tag along in. so idk.... idk. i wish everyone at home was awake so i could figure it out #i rhink i just need a day in my dorm or on campus where i dont go anywhere bc we’ve been running around and i feel so gross and tired #tmrrw we’re in london all day and im scared im gonna b left behind then too! see it SUCKS i was so determined to not be the one weird #outcast girl when i got here and.... 3 days in and here i am crying in my room abt it bc i cant seem to avoid that 😌✨ hate tht for me!#anyways its fine but its not. i need to go shopping for shit so badly but maybe i should just take it easy today and stay here even tho i #barely have the things i need to get by here 😔#purrs #brighton #also i know i could have talked to them... its a 2 way street. but i am so tired and less of myself right now and its so difficult

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