#like it rly just pisses me off to no end that people will comment shit like shes power tripping her recent win on immortal songs was bc she

[thegirlisuedtobe]

haahhh,,,, even after five months the controversy is still going around,,, when will it go away where I can just watch one of joo hyunies videos on YouTube in peace

[mithliya]

idk which ex ur talking about in that "insane things my ex has done" but i relate bcuz i am currently in a relationship with a gendie who has started saying recently that my aversion to male genitalia is incredibly transphobic even though she knows i have been sexually assaulted many times by men (and am and always have been a lesbian lol) (also sorry if this is inappropriate but i feel like i have no one else to confide in.)

im not sure where i talked about her but i can tell from what u said which ex i was talking about lool its my 1st gf and i never rly talked fully about this bc my ex has since transitioned (only socially tho afaik) & continued to be questionable as fuck in various ways and went from friendly w me to shit talking me bc how dare i share my opinions on my blog which she decided to keep regularly checking for years after our break up despite her having a gf and us hardly ever talking (partially bc of me bc frankly in hindsight i was far too forgiving n despite that she demonised me at the end of our relationship n was weird in various moments after we remained friends)

but she was (& is) also a gendie, which is fine bc when we were together she wasnt like irrational about it. she was the one who told me that SRS doesnt work the way i thought it did, like the genitals didnt magically change and there arent like no differences like i thought, instead she said the differences were obvious. but near the end of our relationship she insisted to me that the way to fix her issues was to make our relationship an open relationship, said that my body made her insecure about her own body n she should sleep w people with a similar body to gain confidence in it. prior to that i was not for an open relationship at all but those comments made me feel like saying no would make me selfish and that if thats what she needs to accept herself then fine yanno. then ofc not soon after she starts e-dating this trans woman who is an abusive creep & rapist (like not even exaggerating here. but ofc those accusations were dismissed for a while bc the trans woman called the woman who came out about the abuse a terf n ppl believed that until trans women also began to call this out). i was like um hows dating someone with a diff body than u and even a diff sex going to make u feel better about ur body when thats the entire reason for the open relationship? never rly got a proper answer but whatever i let it be. then that trans woman wanted to be in a throuple with us basically like wanted to get with me and my ex and would openly fantasise about me to my ex. my ex said "oh she wouldnt be into that, shes not into penises" and the trans woman was like omg why.. :( and my ex was like oh shes penis-repulsed etc and the trans woman was like aw how sad i hope she gets help for that!! n my ex agreed. then my ex told me about this n i was like... what the fuck? it took me a bit but after a few days i was like hey this comment really pissed me off wtf do u mean gets help for that.. and my ex was saying that i should seek therapy to stop being penis-repulsed and should see trans women as women and be open to trans women in a romantic & sexual way basically and i was clearly upset by that n i was like. ur telling me to seek conversion therapy. n she was like nooo and i was like what so u mean some kind of exposure therapy against the "phobia" of penises? and she was like yeah just like that! n i said... thats literally a form of conversion therapy that was done in the past to other gay ppl.. exposing gay ppl to the opposite sex's genitals to try to change their feelings towards it is literally a conversion therapy tactic.

anyways my ex n i ultimately broke up bc it turned out the open relationship was meant to be one-sided somehow and her doing things was ok but if i did things it made me a cheater somehow and my comfort was repeatedly disregarded, i didnt like that trans woman at all at that point n my ex would still keep dating them n it was just all too many bad things at once so i was like fuck it im done w this. ultimately my ex realised that this trans woman is indeed an abuser and i also realised the my 2nd gf who i got with soon after i broke up w my ex is also an abuser. but then when my ex began to transition she started to show more of that homophobia she showed during our relationship like saying the f-slur (calling ppl that) and saying its ok bc "im a bisexual man" which was just.........erm... anyways in the end our last form of communication was her getting her friends to gang up on me for ~ruining the fun~ of a game of among us and then she talked shit about me to one of my close friends (been friends for 14 years) who she never even met and was like ~omg shes so problematic im sorry i just cant handle it anymore~ ......

anyways i feel u lmao. its not inappropriate dont worry and im sorry u went thru that too bc its painful to love someone as they are and yet they basically tell u that ur lesbianism means something is wrong w u bc ur truly not into males at all. honestly i think its best for u to end it asap instead of making the mistake i did, nothing good came out of it for me and i shouldve left for good at the first red flag which was my ex's compulsive lying about serious issues like rape & fgm, or immediately ended it when she was saying that i should go thru conversion therapy otherwise im transphobic

[moonoo-yaps]

anyway since it's midnight now time for some nsfw ✨ (talking about what in hell is bad)

bro I still can't get over how in what in hell is bad they make you do a little quiz at the start to decide which love interest you get like that's wild and some of the questions are,,,, interesting,,,,,,

the way I ended up with satan (wrath) AND NOT ONLY THAT but his "mental illness" is depression??? 😭 man

and his kink is listed as spanking which 🧍🧍🧍 I have no comment on

haven't played through much but like the first h scene using "solid object" and "hot thing" took me tf out 😭😭😭 LIKE WHAT IS GOING ON HELP ⁉️⁉️⁉️ AND THE COMPARISON TO PISS???? I CANT

I actually kinda like how out of pocket and horny on main the mc is its rly wild 💀 like I can't believe the opening scene is them getting off and then an angel appears to kill them

not adding tags I don't want people to find my silly little rambles I'm just saying shit for no reason other than being a silly goofy guy ‼️

[boredandelusive]

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

The main issues with the CM fandom

Right, I’ll keep this simple and sweet. Why is it those who write dom spencer mostly use Spencer Reid’s trauma from prison and the show in general to make him more dominant. 

Two major problems with this: trauma doesn’t make you more dominant, and those who use it as an excuse are sexualizing his trauma. Listen, I get you guys think the shit he went through in prison and the previous things he’s experienced would make him rough, but it wouldn’t.

From my own experience of trauma, and though it’s nothing like Spencer’s, I can honestly say the way you treat it is absolutely disgusting. The shit he went through in prison, which I only mention because it’s the main thing everyone uses for his dominance, would make him still be a submissive. If anything, and I understand it makes him process things differently, he would still be the same as before: submissive. 

It would’ve be about the scenes, dynamics are never just the scenes, they’re the dynamic. He might have anxiety attacks from what he experienced, flashbacks, ya know, the normal thing one experiences after trauma. 

There’s a reason I never write him, and it’s that him as a switch doesn’t fit, it never has. There are two things that piss me off more about sexualizing his trauma: people use it for the wrong reasons, and it’s so normalized it takes someone on the opposite end of the spectrum to realize something isn’t right about it. 

I think that’s all I’ll say on it, and you can argue withcha mom, not me, but no arguing in the comments, none of that shit, got it?

73 notes • Posted 2021-07-23 23:29:09 GMT

#4

Just a friendly reminder Ryan Lucan has very submissive eyes. I'm just saying, he would ask to be pegged.

86 notes • Posted 2021-09-23 20:30:58 GMT

#3

“Know Your Place, Damn Fool.”

Has: Pegging, Monsterfucking, Brat Sukuna, Handcuffs, Sex Toys, Strap-ons, Overstimulation, Femdom, Subspace, Handjobs/Blowjobs, Anal Fingering, Degrading Kink, Mommy Kink, Sadism, Masochism, Cock Slaping, Choking/Breath Play, Edging/Orgasm Denial, Finger Sucking, Sukuna passes out at the end.

♘

“And what’s got you in a mood now?” Sukuna asked in a taunting voice, which she rolled her eyes at. 

“You, brat. You annoy me. This is the third time you’ve either ripped the clothes I’ve given you, which were my old ones, or you’ve gone through my things.” Amari answered as she pointed to the clothes in the trash. 

“You gave me a body, now you have to deal with it.” He reminded, which gave her a sinister idea. 

“You’re right, I did give you a body. You know, there’s this tactic that puts men in their place, are you curious?” She asked as she moved to the closet, though You Man stayed quiet for a moment.

“Whatever you have planned won’t work. In case you’ve forgotten, I’m the one in control here, Amari. I’m the King of Curses.” He boasted as she came out of the closet with a bag. 

“Oh, I know, but even the King of Curses needs to be taken down a peg or two. So I ask again, are you curious about what I could do to make you learn your place?” She asked firmly, which he hummed. 

“Sure, why not? And when you’re underneath me, I’ll remind you of your place,” he moved toward the bed and stripped down to nothing. As he got onto the bed, she took her clothes off down to her bra and reached inside her bag. Grabbing something out of the bag, she reached for the handcuffs first. “You’re not putting them onto me.” 

“Aww, why not? I even bought two pairs for all four wrists,” she teased before putting them on the nightstand. As she fastened the first pair on, she reached for the second pair. “Break either of them and I’ll have to punish you, got it?” She asked before moving off of him. 

“Ooh- yes ma’am,” he rolled his eyes, but she paid him no mind and reached to get her harness. Putting them on, she adjusted them around her waist and thighs. “Wait, what’s that for?”

“Assuming you don’t recognize it, this is a harness for a dildo. I’m going to peg you until I think you’ve learned your lesson.” She said as she turned around to grab one of her larger dildos. Admittedly, it was 9” x 6”, so the girth was way wider than average. 

“Why is it that big? That’s not gonna go in me, is it?” Now she could hear the fear in his voice, and it made her cackle at his voice. “Stop laughing, it’s not funny.” 

“It is, though. Don’t worry, it’s only nine inches long and six inches in girth. I’ve even made sure it’s closer to how big you are. Besides, I’ll prep you first before I fuck you,” she assured before moving to the nightstand to lube her hand. “And I want you to feel it all.” 

Though he crossed his legs, she quickly pied them both open again. Slowly sticking her fingers inside his ass, she kept an eye on his facial reactions. She could see him squirm around, though it wouldn’t last. “It feels weird,” he whispered, but she smiled. 

“I know, I just have to find it,” she muttered before using her two fingers to search for his prostate. “It should be right around-.” 

“Ah-!” He gasped suddenly, which she chuckled at his reaction. Thrusting her fingers inside him quickly, the breathless noises falling from his lips couldn’t be hidden. “U-Untie me, brat!” He tried pleading, though it didn’t work at all. 

“I haven’t even gotten to fucking you yet, and you’re already wanting me to stop? What happened to that curiosity about how a woman can put a man in his place?” She taunted as she continued thrusting her fingers into his ass. Continuing to brush her fingers over his prostate made him groan suddenly. 

“Sl- ah- slow down-fuck-,” he couldn’t put himself together enough to give her a genuine reaction.

“Slow down? I haven’t even fucked you yet. I’m just playing with your prostate, Sukuna. What, are you getting close to coming? It would be kinda pathetic if you came without me touching either of your dicks.” She knew the degradation would be something to set him off, and she loved making him stutter from pleasure. 

“Let me go, you skank!” He wanted to get out of the handcuffs, but he couldn’t. 

“Mistress,” she corrected as she continued alternating her fingers against his prostate. “Call me Mistress, or Mommy, either one works.” Knowing this would’ve been a long process for him to learn, she kept an eye on his reactions. 

“I’m not calling you that,” he breathed out, though she didn’t like that answer. Pressing her fingers against his prostate again, she slowly rubbed the spot repeatedly, slowly, but repeatedly. Hearing him trying to muffle his groans, she stopped suddenly. “Hey!” 

“Hey yourself, baby. I told you you could either call me Miss or Mistress, Mommy if you’re down with it.” She reminded with ease, though he shook his head. “I’ll leave you here, high and dry,” she answered before starting to move away. 

“Don’t-,” he said with ease, which she chuckled. 

“Then don’t stop me again, got it?” She asked with a stern tone, followed immediately by her slapping his thighs. Hearing himself moan, he stopped himself halfway, hoping she wouldn’t pick up on it, but she did. “You little masochist. How cute.”

“I’m not a masochist, don’t call me that,” as much as he didn’t want to admit it, he wanted her to hit him again. Using her free hand, she slapped his dicks this time, one by one. Instead of hearing him try to restrain himself, a whorish moan escaped before he could realize it.

“I mean, I could easily whip your thighs until you cry, if I wanted to. I wonder how many licks it would be before you beg me to touch you again. Either way, I think I’ll still get to pegging you before I do anything else,” as she removed her fingers from his hole, she moved off the bed and went to her nightstand. Putting enough lube on the toy, she could tell Sukuna grew anxious, even to the point of pressing his legs together. 

Hoping it would alleviate the tension growing, it did nothing, which made her laugh. Moving back between his legs, she thought for a moment before reaching her hand for one of his dicks. “I wonder what would happen if I played with one and not the other?”

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117 notes • Posted 2021-11-27 19:23:47 GMT

#2

treating eating you out as a privilege for Spencer so he spends time begging and begging you to eat you out

eventually you've conditioned him to want to eat you out as much as he wants permission to cum

Okay but hear me out-

He'd wrap both his arms around your thighs and continue eating. It really sticks out with the idea of "I'll eat until I'm full"

But if you told him to slow down, he'd probably speed up out of spite. He knows he'll get punished but to hell with it all, ya know?

And his punishment would either be milking or overstim until he has a dry orgasm. Maybe until he cries, who knows?

And he wouldn't apologize, he would ask to eat you out again, knowing he would overstep it, not care. It would boost his confidence, yk? Make his dick jump, maybe some whimpers as be gyrates his hips against the bed, trying to get himself off.

But you notice, tell him to stop if he doesn't want to get punished. But brat!Spencer? FAWK all that, would probably get punished by a fucking machine.

I'm rambling, my fault... You get the point.

130 notes • Posted 2021-08-26 02:24:11 GMT

#1

04. (NSFW)

CW: Choking, Hickeys, Riding, Fingering, Oral Sex (m receiving), Mistress honorifics, Mommy honorifics, Ma’am honorifics, Scratching, Sub!Spencer Reid, Domme!OC, praise kink, degredation.

♞

"I'm going to give you thirty seconds to be in my room, fully naked." She moved out of the way of the door and let him inside. Seeing as his eyes still showed desperation, he quickly stepped inside. She waited thirty seconds like she said she would, then went to her room.

Everything but his boxers were off, and it seemed like he was self-conscious. "I thought I told you to take everything off, no exceptions." She reminded as she pointed to his boxers. Peeling off her shirt, she walked closer to him.

"I know, Ma'am, but I-," he started, yet she just didn't want to hear him anymore. Kiara pulled him close by his waist and kept her hands there while kissing him. He didn't know where to put his hands, so he kept them in front of his bulge.

"Do me a favor next time: listen to your mistress when you're ordered to. Do you understand?" She asked in a low tone, which he whined and nodded. "Good," while she talked, she slipped her hands into his boxers. One hand went to his dick, which he jolted from the sensation, yet the other hand went to his side.

"Mmh- wait," he broke away from the kiss, and it looked like he contemplated something. "Can I take your clothes off, please?" It was adorably hot how he asked for everything, even if he hadn't realized she already gave him permission.

"Of course you can, baby boy. Take my clothes off," she ordered, which his hands fumbled to her bra first. Unclasping the hook, her boobs dropped, and he loved the sight of it. His hands toured her stomach, everything from the stretch marks and down.

Running his fingers on the hem of her shorts, he dipped his index fingers under the waistband before sliding her shorts down her legs. What the seductive part was he kept eye contact the entire time.

When her shorts were at her ankles, Spencer Reid was on his knees. He had a pleading look in his eyes, like he wanted something but needed to beg for it. "Go on, tell me what you want, baby boy. If not, I can't please you the way I want to."

"Can I taste you, Mistress?" The most submissive look in his eyes made him hard to resist.

"Ooh, I would let you, but you haven't taken these off, yet," she bent down to grab his hands. Once she had a light grip on his hands, she slid them up her legs, then her thighs, and stopped at her underwear. "So be a good boy and take them off for me."

Once again, he nodded as a response before pulling them down for her. "Stand up and get on the bed," as much as she enjoyed seeing him on his knees, she would rather fuck him than have him begging, not right now.

Quickly following her orders, he got onto the bed. Laying down on the bed, she crawled on top of him but didn't put her bodyweight onto him. Lightly grabbing his throat, she leaned toward his ear, not to his mouth yet. "Be a good boy for me, will you? I would hate to punish you on your first scene."

"Yes, ma'am," he whined, unconsciously rolling his hips under her.

"Good, but let me taste you first." she let go of her hand around his neck and moved to his waist. The one thing she kept her eyes on was his facial reaction. Pulling his boxers down, his dick sprung free. "Look at you, already so hard for me. God, you're so beautiful."

He whimpered, most likely from hearing her appraisals. She wrapped a hand around his dick, just before slowly stroking him. It wasn't fast enough to get him off, in fact, it was agonizingly slow. All he could do was whine loudly, and she enjoyed every sound he made.

Placing her mouth on the tip, she heard him let out a high-pitched whine. The fun thing about virgins? They're so fucking responsive it hurts. Each touch you make to someplace hypersensitive could've set them off.

Instead of immediately pleasuring him, she wanted to tease him. Seeing as his legs were spread apart, she ran her hands up his inner thighs. It gave him a sense of what would happen next, but it also made him anticipate what she would do to him. At first, it was light kisses to his inner thigh, which little gasps fell from his lips.

But as he got comfortable with the kissing, she sucked in those same spots, as if marking where she would form hickeys. The first hickey she made caused him to suck in raggedly, almost as if this gesture alone would've gotten him off. However, as adorable as he looked lying on the bed with his chest rising and falling unevenly, she still wanted him to feel penetrative sex.

By the time she fully took his dick into her mouth, he was a whimpering mess. The warmth from her mouth is what set him so close to the edge. Because of her previous teasing, his body jerked, no, writhed under her touch. "Please, Mistress," begging wouldn't get anything done, despite how much she wanted to hear it.

She didn't listen to his whining but instead swirled her tongue around his tip. Kiara took her time with him, even if it was agonizingly slow, but it was hot watching him squirm around, trying to please himself from her mouth. He must have been sensitive by now, so much so that his dick twitched in her mouth. That's when she knew to pull away, even if it meant he let out a string of desperate moans.

"W-Why did you stop?" His chest heaved in sexual desperation, almost like he wanted more, but he wasn't going to get what he wanted.

"Don't sound ungrateful, baby boy. You said you wanted to taste me, right?" she asked, which he quickly nodded. "Then sit up," she ordered, which he did as told. Crawling onto his lap, she hovered just above his dick, not giving him the satisfaction of her pussy just yet.

Out of instinct, he placed either of his hands on her thighs. She took his right and moved it into her inner thighs. When she let go of his hand, he slid it inward. "Y-You're so wet, ma'am," he wasn't expecting her to be sopping wet, but if this was because of him, he wanted to savor it.

"And it's all because of you, baby boy. Now be a good boy and please your Mistress," she ordered. He slid his hands toward her cunt, finding her clit easily. That wasn't the only thing he did, however, as he placed his mouth on her nipple.

He lightly circled his thumb on her clit, yet he inserted two fingers inside her hole. "Good boy," she moaned out. He started thrusting his fingers into her and swirling his tongue around her nipple. It didn't take him long to brush against her G-spot, which her walls fluttered around his fingers.

He sped up as if wanting to see what she would look like high from her orgasm. When her left nipple was hard, Spencer moved his mouth to her right one and did the same. She couldn't last long if he continued doing this. "Baby, I-," her voice escaped her, followed by an immediate moan.

"I like making you feel good, Mistress," he still had the same look in his eyes, but she couldn't focus on him anymore. "I wanna make you feel good," something must've flicked in his brain, because he rolled his fingers inside her.

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[benevadeca]

THIS ONE is the shit talk post. bc i started volume 7 of the LN and i sure did have issues previous to this but....just oh my god it sucks full offense. Like I know I shouldn't expect particularly skillful prose from an isekai LN written abt bad otome / harem tropes with like zero irony but GOD. spoilers under the cut and its EXTREMELY long apolgies to anyone scrolling by.

My full feeling towards hamefura is great concept, incredibly disappointing execution the futher the plot drags along, and it was never particularly Fantastic to begin with outside of initial “oh fun” vibes. Like def gonna recognize some of the issues w it lie in shall we say constraints of the medium itself, the anime/manga/LN market is a deep trench of capitalist hell i dont wanna wade into too deep, but i do get the importance of grabbing attention off the bat / necessity of having easily recognizable characters. but there are ways to do the above without like, completely destroying all concepts of pacing (the 7 yr timeskip for one), or just completely Reducing yr characters to say 2-3 recognizable traits with zero character development / concern for them outside of convenient gags / plot convenience. but hamefura does both of the above completely ad nauseum and with neither awareness of the irony nor concern

also just gonna get this out of the way, but also the more just. blatant Issues of the series, the fujoshi-ism whenever LGBT stuff is handled At All (so just...generalized ignorance rather than willful, but nonetheless the comments like...kat wanting to “protect her brother from becoming Like That” when she suspects he has a crush on nicole / worry abt the danger of sophia “falls into that hole” when she reads stories with gay people in them. *kermit weed meme* its not all fucking yaoi you stupid fujoshi ALSOOOOO the fucking. new characters introduced in vol 7 and one of them being like...explicitly and unrepentantly a transmisogynist caricature. like BRO???

and ofc there’s the pseudo-incest BS of having keith be completely and unironically treated as a potential love interest to kat, and again w/ new character intros having a 13 yr old included in the ~new love interests~ like...yr killing me. yes you can argue it’s just bc they’re BS anime tropes but that’s exactly why the potential for parody and subversion is so ripe, and to have it just fall into the same pit of ZERO reflection nor examination is just pathetic

Like!! a big draw for me of this kind of isekai, the “the new world im in is a piece of media i consumed from my past life” there’s a lot that could be done with that! and something i basically never see done, not fully, is the ability to oh say...distinguish fact from fiction. take out the anime context of this and all isekai are just a conneticut yankee in king arthur’s court, or dante’s the inferno. the basic plot tends to boil down to: MC gets swept into a new world armed with Secret Knowledge/Ability, and included within this is knowledge of the future and their imminent destruction. the dramatic irony! the self fulfilling prophecy! this is greek tragedy bullshit my dude! fuckin shakespeare or whatever. it has SUCH potential for fun- a hero trying to act against fate but unsure if the future is immutable, that some events will always be preordained? or if their actions will themselves cause their own end, that they could be walking themself blindly into the path of their own ending? listen the potential for introspective development is astounding and we get none of it. like the closest to a soliloquy we get is kat’s inner mind conferences but even then it’s ONLY for humor, and i love the humor dont get me wrong, but it’s just totally unbalanced for some of the content included (like...including the doom and destruction as a fun backdrop but they RLY continuously use the same child abuse/murder/misogyny/kidnapping plotlines ((fucking the thing with nicole?? i still havent processed that actually but im PISSED.)), reiterating these things absolute ad nauseum with ZERO respect for any of the characters they then place in these situations. not even in just this way the worldbuilding is just so haphazard and strung together with paper clips it rly feels. like im all abt throwing logic out the window to make something fun happen but...it seems like its only ever done to make things Edgier or Worse somehow....pls pick the tone you wanna set and have some damn consistency.)

also in that vein they rly cross a line with raphael’s character for all that they make the PERFECT narrative foil to katarina and having him be relevant ONCE before completely sidelining hm literally i have SOOO much to say abt raphael it makes me want to go absolutely crazy. i wanna throw bricks through peoples windows.

 also, re the LN, the prose just str8 up sucks. i get no LN is ever particularly great with the combination of amateur authors being put through the washer of amateur translations to then be posted on sketchy bootleg websites, but even then. it’s just...tirelessly repetitive, in gags and dialogue, in katarina having the exact same priorities and character and awareness she had age (8-but-kind-of-a-teen-also) to the modernity of (almost-an-adult-and-past-the-climax-she-built-up-in-her-head-for-almost-a-decade). also having Real Things happen, like gerald and (ugh) keith’s confessions and...not even putting them on the backburner so much as just, having them brought up when convenient and no other time. writing katarina with no willingness to be proactive in her own life so she lets things just Happen to her while she herself remains unchanged like....author are you perhaps projecting yr own habits? yr own writing skillz?

there are maybe 40 more things i could complain about on end (raphael, the treatment of kat’s realization of her new doom, the more general worldbuilding issues, the NICOLE THINGGGG, just my own general gripes on how you could very easily make these characters have consistent personalities and developmental arcs/that diatribe i had abt the possibility for exploring metatextual analysis thru Fun Quirky Anime PlotlineTM/once again even more of my #Thots on the missed potential of isekai as a genre at large)

[pl-dubois]

Just... Happy - Nolan Patrick

A/N: hoooooooly shit hi!! i’m finally back with another fic lmao took me long enough. realistically, i should’ve posted this fic (when was the stadium series??)  a month ago but i didn’t so i’m doing it now! this was really fun to write and i think it’s rly cute and i hope you guys do too! feedback and comments are always welcome!! Word Count: 2022

Glancing at the clock, you saw it was already 8pm and groaned loudly to yourself.  You were supposed to be at home, watching the start of the Stadium Series game that your boyfriend and his team had been excited about since it was announced.  But instead you were here, stuck behind some car that was going even slower than they needed in order to teach you a lesson about being impatient.  All you wanted to do was curl up on your couch, watch the game, and not move until Nolan got home.  You pressed down on the gas pedal a little harder, trying to send a message to the driver you were following to hurry the fuck up.  Fortunately, you were only about 5 minutes from home, but unfortunately, the car in front of you made the journey feel like an eternity.  At this rate, you hoped you would only miss the anthem and starting lineups, not puck drop.

As if your day couldn’t get any worse, the vehicle you were following decided it was a great idea to slow down even further to piss you off more than you already were.  It was bad enough that you had to work, but that was just the icing on the cake.  Letting out an angry shout, you hit your steering wheel and quickly managed to regain your composure after taking a few deep breaths, but even the thought of work alone made you beyond angry.  It was the reason that you weren’t able to see Nolan play in person tonight.  You had tried to take the day off weeks ago, even argued with your boss about it when he denied your request, but eventually had to give up the fight at the threat of losing your job.  

The car in front of you slowed to turn and you sighed in relief, finally being able to speed just a little to ensure you got home in time.  Soon enough, you were pulling into your building’s parking garage and your next few minutes went by in a blur.  One minute you were getting out of your car about to sprint up to your apartment, and the next you were settled on your couch in more comfortable clothes with the game on.

You knew it was going to be a good eventful game from the moment you sat down.  However, when the first of many scrums broke out early in the first, you got up to pour yourself a glass of wine; it was the Flyers and the Pens, you were going to need to do a little self-medication.  After sitting back down, you then proceeded to experience a rollercoaster of emotions as the game progressed:  booing whenever the Penguins scored, cheering when your boys scored, almost spilling your wine when you gasped and covered your mouth in shock and worry when Nolan got hit, shouting “That was hot, Nols,” at your TV when your boyfriend delivered the retaliation check back, and disappointment when you thought the boys couldn’t get the lead back.  

Fortunately, you were wrong.

You were on your third glass of wine, and had finished just about half of it, when Jake came in hot and tied the game.  This time, when you jumped up to cheer, your wine went with you.

“Fuck!” you exclaimed, your excitement getting cut short.  Running to grab paper towels, you mumbled to yourself,  “Oh my God, please don’t set in the floor, please not the floor.”  Thankfully, you got to the spill before the red stained the hardwood and managed to clean up the mess before the break for overtime had ended, which meant you could be stressed out while watching the game again.  Both teams had played well, and both teams had been very aggressive, but now it was down to the wire.  You thought you were on edge when you started biting your nails as overtime began, but when Nolan took to the ice, your increasing heart rate told you otherwise.  Your eyes were glued to the TV screen with rapt attention, hope and nervous energy filling your body.  And then, just like that, the game was over.

“CAPTAIN CLUTCH!!!” you jumped up, laughing and shrieking with joy.  “Oh my God, and Nolan with the primary assist!”  You sighed, relieved, and flopped back onto the couch with another laugh.  You had to go out to meet the boys now, there was no doubt about it.  

You stuck around for the first bit of the post game, but ultimately gave up, knowing you’d hear all about it from the boys anyway.  Sending TK a quick text inquiring about after game plans, you changed out of your lounge clothes and did a little bit of light makeup.  After putting in a request for an Uber, the buzzing of your phone told you that Teeks had gotten back to you.  Laughing at his ridiculous use of emojis, you slipped on your shoes and went down to wait for your driver.

You arrived at the address TK had sent you in good spirits.  Thanking your driver, you made your way inside the crowded venue looking for your boys.  The smell of alcohol and sweat was almost overpowering and you had already lost count of how many people bumped into you just as you tried to make your way away from the entrance.  You scanned the crowd for a bit, looking for any familiar faces, until finally Travis and Ivan fell into your line of sight.  Silently thanking the amount of wine already in your system, you braved the mass of people to make your way over to the pair.  Sidling up to Teeks, you grinned at Ivan and raised your voice above the blaring music.  “Did I miss anything big?”

“Y/N!” Travis exclaimed, turning and wrapping you up in a giant hug.  “You’re here!”

“I am!” you laughed, worming away to give Ivan a quick hello hug as well.  “Sorry I couldn’t be there in person, guys.”

“Uh no, don’t even,” TK waved you off, letting arm rest on your shoulders, “you’re here now and that’s all that matters.”

“Okay, okay fine,” you laughed, glancing around.  “Wait, have you guys seen Nolan?”

The only response you got was Ivan pointing behind you with a smile.  Turning around, you met the gaze of your boyfriend who was quickly making his way over to you.  You met him halfway and with a huge grin, he pulled you into his arms in a hug that caused your feet to lift off the ground.  He spun you just a little, and you laughed and poked him in the back as best you could.  “Nolie, put me down!”

Your request was granted, but as soon as you were back on the floor, Nolan’s large frame bent over yours and captured your lips in a breathtaking, passionate kiss.  You felt the sounds of the venue fade away as you were lost in the feeling of Nolan and Nolan alone.  You pulled him ever closer, threading your fingers through the soft hair at the nape of his neck, the familiar taste and smell of him causing you to finally relax after a stress filled day.

After what felt like an eternity, you finally pulled away from each other.  The kiss itself left you lightheaded and you had to steady yourself by clinging to your chuckling boyfriend.  Looking up again, you met Nolan’s eyes as he grinned down at you.

“Hi there,” he said, giving you a light squeeze where his hands were resting on your hips.

“Hey, handsome,” you beamed in return, sliding your hands across his shoulders and letting them rest on his chest.  “Someone’s in a good mood.  Wonder why that is.”

His only response to your words was a laugh and an even bigger smile.  Momentarily forgetting you were in a public space, you reached up to caress Nolan’s cheek and raised yourself up onto your tiptoes to return the loving kiss he had greeted you with earlier.

But just as Nolan had pulled your body flush against his and deepened the kiss, you heard someone clear their throat behind you.

“Okay, lovebirds.  I definitely think that’s enough,” Travis laughed as Nolan quickly pulled away and straightened up.  You felt your face go hot; you already knew that the flush in your cheeks mirrored his own.

“Sorry,” Nolan smiled sheepishly over your shoulder at his friends behind you, tucking a strand of hair behind his ear.  Taking a small step backward, to put a little distance between the two of you, he met your gaze once again.  Even in the low lighting, he was absolutely stunning.

“I’m really glad you decided to come out,” he said, just loud enough for you to hear. “I missed you tonight.”

“I missed you to, Nol,” you frowned, remembering once again that you hadn’t gotten to see him play in person. “I’m so sorry I couldn’t make it…”

He was quick to wave off your apology.  “Don’t even worry about it.  You’re here with me now.”  Looking down at you, his eyes were filled with so much love and adoration, you could’ve melted right where you stood.  You just nodded in response with a small smile before leaning up to press your lips to his once again, briefly but sweetly.  

“Congrats, baby,” you murmured when you broke apart, fingers playing with the ends of his hair.  “You deserved this.”

With a laugh and a fond shake of his head, your boyfriend all but swept you up in yet another electrifying kiss.  The way he moved his mouth against yours was intoxicating, but the alcohol already in your system was definitely playing a part in that as well.  As Nolan broke the kiss gently, he let his forehead rest against your own.

You let your eyes flutter closed as you just enjoyed the feeling of his warmth near you, sighing softly.

“You okay?” came Nolan’s voice, tinged with just a hint of worry.

“Yeah,” you opened your eyes again with a smile to meet his bright blue ones.  “Just… Really, really happy.”

“I love you so much,” he smiled softly, tracing light circles into your hips with his thumbs.  “I’m so lucky to have you.”

Before you had a chance to respond, Nolan suddenly straightened up and declared in realization,  “That’s it!  You’re my good luck charm!  You were watching, and we won.”

“Nol, I always watch your games,” you giggled at his dramatics.

“Well, yeah.  But this is different!”

Letting out a full laugh, you playfully gave him a little shove.  “Yeah, okay, Patrick.”  You glanced around you looking for the friends that had been teasing you earlier, but were now nowhere to be seen.  

“I think we grossed Teeks and Ivan out,” you joked with a grin, taking Nolan’s hand and giving it a small squeeze.  “Shall we go find them?”

“Oh definitely,” he smiled in return, pressing a light kiss into your hair before leading you into the throng of people in attempt to locate the rest of his team.  The way he was being more open and smiley than usually made you wonder if he had gotten ahold of some alcohol, though the adrenaline of coming off of such a big win played a part as well. You knew the carefree, more laid-back side of Nolan from when the two of you were alone at home.  His mood tonight was infectious; a smile had never left either of your faces and it made you beyond happy to see him like that.   Gazing up at him, your heart was overflowing with love and you thought the butterflies in your stomach were going to somehow escape from you.  Even after being together for some time, you still felt the same way as you did at the beginning of your relationship.  Being with Nolan was easy; he loved you unconditionally and you loved him right back.  No matter what, you knew he’d be right by your side and you couldn’t be luckier to have found someone who understood and treated you as well as Nolan did.

[goddamnmuses-a]

Dan Watches: Star Wars: Episode IV - A New Hope

Alright so I did this for Episode I which you can find here and then Episode II which you can find here and then Episode III which you can find here. So here’s my weird live reaction/note taking/whatever this is.. to Episode lV.

I remember this being my favourite of the original trilogy because it sets everything up and basically kick started everything but lets see if that changes when i’ve finally got through all of these. 

Also I’m just watching whatever version i can find online because I can’t be bothered to go and find my dvd of it so yeah.. whether we get weird updated version or original effects or whatever, who knows. 

All the old effects like how C3p0 looks and r2d2 are impressive. 

There wasn’t really anything in the opening crawl i felt like commenting on, no big THEY DID THAT IN THE OPENING? but i guess it’s the first one that came out so that makes sense. 

WTF did the stormtroopers use to get that door open, that was so explosive wtf.

Also the blasters are like set to 10000 and smoke is everywhere. 

How did nobody shoot the dorids?

Yooo little Ani nice suit my dude. 

Hold on, she sent a msg with r2 to go to Obiwan which for 1 howd she know he’s alive? I’m gonna presume her dad said or something and 2.. ..why not just.. go yourself? 

So when they’re set to stun a Stormtrooper can shoot someone no problem

Also we dont get enough stun weird circle blaster shots

Ohhhh she didnt go because the scan for lifeforms thing alright ill allow it

but my dude.. even so.. maybe just shoot it just in case? like.. droids exist and people know about them?

DARTH VADERS LITTLE HANDS ON HIPS! Omfg he’s like “God damn, this bitch again.”

This Vader is a sassy boy. 

I love this guy who works with Vader and doesnt mind chatting back to him. 

Loving the droids in the desert. 

R2 does not look like it would work in a desert. 

C3 like “He tricked me into going this way” stop being a lil bich. 

WOOTINI!

The crawler thingy is badass. 

I thought that was a magnet it was just a big sucky pipe. 

GONK

Oh yep theres the new effects. 

Droids sleep? I guess power saver mode. 

Wtf is that dome droid

Luke! Luuuuuke! Iconic 2 words there. Well reused for that episode of Rebels where Obiwan watches from a distance. 

Bocce.. what a classic language. 

OMG OWEN JUST LET HIM GO INTO TOSHE STATION TO PICK UP SOME POWER CONVERTERS JEEEEZ 

How is that “wasting time with friends” and not chores, going into town to get something sounds like a chore to me. 

Why did they get an atromech anyway? Like.. what’d they need the other droid for? 

C3 is a real bro lbh, if it wasn’t for him, R2 would be with the jawa still. 

Oooh oil bath. sexy. 

I wonder if people ship R2 and C3 because tbh it makes sense to me. 

Luke got an erection at the mention of the rebellion. 

Now it’s getting harder at that random blurry image of his sister. 

R2 is a cheeky lil shit. 

This is just some good home life shit. 

Dat soundtrack. 

You know what.. it’s a really nice home. 

Is it just me or is Owen dressed kinda Jedi-y. 

So is “Sand People” like the racist way to say “Tusken Raider”?

Obiwan, thats a ridiculous fucking noise. 

“Hello There” iconic. 

You know what the Prequels do add a lot to this. 

A young Jedi named Darth Vader.. im sorry.. thats just not a name. 

For someone who wants to get off the planet, Lukes like “Naa but i gotta get home”

Obiwan also just being like “You know what, fuck it here.. lets go.”

You know what as much of a bitch as that guy who gets force choked is, he’s a good actor. 

Also Tarkin yay. 

NOOOOO OWEN AND BERU! YOU BASTARDS!

I feel like he should have dropped to his knees or something there. 

That is a scary droid. 

Cool door close. 

Thats a weird ass CG droid with a hole in. 

None of the other storm troopers gonna wonder why Dave’s being weird? 

Wahey! Figrin Dan and the Model Nodes! Love that Jizz music. 

Who just ugs on the back of a bartenders shirt? Wtf Luke

Yo he didnt even pay for his drink, free drinks?

Who gets the death sentance in 12 systems and goes around bragging? 

The first arm cut off and theres all sortsw of blood which there shouldnt be because lightsabers cauterize the wound, tut tut. 

Gooood scene with Han and Obi, honestly i keep forgetting to comment because im just watching xD

Wahey! Greedo 

If we’re doing a han shot first thing.. Greedo shot first in this version and missed and then Han shot him but tbh i prefer the Han shot first.. makes him more interesting. 

Jabba looks smaller. 

Casual Boba Fett appearance. 

Yooo Poncho. My boy Cal approves. 

Fuck those weird long nose aliens. 

The Falcon looks so good. 

Get those poor guys by the Death Star laser a damn rail. 

We just cool with igniting the lightsaber in front of Han and Chewie? Chewie at least knows wtf it is.

Chewie is a badass. 

Let the Wookie win. 

WTF that isnt the lightspeed effect.. it’s like a weird blanket tunnel 

The fact they get onto the Death Star with no issue is kind of ridiculous. 

The motion of Darth Vader is kinda just.. not fitting right. 

Han just pat Chewie like hes a dog. Rude. 

Han just gets caught up in this without a choice rly. 

He just wants those sweet credits. 

Also Set Design on Star Wars is amazing. 

Leia just lounging all sexy like 

Also does she have a stain on her tit? .. Not that im looking >.>

The Jedi being called a religion is kinda weird but i guess accurate. 

This has to be the worst star to a friendship for all three of them. Chewie seems cool though. 

I also thought the trash compactor scene was earlier on in this movie than it is. 

Who the fucks voice was it that said “Thats your imagination” ? 

How the fuck are they standing if the water is that deep?

I liek the touch of the monster whos name im sure i learnt but forgot let go as if it knew the trash compactor was about to turn on, that implies it has a safe spot down there that it stays. 

Some of the voices sound off on this but ah well 

Hans already a little Handsy with Leia but i think Harrison Ford was sleeping with Carie at the time so like.. i get it. 

Obiwan just strolling about, as you do. 

I love just these giant pits with walkways with no rails. If I worked on the Death Star it’d be a nightmare for me to get around. 

“NO WAIT THEY’LL HEAR!” ...and they’re not gonna hear you shouting?

Stormtroopers just shooting the shit is the best. 

You know what with everyone being like “Wow that ships a shitheap.” I can understand why the prequels made their ships look nicer and newer. 

I love that shooting a door panel in star wars just makes it so the doors wont open at all, thats some good shit. 

Lukes as bad of a shot as a Stormtrooper. 

First little kissy incesty moment but hey it was on the cheek, universally thats fine but im sure at the time this was him setting up that Luke and Leia were gonna end up together, before he decided they were siblings. 

Vader just standing there, lightsaber already out like “Ahhh Mr.Kenobi I’ve been expecting you”

As lack luster as the chroeography is in this fight im kinda thinking of it as like, they’re reading each other, like Obiwan and Maul’s final fight. 

I don’t really know why Obiwan just chooses to die like that but heyo. 

Vader stomping on Obiwans clothes? Why? I guess because he gave himself to the force and thats the first time he’s seen that? 

I love the gunner seats moving around, idk why i just love it. 

Whats the point of the ear peices if they’re just gonna shout at each other. 

Not mentioned it until now but everyone says Leia wrong. 

They’re really harsh to Han tbf

This is like if you got an Uber to a place and then the Uber driver got pulled into a police station because you’re a terrorist and then you have a go at the Uber driver for wanting to leave after he’s got you out of there. 

Another kiss for Luke.. .. okay

I like how Biggs earlier scenes are deleted so when he shows up it’s just this random dude who somehow knows Luke

That air traffic control guy has no idea what hes doing, nobody is even in the air yet or moving, wait. 

Man X wings are cool, makes me think of Battlefronts VR mission thing where you get to pilot one and it’s the coolest VR thing ive done. 

For a space station the size of a moon you’d think they’d have enough fighters to just wipe out the rebels no biggy. 

ALSO if they know the rebel base is on that planet, why not just blow that planet up? 

YAY WEDGE

The targetting computer seems very invasive. 

Those turrets are useless. 

I would have rated it if they let that random dude blow up the Death Star.

Tarkins thinking face is beautiful. What a man, 

If Luke missed this shot, everyone knows he’s turned his targetting computer off, so they would be PISSED

RIP R2. 

HWHAT!? 

Woooo Mr.Solo. 

Well.. Well done Luke you killed a lot of people, some just trying to do a job and live their lives. 

Han, Leia and Luke all went off together all holding each other.. like.. Threesome? 

I’m sorry but after that, someones doing some fucking. 

Leia just giving her lovers, dont @ me, a medal. Thats why Chewie doesnt get one, he wasnt there for the orgy. 

R2 looking fresh. 

You know what, that is a good complete story that actually works on its own, i appreaciate that. 10/10. :P

[kelvintimeline]

STEPHANIE’S POST ACTUALLY SEEING ENDGAME REVIEW--SPOILER FILLED LIST OF EVERYTHING WRONG WITH TIHS MOVIE I COULD NOTICE IN BETWEEN MENTAL RANTS

 okay, so, during the movie, i spent hafl the time compiling rants in my brain about eveyrthing wrong with it and then emailed myself every point so i would not forget what made me mad

this is one of the most passively racist and sexist movies i have seen in a while it was just... completely devoid of any meaningful women or people of color (or... women of color) for so much of the film? and those who were present got shafted a lot. like... literally all of the women except for nebula existed to tell a man’s story.

which brings me to the point that we NEED to talk about the theme of family in this movie--it’s constantly brought up. clint misses his family, tony now has a family (because just dating someone isnt’ a family? this is a very nuclear famiyl oriented understanding of family), gamora and nebula are family, natasha never knew her family but the avengers are her family

and tha’s the crux of it--natasha calls the avengers her family, steve calls avengers family, but that’s not good enough to save her

when natasha and clint are on the cliff, clint makes a great point about why he should die--he’s become a terrible person (he spends half the movie just killing “evil people” who are all people of color, see: talking about how racist this movie is--literally “ronin” clint is better at a samurai sword than a japanese man and now speaks japanese?? why?? it felt like a bad martial arts parody movie--like those racist movies ppl would make about white men slaughtering samurais just not GOOD) and natasha has finally erased the red in her ledger by doing good. natasha dies anyways (literally forces him to kill her) because she’s stopped being useful to her “family” and his family is an actual family.

which brings me to--steve and natasha explicitly talk about two things--how they are family and how it is important to move on.

moving on is a CENTRAL part of this movie--the time travel works in large part so everyone can move on from their losses. thor moves on from his mother’s death, tony gets closure with his father, clint gets what should have been a last moment seeing his happy family, etc. steve gets to see peggy.

steve does not move on. steve LITERALLY HAS MULTIPLE LINES ABOUT HOW IMPORTANT IT IS TO MOVE ON AND STEVE DOES NOT MOVE ON. steve tells a gay man mourning his dead husband while trying to date someone new that moving on is important and steve still goes back in time to stay with peggy.

what’s worse, steve goes back in time and tells bucky to wait for hima nd not do anything stupd KNOWING HE MIGHT NOT MAKE IT BACK BECAUSE HES CHOOSING TO LIVE OUT HIS ENTIRE LIFE IN TEH PAST.

what’s EVEN WORSE THAN THAT--literally right the fuck after bucky and sam gets dusted he’s alreayd thinking about peggy? he never once mentions sam/bucky besides a quick mention of bucky being alive to trick past steve.

more fucked up shit around sam/bucky/steve--sam offers to go back with him but bucky doesn’t?? when old man steve returns, bucky doens’t even try to talk to him? despite being the one to notice him? steve doesn’t stand with bucky and sam at tony’s funeral why?

steve and bucky and sam and so many otehres are FAMILY but not enough family to make steve stay

steve aint worthy

steve apparently DID STAY IN THIS FUCKING TIMELINE? since he didn’t return via the pym particles or wahtever he literally aged into the present AND LET EVERY BAD THING HAPPEN YOu DON’T DO THAT TO PEOPLE YOU LOVE HE LET HYDRA AND TEH WINTER SOLDIER PROGRAM HAPPEN??

unless i don’t udnerstand the time travel--> separate unierse thing which is possible BECAUSE ITS’ FUCKING STUPID

if the universe splits into a different universe when the stones are removed--this would be an ENTIRELY DIFFERENT TIMELINE WHEN THANOS DESTROYED THE STONES which means when tehy returned hte stones, they actually would’ve reverted back to the timeline before he destroyed the stones-an infinite loop

why couldn’t they snap tehir dead back to life?

where did thanos’ army come from?

when his army disappeared why didn’t gamora disappear too?

did they think i would forget that they could de-age people? scott was turned young again--why can’t they make steve young agian, lmao

why didn’t steve take every single vial of particles he could get? like he only took a couple ie as many as were necessary for the plot

how did thanos/gamora/nebula travel on only one vial? why werne’t other ppl sharing vials then??

why was okoye gone all film? like the answer is misogynoir but like... seriosuly why?

WHY DID TONY BLAME STEVE FOR THE SNAP HAPPENING?

WHY DID STEVE SPEND LTIERALLY THE ENTIRE FILMT ELLING TONY HE TRUSTS HIM, THAT TONY IS RIGHT (EVEN WHEN HE WAS EXPLICITLY WRONG AND WAS PROVEN TO BE WRONG), AND THEN CRYING OVE RHIM?

also they still fucked up the timelines?? the timelines are changed AFTER they removed the stones nad yet they did shit to fuck up the timelines trying to get the stones--which means every dumb ass thing they did to get eth stones remains in the timeline. unless steve returns the stones to BEFORE they actually took the stones, in whcih? that makes no sense?

nebula’s “network” connection between her prsent and past self made no sense either

thor literally made valkyrie (who hadn’t been with the asgardians from many years) queen so that they could write her out of his movies as he’s not a member of GOTG

ltos of girl power moments actually worked like that--every time a woman did something cool, it was to harm her in some way. valkyrie is “queen” so she’s no longer relevant to thor’s plot

the moment where all of the girls (besides the dead ones :) ) teamed up just had them get beaten down in teh end? like it was for nothing? that’s not... girl power. also, they wouldn’t even be able to fit all of the important men into one screen so it’s just embarrassing

talking about weird shit about women--EVEYR woman EVER in the series comes back but they don’t even mention sharon, the girl steve was dating, at all, like even confirm if she was dusted or not, beacuse they know that makes steggy look bad

literally even JANE got new moments but sharon couldn’t come up

talking about jane--making thor hung up on her is fucking weird he has a girlfriend? who he treats like shit, tbf. thor’s character was an extended fat joke. he liteally says he isn’t fit to be king and that he was just pretending aftter getting a speech from his mother saying that isn’t true. ragnarok thor was killed off in the worst way. also his mother literally existing just to be like... an emotional spport woman was misgoynistic as fuck lmao

like thor’s cahracter WHOMST?

also, like, the hail hdyra moment was the nastiness shit i’ve seen in a long fucking time?? including antisemitism in your movie just ot reference a comic book run that was panned by both people who hate antisemitism and also antisemitic fanboys who like good writing (like it just wasn’t written well) is just... antisemitic. it was a reference for anti semitism’s sake

the moments they choose to get this shit was also so fuckign arbitrary? you couldn’t retrieve half these stones at like... normal times? also how did they know where to find them in the shield vaults or like where to find the pym particles

the writing in this movie was just ‘what is most convenient for moving the plot along/fanservice/humanizing tony’

talking about humanizing tony did pepper give birth like the sceond after the snap? their child is so old for a five year time skip like... i guess since tony didn’t lose anyone in the snap besides peter it didn’t affect how horny he was

also the peter/tony stuff was so oevrblown???????? THEY WEREN’T CLOSE?? TONY TREATED HIM LIKE SHIT FOR 80% OF HOMECOMING??

its so nice and convenient that ned got snapped too--all of peter’s friends get snapped so no one is 22 and out of high school (also i refuse to watch far from home because i feel like old man steve dying is just gonna be a fly by comment)

talking about the snap--the list of names in the graveyard made sense but it felt like a war/actual genocide memorial and it felt... cheap and gross and also why teh fuck was it placed in that random part of town?

ALSO LIKE?? wanda and clint talk and they make it seem like vision and natasha’s death are equally bad the mcu rly does just ahte women

also the women all get make overs?? why is natasha dying her hair in the middle of the end of the world

why did tony get a funeral but natasha doesn’t?

the guardians having a funny moment with thor instead of discussing gamora felt........ bad

there were two steves in the main universe how the fuck does that make sense?????? how does that not affect the timeline also what happened to peggy’s husbAND?

there are other things wrong with it but this is all i wrote down in my emails to myself. there were a lot of individual moemnts that pissed me off but then something else would happen to piss me off and i would forget what i was mad about before that

[ldarchive]

all or some of: 10, 18, 19, 20, 25, 28, 30, 35, 36, 39, 40, 41, 42 for the ask meme =) lay all the ari facts on me

ty indigo ilu… shepardposting no limits (HOPEFULLY THE READMORE WORKS?)

10. What kind of friend is Shepard?

the “will give you shit but also go to the ends of the earth” for you type i suppose…he shows his affection thru gentle bullying. he can also be kind of genuinely an overbearing asshole at times, but he gets better with it; it takes him a while to, uh, adjust to having “friends” in the first place. he’s a dad friend if your dad is kind of a grumpy punk with a rude and morbid sense of humor

18. Share a headcanon about Shepard and their LI.

[struggling to come up with something i haven’t talked about a million times] uhhhhhh

kaidan wanted to propose with one of his dad’s old rings but he figured out it wouldn’t fit ari’s finger, so (with his mother’s blessing/assurance that his dad would have been more than happy abt it, etc) he had the gold melted down to make a new ring. in my mind it looks smth like this and yes ari totally cried a little

it also took kaidan weeks of near-misses to work up the nerve to propose even tho he Knew ari was gonna say yes, he was just really worried about getting it right. eventually he just did it on their balcony and ari got surprised and dropped his cigarette and kaidan got a cool new engagement burn scar on his arm but it was nice

19. Why did they fall for each other?

ari fell for kaidan bc he’s not just intelligent, but perceptive; he’s a realist who errs toward optimism and making the best of bad situations; he believes people can and should be better; he has a surprisingly understated sense of humor; he can keep up with ari’s teasing; ari asks him if he’s a romantic and he denies it and then gives, like, the most romantic answer in the world. he’s cute.

kaidan fell for ari bc……. he has big arm. ok but uh i think it’s because he’s, pretty practical and matter of fact and doesn’t care all that much about the social trappings that kaidan continually tortures himself with… he makes kaidan feel Seen and Understood but doesn’t make a big dramatic deal out of everything kaidan tells him, he just treats him… like a person. for someone who’s been living with & defining themselves by their issues for as long as kaidan has, it’s pretty incredible to find someone who just makes him feel like a human being again

20. What are their common interests or hobbies?

a lot of their relationship is like, meeting each other in the middle haha, but there are some things they both enjoy a lot with no caveats:

- cooking! kaidan’s a foodie and it becomes ari’s therapy hobby after me3, so it’s smth they enjoy doing together a lot. they try to do it more often if possible, but their general friday night tradition is to come home, crack open a couple beers, and cook a big meal together

- they are both outdoorsy Adventure Dads… it takes a while before ari can handle more than a walk around the park but eventually he and kaidan can go hiking again and they both rly love it. i imagine theyd be into stuff like camping, swimming, kayaking, etc too dfjnfg

25. Is there something they fight about?

well, everyone gets into arguments occasionally, but i don’t really think they fight all that often… not that they agree on everything all the time, but they’ve both gotten pretty good at talking things out and also deciding whether or not something is even worth arguing about in the first place. when you are dating someone during the apocalypse and don’t have to any time to waste those are both pretty valuable skills haha [i think the most they ever fought in their relationship was post-me3, when ari got out of the hospital and they’d both started to ‘settle in’ to their new lives but it was a bumpy adjustment and they were both going thru a lot of trauma and stress and bottling it up etc. it wasnt a great time but they worked thru it]

28. What would they like to change about the other?

it’s a double-edged sword, bc it’s part of what attracts kaidan to him as well, but sometimes kaidan really wishes ari had more a self-preservation instinct!! sometimes his tendency to charge headfirst into trouble is sexy, sometimes kaidan is tired and sad and it just gets really old

ari wishes kaidan would loosen up a little although, again, the straight-laced military thing (unfortunately) kinda does it for him. he would also take away kaidans chronic pain if he could

30. When did they realise they fell in love?

fr kaidan it was shortly after virmire and it absolutely scared the shit out of him ahaha

ari is dumb so he didn’t really realize until after horizon, which was probably a bad way to figure that out,35. Is there anything they dislike about the other?

ari appreciates how thoughtful kaidan is but sometimes it’s like… a bit… much lmao, he’s not as navel gaze-y as kaidan is so sometimes the process of having to talk everything out gets tiring. for kaidan it’s kind of the opposite, he sometimes perceives ari’s lack of forethought as a lack of care, which isn’t really true, he just works differently

on a much pettier level, ari gets annoyed that kaidan wants to sleep in all the time and kaidan gets annoyed that ari drowns all his food in hot sauce. hello, i worked hard on that steak36. What are their best memories together?

advtykefd cheesy but i like to think they got to take a little bit of leave after me1 so… they rented a log cabin somewhere (not sure if they went back to earth or just a colony planet somewhere?), turned off non-emergency comms on their omnitools and just chilled for a bit… went hiking, had drinks at the tiny bar in the closest small town, holed up in the cabin all day and had sex lmao it was probably the most peaceful week of aris entire life and it left a big impression on him

ofc later there’s stuff like their wedding day, their son’s birth, adopting their daughter etc. kaidan would probably even say, with the emotional distance provided by time, that horizon counts cuz even tho it sucked at the time nothing could have been better than realizing ari was alive

40. Is there someone in the squad of ME/ME2/ME3 Shepard dislikes? Why?

MIRANDA LOL… they just. do not see to eye or get along at all. i find their relationship very entertaining for this reason bc the dynamic of commander & XO who are both trying to be professional but do not respect e/o even the tiniest bit is so funny. theres a convo w her in me2 (i think it might be the one where you can initiate her romance?) where if you choose the renegade dialogue is hilarious to me… miranda makes some snide, passive aggressive comment about shepard based on their background (it’s like “it’s amazing how you’ve managed to succeed despite being _____” lmao) and then shepard is like “OH i get it, you’re jealous bc i’ve been more successful than you and TIM likes me more even tho i’m a big piece of shit idiot?” i love it it’s so funny. they both suck. eventually they do build some kind of mutual respect btwn them but theyre still… not exactly friends. i think in me3 ari was like “damn i hope miranda’s ok” and then when he actually met her again remembered why he used to be so pissed at her all the time lmao. (after me3 tho she saves his life Again and they probably have a lot of time in the hospital to just talk so maybe they do become genuine friends)

41. Are there any important relationships in Shepard’s past that defined their character? /42. Is there someone who had a great influence on Shepard?

just gonna try to combine these i guess,

- his parents, although he only got an unfortunate short time with them, he takes after both of them a lot, and the things his parents imparted on him stuck with him, but especially as he gets older he’s also really aware of the mistakes they made

-the reds, in general. not a really positive influence lmao but. they were his home for years & he learned how the world works through them, for better or worse… it’s why he’s a bit of a cynic, although later he is able to characterize it more as “this shit sucks But we can make it better” rather than just “this shit sucks”

- anderson was the first person ari ever felt saw him as a human being, and it was… a slow-going thing to learn to trust him ahah, but wanting to be worthy of anderson’s approval shaped a lot of his career decisions

[http-rory-blog]

helo there palios, it’s super nice to meet ya’ll/be a member of this group. you all seem so damn sweet? like? already in love over here?? anywho, the name is rachel, twenty years old and a member of the gmt+1 timezone. this little shitbag right here is loml rowan rory, who i’m excited to further develop with ya’ll.  you know the drill, below the cut will be a series of bullet point information about rory herself, followed by whats probably me rambling about possible plots with a lot of ‘???’ here, there and everywhere. 

i saw VICTORIA JUSTICE today walking around the fair. Wait, no that was ROWAN 'RORY ANDERSON, the TWENTY-ONE year old CISFEMALE. i’ve heard SHE is currently a BAKER in Clairemont and people say they’re AUDACIOUS & QUICK-WITTED. Watch out though because i’m sure that i’ve also heard people say that they’re SHORT-TEMPERED & CONCEALED.

TW: MENTIONS OF VERBAL ABUSE.

rory, as she prefers to be referred as, was born and raised in clairemont. to this day, she’s still to ever even leave the small town. having never ventured beyond it’s welcoming signs even for a vacation. 

once upon a time, rory did have a smooth-going home-life, her mother and father were over the moon with the blessing of a beautiful baby girl. though it wasn’t to last long, with rory being a colic baby, it drove her father absolutely mad. he couldn’t stand the constant crying, and therefore tried to refrain from being in their home as often as he could, leaving his wife to do all the hard work.

cutting to the chase, he began to drink to cope with the situation. which eventually, resulted in him getting fired from his job when he turned up to work entirely out of it. which unsurprisingly, only furthered his depressive state and need to sooth the pain with alcoholic substances.

around this time, he was never cruel or abusive toward rory or her mother, he did love them. however, he was unable to see through his depressive state he was quickly falling into and became nothing more than a deadbeat; a shell of a person he used to be.

it took years before rory’s mother had had enough, packing her bags one day and walking out the door. it seemed she packed everything, wiped the house clean of anything that was once hers, that was, everything but rory.

for days, the little girl waited day in, day out for her mother’s return; but it never came. when this reality did hit her, it hit her hard. rory was physically unable to understand why her mother left her behind, what she had done so wrong to deserve it.

since her mother left, rory and her father barely got along; with him refusing to do anything but watch television and sit on his ass all day, it left them struggling to make amends meet at times. as soon as she came of age, rory had to take responsibility, picking up a part-time job while in highschool to support them both

the further he progressed to practically never being sober, the more her father would often make comments toward the daughter he once loved and adored so much. it wasn’t that he was trying to intentionally hurt her; he thought he was being funny, amusing, spewing words at her about how she’d probably end up just like him, how neither of them had a future, they were nothing more than the scum beneath everyone else’s shoes, she is just as worthless as he is.

though, after years of saving extra pennies that weren’t spent on food or household bills, etc, rory finally saved enough that she could escape her childhood home, somewhere that once held comfort that had become a nightmare to return to daily.

also, she works in a bakery because somehow the sour lil bitch she is can manage to create some damn good treats tbh.

basically, rory can be pretty bitter, a bit of a pessimist at the best of times (although she tries to play it off as her being a realist), mommy issues??, tbh daddy issues too??, quite the lower class citizen, considering she any pennies she got growing up were spared on bills and food w/her father not working, doesn’t bother to try achieve or make anything of herself either as her mom and everyone else believe she’s going to wound up just like her dad so she’s like?? lmao probs so why bother try make something of myself. is very iffy about getting too close or attached to anyone; fearing they may leave, is generally a very daring person? like, if you told her to jump of a bridge she probably would like ??? idk man. also don’t tell her she can’t do something because she will prove you wrong even if it kiLlS hEr. 10/10 would fight you if you bug her enough, tbh even if you’re like 6′3 and 180 pounds she’d still try take you?? is she okay?? not rly but anWYay. that’s my smol feel free to hit up those dms if you wanna plot bECAUSE I’M A PLOTTING SLUT GIVE ME EVERYTHING. ALL THE DRAMA. I WANT IT ALL.

 i’m gonna throw out a couple of possible connections while they’re floating around my brain, but tbh i work better brainstorming 99.9% of the time so slide into my dms and lets get out plot on.

lowkey i’m always down for the big brother/little sister type of plot, that’s lowkey my aesthetic tbh oops.

it would be pretty cool to maybe even have her mom’s kid(s) around? like, i feel like her mom has 100% moved on and gotten married and is living her picture perfect little life, meanwhile rory is just being bitter af. 

i can only really see her having one or two friends she’s like.. deathly close to? like they would probably know bits and pieces about the stuff that has gone on with her dad, especially if they grew up in clairemont like herself. but these would be her ride n die kinda friends ygm??

on that note, give me just those like.. party friends? like people she drinks with or gets high with etc etc.

frequent customers, she works in a bakery so..?? idk?? just a lil idea. 

someone she used to be incredibly close with when they were young, but after all the shit went down with her dad and mom she pushed them away, to this day she still gives them the cold shoulder and the other has no idea why. at this point, neither does rory. 

hookups/fwbs, she’s not really a relationship person bc trust/commitment issues 101, but she probably fucks around a lot. 

lowkey give me a plot like ‘we said no strings attached but now we’re in knots’. 

there’s probably a handful of people she doesn’t get along with, she’s really easy to piss off and generally would just get irritated quickly by someone and decide then and there she doesn’t like them. 

hatefuck??? i mean, speaks for itself, they argue and bicker a hella lot.. but then always end up fuckin’.

loWKEy, this could go along w/the hatefuck or fwb plot but like.. gimmie a plot were neither of the muses like sleeping alone or at least like, they prefer sleeping together? so they’ll fuck n whatever or even make excuses to do so just so they get to wound up literally sleeping w/one another; like all snuggly and it’s just.. at least rory wouldn’t want to admit she enjoys it so she’d cover it up w/being like ey come over n bang?? 

this is a mess

okay so, i think that’s all i got for right now, but ima hit ya’ll up and whatnot because i 100% wanna plot with evERyoNE. 

[no2da]

dream diary,  my guys have fun

i was in a friends home, it was at night and i think i was supposed to cat sit? no one was at home (to my knowledge) but im talking to someone? probably myself?? the apartment was so huge and some of the rooms looked like the original walls had been removed and new ones been built to change the layout completely and i was asking the person who i was talking to where the bathroom was cause i couldnt find it and then i looked into the parents bedroom and theres just a doorway arch without door and a stair leading down and the steps are laid out with tiles and at the bottom i can see a bathroom and im just thinking, oh wow i thought this was a flat, also. lol they have no bathroom door you can hear everyone shit from the beds. and i wanted to go down there and i thought, must suck for the parents to have everyone go through their bedroom to go use the toilet. and when was downstairs i realized the bathroom wasnt a bathroom but just a narrow hallway and there were some doors leading into rooms and one rooms door was slightly open and light was coming out and i was like, shit!!!! and i run upstairs and when im in the bedroom again i whisper really angrily ‘why didnt you tell me theres still someone here ???!! ‘ and then i go down again cause i wanna know who is there and i peak through the gap between the door and its some kid watching tv and she turns around and looks me straight in the eye and i fucking run away that was so scary. i run into one of the other rooms and barricade the door and sit there and im having the image in my head of me cutting the throat of that kid with a sickle and hearing, that would solve the problem, and then im like, no!! and see myself cutting my own throat with the sickle and im like, THAT would solve my problem you sick fuck, and then i can see whats happening out the door and theres the kid standing with a sickle about to ram it into the wood and then im outside again but she didnt notice me and i grab her arm and softly say, no, and then im in another room and theres someone with me and also a cat and the other person is doing embroidery and im playing with the cat with their yarn and i try to roll the thread back and the other person says they dont want it anymore cause the cat had it in its mouth.

i woke up for a bit cause the dorm next to mine is getting renovated and they made some noise but i fell asleep again

all the characters from naruto where having like a banquet for borutos anime debut, and they werent animation but real life people, like sasuke was some middle aged dude wearing the shittiest wig and tenten a rly tall black girl, also tenten was the owner of the venue where the party was hold. this was in the late evening it was dark already. then everyone noticed that boruto wasnt even there so they started a search for him. this lead out of the city. there were like only two locations (it was around sunset now), one was a still picture of a highway crossing and the other was a highway along a huge field of wheat. boruto was in that field for idk what reason, there was also a black kid with bleached hair and a rifle sneaking around in there. the search troupe werent aware of them and were looking on the other side of the highway. then there was a small explosion followed by a gun shot  in the field. at one end we now could see a couple police guys swat gear ?? and a drone was flying over the field. could see boruto dodging the shot from the swat guys but couldnt dodge the drone. the kid with a rifle was standing a couple meters away not being fast enough for any real reaction. then choji and his mom and dad were there, jumping in and like, matrix like blowing the fucking bullets away, ,,. then everyone was like lets go back home we saved boruto blah and some guy was like, anyone know this kid (with the rifle) but no one knew him but they took him back to the city with them, and on the way back there was the still picture of the crossing again and someone commented, hey, the sun hasnt moved one bit but our search lasted hours? also didnt we start the search at night why is it still sunset? 

idk who made this comment but naruto tried to dismiss it and then we were back at tentens restaurant and someone (I Cant remember) was leading shikamarus child in there (still like a toddler) cause they thought the father was in there, but tenten told them he wasnt there but they were like, oh well lets still let him wait for him here and brought him to their usual table and josuke and okuyasu (whatefuck are you guys doing here) were sitting at the table and okuyasu gave tenten a compliment on her new suit. when the person who brought the child was gone tenten went into the kitchen and talked to one of the waitresses about how weird that was and she was really worried about something called an ACADEMIA and suspecting something to happen, then the kitchen door opened and some huge ass slimey meat blob came through and it had a mouth and when it opened it we could see its tongue and its tongue had a mouth again (haha) and shikamarus kid was like, slowly coming out of that second mouth and it was crying and the thing was starting to talk and it said it was an ACADEMIA (my guy thats the name of this fucking alien thing what the fuck ,mind the capital letters) and how it needs to kill all life forms that arent ACADEMIAs and then the waitress started screaming and took one of those huge metal trays for baking and just starts beating the alien with it and it was just like fucking putty but the thing about those aliens was that they could regenerate if left alone, so tenten and the waitress shoved the thing under a pantry so it wouldnt have the space to become big again and they also folded the edges of the, flat putty thing over, so it coudlnt grow limbs?? (it didnts even have limbs in the first place waht) and after that was done tenten realized that shikamarus kid was gone now too, killed along w the alien and she had a come up with something now

and while this happened in the kitchen >>I<< (but, i wasnt watching the whole thing from >my< perspective i was still watching it all like in a movie and suddenly i am an actor in it) showed up at the restaurant and just started, grocery shopping there?? i bought a weird moldy lemon (only because a waitress convinced me to buy it and i cant say no), a lemon the size of a melon, a pack of tiny muffins and one huge muffin, and chocolate covered biscuits, white chocolate and some weird ass red one. and i stole the shopping cart i just took it home with me, and i lived in some weird ass run down shit house with a netto right next to it and i fucking go grocery shopping in a restaurant instead, i bring the fucking shopping cart with me into the kitchen and a family is there while i unpack the groceries, and im. like. posing for one of their family members. i dont know these people and they dont know im not really the person they think i am but im not even in disguise. so i put the muffins on the counter and say i bought the huge one for (i forgot the name) and the white chocolate biscuits for (i forgot the name too), they were the two daughters. muffin was the younger one and biscuits the older one, but then older one comes up to the counter and takes the muffin and looks at me really knowingly and says thanks in a rly weird way and im just, shit. i fucked up they know now im not the real thing. and i just try to play it cool take the lemons and go back to my room.

and my room is . the set for a historical play about suffragettes im writing and and all the actors and technicians etc are there  and deedee is there too and shes asking me to give her a role in the play and i want her to play one of the suffragettes (note: the costumes for the suffragettes were mainly made out of belts, weird) and of course the character deedee plays must be a lesbian too but my director says she can only have a crush on another woman whos already married to a man, no requited romance cause i already wrote another gay couple in the script and there cant be two according to him and that pissed me off so i want to take it out on his favorite male character. he was supposed to have a party hosted at his house and i change the scene so the party is somewhere else. i put down the lemons on my bed and climb on it to take down the wall carpet, which was like, essential for the guys party scene, idk why my bed was in the scene. the carpet was super gross like tons of dust and lady bugs and there were even. tiny plants sprouting from it and i verbally let my anger out on the guy and he gave me a vacuum cleaner so i could clean and while i try to suck in some lady bugs  and in that moment the bag is apparently full and so fucking full that the shit comes out at the tube and the end piece and there are tons of bugs and i just let it drop cause it scares me and the older sister who exposed me tells me to change the bag and takes my lemons and i just wanna cry cause the fucking bugs are on my bed and i dont wanna open that thing and she took my lemons!!! but im strong and go get a new bag and open the vacuum and cleaner and for some reason i have a pair of scissors now and cut open the old full bag (WHY WOULD I DO THIS) and theres bugs crawling everywhere, silver fish and lady bugs and im just sitting in this pile of shit, good morning

[caravelstan]

destiny (f)

[a/n]: hello......it is me....with a yugy writing :p this is for my friend gabriel and i hope she likes this bc i worked my ass off but!!! it’s rly for anyones pleasure to read, i hope u all enjoy it and if you’d like to see any other got7 writings then send in some requests thank u (also feedback is cool) (update: i feel like the ending is rly rushed uh oh /:)

pairing: kim yugyeom x reader

genre: fluff, soulmate au

word count: 1892

summary: everyone was destined for someone, it just so happens that yugyeom was destined for you.

des·ti·ny noun the hidden power believed to control what will happen in the future; fate.

Everyone was destined for someone; that’s how the world worked. From the moment you were born, the time at which you would meet your soulmate. No other details were given -- just the time. You didn’t know how long it would take you to meet them, or under what circumstances, and sometimes, people go their entires lives without meeting their soulmates. Though, those are the people who defy the system and try to wiggle their way through the whole soulmate thing, but that’s only once in a full moon if someone ever does that. Usually everyone is excited to find out their fate within the world and find their soulmate, but he was different.

Of course, Yugyeom was just as excited as the next person, but he wasn’t going to search the ends of the earth to find the one. He knew his time would come and he didn’t want to rush it -- call him cliche, but he wanted your first meeting to be perfect.

Or so he thought.

11:19.

The time on his wrist read 11:42. Something inside of him stirs and he grows anxious, eyes darting around the tiny coffee shop he currently resided in. Yugyeom’s day had started just like any other, but as time went on, a burning sensation started growing inside of him. At first he thought he could’ve just been sick, since that’s reasonable thinking, right? Though, as time went on, the feeling never left. He knew you were close and that scared the shit out of him.

“Yugyeom!” His name was called from across the shop, his eyes widening at the voice before he settled back into his seat when he realized it was just Mark. His friend smiles widely over at him as he strides over to their table.

“You alright, man? Been spacing out all day.” The older of the two comments, sliding over Yugyeom’s drink. He shrugs.

“Just.. feel weird.” The younger responds, eyes glancing down at his wrist before he focuses onto his drink, not bothering to pick it up.

“Weird?” Mark hums out, eyes squinting in suspicion. He watched as the boy in front of him kept glancing down at his wrist and he couldn’t help but smile as it made sense. “Are you feeling it?”

It. 

Yugyeom cringes at that. There really isn’t a word to describe what he’s feeling, since everyone goes through it in their own special way, but deep down you know your soulmate is near -- it’s nerve-wracking. 

“Yeah, it.”

Mark can’t help but let out a tiny squeal at that which has Yugeyom cringing again and sending him a quick glare and a “Don’t be so loud!” which causes the older to laugh.

“I’m sorry! This is just so exciting! You’’re the first one to meet their soulmate!” He gasps then, eyes widening a little as he leaned over the table to whisper to Yugyeom, “Do the guys know?”

Yugyeom shakes his head. “Nah, you’re the only one who knows. Besides, maybe I’m just getting sick? I could be over exaggerating.” 

Though, Yugyeom knew that wasn’t the case at all. He’s never had this feeling before, it was different. It was a longing feeling, like he was being tugged in a certain direction and he knew that wasn’t what being sick was like. He eyed the entrance to the shop each time the door opened, his heart beat quickening in hopes it’d be you. He just wants to know who you are, what you looked like, if you’d even like him. Yugyeom grimaces at the thought of you not liking him, a frown set on his lips.

“Yugyeom,” Mark hums, snapping the boy out of his daze. “Don’t overthink it, man. You’ll be fine. This whole soulmate thing happens for a reason and you know there’s only been a handful of cases of soulmates not feeling the same.”

“But what if I’m one of the unlucky ones? There’s still a possibility.”

Mark can’t help but roll his eyes. The younger of the two boys has always been scared of this outcome, more worried over the fact of his soulmate liking him than actually meeting. He’s read the stories of the ones who weren’t fortunate enough to actually be with their soulmate -- he didn’t want that to be him. He didn’t want to be alone.

“You won’t be. The world may be cruel but it’s not that cruel.”

Yugyeom let’s out an exaggerated sigh as he leans back against his chair, arms crossing over his chest as his eyes glance up to the clock on the wall.

11:35.

“I’m going to be fucking sick.”

Mark’s eyes glance towards the boys wrist and to the clock, another wide smile spreading across his lips as he looked back at Yugyeom who was now leaning his head against his arms, gently banging it.

“This better happen or else I’m going to be real pissed if I don’t get to witness little Yugyeom growing up.” Mark teases, reaching a hand over to pinch the younger’s cheek.

“You’re making it worse.” Yugyeom groaned as he leaned up, his eyes darting to the clock again and he swears everything just freezes for a moment.

He feels like he can’t breathe and Mark is sat quietly in front of him, watching him with careful eyes. The door of the little shop opens and Yugeyom is too scared to look up, eyes trained on his lap because it might be you. There’s a 99.9% that you were the one to walk into the same exact coffeeshop as him and he knows that you know too. You’re probably looking around for him, having the same longing feeling inside of you as you make your way up to the cash register, ordering something to drink to try and shake the feeling off.

And he wasn’t wrong, well.. sort of.

You’d been out with your friends all day, having been so busy with school this past week that you needed a break. It’d been weird -- you’d noticed how off you felt and your friends didn’t miss it either, they’d constantly ask you questions only for you to shut them down because you weren’t sure what was wrong either. It wasn’t until you were passing a tiny coffee shop of your way back to your friends apartment is when you felt it. 

The burning sensation only intensified and you couldn’t stop your feet from walking into the shop, ignoring your friends words as your eyes glanced around the shop. Your eyes land on the clock on the wall and they immediately glance down to your wrist.

“Oh my god..” You mumble to yourself, stumbling slightly when your friends bumped into you.

“Y/N!” Yongsun says when you finally turn around. Your friends are giving you a puzzled expression as you stare back at them, unable to say anything. You point down at your wrist, watching their eyes meeting your finger, slight gasps coming from the both of them.

You’re unable to pay attention to anything they’re saying because you can feel eyes burning into you, causing your cheeks to flush with color before you looked up. It takes you a moment before you’re staring at the stranger who seems to have the same shocked expression as you. Your eyes lock with his easily and it’s almost as if the world just stops for a moment. You barely register him getting up from his seat and making his ways towards you and you want to break contact so badly but something inside of you can’t let go. 

From afar he was good-looking but up close.. he was beautiful. Is that the right word? You don’t think handsome would do him justice, he’s much more than that. 

“It’s you.” 

His voice breaks you from your thoughts, and your blush grows deeper when you realized you’ve just been staring at him this entire time, yours eyes casting down to the floor. “I’m Yugyeom.”

“Y/N.” You hum, moving your gaze back up to meet his, a soft smile settling on your lips.

Yugyeom is taken aback by the sound of your voice, inwardly groaning at how pretty it sounded. He watches as you glance down at your wrist and towards the clock and he does the same, a sheepish smile growing on both of your lips as your gazes met once again.

11:42. 

“It’s nice to finally meet you.” You say, reaching a hand up to tuck a piece of hair behind your ear. 

“You have a really pretty voice.” Yugyeom blurts out, almost physically kicking himself right after, but he stops himself at the sound of your laugh and he swears it’s the best thing he’s ever heard.

“You have really pretty eyes.” You says, immediately becoming relaxed in the boys presence. 

“This is so cute, I actually might end up dying.” The boy who had been sitting with Yugyeom spoke up, getting up from his seat and walking over to you both. You can hear your friends behind you laugh and both you and Yugyeom dip your heads down to hide the blushes creeping onto your cheeks.

“As much as I would love to stay, I think you two have some catching up to do.” Yugyeom rolls his eyes at the boys words before reaching out to gently hit at his friends arm, a laugh coming from the older. He sends you a quick smile before he’s making his way to the exit.

You feel Yongsun reach out to tap on your shoulder, whispering out a quiet “Good luck.” before she and your other friend leave the coffeeshop just like the boy had just a few moments ago, leaving you and Yugyeom alone.

“I’m sorry about Mark, he’s.. just Mark.” His words cause you to laugh again and Yugyeom is sure that he’ll never get tired of that sound. He’s glancing back at the abandoned table before his eyes find yours again, giving you a soft smile. “Would you want to sit and talk for awhile? I could like, buy you something to drink if you wanted.”

You can’t help but smile at his nervous gesture, giving him a slight nod of your head. “I’d love to.”

It wasn’t long until you came over to the table with a coffee in hand, Yugyeom’s eyes on you the whole way and you can’t help but grin as you sat down, raising an eyebrow towards him.

“What?”

He shrugs. “I’m still just in shock that it’s you.”

Yugyeom watches you lean your head down to hide your blush and he can’t help but smile widely. The burning sensation has since left him once you two first locked eyes and it’s nothing but an all over warm feeling flowing throughout him, feeling at peace. He feels so relaxed with you already, knowing he shouldn’t have been so nervous before. You look up again to meet his gaze and your smile matches his, and his heart flutters just at the sight.

“Well, you’re going to have to get used to that, aren’t you?” 

“I think so.”

The two of you share a look and even though nothing was said, your smiles said a thousand words. Yugyeom thinks he could really get used to this.

[murasakiyuzu]

Wait so ppl are actually offended by that hallmark movie? Why? Also why is it if there are any other canon gay ships this year ppl need to act like the anime was the first to do that or compare everything? What's the point?

THEY ARE honestly i cant wrap my head around this KJSHDSKAJDHAK

im not seeing much of this on tumblr bc i never go into the tags and the drama almost never gets to my dash, but every time ive went into the ig explore, ive seen some nonsense

i just saw people legitimately going ‘OHHH IM SO PISSED’ and there was kubos tweet commenting on the issue and saying she wants to support any figure skating related media and people go ‘oh cease fire our Queen has spoken’ like…….. why are these people so weird

AND ive also seen people here on tumblr trying to lowkey organize a boycott on the movie like it is the Big Enemy like. why. its a hallmark movie. even when i didnt KNOW it was a hallmark movie, i knew it was something low-budget just from the promo pic, what the hell lmao

all fandom that goes to shit becomes like this bc it starts turning into a mob instead of a group of people enjoying something together, and im seeing this happen here, sadly

about comparisons, i dont see any point either. but people have been treating yoi like the be all and end all of figure skating related media and mlm representation. i heard this criticism way before and i wanted to be defensive but, rly, i HAVE been seeing that. just now, on ig again, there was a screenshot of a tumblr post going by the lines of ‘japan offers an example of beautiful relationship between two men blahblahblah, korea offers a story of two men abusing each other, unhealthy relationship’ and so on, referring to killing stalking. like???????? one thing has lit nothing to do w the other. and people did fly off the handle just because a hallmark movie featuring a straight couple shared a few resemblances w yuri on ice (said movie is apparently based off a novel too, but ive only seen that in passing so im not sure), im not even doubting anything anymore

everything is tied to this fandom going OMG YOI IS REVOLUTIONARY ITLL SAVE FIGURE SKATING FROM EXTINCTION AND SOLVE ALL LGBT ISSUES IN THE WORLD IT CURED MY CANCER SAVED MY CROPS (and this coming from someone whose one of the only silver linings for 2k16 was yuri on ice), and i KNOW most fandoms have bad apples but to me, this one is turning into one of those specially bad ones everyone side-eyes, and thats sad to me