#like if this doesnt reach new fans then what am i doing it for?

[mgu-h]

Feeling so hopeless after this race. I sat through oscar winning 3 races in a row and its only race no. 6 I can’t take it anymore. Exactly whats the point of having superior pace when other drivers are happy and willing to push you into a wall and your own boss doesnt care to support you? All the while the lando discourse has reached generational levels of toxic. It’s damned if you do, damned if you definitely don’t. How are you handling this?

I'm really sorry to hear that F1 has got you down!! 🫂 I'm feeling pretty okay about things actually, optimistic even, and I know that's not the vibe of the fandom right now, but it's based on what I've seen of Lando's performance and the quality of the car. It's early May, and the last race of the year is in December, that's how many points are left on the table. There's eight race weekends before summer break, we're not even halfway there, and Lando's only improving. He won the sprint and got P2, qualified ahead of Oscar, which all means he had a very encouraging weekend after Jeddah. It could have been better, sure, definitely, but I don't dwell in the realm of coulda-shoulda-woulda, you know? I take the results and move on.

You have to remember that last year Max went into Imola 33 points clear of Checo, and 60 points clear of Lando, and the season still almost slipped away from him. Yes, Oscar has won four races, but Lando has only won one, and yet he is only 16 points behind, less than one DNF from Oscar away from getting ahead, because his results have been so consistently strong. Three P2s, a P3, and the only time he was off the podium it was a P4. Qualifying for races is 3-3, neck and neck. He is clearly happier with his control of the car, and is very close to putting together those essential Q3 laps. If he'd not lost pole to Max, I think he would have won Miami by a mile, but he did lose pole, and that hurt his race. His pace was tremendous, and he got P2, the ultimate damage limitation.

If you're curious, here are my way to stay sane and enjoy F1 as a Lando fan: I do not check the tags on here, I turned off 'based on your likes', I've blocked a lot of antis, I've filtered names of blogs that I don't want to block but have harsh or upsetting takes. I mostly follow people who post pictures of Lando or fanfic about him. I am not on twitter, not on tiktok, not on instagram. I check F1 news at most once a day, and on sites I trust to be pretty factual and neutral, not opinion based, often AP. I basically do everything I can to focus on Lando himself. Right now I'm watching a half an hour long interview with him, and enjoying it so much. He's a smart, nice, earnest, and talented guy. I don't ever think about Oscar on purpose, don't worry about team PR, don't think about rumors. The media say a lot and it means very little.

I want Lando to win the WDC this year more than anything, of course I do. I'd be really sad for him for him to miss out on this golden opportunity, and even more sad if his teammate, a driver that I am at best neutral toward, wins it. BUT. Zoom out. I think Lando is going to be in the sport for a long time, I hardly think he's at risk of leaving it. He's a multiple race winner, who took his team to the WCC last year, and is consistently on the podium this year. If this ends up not being his year, I'm still going to enjoy watching him on track, as I know he's going to keep putting in good drives. It won't be the end of my world, or his world, if he has to try again in 2026. I believe he can do it, he's in prime position to go on a run of his own, and Oscar has had ups and downs in his momentum as well. We have to wait and see, and I'm a patient person.

I understand why people are upset with McLaren's leadership and PR. I do see what signals they are taking and extrapolating toward catastrophe, but I would be genuinely, deeply surprised if the things people are saying are really true. McLaren simply does not have deep enough pockets to both buy out Lando's expensive, long-term contract, AND pay for the most expensive driver in the sport to join, that's even if Max is interested. Lando is hardly performing like DR in terms of lack of points, the team is getting 1-2s and leading the championship by far. There's simply no reason for them to spend that much money. It's so unlikely I would be genuinely astonished at how irrational it would be if it happened. I think Lando needs to win a couple races, take back some momentum, and everyone will forget that this was even a thing to speculate about.

It will be ok 🫂

[socksandbuttons]

So i seen that you had an thngy of sa show cslled "killcode and Erath show" and I want to know if you hsve like silly ideas/HCs about KC and Earths dynamic?

well first of all. While there WILL be disagreements and slight betrayal. Not to the levels of SOURING the relationship like laes has currently (it makes me sad, not even a fun sad) However lemme think of somethings on the spot here I've mentioned KC and Earth would go see Barbie and vibe with that. KC isn't like a huge fan but he enjoys it, and will be sat to hear Earth go on for hours about Barbie movie lore. Dude is like nodding and going Uh Huh while also he's lost where he was in this lore dump. Absolutely would spoil baby sister, all she has to do is give puppy eyes and he's like '... my weakness' Good thing he doesnt have much money. Earth meanwhile the first meeting still... baffles her cause when she does ask about what that was about KC never gives a direct response (She seems to dismiss when he brings up he had a bad encounter with their father... He hasnt realized yet thats a deliberate coding thing in Earth) Earth is capable of lifting KC. Even if he's at full 20ft height yeah she CAN and she will. Big bro also deserves to be held. Earth being hit on by Monty when she's not totally aware yet? KC is lurking in the distance 'Greetings' 'HOW LONG WERE U THERE' 'When you and Foxy were discussing how to neg her' '...You know I wasnt going to-' 'I wouldnt have been standing there the whole time if I didnt' 'dude ur terrifying even doing nothing' 'I have a welcoming aura' 'SAYS WHO?' Earth says so. KC still has the tendency to leave for a while and not be able to be reached which Earth is a lil sad when he does so but leaves him to have his space and all. Later on she does get more on him about that 'What if we need you? How am I suppose to contact you if- if you won't even answer?' KC staring at the emotion situation the family is in and Earth trying to 'fix' that... Yeah I think he'd be a lil more trying to get her not to do that. Helping with her need to be useful to the family as a therapist... by actively making sure she ISN'T being one for them. She's here to be their sister. KC however is a good listener. Earth also being the one to teach KC on how to be more present with the family. (Cause dude while he was about being family... he still didnt check in during a lot. Albiet he wanted to live how he wanted still-not even a letter) Sibling dynamics of older sibling just letting the younger Vibe but also making sure theres a firm word in if someone steps out of line. Like Earth will point out KC's nonsense- However KC being here let's Earth learn without taking that role of 'I am responsible for everyone and take care of them'. Sun's relationship with Earth would still develop as her looking out for him, but KC will be here for New Moon and Lunar so she's not taking everyones problems on herself. Theyre the down to earth duo of siblings during the crazy shenanigans that keep happening. While also having silly moments themselves. KC will scare sun with 'I did and oopsie woopsie' on purpose cause it just makes everyone uncomfortable. 'Ew i dont wanna hear that again'

[astroyongie]

Enhypen Reading March 2024

note: please take it lightly

Heeseung

Love: as far as I can tell, Heeseung is in a relationship at the moment but other have some troubles when it comes to communication (this bc I believe his current s/o is probably not Korean and they might struggle with language barrier which makes the relationship a little complicated) 

Career: he is having some complications with one of the managers, however when it comes to himself, Heeseung has been a little bit out of touch with his career, he isnt putting as much energy as he might have liked to put (that because he feels the dynamics are shifting)

Self: his mental health is struggling a little but that mostly because he was formatted into thinking in a certain way and with maturity and age he is understanding that the world isnt what he initially though it was. He is trying to involve with culture but its hard 

Jay

Love: I do believe that this man is also in a relationship that just started very recently but Jay doesnt seem like he is fully committed with this person. I dont know if there’s a special reason for this, but he is keeping things rather simple of now 

Career: his career is going well, his sponsorship have already wrapped up the contracts for solo stuff and he is more than excited to do them. Jay has also been training hard and putting effort into opportunities to show his fans a new side of his idol character 

Self: he has been money oriented lately, he is focused about himself, about how t improve himself in his wealth side, how to invest and also how t assure himself a positive future because he knows everything can come to an end quickly and he wants to put all the opportunities on his side 

Jake

Love: he is also in a relationship but things are quite weird for him, probably because his relationship feels “long distance” type of thing. He finds himself daydreaming about his partner a lot of times, and he probably have set goals that currently are too unrealistic for him and his partner 

Career: Jake have been some difficulties with his sponsorship that aren’t giving him what he might have wanted because he also cannot repay what they ask from him. Jake also feels like he hasn’t been as close to the other members has he had one been (however this feels like he has been the one taking distance unconsciously) 

Self: couldn’t get anything here 

Sunghoon

Love: boy is still dating the same person he was dating in January and things are going well for them since they are establishing a positive relationship and putting everything in table. I feel that he still puts his career first but he is trying to be a good partner 

Career: some complications here, one of his exclusive contracts wasn’t resigned by his sponsors (the brand probably dismissed him) so he wont be doing anything for them this year (or at least until the current contracts ends). Some difficulties in the relationship with one of the members 

Self: he feels really overwhelmed by everything, by his career, but th image he has to put with his fans with the rules he has to follow and the permeant fear that he can be cancelled for anything and anything. I feel like Sunghoon is walking o eggshells for a potencial reason 

Sunoo

Love: he is still dealing with his last relationship and with the arguments. It feels that even after January, February was a month were him and his ex kept talking (probably because they wanted to fix things) and although they have reached a concensus, the lovebirds are still in a complicated argumentative phase 

Career: I am pretty sure that his sponsor ditched him out and he is currently leaning on the company until they figure out what they can do without that kind of support things are a little more ocmlciated for Sunoo’s career. I also feel like the conflicts inside the company continues 

Self: he feels trapped in his situation. Theres probably a part of Sunoo who wishes to leave the idol life but at the same time he doesnt want to disappoint anyone 

Jungwon

Love: he is still single, nothing changed much since January, Jungwon is still dating with a side of himself that is way too broken to be able to stay in a healthy relationship at the moment. I am concerne about his mental health too 

Career: there’s some changes here, when it comes o his career. Jungwon have been activity putting his goals aside to allow some members to shine more than him yet he still tries to grasp a few whenever they come up 

Self: he is in a very emotional state, just like In January he is someone that longs for a relationship, he longs to find someone that will comfort and love him and that puts him in a fragile position 

Ni-ki

Love: Niki has been seeing people In a non official way however he is being way more selective than he was in January. He isnt allow to just be around anyone and his flings are hand picked 

Career: some complications here as well, I feel like Niki have made some mistakes when it comes to his image and these will keep repeating itself because he totally is obvious about consequences  

Self: he is someone with a straight head and perception and he doesnt allow things of everyday life to touch him in a negative way. Overall, Niki is doing fine, mentally and physically 

[kaeyachi]

First off... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! Got the new clothes on and a feast prepared (avoiding the tikoy because of what happened last time...)

and now back to our regular genshin talk

THIS LANTERN RITE MADE ME SOB

whats up with the clickbait title lmaaaoo (but no seriously i started sobbing like a baby, which is fine, until i point out the fact that i did it during my lunch break AT WORK)

-ok need to put this out of the way...but SHIP TALK because DAMN

-Xiao x Traveler fans rejoice. Over protective Xiao as always 🥺 The way he thought for as sec if he could complain about Ningguang TO NINGGUANG LMAAOOO. This was during the time he was talking to Yelan (aka Xiao being lowkey pissed at Yelan and Ningguang for sending the traveler to rescue HuTao, LanYan, and Qiqi) Ily so much Xiao

- Beigguang fans YOUR GIRLS ARE MARRIED AS ALWAYS. Got a moment where I wondered if Ningguang proposed lmaaaaaoooo. Beidou telling Ningguang to use her money to buy a new hairpin, then Ningguang not buying one and using the excuse of not wanting to buy it without Beidou agreeing to what it looks like, leading to Beidou inviting her to a stroll to finally get that hairpin 😭 I missed them pls

-Cynari has spent over a week in Liyue by now...what is this? a 2nd honeymoon?? anniversary date?? (the computation is that they have appeared in day 1, then there are 2 days per quest, and they appeared by the 6th day walking side by side) and like...the other pairs stated their reason of visiting...but these 2... (pls consider Cyno used a week long leave again and spent the entirety of it with Tighnari only unlike the previous events we got)

- the fatui lovers being talked about in canon?! THE ENTIRETY OF LIYUE ALREADY KNOWS I BET LMAO

- damn...lantern rite really is an event for lovers huh? Eulamber got to visit together because their rest days matched (everyone say thank you, Jean!) Candehya is going around Liyue as well (everyone say thank you to the people that convinced Candace to take a break to be with Dehya for a couple of days! Dehya buying a necklace for Candace ehehe).

-ok enough ship talk...THE PLOT?!

- HOYO KILLED HUTAO. HOYO KILLED HUTAO OH MY ARCHONS. THEY KILLED HER. THEY DIDNT JUST KILL HER, THEY GAVE HER A SERIES OF DEATH FLAGS FOR THE FIRST AND SECOND QUEST! I SOBBED WHEN SHE STARTED TALKING TO YUNJIN. MY GIRL WAS DEAD DEAD

- oh? what is this? a traveler loophole! yipee!! we get to bring her back by forcibly pulling her out of liyue purgatory! (she was so close though. girlie was a backflip away from reaching the doors to liyue afterlife lmao)

-ok but bringing back the entire sequence of her saying her goodbyes to everyone...i figured something was gonna happen to her since quest 1... but damn...the moment quest 2 arrived, I knew hoyo was gonna pull this card... still, it was painful to see her do her goodbyes

- the xiangling and the yunjin ones were painful. These two were not involved with the upcoming plan, and yet that makes it worse because they could tell that something worrying was happening within their friend's mind. They got hutao making promises she thought she wouldnt be able to keep...

- and then we get the zhongli and hutao scene...you could tell by zhongli's demeanor that he dislikes what hutao is telling him. it must have been horrible to hear hutao, still a young woman, basically voice out her last will and testament to him and make zhongli her heir... idk if he knew of the traveler leyline loophole thing at this time (he could know, or he could have also just connected the dots after the traveler confirmed that he isnt recorded in the leylines) but it doesnt make what hutao was telling him any less painful

- can i just say that i am absolutely overjoyed at seeing the ENTIRE LIYUE CAST for this lantern rite? the previous 2 lantern rites were fun, but this lantern rite? it feels like home (well, 2nd home. i still mentally live in mondstadt after all)

- i definitely still have more thoughts, but i had to work overtime today, then i had to prepare for chinese new year, so I'm exhausted. might edit this in a couple of hours!

[theemporium]

https://www.tumblr.com/theemporium/744075840826015744/new-pairing-alert-ok-so-this-came-into-my-head?source=share

nicojack x coach!reader cont.

because do you know how funny it would be for jack to be sitting there, already crushing massively on his captain and desperately trying to keep it hidden so it doesn't fuck with the team chemistry. and oh fuck, now their new coach is hot too! why does he keep falling in love with his superiors!

and just imagine that nico and jack figure out their feelings for eachother first and she's happy for them but now it's solidified in her head that she will never be able to act on her feelings for one let alone both of them because she doesnt want to ruin nicojack's relationship. and there's this subtle rift in between the three not only how it relates to the team but in general, and the boys can't really put their finger on it.

and slowly but surely she's pulling away from them and putting up more of a professional wall between her and them. and it all comes to a head because she's refusing to hang out just the three of them because she's their coach, when a few months ago she would have been agreeing in an instant.

and they wont leave her alone until she gives them a valid reason on why she's been so distant with the two of them when she can interact with the rest of the team just fine. and she blurts out in frustration that she's in love with both of them.

her lowkey adopting some of the younger boys and guiding them instead of letting them kinda scamper about like l*ndy did?

just imagine her looking at luke one time and instantly going "this one is mine" and mother hens him from day one.

new thots

what if after she announces her retirement mrs. ellen hughes reaches out expressing her grief because she was an avid fan, fitting reader's games in whilst also keeping track and watching her sons games

and they become friends who message once and a while and get coffee with each other when they are both in the same area

im thinking her age being 1-2 years older than nico

she got gifted these clips in red at her first game and absolutely adores them: https://www.etsy.com/listing/720551725/small-demon-horns-cute-gothic-devil?click_key=abbeeab68ff6bfcfdafcb77ef8fbfc6e4933215e%3A720551725&click_sum=a0db3b04&ref=user_profile&bes=1

owns these earrings and wears them to a good amount of games: https://www.etsy.com/listing/1351736943/new-jersey-devils-red-and-black-crystal?click_key=9821cc430986fa847ecd522b02d7b5e00dcb5994%3A1351736943&click_sum=135f240a&ref=user_profile&cns=1&sts=1

wears either black or red lipstick on game days, those are the only two options i wont be taking critiques on this thot tyvm

imagine the twitter girlies losing their shit the first time she wears the black lipstick to a game with a red suit

in a similar vein i think she is a winged eyeliner girly

imagine her defending her boys with her full chest when the ref makes an unfair ruling against her team. are you kidding me she would die for these boys.

loves a good team dinner, and makes an unofficial tradition that at least twice a month they have to either go out or someone has to host team dinner

☕

OKAY BUT SHE WOULD ADOPT ALL THE YOUNGER BOYS

like she takes luke and nemec and holtz and she just puts them in her pocket because those are her boys🥹and i just imagine they have this fondness with her where they feel like they can actually talk to her, you know?

like that interview from isaac where he was freaking out about where to park and sit and everything? the reader would be the one to reassure him and she meets up with him early so he can settle down and feel comfortable

and just imagining the team with her after a win? like they just CROWD her in a hug and maybe they just kinda line up and she playfully but affectionately knocks their helmets the way they always do to each other and it's just so🥹

and now i am just sobbing over the found family-ness of it all😭

and don't even get me started on the family skate days where nico and jack are fucking menaces with her and they are basically chasing each other around the rink and dodging other families

and imagine her skating with both their families🥹her just yapping away to ellen and nina when one of the boys comes up behind her to put a beanie on her head to make sure she doesn't get too cold and it's so so so soft

[mariqu1taman]

Can I just say I've seen a lot of Kinnikuman OCs over the years, been a fan of the franchise since way back when. No word of a lie but your OCs look like something pulled right out of the classic run of Kinnikuman. Id love to know your thought process behind all three of their designs, because they all look so well developed and like care went into them completely.

I'm personally doing some Kinnikuman Fanfiction myself, and I struggle sometimes with the forming of new characters at moments. But these three are incredible, seriously you should be immensely proud. If you ever do bring them to life in some fan fic, whether written or drawn Id love to read it!

All the best and have a follow! 🤙🏻

Helloo!! Thank you so much for following, the beautiful words and also for all the support, It means a lot to me! Alr lets get to it...

Well Regarding my ocs, its a process I dwell on for a week for two.. fot making my first ever Kinnikuman oc; "El Rey".. I wanted to base it off my culture, I am Nicaraguense and Nicaraguan representation is awfully non existent on internet media. So I focuse on tradicional pieces + And take a good look at what the fighters... (at the time I was at the first arc/20th Chojin Olympics).. Which was normally boots and the boxers

By January, I finished the Throne arc and saw the many new designs, It gave me more freedom and thus I worked on a new design which had more Nicaraguan Culture/clothes to it.

Lastly by the end of the time chojin arc.. at this point wrestling gear is whatever (examples being Mariquitaman, Aristera, pirateman, the perfect chojin).. I realize the detail and decided to overexaggerate my design to make it more dynamic, which you can see... In kinnikuman, clothes dont matter, as long as you can fight 🔥

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So I would say my though process would be.. find a concept.. Modernize it to Kinnikuman standarts .. update it with style .. Exaggerate it till it looks good

With Marionetteman, I admit there is NO THOUGH process since its based on my old sona

This one; which you can see.. its a ball jointed doll, which is what I inspired from to make Marionetteman

Now now it may be stupid but this is his first.. concept... pretty shallow.. non muscular, its embarrasing! However!

He was given a better more stuctured Reference once I figured it out, I wanted him to mainly have 4 arms, ofcourse the whole Marionetteman name doesnt fit his aesthetic that well, its gonna stay as it is

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Now lets get to something... even more stupid....

Cupioman! My latest and first Brutal chojin I created so I can send him off to be in the Superhero federation mafia to do what El Rey and Marionetteman cant do.. murder

So As you can guess, He is based on a littleee on Ramenman, the shoes, his stance and tranquility he holds despite being a brutal chojin.. His inspiration is...

Well..

A chicken.

The prairie chicken

So You mighy think.. what was even the though process? Im gonna be so real, It just came to my mind, funny how El Rey went through many stages before reaching his official design.. as for Cupioman to be done in his first

I would say his sketch was very direct. I wanted him to have the same vibe Ramenman had in the first arc, combined with the color palette of the chicken, an idea just came to my

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Conclusion: Most of my ocs are actually well though in my head before I draw, Some might not get it the first time like Marionetteman but its a slow process that you need to understand it takes time, and creativity! First I would say.. pick whatever thing you want to base your chojin, It could be a bird, an object, and try to have fun with it, make different sketches, different ideas how they could look like. I apologize for rambling so much, Honestly Its a question that really wrecks my brain and I want to say more than just "I just though abt it" yknow??

Once again thank you so much and also comments are always on to discuss anything! Have a wonderful day ❤️

[richardsphere]

My Blue Prince Review

Just finished Blue Prince. Or at least as much as there seems to be? I checked google and the concensus is that this is the true ending as it stands today. so a spoiler-free review first before i put my thoughts on some more spoiler-laden stuff: This game is not for everyone, and personally I would strugle to recomend it based on my final feelings on its true-est end, but it mostly rises above its foundational setbacks tiumphantly. I dont think i can recomend Blue Prince to either fans of the Roguelike Genre, because its bare-bones in that department. But i couldn't recomend it to heavy cryptic fans either, as the main thing about Cryptic Riddles is that the low time to failure and quick ability to test new hypotheses are what make that stuff work. Having to spend an hour fighting RNG for an item so you can test a hypothesis and be proven wrong just... doesnt work. So i cant recomend this Roguelike Riddle-game to roguelike fans or cryptic fans. But i can recomend it to one very specific audience (that I myself happen to fall into): if you like the idea of a game that truly feels like you are a Vancian wizard/scholar. This game might be for you. Not like Skyrim, where magic is just "point-to-point fireball" (which is mechanically identical to an arrow), or BG3 with its, admittedly great, broad and varied spell-list that, mechanically nonetheless all just come down to "press the button, spend the resource, watch the effect happen". This game is the only one that has made me truly felt like i was researching the secrets of the arcane. To figure out how to master the magic innate to the mansion's many hidden mysteries. Now im fairly certain that "Vancian Wizard" is not how the game is intending to make the main character feel. But is merely a result of the various effects that require planning across multiple days (mainly the coat check and saving up Stars in the observatory) that combined with the need to really scour every note in detail bordering on madness that results in this "Vancian wizard deciphering arcane scrolls in forgotten tongues to plot out the order and combination of spells, and blessings from the Spirits to, at the right celestial alignment, take out his tools and perform the Sacred Ritual vibe that the game developed... What im saying is: The need to layer multiple different effects, each of which has extremely specific triggers you have to earn the knowledge for? Thats what a wizard is supposed to feel like. And this game (mostly accidentally) nailed that feeling. I would love a game that took the Deep Research. Calender-tracking, and other Prepare for Tomorrow mechanics, combined with the Deep Lore Studies and smooshed those together in a genre that doesnt quite interfere with the ability to make those preparations as badly as the Roguelite does. If you want to feel like a wizard, Blue prince is a recomendation. If you want anything else, im going to recomend against it. HEAVY SPOILERS BELOW COVER:

I do wish the final post-postgame didnt... dead-end the way it does? The way the game teases you with the usage of Celestial Imagery in the lead-up quest-line, after the Blue Note mentioned that the "innclipse" (the moon with the smaller moon in front of it) could only be seen from the North Garden. (especially given that "be in the Royal Court, naked and unarmed at the sacred hour during a celestial alginment" was explicitly the solution to a previous puzzle-quest! That one singular note sets up so much the game doesnt seem to pay-off) And I really expected Aurevei's blueprint maze to unveil something foundational about the house, that would've let me reach either the North Garden or the statue on the East (where i think its implied the gardener hid the red letters when he first stole them, and where the eigth would logically still be). Its a testament of the game's strong worldbuilding that I am left this dissapointed at the lack of a proper conclusion to the "Aurevei/Swirl of Stars" arc. But reviewing the full and complete game, as seems to be the consensus of what constitutes the full game as of the Third of May in 2025... I cannot say i feel like the ending was worth the journey it took to get there.

There were various points throughout that were worth the journey it took to get to those points but the 'true-est' ending is a waste of time. And it feels like a betrayal of the spirit of this game to recomend others strive only to obtain the second ending, given that said second ending is designed explicitly to tell you 'the box with the prize isnt the true box'.

[red-dyed-sarumane]

list of some of the most on-brand forfy lore i can remember rn

when i was like 5 my parents took me into the city (rare event) & as a big fan on animals i got really excited to see masses of pigeons & me (5) wanted to go hug them so i spread my arms out & ran over to a bunch of them and they all took off together & kicked dirt in my eyes & i fell to my knees crying in the middle of the city. so i have held a grudge against pigeons for like 20 years now. ive also apparently learned nothing from this bc now i live in the city & see pigeons every day & theyre cute & stupid & i will be trying to pick one up if it gets too close to me. i do not expect this to end will. it will not stop me and i will get mad about it

i made up a fake sister for an essay once. wrote a whole thing about how she inspired me in my life but she moved to brazil & i havent heard from her since so im worried for her. the assignment had nothing to do with that it was a task in using a word with two different definitions & making those definitions into a cohesive theme. i got a 91 on it and that was bc i dont proofread and am notably bad at spelling. anyway my sister is name linesus (combination of linda & jesus. she's 51.6% jesus. the bible figure yeah.) shes 11 years older than me and works as a worm farmer in brazil. shes also dead from worm farming accidents. was a trend for several years for several friends & i to say "linesus didnt die for this" whenever something went wrong or was inconvenient

this isnt really a secret so i'll say it but the name akire actually is a nickname a friend & i came up with in a middle school math class bc we were bored & went hey we should just start calling each other by our names but written backwards. and then it just stuck & i still have irls that call me akire to this day. almost as stupid of a name origin as forfy being from me misspelling forklift, my friend intending to make fun of the typo but spelling it even worse, then me trying to make fun of THAT typo & accidentally making it even worse & then going "that sounds like some dumb ass name i'd use for an oc. im gonna use it for me"

had a crush on a guy in class in high school which is nothing except i'm socially inept & decided instead of talking to him to his face i would take inspiration from this site's anonymous mail feature & write little anonymous notes during breaks(boring stuff like have a nice day & what not) & slip them into his locker after lunch when no one was around to see me do it (they let lunch leave before other classes finished). this went on for a while until one of my friends was talking about it bc they heard from his friends that it was happening and i was like oh yeah dont tell anyone thats me & she was like dude he is totally losing his mind over who is doing this. & i immediately stopped. he never found out about it.

at one point started calling my all friends "son" & they started calling me "dad" in response. except the same friend who gave me the akire nickname it evolved into being clacl bc the cl looks like a d.

i've always been obsessed with things i like & would use them for school projects if applicable thats nothing new but it really reached its hight when they asked me for a timeline of life highlights to put in the high school year book & one of the few things i put was getting into shuuen no shiori project

this is just showing off A Skill but like i said i didnt grow up in a city & i also was just encouraged to do whatever as a kid unsupervised so long as it doesnt cause problems so one of my hobbies was getting boots on going into the shallow end of a pond & bare fist catching frogs while theyre in the water. i can still consistently do this. less consistently i can also do it with small turtles, they tend to flee earlier than frogs so its harder to get close enough.

for a science class we had to do a project where we took an existing song and make it about cells. i chose ryo's world is mine feat hatsune miku & made it cell themed & sang it in front of the whole class. i may or may not still have the lyrics doc somewhere on an old laptop

i think my current audience knows this but i kept running into vocaloid producer tokyo marcopolo at vocaloid conventions & he always recognized me after the first time so at the january vomas when i remembered i brought my own stickers with i ended up going back to his booth & giving him a rime lapis sticker as a rime fan solidarity thing.

got the nickname sass for a whole year from an english teacher because at the beginning of the year i had to get a form signed by my parents and she jokingly said it looked a little forged & i just shrugged and said "unfortunate"

i had a doppelgänger phenomenon for several years. genuinely i thought it was a friend known to make things up to keep things interesting until several more trustworthy friends and my own mother told me they encountered it. i was told frequently it was seen at school in the hallways & wouldnt answer when talked to. i was like okay its probably just someone who looks like me until several said they saw it with my locker open grabbing books. i barely knew my combination let alone anyone else. also so many of these happened when i was out of school sick so it wasn't just me having a dissociative episode. my mother's also told me she's heard me or seen me walk into different rooms in my actual house but then i wasnt there. i was either in my own room or at a friends house when it happened. still have no idea what went on there because theres no way all those people, some of whom hated each other, would all get together to make it up

not too long ago a guy tried to pick me up & usually i try to leave those situations as soon as possible bc im just not interested but i hadn't eaten in almost a day so i was like yeah sure i'll go to a cafe with u & i got a drink & some cake out of it and this guy actually ended up being someone super into vocaloid who'd gone to night hike & even did some synth work himself so we talked about vocaloid for about an hour. and then we left the cafe & he immediately asked in no uncertain terms to fuck. & i said no but it remains one of the funniest interactions ive had in my life

i had to make a board game for a class once & i made mine themed around cryptids like mothman & the chubracabra etc & i started crying in class from trying not to laugh bc i was trying to draw a bigfoot silhouette in illustrator (my beloathed) & i accidentally made him super buff

[melancholiaenthroned]

amanda saw for the ask game :))

yayyyy tyyy<333

first impression: ok full disclosure i did NOT like saw the first time i saw it LOL. i thought adam was annoying and the bathroom was yucky and it was too slow paced. BUT i did like amanda she was like the redeeming quality to me. and once i watched saw ii i was completely sucked in she was everything to me. the way she claws at her face when she first wakes up like shes expecting the bear trap is such an acting moment of all time.

impression now: i love her so much shes the best apprentice her character is everything to me. i dont know what to say that hasnt been said before but i guess my most recent impression of her was in saw x and i just felt like her character, at the state in between saw and saw ii, was so well written. like her dependence on john but her reluctance to hurt people who she doesnt think fully deserve it... god... you can see the doubts starting to form like why are we doing this am i fixed is this what being fixed feels like... and shes so so scared of losing him... godddd. god. and her dykey outfit... i had some issues w saw x amanda was not one of them

favorite moment: DIFFICULT QUESTION hmmm all her moments r so good. i think the one that makes me craziest is i forget the exact line but in saw iii she tells lynn smth like "sure u can kill me but when john heres me cry out hell come running for me and rip off his heart monitor and then ull die" but later when shes bleeding out she looks up at john and reaches out for him and he just looks down at her and tells her its her destiny. COMPLETELY FUCKED. also obviously "fix me" and you know what can i just list all of saw iii as my favorite moment.

idea for a story: god. ok. like actual film wise i think we should move on from john kramer forever and honestly like over the course of the 4 movies shes in weve gotten a pretty good look at amandas character like it feels like theres limited room to fit in a new story. theres small things id like to see, more of her interacting and butting heads w the othe apprentices, but nothing like huge within canon bc i feel like it would throw off her arc. that being said idk how it would fit into a film but i would like to see her almost relapse post saw ii but discover that shes developed a fear of needles and instead of taking this as like. a fucked up thing. she tries to reframe it as like proof that traps work like she Is Fixed. but obviously this is right before saw iii and shes wavering but shes trying to tell herself that. developing ptsd over being thrown into a pit of needles. was a good thing<3

unpopular opinion: i dont rlly ship her and gabriela i see gabriela very much as a mirror of amanda but i dont rlly think its valuable or interesting to interpret that relationship as romantic SORRY

favorite relationship: ive said it before she and lynn have the craziest chemistry of any couple in all the saw movies like what was in the water on set that made them act that way... my only wish is that more fans made them insane rather then like. in lynn lives aus where theyre cute and healing together like no. they wouldnt do that. and then of relationships in canon obviously her and john have the most interesting and tragic thing going on (to be clear i dont mean relationships as in romantic here) but if i think about that too long ill start crying so instead lets just remember her and lynns crazy dyke swag.

favorite headcanon: oughh god idk... shes such a complete and basically perfect character to me i dont have a lot of big ideas about her outside of whats shown... like i said i think she has a phobia of needles after saw ii that she pushes through for the sake of traps that require it and then immediately goes and like throws up after. i think she bites her hand when shes really angry and sometimes draws blood. i think it reminds her of the beartrap and i think she pretends that gives her comfort. and i think at some point pre saw she dated the same vegan feminist punk that adam did<3

[whatagirlwants]

It’s kinda hilarious how olivia stans on twitter try to re write history and make it seem like olivia is the biggest victim out of the DL 2021 drama… like if anything she got the best outcome out of the three and at the peak of the drama people were sending josh and sabrina death threats on HER behalf. I personally think they just hate the fact that the gp is starting to realize they way this teenage breakout got overdramatized was insane and both sabrina and joshua really didn’t have to go through all of that and they secretly hate it, i fear they want josh and sabrina to get hated on until they die 😵‍💫 goes to show how they were always the bitter ones and they can’t move on

honest thoughts:

i think all fandoms are dramatic. i hate how joshua fans to this day use his “problems” and “infection” (forgot what its called but the thing that happened to him) to this day to make him a saint and an angel. when he isnt and its okay.

Sabrina fans to this day will keep talking about the hate she received when the smart move is to move on and not TIE HER to the DL fiasco. theres a reason she doesnt sing Skin & its also cause she knows Joshua didnt deserve her & she got shit for a relationship that went to shit cause of him. like sabrina said abt skin she isnt in that place anymore.

Olivia fans want to make it all about her how she was 17/18 and had to deal with “narratives” made about her #1 hit song worldwide. when lets be honest like i wouldn’t give a fuck what anyone says if my fav already won the situation cause Olivia did. Like she was the winner and still is the winner so why care if some accounts said anything like her numbers are proving everyone wrong.

which is why i think is weird for some livies account making “troll” accounts to obsess over sabrina and spread fake rumors. like what will you or olivia gain ? does it really bother u to see Sabrina do well ? Olivia is already doing better than her so why try to sabotage someone else.

back to the plot, all fandoms are dramatic, i think everyone needs to move on in some ways.

but i will say i do also hate it when someone brings up an eics track or how joshua also treated Sabrina, theres always a joshua fan replying “its 2023 move on” maybe its cause i hate that when its Olivia everyone cared but if its about Sabrina its “move on”. its not like if someone points out Sabrina lyrics and how it relates to Joshua that it would start the “DL hate train” all over again. cause it cant and wont. it didnt reach the GP and the GP dgaf about joshua they only did when it was all “new” to them. anyways thats just a personal thing that pisses me off personally.

another thing i hate when most Joshua fans / Joshua + Sabrina fans say “we almost had we both know but the hate ruined it” NO. Joshua did not scrap it cause “people were hating on him and sabrina”. he scrapped it cause HE BROKE UP WITH HER. he wasnt gonna release a song with his ex. mind u Sabrina released Skin if anything shes much stronger than Joshua and would’ve not given a fuck what anyone thinks and would've released we both know *if they were together* but Joshua freaked out, pushed her away, brokeup with her over DL. and then lead her on most of 2021 until Sabrina realized this isnt fixable. cause she was writing songs like “tornado warnings” while also still posting “feel something” on her story to support him when they werent together. she commented on his post a 🤍 when she didnt have to cause they weren’t together anymore.

ok i made my point and listed fandom things i hate 😭 anyways some livies just need to move on but so do joshua and sabrina fans from the DL fiasco but (so i dont look biased when u read my posts here) that doesnt mean i wont call out Joshua on his relationship with Sabrina. i am not sending dts or supporting anyone who does im just analyzing the situation thats btwn him and sabrina (not dl &olivia) .cause to me thats not the same situation.

all fandoms will make it about their favs i guess but i agree with u in the part that she got the best outcome so why to rewrite history.

[onlylaboum]

To be honest, I usually don't reblog your posts BECAUSE of the passive-aggressive tone you often use. It's just kpop. I like Laboum but it won't end my life if they're not world famous. I just want to enjoy music and stages and all their content happily, not create a second job for myself as their unseen manager. It's okay if that's how you stan and have fun but it's not for me.

I'm worried you'll answer this really angrily but I saw your recent post and wanted to let you know how some people might be feeling. I'll still be following for updates and gifsets and stuff! 💜

people were (also barely) liking instead of sharing my posts also before i expressed my frustration w this stuff so idt that's the issue.

on twitter i'm much more active nowadays bc at least there there's a few more active latte, but still very few compared to even other nugu groups that have similar numbers in streams.

i never said i liked spending so much time on LABOUM. i am aware i have an internet addiction and have been hyperfixating on the group to avoid stressing out about worse things in my daily life.

not just me but also other latte i talk to on twitter and tiktok are really fucking burned out from how much we try to do. i don't think being a stan should be a day job. i sure would love if people shared shit we post though instead of keep scrolling or give a like once a month, which does virtually nothing. we wouldn't have to stress out so much if people actually engaged with things we did. we try to encourage ppl to use apps to win youtube ads for Laboum (which worked but slowly, it's how we made Kiss Kiss finally reach 1 million views), we ask people to give feedback, to maybe watch a video or play a streaming playlist, or partake in a game, or to buy an album or share an MV with friends.

the way that a lot of people don't do that sht, the way that in MONTHS no new people have followed their twitter or youtube, the way that barely anyone talks about them online, does in fact signify that people don't care about Laboum. not everyone needs to be an active social media user or anything ofc, but this degree of lack of attention? unless when it's about a disbandment prediction, joking about the girls' horrible experiences at their expense, or fake interest in the group only on certain conditions, shit doesn't get attention.

the girls had viral tiktok videos a bunch of times, but the majority of the people watching have no fucking clue who they are or that they aren't just actors, and it's just me and 1 other Latte trying to respond to tired comments calling the members by names of characters they played, or "ZN" which is Jinyea's old stage name. if ONLY there were a few more Latte who would leave a comment or two for once as well, the few of us wouldn't have to deal with trying to inform the general public abt Laboum.

people not sharing shit abt LABOUM is one of the main reasons why so may ppl now think they disbanded, and why you see a bunch of kpop fans who claim they're a fan of LABOUM but have been out of the loop w them for 3-6 years. it doesn't help that their domestic fanbase consists of mainly loser incels who don't dare to fucking talk about the group unless when being petty about Yulhee or creepy about their bodies.

and i know tumblr kpop fans LOVE only looking at stupid fucking gifs and not clicking on the videos they're from, acting as if streaming is a fucking punishment from hell instead of just playing a fucking song or playlist you like in the background, and acting as if it's a shocker when groups aren't doing well when so fucking few people who pretend to be a fan actually listen to music or read or watch anything new or buy music. considering your purple heart use, you should KNOW how supporting musicians works. as much as i hate the competitiveness and commodity in the music industry, likes alone never helped artists.

so yeah i'm passive-aggressive bc im trying to fucking encourage people to do something more than say they like Laboum but never dare to mention their name nor recommend a song nor share anything about them. i wouldnt be so fucking frustrated if i saw some more hype aside from from clickbait content and gg stans who just namedrop them for edgy crappy jokes.

Laboum don't need to be world famous and i don't think they will be per se, but they are really unknown. unless people do something more than just quietly listen to them once every blue moon and don't engage in anything Latte are asking or encouraging people to do, they will remain as extremely unknown as right now and disband when their contracts end in summer 2023.

other Latte are feeling the same frustrations as i do and feel exhausted. anyone who knows Laboum's story and the international, knows how small it is and how frustrated we are. this shouldn't be a surprise if you've talked to any Latte. i am familiar with how reserved fans are in this fandom. when trying to set up projects before for their anniversaries, it ended with me and only 1 other Latte in a skype call, no communication from the rest, and them not daring to partake any projects or plans anymore. that felt really disappointing.

so no, i don't find fun in being so stressed and active in trying to promote LABOUM to such an extent bc me and a few others are trying to do work for multiple ppl and for free at that. but all we ask is basic stuff like 'please also share posts' or 'hey check out and share this new song cover'. it's already ridicilous i have to ask ppl to share posts bc they refuse to, whether i ask or not.

if that's too much work, are people really interested in the group???? the thing is also that if other people, at least a few more, do a little more than nothing, it would actually make more people discover the group on their own socials, become fans, and partake in fandom. we wouldn't be so burned out if there were more than like 5-20 accounts trying to do so much bc no one else will. e.g. we emailed the company to demand translators and it hired one, but then barely anyone watched LABOUM's newer youtube videos and so that was kind of abandoned too. no views or attention = a sign that people aren't interested = no new content. that's how it works.

[noctiilio]

I just wanna say I don't know much at all about Touhou but my friend shows me your art sometimes and I think the way you draw flandre is very good she's so small and so kiddy and it's nice to not see her drawn like a murder-crazy monster keep up the great work

Ohoho! then if you're new around these parts i am absolutely DELIGHTED to inform you that the "murder crazy monster" flandre is one hundred percent a fanon fabrication! (which by the way i loathe with every fiber of my being) now i'll rant to you a little bc i never miss a chance to show Flandre's good character charms sorry its my autistic brain going supercharged, critical mass even, whenever flan is mentioned, shes been a character ive held very dear to me since i was barely 13 (almost twelve years ago!) so you have to imagine my brain sizzling like soda with mentos as i'm typing this

Y'see, this uh. portrayal dates back from when our only source of flandres character was her introduction in touhou 6: EoSD (2002). Now. she DID flex about being strong and scary and threatening etc etc but what people dont get is that it was just for show! yknow! like a kid in their ebony dementia raven way phase. You cant tell me you'd see a kid in their edgy mary sue phase who blasts nightcore evanescence from the shared family computer all day and take them seriously.

after you defeat her you find out that the child is absolutely clueless on what shes doing, knows ABSOLUTELY nothing about socialization 101 and thought scaring the hell out of you was how you make pals, but if you play the reimu route she offers to give you a cake to thank you for playing with her (which has blood as an ingredient so reimu refuses but flan doesnt KNOW that humans dont drink their own blood. also she doesnt hunt her own food like remi does so thats actually sakuya's cooking)

so she DOES try to be your friend. basically the kids confused to an absurd degree but shes absolutely got the spirit

My second point: there are little character sheets written from the PoV of Akyuu which serve as official references (called Perfect Memento in Strict Sense, 2007! I always recommend this as a must-read for new fans!), and it was the first clue, a little nudge, a little trail of breadcrumbs leading to the fact that Maybe the rumors that remilia locked up her sister are actually just rumors.

But then it got confirmed in Cheating Detective Satori (2019-ongoing official manga written by ZUN w guest artists for each chapter) which portrays flan and not only is she super excited about showing off her collection of dolls and stuffed animals to sakuya but also she says this.

Flan is actually very introverted and CHOOSES to stay in the basement. None of that "remilia locked her up" bs, it's officially debunked!

(and the day i stop showing this panel of CDS to defend her characterization, you can assume that i am deceased)

ALSO. LITTLE RASCAL SAVED GENSOKYO T W I C E. First, she used her destruction powers to disintegrate a METEOR that was headed for the scarlet devil mansion and would have an impact radius that would reach all the way to youkai mountain. She made it explode and went back to her basement to take a nap (and Remilia tried to take the credit for that but failed horribly)

AND THEN theres touhou 17.5 where she's the ONLY playable character that actually solves the incident. Again, her power to destroy anything made her the ONLY gensokyo resident able to face Yuuma without her eating Flan's bullet for lunch.

So yeah! her reputation is atrocious but the gal's not even closely as bad as people make her seem.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk i am here every day same hour and i will talk your hear off about Flandre Scarlet and i will defend her portrayal until my last breath.

PS: little headcanon moment yeah woo yeah but uhh in my head i always pictured her voiced by Ikue Otani, best known as the voice of pikachu, but specifically >her role as Hana from Ojamajo Doremi&lt;

PPS: if you're new around here; despite everything, flandre is not actually my favorite touhou. no, nononono she is only second. Nah, the honor of the gold medal goes to ✨Her✨. do NOT get me started. I will talk for days without taking a breath between sentences.

[petewentzisblack1312]

so im not a big my chem fan, but observing this from the outside points to an issue ive seen repeated in every community ive been in, whether it be fandoms or subcultures, that i think we should really try to address at its root.

it is difficult, even for people who want to, to change a community for the better, because it means acknowledging that something is wrong, and it means that there will be a change to the status quo youve become used to as we try to change. ive seen many, many actual conversations be opened and promptly labelled as discourse with 2 clean separations, with many people wanting to stay out of it and proclaiming that they wish things could go back to normal. ive tried to start conversations about things that ive noticed as a black person in alternative subcultures and fandom spaces, and they do not gain traction, not because people are ignoring it, but because they dont think its their place to share and dont want to rock the boat on it.

so how do we address this?

if you can opt out of a conversation, you need to be acutely aware of the fact that we cant. i cant wish the community went back to normal, because this is my normal. all thats happened is that now you know about it. think about the fact that these unpleasant feelings are an aberration to you but are a tuesday to me. the discomfort you feel is because its been like this all this time and you havent noticed. thats okay, but its not okay to try to ignore it once its brought to your attention.

having the affected minority control the conversation means they should control the way this conversation is spread. you need to get the explaination of why this is wrong from someone who understands the nuance better than you, and share that, not your own summary. in the same way that your teacher can explain science to you better than you can to someone else even if you understsnd the topic, you are not an expert.

one opinion does not a consensus make. you need to know what different members of the affected group think, you need to hear differing perspectives, you need to hear how those perspectives interact with each other. one person may feel that theres no excuse for not speaking out, another may feel that making a statement when they never use that medium at all is performative, and another still may think both statements are true or have a completely different and unrelated opinion. not every opinion is mutually inclusive, and even when it is, its important to understand that that doesnt mean any party is wrong.

questions are welcome. you are allowed to ask questions, even if you are not allowed to give opinions. you are welcome to engage, you are welcome to ask people (who have indicated they are willing to publicly share) questions about their views and opinions on the topic. do not reach out to people who have done nothing to indicate they are willing to share their perspectives publicly, but if there is a public forum of communication, your questions (just questions!!) are welcome.

dont get defensive. its not your fault, or anyones fault, that you didnt know this was happening, and no one is accusing you of doing anything. you didnt know, now you do, so accept the new knowledge and do better now.

dont be guilty. again, its not your personal fault, you are only at fault if you refuse to aid in fixing the problem. guilt does not help fix the problem. we do not care how bad you feel about our problem. we do not care how sorry you are we had to deal with this for so long. we care that you help improve our conditions now.

most importantly, you can and should share the conversation. i understand that seeing people talk about the prejudice they face feels like an intimate thing that is not for you, but if someone is saying "hey, i am facing this issue in our community as a minority" that is a problem for our community, not for the minority group. while your opinion may be unnecessary in the conversation, you are still a part of the community, who can reach other parts, and most importantly, raise awareness to people in it who arent in that minority group. i cant tell you the number of times i have made a post about my own experience only to have it live and die in obscurity due to well meaning people liking instead of sharing, due to being unsure if its their place to. it may not be your place to comment, but its definitely your place to share!

i hope this can help people engage with uncomfortable topics better in future.

[mcmuppet]

okay i never actually post on here but i saw something yesterday on  @illegalferrariengine page and specifically one of the tags set me off on a rant to @daniallricciardo during my class yesterday, and i am now going to form that rant into an incoherent tumblr post bc im bored at work and still mad about this

so here it goes: a two part rant about f1 fangirls and DTS fans; and why the f1 fandom is actually ostracizing itself and harming the sport it so very much loves, because of how it treats female & new fans

basically, what fully set me off was a tag along the lines of a lot of “fan girls” go into full seb vettel f1 knowledge mode when talking about history, and even know more than a lot of guy fans, and as a new fan, this is something i have noticed in myself. i’m a pretty big sports fan in general, but im new to f1 and unlike any other sport i watch/follow, with f1 i dove head first into not only the current grid/era, but also the general history, which i have not really done for any other sport. (i’ve been watching tennis since i was like 8 and i could not tell you anything in detail that happened on either the men’s or women’s tour since like, pre 2005, i just never cared to learn). but with f1 i did. and for a long time i chalked that up to “its a new sport to me and im fascinated, and my adhd hyperfixation really set in (during a time when im living alone and have nothing else to do)” and i went wild with it.

but yesterday really got me thinking, did i just become so into the knowledge because of how much i like the sport (and don’t get me wrong i LOVE f1 now) or did i get so deep into the knowledge because the general online discourse (especially on twitter which is its own toxic ecosystem) is that if you’re  a female fan, you have to prove that you’re a fan of the sport and not just a “superficial fan girl” and like THATS SO PROBLEMATIC. i realized yesterday (and maybe this is a super obvious thing and my brain was just slow at fully grasping) that even subconsciously, i know that i would be categorized as a shallow fan girl unless i proved my knowledge, especially since, i am a girl! and i am attracted to these silly attractive men driving fast and being silly in press conferences! sue me! but i shouldn't have to justify being a fan of sport!

i was trying to compare this to tennis and soccer (my other two fave sports) and  while obviously there is still bias and misogyny in those fandoms as well, it really does not reach the levels that i’ve seen in the f1 fandom. personally i think that because there are so few drivers (in comparison to soccer and tennis where there are literally thousands of athletes) so we know more about each driver and really get to know their personality (at least the public personality that they portray), which makes the connection feel more personal. it also doesnt help the inherent bias that , yea , a lot of the drivers are conventionally attractive and could probably be models if they didn’t want to be driving. but it just doesn’t sit right with me that i’m being forced to become an encylopedia of f1 knowledge just to show that i am in fact into the sport because i enjoy the strategy calls, the on track drama, and the absolute power that is the merging of a man and machine to create basically a hyper-athlete. you don’t get that in any other sport and i think thats the genuine beauty of f1.

the other part of the toxic f1 fan culture that has frustrated me is the perception of fans that got into the sport because of drive to survive. now, i didn’t get into f1 because of the Netflix show. i started watching because i had a friend who was a huge fan, and she convinced @daniallricciardo to put on a few races, and i decided to stop making fun of the fast cars going in circles and watch a few races with her. and it got me hooked (this is my formal apology to my boss who i used to make fun of relentlessly for watching f1, you were right Doug its a great sport). but i digress. just the fact that i feel the need to clarify that i did not get into f1 because of DTS is PROBLEMATIC IN AND OF ITSELF. to quote @daniallricciardo “it feels like a badge of honor that we got into it without DTS and it SHOULDN’T” 

the point of drive to survive was to attract new fans to the sport, and guess what! it worked! shocker! but the fact that fans who have been watching f1 for years before the Netflix show consider “DTS fans” to be fake fans literally contradicts the whole point of the show and the sport in general. f1 will only continue to succeed as a sport if the fanbase continues to grow. more fans mean more money which directly correlates to the ability to put on races and provide the entertainment that we sign up for as fans of the sport.

this whole rant basically boils down to: misogynistic f1 fans who reject new DTS fans as “fake fans” are literally ruining the sport they claim to love so much. not just by creating a toxic community, but even in a more tangible way, they could end up affecting the f1 bottom line if they continue to ostracize fans in the way that they currently are. i have never felt more insecure as a fan of anything in the way that i have found in the f1 community. and while i will admit that i also love the knowledge side (seb is literally one of my absolute favorite people so a part of me wants to be just like him, f1 history wise), but i wish i could just enjoy randomly knowing who the 1984 wdc was (niki lauda - of course), without thinking that knowing that will put me in better standing with the f1 community. 

this all seems like, super obvious and not at all some kind of big breakthrough and i recognize that. im not pretending to say i got to the root of toxicity in the f1 community and now in gonna work on solving that. but i think, at least for myself, i needed to put this out there, so that, personally, i can start overcoming the internalized insecurities i have about being a fan in a new sports community which has a very interesting little ecosystem, unlike any other sports fandom ive encountered. 

if you got this far 1. im sorry that i took up 1.2k words of your time and 2. thank you for letting me rant, i def needed it 

[oilbun]

"It's okay to cry.."

Warnings? No, just fluff and mild angst

Izuku Midoriya x (female) reader

alright, i thought of this on my first day of my cycle, very tired from painkillers trying to stay awake watching mha to come up with this so bear with me. I've fallen in love with this sweet broccoli boy and I just thought this was neat and sweet ;_;

Summary: you get couch ridden with cramps when Izuku arrives home from early patrol.

ao3

Your first day is always the worst. It causes a lot of pain, despite the fact of how ready you were from tracking your cycle. But everytime, with out fail, that first day knocks you out with nausea and pain. Its sometimes a miracle that you get out of bed and make it to your bathroom and living room couch, the pain can be so bad. With heating pad solidly against your hips, blanket huddled around you, you settle into the couch and turn on the tv. Popping pain killers in your mouth and downing with water as you watch the news. Seems they're always talking about Deku, and showing him in action. You cant help but sigh when they show your boyfriend, giving you a glimpse of his scars and bruises. You reach for the remote as your apartment window slides open, causing you to turn your head and see Deku climbing in. He always left and exited that way, guess it was more heroic than the front door.

"Oh, hey you're up" Izuku said, shutting the window behind him.

"Yeah.." you say weakly.

"Are you okay?" Izuku asked, a tired, yet concerned and loving look in his eyes. You shake your head and lift the blanket to show the heating pad.

"Oh no.. you started huh?"

"Yeah.. are you okay? You're uh, kinda bleeding," you say, pointing  to your own cheek to reference the cut on his. He lifts his hand and touches it gently.

"Oh! Yeah I'm fine y/n, always am," he said,  "I'm gonna change out and take care of you, kay?" He kissed the top of your head as you weakly reach up and pet his fluffy green curls before he walks off to your room.

"Okay," you say, watching him go. It was basically a habit, watching Izuku change out of his hero outfit. Not just to catch a glimpse of the muscles that makes you and every other fangirls heart sing, but to notice every scar on his body from his quirk, as well as the fresh injuries from battle. It usually poked at the worry living in the bottom of your stomach, and it wasnt just the cramps. Izuku always gave his all in every fight, in every training session. He'd always been like that from what you remember back in his UA days. The news brings your attention away from Midoriya to talk about the anniversary of All Might's retirement. Izuku walks back into the room in shorts and a t-shirt and catches a glimpse at the tv as well.

"Oh yeah, I guess that is today huh." He said, sitting down next to you. Looking at him, he seemed clearly tired.

"Izuku.." you say dearly.

"I remember.. that's the day I basically was officially passed on All Might's torch.. which was scary.. how do you fill shoes so big..?" He wondered outloud. Being the number one hero has to take a toll on Izuku. Always being called to work of some kind, always fighting, always coming home with new cuts and bruises.

"I just wonder.. if I live up to him.." He said, staring down at his clinched fists.

"Izuku..." you start, "You shouldnt put so much pressure on yourself like that." Once you say that, he sniffles in reply.

"I know.. but I cant help it, as his successor and the number 1 hero right now.. I can't help but think that stuff." He said as tears rolled over the freckles on his cheek.

"Izuku..c'mere.." you said, reaching out to him as he lays his head on your chest, wrapping him in a hug. "Its okay to cry." And there came his waterworks. Sometimes you could tell how much pressure and stress Izuku can put on himself. You think he forgets that even though he's a big shot hero, number 1 even, that he doesnt have to be though all the time. That hes allowed to cry. You pet his hair and shush him quietly as the news shifts topics and melts into background noise.

"Izuku... its okay hun. You shouldn't put so much pressure on youself. You do so much, for everyone and yourself. Don't think that ever goes unappreciated," you say.

"You think?.." he sniffles as his sobs quiet down.

"Of course! The world appreciates you and what you do," you say, lifting his face to lock eyes with his emerald ones that always sparkled when he looked at you.

"Your fans appreciate it too, and I appreciate what you do." Blush dusted under the freckles that kissed Izuku's cheeks.

"I appreciate you y/n," he said lovingly. You canf help but smile at him, he's too adorable for his own good sometimes.

"Just, make sure you come back home from missions in one piece. Not just for me, but for all your fans, and everyone else out there. Okay?" You ask, kissing his forehead.

"I promise." He said. You sigh happily as he rests his head in the crook of your neck as you play with his green curls.

"Izuku, my hero.." when he hears you say this he lifts his head with the most giddy smile on his face and kisses your lips softly but with a drive behind it.

"Your hero.. only yours.." He mumbled on your lips as he pulled away a bit, both of you smiling happily.

[honeyfallen]

🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 ( gimme five. from not via )

omg hi not via im ur biggest fan, ,, these are just for u tho u better be sleeping <333

this isnt something ive seen a whole lot as of a late but sometimes its very easy to see when ppl dont consider others on here like, , , Real Actual people and thats !! strange!! just bc u met someone on the internet and they are not Face to Face with you doesn’t mean u can just treat them how u please bc there arent like “real life” repercussions for u

kind of going off that but it can be really exhausting to always be reaching out to people only to get limited or cut off responses that just make it feel like someone is Uninterested . like i can be guilty of this!! 100% i am not going to sit here and say that i haven’t been on the other end of things and im trying to get better about it too!! but when ur constantly the person messaging someone to talk or check in or plot or Whatever, ur gonna get tired and like do that less and less and it’s really disheartening! like again, we all have lots of other stuff going on, im not saying u need to make urself available to someone when u dont have the time or mental capacity, but just one message here and there can make a difference, fuck knows im depressed as shit and have my moments of isolation too, its just hard if u feel like ur the only one making an effort

idk if this is unpopular or anything but i find it a lot easier to like,, write with ppl if im like,,, friends or just friendly with someone? i totally understand that not everyone here is looking for Friends or anything, sometimes ur just here to write and that’s fine and i’m like, not going to Not write with you bc ur not talking to me ooc all the time, but idk, it’s just nice to learn about y’all outside of ur muses and ur writing and it makes me a tiny bit more ,, comfortable? to approach ur writing and stuff? 

cliques are annoying, they can be offputting, but people writing more with their friends than with ppl they dont know isnt always a bad thing kjfdngfdgf i like to branch out and meet new people but i also have people that im just generally more comfortable with and that replies come to more easily for that! i promise im not here to make anyone feel left out, we’re all like,, mostly mentally ill and sometimes u gotta curate that space

darby already kind of said this but the way ppl pay female ocs dust sometimes, , ,,,,,,, i know i like,, mainly write a Man,,,,,,, but not that long after i first made elijahs blog i made a solo one for a lesbian oc i had and yknow what,,, yeah!! its the like specifically women that cant be shipped with Men that often dont get as much going on and u dont!! need to have a romantic ship to establish some fun and interesting dynamics between people!! elijah as a character is terrible abt distinguishing between platonic and romantic affection bt some of my favorite dynamics for him are ones that are strictly platonic or familial, theyre really fucking fun to write and should!! also be considered, just bc u cant ship ur character with another doesnt mean u cant find some fun shit to write / plot