#like im not gonna do a five paragraph post but some of the messages in my inbox and some of the posts in his tag have been so fucking vile

[raceweek]

on a real note i hope alex is okay because the constant stream of abuse this weekend has been absolutely abhorrent. like obviously it’s been shit for logan but the sheer amount of people who have used that as an excuse to direct xenophobic comments to alex and hoping over and over and over again that he crashes is so far beyond disgusting

[sparring-spirals]

What are your thoughts about Laudna coming back, I’m curious because this seems different from the Molly situation, the group seems incredibly determined

Oh boy, what a question.

Okay to set up for the first bit, I'm gonna address the second part of the q first:

Yeah, I think this is different. I think this is very different. I think its different in all the ways that the Bells and the M9 are so drastically different and the ways that they are two very distinct camapigns. But also in the more obvious ways- when the M9 lost Molly, they were lower leveled. They didn't have a cleric with revivify, they didn't have half their party. They didn't have anyone to turn to.

I'm trying to avoid this turning into a meta about the M9 but I think that last detail is just- so important. The Bell's have Eshteross, they have random shop owners to ask, they have distant but powerful figures who might help. The M9- did not. It was part of how they operated. More than once in early campaign they went from being mistrusted to marginally trusted and they would just- leave. Authorities were so rarely friendly. They were accusing people more than they weren't.

When Molly went down, on a snowy hill at the sword of someone who wanted to send a message- there was so, so little they could do.

And so we look at the Bells and- they've got more options. They had half their party killed but they got two of them back up and, in theory, left the battle on their own terms.

They're also, like you said. Incredibly determined.

readmore bc this got long im so sorry

Its both incredible and a little sad, honestly. I said this somewhere already, but by the end of the episode- they aren't quite grieving yet. They're hurt, they're aching from the loss, they're sad, but they haven't started grieving yet and part of that is because they are still acting. There are still things to do, avenues to exhaust. They aren't grieving Laudna yet. They can still get her back. They will, they have to. They're taking the time to sit and check in with each other and ask questions and comfort, where they can, but. Very little of that comfort has even entertained the notion of this loss being permanent. About Laudna being gone, not just lost.

(Except maybe for Orym, who is looking at Imogen and thinking of losing a loved one, having that absence be a fixture instead of an aberration. Thinking of a warm embrace, and "Not yet.")

And Imogen-

Imogen, more than the others, is probably painfully aware of Laudna's absence. A silence in her mind, an empty space at her side.

i'm not sure she can even consider the possibility of that absence becoming permanent, right now.

Im not sure any of them really can.

So... uh. on Laudna coming back: I don't know, right now. I don't think it will be too easy, but I think the Bells are going to be fighting for it, hard, for the foreseeable future. And whether it fails or succeeds in the longer term, i think (I'd hope?) itll have pretty long lasting effects.

I've deleted like an additional five paragraphs of my ~thoughts~ on it for the purposes of length and keeping it as 1 meta instead of two tacked together but:

- Some of my thoughts on Laudna's death can be found here.

- Story wise, narratively, campaign-as-a-whole/ externally, is a whole separate conversation, and one that plays a lot into personal preferences and wants and likes and... probably shouldn't go into this post.

- I think there's a lot of the ways this can go and still be done "well", by a subjective metric.

- I'd like for Laudna to come back. I also can see a world where she doesn't, and narratively thats juicy as hell, and also devastating. (edit: like full honesty, devastating and also chock full of potential, yknow?)

- No matter the specifics- Laudna mattered, and will continue to matter, and I think that's the main thoroughline I'm looking for.

- edit: and- alongside that- id want her death to matter too- whatever that might look like.

[kimnjss]

i gotta say,,,,im very curious how their convo went 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀

say lesss !

[ explicit content below the dashes... ]

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it had to be some sick joke, no way would min yoongi actually follow you. eyes playing a very mean trick on you as punishment for sneaking that picture of him during your study session the other day. like you could actually help it, though. he had strolled in a full forty-five minutes late, popeyes in hand... how he managed to guess your go to order was beyond you.

the fact that he was late was definitely lightened by the food that instantly soothed your rumbling stomach. he was sitting in the seat right beside you, unlike your other tutor-ees who prefer ed to sit as far from you as possible. knee bumping against yours every so often as he attempted to shift your focus from the work book on to him. his hair, basketball practice, how amazing he was on a date... all topics he found more interesting than the worksheet you've printed out for him.

when he did start working, though, your attention was falling on to his hands. the way his long fingers curled around his pencil, scribbling the answers down on the sheet without much thought. you were snapping the picture before you could talk yourself out of it and finding it again while preparing to post on your separate account.

you should've known it was a bad idea from the start, should've just deleted it instead of being a fucking weirdo about it. now you've convinced yourself that he'd actually find your account... and then follow you. as if the block button wouldn't be his first step if he was ever stumbling upon your page.

it's not hitting you that you're not being pranked until his name is lighting up your phone again, a private message this time. so you expect it to be him cussing you out, calling you every name in the book for talking about him the way you've been and posting that poorly thought out picture (that was rightfully doing numbers lets be honest).

what you don't expect to see is an image he's taken himself, showing off a bit of tummy, pretty hand resting on the zipper of his jeans. this could be a trap, though, so you're stopping yourself from typing out the thirsty paragraph begging him to wrap his palm around your throat... instead, you play it cool.

it was not a trap, not in the slightest bit. he wasn't at all sketched out by the fact that you had this account. in fact, he was turned on. didn't hesitate to let you know how hard you made him with your fantasies of what you wanted him to do to you and he surely didn't hold back in telling you what he wanted to add to that list.

[02:23] yoongi: three fingers is too much? how will you take my dick, baby? am i gonna have to stretch you out too?

the way yoongi talks is filthy, but you love it. he goes on to tell you how good he thinks you'd feel wrapped around him. how loud he'd make you scream and the way he knows you'll be creaming his cock after just a few minutes. he paints a pretty picture with his words, all while you're left a panting mess – barely able to type back responses as your fingers work between your legs.

he doesn't mind the typos, takes pride in knowing he's the reason you can't form a coherent sentence. you're egging him on, begging him to tell you more and waiting for his guidance on just how to work your fingers against your pussy. and of course, he complies.

[02:37] yoongi: you're close, i can already tell. take your fingers out and play with your clit. cum like that for me.

you pout at the emptiness removing your fingers leave, but take his orders anyway. he's somehow sensing your discourse, a new message following the last one sent. letting you know the only thing he wants you cumming around is his dick and the thought of that alone has you falling apart, fingers twitching on your clit as your legs shake.

his name leaves your lips loudly as your orgasm washes over you. and it's nothing like the other times you've thought of him with your fingers between your legs. this time you're sure he's thinking of you too.

[draw-you-coward]

i do think tumblr’s mindset towards created content slowly changing to a consumption rather than an engagement is detrimental. and tbh every time i see a new round of defensive posts from people who dont want to engage, it gets worse. don’t get me started on that “lurkers” post im not gonna even

more and more, i’ve seen this attitude from content creators that honestly... feels like they’re debasing themselves? i really don’t think people should have to beg for scraps to get engagement. i’m speaking about the tone i get from every content creator i see here that hasn’t reached their limit yet: every little request for a comment or a reblog feels incredibly over-apologetic, like they feel like they don’t have a right to request reciprocation, and someone’s going to yell at them for just.wanting it at all. i know i’m guilty of that. honestly, with the way this website is, it’s hard not to be .

another major thing is the way the guilt of the audience is somehow being brought onto content creator’s heads. too often i see a five-paragraph long post about how they have anxiety, and then every single reblog is from a content creator who feels like they have to reassure them. those responses culminate until all personal interaction is lost, and that one post among many just feeds into the case of content creators feeling pressured overall to have poor emotional boundaries and take on all of their audience’s hypothetical feelings. if you’re like me that means rewording something a million times so it can’t under any circumstance be mistaken for “guilt-tripping”, or honestly even the least bit assertive.

(more personal paragraph here, feel free to skip) i almost hesitate to say that i’ve experienced this myself: nearly every single person i’ve messaged in some way has begun the conversation by apologizing for not commenting on my work, because abcdefg etc. now, whether this is intentional or not, it really does feel like the onus is therefore on me for what they’re doing, and all weight is lifted off their shoulders for now and forever more. really, the answer i should have isn’t “that’s ok, no pressure!” which is what i say every time. i really just want to say “okay, so when you have the time/energy i would really appreciate if you did.” because that’s not a guilt trip, it’s just a request, and i shouldn’t feel bad or “manipulative” for asking.

anyways, there are a million posts saying it’s ok to not comment, so here’s one saying it’s ok to ask for comments, you’re not a  bad person, and you deserve engagement. that’s it! <3

[astrogone]

                                             ANXIOUS MUNDAY MEME

@seekesotsibteadmist: What is something you want people to know right away about yourself?

PLEASE REMEMBER I AM EXTREMELY SLOW AT EVERYTHING!!!! I swear, there is a no apologizing for quick or late replies oocly and icly policy in this household because if you message me with an apology over that, you may get my response after a few days, if not a week, and I get so embarrassed like shdjsjd please, don’t be sorry at all. I get every reason behind any pace of the responses, so do not ever feel bad or anything replying to me too late or too quickly. Hell, you can take a whole damn MONTH to reply to me oocly or icly and I’ll still act like I would only be waiting for a day and be like “Ah! My friend! I love you”... But yeah, while I am easily distracted and exhausted to do this stuff, I usually have to reply back to ten to fifteen people oocly, and I will always have many people to reach out to when we haven’t interacted yet ( which if you haven’t interact to me yet, please, this is invitation that you can slap yourself in my IMs Now ), and my social energy / motivation to interact with people? It’s erratic as Hell. Also, I usually take way too much time replying to a post / message when it shouldn’t be the case. Like? For me to reply to a one paragraph in the thread will take me at least an hour to two. If you straight just say hi to me and ask how am I doing, it’ll take me at least five minutes to ten to just answer your very simple question.

I have an intellectual disability that gives me difficulties reading the given information, understanding them, and responding to them at a pace the average amount of people can do, but I can’t. The longest time you can get from me oocly is usually six days. Icly though? Boy, am I a lost cause with that. It can be anytime as I can reply to our thread for a month later, if not longer, I will have to let that be known, lmfao... But you’re more than welcome to give me a nudge for anything anytime. It may not get a quicker response from me anyway, knowing me, but just know that my silence towards you while I’m being noisy on dash or to others or such has nothing to do with you, ever. At least with oocly, I try to prioritize replying to people who I haven’t replied to the longest over those that I have done so recently, but I’m an absolute slow and low mess at everything, so! As that’s something I can never change, unfortunately, I can only wish that everyone interacting with me would be grateful for what we have already.

@sinisteraugurey: How much anxious internal screaming goes on with you on a regular basis?

It’s a 24/7 thing, man. I would just try to distract myself with whatever is in my way to block them, but, yeah, it just really be like that with me. Last night while I was trying to sleep, I kept staring at my window in concern because it had these shadows constantly moving behind the curtains, and there’s that small part of me that KNEW it’s just the tree branches that got caught in the lights of the streetlights, but, my mind kept telling me “they’re coming” and I was just constantly like,, “who tho,,, omg,,,,” but,, think about it,,,, I live in the sixth floor of a building, so how the Hell could the shadows reach up there?¿...

@vsentis & @arsonbeast​: What’s a tip you would give to people trying to get to know you?

Ask me questions from something simple like what’s my favourite colour to something over the top like how often do I get existential crisis lmfao even if it’s completely out of the blue or we don't know each other well yet, I wouldn’t ever mind answering them at all. As well if / whenever you are comfortable, talk about yourself as it will usually prompt me to do the same in return. I often don’t throw facts about myself to others because I think it would have others feel like they would be suddenly placed in a position of having to bring up information about themselves to me and I know not many people are comfortable to talk about themselves and / or their lives when they’re on this Hellsite to write and develop, which is totally understandable and I’m more than okay to be interacted with for just writing / plotting.

On a different note, I am planning to create a Carrd about my interests ( like what shows, music artists, etcetera I’m familiar with ) and slap it on my pinned post so it can give others a chance to get to know me more and bring them up to me to break down any tension from their end, so you can randomly pop into my DMs like “biTCH yOU WATCH B.UZZEED U.NSOLVED!?¡¿” and I’d be like “FUCK YE A H, I DO” and create chaos from there sndnsmd

@vsentis​: Is communication important to you?

Beyond important. I personally think communication is THE most important aspect in not just roleplaying, but in general. It’s what builds a strong relationship with the parties. The more they will interact with each other with a lot of patience and understanding, the higher chance that trust and comfort can be built stronger and tighter within a connection. Now, what do I have to say with me? I love talking to people, even when I’m a slow motherfucker at it and I get extremely frustrated and sad at the fact. I love when people talk to me and I can read about their days, personal projects, characters, so forth. I want people to feel that they can trust me and be comfortable coming to me for anything from a random chat to ranting / venting. Man, just straight up slap my DMs with a random photo of a forest and I’ll just not shut up about the time I nearly got lost in the forest.

Now, it does take time for me to reach out to people first, at least usually not because of IC related like plotting calls. For me to come to you randomly and talk about anything not roleplaying related? Again, I can’t be sure if people are comfortable with talking about themselves and their lives, but the more they come to me first for random ooc conversations, the more comfortable I will be to reach out to them first for so frequently. Another thing I do want to mention that if I do or say anything wrong or it’s making you uncomfortable, please? Reach out to me? I mean, I get that people aren’t obliged to teach others and whatnot, so do what you gotta do it the block and follow buttons to avoid wasting more energy and time, but it would truly help a lot with me and anyone else who I am / will interact with in the future. Just be honest with me and share your thoughts to me— I will listen and take them in mind. I absolutely hate to make people uncomfortable without knowing and I would be extremely appreciative if I was told why so I can be more considerate in the future.

@goldenornstein: Do random asks out of the blue upset you at all?

Not at all! In fact, I encourage sending me random asks! It might take a bit for me to reply like anything else, but I LOVE random asks! Makes me go “!!!” whenever I see a number on that mail symbol thingy. So, send me random memes, random thoughts, straight up just slap the word, P.ikachu, in the ask and send it to me and I’ll be like, “me fucking too, pal” jsjdkdk

@seekesotsibteadmist: What are some things you worry about in terms of new people?

I know I apologize for rambling or taking a long time to reply, but in the end, people being impatient or easily annoyed by me or whatever are my least worries. What I should be more concerned about but am somehow not is if this person actually holds good intentions with a good mindset. Even though I had my generosity taken advantage of way too many times by way too many people who I thought were really good friends in real life and online, I still? Somehow don’t ever think about the possibility that this person is actually very shitty when I interact with them as much as I should, considering how absolutely chaotic this site is. Being cautious is highly draining for me personally as I literally just want to vibe, so…

Just know that I take anyone in who my mutuals haven’t mentioned on their rules page ( yet if I do happen to interact with your abusers or people you’re not uncomfortable with because they’re doing / saying predatory / harmful things? Lemme know and I’ll instantly get out of their hair— you don't even need to give me an explanation, just don’t hesitate to say their URL and I’ll do my shit ), but I will instantly kick them off of my household the moment I see or learn anything from them that is predatory or harmful to people. If you do / say something that I don’t like, like misgender my muses or keep godmodding my muses or whatever, I’ll let you know how I feel, but if you’re gonna be stalking people, being disrespectful / abusive to anyone based on their genders, sexualities, ethnicities, disabilities, etcetera, write / make headcanons based those disgusting things we all know what, and so forth? I will hardblock and never look back, and that’s that.

[goldenacolyte]

MUN COMFORT ZONE

A valuable meme for any roleplayer! Come display your comfort levels so your roleplay partners are aware of what they can do, and of what they should avoid! A healthy relationship between role-play partners is the key to a good time! While this meme shows the basics, please remember to communicate with your roleplay partners! REPOST DON’T REBLOG!

Key: BOLD = Yes. Normal = Okay/Ask me about it. Strike = No. tagged by: nobody! but it’s borrowed from @andtheywillobeyme tagging: anyone is totally welcome to do this of course! just sorta tired atm to tag lol

ROLEPLAY BASICS

LOCATIONS I am comfortable doing:

TUMBLR

email

kik, im (maybe??, discord

google docs

skype

forum

other (?)

PARTICIPANTS I am comfortable with:

ONE ON ONE ROLE PLAYS.

UP TO THREE PEOPLE.

Up to four people.

Five or more people!

As big as possible! (idk how we’d manage it but LOL)

POST LENGTH I usually write about:

ONE OR TWO SENTENCES.

ONE OR TWO PARAGRAPHS.

TWO TO FIVE PARAGRAPHS. (I TRY)

More than five paragraphs.

A few pages worth.

I AM COMFORTABLE ROLE-PLAYING WITH PEOPLE WHO WRITE:

ONE OR TWO SENTENCES.

ONE OR TWO PARAGRAPHS.

TWO TO FIVE PARAGRAPHS.

MORE THAN FIVE PARAGRAPHS.

A FEW PAGES WORTH

WRITE ME A BOOK ( though with my confidence sometimes i would be like :0 but would never be able to write that much or it’d take me a year LOL )

ROLE-PLAY REQUESTS I like getting requests from:

Anyone and everyone at any time!

WHEN I ASK FOR ROLEPLAYS.

FROM FRIENDS AND ACQUAINTANCES.

From friends only.

ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS ** IMPORTANT: Communication is the key to a real life relationship, it shouldn’t be abandoned for a fictional one either! Be sure to talk to your partners when considering romance

SHIPPING I am comfortable shipping my characters:

NEVER. Gonna be this 100% of the time, unless it’s an AU. But if it is:

If our characters know each other deeply.

IF OUR CHARACTERS KNOW EACH OTHER DEEPLY AND I KNOW I CAN TRUST THE ROLE-PLAYER.

At the first sign of flirting! ( supeR depends tbh )

ONLY IF THE ROLE-PLAYER AND I PLAN IT.

It’s situational to each character.

If you want to ship with my characters:

Talk to me about it from the start.

TALK TO ME ABOUT IT ONCE OUR CHARACTERS KNOW EACH OTHER.

Talk to me about it once they both have some feelings for each other.

Talk to me about it when they finally decide that want to go beyond hugging.

Talk to me anytime - there is no requirement.

SPEED When shipping my characters, I like the romance to happen:

Swift as lightning!

Fast, but not super fast.

Happens in about three months.

Slow and steady wins the race.

Slugs know what’s up!

MY RELATIONSHIPS KNOW NO SPEED. THEY HAPPEN IF THEY HAPPEN.

SMUT When my characters get intimate, I prefer: >>>> The items below applies to tumblr. Smut runs free on Kik and docs. <<<<<<

To skip the act entirely. (im sorry SO SORRY, but i can’t write it super well and can only do in in stakes maybe like below, or share headcannons idk IDK)

To write the build up, but skip the act.

TO WRITE THE ACT ONLY IF IT IS VERY SPECIAL, BUT OTHERWISE SKIP IT. (If there isn’t emotional investment or a point to the smut, it really won’t hold my attention at all.)

To write the act all the way through.

ROMANTIC ARTWORK When it comes to artwork depicting our relationship please:

Do not post it at all without talking to me. ( once again totally depends )

POST IT IF IT IS CUDDLES AND HUGS. (it would be super cuteeee, and i would do it in kind tbh)

POST IT IF IT IS KISSES.

Post it if it is n.sfw. (try to message me first?)

Only post it if it depicts n.sfw privately between us.

Do not post it at all if it depicts sexual acts!

Do not post it where I can see it, but draw what you like!

DRAMATICS ** Important: Always be sure to communicate with your partner individually if you think you are about to go outside their comfort zones even just the slightest bit!

VIOLENCE When it comes to violent situations, I am comfortable with:

No violence at all! (once again talk to me, it just depends (wow faiths favorite word dear LORD)

I’M FINE WITH VERBAL ARGUMENTS!

SOME VIOLENCE, LIKE A PAPER CUT, OR AN ACCIDENTAL ELBOW TO THE FACE.

MILD VIOLENCE, SUCH AS PUNCHING, KICKING, HAIR PULLING.

VIOLENCE, SUCH AS STABBINGS. (most days loL)

BEYOND VIOLENCE, SUCH AS TORTURE AND MORE. (depends)

If you are going to do something violent, please:

Don’t do it at all.

TALK TO ME ABOUT IT FIRST.

Surprise me! (This is okay if it’s previously established that they have that sort of relationship.)

DRAMATIC ARTWORK:

Do not post any dramatic scenes that happened between our characters.

Talk to me about it before posting!

POST WHAT YOU LIKE!

[mittensmorgul]

5.15: We lost Ellen and Jo just five episodes ago, but suddenly (through horrible loss and trauma of her own) we have Jody. I love Jody. But oh, this hurts so much...

How much is everyone (including Bobby!) willing to lie to Sam and Dean to cling to their lost loved ones...

(this also has overtones of “the wishes go very bad”)

DIGGER: Call me Digger. DEAN: Digger? Who gave you that name? DIGGER: I did. DEAN: You gave yourself your own nickname? You can't do that. DIGGER: Who died and made you queen?

(yes Dean you are allowed to label yourself and not rely on everyone else telling you how to label yourself, or only accepting labels based on the expectations of others... you may now go back to being queen)

Jody shuts down their fake FBI act, Bobby’s not answering their calls, and his house is suspiciously clean (and so is he...)

(which was the observation the locals made in 6.18 when Sam and Dean went back to 1861 to kill a phoenix... they were too clean)

Sam and Dean are about to head out of town because Bobby’s got a plausible answer for every one of their questions, but Dean’s gut instinct kicks in as they drive past the graveyard. He can’t ignore his instinct... and they discover Clay Thompson’s grave is empty.

DEAN: Let me get this straight. You're Clay Thompson, and you died five years ago? CLAY: Yes. DEAN: And three days ago you climbed out of your grave, and you killed Benny Sutton? CLAY: Yes. DEAN: So you are, in fact, a dead guy.

When Jody shows up, Dean is indignant that Jody arrests HIM AND SAM and lets the confessed murderer zombie go. If Dean hadn’t been convinced before that something weird was going on in town, he’s absolutely convinced now.

DEAN: I think what Sam meant to say is, you lied to us? BOBBY: Look, I told you there was nothing here. And there isn't. Not for you. DEAN: There are zombies here. BOBBY: There are zombies... And then there are zombies. Come with me.

Karen makes Dean pie. Dean is in HEAVEN.

And I think Lizbob has already said everything we need to say about Karen Singer, love,Mary, and Dean, and was the whole reason I started keeping the Pies of s12 Masterpost (which I haven’t updated since 12.15, but really should do, because whoa the food-related meta from 12.18... but it’s just Too Much to cram down into a concise paragraph or two... maybe I’ll just put a link to my BS Cafe tag for that episode’s entry... whatever I have gone on a tangent again haven’t I) Right. Lizbob’s posts:

https://elizabethrobertajones.tumblr.com/post/152160893008/elizabethrobertajones-im-gonna-go-out-on-a

http://mittensmorgul.tumblr.com/post/152296394315/dorkilysoulless-thejabberwockychronicles

(that first post there really says it all:

KAREN: I remember everything, you know. When I died. That demon taking over my body... and the things it made me do. And Bobby having no choice but to... Well, you know what he did. But I can see it in his eyes when he looks at me. The guilt. It weighs on him. DEAN: So why don't you just tell him you remember? KAREN: I'm gonna go out on a limb here and say you've never been in love. He's my husband. My job is to bring him peace... not pain.

Because that is very much what Dean was trying to do with Mary early in s12, trying not to “overwhelm” her.

Funnily enough, because of how much I ADORE Death, and his ongoing fascination with Dean Winchester, I can’t help but wonder if this was actually Dean’s FIRST “test.”

Being what he is, Death is sort of constrained by certain cosmic limitations. He can’t just come right out and TELL Dean stuff. Especially not back during the Apocalypse. Dean doesn’t even learn until 5.21 that Lucifer had bound Death to serve him when he’d raised him in 5.10, and Death wanted DEAN’S help in releasing him from that service.

Which puts THIS:

BOBBY: Death came for me. He brought Karen back to send me a message. DEAN: You? Why you? BOBBY: Because I've been helping you, you sons of bitches. I'm one of the reasons you're still saying no to Lucifer, Sam. DEAN: So this was like a hit on your life? BOBBY: I don't know if they wanted to take my life or... my spirit. Either way, they wanted me out of the way.

into a VERY DIFFERENT CONTEXT.

Bobby was one of the reasons that Sam and Dean were still saying NO to Lucifer and Michael.

DEATH DID NOT WANT THEM TO SAY YES, HE JUST WANTED FREE OF SERVITUDE TO LUCIFER.

From 5.21:

DEAN So, then why am I still breathing, sitting here with you? Uh...w-what do you want? DEATH The leash around my neck --off. Lucifer has me bound to him. Some unseemly little spell. He has me where he wants, when he wants. That's why I couldn't go to you. I had to wait for you to catch up. He made me his weapon. Hurricanes, floods, raising the dead. I'm more powerful than you can process, and I'm enslaved to a bratty child with a temper tantrum. DEAN And you think...I can unbind you? DEATH There's your ridiculous bravado again. Of course you can't. But you can help me take the bullets out of Lucifer's gun.

...

DEATH I know. So, I need a promise. You're going to let your brother jump right into that fiery pit. Well, do I have your word? DEAN Okay, yeah. Yes. DEATH That had better be "yes," Dean. You know you can't cheat death. Now, would you like the instruction manual?

Sam may be the only one who can do that ^^, but DEAN IS THE ONLY ONE DEATH WILL MAKE A BARGAIN LIKE THIS WITH.

And I think THAT is what this was back in 5.15. Not an attempt on Bobby’s life, but the test for Dean, to see if he would be willing to do what it took, regardless of his loved ones, or how much it might hurt.

And he was catching Dean’s attention, hoping that Dean would catch on, and catch up to him...

This whole episode is just terrible all around. I feel like I’ve been stabbed repeatedly now. :P

[ghcstlydj]

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• No godmodding. No sending (implied or explicit) homophobic/transphobic/bigoted messages to me or my character either.

• Please don’t over-pester me for replies. I promise I’ll get to them. Feel free to drop me a reminder after at least a week of no replies, though. In return, I usually give you a week too, unless otherwise specified in your own rules, until I remind you if it’s your turn to reply (or more often, I chicken out and trust that you’ll eventually respond/want to drop it and end up never bringing up that particular thread ever again). You’re always free to start multiple threads with me, that is greatly encouraged because I love having lots of threads with people.

• If you start getting bored with the roleplay, feel free to drop it and/or end it. We can always start up another thread in the future.

• However, please let me know if you want to drop a roleplay thread! It can give me major anxiety when I’m waiting for a response that’s never going to come, and I wonder if I did something wrong and assume that’s why you’re not replying anymore :’) I’m not forcing you to let me know if you want to drop a thread, you can drop it without saying anything too. But I personally really appreciate being told about that sort of thing.

• Don’t reblog a thread you’re not part of. This should go without being said, of course.

• If you can trim your threads, please do! It’s fine if you can’t, though, because I will most likely trim the thread for you. If you don’t trim threads with other people, however, I’ll be less likely to follow you since I don’t like scrolling through long posts.

• Please don’t claim any of my art as your own. I prefer if you don’t repost any of my art without asking me first. All of my icons are also created by me using my art.

• That being said, if you’re following me, please let me know if I’m doing something that’s making you uncomfortable or is breaking one of your rules!! I do read the rules pages of everyone, but I’m human and forget things, and I’m not a mind reader either ;~; I care, so please tell me if I’m doing anything bad

• You can reply to any of my open starters at any time! Even if they’re a year old! Even if other people have already replied to it! My open starters are open for a reason, and we don’t have to be mutuals for you to reply to them either :’)

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–STUFF YOU SHOULD KEEP IN MIND–

• I am of age to do smut rps, but I will not for this blog because Vinnie and his counterparts are all in closed relationships, and they are physically minors. There will occasionally be sex jokes, but that’s about it.

• I’m alright with roleplaying nsfw, minus smut. Gore, violence, and generally dark roleplays are cool with me. I love angsty things just as much as I love fluff ;w; Speaking of gore, you’re more than welcome to fight/harm/injure my muse to any extent! You don’t even have to ask! However, please read my headcanon post regarding pain and injuries, because my muses are ghosts and therefore work slightly differently when being injured than a regular living human.

• I prefer not to roleplay with personals, unless you are someone I know from school or something like that. Personals in general are allowed to follow me too! However! Personals are not allowed to reblog roleplays, in character posts, or ooc posts especially if I say in the tags that I’m going to delete the post later. Only things that are tagged with my “art tag” tags are okay to reblog. Headcanon posts are not okay to reblog unless I say otherwise.

• Like spamming is okay! I very occasionally lose roleplays, and getting lots of notes from likes are never a factor for that, for me personally. If I lose a roleplay, it’s mostly just because I forgot, so that’s really a “me” thing. I’m usually very good at keeping track of who I’m roleplaying with and how many ongoing threads I have, and I reply pretty consistently, so just remind me if I haven’t responded after five or more days (as stated in one of the above rules)! And I like it when people like my posts! It lets me know that you like my blog and the stuff I post, and it makes me happy :’)

• I’m pretty lenient with short replies. Don’t feel pressured to match the length if my reply gets long! Multi-para (usually 2-4 paragraphs) is my go-to for roleplays, so I usually do long replies by default.

• Adding onto that, I honestly don’t mind one-liners. Of course, in crack/online roleplays it’s fine but I’m okay with it in serious roleplays too. I prefer it if you don’t give me one-liners, but hey, as long as I’m still having fun with the roleplay anyway, it’s cool with me! I understand not being able to think of anything to write, so just as long as you don’t give me one or two words as your reply like ‘He smiled.’ or ’*laughs*’, I’ll be cool with it. Put at least some effort even if you’re only gonna give me one sentence, otherwise I’ll drop the rp once it becomes a repeat offense.

• I will not change the formatting of my roleplays to fit yours. I’m comfortable with sticking to only paragraph style roleplays for myself, thank you very much. It’s cool if you format, I think formatting can look nice sometimes. I will sometimes use icons, but I will not go all out with formatting my own posts with all that cool ‘small text’, and indents, and bolding and all that. The most I ever do with my formatting is italics for emphasis on certain words.

• I tend to move roleplays from asks onto its own post. If I send you an ask meme and you answer it, I’ll respond by making a new post, tagging you, and linking to your reply. Until formatting on asks are fixed, I will answer any asks sent to me in a new text post rather than asks.

• I accept any sort of asks! If they aren’t answered after a while, either I don’t know how to answer it or I might be drawing it out and I am a very slow artist- Sorry-

• Feel free to tag me in any of those tagging memes! I don’t mind and I think they’re pretty fun to do! ^^

• Adding onto the above rule, you’re more than welcome to send me those chain asks like “send this to 10 roleplayers you think are really great!” because it’s super duper nice that you would think to send one to me! But don’t expect me to send them to other people, because I won’t :’) my anxiety won’t let me, so I’m sorry-

• If I follow you, that means I’ve already read all of your rules. I have also read your About and Mun pages, if you have those as well. I might not send the codephrase, though, because most of the time I get anxious over having to send things like that. I’m very sorry–! But if I follow you, then chances are that I most likely have read them- If you choose not to trust me on this, I understand.

• I generally follow every rp blog that follows me, but I might not follow some people back for a few reasons. Some might be for the type of content you post on your blog, but I am still non-selective! I will roleplay with anyone who asks (unless you wanna rp gross things or you’re a mean person,,,, like your muse can be as much of a dick as you want, that’s no problem but don’t be gross to other people as yourself) and if I do roleplay with you, I will be more likely to follow you as well.

• Adding onto the above rule, however, please respect that it’s nothing personal if I ever unfollow you either! It’s not that I hate you or anything, but if you haven’t followed me back and you’re a private rp blog, or if we’re mutuals but never really roleplay, our muses just don’t click, you spam stuff that I don’t want to see on my dash, or you’ve become inactive for years and/or don’t interact with me anymore, there’s nothing wrong with that! We can still be friends but I prefer to have all the people I follow be potential rp partners. Feel free to follow me on my personal, Briightskies, if you still wanna keep in touch but not rp :’)

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–ABOUT THIS BLOG–

• These are technically fandomless OCs, though they were integrated into the Hetalia world in a way (Vinnie’s boyfriend is Feli Vargas Jr. and Devon, Vincent, and Flint’s boyfriends are just Feli’s 1P, Opposite, and Opposite 1P counterparts respectively). That being said, I will most likely roleplay within the Undertale or Deltarune fandoms (yeah sorry, I’m not too into roleplaying in the Hetalia fandom lol, i’m just stealing the fandom’s AU concepts and running), but I am open to any muse, and other fandoms I am familiar with.

• I’ll also rp with fandoms I’m not into either, as long as you have a good about section for your character, which also indicates how you portray them (any headcanons or AUs you have that aren’t canon, or whether you portray them as canonly as possible, unless they’re OCs of course since a regular about page is a given) and I’ll probably look up other things about that fandom in its wiki if I don’t know what something is anyway.

• This blog is OC, multiverse, and crossover friendly! Multiple threads are also greatly encouraged, because I love having lots of threads with people!

• This blog is a single ship blog! All my muses already have boyfriends whom they all love very much and they do not want to get into relationships with other people

• I will tag common triggers and such, but don’t be afraid to tell me if you have something you want me to tag! I promise I’ll remember to tag it from then on. I do not have any known triggers myself. Any trigger warning tags will be written as “tw; ____” with a semi-colon, not a colon. If I feel like something should be tagged as a trigger but I’m not sure what to tag it exactly, I’ll just tag it as “tw” as a sort of catch-all tag.

Requested tagged triggers:

• tw; vore

• tw; age regression

• tw; jump scares

• tw; mental hospitals

• tw; spiders

• I will only talk through the IM system ooc. If you send me a message through there, I will not respond with ooc brackets ((these things)) because I will automatically assume you know that you are talking to the mun. I do not do roleplays on there.

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Thank you for reading this really long list of rules! It means a lot if you did!

There’s no password, because I’m also anxious with those for other people’s blogs as I said above. But if you would like to interact with me, you can shoot me an ask directed to one of my muses, or like these posts at any time (also feel free to re-like those posts so I can make another starter for you at any time!) for me to write you a starter with Vinnie, Devon, Vincent, or Flint!

[baekhyunsahoe]

BBKY92 has posted!

By some small miracle, chanyeol makes it back to his apartment, jongin in tow. He thought they had taken uber pool but apparently not so they were having an impromptu drunken sleepover.

Chanyeol’s place is mini sized. It’s got zero bedrooms, one bath, and a small kitchen. they nearly trip over and die over the shoes at the door but somehow manage to land on the bed [if you can even call it that]. It’s nothing more than a futon on the floor with a bunch of pillows and some stuffed animals.

Jongin’s sprawled on his back, chanyeol side eyes his sockless state of foot that had probably been sockless since the start. That guy never liked socks. Chanyeol never liked sweaty feet from not wearing socks. It could not go on like this. He’s about to voice his views on this matter when jongin drops his phone on his own face.

Chanyeol bursts out laughing, jongin’s groaning background noise.

“are you okay?” chanyeol asks to be ‘polite.’ Jongin scowls and the phone slips out of his hand again. “you are not okay.” Chanyeol confirms.

“my screen is so bright dude.” Jongin complains. “its blinding”

“you can change it on your settings.”

“I did – oh shit!”

“what?!”

“kyungsoo called me.”

Chanyeol’s eyes widen. A mad kyungsoo was basically the end of your days. Or jongin’s days at least.

“why didn’t you answer it?” chanyeol asks in horror.

“I didn’t hear it!” jongin yells.

Chanyeol shakes his head and reaches for his phone. “oooooooo. he called me too.”

“seriously?!”

“deadass.”

“oh my god… I wouldn’t be surprised if he showed up here any second now…” jongin blinks up at the ceiling seemingly having accepted his fate.

“fuck that.” Chanyeol scoffs laying on his side and snuggling the nearest pillow. “tell him youre staying over. Im sure he can survive one night without you.”

“okay.”

“okay.”

“okay.”

“okay.”

“stop saying okay.”

“okay.”

“I changed my mind, have him come here and get you the fuck out of my bed.”

“im sorry.”

Chanyeol throws a stuffed toy at him, reminds himself to say sorry to rainbow [his alpaca] later for using him as a weapon, and reaches for his laptop.

“I’ma throw up.”

“go to the bathroom.”

“okay.”

Chanyeol barely gives jongin the time of day as the younger male wobbles to the toilet. That’s what he gets. He had spent a whopping $80 earlier and it did not even include tip yet.

The alcohol is still rampant in his veins, chanyeols cheeks are flushed despite the cool temperate of his room. His eyes feels heavy, sleep threatening to overcome him soon. But he had some business he had to take care of. It was only 6pm [ they had been at the beer and chicken place for 4 hours before migrating to the nearest bar and ordering more rounds ] [ thankfully lit!jongin had been in a friendly mood and paid for it that time ]

Chanyeol quickly logs onto his tumblr and in five seconds flat uploads his video, checks bkhyn92s page, sees no updates, and slams his laptop shut. He lays down and is idly wondering if he had a password lock on there when he feels jongin collapse next to him, out like a light.

-- it isn’t morning yet when chanyeol wakes up next.

Its his turn to yack it.

Feeling like he was going to give birth through his mouth to a mutant chicken beer and soju blob chanyeol barely makes it to the bowl of his toilet.

“help me im dying.” He says to his shower curtain. it is of no help as the 2nd round causes chanyeol’s eyes to water.

After making a blood oath with himself in his mind to never drink again, chanyeol’s got the taste of tooth paste in his mouth instead of well. We don’t need to describe it.

The time on the microwave glimmers at him in the darkness.

10;30pm

Chanyeol settles on his bed, trying to ignore jongin cuddling rainbow the alpaca and is about to drift back off into much needed sleep when his phone vibrates loudly.

BZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZT.

BZZZZZZZT.

Ignore it, chanyeol thinks.

BZZZZZZZT BZZT BZZT BZZZZZZZZZZZZT

Don’t ignore it, chanyeol reconsiders.

With a dramatic FUCK MY LIFE muttered under his breath, chanyeol answers without looking.

“WHAT.”

“hello chanyeol.”

He blanches. That voice.

“s-soo?”

Do kyungsoo, the guardian of the seven rings of hell. No jk. But he totally can be if he ever applied for that job.

“nice of you to answer. I don’t know what I would have done if you didn’t.”

“of course. Um.”

“jongin there?”

“yeah. He’s knocked out.” Chanyeol says apologetically hating how he was going to get the blame for jongin’s idea to get shitfaced in mid afternoon.

“is he ok?” kyungsoo asks, instead of the SEND ME YOUR LOCATION for proof chanyeol was expecting. Kyungsoo was a bit overprotective in the cutest and deadliest way possible.

“he should be.”  chanyeol kicks jongin in the leg to see if he is alive. Jongin groans. “yeah hes fine. Did you want to come swoop him?”

“no way. He might yack in my car.”

Such a caring bf. That’s bae. Jongin was a lucky guy.

“well don’t worry, hes safe here with me. Unless he tries to draw a penis on my face. Then I cant make any promises.”

“my relationship turnover was coming up anyway.” Kyungsoo jokes darkly. Chanyeol snickers despite a small voice in his mind squeaking pls don’t hurt me through out this whole conversation. “by the way, I heard you were going on a date with Baekhyun tomorrow.”

Jesus did jongin alert the media? Was there a new snapchat filter for this too? which countries still didn’t know? Has that billboard for rent been bought out to make a glowing neon sign yet? Did he make a medical breakthrough to relay messages to fetuses in the wombs as well? You know, since he felt the need to open his big mouth and tell everyone.

“uh. Yeah. I guess.”

“I’m pretty excited to see how this turns out.”

“do you know Baekhyun?” chanyeol asks curiously. One part of him felt kinda weird talking to kyungsoo on the phone while his boyfriend was spooning an alpaca.

“we went to the same music school together.”

“oh.” Chanyeol, the greatest conversationalist ever. Replies.

“he’s a nice guy once you get to know him. Don’t be offended by his ratchet self. He may seem like a thot, but that’s just an image he tries to maintain.” Kyungsoo says helpfully.

Chanyeol meanwhile is trying to do some math in his head. Did he hear correctly? Was he still drunk? Why on earth would anyone want to up hold their thottie honor? This is why chanyeol was single.

“don’t tell him I told you this, but hes still pretty down in the dumps about his break up. He was actually serious about that guy. It just didn’t work out you know?”

“uhhuh.” Chanyeol wanted to know more but at the same time he didn’t want to pry. He was raised to be respectful of other peoples business. Baekhyuns secrets, personal and his, didn’t need to be told to him by someone else.

“I could tell you more if you want.”

“sure.”

That previous paragraph never happened.

“he’s probably going to try to smash.”

“what.”

“yeah. Havent you heard the best way to get over a guy is to get under another one?”

No. of course not. the last time he checked he hadn’t subscribed to the Thotsmopolitan.

“are you sure about this?” chanyeol asks swallowing hard, the feeling of nervousness deep-throating him.

“yup.” A yawn. “I might have said too much.”

“wait. So should i… you know.”

“if you like him, you shouldn’t.”

Ah yes. that made total sense. Don’t get into the pants of someone youre feeling.

“because that will automatically make you look like a fuckboy. it’s a test of sorts. That’s why im telling you. I think youd be a good match for him.”

“why is that?”

“youd just balance each other out.”

Chanyeols starting to wonder just how much kyungsoo knew about him. Whenever he third wheeled it was all good times; karaoke bowling pet cafes… nothing ever deep. Perhaps jongin be talking shit?

“anyway. Good luck tomorrow and have fun! Tell jongin he better be home before I wake up with breakfast ready or else.”

“yes sir!”

“goodnight chanyeol.”

sweet

   “So you’re chanyeol?”

“yes. last time I checked.”

Baekhyun looks amused despite the judgemental tone of his voice.

Chanyeol just looks uncomfortable.

The date came sooner than he would like [he had a mere less than 24 hours to prepare himself and half those hours were him hungover on soju]. Now he found himself sitting  in the same chicken and beer spot [seriously was there no other place to go to around these parts?] with jongin’s music teacher for company.

“and when was that?”  Baekhyun asks innocently sipping at his water. Chanyeol takes note of his hands. Theyre very pretty. Like the rest of the guy. Except when he opens his mouth. He seems to be snarky but playful which isn’t bad, but chanyeol is socially awkward at times like these.

He swallows a weird lump in his throat. “um.” He didn’t quite know how to answer that.

“kidding!” Baekhyun laughs. “I don’t need to know last time you checked.”

Then why did you ask, chanyeol thinks crazily. He sips his water too with a pained smile. Baekhyun was seriously intimidating and he didn’t know why. Maybe its because they were both sober and what kyungsoo had said echoes back and forth in chanyeol’s mind like a 1980s horror cartoon. ‘he’s gonna wanna smaaaaaaaaaAssshhhhhhhhh’ kyungsoo replayss in a creepy singsong voice.

“want to get something to drink?” chanyeol blurts.

Baekhyun raises an eyebrow. “do you want to get me drunk…?”

“no! no. I just.” Chanyeol rambles, horrified at the insinuation. He wasn’t a fuckboy!

“chill. I wanna get me drunk.” Baekhyun winks. “a pitcher and a bottle of chamisul sound good to you?”

“sounds good, yeah, great actually.” Chanyeol agrees nodding his head repeatedly. Baekhyun laughs again.

“someones eager.” Baekhyun comments. “or a raging alcoholic.”

Chanyeol pouts but he realizes Baekhyun is just teasing.

The alcohol arrives soon enough and after the first two soju bombs chanyeol is feeling less stressed and more relaxed. Baekhyun looks the same, a sign he must have high alcohol tolerance. Whos the raging alcoholic now?

“tell me about yourself.” Baekhyun drawls, gaze focused solely on chanyeol. His pretty eyes are outlined with black liner, and despite appearing as sober as fifteen minutes ago has a slight pink glow dusting across his cheek bones. “why are you single.”

Chanyeol blinks, has to seriously come up with an answer to that question. He ends up laughing awkwardly, scratching his head. “oh I guess I just don’t really have much time to date and plus its hard to meet people nowadays, I think… “

“How long have you been single?”

“Um… a few months,” A FEW YEARS, his mind and penis scream at him in devastation.

“Ooh. No hook ups or anything?” Baekhyun asks casually pouring a shot for the both of them.

Chanyeol isn’t sure if he should confess to not having boned in A FEW YEARS or to try and seem cool by saying he got hoes in different area codes. But he didn’t wanna be a fuckboy. gods, was this a test? There was no winning!

“No…” he ends up answering honestly. He takes his shot without Baekhyun and downs his beer.

Baekhyun looks truly surprised. “wow. So you’re saying you haven’t gotten laid in months?” he whistles, and takes his drink.

“its not really a big deal to me,” chanyeol explains hastily, defending his unwanted chastity belt.

“uhhuh.” Baekhyun nods, pouring yet another set of beer and soju. “hooking up isn’t a big deal to you.”

“no!” chanyeol exclaims. “no, I meant. Like. Nevermind.”

Baekhyun smiles coyly at him through his eyelashes. “cheers to that.”

“cheers to what?”

“hooking up.”

They down their respective alcohol even though chanyeol isn’t sure what the hell that meant but strangely finds himself not too worried. Baekhyuns presence is becoming comfortable, and with every shot, chanyeol feels like he can be more and more himself. Baekhyun laughs a lot at his reactions and stories, and chanyeol is captivated everytime Baekhyun opens his mouth, looks at him, pours drink, takes a shot, anything really. Baekhyun is truly gorgeous, and attractive af. There was just something about him and chanyeol is suddenly thinking about baekhyuns previous question except about Baekhyun – why was he single?