#like i literally believe that dabi is one of my multidimensional lifetimes

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FUCK YEAH MORE JACK SELFIES WHAT A GREAT DAY. on the topic of fandom, could you share what it is that you personally relate with in regards to bakugou, to the point of kinning? I also just wanna hear your thoughts and headcanons on your fave characters. I'm guessing dabi and baku are high on the list. genuinely this is just an excuse to get you to ramble because I love it when you ramble about shit you like it's so fun. what disorders do you headcanon dabi has? there's so many ways one can interpret his character, so I'd love to hear your interpretation and understanding of his own character. also what are your thoughts on the whole "hero vs villain" structure of bnha, and whose 'philosophy' would you say that you'd agree with the most if you were in the universe, either as you are now or maybe as you were younger? (I've got no idea how okay you are with fandom related things on this blog so let me know if you prefer an alternative) !

anon ur too sweet but okay! i have so many thoughts so im gonna put this under a read more because genuinely im about to drop a novel LOL

but honestly for me bakugou's entire everything is so relatable and i've talked a bit about how i think he's a good representation of what npd and aspd present and feel like. like his whole journey of self realization and discovery, how he starts out so emotionally immature and reactive because he perceives kindness as a threat and needing to be saved as a weakness. i honestly love how such a defining moment for him early on is him needing to not only be saved, but to be saved by someone he always thought of as below him because he mistakes izuku's inherent kindness and drive to help as mocking derision and izuku looking down on him

when i was younger that mindset was SO ingrained into me. my parents didnt want to help me, they couldnt be bothered and didnt have time and so they framed me ever needing or asking for anything as this huge horrible thing. when i was indipendant and self sufficiant i got praised and rewarded, but when i was struggling i was either ignored because everyone assumed i could handle it cause i was always forced to, or i got punished and yelled at and derided. bakugous feelings about the kamino incident and all mights downfall i feel like really represented that kind of abuse and internal struggle so well. bakugous parents *yell at him* for getting kidnapped, they apologize for the inconvenience he brought to the heros, they make him BOW in APOLOGY *for being kidnapped.* because how dare katsuki need saving. how dare he make a hero fight and risk their life for him all because he got captured. why couldnt he handle it himself? why couldnt he evade them like everyone else? why couldnt he save himself from the leagues base? never mind that his kidnappers were adults and katsuki is 15, never mind that they were a (mostly) well organized criminal organization, never mind that they planned and orchestrated a multi step coordinated attack that specifically targeted him, never mind that some of the villains present were strong enough to take down multiple pro heros let alone a bunch of highschoolers, never mind that ragdoll, a grown adult pro hero with years of experience in the field also got captured and couldnt evade them. he got caught and all might had to sacrifice himself to save him. he failed and the consequence of him being a child who needed saving is his hero losing everything. that is the world bakugou gets raised in and that's his reality living with his parents. it's not until after he leaves and is out on his own at ua that he realizes how fucked up this is so no wonder katsuki hates izuku at first, he rejects izukus selfless kindness because its so utterly foreign to him. and this hits so hard for me too. when i first met my wife everything she did confused me. i was looking for the maliciousness in her actions and it was never there, her motivations were never selfish, she never punished me. i couldnt understand her at all and i ended up doing the exact same thing katsuki does. i pushed her away and abused the hell out of her because i was reacting defensively to what i perceived as a threat because i genuinely just did not understand how to recognize genuine selfless kindness

i really loved the culmination of all that they've given for bakugou to, his apology to izuku was so perfect and beatiful and his acknowlegement and true understanding of who izuku is has just been so good. i also love the framing that katsuki doesnt have his real True "rising" hero moment until he finally understands what it means to want to save someone. not just win, but save. its just so perfect to me and i love his growth and i just cant help but absolutely love him. okay but on to the next cause i could literally rant about bakugou for hours kajshdklasdjkhas i saw ur second ask so i'll save my feelings on dabi for that one cause i feel its more relevent! but trust me i have a lot jkahsdlkasdjkawd as for the structure and philosophy, i honestly really liked what bnha was saying in the beginning. i liked that it questioned what it meant to be a "hero" in so many ways. with the stain arc and endeavor there's the exploration of what happens when u have someone who does societal good but personal harm? how can u claim someone a hero in public when in private he rapes his wife and beats his children. is that man still a "hero"?? what are we, as a society, willing to turn a blind eye to for "the greater good" and is that moral?? should people without the "proper" motivations be given the title of "hero"?? what level of selflessness is required to truly call urself a "hero"?? u have the question of nana. an objectively "good" hero and person, she gives up her son to protect him and do whats "right", and we call that a good decision, but is it? her son clearly thinks differently. what is the difference between a sacrifice and abandonment? did nana not abandon her son? did she hurt him? is his pain and the chain reaction of harm and pain it caused nothing in comparison to nana's role and duty to society as a hero?? and then with all might and izuku, characters who are *are* genuinely selfless and the embodiment emotionally of heros and what people think of when they think of the perfect hero. but at what cost does that come? do all might and izuku not matter? do the people that love them and want to protect them wrong for holding them back from self destruction in the name of others? where is the line between a savior and a martyr? what does it matter if ur a true hero if ur dead? do their lives matter less than the lives of the people they save? when ur so busy saving everyone else, whose going to save u? how unbearably and inhumanely lonely is it in the number one spot? and should we even care? i honestly really love the league of villains and to no ones surprise i probably would fall closer to their side than anyone else because i think the questions they're asking are important. the league is made up entirely of abused kids who no one came to save. they got left to the wayside because in a broken system, people will fall through the cracks. and they want to know why, society tells them its because they werent worth saving. their quirks made them born "dangerous" and "weird" and "suspicious" and so the biological determinism that drives their society said they werent worth saving. and now they're going to burn it down in response. if society wants to reject them and leave them for dead, then they'll reject them first and lash out and take power and control back for themselves rather than lay down and die

i think thats a powerful and very understandable message. unforuntately i do not think horikoshi is smart enough to actually answer any of the questions he's posed and i feel like the later half of the manga is really suffering for it and i absolutely hate the direction things are going now that stuff is heading towards wrapping up. i do not have high hopes for the end of the series and i dont think we're going to get a satisfying answer to many of those philosophical questions which is a damn shame