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[seneon]

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𝑨𝑵𝑮𝑬𝑳 𝑶𝑭 𝑺𝑴𝑨𝑳𝑳 𝑫𝑬𝑨𝑻𝑯 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑪𝑶𝑫𝑰𝑵𝑬 𝑺𝑪𝑬𝑵𝑬 — standard tumblr games! (cym,wyr,kmk)

cym as places

mcdonald’s — you

my minecraft world — @sepptember

the coffee shop — @sweetnnaivete

krispy kreme — @frostbitte

hot topic — @seneon

[venriliz]

Portia Montez for @rainymoodlet's Rock of Love Bachelor Challenge! <3

in depth info + full wardrobe below the cut! ↓

✮ Portia was born and raised in Evergeen Harbor, an industrial port town known for it's huge import/export businesses and even more so - it's heavily polluted environment especially at the shores of the sickly brown-ish sea. The early death of Portia's mother directly caused by the affects the bad air had on her health has instilled somewhat of a love-hate relationship towards Evergreen Harbor into the then 8 year old girl.

✮ Her father tried his best to raise his daughter by himself but despite his long working hours in a local shipyard the money was barely enough for them to survive, the possibilty of moving away far out of reach.

✮ Early in her youth she found her talent and passion for skateboarding, winning many prizes in junior competitions all over the country. After barley graduating from highschool (some ppl just aren't made for the educational system lol) she became a promising professional and quickly made a name for herself in the skating community all over the world. Her biggest successes were two back-to-back street skateboard world championship titles and several self-invented tricks where named after her. Life was good for Portia not only professionally but personally too after meeting Davide Montez who became not only her manager but als her husband.

✮ Sadly, as the saying goes though - nothing lasts forever and about a year ago, Portia found herself forced to retire from competing professionally because growing up in the bad environment of Evergreen Harbor finally started to catch up with her own health. Her retirement caused her marriage to suffer as well and soon after she announced the end of her career as a professional, Davide called it quits and they agreed to divorce on good terms.

✮ Now with her financial stability and free time to pursue new things, Portia took the chance and applied for the bachelor challenge to win Jackson Roth's heart. This is mostly thanks to her friends pressuring her to try after catching her gawking at one of the billboards with Jackson's photo on it (i mean HELLO?! he's hawt! °-° she just... doesn't like the music lol). Portia is (somewhat) ready for a new adventure and maybe, just maybe she'll find love again! <3

likes:

colors: orange, red, black music: electronica, hip hop, latin characteristics: family-oriented, hardworking, idealistic convo topics: flirting, deep thoughts, affection, talking about hobbies fashion: rocker, streetwear activities: fitness, dancing, wellness, rock climbing decor: industrial, mid-century

dislikes:

music: metal, cottagecore, ranch characteristics: egotistical, argumentative, ambitionless convo topics: evil interactions, arguing, gossip fashion: polished, country activities: fishing, cooking, mischief decor: farmhouse, cute

wardrobe:

[ancientgoddessofegypt]

Black Moon Lilith Astrology Observations

Black moon lilith Leo/5th house are phenomenal dancers. They can make people jealous of their creativity, thus shaming them for things they cant help. Their creativity can cause a stir and have others make them the main topic of discussion. This can be a good thing if fame is something they want, because attention will come to them due to causing many to be interested (more so 'disturbed') by the art that they create. It can be taboo and mind inducing. Causing people to be allured by what is going on in their minds/hearts. <3

Black moon lilith 5th house individuals need time to discover their wants in a relationship. They are pretty taboo, and most do come to terms with this but one thing that is important for them to know is that they must follow. their. hearts.

Forget the naysayers and do you.

Black moon lilith 2nd house individuals need time alone. When they have time to be too themselves they can 'seduce' more often. Seducing their desires, pulling it to them more. Material desires are a lot easier to uphold due to their sacral being more intuned to the material realm.

Black Moon Lilith In Scorpio : Let me just say this.. hawt hawt hawt!! secretive, have loads of potential that they do not show anyone, and they use their seductive power as a weapon. They can use it as any time of course, but they use it on their opponent/target to get what they want. Good at manipulation and playing games, no one can get over on them. Studying the mind fascinates them, the human body is a place for them to explore the universe inside of the other person. I dont mean to get too poetic there, however they are good at creating a story for people to see them as something else. Because the real version of who they are is hiding deep in the shadows, and the closer you get the more they will bite ;)

Black moon lilith 7th house people have interesting lives. They are picked on, yet most liked. They are shamed, yet most alluring. They get accused, but more so out of intimidation. Their power is heavy. And most dont know this at times but the ones who do... whew.

Black moon lilith in Aries are bold. They are the dangerous witches that create the chaos but it whats we all need. This placement is good for not giving a damn for anyone but their own needs and this is where there personal power comes from.

Black Moon 6th house individuals can create safe spaces for people. Any marginalized group is protected when they are near them. They love to be of service to people due to feeling shamed in their past/childhood so they make sure the same doesnt happen to other people.

Black Moon Lilith in the 4th is the black sheep of the fam, they usually end up being pretty successful in life. Their 4th house/ic connects to the mc which is the career, so eventually they use this energy and aspire to be someone big/famous or just pretty successful in their day to day.

[sandycookie]

Locking Fics On Ao3

Honestly, I’m a little conflicted about locking my fics down to registered users or not.

I would prefer my fics to be easily seen, and I understand well why someone would read fics as a guest (invites, or simply wishing to remain completely anonymous, or just not wanting to create an account are a few I can come up with off the top of my head). Infer of that what you will.

But I also loath the idea of my fics being scraped for free by a for profit company so they may try to write writers out (note: I do not believe that at its current state, AI art and writing is not yet at a state where it makes those professions obsolete. However, it should be noted that AI writing does not seem to receive the same scrutiny, though that is only my own observation. Regardless, AI would have to advance immensely more to fully replace human writers and artists, though it would not surprise me if writers were to be the first ones to go on the capitalist chopping block. Many people only really seem to recognize the written word as just a collection of pretentious words and not its own craft and art, one you could dedicate lifetimes to and still not master. It does not help that it is harder to recognize writing styles than art styles, and many will use different writing styles frequently. Okay, that went rather off topic, so continuing), profiting off of an art that goes unappreciated by many, one that people pour valuable time and soul into in order to weave words together to serve their vision. I believe fanfiction of be a form of literature, not a genre, per se. Regardless of our ‘y/c orbs’ or ‘y/n ur so hawt lemme marri u’, of the many things fanfiction is memed for (and don’t get me wrong; I have an absolute blast doing that) it does not make it any less valuable. That One Direction fanfiction written by a blushing 13 year old is not something to be ridiculed but something to celebrate. The immature language, the poor punctuation, a plot that moves by the whim of its creator and not its own world, that my friend, is a miracle. This 13 year old who likely read other OD fanfic was inspired, and so they created something that was ultimately fueled by a shared love of a fandom. I would even argue it is a piece of culture, even. This 13 year old may never write another fanfic after the first one, and that is fine. This was to be but one stop pf their childhood, something they can go back to laugh and be embarrassed about. But for others it is a stepping stone in honing their art. At first, they handle the needle flimsily, twisting and dropping from their inexperienced fingers, and their stitches are hatched and loose and forms a creation that is just barely functional. It is not the greatest, there is no argument about that. But this is but the first step. They start to imitate the creations they like, copying others’ techniques for themselves. They may even venture to educate themselves, the way the needle maneuvers and sews and how to guide it along its journey. Their work is formed from the scraps of fabrics and half used strings they can find. Then they start to master their craft and before long they venture to select the fabrics they want. They start to achieve a mastery of their craft, and they start to weave a beautiful piece of art. They started no better than a young infant fresh to the world, and now they’ve matured their understanding of it.

That. That is why scraping like that is unacceptable. Why it enrages me so. Yet, I remember how I was when I was younger. I admired writers but I was too shy to create an account, to have some tbh I g that could be traced easily with but a name. I remember and treasure that, just a little. Perhaps my troubles are merely a result of my own indecisiveness. Perhaps I am blowing a simple matter and choice, one the size of a drop, to an ocean. I may be overreacting, or my paranoia of the world is dulled. Or maybe it is a repressed desire for any form of attention I can receive. I can only really speculate.

But you, dear reader, perhaps you will be able to come to a choice with a firm resolve. And I salute you for that.

[hellomystraightlacedfriend]

There's nothing in the world that could convince me Jessica Drew is straight, so here's some propaganda:

According to TV tropes, Jessica Drew (616) is ambiguously bi.

While I wouldn’t exactly call her relationships with men steady, I do love how this describes Jess' foe yay with Sybil Dvorak as extreme, because it is pretty damn intense.

Their first meeting in the 10th issue of Spider-Woman (1978) goes like this: Jess & her current boyfriend (Jerry Hunt) are on the beach. He wants to kiss her. She's not into it. She sees a flying girl - 'a figure of unnatural beauty' - and transfixed chases after her. She isn't able to catch up with her though because the winds are against her. This deeply saddens Jess because she feels lonely even in her relationship, and wants to connect with someone like her. Her boyfriend meanwhile is furious with Jess and calls Dvorak a freak.

(I don't think she even saw me! 😭😭😭)

Jess later bumps into Sybil at a party. Sybil is trashing the place & terrorising the guests. Jess races to put on her Spider-Woman costume and chases after Sybil. This time she does catch up with Sybil and begs her to be friend because they have so much in common. Sybil, however, has been jaded by her last romantic partner. She refuses Jess' overtures, rips Jess' costume, and TRIES TO DROWN HER.

Jess' boyfriend comes to Jess' rescue by firing a gun at Sybil. However, Jess is furious with her boyfriend for this rescue attempt and shoots him with one of her venom blasts. She runs after Sybil to make sure she is okay. Once again, though, Sybil spurns Jess, choosing to go off on her own. A sad and rejected Jess returns to her boyfriend - who is angry at her for hurting him when he was just trying to save her. Jess doesn't apologise though, and the issue ends with:

Jerry Hunt and Jessica Drew... two people...In love?

It's not long after this that Jess breaks up with her boyfriend and meets and befriends a woman named Lindsay McCabe. The two would go from friends to roommates to partners in a private investigation agency to maybe more?

Morgan Le Fay certainly seems to think so as she sees Lindsay as her rival to win Jessica Drew's devotion - and essentially casts Jess & Lindsay in the roles of Lancelot and Guinivere - aka lovers that society would frown on. (Spider-Woman [1978] #41)

Jess & Lindsay also lived together for quite a while and moved city together on more than a couple occasions. They were separated because of the whole Secret Invasion thing/Veranke taking Jess' place thing, but were reunited when Lindsay agreed to move across the country to help raise Jess' child. This was right after Jess & her then boyfriend Roger Gocking broke up - when she tearfully admitted that deep down she didn't actually feel the same way that Roger did.

The way Jess acted around Tigra (leg flirting & intense gazing) in West Coast Avengers (1984) #1 also doesn't come across as particularly heterosexual to me.

And Jess also called Jane Foster Thor 'hawt' and was really into another woman's arms.

Some of her interactions with Natasha Romanoff also come off as pretty gay, especially those in Secret Avengers (2014), but Jess' most popular sapphic ship & her most popular overall pairing is with Carol Danvers. People in and out of universe think that Jess is in love with Carol, and it's not really hard to see why:

Anyway, I could say more on this topic, but that's probably more than enough for one day 😆

If anyone has some good Misty propaganda, I would really - genuinely- love to see it ❤️

[dommelody]

this fanfic is written while considering all of the characters being adults in another time line where everyone is living a peaceful life so don't come at me with that talk about "OMG THEY'RE MINORS" if u do I'll slap u with the slipper that im wearing lmao , anyways as if u see im hella lazy so im not that active in here, moreover i got alot of exams those weeks but finally im free for like 1 week ? two ? idk for niw im free af,so if someone got some ideas don't hesitate and send it to okay?(especially those hawt characters who seem to be submissive and breedable lol) i think there were few of u who send me some requests sorry for not replying I'll try to respond if ur idea is hella good hehu now even if u want to discuss anything about any topic about anime and stuff just ask haha need sone friends out here *crying while eating banana * shoot that was sus lmao ...

then~ enjoy ~ ♡

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cw: sub!draken , sub!mitsuya , dom!reader, public sex...

"master they might hear us~" mitsuya said with a shaking voice while all you can hear in the restroom were his moans and the lewd sounds u make while fucking him rough which were all covered with music ..

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tomorrow is a holiday so all the gang's division's captains decided to have dinner at a famous restaurant so you decided to go and have fun ,fun in ur own way♡

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when you entered the restaurant there was a big table beside the window, everyone was there and luckily u found a sit right in front of draken and mitsuya ,after u took your seat everyone started eating, laughing and drinking.. both of draken and mitsuya were forced to drink since it was a special dinner to celebrate pah-chin's marriage ..after the talk and all everyone was under the alcohol's spell,some slept and other got to the bathroom ,you started to get bored however seeing both draken and mitsuya fighting the urge to sleep was adorable,then you decided to tease them a little bit,you slided your leg that was covered under the table between draken's thighs reaching his dick then you started to move it up and down until he suddenly hid his face on the table ,with a heavy panting he whispered :"w-we can't do it here t-they will hear u-ahhhng ♡"

"since when did i have to ask for your opinion on each thing i do?,hmmm?" with that cold look on your face draken got red like a tomato ,"look at you draken,what should we do if someone sees you now at this state, do you even know what kind of face you're making~?".

with all that embarrassment and shame he said while trying to stop his moans from coming out:"what are you talking about, something like this is nothi-hmm♡",you shut his mouth with your hand"as i thought you don't get it don't you?right now all i can see is a slutty look that begs for my touch,but you know what? at first i was gonna be nice and gentle but now you will have to endure this erection of yours until we go back home,of course touching yourself is forbidden ♡",he didn't even try to reject your order he just hide his face on the table and started whining like a puppy.

a few minutes later, the other members came back from the restroom, then smiley asked:"did draken sleep already? that's rare!! ,alcohol usually don't affect him easily ,well we drank too much i guess haha,how about you mitsuya?"

"well,me? i'm a bit sleepy and-hnnn-"

"bro you okay? your face is so red "

"i-i'm okay hehe,i suddenly got a stomachache"

"is that so? then be careful if it gets worse just go home "

"y-yeah t-thanks"

however,probably no one was able to know what was going on in there ,surely it wasn't a stomachache but in fact it was your fault,you started touching his clothed dick with your feet ,moreover you unzipped his pants and started teasing his bare skin down there,mitsuya was always your obedient puppy,unlike draken who sometimes rebels on order you give him ,mitsuya will seek for your praise more than anything else .

then you whispered while covering your mouth from smiley who was two seats away from you ,"don't worry sweetheart i didn't forget you ,so i'm giving you all the attention you want ♡." then he smiled with blush all over his face then whispered back :"hng,d-do as you like ,master♡",as soon as he said that you stood up and said:"mitsuya you don't look well so at least let me sit beside you ,so I'll be able to check on you faster that way if you got fever "

"yea i think that will help"smiley said without knowing what was even going on ,poor soul lol.

there was a seat between draken and mitsuya so you sat there and started touching his dick with your hand gently and with the other hand you pretended to check on him by putting your hand on his forehead in front of smiley,then u said :"smiley i think i should take mitsuya to the restroom he's sweating alot ".

"yea please do , i would like to help but im already wasted lol"

"haha thats because u drank to much,you-,oh hes asleep haha,hello? yea hes absolutely wasted lol,so how about we go sweetheart ?"

while smiley slept the other members were already gone everyone got plans for the rest of the night so you were free to speak with mitsuya there without worries ~♡...

u turned to mitsuya telling him to stand up to go to the restroom but we absolutely missed something, well before i started speaking with smiley about going to the restroom ,i left mitsuya's pants open didn't i ?,while his hard dick out ofcourse what to do ?hmmmm?

as expected he was a blushing mess even though hes ur obedient puppy, walking the way to the restroom with his dick out will be hella embarrassing ,btw mitsuya was wearing an overcoat so u got an idea to tease him even more..

"mitsuya come here, if you stick to me with ur closed coat they wont notice right ?,come here sweetheart ,or~ do u want to be left alone like draken over there ?''

after hearing that mitsuya stood up and started walking while sticking his dick thats only covered by the coat behind u which is almost rubbing ur buttcheek ,just imagine him walking shyly behind u panting like crazy and all .....what a show 🖤

u got to the restroom and quickly found a stall and closed the door then,"mitsuya suck my dick,will u ?"

with this order he turned red but on the same time his body was honest because as soon as u showed your dick he started leaking precum, "enjoying the view from down there aren't u ~"

while he was on his knees u slapped him with ur dick getting a lustful look from him then u grabbed his head and started fucking his throat roughly ,quickly without mercy,then finished inside his mouth,while his face was a mess with ur cum he was panting and letting out some moans ,then when u realized .. u said :"pfft,seriously mitsuya ? did u come untouched while i fucked your throat?,i guess you're on heat lol ,what a slut ~♡,well unfortunately i didn't bring condoms so i can't give u what u want sweetheart,so let-??, mitsuya~, i see~ u are definitely in heat~"

after being told that u cant do it there he sat on the toilet while spreading his legs to u while getting out a butt plug from his hole then as soon as it was out his hole were leaking with some lotion he seems to have been preparing his hole for his master how naughty~♡.

"mitsuya u gave me an idea , do u know what u got urself into? " , then u got down alittle bit and whispered on his ear "im gonna fuck u so hard, ill fill u up with my cum and then since we're doing it raw ,we can't leave ur hole leaking with cum in from of others dont we?,sooo,we're going to plug your ass with all of my cum inside without wasting a single drop. and we will have u walk in public and in front of our friends with that hot cum inside ur belly ~,don't worry if we get lucky maybe u will get pregnant Haha♡ ",with u provoking him he started whining like an impatient puppy while squeezing his wet hole ,then u gave him what he wanted ,u slide ur dick in one go inside him,getting the lewdest look from mitsuya " master im so full with yours ♡,fill me up more pleaaseeee ♡"

"mitsuya you're definitely drunk ,but well im happy to see this side of u hehe,then lets get serious and finish it quickly before smily wakes up,what about draken ?,hes definitely jealous right now getting even harder while imagining us fucking in the restroom, haha maybe he came just from imagining about that♡"

u grabbed mitsuya's thighs then started fucking him dumb going in and out like there is no tomorrow then u leaned down kissing him to make him lower his moans which were filling the restroom, u tried then to pull from the kiss thinking that he needed some seconds to breath ,but then mitsuya suddenly grabbed u back ," master if u dont kiss me im afraid that ill get louder,ahnn-♡"

" i see~,our mitsuya cant help it but to feel so good when i fuck him roughly~♡♡"

then u held him up and made him face the wall after that u fucked him from behind while the lewd sounds are filling the restroom...

but i guess that wasnt a problem to worry about since the music was loud

then, u picked up the pace even rougher and faster while mitsuya was a drooling mess while his eyes rolled back from the intense sex u are having ,then u bited his neck leaving a kiss mark on it then u came inside of him . as soon as u finished, u said smirking ," haaa,that felt amazing sweetie ,but i think u shouldn't waste a drop of my cum ,right?, now show me what a good boy you're and plug it urself ♡"

as soon as u said that mitsuya grabbed the plug and put his knee on the closed toilet then he lifted his ass up then started inserting it while panting like crazy ,half of it was of course because of the intense sex u had but the other half was because u were staring intensely at him plugging himself just the thought of being seen by u while touching himself turned him on..

then to avoid accidents like having someone enter the restroom while u were in there u helped him dress up and then quickly got out safely hehe♡..

"hey guys u are lateeeee,heyy i think draken has fever he was mumbling alone with a low voice while panting heavily ,hes definitely in pain having a high fever,i tried to help him but he was weirdly agressive and stopped me right away ,well sorry guys i have to go angry is waiting for me outside sooo take care~"

u answered:" yea u too be careful on ur way home, and dont worry I will take a goo~d care of draken "

after smiley left draken lifted up his head to u , damn that hungry look on his face with drool from his red lips~ ,when he saw u, he let out some low panting sounds as if he was whining like a puppy waiting for attention ,then he grabbed u down from his sit and kissed u a real quick but deep kiss :"master ur so cruel having ur way with mitsuya while letting me here alone suffering from this erection",then u leaned down to reach his ear then whispered:"did u have fun while imagining lewd stuff about us ? hmm ,ur soo naughty draken " then u bit his ear ,while squeezing his left nipple which was covered with his shirt ,then he let out a low moan and as soon as he realized something ,he hid his face down and told u with a cracked voice :" u c..can go alone i..ill foll..ow u after i p..pay t..the bills,hmm♡", as soon as he finished talking , u sat beside him and slid ur hand below the table to quickly insert it down his underwear then as u thought he came from just those touches from u..:" u really keep surprising me teddy bear, pfft u came just from that haha, how can anyone believe that our strongest vice president is a slut seeking my touch,how cute~♡,well u will have to walk all~ the way home with that underwear of yours which is a mess with ur cum,well dont worry when we get home u wont need it anyway ~,i wont let u sleep tonight~"

then u were about to get out of the restaurant which was luckily almost getting ready to close up ,since there's not alot of customers there ,u payed the bills while mitsuya and draken sticking to u from behind

then the worker there noticed :"umm are they okay their faces are red ,maybe fever ? "

"yea i think so also they drank too much thats why haha ,right ? draken , mitsuya?"

while customers were all gone u started touching their butt from behind while speaking with the worker,then they said while trying to smile to them :"ye..yes w..we dran..k too much hehe"

" i see please take care then , i think u should take some medicines too, to get better, please come back again~"

then u replied :"yea,then we will be going, we will come back again~"

then u lifted ur hand and stopped teasing them then they quickly followed u,well it was night so i think no one will notice right ?

"hey , umm.. i mean what did u do with mitsuya ?"

"hmm ~ ,why don't u ask him then ?, hehe"

then he turned to him ,previously ,he didn't focus on mitsuya that much, but now seeing mitsuya's lewd face , that red face which were luckily hidden by the night's dark sky,he got it right away..

"next time don't let me alone like that i was lonely and scared ,that piece of shit smiley freaked the shit out of me ,when he stood up trying to check on me"

"damn we should drink together more often ur so drunk who thought that I'll get to see this honest and cute side u ,haha but well, that must've been scary , sorry maybe i pushed u too far but you know that was a punishment so its normal, maybe I'll reward u when we get home for finishing the punishment as i ordered, well ,u came even though i told u not to tho~lol"

"SHUT UP, WILL YA "

"but ur blushing ~", "IM NOT"

then you passed a hot night with ur precious partners, however, that'll be another story to tell♡..

[princeleyjeans]

Amanda is a neutrally crucial character: a post

Just because fans enjoy trikey, doesn’t have to mean they dislike Amanda on the grounds she “Ruins the relationship”, or even dislike her at all.  Some of us like her character, she creates a very real idea of how some people do end up on the wrong end of the tracks and in a shitty, co-dependent and plain ass toxic marriage, you don’t have to have your partner come out/be assumed gay to look at your life and think “Holy shit, we’re both huge assholes”  In rockstars case, they made her your typical assumed Run-Away/Not really delinquent but getting there (Maybe petty shoplifting)  at 17, stripper/hooker at 18/19, who finds a man during her time at said skeezy workplace and gets pregnant too fast to even register if she actually wants the dude or not.  Imagine you’re still basically a teenager and some charming, dangerous but cute looking, balls too big for his jeans guy shows up, you’re already feeling somewhat uncertain about how things are going with your life and here he comes with candy, flowers, swatting away other, probably larger guys, risking his own neck to get at you, win your heart, earn your affection, you’d feel pretty damn hawt, pretty on your game, genuinely good because this dude whose appeared outta nowhere, is trying to get you on his arm and is doing it, semi decently, he’s a little different, he’s got dreams, money, goals, plans, everything seems alright, and rightly or wrongly, you fall for that idea.  With Amanda and M, personally, I think it was one of those “He’s good looking, strong, seems certain about his plans for the future, I want a piece” deals, of course, this lasts about...a month? two at most, then the condom breaks, they’re on the verge of breaking up because of constant fighting caused by whatever, Amanda wants an abortion because hello, 19, no real address, shitty bf and scary mother fucker hanging around all the time, no kid needs that!  But M is about family, holding together the sand from a long broken hourglass, he begs her not to get rid of their baby, makes all these promises, big house, money out the whaazoo, picket fence, dog, all that shit, and out of maybe pitty, strung out hope, desperation, lack of access to healthcare, she accepts and so off they go to get a quickie wedding performed because omg baby out of wedlock, the damn shame (Sarcasm) and enters little Tracey 9 months later, and then things get worse because her food and diapers are eating up money they’d use for other shit, Trevor’s getting more erratic, Amanda is forced back into stripping, going further than before with actual prostitution, everything just goes to absolute hell and she’s stuck, literally stuck because God knows she can’t just run and leave her baby with bank robbers! Her family have no idea where Amanda is, nor of Tracey’s birth or even existence, what choice does Amanda really have? Trek across the border region of America and hope for a miracle, or keep where the money’s at and pray they get enough to make it out alive?  All those years stuck under M’s thumb, under the weight of never really being fully able to grow up, experience her 20s as a single, free young woman, realise that being on the wrong side of the law isn’t actually all that a rush as she thought, it fucks up a person, especially if you weren’t a great/fully formed one to begin with!  Maybe this is me, but I see M and Amanda as brother and sister, people who’ve grown up together and experienced hardship to the point where instead of work as a team to get through it, they’ve just turned and blamed each other because why the fuck should the other one have to take the wrap for so and so’s fuck up? Shouldn’t the other one know not to do stupid shit like that?  It’s quite high-school, Semi/not really bad girl meets a real bad guy and he makes her believe they’re made for each other, things get too hot too fast and suddenly there’s another person involved, he’s shitting his pants because he’s gotta pull himself together and be a decent person but the guy doesn’t wanna so he makes excuses to be an even larger asshole and blames the girl cus how dare she seduce him (Sarcasm, you Tumblr freaks).  Neither Party is exempt from blame here, but, that doesn’t mean one is more to blame for what the fuck their lives have become.  Amanda is not the enemy.  Nor is Michael.  But with Amanda, there is a lot of “You can’t hate her because she’s an abuse victim! She’s had to deal with M for all these years!”  And “You can’t erase her because of trikey!”  Or my favourite “FUCKING MISOGYNIST TRIKEY SHIPPERS WHITE TRASH”  Awww yes, tumblr, giving everyone (Even the ones who shouldn’t) a voice.  But that shit creates tension, and so people are afraid to have a different opinion, I used to, and that was shit because I do, and did like her as a character, yes she’s an ass at times, but so is her husband and that assery balances them both out and lets you know it’s not a one-sided shit-heap, she’s terrible too, but being in the light of bitter wife constantly cheating and having bouts of sad rationality has meant we’ve learnt more of her story than most games have with their own female characters.  Again, probably just me, but at her worst, Amanda is giving pieces of her past/feelings through how she reacts/speaks to Michael, I’m not saying its justified, I just mean you know what she’s going through, you feel something, you know there’s more to this affair, to the ass photos online, the pool boys and tennis coaches, blunt af disregard of her own actions when she herself fucks up.  That text she sends Michael after the tennis coach fiasco gets me every single time for obvious reasons, like , bitch, you really not gonna talk about this? You not gonna see your own irony here?  others see it as just a bitter, horrible ass woman, but that's the mirror, the slap in the mouth Rockstar give their protags when they need a reality check.  She’s crucial because she herself is a mirror, a shitty slice of bread to make the shitty ass sandwich that is her, M and their life together, their family, fucking existence as a whole! Plus it’s giving a “Not everything is one-sided” view of M’s plot-line, it’s what makes his character, as well as hers, so hard to truly hate, because you ask questions, wonder about the truth! the closed doors at the end of the day.  Like, imagine if someone said “My husband is such a dick, I wanna leave, I wanna just go and get away”, unless you were close friends, you’d wonder about his side, his feelings, his views, and in some cases, you’d realise it was a mutually fucked up relationship where they can both easily walk away but are so needy and clingy, co-fucking-dependent that they can’t leave and so just bitch about each other because they’re too fucking brats!  THAT IS WHY SHES SO CRUCIAL! BECAUSE YOU GET BOTH SIDES OF THE MIRROR AND NEITHER ARE RIGHT BUT IF THEY DIDN’T HAVE TO BE TOGETHER THEY’D PROBABLY GET ALONG LIKE ALOT OF THESE IDIOTS DO!  Okay, I’mma say this is done, maybe follow up in another post later, and go listen to Post Malone while also pre-writing my come-back comments to probably really fucked and unrelated to the topic messages I am about to receive for even making this post. 

[caatws]

tagged by @justanalto to answer some questions !! :)

1. What is the color of your hairbrush? it’s like a blueish/greenish color and has moana on it! i usually comb my hair so i bought that brush just bc it was moana themed a few years ago lol. i don’t use it often

2. Name a food you never eat. there are many.....#justchildhoodocdthings ermmmm i don’t eat a lot of snack foods like chips or goldfish

3. Are you typically too cold or too warm? too warm, esp these days bc the weather is hella warming up so i wake up feeling hot a lot

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? i was working on some post-grad work stuff and then crossed over into my roommates’ room to watch the facebook livestream graduation 2020 thing cuz miley was on singing the climb

5. What is your favorite candy bar? i love a good hershey’s special dark chocolate moment

6. Have you ever been to a professional sports event? yes, quite a lot actually! my mom is super into sports, so i grew up going to a handful of pro sports games - mlb, nba, and nhl. never nfl tho bc my mom said the price of tix wasn’t worth it LMAOOOO. also when the olympics are here in la in like 8 years i wouldn’t mind checking out some events here !!

7. What is the last thing you said out loud? i asked my roommate if she wanted me to close the door as i was leaving her room bc she was abt to hop on a zoom call

8. What is your favorite ice cream? chocolate.....esp if it’s dark chocolate which is Rare

9. What was the last thing you had to drink? starbucks peppermint hot chocolate bc i’m a basic bitch!!!!

10. Do you like your wallet? yeah, i only upgraded from my middle school wallet like back in 2018 to a normal adult looking one. it’s purple and has enough pockets for all my shit! still bulky tho

11. What was the last thing you ate? ....nothing LMFAOOOO lunch is usually my first meal of the day and i haven’t had it yet. but last night i had ramen for dinner

12. Did you buy any new clothes last weekend? last time i bought clothes was i ordered one of the black widow hoodies from hot topic like a month ago....other than that i have not gone clothes shopping since pre-quarantine

13. The last sporting event you watched? i don’t even know....i didn’t watch the super bowl, so it’d either be some time my roommate was watching hockey on our tv or whatever sports my mom was watching when i was still home for winter break in january

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn? KETTLE CORN!!!!

15. Who is last person you sent a text message to? i sent a pic of miley singing the climb on the fb livestream on my friend’s laptop to my fam being like “lol miley is our commencement performer!!!!” and my mom was just like cool

16. Ever go camping? yes unfortunately....never for more than a night at a time tho bc i literally Cannot

17. Do you take vitamins? no bc what is Health

18. Do you go to church every Sunday? used to back in the days of catholic school (pre college), but now no longer

19. Do you have a tan? nah bc we can’t go outside bro

20. Do you prefer Chinese food or pizza? chinese food 100% i personally think pizza is overrated

21. Do you drink soda with a straw? i don’t believe i ever do tbh

22. What color socks do you usually wear? i only own socks with colorful patterns/designs on them which is extra but very me i suppose

23. Do you ever drive above the speed limit? always! (a reasonable amount over tho, like within 5-10 mph over...this is average for californians, while many others speed hella)

24. What terrifies you? not a fan of heights nor uncertainty, and this pandemic has essentially destroyed my post grad hopes/plans and now i enter an uncertain future

25. Look to your left, what do you see? my bed, with a lot of stuff piled on top

26. What chore do you hate? all of them???? i guess doing the dishes mostly tho bc i hate the smell of wet dishes with food waste/residue on them and it just feels so gross i can’t

27. What do you think of when you hear an Australian accent? i think wow australia sounds like a wild country

28. What’s your favorite soda? orange soda 4ever

29. Do you go into a fast food place or just hit the drive-thru? drive-thru if i can !!! but i don’t mind going in if there’s ample parking available

30. Who’s the last person you talked to? my roommate, when i asked if she wanted me to close the door LMAO

31. Favorite cut of beef? all of them????? i’m not picky with meat dsflkbn

32. Last song you listened to? as i was driving back into my garage the radio station i was listening to started playing sugar we’re going down which threw me for a time loop

33. Last book you read? i’ve been reading fanfic mostly recently so ig whatever the last thing i read for my internship weeks ago was, it would be that

34. Favorite day of the week? even tho time doesn’t matter in quarantine, i’ll always be a friday stan

35. Can you say the alphabet backwards? i used to be decent at it but i’m out of practice now. i’ll try to just type it rly quickly and see: zyxwvutsrqponmlkjihgfedcba (ok so this took me like 5ish secs to type so that’s p good!)

36. How do you like your coffee? i don’t! i just drink peppermint hot chocolate :^)

37. Favorite pair of shoes? my doc martens, but they are now out of season for most of the rest of the year bc i live in southern california where it’s Hawt so i probs won’t wear them again til december

38. The time you normally go to sleep? sometime between 1 and 3 am

39. The time you normally get up? sometime between 9 and 11 am

40. What do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? sunsets are dope!!!

41. How many blankets on your bed? three, including my sheet, comforter, and a small quilt

42. Describe your kitchen plates. some are just round and plain white, some are round and white with a red decorative border, one is a pokémon plate meant for children that i bought cheap at target

43. Do you have a favorite alcoholic beverage? piña colada!!! but if i’m trying to get drunk i need vodka or somethin

44. Do you play cards? not much tbh! my apartment has been on a mahjong streak as of late

45. What color is your car? silver!!

46. Can you change a tire? no i’m useless but also my parents believe i’ll get murdered if stuck on the side of the road (which is possible) so they’d prefer me to call aaa for help

47. Your favorite province? uhhhhhhh no provinces here in the u.s. but canada has provinces and i went to british columbia (to visit vancouver) once as a kid so???? if we talking states tho y’all know i will die for california

48. Favorite job you’ve ever had? honestly my job at my school’s mail center this past year was rly cool! my boss was so great and the other student workers were chill, so it was a nice environment and i enjoyed learning all these mail-related skills

49. How did you get your biggest scar? i have no scars ;))))

50. What did you do today that made someone else happy? i had my final appointment with my therapist from my school since i graduated, so i thanked him for working with me the past year and a half!

i tag: anyone who wants to do this, i’m lazyyyyy hehe so feel free to steal!!!! i wanna read y’all’s answers

[juunshua]

Fashion anon here. Used to be interested, bought a slew of fashion magazines every month. Now I'm out of touch, but I still remember my basics. It helps that these are European brands and I'm an European girl who studied in an upper-middle class private school. You profiled people by what they wore, both in and out of school. In terms of wealth, age of that wealth, political opinion, popularity status etc. 😒. (to be cont.)

With idols what's interesting is the level and deliberateness of choice. If and when not dressed by stylists. Are they showing off a fangift? (gotta flaunt that Gucci, given how much it costs) How much are they trying to look the part, adhering to their role or current trends, paying for prestige? How much is personal taste and style? How much is comfort? How much is looking hawt? How much is paying for quality and timelessness when you can afford it? How much of that is a conscious choice?Hao is interested in fashion, Mingyu too. Hao seems to care about all aspects, but is more about achieving a final look. Wears those ugly-ass Balenciaga sneakers with all the aplomb in the world, and it works for him. Just like that mullet that should've been demonic. Mingyu's thing seems to be looking like a stylish, expensive snack. The two of them wear and wield expensive brands both for aesthetics and clout. And some of Gyu's things are classic investment pieces, which seems very him to me.I'd say the most obvious, distinct personal style is Vernon's. Bold colors shapeless sk8er boi, no fear combining or just doesn't care. Woozi has stylist friends he gives instructions to. Oversized tops and graphic tees but fitted bottoms, basic sneakers, easy young adult look...When they wear big-name brands it's incidental. They like, they buy , don't mind the price much(srsly all of these kids have mid-tier brand 100€ tees🤦‍♀️), personal preference comes first. Etc 4 the rest (rant again😅)

response under the cut!!

oof that sounds harsh, the profiling that is. but now that you mention it, the most knowledge i have of brands is due to middle/high school where there seemed to almost be a certain hierarchy attached with certain clothes (and i never wore what the ‘cool kids’ wore lmao ahaha or not even like just the ‘cool kids’ i straight up didnt wear the common brands that everyone seemed to wear? i had felt kinda left out and self conscious about my clothes a lot back then so i unintentionally paid a lot of attention to brands back then...) but the profiling youre talking about seems a lot more...damaging so to speak, i dont remember much of that going on where im from but then again...i guess it may also depend on who u spoke to? who knows if there were groups of people judging people for what they wore and profiled them that way (alskdjf the fact that u bring it up is kinda scary bc thats exactly what little me was terrified was happening when i felt super conscious about my clothes)that is true!! there are so many layers to idols’ fashion. interesting what you say about hao, i always found him to be a rebel of sorts, so i always felt part of his fashion had to be something just like not as societally ‘acceptable’ so to speak, and pulling it off in a way thats almost as if hes saying ‘and so why do you hate suchandsuch thing so much society? when it looks this good?’ ahaha idk? bc yeah he def does wear the big brand names and flaunts it off A LOT which i always found curious. hao to me is a curious enigma of going with the trends and the norm but also going against it. what would define ‘classic investment pieces’ in terms of fashion? can’t think of anything other than maybe watches? do watches count as investment pieces? unless this term means something way different in fashion ahah. the gyuhao fashion dynamic was so interesting to me, esp when you see them in svt club trying to dress up dino. hao is a bit more extravagant and extra, whereas mingyu goes for the classic, simple looks. i think the both of them have the ability to go way off into one direction (too simple or too extravagant), but when they come together perhaps they could balance each other out. like minghao suggesting that piece of accessory to go with mingyus chosen outfit for chan? i really liked that overall final look. i mean, to each their own! not that overly simple or extravagant stuff is horrible! but i think gyuhao together could do really cool awesome fashion things together‘easy young adult look’ alskfj why is that me ahah. its so interesting though how fashion can reflect an individuals personality, which is almost kinda given? but the fact that it does is still really cool to me. like ur comments about vernons fashion and him having ‘no fear combining or just not really caring,’ thats his whole persona literally!! thank you for your commentary anon!!! i really appreciate it !! im always curious as to what other people have to say, especially those who are more learned in a specific topic that could be applicable to seventeen! do you have a personal fav svt member style? 

[sixvisxpacem]

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Once again, I am sorry to hear that :( The oversaturation of DSS and Revolver is a pretty big problem in the VR fandom, and I am sure you've seen that blog by now to know the extent of all this back and forth. So you're not alone in this and I still feel bad from how "entitled" I may have acted regarding the rarepair weeks event. Of course there is the fact that people are afraid of admitting they like or ship something in fear of backlash and that can't be ignored But that is another topic on its own. But yeah, fandoms change. People and their interests shift all the time. But usually people are more focused on what's "current" rather than it being about 'and' or 'or'. It's human nature and the short attention span of people in general. Someday people will ditch what's popular now for the newer series. Or another fandom. It's practically guaranteed. Still I hope someday you will be able to regain your rping passion! Tbh, I was the same for a long time when I couldn't find interest in anything, and even now they are still incredibly unstable, but I don't think it's all too uncommon. It's natural for people with low self confidence to feel this way.

Oh, I didn’t think you were in the wrong back then at all and I still believe that singling DSS alone out is incredibly rude and inappropriate because it really isn’t as though every other pairing has zero content. Plus, given the fandom’s unwillingness to give proper positive feedback and actually interact with the content the so-called lack thereof they keep complaining about, more than half of these people don’t have any right to complain at all imo and I don’t feel sorry for them eiher. In fact, it’s the (thinking) DSS shippers who have my sympathy.

In addition to that, it is true that from an objective standpoint, Yuusaku, Ryouken, and DSS are the most well-conceived and complex aspects of the show, with the vast majority of the other characters not being more complex than 1 + 1, so we’re not looking at the typical “OMG, HAWT M/M PROTAG/RIVAL SHIP” shallowness here, but it’s just obvious why people’d focus on the best aspect of the show rather than on characters that only become ‘interesting’ in fanon. I mean, it’s kinda a flaw of the show itself that a big part of the cast has been so poorly developed from the very beginning, but that has nothing to do with DSS or the (thinking) shippers of that pairing. And thing is, DSS (and Ryouken) are actually the main reasons I’ve been enjoying VR a lot more again even though basically everything that used to be relevant to me on a personal level was written out of the show (which did keep me from enjoying quite a few episodes after it happened)- because with these new developments, the concerns that kept me from enjoying DSS and Ryouken have been put to rest and just about everything I used to describe as “developments and general things necessary for me to like Revolver rather than being annoyed by him” actually occured, which is amazing imo because it wasn’t just one thing, but, like, four things that really haven’t been minor :D

So no, it’s not Yuusaku/Ryouken/DSS that I’ve been getting annoyed with, but the fact that I cannot actively control whether I’d like to see and interact with my primary or my secondary interests because whenever I look for the former, there’s also just the latter. Like, normally, you just track some tags and follow some people based on what you’d like to see and then switch back and forth between them, but in my case, anything of that leads me back to VR (in general) and the places that used to be for my primary interests are just gone entirely. 

And I’m really not going to pretend that the people who ditched A5 for VR alone are at fault for this because those pathetic A5 bullies did gang up on anyone who dares publicly voice an opinion The Hivemind disagrees with and *gasp* call themself a fan?

You are right about how it’s fairly normal for people to ditch something they once claimed to be passionate about for the most superficial reasons, yet at the same time, it really isn’t as though the (Western) fandoms of the YGO anime that stopped airing before A5 are either dead or completely overrun with SJW hypocrites too.

Oh, I’d actually spent a lot of time completely alone with my interests (or only being able to discuss them some days a year) because for one thing, my family despised anything related to anime and for another, as I’ve told you before, German fandoms tend to be, like, twice as braindead as English-speaking fandoms and back in my German fandom days, most of the ‘discussions’ I tried to have immediately turned into nothing more than “this character is hawt, that character is hawt, and they are hawt together”, so it isn’t ‘just’ my low self-esteem making things difficult for me because yeaaaah, positive emotions do compensate for a lot of things.

But thanks for the kind wishes <3 Truth be told, I’m not so optimistic about that because I couldn’t be slower and the quality of what I do manage to put together continues to be lower than it used to be in 2016/early 2017 (and even then, it wasn’t nearly good enough), so I feel like I’m getting worse rather than improving due to the deadly low-empathy + inability to experience positive emotions combo (which only gets worse the more I forget about what positive emotions actually feel like)- as well as various other factors that have been working against me, but... oh well ^^’

I’ll still keep trying for a bit. 

[sketchguk]

Goodeveing! I met my crush and talked to him for a while! 😭 I tried everything you and your friend told me to thanks guys for Saving my ass 😭 We sat down and talked and he asked about my job so I thought I can ask about his too and he was so excited to talk about it! He was saying he wants to climb ranks quickly but it's not so easy and all. Then I told him that I watch those videos you linked me 😭😭😭 I told I have a friend who's interested in aviation so she sends me stuff sometimes sadshhhsssa and I showed him the pilot atc vids and he was sooooo happy 😭 he was saying everyone does that atleast once and when they do it all other pilots will start making fun of them hdssssss he doesn't make announcements but he hears about a lot of this happening! Then i asked him about the Boeing and Airbus thing and YO. THIS MAN. LOST IT . his eyes just went so wide and he was like OHMYGOD LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT IT 😭 and he spoke for 20 minutes straight 😭 he said he likes boeing because it has autopilot but a lot of controls the pilots do on the own! So it's like FYLING MY AIRPLANE and in Airbus a lot is automatic! He was saying some pilots think it's very macho and great to fly a boeing because you're doing most of the work 😭 he showed me a video of a controller saying "I thought you guys fly a Airbus for a second" and then the pilots say "Nah we fly real planes" 😂😂😂😂😂😂 he wants to do training in Boeing! What plane does your friend's bf fly? If he flies boeing he's macho otherwise he's not 😂😂 kidding! all pilots are cooool ahahaaa. You don't need to know all that I was just rambling omgg hhdada then I waited for h to ask me if i need something and My sister with her friends were going to get icecream so they were asking us what flavour we want, and he asked me Do you want vanilla? And do you want me to any toppings? And I said no but your number maybe 😭 the way I said it didn't make sense but I was just waiting for an opportunity 😭 and he went like 😳 . wow I didn't see that coming. And then he gave me the number 😭😭😭😭😭 I can't believe sending you asks saved my life 😂 thank you guys so much !!!!! I messed up with the number thing it was not as smooth as your friend but I did what I could and it surprised him ! He also said thanks for talking to him about planes and stuff hhdadas he said he feels soft that I talk about his passion AAAAH HHDADASSA I hope he texts me soooooo I want to talk to him soon 😔 thanks guys againnnnn - 🍰

🗣️ WE'VE SECURED THE NUMBER, WAHOOO !!!!

It's the way that we could co write a research paper about boeing vs. airbus at this point lolll. I'm glad that the conversation topics helped you out !!!! "A friend who's interested in aviation" - that's me that's me that's me !!!! 🙋🏻‍♀️ (although, the only thing I'm really interested in is getting u a hawt pilot bee eff)

And I hope that you got to talk about yourself plenty too <333 Did you get to share anything exciting???

My friend is invested in this relationship now 🥰 or at least I will subject her to listening because this is fun loll. And she said her bf flies a boeing 777 and 787, whatever that means 😭 my air force father must be so disappointed in me, but it is what it is, ya know??

You did the number thing !!!!! I think it worked out pretty well the way he asked questions LOL. I LOVE ice cream !! Did you get vanilla??? I personally believe chocolate is superior but every opinion is valid <3

That's so funny how we secured you his numberr. Imagine one day, you have to tell him the story of how Tumblr user sketchguk and anonymous friends gave you the advice to be a smooth bombshell 😎👍

You won't text him first?!!! I hope he does though (soon). But if not, I think you should send something <33 I don't know if he will hold the expectation that you'll send a text first because you asked for his cell (unfair if you ask me because we did the hard work of securing that number 😤) .

[lilmissbluesky-archive]

Adam.

This is the only picture I have of him left. He hated taking pictures. He was always scared the camera would see through his mask and show the truth, show who he really was.

The first time Terence showed me Adam, it was at home, in the Warrens. He showed it to me in secret, and only ever showed Dad other than me. Bram didn’t know, Mortis didn’t know, Wick didn’t know, not even Avery knew.

Not even his wife, Remy, knew.

“Nice, right?” He smiled at me, and I laughed.  “It’s... somet’in’ awrite, Terry!” Eyeing the mask up and down, wondering what the hell he was going to do with this one. “I mean, do you like it? Cute, right?” He spun slowly in a circle like a model, doing some goofy little rockaway move. I rolled my eyes. “Yeah, Terry, ya look real hawt, bibii. I gotta go ta work now.” Gave him a grin and sauntered off, thinking he was just messing around. 

We both really tried at the roles they put on us. Davian’s precious daughter, and his beloved fosterling boy. Like siblings, they said, like siblings, like a big brother and a baby sister, and... well God, we didn’t deny it, did we? Never told them no. We took it, used it as a shield, nuzzled each other behind it, and told ourselves that it didn’t matter what the topsiders said about us. The only real truth for a Nosferatu is underground. Our only real home is the Warrens, and our only real family is our family, because someday when Absimilard and Baba Yaga both wake up, they’re going to call us to sides, and we either fall, or we win. And nobody: not his wife Remy, not my then-boyfriend Storm, nobody, no topsider would be of any use. It’s a war they’re not allowed to fight in, no matter how bad the topsiders love us. Our war, our burden to bear. A world that only we could understand, together. 

The first time he came out in public as Adam, I was out on Lafayette Street with Alice, the mangy bitch who made it her life’s work to try and destroy my good-nature, my soft heart, my resilience, until I was as dead and bitter inside as her. 

God I should have killed that bitch.

He acted exactly like a boyfriend would. Holding me, kissing me, snuggling me, flat-out SAYING he was my boyfriend, in front of Alice. It became the talk of the group: Elodie got herself a tall, sexy, foreign boyfriend named Adam who apparently came all the way from Distant Lands just to be with her. We went on dates. He held my hand and led me places like an excited puppy. He agonized at Hot Topic for a half-hour in front of the body jewelry case over which eyebrow bar to buy, even though we both knew damn well that Terence didn’t have an eyebrow piercing and the ring in his brow was just part of the mask. He took me to secret places he knew about that he never showed anybody before. He called me “babygirl” and “princess”. 

And it was so nice. It was our secret, our nice little secret to have. Nosferatu always have layers, we have many masks to wear and many roles to play, and the way we are topside is almost always a put on, it’s whatever role we want to show the rest of you surface-dwellers. When we’re underground, we’re different. And now, because of Adam, because Terence was actually Adam in a mask, we had yet another layer. We had the topside siblings role we played to make the Elders pat us on the heads and tell us what good kids we were. We had the underground best friends who snuggle role at home. And then, when we were all alone, in our own little pocket realm of existence that only he and I knew about, we were boyfriend and girlfriend. And it was so nice. Sometimes it was the only thing that got us through the night, knowing that we would get to hold each other, be equitable, kiss, hug, whisper sweet things and kindnesses to one another, to tease about being overwhelmed by love and lust for one another... just one bite, what would one little mutual bite do? Bite each other at the same time, connect our circulations, our hearts beating as one. Complete the circuit.

My God... he was everything to me. He was my everything. 

In your house, I long to be Room by room, patiently I’ll wait for you there Like a stone I’ll wait for you there, alone

[dgcatanisiri]

Okay, so building on that post I just reblogged about the Assassin’s Creed protagonists, that’s probably nailed down some of my feelings on the subject of being a gay fan of these BioWare franchises, where, ostensibly, I have representation, but I still don’t feel like I’m part of the audience.

I mean, in the Mass Effect franchise, mlm representation is only properly in two games out of four (since Kaidan is not a LI in ME1, so his romance can’t carry over to ME2), and in Dragon Age, two of the three games have romances that get praised as representation, yet don’t feel like they’re representing ME...

Like, I’ve REALLY seen it in response to Andromeda, where mlm were seriously shafted at release, so that one option had a grossly homophobic story and the other had only a little content in comparison to the shipboard romances... And then when Jaal’s romance was patched, I have not seen a major uptick in M!Ryder/Jaal content, so the M/M content for Ryder has still been slim pickings. 

Not to mention the pushback on Jaal. Like... That could be a post all its own. I mean, it absolutely was back in the days of #MakeJaalBi trending, and I made/reblogged more than a couple, but... There is this entitled sense of ownership on Jaal from a vocal minority that said that him being ‘made’ bi somehow impacted him as a character, or that his romance ‘doesn’t make sense’ with another man.

Or, taking a further step back, when the dialogue from the male Inquisitor for Cullen’s romance was discovered, there was such defensive posturing of how ‘it was cut, it doesn’t count!’ This after other cut dialogue had been discovered and embraced by these same people. We still see people going ‘changing Cullen’s sexuality is as bad as doing it to Dorian/if it’s okay to do to Cullen, it’s okay to do to Dorian!’ (which oh my god, I’m actively resisting opening that can of worms because SUCH a world of difference, we could be here all...), or ‘you’re so GREEDY, aren’t you satisfied with Dorian?!’ 

(And, of course, that’s erasing Iron Bull, and the fact that, hey, both characters have reasons why they might repel some players - both have elements in their stories and arcs that could be triggering to players, because parental homophobia and abusive doms are legit issues in the gay community, and maybe we don’t want to play a romance that brings them up at all.)

Like, having games where there actually are characters who are representation has seemed to be an ‘excuse’ for these people to not just ignore mlm altogether by dismissing the male PC, ignoring how empowering the mlm audience find playing a male PC (how often do you hear variations on ‘female PC/VA is inherently superior to the male’? Because this is something that has existed since Mark Meer and Jennifer Hale as Shepard in ME1, even accepting that male Shepard in ME1/2 could not express same-sex attraction), or shame people who are writing/drawing their male PCs with these characters who are only available in game for female PCs. 

It’s not that I’m trying to play the oppression Olympics, because yeah, wlw still get a raw deal out of things, with the fact that they’re often there as objects to be fetishized, or, in scenes like Peebee’s romance, still treated as an aberration from the norm (re: Peebee riding a non-existent dick). But video games are, OVERALL, an industry that is geared towards the straight dudebro idea of ‘lesbians are HAWT, gay guys are icky!’ We SHOULD talk about lesbian/bi women fetishization in video games. We should also be talking about the erasure of gay/bi men in video games. These are not mutually exclusive topics, and indeed stem from the same root issue.

[i-want-my-iwtv]

Honestly I can't believe how gay everyone was for Louis. After reading the compilation of Louis' descriptions, all of them are like "oh he's so beautiful, so innocent and graceful, my eyes follow his every move, wow he's so gorgeous". I can't believe everyone (including myself) is Gay for Louis

[EDIT: Tumblr ate half my post! I took out all the indented “quote” formatting to fix it]

IKR?? He tolerates it, rolls his eyes at it when he reads it, but when it gets to a certain amount…

Louis says of himself in IWTV:

“You wonder if I was a handsome man when I was alive,” said the vampire. The boy nodded. “I was. Nothing structurally is changed in me. Only I never knew that I was handsome. Life whirled about me a wind of petty concerns, as I’ve said. I gazed at nothing, not even a mirror… especially not a mirror… with a free eye.”

The compilation of descriptions of Louis that @i-see-light-blog put together are mostly from Lestat, I think, and at least one or two are from Armand, both were lovers of Louis at one point. The others who describe him are Daniel, David, and Marius.*

And I think the deal with describing Louis is partly that, hey, it’s fun to do, like having a favorite flower, and AR takes the opportunity to remind us of it, and put the camera on him in a scene, so we know he’s present. It also serves a purpose, we usually get at least a scrap of context about him and/or the scene:

“I glared at him, at the sharp graceful angles of his imperturbable face, […] his wide-set eyes, with their fine rich black lashes. How perfect the tender indentation of his upper lip.” -Lestat, The Tale of the Body Thief

Lestat glares at Louis. –> Lestat is clearly pissed.

Louis’ imperturbable face –>Louis is not scared of Lestat being pissed.

And then Lestat lavishes this extra description on him, appreciatively. Attention on the lip area, now we’re picturing him pointedly staring there, which might precede a kiss, so we can infer that Lestat desperately wants to kiss him, probably. What I get from all that is the exquisite tension of Lestat wanting someone he can’t have, someone he treasures and wants even MORE bc of the difficulty. And Louis knows this when he reads those flowery descriptions. I think Louis secretly enjoys the power that he holds over all these hopeless admirers, when he reads these descriptions.

It’s the tension of the other characters pining for Louis that AR wrings every drop out for us, she’s showing us how helpless these other characters are that they can only try to capture Louis with descriptions since he defies being owned by anyone. Unrequited love is a powerful thing.

In my reading of IWTV, Louis was not just some dishrag Lestat could toss around at will. Even before Claudia appears, Louis is setting boundaries with Lestat:

“And to Babette I came now with Lestat. He would have killed the Frenieres long ago if I hadn’t stopped him,…

…`You call me the idiot, and you’ve been the idiot all along. Do you think I don’t know why you made me a vampire? You couldn’t live by yourself, you couldn’t manage even the simplest things. For years now, I’ve managed everything while you sat about making a pretense of superiority. There’s nothing left for you to tell me about life. I have no need of you and no use for you. It’s you who need me, and if you touch but one of the Freniere slaves, I’ll get rid of you. It will be a battle between us, and I needn’t point out to you I have more wit to fare better in my little finger than you in your entire frame. Do as I say.” - Louis, Interview with the Vampire

^And this is part of Louis’s hawtness, as well. He absolutely will cut a b*tch, if necessary.

Hit the jump for a little more, cut for it’s-slightly-off-topic-but-oh-well

*I’m pretty sure the other quotes are from Daniel, David, and Marius, I’m not checking bc I’m like 90% sure.

Daniel’s drawn to him in IWTV bc his story is so compelling, and that Louis is a vampire in the presence of a mortal who knows what he is, so he has that preternatural thing going on, mortal!Daniel is enthralled. Plus, Louis may have spellbound him inadvertently, as according to Armand:

“Louis… unable to read minds, or to levitate, or to spellbind others except inadvertently, which can be hilarious, an immortal with whom mortals fall in love…” - the Vampire Armand

David probably has some mixed feelings about Louis, especially in Merrick, bc Lestat’s out of the picture for most of that book, and I think David is stepping into Lestat’s role in his absence, to some extent, so I think he’s trying see Louis as Lestat sees him.

There was an artist in IWTV who painted Louis’ portrait, it makes sense that Marius, another artist who has done portraits, would also be drawn to Louis for this reason. Marius also thinks about what would happen if Louis were upgraded, and hey, I would think he’s had those thoughts about other vampires who are significantly younger than himself, for whom an upgrade really might change them. Now that I’m thinking about it, this was info that Marius confessed to Lestat when Lestat was drafting QOTD, and I bet this comment stuck in his mind, he very much wanted to upgrade Louis for awhile, but for different reasons. 

[donghyxns]

mafia! Yugyeom

wow okay

this kid is ruthless

is 19

acts 28

idk what that means LMAO

he is the backup assassinator

which basically means he goes with youngjae to these assassination jobs and if youngjae accidentally gets murdered yugyeom can jump in and shoot people

he goes to school, like jinyoung

but it isn’t like top priority??

murdering people is

he is in school for fashion and modeling

ikr

wild

he is the hot topic at school

he struts around like he owns the place

he has this special glint in his eye

it is confidence

girls fall when he looks their way nO LIE

pussy master aksjfsafbkbhgb

the way you two met was......special????

he was flirting with your friend in the library

and you were like “hell naw to the naw naw nawww”

you swooped in and was like

listen, yugyeom buddy

i know you want my friend and all

but i dont want her to get herpes at this young ripe age

he was offended

but honored what??

your friend took this opportunity to scEEDATTLE OUT OF THERE

he looked at you with that special glint in his eye that makes all the girls fall to their knees

but you stood there with almost sassy and determined eyes

he immediately backed down

like what

he will willINGLY MURDER PEOPLE

BUT WHEN A GIRL LOOKS IN HIS EYES HE LEAVES

he gathered all of his bags in a hurry and was like “gotta go, my gang is meeting up”

then he pauses

then you pause

“wat” you ask

he runs over to where you were standing and covers your mouth

chill yugyeom ur in a library

“dont tell anyone about this” his face hardens and his eyes get dark

ur like hAwT DaMN 

you wink and take his hand off of ur mouth, “as long as you go on a date with me”

he's ready 4 this date as soon as your mutter the words

masterlist

[shyvioletcat]

Person A loses a bet to Person B and has to dye their hair some bright, neon color for a week for rowaelin ;) (it would be hilarious if Rowan is Person A)

Masterlist

As Aelin expected it had taken much longer than the allotted time to get the kids unloaded from the bus, sorted into rooms, and then unpacked. But here they were now, prepping for the first activity of the week long school camp.

For Aelin and her small band of students that was canoeing. Thankfully the camp coordinators had given her a heads ups and she was already changed into her swimwear. Today it consisted of a demure one piece that was covered with a long sleeved floral rash shirt and some shorts. Not her usually water activity attire, but 99 percent of her other swimsuits were likely to cause a riot amongst the male portion of the students, and Aelin really didn’t want to be the topic of discussion in the bunk rooms tonight. She glanced over to where Rowan stood. He too was dressed for wet activities and a moment later it was announced that his group would be doing canoeing too.

This would be fun.

Aelin would have to be deaf to not hear the rumours that were whispered around the school. The students all thought she and Mr Whitethorn would make the cutest couple ever, and if she and Rowan were ever in the same vicinity the comments would start.

Isn’t Miss G wearing a pretty dress today, sir.

What do you think of Mr Whitethorn’s haircut?

Do you have a date for Valentine’s Day this year?

On and on they went, trying to get one to notice the other. What they didn’t realise was that they had noticed each other a long while ago and they were now in the blissful state of being in a newly blossomed relationship. They were keeping it a secret from both the staff and students while they found their feet, really this camp had come at the worst time. They’d have to try and keep their hands, and everything else, to themselves for the whole week. Honestly it would be close to torture.

~~~~~

Canoeing had been great fun. They paddled around a small section of the calm bay, and now they were just messing around while they waited for the call to get ready for dinner. Aelin was standing by the waters edge, supervising.

“Gregory, no capsizing other canoes!” She called out and pointed at the boy who very wisely stopped trying to tip his friend over.

Aelin’s attention was drawn away from the students momentarily as Rowan pulled his canoe out of the water. Even through his own rash shirt she could see the muscles of his shoulders and back flexing. She so desperately wanted to run her hands, her nails, over them.

“Miss G.”

Aelin was startled out of her thoughts by a student calling her name. She didn’t miss Rowan’s smirk, no doubt catching on to what she had been doing and possibly thinking.

“Yes?” Aelin said turning to the group of students who had decided to dry themselves off.

“If you and Mr Whitethorn raced to that buoy and back, who do you think would win?”

“Me,” Aelin said without hesitation.  She heard Rowan scoff behind her. “You don’t think so?” Aelin asked him.

Rowan crossed his arms over his chest. “You’ve got decent skill, but I am much bigger and stronger than you are so…” He finished his sentence with a shrug instead of words.

“But that makes you heavier,” Aelin said. “I’m confident I would win.”

“I’m confident you are wrong,” Rowan said, taking a step towards her. There was a playfulness in his eyes that had her heart fluttering.

“I guess the only way to settle this is to actually do it,” Aelin challenged.

“It seems so, and why don’t we make it interesting?” Rowan suggested, his lips shadowing a smile.

“Oh?” Aelin said.

Rowan reached out and twirled a lock of her damp hair around her finger. The distance between them was appropriate enough, but the gesture…

“The loser has to dye their hair a ridiculous colour.”

Aelin stepped back. Rowan knew, he knew, how precious she was about her hair.

“With what? We’re in the middle of nowhere,” Aelin countered.

“Suddenly not so confident, are you, Princess?” Rowan said. That earned him a few laughs from the surrounding students. “The chalk. For the fun run.”

There was indeed a box of chalk bombs in the staff bunk room that they’d brought along for later in the week. Aelin looked at Rowan, at the challenge in his stare and she could feel the pressure and excited energy from the kids. So, Aelin stuck out her hand.

“Loser chalks their hair. A new colour each day for the rest of the week,” Aelin declared.

“Deal,” Rowan said shaking her hand. “Naomi, care to referee?”

~~~~~

Aelin sat in the dining hall, her plate of mediocre food in front of her. She had won the race and was still buzzing from the thrill of it. Rowan had her most of the way, but then he had taken the turn around the buoy too sharply and capsized himself. The nudge from her oar might have helped too.

There was a buzz of commotion from the entry and it rippled across the room, following whoever it was as they collected their food. Then Aelin saw it and clamped a hand over her mouth.

There was Rowan, sporting neon lime green hair. The kids were losing it, laughing and whispering loudly as he passed. Rowan just walked by as if nothing was out place.

“I didn’t think he’d do it,” Lysandra said from across the table.

“He looks ridiculous,” Lorcan grumbled from where he sat beside Lysandra, poking at his food.

“Take a joke for once in your life, Salvaterre,” Aelin said, her voice bubbling with laughter.

By then Rowan had reached them and sat down next to Aelin. No one said anything.

“That colour really brings out your eyes, Rowan,” Lysandra said. That made Aelin snort.

“The kids were watching,” Rowan said as he stabbed a watery potato. “I couldn’t very well not follow through.”

Everyone laughed, except Lorcan, and went back to their food. When everyone was distracted Rowan lent over so only Aelin could hear what he said next.

“I know what you did, Aelin. This isn’t over.”

~~~~~

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