#like im not the greatest fan of how it's being done but i fully support jason angst

[bestangelofall]

They are really milking the Jason angst in WFA right?

[chaggle]

Please read in a posh british tone, even though I'm only 1/4th british: User Chaggle also known as Cyd, today I express my sorrow for I am on a journey to pester a lot of the hermitcraft crowd at this time of day (Including you, beloved) yet I can't do so with people that have anon disabled. Gah, the curses of being perceived!! Yuck!! So instead, to counter this saddening sight (that's not that saddening, fully get why some peeps have anon off lol) I am cramming some nice vibes into this ask, in hopes that it covers for all the lost souls that I have missed throughout my travels. Although not as big of a declaration of appreciaton as the other ask I did (which I don't think I've ever replied to the little post you did about it but it was v sweet and ur vewy nice and :flushed emote: thank u im just glad I can support someone as nice as you, not to praise basic human decency on main) this one will certainly mark an era for all anonymous asks I have ever done, to celebrate the wonders of human kind, and of the nature that we inhabit in! So, to make my words true against cold steel and stone, I will proclamate- I had to google that word to see if I had written it correctly- I will exude my undying appreciation towards you, Chaggle of Hermittown! For all of the services that you have done for both this fandom, and for moi, who always appreciates having you around, even if just on a tiny piece of plastic and wire. May your crops grow bountiful, and your waters stay clear. Your truly, 🌻 Ps: Sorry for torturing you with a long ask, I think you've gotten the longest by far </3 But rly tho ur v cool and look v chill, again, not to praise basic human decency on main, just. yeah thank u heart heart heart

It was like midnight when i first read this in a posh-british accent and i kept on giggling from sheer glee sndjis

but i am just

AAAAAAA SUNFLOWER ANON <3 <3

I'm glad you enjoy my blog as I vibe and enjoy funky block youtubers mess around in a server :DD

Now here, I'm gonna turn tables on you, sunflower anon *ahem* (please attempt to read this in a posh-british accent)

As of this time of writing a correspondence to your declaration of appreciation to me, I am sitting at my desk contemplating on how to go about this.

I truly cannot phrase how much I enjoy your queries to me. When I recieve notice of your writings to my blog, I am filled with sheer joy to see what you have in store, enabling me to fill you in and announce my thoughts with rambles.

And while you give me praise for participating in the fandom, you cannot forget yourself!

You go from person to person eager to provide them with encouragement and filling their inbox with compliments and gratitude for their contributions, especially fan artist and writers

As one of those people that fits that cateogry of fans, your compliments are one of the greatest anyone can ever recieve. And it only furthers my drive to participate and create content. There are numerous times you have brought a smile to my face from the asks I answered or have stored to continue to cherish.

I am certain for all the people you have written to have felt the same.

Sunflower Anon, thank you 🧡🧡

You're incredible for going out of your way to send asks like this

Also, I really dont mind the long ask akdnsis Feel free to crash in my inbox whenever you want :]

[someguy1023]

Nobody’s gonna care about this, but maybe someone will

i think it’ll help convey why im so stuck on this, and why i seem to be focusing more on Holly and, according to messages i kept getting, “white knighting” for her. I’m not gonna justify Holly’s behavior. thats not what this is about. I just want this off my chest.

(im gonna regret this)

also, just to preemptively defend myself, i know how cheesy all this is gonna sound. But its the truth.

so. i guess i should preface this by explaining when I first heard about Holly. Maybe it’ll help this make sense in context. Maybe not. I don’t know but it doesnt hurt to try.

I didn’t actually learn about Holly through the internet like i assume most others did. I actually first found her through TV. More specifically, through that Heroes of Cosplay show SciFi has produced a few years back. I enjoyed it, but found myself mainly enjoying the work Holly and Jessica did while on the show. They were my favorite team, and I always tried to watch whenever they were in an episode. After a while though, I, like a lot of others apparently, got bored and moved on, and eventually forgot about Holly.

It was a few years later that I would find her again. This time, like many others, through Grumps. More specifically, through Ross and Steam Train. I was surprised when it turns out that one of my favorite members of GG was also married to one of my favorite people on HoC. Small world. I stayed a more casual fan, watching the occasional playthrough or crafting episode on her channel. I was more of a fan of GG and Ross, so I tended to watch more of his stuff than hers, but I still made sure to keep watching her stuff. It wasn’t anything major, she just made me smile.

A few years later, it meant something more to me.

In 2016, my father died. Normally, that wouldn’t be such a big deal for something like this. It was everything leading up to his death that was the problem. I always had a very “problematic” relationship with my father. He was abusive towards me when I was younger, lashing out at me for really minor problems. (for example, one time he had lifted me up in the air by my throat and began strangling me when I was ~6. Why? Because I had used some money our neighbor gave me for cleaning up his lawn to buy a popsicle from an ice cream truck, ate half of it, then put the other half in the fridge. He found it, got mad at me, and then began to yell at me. I had a nervous tic when I was younger where I giggled uncontrollably when I was scared. Sure enough, I began to giggle and could stop it, and then he, enraged, lifted me up. I realize years later he was probably drunk, considering he smelled really weird. It isnt a good memory.) He eventually left my mom and I when I was almost 7, moving down to Alabama with this lady he met in a bar, and proceeded to do pretty much every major drug imaginable. I didn’t see/hear from him again until a few years later at his mother’s funeral. He seemed remorseful for what he did to me, and a year or two later, moved in with his cousin back in the state I was living in at the time. I began visiting him when I was 13, and he seemed to be better. He apologized to me for what he did, he tried to be a good dad, and I believed him. That was my first mistake.

Flash forward to January 3rd, 2016. I was visiting him for the weekend after staying at my cousin’s, and was sorting through my things to make sure i didnt forget anything. We had visited one of his friends to get something he borrowed (according to him) then got back to his house. He was sitting on the couch, watching TV, and I thought he fell asleep. I noticed he had a cigarette in his mouth he was going to light before he passed out, so I went over to put it aside. I figured out he wasn’t sleeping. It turns out, he was overdosing, and what I thought was snoring was his throat closed shut and the air escaping his lungs. He was dying. I told his wife (at the time) what what happening, she called 911, and I went upstairs to hide in my bedroom. A lil while later, the ambulance came by, and the paramedics gave him whatever that stuff is they give addicts who OD. (At the time, I didnt know what was going on. He had really bad lungs, and I thought they were shutting down or something. I was told it was from him overdosing later that night.) He woke up, and they drove him to the hospital to make sure he was okay. I went back to my moms house, and stayed there. That was the last time I saw him alive

As it turns out, my dad had been using me for over 2 or 3 years. He was not only stealing money from me under the pretense of helping him with driving for over an hour to pick up/drop me off from my moms place to visit, but had also been heavily manipulating me for years in order to control me. He had tried to turn me against my mother and her side of the family, claiming she had used me to verbally abuse and control him when they were married, telling me lies in order to keep me under his thumb. (like how she threatened to abort me if he didnt marry her after knocking her up, or how she had him steal from his sister during her wedding, etc.) I began to despise my mother, arguing with her constantly, and, on his insistence, never told her anything about what he was doing or what he told me. It wasnt until after that day that I learned it was all lies.

I was devastated. I felt hurt, used, and betrayed. (I realize now...its because I actually was.) I was a wreck. It didnt help that 4 months later...he died. Needless to say, it was a very, very tough grieving period. I locked myself away in my room, unable to summon the energy to even get up in the morning. I had suffered from mild depression prior to this, but it was much worse. I couldn’t find a way to get through this, suffering for months, and eventually, began to think about suicide.

Thats where Holly came back in.

Besided the playthroughs helping cheer me up a lil whenever I put them on, it was her advice that really began my path to healing. Her kind words and support to others began to help me sort through the baggage I had been dealing with about my dad. I began to follow her advice on how to deal with my depression, and began to slowly ull myself back from the edge, and, over time, began to pull myself back up. Eventually, with her help, I began to attend regular therapy sessions, and managed to fully come to terms with what my father had done to me, as well as properly manage both my depression and anxiety problems. I honestly don’t know where I’d be right now if it wasn’t for Holly. She helped keep me going when I really needed it. She, for lack of a better expression, helped save my life. I’ll always be grateful to her for that...despite all of this. Ever since then, whenever I felt my depression weighing me down, or felt my anxiety creep back up on me, I could rely on her to help keep me grounded.

When all this happened, I couldnt help but notice I felt the same way as I did all those years ago. Despite the fact that its just some random lady on the internet, and shouldnt have mattered as much as it did...it still hurt on a personal level. The worst part of this whole thing? I can’t go back to the thing that helped me out whenever I felt this way. Not without being reminded everywhere I go of how everyone thinks of her.

So...maybe thats why I’m doing all this. Not just to stop people from spreading hate and rumors based on speculation...but because part of me cant/doesnt want to believe one of the people I relied on and put trust in could be the bad guy. Because part of me just refuses to let go or lose someone who meant so much to me. Because part of me wants to believe that things will get better...even if I know they wont.

If you read through this, thank you. Maybe someone out there feels the same way I do. Maybe, if they dont, someone can understand. Its been a rough month for me. I just hope things will look up somehow. I dont know if I’m gonna come back to this. Im realizing it probably isnt healthy. The only thing I have left to say, then, if I dont come back; please, try to spread good. I know this is the internet, and even worse, tumblr...but i think people need some light nowadays. and constantly spreading hate and cruelty...that wont help anyone. I know nothing i say matters, that nothing i’ve done has changed any minds. but even if you cant trust Holly anymore, or dont believe anything she says...at least believe in one of her beliefs. That kindness is the greatest thing to spread to others, and the world can sure use a lot more of it.

Good night.

[exocean]

i got tagged by the lovely @lesbiancarat 🌸

1. are you named after someone?

i have 3 first names and the last two are after my grandmothers but my first isnt after anyone. my parents liked it because they automatically knew a nickname to go with it, which they liked. (i literally never hear my actual name only ‘moon’ or the even shorter version of it 'mo’.)

2. last time you cried?

uhhm this is embarrassing but a few hours ago? well i started off my day finding out minnie was with exo today so i cried a lot of happy tears then. but i had a bit of the same mental meltdown i had yesterday cause i havent been in the greatest place (unnecessary storytime sorry)

3. any kids?

i would loooove a big family with like 4 kids in the future but i know that it will take multiple years to get there. but id love to be a foster mum or adopt kids and just give them all my love and support. 

4. do you use sarcasm? 

so much. mostly related to the more difficult subjects or situation because i am absolutely terrible taking about my own feelings. (i dont i share a lot on here and use this as a diary almost but in real life its a big no no)

5. first thing you notice about a person?

their smile! i am big fan of smiles and how the are able to light up an entire persons presence. 

6. eye colour?

brown, the have gotten a little lighter since i was young but they are still pretty dark. 

7. scary movies or happy endings?

i hate anything scary i am literally afraid of the dark and pass out from blood so i cannot do any of that. and happy endings, whats not to love?! it makes me feel good, and kind of makes me dream more?

8. special talents?

i.. am not sure? like i can skate but that is not a special talent imo. maybe being able to remember music lyrics almost fully after hearing it once?

9. birthplace?

i prefer to not share my location on here sorry! 

10. hobbies?

i spend all my days on tumblr being a mess over my kids or watching cooking shows i loooove cooking shows. oh and i rewatch black sails every other month because.. reasons.

11. do you / have you played any sports?

i skate fast track and ive done inline too. ive played hockey, tennis, volleyball. and i used to dance a lot; jazz, modern, lyrical, break’and streetdance.

12. pets? 

never had one :(( i would love a pet someday though

13. height?

i like to say im 1.64 haha

14. favourite subject in school?

social studies and art history! subjects that gave me the space to find my own thought and learn more about things i actually find interesting and helpful to my day to day life. 

15. dream job?

oooh only if i knew…… idk organiser of some kind of pride event if i ever dare to say that out loud. 

i tag @kwibu @s-lay-ing @seungcheolsbodyharness @renjullets of course only if you feel comfortable. 

[stolligaseptember]

pardon the intrusion, but are you aware of the mangaka of aot's views on imperialism and fascism and his pro-imperial japan stance along with his anti-semitic undertones? im just curious, cuz i legit havent seen anyone blogging about aot at large since news about him broke out a couple years back, and seeing you blog on my dash about it was sth i didnt expect in 2018 :D

not saying that you’re Problematic ™ for enjoying it, i was just curious on your views on the show in this larger context. I was a big fan of aot before learning about the creator, but afterwards my fondness for it extinguished and i hadn’t really thought about it ‘till now and… yeah idk, i thought i would ask. Sorry for the intrusion! ^^;

Oh, no, it’s not an intrusion at all!! I’ve been waiting for someone to call me out on it ever since the backlash first started, and I never joined the bandwagon of boycotting it.

The short answer is;

Yes, I’m aware of the discourse surrounding Isayama.

Yes, I know that the story in itself is problematic.

But no, I don’t think that is enough for me to drop something that I’m really invested in and really enjoy.

So yeah, I am Problematic™, but aren’t we all?

The long answer is;

Oh, god, where do I even start justifying my actions here. Oh, yeah, probably with Isayama himself.

Yes, I’m aware of the claims that point out Isayama as an imperialist and a fascist and what have you not. But because this site is a Literal Hellsite, I always do my own research when it comes to matters like this, and the results of that was… Messy.

The consensus that I came to was that, yes, Isayama has said some ill-advised things, and he’s not the pure-hearted saint that people would probably like him to be. But the sources that pointed him out as an imperialist and fascist i.e. him praising Japan’s invasion of Korea, were either taken out of context or were purely mistranslated. Like, he’s definitely pro-Japan, which is like, nyeee, not the greatest, but also not enough to throw him to the wolves over. Like, you can be nationalistic without it turning into pure Nationalism.

I know this isn’t the greatest explanation, but I did this research over a year ago, and then discarded it and wrote it off, for my own sake of mind. I’ve forgotten a lot of details, but I remember from what I found out then, it wasn’t enough for me to write him off.

So unless someone is able to give me cold hard facts of him being a fascist, I’m not ready to drop the series like a hat.

So he’s kind of fallen into that weird grey-zone for me, you know, the one where you go, “I can’t condone your actions, but I’ll accept your content” preferably free of charge. Kind of J.K. Rowling, you know? Like, she’s problematic as heck, although for completely different reasons but that doesn’t mean that I love Harry Potter any less.

Like. I’m not saying “support problematic creators’ content”, I’m saying that there are certain grey-zones where you can severe the creator from the content. Are you following me? I know I’m being vague as heck, but this is a delicate issue, and I’ve struggled a lot with how to approach AOT this last year, or so.

Then it’s the content of AOT itself. The reason why I was doubtful over the claims towards Isayama was because the series itself deals with imperialism, occupation and the dangers of a military state. I’m not saying that a fascist can’t write a fully nuanced story, I’m just saying that it would be less likely, and that was why I had to make up my own opinion.

Because I’m fully aware that AOT is problematic. It’s problematic as hell. But that’s because Isayama has dug into the deepest parts of human nature, warfare and cycle of revenge, and tossed it and turned it every other way, and we’re still waiting for the fallout.

That’s my main reason for continuing to read the manga; I’m still waiting for the where and how the story is going to fall into place.

The story has no real moral center. Isayama shows all his characters to be selfish and greedy and vengeful and all the darkest parts of humanity, while also occasionally balancing it out with the good in all of us. But there’s no real good guy in AOT.

As the story develops, Isayama shows us the two sides of the conflict, and makes us understand the reasoning and the drive in both of them. And it’s often as simple as the survival of oneself, the people you love, and the people around you. Then he pits these two sides against each other and we’re still in the clash between the two of them. Or, at least, I am, I’m still two chapters behind.

And what I’m guessing the punchline of the story is going to be, it’s that there’s no real winner in a war.

So yeah, I’m still waiting for the punchline. And really, at this point, it could really fall any other way. It can prove to be problematic as hell, and to send a horrible message, but up until that point, I’m not ready to drop it. As the story has progressed these last couple of chapters, I still have hope for it.

And the whole situation with the Eldians are, pardon my repetition but, Problematic As Hell. I think that the way Isayama has handled the Eldians still residing within Marley to be in really poor taste, and I fully understand why Jews are really uncomfortable and upset about it. But, you know, ghettos have existed in various different contexts, as has the marking of various ethnicities. I understand the knee-jerk reaction to connect it to the Holocaust, and so should have Isayama, and it could have so easily been avoided.

And then having the Eldians painted up as the bad guys from the main casts’ perspective makes it really easy to paint them as the bad guys period. But as stated above, they’re just one part of the conflict.

And while I don’t support the decision, what Isayama has done is basically having had the Eldians brainwashed into believing themselves as monsters. But what has been the driving point ever since they were first introduced, and which was really cemented now with Zeke in the latest chapter I read, is to have the Eldians freed from their own self-hatred and the Marlayan oppression.

So again; a decision in really poor taste, but it’s not enough for me to drop the series as a whole. The series is complex, which means it deals with problematic issues. But I’m really intrigued by the story Isayama is slowly unraveling for us, and have fallen in love with his characters I just spent over two hours crying over Sasha’s death, could you tell?, so I’m waiting to see what he truly wants to say with it.

And I’ve just really learned to live with the philosophy of “you can enjoy something problematic as long as you’re aware of it’s flaws”.

So, to reiterate;

Yes, I’m aware of the discourse surrounding Isayama.

Yes, I know that the story in itself is problematic.

But no, I don’t think that is enough for me to drop something that I’m really invested in and really enjoy.

So, yes, I’m also Problematic™ as hell, but I’ve learned to live with that until either Isayama or the series itself does something that there’s really no excusing.

[ianmoonestuff]

AQOURS 1ST LOVE LIVE ~Step! ZERO to ONE~ Live Viewing Coverage in Malaysia

I really don’t know how to start this article with. It was a hell of a concert. Full of ups and downs kind of feelings. The memories that AQOURS had given us was quite priceless. As usual my article will be very long and VERY thorough. 

So please, in order for you to fully enjoy reading my article, it is recommended for you to really spare some time, brew a cup of coffee(or tea, whichever you prefer) and sit back, take a deep breath and enjoy.

I’ll divide the coverage into Day 1, Day 2, personal opinions, the REAL things that happened during the Live Viewing in Malaysia and BONUS as I’ll explain one of the greatest history and memories in Love Live concerts.

Update: -Added video highlight from official sources. I also want to share the unofficial one but I lost it..sorry

https://www.facebook.com/GSCinemas/videos/10155217647297275/

DAY 1

(25th Feb)

GSC Movies stated that the official merchandises will be available to purchase starting 12.00pm until the concert began. I rushed there by train(as usual) in the morning. Some of my friends are already there as early as 6am or so I heard.

They only provided a very LIMITED item such as pamphlet, sub-unit rubber strap keychains and KingBlade.

And surprisingly everything went sold out fast for the FIRST hour!

Also we were featured on the big screen. The video was during the recent Final Love Live and the record breaking for the largest audience and 1st Live Viewing in Malaysia.

It’s time. People taking their seats.

Now some of the highlights from the concert. I won’t provide any pics because...it’s a rule duuh and I won’t gonna risk my country from getting ban. Also I won’t specify it much since you guys can read it more from many sources out there.

So they start with Aozora Jumping Heart followed by Koi ni Naritai AQUARIUM and introductions. Everything went so well until...rainstorm came.

Yeah the live viewing got interrupted. I heard that Singapore were affected too. If it does then I’m not that surprise since it’s raining season now here in Southeast Asia. It happened to be during a raining season so can’t help much. We tried to warn people to keep switching off their phones. The least thing that we could do was do not disturb the signal. We missed Yume de Yozora wo Terashitai and Genki Zankai DAY! DAY! DAY! but quickly recovered until CYaRon’s mc part.

The funny thing was if you guys remember the 2nd or 3rd episode when Chika, You and Riko about to perform their first debut and everything doesn’t went well because of the thunderstorm? Yeah, it was the same thing that happened us. All of us were screaming “KISEKI!!!”. Some of us even sang some idol songs to calm us down(curse the guy who sang BokuHikari XD). The funny thing was they even sang some random songs from other idol anime like Macross Delta and iM@s.

My favourite part was when Guilty Kiss make their appearance with Strawberry Trapper song. KYAAAAAAAA!!!! It was a legit rock song sang by some cute girls and I LOVE IT. Their performance was FREAKING AWESOME!!! I CAN’T DESCRIBE MUCH HOW AWESOME THEY DID. EVERYONE CHEERS MAKE IT MORE PUMPED UP AND I CAN’T STOP TYPING IN CAPS!!! MY OSHI HAVE TO BE MARI AND AINYA, HER SEIYUU AND SOMEHOW I PICKED THE RIGHT GIRLLL!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH. LOCKK ON!!!!! MY KOKORO!!!!

Not to mentioned AZALEA!! Especially Arisha. Given that she’s also a gravure idol, man I can’t help but being amazed of how was she look with that dress. GOSH!!!

The live ended with Step! ZERO to ONE as one of the encore.

We actually did the largest AQOURS-SUNSHINE cheers but I forgot to take the picture because I was busy queuing in the arcade(my bad sorry )  

DAY 2

(26th Feb)

Well the weather back then was pretty cloudy. I can expect many things can be happened during 2nd...which it was indeed happened.

I started a few bit late and the hall will be open on 2.30pm.

2nd day setlist was pretty much the same as first but they replaced AQOURS Heroes with humming Bird. 

Somehow I did a good deed as a fellow Love Liver. Apparently a girl sitting beside me didn’t have any KB and judging by the way she act, she was a shy girl. Once the concert was about to start everyone were standing up except for her. So in order for not letting her felt left out, I offered let her borrowed one FLL KB(I actually brought three different kind of KBs during that time haha how convenience). She said she was kind of nervous(aww how cute) but I kept telling her that just enjoy the show, scream all you want and dance the hell all you want, we don’t judge here as we’re all Love Liver here. So I did showed her how to use the KB and yeah she missed some of the chants, cheers, calls but meh she was still learning.

Everything went so well and again like I said before since it was a raining season here...yes, we got another interruption and this time it was kinda frustrated for me. This because we still have a few more songs left to go and *boom* it happened. I heard people praying to God so it won’t happen that long, some of them even left the hall for awhile for a breather and yeah I did pray a lot too so we won’t missed much. 

Then suddenly some guy screaming from outside the hall. He told us that they finally announced the 2nd season of AQOURS and 2nd Live Tour! We screamed with overjoyed but we still want to watch the broadcast.

Then the broadcast turned back into normal and it showed the last mc where Aikyan was crying about the announcement. I straight away grabbed my KBs and support her along with other cast.  Thus, the 1st Live ended with a breeze...well...not ‘that’ breeze as I’ll talk about it later. Enjoyed some dinner with other Love Liver then went home with head full of memories and tiredness of supporting your favourite girls(I slept while standing in a train...no kidding)

Forgot to mention that we actually did made a flowerstand. We have representatives there who handle the flower for us.

 Thanks to all who contributed for our project. Surprisingly we have one Indonesian contributor there who also joined our project. Incase people wondering, KEI is my nickname there.

Below are some shenanigans that we Malaysia’s Love Liver did haha

(Noticed that various idol series?)

The thing that he hold was actually AQOURS callbook.

...courtesy of Malaysia’s Love Liver.

Oh and if you decided to come here in Mid Valley, please visit Komugi bakery. I really love their meronpan. Wish you were here @emitsunosaurus-rex

And that’s all for AQOURS 1st Love Live ~Step ZERO to ONE~ coverage from me. Thanks for reading...you can go now...unless...

Rikako’s Breakdown

Yeah...it was one of those biggest moment in histories of Love Live live concerts. It literally hit me hard...VERY hard seeing RKK’s(Rikako) struggle for the sake of the concert, for the sake of other members and for the sake of her fans. We didn’t stop discussing about it after the concert was done. Even while we’re having a dinner. I had to ban myself from listening any AQOuRS songs after the incident in order to let the feeling cool down a bit...(but knowing internet’s natural being, I kept being hit by feelings everytime I checked my phone.)

It was a 2nd day live viewing. The seiyuu were already took their spot for Omoi yo Hitotsu ni Nare song. The piano was already there as usual. The idea of the performance was to imitate back episode 11 where we already know the story behind it was that Riko had a problem of playing piano and won’t play before this but then decided to join the competition...but since this is LIVE concert, it was a real business.

When Chika(Anchan) started to sing everything went well...until when the music was cut off. I actually did noticed a ‘wrong’ note being pressed resulting the music sounds a bit off. The rest of the seiyuu just continue on dancing and keep acting professional as they might be thinking it was just a technical problem and soon be over. The instrumental version was played a bit to cover RKK mistake but just for a few seconds as they realized that RKK...REALLY DO NEED HELP NOW! 

A faint voice saying ”ごめんね”(gomenne) was heard and Anchan rushed to RKK and embraced her, hugged tightly and calmed her down followed by Ainya(Mari) and Suwawa(Kanan). The word ”大丈夫”(daijoubu) being repeated countless time in order to make sure RKK really calmed down. Anchan reached and gave her a water bottle and a towel. They hold her hands very tightly and keep on calming her down. Knowing Ainya’s personality, I already expected that she will rushed to RKK too(YOU GO GIRL!!).

Yes RKK had a panic attack. This might be because of the pressure she had to face when it comes to Omoi yo Hitotsu ni Nare song where she volunteered herself(if I’m not mistaken) to perform the piano part. I’ve to admit everything went very well on the 1st day and it was really great watching RKK performed. Having no background of any music theory, she practiced playing piano for the past 3 months...for her fans. 

The crowds including me broke into tears. The incident really...really...really hit me VERY hard! At first I thought it was a gimmick to imitate back the scene where Riko can’t play piano...but it was a mistake and I’m really sorry for thinking it that way. I really am. 

The crowd then switched their KB into sakura pink and keep chanting “RIKAKO!” countless time. I did the same and screamed my lungs out hoping my voice to reach out despite broadcasting in Malaysia. All of the crowd turned into a sea of sakura pink as a sign of supporting RKK. Tear-mark left on our face during that time.

Anchan, Suwawa and Ainya, they hugged each other for a very quite some time. Then they continued on taking their spot leaving RKK alone again and hoping everything will be fine. I still can’t forget RKK’s face and shaky hands from the camera view that mounted beside the piano as soon she about to start playing it.

They performed Omoi yo Hitotsu ni Nare as usual and this time without any mistake and no flaw. RKK’s performance on piano was flawless. Ending the song with a view of RKK pressing the last note...with her shaky hands trying to get that perfect sound...she pressed it. The last note was a bit off but I DON’T CARE!! RKK have done well for us. The audience still keeping their sakura pink KB and keep on chanting RKK’s name endlessly. The performance ended with You greeted ”ただいま”(tadaima) followed by ”おかえり��� by RKK...with a smile.

Again...it was one of the greatest, heart warming moment in the history of Love Live concerts. Rikako eventhough you’re not my oshi, you’ve earned a special place in my heart because of your act of braveness facing your hardship, never give up and keep on smiling in the end...

There you have it, my coverage for the past 2 days. I was listening to Omoi yo Hitotsu ni Nare while finishing this article and yeah nonstop tears streaming out. Sorry for taking it too long as I was busy and calming myself up after that ‘incident’.

With 2nd season coming up and Next Step Project, I hope they realized that they are actually competing with their own senpai in this idol-anime world. Not to be rude but I’m looking forward for AQOURS to beat their senpai sometime haha

As always, feel free to contact me if there are any errors here and there. I won’t bite.

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~If there’s a colour for courage, it would be sakura pink~