#like it was decent this time and we're qll getting better

[fireheartedpup]

My parents like to do this thing where they invite me over, don't specify a specific time, don't text until the time they expect me to be there, and then ask why I got there late.

I'm not gonna let it get to me today but it still sucks.

[nofoodclub]

It later t is back again his living situation is 100% couch surfing i feel like mostly bc of the amount of times he showers here and all of his stuff in the car i don't really care tho is that just the drugs? Maybe. I really like him ignore qll of the other shit that woukd normally have been way out of the question but like why he is still decent and most importantly nice and respectful to me. I know this shouldn't go any further for my own good, i would really like it to. My mom would freak out if she even knew 2 details about his life but his character is pure and i woukd still take him over there. Very eccentric and that totally fits with that they would be expecting from me. Idk man what's my health worth anyways I'm not in control of this addiction and i would like to not pick up anything else. I dont think i would i woukd never iv or try dark at least i think i wouldn't... it's me who knows. I enjoy his company and we're gonna see where it goes before i call this off i want to take it day by day and right now the day is going great he said he had stuff to do after work but showed up here with a dairy free milkshake for me how very wonderful i love milkshakes but never have them since they kill me is coconut bliss and almond milk super yummy im happy just that kind of thoughtfulness is very noticed and appreciated. What im concerned about it the financial thing that im by accident putting forth that im ok and have some funds and don't want to be taken advantage of. I dont think that's gonna be the case but the little voice that says technically homeless and drug addict i could do so much better. At this point he is filing the slot i need filled. Cares about me or at least seems to and i get the wonderful feeling of sex with a partner i actually care for and who's pretty decent at it. It took him being fucked up to eat me but as soon as my period is over that better happen again it was good he just needs to stop worrying about if its good and just have fun with it like i do bjs hes m he clearly enjoys them by the noises i get and how quickly he came for me the first time i did it am i one of the best bj givers idk man but i woukd like to think my enthusiasm gives me a leg up on this shit. The dick is so bomb tho hitting all the right spots and of lord he's a little cautious still but every time getting rougher i fucking LOVE it everyone had always treated me so softly in bed and he knows what to do this isint something i want to give up without seeing it play out. So self: as soon as i try heroin or do something overly manic and bad i need to go for my own safety and future. I could still do go with my life even though I'm now a meth user. Fucking dirty filthy disgusting unemployed unhealthy meth smoker going nowhere. But no iv use. Eever. That still will fuck you up i smoke for pleasure not to get so smacked i can't function so kewl it in check bitch over and out