#like it's so so so transparent he doesn't want anyone else's love or affection what do you mean

[muppeddie]

yknow what. tommy was buck's most functional relationship to date actually. yeah it wasn't the most exciting he had ever had and they didn't click that much but tommy was not about to move to another country or scared of what it meant to date a guy who risks his life for a living, he didn't grow to resent buck because they were fundamentally incompatible, he basically said "i would have loved to move in with you down the line but I can't because /you/ don't really want to. you just don't know it yet." because buck has misconstructed the idea of a romantic partner down to the bones of "i need someone that's my girlboyfriend because everyone has a girlboyfriend and it's all im missing to be complete." except he already takes everything that a partner could give you from eddie. a home, reassurance, family, someone who understands him and cares for him, someone he calls when he's down, someone who takes him to the hospital and sits with him and tells him when he's being stupid. that's eddie. buck knows it's eddie. so everything every other love interest does for buck will simply bounce off the walls of his beautifully insane brain and he can never understand what's wrong. why did tommy leave him? he didn't ask for much. (unaware that's the exact point). he's not looking for a partner he's looking for a paper-thin placeholder. imagine what it will feel like once he realizes he can just put the right name to the man who's been there all along and call it a day.

[senka-mesecine]

Not to be terribly dark or nsfw for work here, but could you please write headcanons for cuddling with the platoon boys?

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― Even though he hangs out with Elias' squad who are generally an affectionate bunch (far more so than Barnes's side of the platoon, that's for sure), thing is, I don't think cuddling comes that easily to Chris who possibly still has a bit of a suburban, classically midcentury notion on physicality and propriety that's pretty deeply ingrained in him, regardless how much he unlearned. Sure, a casual hug, pat on the back, squeeze of shoulders between compatriots, but actually laying down and holding someone really close? Not that he sees anything wrong with it, mind you, but in a really weird sense, ironically, Taylor might be most similar to Barnes than anyone else. Not that he knows it. Not that he'd ever admit to it. Heck, he'd probably get impassioned arguing against such an accusation. It's just that he's either awkwardly rigid and somewhat flustered, needing to be led into affection rather than outright giving it or he expects the other party to initiate it and for him to be the receiver after that initial hurdle is already crossed by you. Not that he doesn't like it. Might say he doesn't at first. In fact, he might very possessive of the notion of your touch as time moves on. It's just that first step? It's always hard to cross.

― O'Neill probably has a whole rambling ass theory in place how cuddling ain't for self respecting men and that it's something he's willing to do if nagged and nagged enough (Supposedly begrudgingly, emphasis on the 'supposedly' and only as a favor for you if you're tremendously insistent about it?) rather than it ever being done to him, except, behind closed doors, his head might be in your lap within two minutes flat and everything he's publicly said turns out to be entirely bogus and for show. It's all a typically O'Neill stunt for the masses, baby. See, there's a lot of empty, hot air around the things Red says and does most often, and if he plays this irritating, overly macho role, what happens privately might be entirely different. Truth is, man actually loves cuddles and he indulges in them like a whiny puppy might. It's genuinely therapeutic for him. He could be there nervously moping and complaining about something as he run your fingers through his hair while he rests his head on your knees and chainsmokes like someone who's life depends on it. It is legitimately (secretly) one of his favorite activities.

― Bunny's a demonic cuddlemonster, truly living up to his nickname. Except, he doesn't want it ever acknowledged that he is, you see. Officially, in the most derogatory sense he deems it as 'pussy shit' activity pretty vocally, but it's pussy shit activity he actually loves and thrives off of like someone absolutely addicted, going as far as preferring to be the one being cuddled, in fact. Being the little spoon. Being the one nuzzling over to you. Being the one held. Being the one with his head on your chest. Being the one who enjoys head pats and his hair being caressed. He's clingy. He's smothering. He's possessive. He's needy. He grasps and holds you back awfully tight, to the point of the contact tending to be painful and he could do this all day, yes and often times said excessive cuddling could be a prelude to sex or getting off, but even if it doesn't always lead to that (which is...rare) for someone talking as much smack about cuddling as Bunny might one could say he loves the whole notion more than anyone in his platoon.

― Rhah adores cuddling and he isn't afraid to be vehemently upfront about it to the degree he'd be transparent and even proud regarding the subject in front of the other boys too, being convinced that any self respecting man should wanna feel up his partner, touch them, squeeze them, please them and explore the contours of their body well and often --- a belief he holds to like it's religion; in fact, just how descriptive he gets with why he's very much for the gesture itself could get so accidentally erotic and sensual one might just feel they're interrupting something merely listening to Vermucci talk about it. Sounds a little like foreplay when he describes it. He might even start demonstrating how he does it by drawing out the contours of a body in thin air with his hands so everyone would get the general notion where someone likes being touched the most, being both passionate and almost seethingly aggressive at times as he does it and in practice, he's just as ardent in with cuddles as he is when he's merely chatting about it. Fact stands, man's a bear cuddler who smothers in love.

― Much like Rhah himself, King just doesn't understand people who don't wanna cuddle their significant other literally all day long and with relish and for all the world to see; he thinks there's basically something wrong with individuals like that. Like they're missing a couple of screws or something, denying themselves some of the profoundly most unspoiled joys of life on purpose, purely to show off to someone somewhere. But, who's gonna be impressed? That's right. No one! He doesn't subscribe to that repressive crap, as he calls it. He subscribes to loving and being loved, meaning that he wants everyone to know how much he likes physical affection, he wants everyone to see and shoot, if he they can envy him some for it too while he has the back of his gleeful, overly pleased head pressed up against your chest like a soft pillow to lean on, he wouldn't at all mind that either. Not his fault he knows how to live life good and if they took a lesson out of his book, they might just live life good too, is what he thinks.

― Wolfe might be so surprised by the prospect of cuddling he initially wouldn't know what to do or think about it, part of him wanting to immediately melt into it through instinct alone ---- the affection so new and unexpected it's almost something else entirely all while another part of him is there wanting to put up a masculine front so, as he'd hope, you'd be even more impressed with him and he'd come off like a serious figurative of authority who doesn't exactly need this but still concedes for your sake (truly considerate) so as a result he might just sit there, awkwardly smiling, repressing himself deliberately, acting the man, rigidly in place while you hold unto him. The truth is, he could jump out of his skin with affirmation and joy but he's playing a bit hard to get and it's killing him in actuality on the inside but he'd rather gnaw off his own foot than show it. Thing is, Mark could be so touch and attention starved it's hard to cope with all of it. If he actually acted how he truly wanted to act without any of the masks and nonsense he'd be a dufus who'd barely keep himself from smiling as he goes in for a hug. Can't have that.

― Lazy hammock lounging, sleeping in his arms, holding him or being held by him, playing with each other's hair, getting high together and dozing off in each other's embrace, tangled feet hanging off the edge of the bed or the sofa, pillowtalking for hours and hours or perhaps just looking at each other as you hug, Elias is the king of snuggling and nestling down as a concept and he's so free and generous with it he might just do it platonically as well as romantically, what's meaning to say one doesn't necessarily have to be with him to lay up in his arms --- he's shockingly giving like that. No prejudice in sight. If it feels good mutually then it feels good, so why deny the sensation of it? For all his nimbleness and how energized and active he is on field, in action, Elias could just as easily be as lazy as a sloth when he's in the right mindset and mood, not moving out of a state of cuddling with you for a full day, if need be, eating in your arms, snacking in your arms, smoking in your arms, being fed by you or feeding you, sleeping there and only getting up if absolutely necessary. Cuddling is less so something Elias merely does, as a result --- it's more like a lifestyle to him.

― Barnes doesn't cuddle, but he tactically leaves the terrain open for you to do it to him because he actually likes it deep down, he just makes no note of ever actually saying it because he doesn't think that's a thing that should ever be said, as rigid and stern as he generally is --- he doesn't want to 'depend' on something. Doesn't want to 'need' anything --- especially not a sensation that can be taken away afterwards, rendering him weak as a result; his presence is just there and if he's standing still and the setting is mellow enough to warrant physical closeness it stands to reason he's giving you a quiet signal to do it if you want to do it. But, thing is, in order to recognize said signals you have to know him exceedingly well first and foremost. Him, his body language, his eyes, what his eyes are trying to tell you, his expressions, the most unassuming gestures, which is to be expected for all he's concerned --- he wouldn't want anyone he who he doesn't know or who doesn't know him getting so personal with him anyway. That gateway is open. You're given leave. You just gotta walk through it. Barnes quietly allowing you to be that intimate is almost an unprecedented sign of trust.

[wishing-stones]

I was rereading R&R again and something caught my eye.

If you’ve got a secret - and it’s common knowledge that you’re keeping a secret - (ex. When Baggs was brought in and everyone knew he was trading his services for SOMETHING but he was being a bit cagey about What it was that Nightmare was offering him)

…how nosey/insistent is everybody about trying to get you to spill the beans about your secret? ((Especially if you’re maybe a bit less Espooky than Baggs is lolol - I think nobody was too anxious to poke the bear regardless of their usual tendencies because the memory of him effortlessly taking down Dust was still a bit fresh and raw))

(You mentioned earlier in another ask that Dream especially loves to stick his nose in places it doesn’t belong so if possible I’d love to hear your thoughts about the Stars knowing that you’ve got a secret you’re keeping quiet about)

Let's be real, Baggs is pretty much only second to Nightmare where Ominous Spookiness is concerned if he's really going for it.

Killer is subtle about it. He tries to wheedle information out of you very casually, and he's good at it. Little bits of conversation here and there that feel so organic that you might actually tell him if you aren't hyper-aware of what you're saying. He never gets frustrated with not succeeding, either-- he's very patient, and he'll get it out of you sooner or later. Dust doesn't care overly. He has his secrets, Everyone else does, too-- as long as it isn't causing him personally any issues, he doesn't care. Whatever you have going on doesn't affect him, so he's not going to bother with trying to get it out of you-- which might get him the information, anyway, but it makes no real nevermind to him either way. Axe might try to... subtly prompt you. It's not as subtle as he'd like to think, but he's at the least respectful. He'll back off if you tell him to, but he's obviously very curious. He might frame his prodding as concern, too-- he just wants to make sure you're safe and he knows what to watch out for, or something of a similar platitude. Cross just doesn't ask. He's got his secrets, too. He doesn't pry. He doesn't like it when people try to pry his out of him, so he's disinclined to do that to anyone else, either. If you wind up telling him of your own volition, he'll guard that secret just as jealously as he guards his own. Baggs will find out, one way or another. Do not ever underestimate his pursuit of knowledge. He's very nosy and likes to know everything about everyone so he can plan his actions accordingly. Really, it's largely out of precaution, but it's also stemming from his dire need for control. If there's an unknown factor, he needs to know it as quickly as possible to make sure it isn't going to cause him trouble. Best to save yourself the trouble and tell him when he asks. Nightmare will also find out one way or another. He doesn't like secrets being kept from him, doubly so if you're in his space. He's less subtle and more straightforward, so... you'll probably want to tell him. He at least reassures that he won't go repeating what is told to him in confidence, so... whatever your secret is, it's safe with him. He gets... insistent if he's kept in the dark for too long, so... it's in your best interest to be transparent with him. Dream is incredibly nosy. It's mostly out of an inborn curiosity, but he also just likes to know as much about others as he possibly can, shockingly, for similar reasons to Baggs-- he hates not being in control of a situation, and if something might cause him trouble that he's not prepared for, he'd very much prefer to know in advance. Lack of preparation and knowledge landed him and his brother where they are today. He would be loathe to let something like that happen again from ignorance or under-preparation. Ink is nosy because he's curious. He's also decent to tell secrets to because, chances are, he'll forget whatever you told him sometime after you tell him. Unfortunately, this means he'll probably needle you into telling him multiple times. Short term memory is garbage. Blue would like it if you told him, but isn't going to pry. He knows holding secrets is important! But... if it's going to impact him in any way, he'd prefer to know. Otherwise, it's your business and not his! You're free to keep it if it's that important to you. But... he'll listen if ever you want or need him to!

[living-in-the-state-of-dreaming]

HUGE trigger warning for trauma, mental, emotional, verbal, panic and anxiety attacks and possible ptsd.

Okay...So..I would like to take a moment to explain why my writing; be it writing posted on here in terms of fanfics and headcannons or just replies to other things; has been practically non existent; because I know that's exactly what it's become; aside from small thoughts I've had and things I've reblogged and other things that aren't writing related. I would like to preface this by saying this is not a cry for sympathy; or an excuse; I know it's also my fault for letting what I am about to disclose affect me to this point; but.. Yeah I felt it was well more then time to come clean about my reasoning and be completely transparent. So... Yeah.. Hah.. Okay.. So.. For the past seven years; up until 2023 and now 2024; I have been forced to deal with horrible emotional, mental, verbal and at times physical abuse from my dad's former partner; all of which he was not able to do anything because during that time he was also dealing with mindgames from her on his end; that includes her holding my little half brother over his head. I was not able to get away from her and had no means of escape except from the brief trips to places I would go as a means to get away from her; including the times where Covid was around and I had been exposed to it; no I did not end up catching it thankfully. I would go out with my mask; even if it was just to the dairy because I wanted any means of escape from her. This included long and extended trips libraries where I would stay with my computer until it closed; internet cafes; out with my mother; my dad's friends etc; among other things that I will not go into because I don't feel it's right to share that on my blog. This is about my experience not his. The reason why I was not able to get away from her is because I had no means; and the housing market is still incredibly difficult over in my country. We only got the house we are at now from sheer luck and I am still on the benefit because of reasons I do not feel comfortable disclosing. I will however list all of the things that I was forced to deal with while under her roof; the very roof of the place that I still refer to as ' my prison ' because that's exactly what it was. It wasn't a home to me. It was a prison, a cage that I was stuck and trapped inside without any means of escape; the only hope being in the form of my friends on discord; quotev; my dad; my mother and other family friends. To keep it brief I will now list off everything that I endured at her hands. First and foremost the insults and verbal abuse. Below is every single thing that she called me; in no particular order.

Bitch

Useless bitch

Fat, ugly, bitch

Useless cunt

Fat, lazy bitch

Lazy cunt

Maggot

Faggot

Retard

Useless Tart

Ugly Tart

Cow

A fucking liar

Now I will write down the rest; again in no particular order.

Isolating me from practically everyone and forcing me to be in my room every single day from the time she was pregnant with my little half brother because ' I was being rude and antisocial ' because I was on my computer in the lounge. As well as due to me not being around her because I wanted to stay the hell away from her, any and every time she was over; which was almost every single day; at all the three houses we jumped from; the last I still refer to as my prison.

Would pretend to be nothing short of lovely, kind, happy and nice when anyone else was around and then go right back to how she was with me when it was only her and me ' home. '

Attempting to turn my dad against me dad, poison our relationship out of envy and jealousy as well my and my dad's thoughts about my own mother because she doesn't like my mother.

Verbally; mentally and emotionally degraded; insulted and shamed me every. Single. Time I would not do what she wanted while she treated me as a live in slave; including at one point practically ordering me to stay behind to do the dishes when I was leaving to go to the course I was going to; while she would sit in the lounge and watch things using the internet that I pay for myself. This would later turn to full blown screaming and yelling at me along with calling me a tart at ' the prison. ' During this whole time my dad would not be there and at work. She stopped pretending by the third house and before we moved to the house we're currently renting.

Attempted to cut off really the only emotional support that I had at the time by turning off the again my internet because ' I was talking to my friends about her. ' only to stand in my way; blocking me from getting to the Modem; and saying she would turn it back off again as soon as I went into my room.

Devaluing any of my accomplishments such as me achieving a level 3, 2 certificate in Retail; level 2 in hospitality and my NCEA at the courses I was going to because i dropped out at school because of bullying before evily grinning when I would just stare at her incredulously.

Made me doubt my sanity by constantly going ' No I didn't! ' and so on.

Emotionally manipulated me and love bombing me by acting all sweet, caring, kind and loving to me while calling me honey and etc. I also remember her; during the first few years at one point pretending I was her daughter when around some of her family so I could get a necklace from one of her family members; and interrupting me as I was about to say that I wasn't her daughter.

Has shoved me when I was trying to stand up to her and show her I wasn't going to let her walk all over me or push me around; and the second time when I shoved her for calling my mother a crackwhore. And for the first time tried to spin it on me by saying that I had shoved her while she had been holding my little half brother. She wasn't. She shoved me with both hands.

Is the reason why I lost my cat due to neglecting to tell her sister to put her dog- who has killed a cat before- on a leash; the very same cat that I got as a birthday present; who was practically my emotional support animal while dealing with her abuse.

Her responses to anytime I have confronted her on her treatment towards me or any other time I have just stood up to her; has always been ' oh get fucked ' ' whatever. ' ' oh shut up. ' and so on.

Pretended that everything was perfectly fine; while never apologizing; owning up to anything and acting as if nothing at all happened despite how horrible she would be to me.

Never taking accountability; or apologizing; denying everything; turning the blame onto me and making me seem like the villian whenever I would call her out on her bullshit and treatment of me. I would be the one always apologizing and whenever I would I would always get a cold ' whatever. ' ' mhm. '

Prevented my cat- who was at the time a kitten- from being able to settle in by constantly slamming the doors; including cupboard doors and draws; closing the doors; being genuinely horrible to her; forcing her to become an outside cat because ' cats are outside animals ' after my cat had kept her up due to her not letting her explore around the house because ' she didn't want it in the house ' much less settle in due to not slamming things. Saying ' fuck off / get out cat ' kicking at her; because she was my cat.

Accusing me of abusing my kitten because she wouldn't come out from under my bed; due to the fact that she wouldn't stop slamming things; when I looked after her own cat; including feeding it and spending time with it; in the last few years of her life; while she would neglect it; giving it small portion meals and hardly ever spending time with the kitty after my half brother was born. As well as not coming to the funeral we held for her cat.

Pointed at me and said ' do you want him to turn out like that. ' during an argument about my little half brother with my dad. As well as constantly bringing me up in arguements before.

Gaslit me.

Caused me to have a nightmare about her pinning me to the wall; in the hallway of the ' prison ' and choking me with her arm while looking me with a glare and snarl on her expression; with the intent on killing me; which caused me to wake up afraid and to look around; thinking that I was going to find her in the room I was sleeping in.

Attempting to humiliate me in front of my family during a birthday party of mine; including my friends when I had them over for a sleepover. This happened more then once. Again because I hadn't acted as I should as her live in slave.

Has 10000% stolen and sold the necklace that my mother got me for my birthday.

Blatantly lied about things she ' taught me ' to others and ' has done for me ' such as being the one who taught me about my period; to make herself seem like that good one. She didn't. My mother did.

Attempted to exclude both my older brother and me from outings with my dad and her before so it could just be ' her, dad and her older son ' this being before little dude was born.

Just been blatantly petty and passive agressive.

Gone through and caused damange to my older brothers gaming console when me, my dad and my older brother still lived together because ' she was looking for a cord. ' by slaming it down into the box on concrete.

( This and the last two have happened at the new house ) Threatened me with physical assault

Said I should be living on my own; and brought up my age. I am younger then her.

Filmed me with her phone after provoking me

Said that she would and I quote ' would do it again. ' when I confronted her about it for the final time.

Has blatantly and knowingly ignored any and all boundries she knows such as her coming inside; telling me to ' shut up ' that ' it wasn't up to you. ' when I told her to get off my property and take my younger half brother home; and still attempted to turn it around on me when I- understandably pissed- lost it on her and told her to get out and away from my house. Even going so far as to say ' go ahead call them. ' when I threatened to call the police if she didn't. This being after she said she would ' do it again. '

Above is everything I can recall; but as you all can see; I have enough here to be able to write a book on. Thankfully as of 2023 I was finally able to get the hell away from her and escape it; escape her in a house that I have made clear to my dad that I do not want her over; much less setting foot in for longer then a second. I have been on the path to heal; but thanks to the times she has come around; thankfully those are extremely scarce it has not been easy. As a result of all I have endured at her hands it has led me to develop social anxiety; having panic and anxiety attacks at times at the current house; breaking down at work in tears to my boss and having to go home from work while I was dealing with her abuse because my mental state was that horrible; being afraid to leave my room because I didn't want to be around her; having horrible stomach pains and just finding much more difficult to focus; as well as..Losing a big chunk of my passion, love and motivation to write. Which honestly hurts and makes me the angriest and honestly hate her more. Among all the other things, of course.

The fact that she robbed me of a portion of what I love to do the most. My passion and my dream the reason I even started this blog; started writing.

My mental state is slowly but surely getting better thanks to the support of my dad; my mother, family and my beloved friends on Discord and also my plushies; but...It's still hard. I still cannot hear or type her name without wanting to flinch; I still get so on edge every time I hear her voice or just see her; or just the idea of her coming around. To the point where I still lock my downstairs and front door so she can't just walk right in.

I don't like being angry; I don't like hating people; holding grudges; I never have; especially the level I have felt; the levels of pure rage that I have felt due to her; to the point where I have literally trembled and shook from it and my entire body has felt like it was buzzing from it; and the tears I've shed. Good fudge the tears I've shed because of her... A part of me still feels numb; drained, emotionless and not all there and I know it's because of it; the abuse I suffered at her hands; and I honestly can't help but wonder if that feeling is what's left of the genuine love, happiness and joy that I would come to me before I had the misfortune of having her come into my life; the part that was there before she worked to destroy all of who I was from the inside out..

I know that they'll return; I hope they will; I have people around me who love me; want me and care for me and my environment is safe; that'll remain safe; or at least I hope they'll return; but I just miss feeling whole; maybe that's a dramatic thing to say but..I do. Like I said; I don't want sympathy; this isn't a cry for comfort; I don't want an apology from her because I know I'll never get it; this is just me wanting to explain what happened to my writing and why it takes so long for me to respond.

All I do want is to feel complete and whole again. I want to feel the same passion and love for writing as I did before all of this horribleness happened; before a big portion of it was ripped away from me and torn to shreds just because it could be. It's still there of course; and I still love writing but.. I miss feeling it to the extent that I did before all of the above things happened.

I just want my love, my passion for writing back; the parts of me that were ripped from me back; I want to be able to get something out quickly and not take freaking days or weeks or months to do it; like I unfortunately do now. Because of her.

I know they'll come back; they already are thanks to the incredible support and validation from my friends and family and I'm feeling a little bit better day by day; but I know I've also dissapointed and let down a lot of people and I am truly sorry. I know in time this feeling and everything that's been caused by it will fade and I'll feel less incomplete; or at least I hope anyway; and I can feel my love for writing and motivation coming back gradually little by little; I'm on the road to healing after all; but..It's still difficult.

Once again I am very sorry to everyone who I may have and likely disappointed; be it with a request or a response to a roleplay. But..Yeah that's all I wanted to explain. I don't know if I'll delete this..But.. Yeah. Please, do not send any asks or comments on this post commenting on how my dad handled this; he's also a victim in this too because he too has suffered heartache and abuse at her hands.

So...Yeah.. That's why I haven't written anything on here. I'm sorry if this post is so long and a bit extensive but I just.. I just wanted to be as transparent as possible.

[mermaidsirennikita]

Have you caught up to succession? Tomshiv are kinda giving everything in all of their scenes esp the recent one !!

Yes I have! Another great episode. I'm borderline offended by how much people infantilize Shiv Roy. Let her be a disastrous asshole!!!!

Shiv has so many of the traits we see with problematic~ male characters (including her brothers and father). She's cold to the touch and has a hard time expressing love, she's possessive of the partner she loves while also not wanting to be openly and fully loving, she stabs her loved ones in the back, she acts quickly without thinking her moves through, she's very smart but not as smart she thinks she is (and I think a lot of that is less an intellect thing and more an experience thing--because she was never trained the way Kendall was, which isn't her fault, she's trying to skip the line as if she's spent years learning the ropes, and as unfair as it is, that's just not how it works).

But because Shiv is a woman, I think people want to assign this victimhood thing that the show explores in terms of examining the sexism she faces, while at the same time not acknowledging that Shiv is a misogynist who peddles in misogyny. Let's be fuckin' real here--it's all the wall. Shiv has no female friends we see onscreen, no deep female relationships... Her giving token "let's keep Karolina and Gerri on board" lip service doesn't count, because she'll also silence assault survivors when it suits her and teams up with a man who... whatever his relationship with Ebba actually is, it's not appropriate and Shiv KNOWS THIS. And it's no surprise, because Shiv's main female influence (her mother) is absent and cold, and otherwise she's spent her life competing with her brothers and desperate for her father's affection.

The thing is, you can say that Tom has done bad things to Shiv and vice versa without erasing what the other party has done. Tom fucked Shiv over and has said some really cruel things to her... If not things that are, like, entirely incorrect (I mean, would Shiv be a good parent as she is right now? Let's be serious, look me in the eye and say the woman we see now should have kids lol). Tom used Shiv to climb the social and professional ladder, something I don't think Shiv was unaware of when she married him because she's an intelligent woman, he spent hours dithering over how to please Logan on his birthday in the pilot, and people have literally joked about it onscreen.

But we also watched.... how many seasons? Of Shiv straight up emotionally abusing Tom? What would everyone say if Tom cheated on Shiv and invited his lover to the wedding before copping to the affair and then suggesting an open marriage? What would they say if Shiv spent so much time freaking out over going to prison, while Tom just sorta went *shrug* and even joked about it? (Mind you, Tom was never even told by Shiv, as far as we know, that she begged Logan to choose Kendall as the "blood sacrifice" over Tom.) What if Tom was about to fuck Shiv, physically on the brink of doing so, and went "btdubs, I don't love you and you're nothing". (That scene, as much as I love it and as much as Shiv tried to play it off as being kinky... while never negotiating the supposed play lol............. would read VERY differently to a lot of people with the roles reversed, imo.)

So basically, I think Tom and Shiv are terrible people. They're also toxically in love and can give each other things neither one gets from anyone else. Shiv is a hot billionaire; she could have virtually any man she wants. She's with Tom because there is a level of transparent emotional connection I don't think she's found elsewhere, even through the pain. He gives her the validation she wanted from her father, which is why she can't quite let him go and is so distraught whenever the threat of it being taken away is real. I think Tom really does love her--but she also values the fact that he is a social climber, and she can give him a level of status, a physical commodity, that nobody else can really give him. (Or... very few can. Notice how threatened she was by him being seen with Naomi Pierce, one of the only other women who can give him all that.) I think she also sees a level of a funhouse version of what her life could've been in Tom. Her saying "Your mom loves me more than she loves you"... Well, girl. At least Tom's mom loves him on some level, lol. Shiv's mom doesn't love her, and she knows it.

And Tom of course loves all Shiv can give him, and I think Tom's natural ability to become whatever he needs to be in the moment suits him very well. He can be the catty corporate dude, Shiv's plus one, seductive???? (HE WAS WEARIN' THAT PUSSY OUT IN THIS EP???) He also does probably have a minor degradation kink. Nowhere near what Roman is dealing with, but a little treat. But I also think that when her vulnerability slips through, it's like a high to him because it's something no one else gets.

So yeah, they're everything to me and I need people to stop clutching their pearls and recognize that everyone sucks and it's great.

Also, loved what everyone else is doing. Kendall is hurtling towards oblivion. Amazing!

[silevan]

Silevan Ask Prompts

Questions from here. I'll edit this post as I go along and do more!

001. When is their birthday? While I have no set birthday for him, I've always envisioned him to be an Aries- perhaps an April baby.

002. Do they do anything to celebrate their birthday? Probably not anything announced. He might do something nice for himself but he wouldn't host a party or anything- maybe just go out for a walk and watch nature with some wine. He probably wanted nice big parties as a kid but could never get them, and then tried as a teen but was awkward. He let it go in adulthood, apart from maybe one or two times, if it was hosted by somebody else. (Perhaps for the round 30 or 40, if someone sniffed out his birthday, they might organise something?)

003. Does your character like coffee better, or tea? He would like grain coffee the most.

004. Do they prefer being alone or with others? With others for sure. He supplements loneliness with the company of anyone, even strangers. He prefers a stable person/people if he can have them, but that is lacking in his life.

005. Are they in good health? Pretty good.

006. What sense do they most rely on? Vision and sound. He can be quite perceptive to the nuances in his surroundings. He is constantly observing and notices a lot.

007. Is your character an optimist or a pessimist? He will claim to be an optimist, and truly believes himself to be, but I don't think he really is. At least not to the extent he claims to be.

008. What is their favorite fairy tale? Whatever his sister liked the most, the story she would beg him to tell her as a bedtime story. I think that would be the Ugly Duckling. I think she always dreamed of blossoming into something beautiful.

009. Do they believe in happy endings? Unsure.

010. Do they believe in love at first sight? When hes younger: I think he wants to. He loves the idea of romance, and yearns for someone to give him those rose-coloured lenses that would make the world sweeter. I think he might even almost roleplay this kind of love at first sight situation. He may play up crushes and say its love, and maybe he even can convince himself that that is indeed what it is. Current age: I think he would still like to believe it exists as a concept for some people, but I don't think he would believe it exists for him. He becomes transparent with him "not doing love". He is fine to have a fun nice time and have it be casual, and he's very much so a romantic, but he will not use the l word. After all, love means that you're fully known and seen and comfortable, and nobody can truly know and see him. I don't know if he will ever feel that in his entire life. I think he may taste tidbits of it, but he will never know it fully. I think this would be his fate.

011. How would your character court the person of their dreams? I don't think there exists such a person. The closest people that come to that descriptors would be people who see him for more than what the average person would; a hot and easy bartender. While with the average person he would be smooth and confident and flirty, he may get shy or timid around the people who see him that little bit more, because suddenly he doesn't know how to approach a situation as suddenly the person isn't head over heels for him. I think around a true "dream person" he would feel comfortable, and be himself at his truest form. There wouldn't be much courting involved per se apart from filling in his love languages, but those would happen naturally. This is how he gives love; small gifts here, care there, affection there. Showing thought. And he does give love, he gives it plenty. He just doesn't ever reach feeling it. He may feel something akin to it in moments, the tidbits of it, moments of comfort and connection, but he never reaches feeling full true love.

012. What makes your character embarrassed? As a youngster, he would feel embarrassed often, mostly at his shortcomings and failings. If he felt he did not achieve what he could have had, he would be very harsh on himself and retreat into his shell. In the current time, he has let go of a lot of those expectations and feels embarrassment rarely. Usually, if an embarrassing situation occurs, he would much faster laugh about it than feel shame.

013. Have they ever been bullied or teased? As a youngster, probably. Nothing physical or outright violent, but he definitely would get teased.

014. Detail one secret shame your character feels. Ask him this question and he would humm and haww trying to think of one for ages. His biggest shame, however, is "choosing to leave/abandon" his sister.

015. Are they most likely to fight with their fists or their tongue? In almost all situations, tongue. The only time he would get physical in a regular circumstance is to kick someone dangerous out of the tavern who is refusing to cooperate. The other instance where he would fight, is if the other person would not be making it out of the situation.

016. What is their choice of weapon? In the bar, it would only be himself. He wouldn't pick up anything other than his fists. In the other circumstance, something small and easy to hide. At first, when he's rusty, something he can easily stab and scratch with. A screwdriver, nails, a pocketknife, sharp scrap metal. Afterwards, it's mostly a small portable knife/scalpel. He probably has a favourite one once he has more experience.

017. When does your character think that violence is justified or deserved? He believes it is deserved if it is revenge: an eye for an eye. Or many eyes for an eye, if that eye was particularly beautiful. He calls it "prevention" and that's how he actually justifies it. But it's just revenge.

018. Your character wakes up to find that war has been declared. What do they do? He wouldn't quite know how to process it if it was coming close. Although I think he would insist that he is staying where he's at. He would continue running the tavern as if nothing was happening, apart from being clearly angry. But he would insist on staying open and continuing his life as usual.

019. If they could have a superpower, what would they choose? He would change the past/time travel. He would make it so that his sister never died. However if someone in the bar asked him the question, he would reply something else. Maybe telepathy.

020. What are their hobbies? He got into fly tying for Naoh'a, but thats moreso of a small thing. He likes to read a lot on evolution and biology, especially studying fossils. He may dabble in doing little woodcarvings too.

021. How do they display affection? He likes physical contact a lot as a base state of affection. He would really like acts of service as a love language too, and he may often give little gifts (eg. Fishing bait that's been dissected, fly tying, wood carvings, free beers, etc).

022. What is the most beautiful thing they’ve ever seen? A majestic catch, splat right on his bar counter top. The scales catching in the light like a dark liqueur, the eyes glassy and gold. A gentle spray of mucous coating the wood. He will never forget that.

023. What do they consider beautiful in others physically? He's quite a romantic, so really anything. He likes the aesthetic value of bodies a lot, so he likes all the little details.

024. What do they consider ugly in others physically? There isn't really anything he would find ugly, other than if you're a shitty person. Attraction to him is largely based on if you're a nice person.

025. What do they consider beautiful in others personality-wise? Respect. Also lack of respect, in particular circumstances.

026. What do they consider ugly in others personality-wise? Just being a bad person. But also being too shy/insecure can make him less attracted to someone. He's very confident and flirty, and even if someone wants to get with him, if they're gonna be too hesitant in responding he's not gonna push it too far on his own. You need to meet him halfway. He of course understands that some people want it and just are shy and need coaxing, and that's fine, but he draws a line when it's too much. If the other individual does not show a certain level of enthusiasm outwardly, even if they have it inside, he thinks they need to sort that with themselves out before he would want to continue. That's less of considering someone *ugly* though and moreso to do with losing attraction in someone. This can lead to a few people being disappointed, even some rude people talking about how "he was supposed to do xyz", but man requires a certain level of confidence or it's not his problem.

027. What is their idea of perfect happiness? Being loved, and having it be shown with every fibre of someone's being. He only felt that once, and hasn't felt it since.

028. What makes them laugh out loud? A lot of things. He's very easy to humour, especially currently. It would be harder to make him laugh as a youngster, but some people were really good at it.

029. What sort of sense of humor does your character have? He will mostly laugh at anything that doesn't go against his world views or morals. I don't see him as being too much into potty humour though, but he would love innuendos.

030. Do they believe in the afterlife? He wants to, but I don't think he does. I think he does pray though. He doesn't trust that the message will be received, but he sends it anyways. Just in case.

031. Are they superstitious about anything? Maybe lightly, but moreso for fun. I'd say as much as the average person would say "knock on wood" for something.

032. Does your character believe in ghosts? No.

033. Do they keep their promises? Yes. He's quite diligent about this.

034. What’s their view of lying? He doesn't like liars, and he tries not to lie, unless he feels there is no other way.

035. What is the most important rule your character lives by? Be present.

036. How honorable is your character? The most honourable thing he has done is build a nice life for himself, and go from a poor little tavern boy to the runner of the keep. His honour is mostly about how he built up his life. He's not community-changing.

037. If your character saw someone drop a large sum of money and knew that they could probably take it without anyone noticing, what would they do? Probably would call to the person to give it back; not because he has any kind of strong moral code or whatever, but because he has enough money for himself, and he wants to be in the good eye of the public.

038. What bad habits do they have? Apart from the murder, he stays up too late before bed.

039. What do they think is the worst thing that can be done to a person? Hurt someone who hasn't ever done harm.

040. What is their obsession? He has a kind of obsession in finding solace after his sister's passing and tries to achieve it in many different ways as he grows; turning to self harm, to intoxication, to distraction, and finally, to revenge.

041. Are they comfortable with technology? Technology isn't really a huge element of their world, at least not in the same way it would be to us. He can use a typewriter no problem, I suppose.

042. What is their greatest achievement? I'd like to think that eventually he ends up finding and processing some of the best specimens of particular fossils.

043. What will they stand up for? If a place is a safe space, he will ensure that it will continue to be a safe space. Anything that challenges the safety someone built or was promised in a space, is going to be dealt with. This is generally his tavern in the current day. His sister is a huge driver and motivation for this, as he wished nothing more than to provide such a space for her. An interesting analysis would be what kind of person he would be if she was still alive? Because, of course, he *did* have other wishes and it is why he went away to study. In the case she survived, I think he would stand up for the achievements he's accomplished, and would put emphasis on not letting anyone walk over him or take advantage of him. I don't think he would care about this in his actual story though; he would not care, shrug it off.

044. What disgusts them? The army and guards that attacked his village. Also, as a youngster, despite his interest in biology, I think blood, mucouses, membranes, in-depth anatomy stuff would squick him out. While currently he is desensitized to it, he may still find some parts of bodies gross, such as spit, or fatty tissue on meat/in dissections.

045. Does your character have any chronic medical conditions? Definitely not while young/current day. Maybe when he's old, but it's moreso just the kind of conditions that come with a regular aging deal. Old Silly for sure has arthritis.

046. How do they handle getting sick? Garlic, ginger, hot lemon water, blanket up and sweat it out. Mom's tricks work, he insists. And somehow it does.

047. What was the last medical problem your character had? Most of his medical problems would be mental health related. He for sure struggled with the ol 'pression.

048. Do they have any allergies? Not really.

049. How does your character feel about growing old? At first he thinks he's at peace with it, but when it draws near, it makes him sadder. He realizes he still has things he wants to do. He thought he would be happy living his life out without them, but as he gets older, he struggles with it. It's a driver for him to go back and continue in academia when he's old. He did not plan to survive after his sister's passing, so when he was able to (mostly) heal and build a life for himself in the tavern, he accepted it with gratitude and did not consider any need to change it. He built something from scratch and he's happy, so he doesn't need to chase anything else, even if it wasn't what he planned. It'll *never* be like he planned anyways, because he planned her to be by his side for a lot of things. Age was the wake-up call of facing his past dreams and deciding that he wants to fulfill them after all, even if it won't be the same without her; the most difficult thing he has to face was that, in doing so, it is not a betrayal to her.

050. How does your character feel about their own mortality? Kind of like above. In a way he has accepted it, but it also scares him. He's mostly content. For the current time, he is not afraid of his mortality; he thought death would greet him earlier, so he lives every moment with gratitude, happiness, and content, "as if it could end tomorrow", while he still feels immortal and young. It is only when the signs of his body degrading come in more and more that he feels unsettled by it. Suddenly he feels 17 again; itching to do so much, and feeling like time is running out.

051. If they knew they would die tomorrow, what would they do today? Look for intimacy. Preferably with someone he is comfortable and happy with such as Naoh'a; if that person isn't available, a frequent patron is also fine; worse comes to worst, a stranger.

052. What is your character’s worst flaw? He feels too content and invincible. He feels like he *has* no flaws, and that in of itself is a flaw, as he has *many*- I mean bro is a bit of a serial killor. He is not coping well. His lack of drive to achieve his dreams too. He settles too much, mostly because it hurts too much to try *not* to. Settling is how he survived. But it's not good for him, not *really*, not if he wants to heal. It'll get him through the worst time in his life, but it's not a fix. It should not be seen as something he should do permanently. He gets a bit better with it as an old man, but for most of his life, this is his greatest flaw.

053. What is your character’s greatest strength? I think settling and contentedness is a double edged sword, in that it is his greatest flaw, but can also be viewed as his greatest strength, depending on the situation and the perspective. He has an incredible skill of bouncing back. Even if he can't fulfill his true potential with it, this trait can pull him out of the deepest pit.

054. Does your character want power or authority of any kind? He would say no. But I think the murders are him attempting to have power in the sister situation. He wouldn't admit this, not even to himself. To him, it is purely prevention, weeding out the bad for the benefit of the good, to not let anything like that happen again. It's nothing to do with him, it's just a service to the world. That's how he stays sane in it and how he rationalizes it. But it's really to feel like he has some sort of power in the thing that has traumatized him the most, made him feel the most helpless, where he indeed *was* the most helpless.

055. Is your character an introvert or an extrovert? As a youngster, for sure an introvert. Now, for sure an extrovert. As an old man, he is still extroverted, but not to the same extent; he would return to some introverted qualities still, and appreciate solitude more again.

056. Has your character ever struck someone in anger? Big time. It's how the murders began really. Anger.

057. Has your character ever killed anyone? Yopp!

058. What is your character’s idea of a perfect day? Looking for, finding, and identifying rare or endangered species of mudfish with Naoh'a.

059. List several phrases your character is fond of uttering. Where did they pick them up? He would probably pick some up from Naoh'a, and I imagine he uses one or two from his parents.

060. What is your character’s attitude toward education and learning? I've already discussed this a bit. He dreamed of it lots when he was a child, pretty much always had his head in a book or analyzing the world. He dreamed of becoming an academic, but struggled in deciding if he should leave for studies or stay at home, not fulfill himself, but stay with his sister. His parents would neglect them and he knew that her life would get much worse if he was to leave. He decided to teach her as many life skills as he could before he left, and eventually rationed that it is not his responsibility to raise her and he did the best he could for her; he has to live his own life. It was when he moved away and began college that their village was attacked and she was killed. After that, he dropped out of college, and never went back again until he was well in his 60s. During that time, at first he wouldn't touch his academic life at first, but eventually got more comfortable reading textbooks by firelight. When he was settled into the pub life, he became more comfortable with doing research again and reading and learning. He just never made it official, not until late in his life.

061. Does your character prefer adventure or safety and security? A healthy mix of both, but moreso leaning towards safety and security.

062. What sort of legacy does your character wish to leave behind? As a youngster, he wants to be a great academic that changes the world. In the current time, he doesn't care about leaving any kind of legacy; just have fun and be kind while it lasts. In his old age, he takes pride in his academic achievements, and wants to contribute to the field in a nice way.

063. How well does your character handle difficult people? 064. In what ways does your character annoy others? 065. Is your character better at leading or following? Which do they prefer? 066. Does your character prefer city life or being out in nature? 067. Does your character believe in fate or destiny? 068. How strong is your character’s sense of responsibility? What kinds of things trigger it? 069. What about your character is heroic? 070. What about your character is cowardly? 071. How kind is your character? 072. In a Dungeons & Dragons game, which class would your character be? (wizard, fighter, bard, priest, ranger, etc.) 073. In a novel, what plot role would your character fill? (hero, anti-hero, sidekick, villain, etc.) 074. What is your character’s favorite game? 075. Is your character ticklish? 076. How do they express anger? 077. How often do they cry? Over what? 078. How emotionally stable is your character? 079. How easy is it for them to read the emotions of others? 080. How easy is it for others to read your character’s emotions?

081. Is your character religious? 082. What are your character’s sleeping preferences? 083. What is the first thing they say and/or do when they wake up? 084. Describe your character in one word. 085. Describe your character in three words. 086. How would your character describe themself in one word? 087. How would your character describe themself in three words? 088. Is your character quiet or loud? 089. How vocally expressive is your character? 090. How bodily expressive is your character? 091. What type of music does your character like? 092. What emotion does your character evoke in others? 093. What is your character’s goal in life? 094. Name three things most would not expect your character to be able to know. 095. Name three things most would not expect your character to be able to do. 096. How do they move and carry themselves? What energy do they project?

097. How well do they adapt to change?

098. Does your character like animals? 099. Do they talk to inanimate objects? 100. Does your character dream? If so, what do they dream about?

[lovebandit42069]

Heehee did the fun little ship meme for my main self ship

Had to edit the original since it was for ships that only involve two people (and also to change the bug killing one to bug releasing) and included a transparent version of the edited base for those that may want it!

Ignore the awful grey outline that he preview has, the actual full resolution template doesn't have it idk what tumblr's doing

I'm gonna include a little explanation for everything under a read more for anyone that might be interested! (It's incredibly long so no worries if it's too much for y'all to want to read lmao)

Please do not interact with this post/my blog if you: - Are a minor - Are a proshipper - Self ship romantically with Shou, Hizashi and Nem

General

Genders: I haven't really thought too hard about my headcanon genders for Shou, Hizashi and Nem so I just went with the canon for them. Crash is Canonically Agender.

Sexualities: I'm bisexual so I like to headcanon all of my favs as bi too 🥰

Heights: Pretty straight-forward I think, I like to make most of my S/I's the same height as me and Crash was no exception (why is everyone taller than me fuck my LIFE !!!!!!!!)

Ages: Same as heights, used everyone's up to date canon ages

Sliding Scale Section

Big Spoon - Little Spoon: I feel like Shou and me would share the same sentiment of not really minding either way/switching between the two while Nem is similar but leans more towards being the little spoon and Hizashi is Very Much the little spoon because he's the tallest of the group and I think that'd be funny/cute Lends Clothes - Borrows Clothes: I don't think any of us would necessarily borrow clothes from each other (also Crash is fat and short so I don't think its clothes would fit anyone LMAO) so I just kept everyone in the middle for this one Doesn't Use Pet Names - Uses Pet Names: Uses Pet Names: Bro you KNOW Nem and Hizashi fucking love pet names!! Crash likes pet names but feels like they sound super awkward when it says them but it'll still try. I don't think Shou would never use pet names but is probably a bit more conservative with using them himself. Introverted - Extroverted: Pretty self explanatory if you know the characters, me and Shou being very much introverted while Nem and Hizashi are on the other end of the spectrum being very much extroverted Affection Through Words - Affection Through Actions: Shou and Hizashi have both exhibited actions that lead me to believe they'd canonically show affection with both words and actions. Nem I imagine would be the same way just because I'm being self indulgent lmao. I'm the same way IRL so Crash gets to be too <;3 Confesses First - Waits For Confession: While all four were pining for each other Crash, Hizashi and Shou were the ones that were completely obvlious of everyone else's pining leaving Nem to be the one to finally initiate the relationship (sorry nem lmao) Screams About The Bugs - Releases Bug Outside: Hizashi is canonically entomophobic (afraid of bugs) meanwhile I imagine Shou, Crash and Nem wouldn't be as much. Drives The Car - Can't Drive: We've seen Hizashi drive in canon and while we've seen Shou in cars multiple times he's never once driving (I don't think??) so I like to imagine he doesn't know how/feels like it's not terribly important due to having a good amount of mobility on his own. Crash likes to walk to places it can but learned how to drive for the times when it's gotta go somewhere that isn't walkable/if it's not feeling the idea of walking. Nemuri strikes me as someone that would rather drive than walk somewhere and learned to drive to necessitate that. Can't Cook For Shit - Makes Dinner: We see Shou eating protein jelly packs more than anything else and while that's not indicative of him not being able to cook (he's just being ~rational~) I feel like he's someone that has the barest ability to cook. Crash is the same way fuck cooking lmao. Nem and Hizashi both seem like they'd know how to cook and would be willing to be the one(s) to cook for the group to me personally Dislikes PDA - Loves PDA: Similar to pet names I feel like Hizashi and Nem would absolutely love PDA and Crash would as well but feel a bit awkward about it so it'd struggle a bit to initiate it itself. Shou I feel like wouldn't completely hate it but would definitely not be the one to initiate it first typically. Overprotective - Chill Going: With the nature of the canon universe and just taking everyone's personalities into consideration I feel like we'd all be a bit protective of each other in various ways Has More Relationship Experience - Has NO Relationship Experience: This is heavily headcanon-based but I personally imagine Shou and Hizashi as not really having relationship experience due to mutually pining for each other (and Crash and Nem) and am including Crash in that same boat. Nem for sure strikes me as someone who has a lot of relationship experience though, personally

Levels

Horny Level: Nemuri is self explanatory I feel like LMAO. Crash and Shou I feel would be a little bit lower on the scale and Hizashi just a teensy bit higher. He gives off horny energy I don't know how to explain it

Awkardness Level: Crash and Shou are slightly different types of awkward but still awkward nonetheless (Crash being a bit moreso, feels bad) and Hizashi and Nemuri have never felt awkwardness in their entire lives in my opinion

Jealousy Level: I put everyone at the same halfway level because I can imagine a bit of jealousy happening here and there but I don't really think it'd be present terribly often tbh

Blessing your family and crops if you actually read all this lmao

[himitsu-luna]

Headcanon

⸰ֺ⭑Nct 127 - Ideal types⭑ֺ⸰

❥︎𑁍 Taeil

Someone like the moon. Serene, a comforting presence, humble, but that still possesses various interesting facets and is able to light the darkest room. Someone with a magnetic aura, whose presence is subtle, but when they are not around, they are definetely missed. Someone soft who inspire romantic thoughts and actions. Someone cute but that doesn't realize it. Someone silly who makes him smile and laugh at the smallest things, that vibes with him in a deeper level. Someone simple, as chill as him, as free spirited as him, who will be up to do anything with him. Someone who has the ability to make the most complicated thing look easy, that can vanish any bad feelings with a reassuring smile or touch. Someone that appreciates his entire being and all of his perfect imperfections.

❥︎𑁍 Johnny

Someone like the sun. Spontaneous, warm, bright, inviting, that makes him feel that life would be impossible without them. Someone that smiles a lot and laughs easily, that is kind of random. Someone visionary, free, that just catches his hand and says "let's go!". Someone who is genuine in everything they do and say, that sees no problem in saying "I'm sorry" or "I was wrong". Someone hardworking, that works more for others than for themselves. Someone with whom he can have cheesy pick up lines battles and that can make him flustered at the end. Someone that has firm steps and knows where they are going, that has a broad vision of life. Someone balanced, 50% emotional and 50% rational.

❥︎𑁍 Taeyong

Someone like a lighthouse. Always there to guide him, to show him that he is not alone, to show him the way when he feels lost, someone he knows that will be there for him, waiting for him at that same spot, with unchanged feelings. Someone dependable and reliable, with a motherly instinct, but that still has their inner child jumping and playing at times. Someone wise, from whom he can always learn a new thing. Someone that can make him slow down sometimes to enjoy a peaceful afternoon. Someone that can read, match and change his moods, that knows exactly what to do in every situation, that makes him feel safe and understood. Someone that goes to him with open arms and always listen to him before listening to anyone else.

❥︎𑁍 Yuta

Someone like a painting. Expressive, colorful, admirable, interesting, full of layers, that show themselves completely, but there's always some detail yet to be discovered if you look at them from a different angle. Someone fair, just, loyal, that kind of person that you can trust completely. Someone that actually doesn't fall for his pranks, because they are always one step ahead. Someone playful, sincere, open minded, free of judgements, that just want people to be happy and prays everyday for this world to get peace. Someone who matches his intensity, but is far from being competitive. Someone strong, maybe tough, but that has soft spots for a lot of cute little things. Someone kind and generous, that is always ready to help others.

❥︎𑁍 Doyoung

Someone like a precious crystal. Beautiful, transparent, formed with a lot of patience, that takes the hardships in life to become a better person, that seems delicate but is actually very strong, extremely precious and valuable in every way. Someone with an extremely good heart and a charming great mind. Someone who forgives easily, even though they shouldn't. Someone who is good with words, that expresses themselves well, that is honest with their feelings and share them with him. Someone who has the sense of commitment and give their all in the relationship. Someone who gets along with his family and friends. Someone who has eyes just for him, that is his supporting system, his number one fan, that recognizes all of his efforts. Someone who truly listen to others and keep in their hearts everyone's story.

❥︎𑁍 Jaehyun

Someone like an old love song. Filled with tender emotions, ageless, classic, someone who evoque sweet memories everytime he looks at them, someone who validates his thoughts and feelings. Someone who makes him miss them, that makes him smile with just one text message. Someone that doesn't push or rush him, that is in the same wavelenght as him, that walk in the same pace as him, that makes him feel comfortable and relaxed, that brings harmony to his life. Someone encouraging, that makes him gladly go out of his comfort zone sometimes. Someone entertaining, creative, that comes up with the most brilliant and funny thoughts from time to time. Someone fascinating, charming, passionate, that speaks with their whole body when they get excited.

❥︎𑁍 Winwin

Someone like the ocean. Deep, pacific, that makes him feel free and calm, that has the strong power to pull him to them, that gives him that feeling that the world is huge and there's so many things he doesn't know yet . Someone who gets his walls down, that makes him wanting to be the chaser. Someone who accepts him, who understands him, who doesn't suffocate or pressure him on acting in a certain way. Someone considerate, respectful, a gentle and ethereal soul. Someone that people may label as traditional, but that has a truly rich inner world, that they share only with him. Someone that quietly takes care of him just for the sake of caring, without any greed or second intentions.

❥︎𑁍 Jungwoo

Someone like a flower. Sweet, unique, fresh, that attracts people to them, fill everyone with happiness and with the feeling that at the end things will be alright and that life is indeed beautiful and worth living. Someone supportive, that will stay by his side and will make him their priotity. Someone who shows unconditional trust on him, on his feelings, on his thoughts, that makes him feel confident about himself. Someone with a hint of a genius mind, that can follow his thoughts, and that has thousands of hobbies, because they like to keep their mind running. Someone who won't deny his affection and will give him all the hugs he needs.

❥︎𑁍 Mark

Someone like the sky. Pure, sincere, soft, clear, that shelters everybody under their veil with no prejudice, that makes him want to fly high. Someone easy to deal with, that doesn't like conflicts, but that also knows how to protect themselves and the ones that need to be protected. Someone who gets involved in his daily life, that shows interest in the things he does. Someone empathetic, positive, cute, kind, soft spoken, that sees the bright side of the world. Someone who feels like a best friend, that greet him with a high five followed by a sweet little peck. Someone overall calm and chill, but that also has lots of chaotic moments that makes him burst into giggles.

❥︎𑁍 Haechan

Someone like the stars. Cute, special, lovely, that shines on their own and helps others find their own light, that is there even if you don't see them, that makes his eyes sparkle. Someone as wild as him, as intelligent as him, that thinks quick and acts quicker. Someone sweet and friendly, that makes sure everyone feels included. Someone who recognizes him and takes him seriously, that talks to him about any subject: politics, food, tv shows, science, business, everything. Someone affectionate, that hugs him, kisses him, that says him at the end of the day "You did great!". Someone that gently point him his hits and misses, that is always leading him to improvement. Someone mature yet carefree, funny and bubbly at their core.

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[vetinarivimesy]

Ooh rather love the Addamses additions. Morticia taking things so very literally at times is not one I'd have noticed by myself! (Though saddened by the usual attitudes to women shining through the fandom take on them...)

Continuing with the stargate mention from earlier and running with it. My own takes on the leads from the three shows -

Stargate SG-1 seconding Sam Carter. Yes yesss. Again in such a way that a significant chunk of the fandom Does Not Like Her, with the usual excuse that she's 'cold' blah blah. When, Sam is a relatively personable excitable geek and a half who'd happily infodump about her latest project at you for hours, but would happily parallel play projects in the same space for hours too. (See multiple incidents of her doing just that in her lab and in the field, and the prolonged time she worked on her motorbike with Walter.) When she gets the chance to make a not affected by chain of command issues, female friend in the form of Vala Sam seems to jump on the chance to show her non-Earthling bestie all her favourite Earth things. Not least because Vala doesn't mind the awkwardness in the slightest. Doesn't seem to care much about hierarchies, except when it gets stupid/in the way of science/what's right/wrong.

She always seems equally at home in her own company as well as happy to hang out with her chosen friends. The sciencey tendencies extend to being a bit of an infamous pool-shark at the local bar.

Stargate Atlantis, John Sheppard

I know I know I'm supposed to say Rodney McKay... Eh... Personally he hits too many of all of the worst stereotypes of Genius Therefore an Ass but it's Okay Because Genius trope for me to want him in the autistic character category. (Given the way the character gradually very transparently morphs from sexual harrasser villain of the week in SG-1. To interestingly flawed arse who's trying to do better in SGA whose own ego keeps tripping him up with a severe case of Main Character Syndrome. To can do no wrong gets the beautiful girl, and gets all the plaudits in a very self-insert style way come SGA season 5... Nope bit too aware of the behind the scenes stuff at play to want to give the character more analysis. I'm afraid I put him on the Sheldon Cooper end of the spectrum where if he is accidental representation he's borderline offensive stereotypical representation.)

Sheppard on the other hand? He's just continually an awkward bundle of humanity in just about every respect yet he's a respected leader with a strong sense of right/wrong (albeit one that doesn't necessarily match anyone else's idea of right/wrong...). His jokes can come across poorly. He can usually be found awkwardly slouched in a corner of a scene. Never quite works out when it's okay to talk back to superiors/not, has distinct issues with rules and authority figures that make rules that make no sense.

The perpetual awkward slouch, standing or sitting. 'Childish' hobbies, lots of them. The subtle implied very into sciencey/geeky things but hiding it characterisation (that eventually gets forgotten because of the aforementioned McKay Show issues). Sheppard's utter awkwardness with his own family. The way that even his very best friends who love and appreciate him very much say to his face he has no social skills and he agrees with them whilst awkwardly failing to have a heart to heart.

The few times we get to see him just hang out, he seems to appreciate just... sitting in a room with the other person doing separate activities/wanting to do activities rather than chatting. Happy to go off hiking or surfing for hours. Innapropriate reactions to dressing downs, flirting at innapropriate moments/never quite seeming to know what to do with flirting when it happens.

The way a hell of a lot of the hypnosis/related sci-fi gubbins just never seems to quite work on him the same way it does for everyone else. The way even parallel world Sheppard is also an awkward lump of a man who doesn't quite seem to know how to stand up straight or where to put his hands who has issues with authority figures strutting around. (Huh, unlike parallel Rodneys who all seem much more personable than OG-Rodney.)

Stargate Universe, Nick Rush, Dale Volker, Adam Brody, Lisa Park

Though I get most would probably say Eli - I personally view Eli as far too savvy of actual social interactions to dump him here, most of his awkwardness seems to stem from poor socialisation due to the personal circumstances with his mom that had him staying at home instead of finishing uni/his relative perceived youth/outsider status compared to the rest of the cast which he overcomes very quickly? (The teen drama on Earth episode with the fun Janelle Monae cameo doesn't count, the social weirdness there is because all the other characters are the horrible 1% political class, who mistakenly think he is too, and the love triangle plot that thankfully gets dropped fairly quickly.)

The established Science Team and Rush on the other hand? The Science Team, Brody and Volker especially, seem to do that rather neurodivergent friendship group thing of just sticking together to the scorn of everybody else who don't like that the 'weirdos' are all hanging out together. (This one comes from firsthand in hindsight, 'oh huh, wait we're all neurodivergent?' experience.)

Volker never does manage to stand up for himself against the military characters, even when he arguably should preferring to fade into the background with Brody. Even when they've spent so long in each other's pockets they can't stand the sight of each other the two have an impenetrable shorthand to outsiders, including jokes at innapropriate moments (including an incident of word repetition that's clearly gone on for... a while) to amuse each other to much scorn.

Volker struggles to open up with people about anything personal - to such an extent that he doesn't disclose a very serious medical condition until it requires an organ transplant.

Brody's favourite thing to do outside of the work is try and perfect his still. The social benefits of making the only booze on ship seem to be secondary to the hobby itself. AU!Time travel Brody (if it counts as an AU when it's the same universe) got fixated on the idea of Doctor Rush coming back to save them all to such an extent that he accidentally founded a religion about the idea. Just like Volker he's constantly a bit awkward with everyone outside the science-team group, and looked upon with no little amount of exasperated lack of patience by the non-science team members. Even though as one of the few engineers he's essential crew.

Doctor Park gets to be awkward and bubbly and brilliant, with innapropriate interjections, and tends to run off on long infodumps about her favourite topics/ramble into utterly unrelated topics that are only tangentially related to the initial discussion - frequently morbid tangents too. She doesn't seem to quite understand, or perhaps care, that sleeping with most of the ship might get awkward socially (which I love for her) and again mostly chooses to hang out with the science crew. She cares so much about the expansion of the hydroponics project that she risks her own life, and gets badly injured trying to rescue as many of the plants as possible.

Rush? Just doesn't seem to quite get how to be personable, and it doesn't seem to entirely be grief related. Many of the guy's repeated attempts to reach out to other members of the crew/bond with people get mis-read as manipulative/untrue and rebuffed, even pre his great big selfish Inciting Incident; shanghaing everybody on Icarus Base to Destiny.

He gets so caught up in his projects the social niceties go out of the window frequently, to constant tellings off/social repercussions, yet it keeps happening. Rush forgets to sleep, eat, and wash when caught up in a project. (And on Destiny there's so many projects...) Yet he's indespensible enough on the tech side of things that despite the resentment/wish to replace him, they can't. (Young tried to murder him, the time he was missing presumed dead, ended poorly for everyone with the ship in a worse state than pre-the stranding/murder attempt. Though Rush did take Chloe under his wing afterwards.)

The character backstory which all too often goes ignored in favour of fanon 'posh bastard because British' implies some degree of academic hyperfixation in play - given the whole very working class Glasgow docks, very obsessed with mathematics, scholarship to Oxford University (which would not have actually been required in this era pre-Thatcher and subsequently Blair taking away free uni in the UK but shh it's canon) whilst also working a job, and Rush shows a marked preference for his own company.

He displays that trait a lot of the world's top mathematicians describe of maths being music and vice versa. Which, probably how Rush first met/bonded with his musician wife. We also get to see the project he subsumed his grief into as she was dying, hyperfixating on this new task to avoid the emotions.

Yet he also very clearly gives a damn, despite understandable repeated rebuffs he goes out of his way to keep the crew safe/stand up for people when he stops trying and failing to be manipulative and sees things as unjust. His attempts at manipulation are transparent enough to be embarassing, so his genuine awkward efforts here tend to get viewed with suspicion. Yet on the occasions the non-science team members do take the time to actually talk to/listen to the guy? They get reasonable responses, almost as if shouting hate at a person isn't the way to get them to do what you want...

(Fascinating character, and a great foil to military leader Everett Young. The deliberate clash at the centre of canon here does tend to make it a Team Young v Team Rush marmite situation on the fandom side of things!)

Honorable mention to Ronald Greer here - canon-wise he's got a definite case of C-PTSD with all the sad longterm effects that implies. But his very strong sense of right and wrong (often to his own detriment, both in the chain of command sense punching a colonel, and the willingness to give an acquaintance at most a whole kidney), willingness to follow the rules even when they're seemingly stupid because they're the rules, and slow to earn but once earnt utter loyalty and willingness to hang around the science team do make me wonder about the character. Not to mention the very quick way he put together a flamethrower with duct tape and hope, completely overlooking everyone else's prolonged reaction of stunned incredulity in his excitement at the fun cool thing he'd gotten to work. Unfortunately for much of the show's early run Greer is your stereotypical angry black sergeant character - but by S2 he's showing signs of getting up to three dimensional and interesting... and oh no the show got cancelled.

All right, new game for fellow autistics: Reblog with your spicy autistic headcanons!

No “Sherlock Holmes” or “the dude from Fantastic Beasts”, I want the ones that you never say because you know that you’ll probably have to spend a million years explaining it to even other ND people and the thought exhausts you.

Mine is absolutely Caroline from The Vampire Diaries

[nightswithkookmin]

RE JIMIN'S LOVE LANGUAGE

This is in response to questions I've received in my message box following my recent post on Jimin's love language. Ignore this if you've read my main post on this same topic- Or maybe not.

Also, I'm sorry about the Asks. I accidentally turned it off- AGAIN. Thanks for drawing my attention to it. I purple y'all.

What I meant by my last post was that, for us to understandJimin or even the rest of the members' love language, it is important we make a distinction between what is uniquely Jimin/the individual members' love language and what is their culture's or even the established and accepted practices within their group.

And on that, I said skinship is a cultural practice but also one of the group's adopted love languages. It is their way of achieving intimacy and bonding with eachother and as such they do not associate romantic connotations with it.

Thus, when they touch eachother in any way, provocative as it may seem to us, to them there is nothing romantic about it at all. So when Taekook, Jikook, Yoonmin or any of these pairs touch eachother, it is not with romantic intentions.

Why then does Jimlous and Jeonlous exist? For a myriad of reasons other than that skinship is romantic! Lol

I've explained previously, that JK and Jimin's discomfort with each other's skinship with the others often has to do with the lack of boundaries that is inherent in skinship rather than that they are actually jealous or see skinship as romantic. This is often true for Jimin.

With JK, his possessive nature very often amplifies his discomfort with the lack of boundaries but also because, out of the seven, he is the only one that had had a problem accepting and participating in the skinship culture within the group- well, him and Suga. It's taking them some getting used to.

But that wasn't because he was viewing skinship as romantic but rather because he was uncomfortable with affections and the overt expressions of it as is required of skinship.

That's not to say they do not or have not implied romantic intentions with their touches- there is nothing platonic about boners. Lol.

And any skinship that results in a visible sexual tension or arousal can no longer be deemed skinship- it's foreplay.

Jikook does skinship all the time like everyone else in the band, but often too some of those skinship crosses the platonic threshold into sexual foreplay- they ain't slick.

You just have to see the look on Tae's face when he noticed, through the view finder, Jimin caressing JK's thumb to comprehend that not all their touches are mere skinship.

That's one of the differences between Jikook and the other ships; Jikook presents a mutual sexual attraction towards eachother beyond the pubescent hormonal teen frenzy that marked their early formative days- god, those boys were so horny they could hump a tree to death. Bless them.

Mind you, I disregard any sexual innuendos that was present in Jikook's dynamics as well as any other ship's dynamics, if ever there was one, during that hormonal teen period of their lives. It was all something but nothing at the same time. They were all just being horny and gross teenage boys- Hashtag, war of hormones for real for real. Lol

All that that timeline taught me was, Jikook are freaky af and certainly don't see each other as brothers. CERTAINLY.

That being said, for a better understanding of Jimin's love language, a distinction must be made between love language and sexual interest. It will make sense in a bit.

Because Jimin's father is an affectionate person and this is the love language he has taught to Jimin, Jimin interprets any affectionate and kind act as a loving gesture. It is how he gives love, it is how he receives love.

He values kindness and compassion, selflessness, vulnerability, transparency, fairness etc.

Thus to show his love for you he will be kind to you, vulnerable with you, transparent with you, supportive of you and nurturing of you.

We see him being like this with all the members, even the staff and dancers too at times but more so with Tae and JK.

The question then is, how does Jimin receive love? What actions does he interpret as love? Easy, sexual attraction. Hear me out.

You see, because Jimin is a natural nurturer and he sees nurturing as a universal love language that everyone speaks or ought to speak, he requires his romantic love interest to distinguish between their platonic love interest and their romantic love interest.

To fulfill him emotionally, you would have to make him feel special, treat him differently from your friends, and let him know that you want him and only him.

Sexual interest is one way of distinguishing between platonic interests and romantic interests, and it flows from this that he not only requires grand gestures, or special treatment but that you flirt with him as well.

Hence his emphasis on flirting. He likes to flirt. He enjoys it. He's mastered it. He's a fucking pro at it- give him his medal.

Just to be clear, even though flirting is part of his love language, he has also adopted flirting as part of his idol persona and often when he is flirting overtly he is only doing it for the 'fan service.'

But that doesn't mean all of that is fan service. Sometimes it's blatant foreplay as I've explained above and if you can't tell the difference between his foreplay and fanservice- chileee, I can't help you.

I'm still traumatized by that Bon V 4 moment. Sweet Jesus, save me if they should keep this energy up!

It's important, at this point, to note that because Jimin is a nurturer, every decent human being can easily be compatible with him. I have said several times over my blog that Jimin is ship compatible with anyone and everyone- I ain't mad at that.

What it comes down to then is whom he prefers and whom he is choosing to make him happy and to fulfill him. I explained that choice and being able to be in charge of decision making and to make his own decisions is very important to Jimin because on his background.

And when it comes to love, it's no secret who Jimin wants. He wants JK and that's on Periodttt.

I explained that in the early days during Rookie King, he felt he needed to get emotionally closer to JK when he had an opportunity to talk and heal as a group- his personal was important to him.

In that JinJikook VLive when Jin was eating a lollipop in a provocative way he asked him to stop immediately but couldn't, for the love of god, tear his eyes off JK when JK ate his lollipop in a- I can't. Jikook!

Unless he is in his fan service mood or is being his slytherin slash whore of babylon self- bless him, often he would reject any attempt by anyone to flirt with him except JK.

And I keep reiterating this, flirting isn't JK's thing. It's Jimin's thing. The last time JK tried to this flirty- he cried. Lmho

Take that interview where the host moved closer to Jimin in a flirty way for example. Jimin leaned back away from him. In the popular words of Jimin- don't do that.

Then in this airport scene right here, where Suga and Tae tried to protect JM from getting mobbed (if video is missing check bottom of this post. I hate tumblr)

You could see Jimin moving towards JK. Now some may argue he was trying to protect the JK who seemed oblivious to what was going on but I beg to differ.

I just think Jimin was moving towards JK because that's his safe haven. That's the person he feels the most safe with. 'Jk will protect' 'JK is strong.' He felt threatened and his instincts was to fin that person whom he feels would and should protect him- and that person usually isn't very far away.

And no, I'm not being biased. It's just I can't in good conscience theorize and make wild assumptions about Jimin's emotional needs the way I would the other's because unlike the others, Jimin keeps showing us what he wants. Y'all are just not listening.

It is why I said, JK on paper seemed like the last person to meet Jimin's emotional needs. He didn't strike me as the ambitious type or the daring type the way Yoongi presented himself in early days. It is why I shipped Yoonmin or even Vmin.

And even in those ships, I didn't believe they were real. Suga was too emotional closed off and wouldn't

And as I explained, having been denied his ambitions, it's not a stretch to assume, Jimin desires an ambitious partner. One who loves the stage, loves their career.

But I feel, most people including myself underestimated Jungkook. As much as JK may not appear as ambitious career wise, he is one of the most passionate members of group.

His decision to join BTS was driven purely by passion, his decision to start GCF, get a tattoo and every other endeavor he's embarked has been driven purely by his passion. And passion is a variant of ambition.

Jimin pursues his ambitious and JK pursues his passions- they are the same in the same way. And I see why Jimin will tell JK they are one and the same. They are more alike than we think they are.

So yes, Jimin needs an ambitious partner but a passionate partner equally suffices.

What equally suffices is a supportive partner. One willing to sacrifice their ambitions or needs when it comes to it, to accommodate Jimin's needs. Jimin is very competitive in nature and hates to lose, we've been told.

And nobody lets Jimin win the way JK does. Nobody. It's funny, because VMin's dumpling fight took days/weeks to resolve. And Jikook's raining dat fight took a few hours.

What hit me about that tale as told by Jikook was JK going to Jimin to resolve their fight- another instance he let Jimin win. Tae loves Jimin but I don't see him sacrificing his ego and pride the way JK would for Jimin. I don't see any member doing that for Jimin quite frankly.

It is one way I see JK nurturing Jimin. Jk can be hard headed but there is a softness and a tenderness to him that's speaks to Jimin's love language.

I can go on and on about this topic, you know? Lol

Signed,

GOLDY

[yanderecandystore]

Jackson Macnee 🐛🍋 Sour Gummy Worms [Oc Yandere! Delinquent - Bio]:

He/him. Cis and pansexual.

Jack it's a 21 years old leader of one of the many delinquent gangs inside Saint Bernard's School for Prodigies. A institution filled to the brim with a poor education system and crime related "incidents".

He normally presents himself as unbothered and mostly calm all the time. But it only takes a comment about his real name to make him snap.

Call him only by Jack, and you're fine.

He has a terrible smoking habit.

He has a "history" with the twins Coldwell, he doesn't talk much about it, but to put it simply: he was one of their victims, one of their "special victims".

He was the type of spineless nerd they would love to pick on, and sometimes they would cross the line between hating him and, weirdly obsessing over him. He snapped at them one time, they have thrown hot water on his left arm, and then he got out of that place.

Whenever he tells his story to anyone, is always like that. Short, simple, and straight to the point.

Most people wouldn't even pay attention at the "hot water burning his skin" part, because of how nonchalantly he talks about it.

He doesn't talk about, the bullying that he suffered through in great detail. He only says that twins were assholes and that he really wants to burn their house down.

Jack has a… Vengeance problem. He plans to ruin the whole Coldwell family's reputation and lives.

Like, yeah, seriously, he wants all and everyone that has any involvement with the Coldwells to suffer. It's not like he is planning on this ever since he got out of Amaryllis, or something like that-

Of course, that after spending some time with people that aren't so repulsive as the twins, he started to leave his main goal behind.

Not completely, but, maybe he is slowly understanding that obsessing over the Coldwells isn't going to make his life better. Maybe he just needs time, or someone else to come in and convince him to give up on his crazy plan.

Jack can be pretty stubborn though, good luck with that. Not even the closest people to him have managed to keep his mind off of the past.

He can be a pretty chill person to hangout with, but not exactly the best company.

He is direct to the point, if he likes you, he likes you. And yes, he hopes you like him as well.

With everything going on his mind constantly, having you around would make his daily routine feel different. Feel a lot more special, ya know?

He has only a couple of important people in his life, and if he didn't, he wouldn't keep going on through each day. His life has started to become kinda suffocating.

There was a time he wanted to earn the title of new Lil Red, which is basically a tittle of being the most powerful student inside that hellish place. But, sometimes, Jack doesn't really know what he is doing.

A easier life sounds really nice, but for now, a cigarette it's better than nothing.

Jack is a slow burn yandere, and a bit of a romantic when he wants to. He doesn't mind his own feelings and showing off affection and like people to be transparent with him.

Be honest with him, and he'll be honest with you eventually. He may be a little bit, possessive, but not exactly the worst person to be crazy for you.

He is not above threatening his darling, but it's not something he is proud off. If he ever does threat you, he'll have a hard time looking at your face without saying sorry.

He has a nice physic, but not exactly a fighting one. Don't get me wrong, he is good at fighting, but not really the strongest of his group.

[Bio may get updated]

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[maeve-of-winter]

I'm curious as to why you can't seem to have a larger conversation about Riverdale and race w/o mentioning Cheryl? Like even your comment about Josie had to be in the context of Cheryl stalking her in season 2. What about the fact that Josie is ignored for the whole series? Toni was introduced in season 2 as a prop for Bughead. Just bc she wasn't a series regular, doesn't mean they couldn't have told us about her parents lol. I get why you don't like Cheryl, but is she really the only issue?

Lol, anon. And I’m curious about why you think Cheryl should be left out of all discussion of racism in Season 2? I guess since you were unable to come up with a rebuttal to my points about Cheryl stalking Josie and framing Chuck, we’re right back at “HDU, you’re interrogating racism from the wrong perspective!” 

 Honestly, why should I have to leave Cheryl out of my discussion on racism, other than that Cheryl fans and Choni fans don’t want to admit that there are odd racial implications surrounding her character? Why should I have to talk about other racial aspects of the show and not mention Cheryl? I mean, it’s not like the storyline of her stalking Josie is suddenly going to vanish from existence if I stop bringing it up. In fact, it’s that storyline, as well as the show’s refusal to treat it as significant, that made me dislike Cheryl. 

 This isn’t a case of me disliking Cheryl and then latching onto racism as justification. This is me genuinely disliking how her emotions and trauma are treated as so much more worthwhile and special while WOC’s emotions and trauma are consistently swept under the rug. That’s why I continually harp on it—I don’t think I’ve ever seen a modern example that’s so blatant in prioritizing a white woman’s pain over a black woman’s pain, and it’s something deeply bothers me, so I want to talk about it. I also want to talk about since no one else is, and because Choni is constantly praised as a deeply progressive relationship, when from a racial perspective, it absolutely isn’t. 

 Also, I’ve noticed that when I talk about this issue of Cheryl and Choni, I tend to get a bunch of protests like yours above to stop it, and it’s important to me to pull back the curtain on the racism in Riverdale fandom, too, and get rid of this notion that it’s evidently wrong to talk about racism when it involves someone’s fave. 

More to your point, it’s nearly impossible to have a discussion about racism in Season 2 without discussing Cheryl, since she’s heavily involved in the main plots of all five of the Black recurring characters. Four of them have her involved in deeply unpleasant ways, and the last one is still irritating and iffy. 

Let’s just go over how Cheryl is involved in the plots for the recurring black teens in Season 2: 

 Josie: In one of her only plots for the season (or ever), Cheryl stalks and terrorizes her while gaslighting her into believing it’s the Black Hood, Chuck, and then the Black Hope again. She destroys the Pussycats and leaves Josie isolated from them. She destroys her relationship with Chuck. The show completely forgets about this plot in favor of concentrating on Cheryl’s pain and fear and issues with her mom, and it’s not until nearly ten episodes that it’s briefly brought up again, but it’s brought up in the context of something hurt Cheryl, not Josie, and got her sent to conversion therapy. Then in the following episode, we get a very brief apology from Cheryl where the narrative excuses her behavior, and then it’s forgotten.

We NEVER get to see the Pussycats reunite. Cheryl NEVER has to face consequences for what she did that aren’t framed as a reason to feel sorry for her—the show actually turns around and paints Cheryl as a victim of her decision to stalk and harass Josie, rather than examining Josie as a victim of Cheryl. We NEVER get a get focus on how Josie feels about finding out that Cheryl was stalking her. We get maybe two minutes combined, if that? What we get is an extreme example of a white woman tormenting a black woman and getting entirely away with it. And any discussion of racism within Season 2 would be remiss if they didn’t mention it. 

The worst part is, Cheryl’s obsession with Josie came from Josie rescuing her from Nick. So Josie is essentially repaid by Cheryl (and the writers) for her heroism by having her life destroyed.

Melody and Valerie: After spending most of Season 1 in the background and getting just a few moments in the spotlight, they spend Season 2 almost entirely in the background before vanishing from the show entirely. Their only plot where they get any focus is when Cheryl, a white character, permanently destroys the friendship between them and Josie, three black characters. The Pussycats then break up for good, never to reunite. 

Chuck: In one of his only plots of the season (or ever), he is framed by Cheryl for stalking Josie, of which, of course, Cheryl is actually guilty and he is innocent. But as I mentioned before, there are unavoidable racial implications tied into white women knowingly falsely accusing black men of being predators. Historically, numerous black men have been lynched because of it. Cheryl essentially preys upon society’s fear of black men by accusing Chuck, even if that’s not her primary motivation—she’s still using racism to her advantage. And again, any discussion of racism in Season 2 would need to talk about this scene because of the ugly history surrounding it and the writers’ ready willingness to indulge in it. 

 What’s more is that again, we NEVER get to see how Chuck was affected by being falsely accused. We NEVER see Cheryl apologize to him. Similar to how Josie being stalked by Cheryl was treated as negligible and barely worthy of closure, Chuck’s circumstances as falsely accused black man is treated as wholly negligible and unworthy of closure or further attention. He is just yet another black character whose life Cheryl destroyed because she felt like it.

Toni: The one black teen cast member who wasn’t involved in the Cheryl stalks Josie. Instead, her character is treated as negligible in other ways. 

First of all, let’s address what you said about Toni being a prop for Bughead. She absolutely wasn’t. She demonstrably wasn’t. And while I’ve tried to avoid being rude, the assertion that she was is such a transparent display of, “What about this other thing, huh? Isn’t that problematic, too? Huh? HUH?” that it gives secondhand embarrassment. You obviously saw me and others discussing how Toni was a prop for Cheryl and instantly went, “Well, Bughead did it first!” It’s very predictable. 

To put it plainly, Toni wasn’t a prop for Bughead. She wasn’t introduced solely for encouraging the ship or just to help that out. She was introduced to an obstacle for them and a potential love interest for Jughead. The difference is that the latter allows her agency and independence. The former does not. She is essentially a secondary character for Jughead, but she is not his prop.But even if she was, if we go along with your logic of her being a prop for Bughead and then being a prop for Cheryl (which you don’t even deny), is having a black character go from being a prop from one white couple to another white character really progress? 

What I’m saying is that it wouldn’t be an improvement if Toni went from being Bughead’s prop to Cheryl’s. It doesn’t make it less problematic for her relationship with Cheryl, it just means that both relationships have issues with racism. Neither one is better than the other. So for all your trying, Cheryl still isn’t in the clear. 

 But I don’t agree that Toni *was* a prop for Jughead or Bughead. She was his secondary character and mainly to introduce him to the world of the Southside, but not a prop like she was and still is for Cheryl. 

Let’s look at how Toni is written in regards for each character. 

Jughead: Toni has her own interests in school newspaper and photography. She warns him that if he doesn’t join the Serpents, he’ll be targeted by the Ghoulies and is proven right. Tells Jughead numerous times when she thinks he being a dumbass. Tries to help decode the Black Hood’s cipher with Betty and Jughead and snarks on Betty’s ponytail. She has a one night stand with Jughead and dumps him the morning after because she realizes he isn’t what she needs. Discusses how her uncle has kicked her out of the house for her sexuality and is reduced to couch-surfing or else just living on the street. Has an identity as a Native American, encourages Jughead to meet with her grandfather and learn about her people’s heritage, gets angry when he appropriates her people’s suffering, advises Jughead on what he can do to make amends and helps him lead the protest at Pickens Park. Pushes back against Cheryl’s bullying when Cheryl, apropos of nothing, begins insulting Toni and all of the Southside students. 

Cheryl: For no adequately explained reason, suddenly starts reaching out to Cheryl, who has never apologized for the way she treated or anyone else and has never done anything nice for her in the slightest. Stops pushing back against Cheryl’s bullying and just accepts it so she continue to reach to help Cheryl, who responds to Toni’s kindness with homophobia, which she also never apologizes for. They get together in a scene all about Cheryl and Cheryl’s pain and suffering, with Toni making a speech about how awesome Cheryl is. Toni joins the River Vixens for no reason we get to hear other than that Cheryl wants her on the squad and then basically exists the next few episodes to comfort Cheryl. 

Is Cheryl still bullying other Southside students and just not Toni? Is Toni still being bullied by the students Cheryl was initially leading against the Southside students? We don’t know. The show doesn’t want to remember Cheryl being a bully or Toni being a victim. It’s all about Cheryl being a victim of everyone now. 

Case in point: the conversion therapy plot. Here Toni exists to rescue Cheryl from the Sisters, in a plot that’s not about Toni being badass or how much Cheryl means to her when she has so few other people, but to give a decidedly prurient examination of Cheryl’s pain and suffering and of how much of a victim she is. And when Toni shows up to rescue Cheryl, Toni gives another speech about how awesome Cheryl is. This plot exists not to “humiliate Cheryl,” as some have accused it of, but to paint Cheryl as the woobiest woobie to ever woob at the hands of her mother, uncle, religion, and society in general, and to also demonstrate that the show writers aren’t afraid to go to extreme and distasteful lengths to do that. The next episode has Toni joining the show musical mostly so she can be there to comfort woobie Cheryl about her monstrous mother and make yet another speech about how awesome Cheryl is. And the next and last time we get a plot that really focuses on Toni, it’s when Penny is holding her captive. 

And if you think that we’re going to get a focus on how traumatic this is for Toni and how hard she’s fought and how angry and scared she is about her situation, then you’ve forgotten that Riverdale doesn’t give a damn about black characters, because the scene exists to be 25% about Jughead outwitting Penny and 75% about Cheryl being a Badass Archer Warrior Goddess. 

 When Cheryl is captive and Toni is her rescuer, the show is about what a woobie Cheryl is. When Toni is captive and Cheryl is her rescuer, it’s about what a badass Cheryl is. But the focus is never, ever on Toni. And that’s why I’d say she’s a prop for Cheryl. 

Previously, I’d discussed Toni’s parents not being so much as named despite her main character status while Cheryl got detailed focus on her immediate family throughout multiple seasons, including an emphasis on all of the ways her mother had hurt her. In the second season, it didn’t bother me as much, since Toni was a secondary character. You’re right in that we could have been told her name, anon, either when she was Jughead’s supporting character or when she Cheryl’s character, but since she was still a supporting character, it didn’t honestly bother me that much. After all, we only learned Kevin’s dad’s name in the second season, and he’s an actual character on the show with a central role in the first season. 

However, it is glaring how few times Toni’s family receives even a mention when she’s supposed to be a main character during the third season, especially when she’s compared to Cheryl, who continually has plots involving her family.It really does look like the show is more interested in focusing on a screwed up wealthy white family in their big Gothic manor than a mixed black-Native who struggles with poverty and lives in a trailer. I’m just saying. 

 And consider this: we never learned her parents’ names, but when Toni was Jughead’s supporting character, we got to hear about her family. We got to hear about her personal struggles with her uncle and the problems he caused for her. We got to meet her grandfather, we got to learn about Toni’s culture, and we got to see how angry Toni was about Jughead appropriating her family’s history. Toni was allowed to have struggles as a bisexual teenager and a descendant of the Native Americans, and both were treated as entirely separate issues. 

 Contrast that to when Toni becomes Cheryl’s supporting character in Season 2 and continues to essentially be her supporting character in Season 3. I don’t think Toni’s uncle or grandfather ever get so much as a single other mention. And the only other time Toni’s identity as a WOC came into play was when it was relevant to college admissions. Even though Toni being kicked out of her house by her uncle would be a strong basis for Toni to relate to Cheryl’s issues with her mom, we never see it. And why? Because the Choni relationship is not written to be about Toni and Cheryl bonding together. It started as and almost always has been about Toni being unfailingly supportive of Cheryl. 

 And that’s why I say Toni wasn’t a prop for Jughead or Bughead but is one for Cheryl. She was a person with her own problems outside of Jughead when she was his supporting character. She wasn’t allowed the same agency when it came to Cheryl. 

TL;DR: Cheryl plays a major role in the plots of all the recurring black teen characters’ storylines in Season 2, with ugly racial implications for each one.

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The politics are the cough. the disease is flooding to chase the trend of personal brand building. Events and confusing communities and arguably the arrangement of the direct market itself. No simplicity and lots of expense with shakeup one after the other.

And some transparently business or out of story disrupting existing (in humans versus mutants)

Starting Marvel, as an example, is harder than figuring out where to come in on the Fate series. I mention this because Comics are often compared to manga and yet however convoluted in silly may get for the most part you buy one collection, or let's not kid ourselves pirate, or wait until an animated adaptation comes out realize that it's pretty much faithful, go back to the core comic and so long as you start from the beginning you can follow to the end. Even if it's based off of a visual novel chances are everything will progress from beginning to end. It's usually when that models messed up with that something becomes destructive and difficult to follow or deal.

Unlike with manga where if you're having trouble following where to start with, like the Fate series, you can at least enjoy the latest Nasu verse offering. especially if you can turn your brain off and just engage with one example. Or if you don't want to deal with that you can just go to an entirely different property from a similar publisher that scratches a similar itch.

Like the premise of America Chavez buts I think she did it wrong? Well it's not like you can just switch over to Champions because that's a mess as well along with Miles Morales Spider-Man and ms. Marvel or spider woman.

it's expensive, patchy, filled with all sorts of weird continuity that you end up having to buy just to start. As such only the dedicated fanbase could possibly tolerate it but that also is exclusive in the sense that it's so to them with a history that it feels kind of off-putting.

I like the comicsgate comics I have heard of. I can also understand why we try to move away from that. Such as very obvious p*** tracing. And so on. Yes supposed diversity has basically led to a similar story of we're here now we're going to f*** the status quo too strongly relating to the audience or the author's pandering.

But it's not just they're going to have a trans person in an announcement. Which is a pretty major character trait I imagine that they want to talk about that or include it in the announcement.

the discontinuity does not help you build upsetting characters characterization and Circumstance. This is what I mean you're following themes story and events building to something then a new author will come in and he or she will wreck all that up so that they can go in an entirely different direction. Okay maybe you don't like the homosexual overtones of Eddie Brock and Venom. Maybe you want to stick it to all the slash shippers on Tumblr. But they've been the people who been following the comic and there's been a multi-year build up with sleeper, Eddie Brock and Venom's son.

going no now Eddy has a son he doesn't know about. oh and he was in the car that killed a child and him and Venom hate each other? Basically says f*** that other story we're going back to this story because I liked it better when I was young and I like it this way. And this kind of hostility is constant with every Changing of the Guard which can happen almost every two to three years. This keeps happening right when things are starting to get good or conclusion is reached. this undermines any death any major event or twist especially when it's in the headlines as if it's going to be meaningful

we can't even engaged in the illusion that someone has a plan charting something out when it feels like it's always fly by the seat of the pants the slightest whim can blow off the direction. We know in our conscious nothing that happens matters or at the very least when things end and we don't move on to something else then realize that there was a change but it seems seamless. Or at the very least it's a damn good seem that makes a very likeable and unique and distinct quilt. Again comparing and contrasting with manga

basically constantly ragging on the Politics as if that's what's causing the problem as opposed to Poor practices is off. yeah the customer service is definitely a no-go. But let's not kid ourselves Fanboys started it

I can straight up say that if you had a book that was straight up gay. like it starred the gay couple that once was Rescued by Captain America including his childhood hero And they were joined by the gender-bending exiled courtesan. you know those girls that always hang around in the background of Thor comics and everybody talks about winching and all that stuff? What if we actually focus on one of them and we threw in some mythological deviant queerness with the idea that men who practiced a certain form of Witchcraft had to be ladies. Now in practice this often meant anything from cross-dressing to performing ceremonies with a freaking dildo. But this is Comics so instead I can just go with the idea that after he uses magic so much he can turn or does turn into a lady. At first it's inadvertent but then he Masters the power so much that can transform into any lady. So he can go from weak little nerdy witch man to a Vanir (super durable pretty strong) or she giant.

It gets even more so when apparently he can change not just to a generic woman but any specific one. so he can literally clone an individual lady alive or dead. If she's dead you can act as a vessel for her soul so effectively while he might be booted deep within he can resurrect anyone's female loved one. Until changes back. The Twist is that while he won a beauty contest to be one of Odin's many many side pieces due to the politics and sociology of the time and the setup Odin didn't like admitting that they were both men or equals. Now the crossdressing courtesan isnt necessarily the nicest person. In fact the number one thing that characterizes him is that he hates the alpha male warrior culture or at least what he perceives of the negatives of it of Asgard. But that doesn't necessarily mean that he provides a good alternative. This will be a total retcon. not only would this make Odin effectively bisexual -although it's long since established that it seems like he's banged about so much he has had a child with everyone but his wife- but the idea that Loki and Thor grew up exposed to this weird gender-bending courtesan who tried to compete with the affections of their Queen Mother just so that that way he could get ahead and hated showing the absolute loyalty and Devotion to Asgard seeking glory in battle and death as opposed to conniving Gatling favor and trolling for booty while having to serve drinks for the Warriors that came by and were celebrated in the castle Hall.

Probably make up all sorts of relationships with other lesser-known Danny's that haven't been as much part of Marvel Thor but are important or at least well-known for the tradition. I would also shamelessly ripoff @gumon and her take on Norse mythology. With giants that just naturally produce children whether male or female. anyway ignoring all the continuity just so I could bring in the mythology that I want I would have it so that he was ultimately exiled because he got set up on a failure assignment. He got assigned to the Blue Mountain the traveling planet or set of rocks now that was the home of one of the Warriors Three the blue guy well the guy who wears blue and looks kind of like Angus Khan

The entire point of this is to get a different eye view of the Marvel Universe. What was it like to be one of those disposable pin-up girls. What is the gay population in gay culture and gay people been doing and light of the world that's been invaded from the ground been in a Perpetual fight with remnants of terrorists from World War II. And of course how they've been in for you property and making their lives and how are they responding to the fact that New York finally recognizes their marriage and of course life in the Twilight years as a gay couple that's constantly facing mortality. Also with the usual hey I'm an immortal mystical being who's having to relearn how to be human after having lived a life with a God's but neither being loyal to them nor a particular loyal to my own people. Along with the issues of the shapeshifter gender Dynamics and identity and all other sort of things. Pretty damn gay book. But I read it

Kids like imitating what they see so ripping the idea that someone's going to take some of the more iconic X-Men looks and style themselves after them when they know that their mutant doesn't seem wrong. I like the idea that we're going to open with someone who manages an online community for mutants. I like the idea of Trailblazer I like the ladies thick and I like the fact that she has a more utility power that she's going to have to work with and around hopefully being clever though that backpack does run the risk of becoming the Omnitrix and having the solution for every problem that you need.

Basically I like the children of the atom a bit more than the whole lineup of the new Warriors. I think people really should give the characters a chance so if you're turned off by yet another set of incest siblings in Marvel ya no problem or argument here.