#like if left to her own devices she'd just be chilling and you'd only notice her when she wanted you to

[herearedragons]

I'm a simple oc maker. I think about Selene wearing plain black clothes for too long, I go !!!!!!!!!!!!

[enhacademy]

Character Intros: Jay + Cali Ver.

↳ Genre(s): Angst, Fluff

↳ Warnings: Implied Toxic Relationships

↳ Summary: Learn about EA characters Jay & Cali!

↳ Written By: Ariana ( @enhasfever )

↻ Cali — 5:30 AM, Monday

the rhythmic beeping of her phone alarm stirred cali from her restless slumber and she reached out blindly to grab the noisy device. after successfully silencing the alarm, she squinted against the bright light of her phone screen and briefly glanced through the notifications littering her lock screen that she'd missed overnight, none of which she deemed important enough to tend to at the moment.

she pushed herself into a sitting position in her bed and let the silky covers pool at her waist, a chill running down her spine as the warmth of her covers left her at once. she swung her feet over the side of the bed where they were promptly inserted into her favorite pair of slippers before she fully rose from the bed. taking the fuzzy blanket she kept folded on the chair next to her nightstand, she wrapped herself in it to preserve any leftover warmth and shuffled tiredly downstairs.

"cali, there you are!" her mother exclaimed exasperatedly, halting in her steps in the center of the vast living room with her hands placed on her hips. "you should've been up half an hour ago, we need to be out of here by six if we plan to catch our flight on time."

cali glanced warily at her mother from across the room, her brows furrowed as she only then took the time to notice the multiple suitcases stacked near the door. her heart dropped into her stomach. "what do you mean?" she pried, her voice raising an octave as the bad feeling festering in her gut grew by the second.

her mother blinked silently and fixed a look of vexation at her disheveled state. "we're leaving for tahiti today," she articulated in a way that implied that cali should've already known this information.

cali began shaking her head in denial as tears began brimming at her waterline. "what? no, that trip was booked for next month!" just as the panicked cry left cali's lips, her father shimmied past her with a few pieces of luggage, himself. "dad, you said they weren't sending you out there until next month!"

"honey, your mother and i both reminded you numerous times that plans have been rescheduled. it was your responsibility to pack your things," he countered, seeming not at all concerned for cali's lack of knowledge on the change.

"if you wouldn't spend so much time with your nose in your phone, then maybe you would've actually heard us all those times we kept reminding you," her mother surmised with a shrug of her shoulders.

hot tears rolled freely down cali's flushed cheeks as she watched her parents begin to gather up the luggage near the door to take to the awaiting car outside. "maybe i wouldn't spend so much time on my phone if my parents actually spoke to me from time to time," she lamented, her voice wobbling slightly as she stormed further into the living room. "you only acknowledge my existence when i do anything that benefits you and makes you look good!"

"that's enough, cali," her mother scolded. "you can act like a brat all you'd like, but this is on you for not being prepared. maybe you can come with us next time." cali watched with a seething glare as her mother lifted the handle to her suitcase and began to roll it towards the opened front door. "have a good first day of school and don't wreck the house, we'll be back in three weeks. we love you!"

before cali knew it, the door closed behind her parents and she was left in an empty, quiet house alone with nothing but her own snivels to occupy the space. cali threw herself onto one of the three pristine white sofas and sank deep into the cushions as her shoulders wracked with her sobs. she took a few minutes to compose herself before pulling her phone out from under the blanket she'd wrapped herself in and navigated straight to her contacts.

she selected the person whom she needed to speak to and pressed the phone to her ear, sniffling one last time as the ringing began. four rings later, his groggy voice echoed on the other end of the line. "yeah?"

"i need you to drive me to school today," she sighed shakily, a pout forming on her chapped lips.

"just get your parents to take you." the irritation in his voice didn't go unnoticed by cali and she had to swallow down another lump that began to form in the back of her throat.

"they just left to tahiti for the next three weeks," she deadpanned in response, the usual hostility beginning to come back to her as she gradually grew angrier at the situation she was left in. she hated how quick and easy it was for her parents to reduce her to a hollow, sobbing mess and she hated even more when anyone outside of her household witnessed her in her time of weakness. she was not weak.

a long sigh drew from the other line and it was quiet for a few beats as light shuffling could just barely be heard. "fine, be ready by seven or you'll have to take the bus."

cali's nose wrinkled up at the thought of being stuck on that migraine on wheels for who knows how long until they'd reach the school. "okay," she agreed. "thank you, jay."

"yeah, sure." the conversation ended at that and cali rose from her slouched position on the sofa to rush around the house, ensuring that she would be ready on time.

↻ Jay — 6:00 AM, Monday

jay hung up the call and planted his face into his pillow, letting out a despaired groan as the hand that hung over the side of his bed dropped his phone to the carpeted floor below. he couldn't even be granted a solid week to grieve over the breakup before cali was pestering him again. he should've expected as much, it had been happening for over a year by this point.

shooting his group chat a message asking for thoughts and prayers for the day ahead after retrieving his phone from the floor, jay lifted himself from the coziness of his bed which could've been enjoyed for half an hour longer if he hadn't been summoned. stumbling his way out of his room and down to the kitchen, he was met with bright lights and the smell of freshly brewed coffee.

"hi, honey," his mother greeted with a small concerned frown, "what are you doing up this early?"

"i, uh, gotta drive someone to school today," jay answered vaguely as he shuffled over to the coffeemaker to pour himself a much needed cup of the caffeinated beverage. he brushed back his mess of dark locks as he continued to make his drink, hoping and praying to any higher power that his mother would just leave it at that.

"is it cali?" she asked knowingly, and jay visibly cringed as he sat the coffee pot back down. a frustrated sigh left her lips as jay slumped over to where she sat at the dining room table with a look of shame etched on his face. "sweetheart, you've got to stop letting her walk all over you like this."

jay shook his head adamantly. "we're not back together, she just needs a ride to school and that's it," he explained between tentative sips.

"she can drive herself, can't she?" his mother scoffed dismissively.

"no, she doesn't have a license," jay countered tiredly.

"because you do everything for her, right?"

jay glanced up to meet his mothers disapproving expression and a small pang of guilt bloomed in his chest as he quickly lowered his gaze back to his coffee cup. "it's just for today, i'll make sure she gets someone else to take her for the next three weeks..."

"three weeks?" her eyebrows shot up.

"her parents left her home alone...again." jay's shoulders slumped and his mother let out another disapproving sigh, but she didn't push the subject any further which jay was grateful for.

jay took his time in getting ready, hoping to prolong the time before he'd have to allow his ex-girlfriend into his car willingly. at five minutes until 7:00, jay gathered up his school things and left the house with a kiss to his mother's cheek before starting on the drive to cali's house. she was already waiting outside on her porch by the time jay pulled up the long driveway and he took in a deep breath to calm his nerves as she began to approach the car.

cali slid into the passenger's seat wordlessly and the car was suddenly filled with the familiar scent of her that had jay's stomach twisting. a tense silence filled the air between them as he then continued on towards their school, neither speaking nor sparing the other so much as a brief glance. cali stared out of her window and jay kept his eyes on the road straight ahead the entire ride there.

after parking in an available spot in the student parking area, jay turned the car off but neither one of the two made any move to exit the vehicle. the same tension filled the enclosed space and jay fidgeted uncomfortably, his hands fiddling with the keyring he now held.

"can you take me back home, too?" cali asked quietly.

jay nodded wordlessly and spared a glance in her direction, his attention immediately being caught by the ring adorning her finger that was glinting in the sunlight. his eyes traveled to his own hand where a matching ring decorated one of his digits, as well. that twisting feeling in his gut only intensified and he began to chew on the inside of his cheek anxiously.

"do you have someone to take you tomorrow?" he finally managed to ask. this time, cali answered wordlessly with a shake of her own head. "can you find someone?" again, she shook her head negatively. jay let a deep sigh draw from his lungs before he began to gather up his things. "we'll talk about it later, we should get going so we're not late."

cali, too, began to gather her school materials and exited the car as quickly as she had entered it. she walked a little ways ahead of jay where she met with her best friend near the main doors. jay began to mentally prepare himself for a long year ahead.

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warnings: swearing, slight angst in the beginning but not really, fluff

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Armin was discharged from the hospital only a day after the accident. The doctor said there was nothing extraordinary to worry about. But of course, even with this information, Eren still made a fuss. That much was clear when he walked through the door with Armin's arm slung over his shoulder.

"I didn't break my leg, Eren. I don't need to use you as a crutch," Armin grumbled as the two walked into the kitchen from the garage. He reached back to shut the door with his free hand.

Eren rolled his eyes. "Well, excuse me for supporting you in these trying times."

"I don't need your support," they scoffed. He unwrapped his arm and made his way across the room.

Eren gave him the finger, rather aggressively. The gesture wasn't reciprocated since the blond already disappeared into the hallway.

Sucking on a freeze pop, you leaned back against the cool countertop. "Welcome home, lovely. Have fun?"

Eren sighed loudly as he walked toward the freezer and got a popsicle for himself. He grabbed a pair of scissors and cut the top of the wrapper off into the trash.

He said sarcastically, "Oh, absolutely I did." He paused and shook his head disapprovingly. "He's a lot bitchier when it's us two. How's it been here?"

You shrugged. "So, so. Pretty quiet."

He nodded and pushed up the pineapple-flavored ice. "Thought so. Jean's gone today, obviously. Is Mikasa here?"

You huffed softly at the mention of her. "I haven't seen her since breakfast. She's been upstairs all day."

He frowned. "Oh, I see. Armin told me about the kiss, by the way. At first, I was gonna make fun of you for passing out but now that just seems cruel."

"You think?" You laughed lightly and rested both arms on the counter.

The sound that followed from him was more of an exhale than a laugh. "Listen, Y/n, even if she's avoiding you right now, I know she'll come around. Just wait and see."

"You're right," you mumbled, sticking the freeze pop in your mouth again. Armin basically said the same thing. Eren sent you a quick smile and patted your shoulder before leaving through the hallway.

You swallowed the remaining ice and threw away the wrapper. Noticing the bin was full, you took the trash to the bigger bin outside. Maybe doing some chores would distract you from Mikasa for a while.

Plus, today was the only day that allowed you to do so. Practices for the band's upcoming performance were every day until the date of it. You'd be rehearsing 24/7 since it was scheduled on such short notice.

It was going to be at a middle school some of your friends went to. The DJ they booked before flaked and your manager was kind enough to offer your talents.

Jean was meeting with Hannes and the school administrators to work out some extra kinks before the practices began.

The only day there wasn't a rehearsal was on Eren's birthday. You all decided it'd be best to take the day off to celebrate and set up for the party that would be happening later in the night.

The day passed easily as you got caught up on chores that weren't done over the past few days. The house was messier than you liked it although it hadn't been long at all since the previous clean-through. However, it had been a hectic week.

Speaking of hectic, when Zeke was there, he sure made himself at home. That much was clear when you made it to the living room portion of the basement.

Eren probably couldn't find time to clean up yet. Either that or he was just lazy because at that moment he was more focused on a pinball machine than the state of his living space.

His brother's suitcases were lying open by the couch. To be honest, you didn't love the idea of a criminal's possessions lying around your home. So, you decided that throwing them in a storage closet was the best option. 

When you finished tidying up, you started a game on the pinball machine next to Eren's.

His birthday was in three days. The house looked a lot better than it did when you started, which was perfect for throwing a party. You could only hope it would stay that way.

After a few hours of playing games with him, Jean came down the stairs to let you know he was back from the school. He left when he saw neither of you were interested in what he had to say.

Once it got dark outside, you left Eren to his own devices and went to your own room to chill out some more.

Unfortunately, when you flopped down on your bed, Mikasa started to consume your thoughts again. In an effort to fight them, you turned on a show to distract yourself.

For the slow hours you spent staring at the screen, you couldn't focus, not once. No matter how hard you trained your eyes on the screen, you still thought about her.

Sighing, you got out of bed and walked to your bedroom door. You were careful of the creaking hinges, it was around midnight. Everyone would either be asleep or close to sleeping.

Except for Armin. You had no idea what he did at night but you knew better than to ask. However, he was probably pretty tired from the time spent at the hospital. So, there was a solid chance he actually was asleep.

You crept outside, checking that the front door didn't make too much noise. Your car was parked in the driveway since there was never room in the garage. The gravel underneath your feet made noise as you walked toward it. You pushed yourself onto the hood and leaned back against the windshield.

Drawing in a long breath, you stared up at the sky. You needed to calm down and clear your mind. This would help, as it usually did.

Even if it was a little chilly, it was warm for a night in March, especially this late.

The stress that bubbled inside you simmered down the longer you watched the thin clouds dim the stars.

Any negative thoughts you had about the situation with Mikasa or the previous days seemed to disappear the longer your focus was on the sky.

Gravel crunched and you snapped your gaze toward the noise. Sitting up, you were surprised by what you saw.

Mikasa froze when she realized she'd been caught. She held a white blanket in her arms and still had one foot on the porch steps.

"Hi," she greeted quietly.

"Hey." Your breaths were a tad ragged from the initial scare.

She came closer to the car. "What are you doing out here so late?"

"I could ask you the same thing." You took the blanket from her arms and she pushed herself up to sit beside you.

"The door to your room was open when I came downstairs for a drink. I thought you'd be out here."

"Oh." She knew you better than you thought.

She spread the blanket over both of your laps and leaned down on the hood of the car.

She looked at the sky but your eyes were still on her. "Why did you come out here?"

After a moment of silence, her gaze finally shifted to you. "I wanted to apologize. Ignoring you was immature. Plus, I remember how you used to come out here when you were upset. Above all else, I wanted to make sure you were alright." A blush coated her cheeks when she finished talking.

You took note of that and couldn't help but blush yourself. "I'm okay. I understand why you'd ignore me, though. If you didn't want it, that was probably your only option since we have to see each other so much."

Her brows furrowed and she sat up again. "What? Y/n, did you think I didn't want to kiss you?"

You blinked stupidly. "Well, yeah."

She laughed. "You can be so ridiculous sometimes. I've always wanted to kiss you like that. I'm just not great at expressing it."

Even more heat rushed to your face. You gawked at her and she looked down at her feet. Many things were running wild in your head. For some reason, though, there was one thing that was so prominent in your mind once you remembered it.

Out of all the questions you could have asked, this one came out rather bluntly. "What did you mean in your letter? What should I know?"

Her eyes widened, she didn't expect you to ask about that yet, and quite frankly, neither did you. Nonetheless, she answered anyway. "If only you knew. That's what I wrote. That's easy to answer now. If only you knew how long I've loved you."

She turned her face and made direct eye contact with you. She seemed to know the next question on your mind. "You never knew it but I've been in love with you since high school."

That can't be right. This is a dream. You're dreaming, Y/n. What the actual fuck?

"Are you sure? Then why did you ask Jean out when we were seniors? Why did you break it off with me mere weeks before?" Your mind was racing and it translated into sentences quickly spilling from your lips.

She still looked straight at you. Her facade of confidence was making you nervous. "I'm sure. Back then, I was so afraid of what I felt for you. Pretending the feelings weren't real and projecting them onto Jean seemed like my easiest option. For years I convinced myself I loved him. But it was never him. It was always you. I felt so awful when I realized what I was doing."

And just like that, the facade fell. Her words were no longer held confidence. She was afraid of how you'd react. She had little idea that you were ready to be just as vulnerable as her.

"When did you realize?"

Looking up at the dark sky, she pushed a stray tuft of hair away from her face. She continued, sighing softly before she spoke, "When I saw him that night with Marco, I was relieved that I didn't have to be with him anymore. When I tried to figure out why that was, I could only think about you. Every feeling that scared me before came back. I got so scared that I left. But, even then, they never went away."

You were having some trouble believing that this was actually happening. Mikasa loved you back this entire time. If she hadn't kissed you before, you would've thought this was only possible in your dreams.

However, things were actually starting to make sense. That whole time it was your fault. Every night of those two years you spent wondering about what you could have done to make her stay. It turns out you did enough. You were the reason she left. 

But maybe you were the reason she came back as well. You could recall something Jean had told you a day before she came home.

"Why did you come back? You needed to do something?"

She looked back at you again. "I've just done it," she said.

Before you could process her words, she was leaning closer to you. Her lips were so close to brushing yours but she paused before they could fully touch. "Can I?" she whispered.

"You don't even have to ask."

When she kissed you, you felt everything. Her feelings, your feelings. The world was minuscule compared to you two. Anything else meant nothing at that moment.

It was the first time in a long time that you felt fully complete. You were a puzzle and she was the missing piece. It was like before, only this time, you knew for sure what you wanted.

Pulling away, you managed an, "I love you too, Mikasa." 

There were no other words that would feel so good to finally say out loud.

Everything was clear. You understood. 

Now more than ever, you wanted to be with her.

posted: 9/26/21

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