#like isnt it so crazy that these guys have such a hard time getting along but also understand each other better than anyone.
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#rick and morty#rick sanchez#morty smith#im returning to my roots im making them happy again#putting my favorite guys in situations(positive)#like isnt it so crazy that these guys have such a hard time getting along but also understand each other better than anyone.#isnt that fucked up or what
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Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(
#mine#oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times#but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry#like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie#im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc#i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me#thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related#anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that#ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired#// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always#because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life#like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing#me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little#so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die#every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt.#well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he#is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him#every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again#but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh#i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT#I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time#like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me#he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do#he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away
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TWD crushing on (an Oblivious) Reader
YOOO WE KINDA DUMB
upset there isnt alot of twd x male reader fics that arent smut but anyways
my very select few men💀💀 i might do a part 2 i just wanted to post
THIS IS A NWLNW BLOG!! WOMEN DNI
Daryl Dixon
Our man Mr. Daryl Hiding His Emotions Dixon 🫶🫶
Its fine you didn't notice at first
He seems like he kinda hates you from how quiet he is. Quite the opposite
Being quite in love with someone who isnt a woman is kinda just like. Not processed in his mind??
He didn't know how to feel at first
But eventually he confessed to Carol about how he feels (she suspected something but anyways)
To be honest he had a plan to ask you out
But was extremely extremely hesitant
"They prolly don' even like guys" He'd say
I think both of yall are oblivious
It was a group effort to get yall together
Like all these long ass runs, leaving gifts saying it was from the other
You probably had to be the one to confess ngl
Glenn Rhee
Glenn aint too obvious. Thats what he tells himself atleast
Hes very obviously crushing on you. The only one who cant see it is you
He'd pull harmless pranks, compliment you, help you around, usually adding on a lil wink for lil extra
Yet you still didn't get it. You just thought he was being a goody good friend
Especially since its a bit hard to find any queer folk that like you around here IN FUCKING VIRGINIA/GEORGIA
"You look nice today, Y/n." *Shitty Glenn wink* "Oh thanks man!"
Your obviousness is apart of what Glenn absolutely loved about you though
It gives him time to really think out his lil confession
Which took a while but he had it down! Flowers!!
Who doesnt like flowers??
Well Glenn originally planned to give you flowers. That was until Eugene let it slip that he likes you one time💀💀
You ended up interrupting Glenn like mid confession just because you knew
Simon
Negan teases him for his obviousness
Simon would yell it to the top of his lungs if he must (he probably has to)
Always gives you any ice cream or first shot of a drink
He also always has his arm around you or is LITERALLY FLIRTING WITH YOU
You couldnt tell tho. he looked gay and homophobic to be honest.
So you just didnt say anything
Simon, running out of ideas, asked Negan for any ideas
Since its, Negan what do you expect? Something cute and romantic?? No
SHOW OFF YOUR SEXUAL PROWESS OF COURSE‼️
So with this in mind Simon approached your room with some drinks and did what he does best!
Sexual jokes about his dick and such seeing if you'd take the bait
You didn't you just got a bit flustered and laughed along
Until yknow he actually just went with the impulse and kissed you
FINALLY YOU GET THAT HES LIKE IN LOVE WITH YOU
Owen (Wolf)
The king of being either really obvious or the complete opposite
Depending on your guy's situation then heres the various ways itll go down
Owens a prisoner in Alexandria? He'll tell you nearly everything about him. Along with the fact if he gets out of there hes taking you with him!
How romantic!!
If youre apart of the Wolves then you have for sure caught his eye!
He'd do anything for you and I mean anything! Well as long as he's yknow still in control of the situation.
You cant ignore him either. He'll make as much noise as possible for you to go back to talking to him.
Owen will try to stalk you to see what you like
Or try to get that info out of you through a weird interrogation
You dont notice though. If anything youre a bit weirded out that this kinda crazy cult guy is like asking you your favorite color but anyways
Eventually in the middle of one of these investigations hes just gonna kiss you (probably quite roughly too)
"I like you. So youre mine now." "I- Ok sure??"
#simon twd x reader#twd x male reader#twd x reader#daryl dixon x male reader#daryl dixon x reader#wolf twd#owen twd#glenn rhee x male reader#glenn rhee x reader#the walking dead x reader#the walking dead x male reader
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FNAF movie character headcannons!!!!!!
William:
•was a heavy smoker for years. Quit when his doctor said he had a high chance of developing lung cancer
•never physically hit Vanessa, but yelled at her loud enough to give someone a headache
•most pictures of him (including wedding photos and Vanessa's graduation picture) he is wearing the Spring Bonnie head
•very high functioning autistic, but refuses to get checked for it despite many telling him to
•doesn't like pet names like 'bunny' or 'baby', likes to call his s/o things like 'my love' or 'sweetheart' and 'darling' old fashioned things u feel me
•if henry emily exists in this universe they definitely had a one night stand and never talked about it ever again
Mike:
•before being prescribed his sleep meds he for sure took too much benadryl once and saw the horrors
•if the movie took place in current day he would totally put on those baby sensory videos to go to sleep
• tried an edible once and never again (he took too much and deeply regretted it)
•tried to draw with Abby but is so bad at it that he rage quit
•is a fiend for little ceasars crazy bread
Vanessa:
•promised herself she would make her dad get the punishment he deserved
•hates being belittled so much that it is one of the reasons she became a police officer
•hates pizza because of how often she had it as a child. Gags if she even tries to eat it
•really likes hello kitty a not normal amount but is super secretive about it
•super against cigarettes and weed (anything smokeable really)
•so touch starved but refuses to ever ask for any sort of affection
•her fav animatronic is Chica because Susie was her best friend (Susie doesn't remember their friendship but still loves Vanessa anyway)
Abby:
• this kid is autism central. High functioning but has a real rough time making friends because she finds it very hard to understand social cues.
•grows up to be a professional artist and paints super beautiful portait commissions. She makes BANK.
•a boy at school tried to kiss her and she punched him in the face for it
•really loves spongebob. Mike hates it but lets her watch it anyway
•favorite crayola crayon is Dandelion
•likes the stereotypical green alien a lot
Freddy:
•just a tad bit stupid. Silly guy though
•lowkey annoyed by Foxy but doesn't say anything about it
•loves to take Mr Cupcake and throw him across the room to piss off Chica
Foxy:
•really likes when dad rock n roll is on. If he could he would sing along
•fav band is ACDC
•Chica is his bestie. They gossip about the nightgaurds
•used to have a bird named Cracker that was perched on his shoulder. It got destroyed by a child right before the pizzaria shut down for good
Chica:
•loves food. Big foodie. Doesn't really like it when it messes up her circuts and servos tho
•her cupcake is her baby actually they are inseparable
•has broken Freddy a couple times for throwing Mr Cupcake
•loves Britney Spears and No Doubt. unfortunately william does not so he doesnt play it often
•the least agressive. doesn't like killing gaurds but does it once in a while to feel something
Bonnie:
•has killed the most gaurds out of all of the animatronics
• has a little crush on Chica but doesn't wanna admit it because "girls have cooties" and "she has really bad cooties"
•feels kinda bad for Mr Cupcake when he gets lowkey abused by Freddy
•has broken quite a few pieces of furniture while chasing gaurds
Golden Freddy:
•kinda like the mom friend of the animatronics
•really wishes Abby couldve stayed with them, really enjoyed her company and energy
•very quiet compared to the others
•hates when the others fight, very annoying to him
Ness:
•wierdly knowledgeable on Freddys. Did a lot of research online about the case and is super invested in it
• loves his job even though the pay isnt the best
•whenever he gives a table the check he always gives them a little piece of chocolate before they leave
Aunt Jane:
•the living embodiment of Karen
•thinks that Abby is a little jerk (incorrect opinion btw)
•wine mommy
Max:
•she wanted Mike so bad bruh
•very cringe millennial coded
#fnaf movie#five nights at freddys#headcanon#fnaf headcanons#Fnaf movie headcanons#william afton fnaf#william afton#max fnaf#aunt jane#five nights at freddy's#freddy fazbear#bonnie fnaf#chica fnaf#fnaf foxy#golden freddy#mike schmidt#steve raglan fnaf#abby schmidt#vanessa fnaf movie#vanessa shelly
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Across The Spider-Verse (arachkids) tk headcannons!!
saw this movie last week and ,,, oh my god i love them all so much i HAVE to write headcannons for them even though this isnt really the kind of thing i normally do
hcs under the cut ⌄⌄⌄⌄⌄⌄
Miles Morales
60% lee, 40% ler
Ler:
Second bigest teaser ever
Loves using his invisibility for sneak attacks
Always goes for the ribs first for some reason
Sometimes uses webs for light restraints if he's feeling mean enough
Prefers group attacks over going solo
"Wow I did NOT expect this much of a reaction!"
Uses electricity to give little tickle shocks (stolen from @/orchid-fics but it was too cute not to include im sorry)
Lee:
Is a literal potato bug. curls up if you even touch him
Kinda guy to scream "NO!!" a bunch of times
Turns invisible by reflex if he knows he's about to get wrecked
Has a hard time telling people he wants tickles so he just kind of sprawls out and exposes all his spots in hopes of someone taking the hint
Maybe he'll tickle someone just for payback if he's feeling spunky
Worst spots are his ears, armpits, hips, and thighs
Gwen Stacy
20% lee, 80% ler
Ler:
Absolutely EVIL
She totally coos at her lees like . look at her and tell me she doesn't
Does light and feathery tickles and then goes hard and rough out of NOWHERE just for fun
Prefers to make the lee giggle and squirm instead of scream
Brings you water after she's done
You can tell when she's in a ler mood cause she gets 10x more sassy than usual (literal nightmare btw it gets to the point where they just let her get it out of her system so she stops being such a bully)
She might be mean but she can tell when the lee's had enough
Lee:
More of a ler but she still has her moments
She thrashes HARD watch out
Snorts
Hides her face with her hands instead of covering her spots
Worst spots are her neck, ribs, and stomach
Pavitr Prabhakar
50/50 switch
Ler:
Oh boy he has FUN
The most teasy guy ever he pulls all the stops
"Honestly, didn't peg you to be a squirmer... don't worry, I can still work with this!"
Him and Gwen teamed up are the most awful (amazing) mean (great) duo ever
Guilty of using the same techiniques that kill him
LOVES to chase people down
Narrarates exactly what he's doing and what spots hes gonna go for next
Has a hard time knowing when to stop but takes the hint after he gets punched a few times
Lee:
Has zero shame in admitting when he's in a lee mood
Just like when he's a ler, he loves a good chase
Will attempt to crawl away but doesn't actually want it to stop
NEEDS to have his hands pinned down otherwise he starts hitting and shooting webs by reflex
Squirms and screams like he's dying
Worst spots are his stomach, sides, thighs, and knees
Hobie Brown
10% lee, 90% ler
Ler:
Usually doesn't join in but when he does he makes everyone SCREAM.
No one knows how he does it but he's the most evil most menacing ler to ever haunt the multiverse
"What'cha laughing at, mate?"
Techniques are different every time but he still manages to wreak havoc without fail
Unofficial big brother of the group
Switches spots CONSTANTLY and drives everyone crazy
Laughs along with the lee
Lee:
Not that ticklish so he doesn't really get much out of being a lee
However the spots where he IS ticklish are all really weird and out of the way
Can't really get anything more than giggles, but all of that excess energy goes into his extremely intense facial expressions and gasps
Is extremely surprised when something tickles badly enough to laugh because he doesn't think he's ticklish at all
Worst spots are his lower back, the spot where his arms meet his armpits, and his calves
WOAH GONNA BE HONEST HERE i loved making this i might end up doing some fics soon ?? idk schools out in like a week for me I'll have loads of free time
#sfw tk community#tickles#tickle thoughts#sfw tk blog#sfw twords#tickle headcanons#across the spider verse#across the spider verse tickle#arachkids#miles morales#miles morales tickle#gwen stacy#gwen stacy tickle#pavitr prabhakar#pavitr prabhakar tickle#hobie brown#hobie brown tickle
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やあやあやあ!!!元気ですか?
良かったら何かリクエストしたかったのでとにかく--!
could I request any of the creepypastas with a ftm reader who’s basically like urumi akamaki from alice in borderland please? this can be seen as platonic or romantic btw :)
ありがとうございました!
素晴らしい一日をお過ごしください!
Nina the Killer and Eyeless Jack with ftm Urumi Akamari like reader!
➥ Hi hello!! Im actually pretty fine, comparing to other days lolol. Hope you are fine too!! Ohh i remeber my huge AiB phase lol. Anyways here you go dove!!! If you wanna someone specific too then feel free to inform me, I will always gladly update!! :) Ah im so so so sorry that you waited so long :((
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Nina the Killer
You and Nina are definitely pretty similar in some aspects - even if its hard to believe! Nina tend to be pretty..well pretty crazy and insane, so its not like you will be freaked out by her..! From the killing part to some stupid ideas (for real, every adult who would see what she wanna do would clutched one's head in disbelief). Sooo, I guess she would need someone like you! With your tendency to be total control freak, you can easly make most of decision for her and Nina would even thank you! Also she isnt scared to take any risk, as i said earlier - Nina is a bit of adrenaline junkie!! Your a bit distant and mysterious mask would be the perfect balance to Nina, who is really out-going and a huge chatterbox!! And your fake persona will perfectly match hers!
When it comes to you being trans, she is such a huge sweetheart i swear!! Well, by accepting and not treating you any diffrent she isnt doing anything super special - its just the bare minimum! But Nina is always ready to soothe you if you feelin dysphoric - she tries talk to you and she never ignore your feeling, all you say and do is valid! Be ready for lots of complements - she means every single one of them! You are the coolest boy she had ever met, how could she not like you??
Eyeless Jack
Okay, Jack just loves smart people!! Is all into brain > body thing, so you are perfect! He is an intelectual person (demon, im sick), and appreciates these things in people. With you, being all two-sided and often using manipulation in order to get what you want - man, you are just his type of person i swear!! He enjoyes psychological games, and will gladly team with you against someone..you guys will be partner in crimes 100%! Enjoys that you are such a mysterious person, and no one can see through your sweet and cute persona, you have so much power! Would like to see what you are really like, he can guess that there is so much more in you. Yet, i think that Jacks personality makes him easy to get along with, and you kinda seem similar in some aspects. Jack also isnt scared to take a risk, becasue well..its not like he has anything to lose. But he got the right spirit!
Jack absolutey wouldnt mind if you are trans or not - you are still this handsome boy he liked and nothing will change that! He literally would eat kidneys from people that were trasnphobic (thats all what they good at i guess). He is the first one to be always by your side and reassure you how many times you need it if you feel dysphoric. Would also try to help you the best he can, trying to find you some healthy ways in order to make you feel at least slightly better. Jack is also patient, and wont be mad if you yell at him or be mean during your bad days - he gets how hard it can be for you, and wants to be your safe place!
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#nina the killer#nina the killer x reader#ej#ej x reader#eyeless jack#eyeless jack x reader#creepypasta#creepypasta x reader#horror#headcanon#crp#fandom#creepypasta fandom#wholecircus#requests#creepypasta hcs#urumi aramaki#alice in borderland
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Toman! Mikey Confessed to Komi! Reader!!
Reader has overcomed her communication disorder
Song suggested:Night Changes by One Direction
Author extra:HOLY SH- I WAS ALL BLUSHING WHEN I WROTE THIS CAUSE ITS UWJSHHAHS-
Everybody knows that Mikey is obsessed with u, i mean, who doesnt like u? U r beautiful, intelligent, talented and kind, he's always the first and eager one to participate in any activities u came up with, he doesnt care if the idea was dumb or not, he just likes to be with u. He will often watch u from afar, seeing u walking to school, seeing u paying attention to classes with that lovesick expression that made draken go 'wtf'.
He also gets jealousy very easily when somebody hit up on u, one time his entire mood was spoiled and the atmosphere is just so creepy when he destroyed every punching bag in his grandpa's dojo out of anger just because he saw a guy talking to u, he wanted to beat the shit out of that person but he had to tell himself to hold back because he doesnt wanna scare u. He clenched his fist in anger, he kept his eye on u until emma and hinata walked u home, then he followed u along with draken who was being dragged along-
When it comes to u, mikey was surprisingly very detailed, what r your likes and dislikes, fav food, fav place, fav store and even how many cat friends u've made, he always find a chance to get closer to u, so everytime he will invite u to hang out and maybe join the toman meeting, eventually his hardwork paid off, u now considered him as a bestfriend.
Even tho hes not the first friend u've made (emma and the girls r the first) but hes your closest male friend. U told him about this once when u guys were hanging out, and oh god mikey exe. stop working. He then showed off this news to his bestfriends, he texted them while kicking his legs like a highschool girl in excitement and his face is hella red.
[My-🔑]:Y/N CHAN JUST CALLED ME HER BESTFRIEND AHH
[Drak🥚]:Mikey i can hear u screaming from miles away
[BestbroMitsu]:Congrates Mikey!
[ImSoSmart]:Oi mikey, r u gonna tell her or what, and chifuyu, wtf r u doing
[I♥PekeJ]:Baji san, im just feeding PekeJ
[My-🔑]:Idk if i should tell her, If i confessed to her and she rejects me, i will be putting this friendship in danger.
[Takemichi]:But u continue to be love in silent isnt an option either! What if someone else confessed to her first, did u even see her locker?? All filled with love letters.
[My-🔑]:I just have to get rid of them all! Y/n chan didnt even need to read those stupid letters.
[Drak🥚]:Bro-, just go confess, seeing u like this kinda hurts me
[My-🔑]:Aww! Ken-chin r u worry about me??
[Drak🥚]:I DO NOT!
[BestbroMitsu]:But takemichi has a point tho, u cant just go on killing that person who confessed to her because u were afraid to ruin this relationship.
[I♥PekeJ]:I mean, look at y/n chan, shes so happy when she is talking to mikey. Maybe we should ask her if she like someone.
[ImSoSmart]:I almost forgot, where r the twins?
[Takemichi]:Souya and Nahoya? They say they r helping with the ramen thing if i remember.
The boys continue to chat while mikey is just lying down staring into the ceiling. He has a crush on u for 8 months but he wanted to go further to be more than just bestfriends, he have been trying so hard to make it not obvious that he likes u but your presence alone just drives him crazy, the way u talk and the way u look. He wanted to ask emma if u have someone in mind but afraid that this question will be soon heard into your ears, and then u will know about his crush on u and bro couldn't expect the worst.
'should i confessed? What if she rejects me? Then im putting this friendship in danger, i dont want that, i wanna stay close to her.. But takemitchy may be right.'
On the other hand, u were texting and chatting with the girls on the phone, u guys were talking about types of guys yall like and etc, then they suddenly turned to u.
[Emma♡]:Y/n Chan! Do u have someone in mind??
[Hina🌻]:Yea! Im curious too, i wonder what type of guys does a goddess like u take interest in!
[Senju🐑]:Oo i wanna know too
[Yuzuha🌸]:Spill the tea!
Tbh, u actually DO have someone in mind, its none other than your male BFF, mikey.
[Y/n Chan]:Yes..i actually liked someone, hes always been so close to me, he is considered the strongest, he is also caring, full of energy and a funny perso-
[All]:It's mikey isnt it?
[Y/n Chan]:EHH????? How did u guys know!?
[Emma♡]:Besides us, who is your most closest male friend? Yep its Mikey
[Hina🌻]:And y/n chan u r always smiling so happily when u r with him^^
[Yuzuha🌸]:And number one, who the hell can be considered the strongest other than mikey
[Senju🐑]:And number two, hes the first person in my mind when u said 'full of energy'
[Y/n Chan]:U-uhh im gonna go bed! Bye!
_Y/n Chan has logged off_
U cupped your cheeks in embarrassment, now the girls know u liked mikey and they r very excited, Especially emma, she knows her cute brother have been obsessed u and have been wanting to confess but hes afraid u will reject him, but the answer turn out to be better! U like him too, now mikey finally have the chance.
Emma Sprints to mikey's room, she opens the door to find mikey looking at your photo while mumbling 'should i confess' emma have seen this alot of times so who cares! She then showed mikey the text and told him u liked him too. Mikey was speechless, he couldn't process what happen, u really liked him too? Is this a dream? If this is a dream, dont wake him up, after asking emma a 100th times if this was an edited text, he then looked at your photo, picked up the phone and talked to his bestfriends about this, so now, the girls and boys r coming together to give u something special..
The next day, the sano sibling and draken showed up at your house as usual to walk to school together with u, on the way, u noticed a guy who is need of help for finding something. U look down at your feet and found a phone.
U picked it up and hand it to that person, the guy held your hand out of gratitude for finding his phone and u were startled by it, this action alone already made mikey's face darkened, but what the guy said later is what really getting on mikey's nerves.
"U look so pretty! Ive never seen someone so beautiful, Do u have a boyfriend? Do u wanna be mine? May i have your phone number and name?"
"Uhh sorry to interupt, but y/n chan we gotta go"
Emma dragged u away in disgust because number 1 that person held your hand without your consents, and number 2 she know her bff is pretty and aint no freaking way shes letting that creep ruining her brother's love life.
Both girls quickly headed their way to school, and back to mikey, shit he is really triggered- he went forward and straight up punched the guy right in face that sents him flying-
The guy looked up and was in face to face with mikey's full on killer face. Without hesitation, mikey step on the guys's face hard that caused him to fall again, he continuously stomped on it while giving him a dead warning.
"Dont u ever show up your face again infront of MY Future Wife, If it isnt for her i might have killed u on the spot. U dont wanna know what im capable of and what im gonna do to u if u ever breath in the same air as her again."
If draken werent there to stop him, mikey might have actually kill that person on 'accident', the guy scurried away while being deeply traumatized, even tho mikey is just a teenager, his atmosphere and strength itself already made a full grown adult break into cold sweat.
-School Lunchtime
U meet up with mikey behind the school to eat your lunch together, even a dummy could see how happy mikey is to be able to eat with u, and eat the bento U made for him. He only wants to feed u, cause this is what lovers do right? His cheeky smile just made your heart skip a beat for a few seconds, its pretty much the same day for u, but the things is, your other friends r no where to be found. U asked mikey where r the boys and he just shrugged his shoulder, u thought that they r probably busy with their school work.
It was evening when your school work was done and u headed down the path, u were expecting mikey to be there but u were instead greeted by your fav girl friends at the gate, and mikey and the boys was still not there, instead of hugging u like they usually do, emma put a blindfold on u, hinata and senju held each of your hand to make sure u dont fall, yuzuha carried your bag for u and emma lead the way to a certain place.
U r just so confuse at this point because u were totally not expecting this, u wanna know what happen and whats with the blindfold thingy.
"huh?? Where r we going? Whats this?"
"hehe, just follow us y/n chan! Dont trip"
Lmao the girls were giggling so hard that made u extra confuse but u still follow them, after 10 mins of walking, u have arrived and it what it feels like a field to u since the amount of grass u felt below your feet as u walk, emma sat u down a bench and by the time u realized it, it was already a little dark outside, infront of u was a small clif in an angle of the city down there, u were fascinated by the view and wanted to get up but yuzuha just pressed your shoulder down to let u stay on the bench.
Just when u thought the girl's intention where just to bring u here to see the view, emma suddenly said "shes here u can come out now" then a voice and multiple footsteps can be heard behind, u turned around and was facing a whole lot bushes of wild red roses and firefiles, toman was just standing there creating a large circle and mikey seems to be standing in the middle, holding what seems to be like a red rose. U stood up and walk towards him, wanting to know about the situation
Before u can even react, he was already near u and Kneeled on One knee?? U r flustered and turned your head to the right, facing the girls, who were all giggling so hard like a little child, u then turned you head to the left, looking at toman who were all happy and worked up, then u heard mikey whisper to u softly.
"hey y/n, pay attention to me.."
U turned your head back to mikey and had a face-to-face contact with his soft look, u then notice that he has his gang jacket hanging on his shoulder while he just had a simple bandage wrap around his stomach on his body. U held up one of your head to cover your mouth cause u r blushing so hard, which mikey finds it cute. He held on one of your hand started to speak loud and clear to everybody about his confession to u.
"U know, when i first met u, i thought it was blessing, from your appearance and personality, to the day i know u r the right one for me, i swear to all my life i will make u the most happiest girl ever, i promise to protect u and adore u. I've never knelt down before, you were my first. So y/n, will u be my girlfriend?"
With that saying, he hand u the rose while looking all lovesick at u, just then, toman suddenly started roaring cheering and clapping 'Get Togther! Get Together!', u lowered your head while holding onto the rose. Just as mikey thought u r gonna reject him, u said out the ans that its a dream for him to ever hear that, Especially from u.
"I'd love to be your girlfriend.."
Mikey could not believe his ears, he grabbed onto u and spin u around in circles, i dont think hes gonna stop until u told him to because u r getting a bit dizzy, everyone was cheering for the new couple and the girl friends were all just giving 'my child has grew up' vibe. Mikey hugged u tight and buried his face into your neck while whispering something into your ears.
"do u know how many times ive been dreaming of this? My dear y/n u made me so happy that u finally belong to me.."
With that aside, he placed a soft kiss on you, and man that was your first kiss! U r now covering your face with your palm, face and ears red, with mikey holding u in his arm not wanting to let go and toman's cheering kept roaring, making this night extremely memorable in your life.
This is truely a special surprise..
#mikey x y/n#tokyo revengers#tokyo rev x y/n#y/n x toman#komi san wa komyushou desu#komi can't communicate#Komi! reader x Tokyo revengers
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Do you have anym more modern au ruetash headcanons you might share? I love that fic too along with lsdl.
I love hearing your head canons about Rue and Gortash, they’re so cute and I just want to read nice things about them whilst they suffer and through lsdl😭
Also when I’m reading lsdl now I’m always like ‘oh my god no….this is terrible. The pain. The angst……can’t wait for the next chapter.👀’😂
THANK U!!! i love these two in any universe and i will make them suffer for it<3 anytime i think too hard about them i do feel a little sad. one day i'll be nice to them. not today, though 🤭
some silly modern au headcanons that have been floating around in my brain lately! (some may become proper chapters in that fic):
they first hook up at some big conference in waterdeep. theres only one bed in the hotel and both of them indulge a little too much in the open bar at the place they're at. its a one time mistake until they wake up in the morning and do it again
rue actually gets on really well with karlach and despite the fact she signed an nda about her and gortash hooking up, karlach is the first to know ("please. you can do so much better. look at my friend wyll, he's cute and single and so much better than gortash" - karlach, moments later)
rue has broken into gortashs apartment many times before. he expects to see her there now and its weird when she isnt
gortash ends up picking rue up from various nights out with karlach & the gang after shes drank too much and drunk-called him, saying how she misses him (they saw each other hours ago) and how she wants to go home (and by home she means his place). he does so every time and gets vaguely threatened by karlach to keep her safe
rue posts a photo of her sitting opposite gortash in a fancy restaurant with the caption "first date kind of nervous" and immediately deletes it. fans go crazy
i like to think theres full on conspiracy theories about them being together or not. people are piecing together a timeline. others say it doesnt matter, hes only using her because his policies are so bad. a small group of people write fanfiction (rue sends them all to him because she thinks its funny)
she really eggs on their followers to think theres something there. posting pictures of her wearing his shirts. tagging him in videos of her walking around the city. asking people for reccommendations on good places for dates. its a blast. shes loving it
theyre so silly to me!!!! ahhhhh losing my mind over these two guys!!!!!! thanks for asking about them! theyre the only thing in my brain ever
#; tea time#awkwardengland#once im either done with lsdl or when i need a fun break i'll get back to political affairs#its so silly#i love modern aus and i love ruetash and i love putting them into situations#he would take her on fancy dates a lot i think. flaunting his wealth. something fun about that
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past admin here.. no longer running rps bc of the community. but i've ran a couple pretty big rps in the past couple years and i'll be honest, although i think it's slightly immature to close roleplays because of things people say on a gossip blog, i believe admins are just tired and most times the venting on blogs like this are just the cherry on top of everything they're already dealing with in the roleplay they are managing.
lets be real. admins are usually normal people just as you are, with jobs, possibly school, friends, and things to do outside of their rp life. most admins are also not full time HR reps or therapist. we are no better than you when it comes to finding out how to fix issues or resolve conflicts... member activity and facehogging has been an issue that not only i have seen in my rps but roleplays everywhere have and are currently experiencing. admins can only do SO much. they can't force activity without being called micromanagers and they cant change the activity requirements to be more engaging without being critizied about not being realistic for people with lives outside of rp.
theres issues regarding cliques. most times, the admins are so busy with admin shit that they don't see or notice the clique. from my past experiences as an admin, people would call anyone and anything a clique.
an example i used all the time .. because this is crazy... but back when i used to run a big rp. we got anon's complaining about a "🐻 squad" (changed the emoji for privacy reasons). when us as admins went in to look what that so called squad was, it was literally a member just referring to the people who emojied his post about playing a game later. we're adults, and it's embarrassing to see people talk as if they were excluses children when most of the time its a personal activity issue. if your muse isnt interacting with things on the feed, commenting on post, leaving emojis, talking in gc/ plotting with others, joining games/activities, or even doing events... theres obvious reasons why your muse feels left out. additionally, when a muse has a group of friends they have developed and feel close to, i personally see it as character development. these muses have spent enough time getting to know eachother to the point there they know they like to hangout and get along. as an admin, i've sent my muses to talk to the so called cliques that were in my roleplay to try and see how they would treat my muse and most times, the so called cliques were rather nice and inviting to my muse. making it rather hard to kick them.
we as admins can encourage but not force people out of their circles, we can not force people to answer dms, and we can not force people to write. the best we can do is attempt to remove them or close the roleplay completely.
when it comes to resolving conflicts, believe it or not its extremely hard for us. most times remember we are an outsider looking into the situation. and most times we are not given complete content. we unfortunately are reading screenshots without tone indicators or context. the best we can do is listen to both sides and hope we are making the best possible decision for the community. however. we can not remove muses from the rp because of a bad breakup or because they are upset with your muse. we can't kick people out because you both simply do not get along. the best we can do is ask that you both don't interact. i think the community has a hard time understanding this part. additionally, your issue with another member is not always highest priority for some admin teams, sometimes admin teams are talking for hours about how they want to handle a situation so expecting an immediate resolution to the situation or specific action in general is unrealistic.
adding to the unrealistic thing is expecting admins to be online 24/7. we need to sleep, eat, and do other things aside from just admining. we want to enjoy our muses as much as you guys do as well. we apologize if your cc request was not answered within 3-4 hours. remember admin teams will be online at some point in the day and often times will be in different timezones than your own. so be realistic and give admin teams 24-48 hours to respond to your message. admins are not slacking just because they want a moment to focus on themselves.
lastly, i realized rather quickly that this community does not like to follow or read rules almost at all. regardless of how we spin it 80% of the community skims through the rule page we work hard on creating to get the password for the application. how do i know yall dont read rules? because some of the shit being complained about on these blogs are things that have been blatantly stated in the rules that you guys have agreed to! dont join a roleplay if you dont agree with it's rules. simple. "admins are asking me to handle it myself." most rps open right now say in the rules that they will ask you to do that before coming to them. "this age gap rule is rediculous." most roleplays have these rules clear on their rule page. "well i didn't know you couldn't do that." yes you did, you agreed to the rules of the roleplay when you joined. don't act shocked or upset when we enforce the rules. and if you claim rules are hard to understand or need clarification, it takes nothing but 2 seconds to ask admins for clarification on a rule.
so yes, after dealing with these issues and more, seeing vent posts about our roleplays sometimes is the perfect cherry on top to call it a day and close the community. think of it as "why would we continue to put all this effort in if people are obviously unhappy with our work?". we work hard to manage things the best we can but we are only human and our judgements sometimes fail us. and getting critiqued is 100% okay but some of you guys on here write things so maliciously... i wonder if the admins had personally victimized you with the way yall write on here. rp is a hobby and at the end if the day if the honby is causing you more stress than happiness.. close/ leave your roleplay.
— tired ex admin.
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for the sensory asks 1 and 14 for any feanorian
hehehehehe it is fëanorian week isnt it
ask game
1- Their most visually striking feature
I think all of them have quite 'severe' features, the sort of sharpness and hardness to the face that comes from descending from fëanor that translates so well into people's memories as frightening. That and their glowing eyes. All of the calaquendi have those of course and I think that's probably pretty wild to witness. I think the eyes of Fëanor himself were much brighter than is normal to the point that by the time he died you could not see his pupils, but this was not something inherited by his sons because that was just his own personal insanity.
Everyone knows about Maedhros. Everything about Maedhros is striking. I mean look at him. *gestures at my imagination*
For Maglor, I think it's the length of his hair. I imagine this man with shampoo commercial hair. This just stunning jet black slick mane that trails basically all the way to the floor, it's longer than Fëanor's, which was also Very Long. It's not as noticable or remarked upon in Valinor because it was usually braided and it's somewhat normal in Valinor to have the luxury to maintain ultralong hair. This is not the case in Beleriand. I think over time he loses the motivation to do anything with his hair and it just hangs loose and ridiculously long and kind of unkempt. Cue guy walking sadly along beach with 7 feet of windswept tangled hair. Also I think he has really deep eye bags. He looks like he hasn't slept in 20 years . He kind of looks like Míriel.
14- Their favorite type of music
Well I must admit there are only so many types of music in first age Beleriand, though I suppose Valinor could have gotten pretty weird with it. Wish I could say something crazy like "electrofunk" but well they dont know what an electricity is.
I think Maglor has probably played every instrument known to society and plenty more, (except percussion which he always wants one of the brothers to accompany him with) but despite it the same personal style seems to come through to it. Some of the brothers love it and some of them I think have gotten a little tired of it.
Maedhros certainly prefers it. He's one of those guys who will wholeheartedly be like 'no one understands music except this guy right here.' The two of them have the Oldest Siblings bond because I think it was just the two of them for quite a while before the others came along.
Something that stands out about them is that none of the Fëanorians are very passionate about the Beautiful Choirs Of Valinor which everyone is always talking about (those being made up of Maiar). Pretty much every other high elf is like yeah thats the peak of music. Not the Fëanorians! They're Special. Maglor loves to say his favorite music is 'The Sounds The World Makes.' He would have loved to sample ambient nature noises and remix them but sadly none of that in ye olde middle earth. Celegorm and Curufin love very fast and upbeat stuff that gets you Pumped Up. they would love going to the gym /neg
Caranthir is an "I just don't really like music" guy all the way until he realizes he just sort of doesn't like the way elves make music. And I think the twins are also Maglor stans but somehow in an entirely different way than Maedhros is and they actually have arguments about what makes Maglor's music so top of the line.
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I've been considering getting into touhou cuz I mean I love the music I've been listening to it since I got on the internet so I'd love to check it out....how do I start? :O
OMG OKAY so like. i honestly.
the way i got into touhou was somehow, i ended up on the wiki , and then stayed on there until i went to bed in a trance @_@ LOL!!! (though, i like to bitch about the wiki...!!! its a good source for official material and translations, but as far as the way they describe characters and stuff...!! annoys me!)
touhou is 90% made by one guy, and the same guy, ZUN! other side games and manga are collaborated with other artists or people, but everything else is all him pretty much.
the thing about touhou is, theres a lot of official material, but theres also a lot of fan content so it may be easy to get confused. basically..
the main touhou games are the bullet hell games. vertical, shoot em up dodging craziness!! each game has the same base mechanics, but there are differences in gimmicks for each one (that are elaborated on within the games instructions, of course...)
the side touhou games sometimes are bullet games, but also can include fighting games too! i do not pay attention to these ones quite honestly. they can introduce new characters sometimes, but overall i just read the translation of the story if i want to learn more. these games i would say are not really important
finally, theres official manga too! like the side games, these also can introduce new characters. id say that these are pretty good if someone prefers to read manga. i know some of the manga are more plot heavy (i havent read all of them) but others could definitely be standalone, as things are more or less explained in the writing.
"okay but, what about the games?"
in the games, theres usually at least 2 playable characters to choose from. they have differing shots depending on who you pick, so play around and see who is best for you!
THE GAMES HAVE EASY MODE!!!! if you feel like normal mode is too hard, just play on easy!! it counts as beating the game all the same!!
Z is to shoot, arrow keys are to move, and X is to use your special! pressing shift goes into focus mode! you can see your hitbox and have a more focused and powerful shot, and you move slower!
also, once you lose all your lives you dont have to give up!! you can use "continues," which let you respawn again with the default number of lives so you can keep going. the amount of continues depends on the game, theres no shame in using them AT ALL especially when you are starting!!
zun's own advice is, "just play the most recent one" and i would say this isnt bad advice at all! however the 3 most recent touhou games (16, 17, and 18) all have gimmicks that may be a little crazy to start with for the first time! otherwise i REALLY love touhou 18 and touhou 17 right now!
this is generally why people seem to recommend touhou 7, Perfect Cherry Blossom, for new players, and that's what i started with too! its an old game, so there are some slight layout differences, but other than that its a pretty basic game! you can increase your amount of lives from the options menu, the gimmick of the game is almost unnoticible unless you know what it is beforehand, and isnt all that bad to play!
it does have difficulty spikes, but its more of a practice makes perfect thing. some games are harder than others. do your best!!!!
"but what is the plot?"
the plot changes on the game! however the basic premise is that there is Something going down, and Reimu (our main character) and her friends go out to solve this incident! the characters you fight along the way range from minimally involved to the masterminds of the whole plot! there are so many characters in touhou, theres one for everybody! and yes, it is 97% girlies #feminism
most of the characters are youkai, and several are kami (translated as gods), and anything in between. theres a lot of themes of spiritualism that inherently comes with such characters.
i should probably mention: there is NO official english translation for touhou games! with the sole exception of 17.5, everything is fan translated! the touhou translations are done with "thcrap" which then, when the program is run, will allow you to select which translation and which games to run!
"but now, how about playing the games!"
you can buy the games on steam, officially.
as for myself i have the games in..not this way. teehee.
and......YEAH THE MUSIC IS FUCKING AWESOME HERE ARE SOME OF MY FAVORITE THEMES
AS FOR EVERYTHING ELSE HONESTLY JUST AAAAAAASK IM SILLY IM GOING TO LIVE FOREVER!!!!!!!!
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-- gardenGnostic [GG] began pestering turntechGodhead [TG] --
GG: yo yooooooo!!!!!!! TG: whoa ok hey GG: so youre finally playing the game with flighty? TG: yeah TG: but she wont answer me GG: shes probably just exploring im sure she will come around soon.... GG: but its great that you got her out of there in time!!! TG: pretty much you have no idea how much i fuckin own at this game TG: i bested no less than three flaming tornados and broke a huge wizard GG: so how does it feel to be a BIG TIME HERO GG: mister braveybrave mcheropants TG: it feels like TG: i am in sports TG: all alone TG: and i am the star TG: its me TG: and then the big man comes GG: hehehe GG: but it turns out to be CRAZY what kind of basket ball this man plays! GG: ummmm...... GG: the HOOP IS ON FIRE... GG: ok i forget how it goes TG: no you got it TG: we're good TG: reference secured GG: yes!!!!!! GG: so now it is my turn to be the star! GG: i will be your hero GG: its me TG: wait what GG: i installed the game! GG: im connecting to you as the server player TG: oh man TG: this is ridiculous TG: i just set this shit up with flighty and now i got to do like TG: some double duty thing TG: i mean i own at the game and all but cant i just relax for half a second GG: dont worry! GG: you can keep playing with flighty while i just set up a few things GG: i figured id get a good head start to avoid all the drama you guys are always getting into GG: such a bunch of drama queens!!! TG: what TG: look i was getting my ass handed to me by my bro on the roof for like an hour and a half TG: i got served like a dude on butler island GG: (DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA) TG: wait does this mean theres a big meteor coming soon GG: yes! TG: when you activate the thing will it start the countdown and summon the meteor GG: itll come when it comes regardless of what we do GG: the timer really just lets you know when its coming TG: are you totally sure about all this GG: yes look here it is!
-- GG sent metor.jpeg --
TG: ok yes that image is definitely conclusive proof of something and is 100% understandable by anyone who looks at it TG: how big is this thing GG: it is REALLY REALLY big TG: like the size of rhode island or texas or what TG: i need some context to know how much crap i should be shitting into my pants GG: ok i dont actually know :( TG: well as if like one the size of a bus wouldnt kill me anyway GG: hehe yeah.... TG: wait hold on flighty is finally opening her stupid laptop TG: so do your thing i guess TG: have fun GG: thanks i will! (heart emoticon)
It's almost as if this broken AIR CONDITIONING UNIT was scaled to be a perfect fit for the ALCHEMITER all along.
WEIRD!
TG: hey wait GG: these darn birds are in the way! GG: what are they doing in your apartment anyway!!! GG: also they are adorable TG: i always keep birds in here its sort of my thing GG: ohhhhhhh GG: kind of like all those silly naked puppets are your bros thing? TG: no no thats irony this is like TG: sincere honest to god psychosis TG: im training to be a lame gothy supervillain GG: also i think i cant put it down because of the wires on the floor..... TG: ok TG: well maybe you should take the opportunity to put it somewhere that isnt stone cold ridiculous GG: i wish i played more games GG: this is hard!!!! TG: no its not GG: :P
TG: are you fucking kidding me
GG: oh fuck!!!!!!
TG: farmstink what the hell! TG: you could have used literally ANYTHING to open the doomsday doohickey up and you used the toilet??? TG: hello? TG: oh god TG: are you asleep
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heyy long time no see! anyways rant post. its cool to skip this :)
cw for queer discourse. which i hate, and this will probably be the only time i ever discuss anything like this besides the occasional reblog
just a little rant about my thoughts recently. and please dont try to change my mind. im autistic and i have a large sense of justice so its almost impossible to change my mind about things im very stubborn
of course, my rant is about trans men trying to claim the lesbian label. i want to be specific when i say trans MEN, not trans masc people, not “masculine-aligned”, not gender fluid or anything else. trans men that identify as men. and THEN try to claim to be a lesbian. listen, i am in no way advocating for those types of lesbians. the really weird terfy ones are bad. so terfy lesbians or whatever youre calling yourself that hate trans women i do not like you.
Anyways, its infuriating. How are you not disgusted by using the term lesbian as a man? how are you, as a trans man, comfortable in any way shape or form. you work so hard to fit in as a man, right? if you are a man in your head, why do you think a lesbian would be attracted to you? surely you KNOW they are not thinking of you as a man. ever. And, how are you even comfortable using the term that women and other non men carved out for themselves? how do you feel like you have the right to trample over everything like that as a man?
I genuinely do not care if you identified as a lesbian before you transitioned. That does not give you the right to infringe on that label that is not for you. I don’t care if you “have such a deep connection to the label” you are creepy. Can you imagine a cis man doing that? why are you any different? and dont even get me started with “sexuality and gender are not rigid” then dont use the terms when you mean something else??? along with “contradicting terms is what being queer is about” what?? that is literally not even true 😭😭 identifying as things out of spite of your OWN community is crazy. these peoples logic is so crazy. i want to open their skull and examine their brain to see how it works.
Contradicting terms were more popular in the past, with things like boy dyke or other examples i cannot remember right now (im sorry if that wasnt even right but you know what im talking about right) The community has obviously changed. And it’s definitely for the better. As it stands, the community has plenty of fighting as it is. There is nothing you lose from just admitting something that everyone else knows; Youre just straight.
This is just another stupid issue that can so easily be solved. If you are a man, cis or trans, doesn’t matter. You cannot be a lesbian. You can have a connection to past experiences when you identified as a girl. You can recognize its part of your upbringing and effected you as a person. That does not give you the right to infringe on the label.
The community has demonized the label Straight so much that their own men have cowarded in fear of it.
You can use the word straight. you are not any less part of this community, i promise. theres more to life than existing out of spite of your own siblings.
Im going to be honest, if you identify as a lesbian, no one will see you as a man.
Honestly, why is it always lesbians getting the butt end of everything? wheres all the trans women claiming to be gay? yeah i wonder.
also, i want to make it clear im obviously a progressive. this is just where i draw the line morally. ok thanks
Anyways! i know this isnt the important issue right now but letting things off your chest is a good thing, right?
anyways love u guys hope ur doin well
#the term straight is okay to use guys#it wont bite#this isnt about he/him lesbians#this isnt about genderfluid lesbians#this isnt about nonbinary lesbians#lesbian discourse how original#discourse cw#discourse tw#discourse#banger post#based and redpilled
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people leave.
how do you make the most of your time with someone when you dont know how much time you have?
when i care too much about people, i fuck it up. they leave.
when i dont care enough, they drift away. they leave. or maybe i do. maybe they feel the same.
i already find it so hard to get people to stay.
if i knew that you were leaving anyways, i wouldve shown you how much i care. even if it weirded it out. even if you didnt like my when you left.
because if youre leaving anyways, it doesnt matter, does it?
i wish i had the courage to treat every day like its my last. but that would mean accepting that nothing could ever happen slowly. i dont know why im scared of that. when things slide into place naturally, i dont trust it.
i already live too fast for some people.
sometimes i wish the world were ending, just so they could live in my world. we could live at the same speed.
why do i live fast enough to outpace the end of the world?
but, at the same time, i wait for so long.
i wait for years.
thats what happens, you know? i park myself on someones doorstep, sometimes literally, and wait. and expect them to notice. and expect them to acknowledge me. and expect them to say something. and sometimes, after a long enough time, they do.
but sometimes they dont.
so i sit. waiting a couple minutes isnt waiting. waiting a couple hours is nothing. waiting a couple days is perfectly normal. waiting a couple weeks is fine. waiting a couple months starts to hurt, a little, but its okay. waiting a couple years... im still here. and if you opened up the door, and let me in, all would be forgiven. there would be nothing to forgive. thats just how much time you needed.
people never tell me to leave because i never ask to be let in.
i dont want to keep waiting. i think its creepy and bad and i dont like it. but i dont find satisfaction in shallow attachments, and even if i did, i dont trust satisfaction. so, what? do i just go around, demanding that people love me? thats worse than what im doing now, i think.
and worse, i dont think me when im waiting is perceptibly different from me when i am genuinely happy being around and hanging out with someone. if i seem a little distant, well, thats just cuz im kindof a weird guy. and i do genuinely enjoy hanging out with some people! there are people whose boundaries i know and are okay with, and we get along really well!
when i try to ask people where their boundaries are, they dont give me straight answers. and when i try to slowly probe peoples boundaries, they dont tell me when i make them uncomfortable even when i specifically ask them to call me out if i make them uncomfortable. and if i sit here and wait for them to open up naturally, sometimes they never do. and if i try not to care about that, i end up not caring about them. so maybe some people just dont want to be cared about. i dont know.
i am terrified of breaking my connections with people, because i have broken so many connections recently and maybe im just broken. i know im crazy. i can handle being crazy. i cant handle being broken in a way that dooms me to be alone.
i fear alone.
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birthday jully 13, the story of a man and his family Tokyo japan 2010-2024
This month on July 18 my 2nd son turning 12 years of age, I hope he, along with his brothers and mother and all their loved once, are doing great preparing for celebrations, as my first sons birthday is on July 24th and my youngest son Leo-Cosumo turning 8 on august 10th, less then month from now. In july 2020, myself and my wife decided to separate. I insisted on divorce various times during our conflictive uneasy relationship which became very apparent during year of 2020. I decided that is best that we separate, for at least short time, or even divorce , but at that time I did not know in Japan there is a tradition of Single custody law, meaning once upon the divorce, only one parent remaining as sole custodian, and in many cases , in 99% to be exact, the kids stay with mother and father becomes deprived of the children, entirely or partially, depending on the decision of the custodian, in this case of my wife Akiko Trush. During late summer of 2020, precisely around these dates, 2020 being famous for the greatest corona crisis, I lost control of the situation and I moved to Hokaido to work. My family visited me in Hokaido in august , I sponsored their trip , spending around 300,000 jpy on the 5 days trip. During this period I was not sure If I could continue living the lie so I tried to remain in Hokaido for longer period, but as time went by I started to go crazy, I realzed then that I cant live without the boys, when they departed Hokaido on August 19th, to return to Tokyo, I started crying as I saw them disappear into the gates; at that moment I only remember that I have never felt so sad and lonely seeing my boys leave. While in Hokaido I started working as Uber delivery guy and as manager of a hostel, so I was working but I tried to talk to my boys on the phone but it was not easy as my younger son at that time was barely 4, phone calls were extremely rare and i could only hear them say one two words and disappear. In October I received a letter from my wife asking for divorce. At this point I realized tha this is the point of no return. Even though despite the fact that I was initially the one who insisted on divorce, I knew something smelling fishy, something isnt what it may or may be not.,. At that point I did not know again, what divorce means in terms of your right as a parent. Nevertheless, I started to oppose to the divorce, requesting her motives. Only today, Now after 4 years, I came to an understanding that divorce was an easy escape goat, it was a prompt fix, a solution to a problems that couples face when they get in such stage of a relationship. Mind you my dear, to comprehend one little but important asset, I knew my wife since 2004. yes now exactly 20 years passed since we met. Going back to divorce, Her motives were not so clear but I got an idea. I was not good enough for her. I did not succeed as a business man, I was not a good father (according to her based on what she or her lawyer states in the court), and on top I was violent and abusive man,. I keep on asking myself once and so often, why to stay in a relationship with such piece of crap man like myself, have 3 beautiful boys and only after 15 years of living and breathing together, making music, building a future for a children, to begin being so ruthless? After being alone for 4 years now, as she took the boys and left the house in December of 2020, I had plenty of time to contemplate on the past, I realized one thing for sure, something went really wrong at one point of our relationship, and I did not manage to decipher and propose a treaty. Its hard to say now when my wife lost interest in being with me, but I am guessing it began in 2013-14. Here is a small fact about me, that I found out not too long ago, that I was extremely attracted to my wife, I was always desiring her and the more time passed the more I wanted to be next to her, in return all I got is a favor, so to speak. Later on she told me she aint my whore and I better go and find one. I wish I had this conversation recorded. I did not record much of what was happening between us all this years, but she did. May be it was all a script and I was just playing a role of sperm donor? I probably never find the true answer to this question. During our living together moments, I tried to avoid conflicts but on 2020 I faced with the dilemma- to be or not to be. I admit, at some point I crossed the line and I said too much... "that’s me in the corner That’s me in the spotlight Trying to keep up with you And I don’t know if I can do it, Oh no, I’ve said too much and I haven’t said enough" I spoke directly and I could not control my rage. as I recall, something in her attitude triggered the dark side of me. I still don’t comprehend fully if I was just being me or being a reflection of her. Mirror effect so to speak?. All I wished was probably to manifest my inner soul, to finally come and face the consequences of our wrongdoing. Yes not just mine but as a couple we must both take responsibilities for our actions.
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The Stooges - Fun House
These feral little guys were just not content with how noisy their debut was and had to get noisier. Fun House aims to capture the live energy in the studio and it seems to have worked. Every crunchy nasty sound is perfectly preserved and the songs can get rambly in a way that feels very much like a live performance. There's more psychedelic peeking in during those lengthy jams, but there's also some delightful saxophone there as if imitating old school rock and roll as a joke. I love manic, noisy music so naturally I love Fun House.
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Erykah Badu - Baduizm
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David Bowie - Hunky Dory
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