#like i will get weepy about it dont test me

[erikkarlsson]

@kavinm95: Best duo in the league 🦈 

[ofcowardiceandkings]

the sinus headaches are already not great but Extra Shit has been added to the pile and im just sat on that right now trying to figure out what the fuck to do

[renatapatata]

UNUS ANNUS GOODBYE LIVESTREAM HIGHLIGHTS;

(From someone that watched it completely despite completely ruining their sleep schedule as a result,, worth it tho ✌)

They rented and set up an Unus Annus themed room and had a laptop between them to directly check out videos on, as well as a timer on a screen to remind us of their impending doom.

Amy (bless her soul) was the true moderator who from a?? Tech spot above them would speak into her mike like God and direct them to looking at out of context screenshots, memes and fanart from over the past year.

They scrolled through the channel from beginning to end and had the time to watch a dozen of them - particularly like a video from each 'era' ish of the channel, like the first ones or Camp Unus Annus as well as fan/their favorites.

All the editors got shout outs + were probably tasked to make a compilation video of the edits they were individually tasked to do and ended up making just absolute masterpiece tributes 😳

They watched videos such as Mark and Ethan Attempt an Escape Room, DIY Chiropractor, DIY Geriatric Simulator and so on...

Mark had never seen one of their last videos, Ethan Kidnaps Mark, which was the pre 'The Truth of Unus Annus' video and was basically Ethan's version of the Mark's Outside Escape Room from Camp Unus Annus.

DJ Burt Blackarach sent them a cake + bottle of champagne and ☠ y'know Ethan doesn't play with baked goods due to his peanut allergy and Mark cant drink alcohol but they appreciated the sentiment (we all did c'mon it was super sweet)

Mark got the bug watch for Amy that he'd accidentally donated in that early on video with Sean about Donating Toys to Charity!!

They almost killed a video that they found mediocre (but that is actually one of my faves ngl) aka How Much Caffeine Can Kill a Man but at the Last Second they realized that they probs shouldn't get rid of a video beforehand fnfnfn with the reasoning being that it could be someone's birthday video and that it deserved to live till the bitter end (that being of like. 5 extra hours)

There was lots of general shenanigans and ramblings/bits from time to time, with Mark and Ethan being pretty content and ready to say goodbye to the channel.

Oh yeah and then like at 2 hours and a half before it ended Ethan got a live tattoo done of the counted down to 0 timer as Mark failed to be normal around the tattoo artist and 'hAd' to mention the Pee Sauna and Pee Soda to her-

On the subject of tattoos they went through some amazing tattoos that fans had gotten and sent pictures of

Hashtags on Twitter were being flooded, with things such as #Unusannusisoverparty, #WeWereHere, #MarksNewHat - which, yeah Amy got him a top hat and I don't think I've ever seen such pure joy on his face than in that moment.

+++ Amy was wearing an epic suit which was their main aesthetic of half white half black...

Mark reiterates how proud he is of Ethan, of Amy... of the whole team!!! I got emo it was starting to get too real

AND THEN MARK HAD SURPRISE CUSTOM UNUS ANNUS POCKET WATCHES FOR AMY AND ETHAN,,,

So then ya they started getting a bit more speechless/emotional near this bitter end, and at an hour ish left I want to say was when they hit 1 million likes on the stream - and they kept pushing to hit that milestone since if they reached it they would reveal what was inside the coffin...

Plottwist!!! The coffin was empty but they decided to test it out and take turns in it (the material inside was apparently very soft).

So then Ethan gets in the coffin which commences a string of eulogies between em which got me way too emotional and was like a part of the stream that was just Being Brutally Honest With Each Other 2.0.

Mark basically talking about how proud he is of Ethan + how he's excited for his future endeavors and knows that despite the goofy exterior he shows he has such potential and then Eef gets out of the coffin crying which then proceeded to make chat (and me) cry fukcC

Mark gets in the coffin and Ethan talks about how hardworking and no bullshit a person Mark is and how he's learned so much from him and how Mark has never given up on him and his constant presence and support has changed him-

Mark gets out of the coffin crying, they hug it out and ya everyone's crying emotions r healthy gang and damn did we go through a rollercoaster of them...

So I'm weepy and dont necessarily remember exactly what was next, but Amy also got in the coffin which prompted Mark to just go off and give her the most well deserved praise ever since she was the one behind so many of their most creative/cursed ideas and was ghaaa Mark obviously could have talked about her for forever it was super sweet and shes just so deserving of all of that 🥺🥺🥺 gosh we really have her to thank for all the hard work that was put in and resulted in such an amazing payoff...

The last video they watched was The Barrel Song by the way with Schmoyoho, which was weirdly??? Really fitting since it was about saying goodbye and destroying something that you'd become fond of.

Evan then ominously says in response to being offered to get in the cry coffin with like. 5 minutes left on the timer that he totally went in it earlier which was him just politely saying No💖

Oops also forgot to mention but in the last hour they slowly deleted/privated the Instagram, Tumblr, Reddit and Twitter accounts.

And for the ultimate end which wow really came too fast once the numbers dwindled down to 10 minutes left Amy sat in frame in between Mark and Ethan as they clicked the delete channel button and the stream went dead.

[colien]

*arrives 1000years late with that omf* Tagged by @sleeplessinmirkwood

5 things you’ll find in my bag

1. sketchbook n pencil case 2. keys, tissues idk 3. a comb 4. bubble gum, tic tacs, another bubble gum... 5. shitload of receipts

5 things in my bedroom my bedroom and the whole apartment are like one thing so idk what should i list

1. uhh pillows and plushies 2. wall with drawings and canvases 3. box of prototypes for uni 4. lots of paper and drawings and dust under the bed 5. books that i have no time to read

Things I’ve always wanted to do in life

1. success/be famous/get recognition and respect from what i do dont we all want that lol 2. as a child i wanted to perform in some way i guess but my shy ass wont let me so i have this unfulfilled need to show off somehow 3. do cool adult things like travel, have cool faithful group of friends, constantly go shopping, have a nice flat by the beach in la but life is not a plot of totally spies and while i still want those things i dont want to adult anymor e 4. see the world like honestly ive never been anywhere- this new years eve was the first time that i even saw the capital of my country like can you believe this 5. uhhh idk try playing a violin

Things that make me happy copypasting other tagging meme bcause im lazyy

1. food..good food…..11/10 2. my doge my beautiful tiny bean full of sunshine omg 3. sunsets. clouds. sky generally. ahh so big. so pretty 4. when somebody gives me fruit stickers. u know those stickers on fruits at markets. im collecting them. like,, im not leaving a market without at least ten hidden under my sleeve. and when somebody remembers that and brings me even one sticker im honestly beaming 5. colin farrell lmao jk i hate that guy lol. lets sayyyy forest wandering. walking through forest together with my doge, taking photos, sitting by the forest river, with no destination and lack of responsibility. yesss thats my jam

Things I’m currently into

1. a certain organic irish hobo 2. fbawtft  3. healthier food and fuckin yoga, thanks to point no1 4. surviving n trying to not go insane- organising every minute of the day to not rot for hours thinking about my life 5. light pink and lofi hip hop are saving me life honestly

Things on my to-do list

1. try to go to sleep earlier than 3am (writes it at 1:30am and i still gotta take a shower *sigh*) 2. ugh work on 5 different projects for 5 different workshops.....and finish a commission 3. get my shit together somehow bcause im turning into a weepy five year old again *slaps self* ur an adult now ffs *slaps again now through tears* but i dont wann a *sobs* 4. organising papers for erasmus and trying to not die of stress over the thought that i might actually classify for that 5. exercise a bit everyday bcause damn im groaning like a 60yr old when i kneel to pick up something 

5 things you may not know about me

1. u already know my fruit sticker gathering weakness....... 2. ..but im also gathering a LOT of nailpolish. gimme all those little glitter/holo potions of happiness. i dont even paint my nails now bcause of constant drawing/working/cleaning etc like i dont have time to let it dry. but i used to make all the weird nail art thingies at least two times a week in high school ahhh 3. i dont have any allergies, never broke anything, never been anywhere like honestly im like a bland default sim or smth with no life. geesus thats sad 4. i guess im dyslectic? i guess bcause ive had tests made and that doctor lady said that nah ure good and that im even ‘intellectually above the average’. but then our school psychologist showed me a paper stating that i DO have a dyslexia. so idk!! 5. im a shy extrovert. i looove spending time with people but this social kinda phobia thingy wont let me tal k to  t h e m and its TEARING ME APART LISA

I’m tagging:  @blufontana @xboredbear @nacroy @helegris-nimbereth and ????????? anyone that wants to do it -just say that i tagged u

[bloomingandblissfull]

The August unposted draft

I just found this on my file :

Time flies so fast. I cant event realized it has been August. It means almost a half of this year already passed. I wanna review my journey in this year, kinda contemplation and maybe such an evaluation about how far I have been trying become the better version of me by following my own decision as a young adult. Since graduated from college I found myself being in a confusion. My years of college was amazing but after this I feel like a pet placed in a wild life. I dont know how to start and where. I started my first job at my home town, after a year more I thought for the new job and asked my parent to go another city. That was Jakarta. Then on 14th October 2016 I officially moved to Jakarta. A month after that on 9th November I choose Siloam as my stepping stone Job in here. I did almost the same task as I did in my latest work place, but it's okay cause the important one was I must earned money for my life here. This hospital is so huge with a skycrapper building. I never saw it before, so I am so excited to work in here. I imagine new friends, new experinces, new salary and new lesson. My life continued here in this place and I would spent my first year worked in other city. I thought all the good thought I would have in this year with my new job. But, the fact was I never imagine I would faced such really severe battle mind here and met a beast women I ever known in my life. I dont mean to exaggerated the situation. This is real and now I just Thank God that let me get in to that trouble, let me get a great lesson from that condition and He also that get me out and rescue me through all the hard time. I need really much time to ensure myself that I am working with a person with mental disorder called Sociopath. Sociopath is kind of toxic personality. They just like us. But, as we know them, they develop traits that really destructive to whom close and interact with them. I almost spend my life at work place and before I knew this fact I really face a shit life. It so influence me so much and shake my psycology. Can you imagine for almost every day ? She hurt you, humiliate you, break you and she said she did it on good purpose. She said she wanna teach you about her experince, she told you her story life and family, she told you about God kindness in her life. She send you Bible verse everyday. The other day she control you about what to do in almost everything and blame you for almost non sense thing but refuse to admit if she made mistake. The rule is she made decision and you are prohibited to make opinion and request. Your voice and argument is nothing. You now not more than a slave. She never thank, apreciate and hard to impress. She takes advantage of your kindness and never care about your need. The other day she paid for your lunch, she invited you attended a Christmass celebration in her Church with her mother. The foolest is I still thought she was inspired and good. She play with my innocent mind. I hate her oftently but crave for her acceptance. I hope this would got better as the time passed. People who already knew her warned me, but I didnt trust them. I still thought that the people dont know her like you do when you remmembet abour her kindness. It was not easy, right ? Time passed and nothing got better as I wished. It just even got worse. I thought I have lost myself. I depressed and got down so deep. I lost my pride and my cheerness. I feel like there was a chain that band me so tight. I feel so gloomy and weepy. I cried aloud deep in my heart. I shout out to God for helping. My heart started rebel. Not for once I cried on my way back home and asked God to "get the fuck her off my life". I said to God I cant handle this for any longer, please help me. I wait for how God work and how it would be ended. I made this situation as my faith test. When I hurt so much, I asked God to heal it. I remmember all His kindness and I trust He would never leave me after this far. I pray her and her daughter. Instead hope the situation would changed, I choose to hold on until I ready for new job. But, wait until that time it mean more long last struggling. It impact me mentally. I just wanna alone, I hate people much. I didnt call my parents for such a month and I kinda ignore one of my friend because I wasnt in a good mood. I feel tired a alot and unconfident with my life. I feel low. In front of people I was looked tough, the fact they didnt know was I already broken into pieces. Strenght unknow I have whenever I wanna give up I believe it from God. I recover myself everyday, I wasnt rebel, frontally. I just asked Him to add my patientness. Naturally, I wasnt designed to confront people. And this was I got finnally after long survive with this sh*t. God show me His way. About January, there was some replacement and exchanged function in my division and we have a new doctor to do our daily task. The doctor would has a big role for me. On 2nd June 2016, dr. Debbi3 was my new superior. Then, I always told her about how my job. She helped me so much to forward my complain to the management and listen me alot. I trust that God send her to help me. We being friend cause she also felt similar what I felt. Then we were friend with the same enemy. On 21st June that toxic person made a chaos at Mr, I told about it to dr. debbi3, that chaos made her considerated to get first warning letter.

On 5th August, I sent dr. Debbi3 a short message about insane thing she has done to me at that day. Exactly at that time me and her were ordered to meet our head department. At that time, she got second warning letter for her bad attitude. On 9th August I decide to report her an accident report for shouted me in public. The newest I got sneak peak that She will get fired the end of this month. Oh my God, am I dreaming ? It should be a good news for me. But, I never wanna be ended up like this. If it really happened maybe it should be happend. She reaps what she sow. And of course the answer of my prayer. Once again, I can feel You wherever I go through any situation. I cant wait what I called "Your plan".