#like i know ive done a shit ton of other things but.. this story/au is my child. its the thing that got me back to writing regularly

[the-kipsabian]

i really need to read immortal fears back and get back to writing it huh

[m1ckeyb3rry]

OMG ITS LITERALLY WHAT WEVE TALKED ABOUT LMFAOOOO the “nikos only 15” and ofc aiku being aiku and Barou being like “can u stfu” also I lowk forgot that the special exhibition art (the colorings you reblogged recently) had niko and aiku tgt LMAO truly destiny

Wait I almost forgot about that moment bc YEAH FR I remember thinking in that moment like “is bro a kdrama watcher????” Nagi truly is an enigma

I’m ngl I was (am..??? I just forgot abt the concern until just now ig) worried that they’d make the entire first episode the wildcard thing but surely not..!!!! Surely not….lowk I don’t think there’s even enough content there to fill whole episode (I hope) only because I really couldn’t gaf about Shidou or igaguri

NO FR IVE BEEN TRYING TO GET PEOPLE ON THE CHIGIRI MAN AGENDA FOR AGES (I say that having not interacted with like any of the fandom) because his hair is the only thing that really sticks out as not typical dude (bro does NOT use 3 in 1 shampoo) but lowk I think that’s also just because of his meticulous/picky nature for things? We see him taking a lot of time for his knee too ofc but other than that he’s such a dude HSHSHS like are we forgetting all the dude bro muscle screaming moments he has to get hyped up with Barou and zantetsu after the 3v3 and leading up to the 4v4 and also he’s had his moments on field too like…fanon characterizations really are the epitome of wrong (oops)

Bro I’m just imagining the two otoyas meeting like you’re typical like multiverse crossover episode hollyhocks like “yeah bro I’m an assassin” and bllk otoyas “like sick dudeee I get hella girls” and hollyhock otoya replies with “ayo that’s my boy, would’ve been me if I weren’t busy killing ppl smh” LMAOOOO

No matter the au Yukimiyas always dying surrounded by idiots LMAOOO he just never wins…the “unfortunately there’s ness” has me howling AHAHAHA real there are no ness enjoyers here

Karasu being a softie and picking up random animals so real and yuki is so done with his shit but POKEMON AU I also forgot we had a section in our convo abt that (not specifically your au but pokemon in general) omg…can you drop some hints from the outline….im Lowk curious what kinda story you’d write i don’t think I’ve ever seen a pokemon au fic (no pressure ofc!! Only if u wanna show it LOL)

LMFAOAOAOAOA YOURE NOT AKAZA IS BRUTAL YOU JUST KILLED THE MAN stop im crying that would’ve been such a funny response (although kinda mean shdgshshs) what is your strat for rejecting these people because i can only imagine you’d have a shit ton of opps if they took your words the wrong way omg

NOOO OUR STREAK it’s ok we can erase this outlier….also lowk I think it’s maybe just the game art style if you showed me a pic of yuki making this face in the manga or in fanart I’d think he looked hot but something about the eye sizing and like his mouth isn’t consistent and throws it off for me…like if they exaggerated his smirk a bit more and adjust the left eye shape to kinda follow the sharper “angry” look as opposed to just leaving it completely normal maybe it’d be better….atp it sounds like im just saying “make a Karasu face” oops

- Karasu anon

LMAOOO RIGHT IT WAS SO PERFECT aiku trying to be the big bro of the ubers but mommy barou is NOTT letting his bs slide 😭 i also love the headcanon of aiku trying to be bffs w barou meanwhile barou has 0 interest and thinks aiku is an idiot (deep down he actually thinks he’s chill but he would NEVER admit that) also poor niko the mdni sign killed me 😩

when he said that i was like 😮 because it was so random??? but honestly he’s so real for that…average nagimira activities are just us rewatching crash landing on you and relating the characters to people we know irl KFNDKSKSK

OKAY if i have to make a prediction they’re going to start the episode with the flashback almost like a prologue?? reo will be the narrator introducing what the scenario is, we see the confrontation + game + outcome, and then we cut back to ego announcing top six and explaining the premise of the third selection ☝🏻 that way the hype for shidou is built up but the rest of the top six are also introduced and we can get right into the third selection from there since there’s also the entire u20 arc that’s supposed to fit into this season so they can’t delay too much

OKAY PLUS CHIGIRI HAS AN OLDER SISTER WHO HE’S REALLY CLOSE WITH as someone who gets along rlly well with my own little brother you KNOW that man has a meticulous skin and haircare routine because i’d literally make fun of him if he didn’t…tbh those are the vibes chigiri gives me 😩 but agreed i mean he’s honestly manlier than isagi (he also has a pretty deep voice) and despite having a “pretty” appearance he doesn’t necessarily act as such ☝🏻 except in official arts but lbr official arts are lowkey the fanon versions of characters half of the time anyways

PLSSS can you imagine the hollyhock characters meeting their current time counterparts 😭 like the two otoyas are just dapping each other up because their living each other’s dreams meanwhile bllk karasu’s just like “wtf i’m the general of the army and eventually become shogun and my best friend is a baddie ⁉️” and hollyhock karasu is like “eh ig so” and bllk karasu’s like “why are you depressed then dawg that’s fire” and hollyhock karasu is like “i miss otoya and y/n ☹️” FJDJDJSJSJ omg poor yukimiya though he’d definitely be like “why tf am i a villain 😭😭😭” meanwhile hollyhock yuki is like “🤷🏻 it was coachella 2016 that was the vibe at the time”

bro save yukimiya he’s actually a victim he needs to become friends w aiku and barou (new diva trio) because idt he can actually take being a trio w karasu and otoya longer…OKAY HEAR ME OUT instead of tabieitaken it’s tabieitaryu (karasu + otoya + SHIDOU i think that would be such a peak dynamic) and then yuki seeks refuge w the ubers or mancity groups because he could easily be close w reo or barou i can rlly see either…ALTERNATIVELY in actual canon let’s see a yukimiya and kunigami team up ☝🏻 GET YUKI OFF THE BENCH, GET US A WILDCARD FLASHBACK, AND LET THE BOYS W THE FUCKED UP BODIES AND DESTRUCTIVE THEMES LINK UP AND SCORE THE FINAL GOAL 🙏🏻 it would be a good way to utilize kunigami i think (since he’s not rlly done much post wildcard) and also to reinforce why yuki was literally number five in the third selection

OFCCC I CAN TALK ABT THE POKÉMON AU i actually wrote it in my notes app so i’ll just type instead of giving screenshots since that’ll end up as a lot 😭

so basically the gist of it is the mc is barou’s younger cousin or sister or smth (rip barou male lead but the familial bond is the main theme of the story so he’s still important) and he disappears to go on a journey when he’s of age and he’s never heard from again!! originally mc doesn’t want to go on a journey but eventually she’s decides she has to in order to find barou ☝🏻 they don’t live close enough to a professor for her to get an actual starter so she takes the sibling of barou’s first pokemon, which is a houndour, so that’s her starter!! she goes through the region in search of barou, collecting badges and meeting the crew (who i will elaborate on in the next paragraph hehe) and catching pokémon/having various misadventures etc etc but eventually they realize an evil team (because is it a pokémon au if there’s no evil team) is after them after originally thinking mc is one of them because of her houndour as they believe the crew is a threat to the team’s goals 😨 it’s eventually revealed when mc breaks into the base that the leader is barou HOWEVER barou is very clearly acting strange and it turns out he actually died right before challenging the champion of the region and the evil team used a ghost pokémon to puppeteer his body so that they could use his team since he basically had the strongest team in the region and would’ve been champion if he didn’t die 😓 the evil team wants to get rid of pokémon training as a system because they believe it takes advantage of the unfortunate (such as nagi) which the mc does agree with but she can’t agree with their methods and especially possessing barou’s corpse 😭 so she and her houndoom kill barou for good which leads barou’s own houndoom to basically kill itself (the rest of his pokémon are inherited by mc and mostly like her because they realize how much she loved barou and how she never stopped looking for him) and this proves aiku’s theory that pokémon do form familial bonds as mc’s houndoom mourns for its brother (also ik i just mentioned nagi and aiku without context but i’ll explain who they are now + their teams and hopefully it’ll make more sense then!!)

so the main group that reader travels with is herself, tullia, otoya, and karasu!! otoya is the descendant of an exiled clan and he’s trying to regain their honor by being a legitimate trainer instead of all sneaky the way his family members were, karasu is the younger brother of the region’s flying-type gym leader (yayoi 🥹) and he ran away from home to prove himself as a trainer in his own right, and tullia is an aspiring pokémon breeder who’s basically training up her own pokémon so people want their offspring?? if that makes sense lol

mc’s team: houndoom [starter], gyarados, aegislash, donphan, galvantula, dragalge

barou’s team: houndoom [starter], pangoro, zoroark, krookodile, sharpedo, weavile

otoya’s team: greninja [starter], ampharos, blissey, sylveon, ninetales, altaria

tullia’s team: infernape, lilligant, vivillon, lanturn, granbull, hitmonchan (all pokémon mentioned to be somehow helpful to people, particularly attractive/used as companions, or, in hitmonchan’s case, having offspring with multiple evolutions [without being basic and just giving her an eevee])

karasu’s team: honchkrow [starter], pidgeot, staraptor, talonflame, garchomp, lucario (he mostly has flying type pokémon because yayoi kept giving him rejected gym pokémon to keep for himself; lucario and garchomp are the only ones he catches himself)

then we have a lot of recurring characters, some who appear more than others (ex nagi has a lot of appearances because he’s my goat whereas hiori and isagi don’t have as many)

yukimiya wants to be a battler like the rest but because of his frail health and eyes he’s forced to be a coordinator and model however he’s actually quite talented at battling so he helps mc in training and move efficiency and whatnot whenever he sees her

team: breloom [starter] , steelix, alakazam, noivern, manectric, azumarill

nagi had like 0 interest in going on a journey or doing anything difficult but a fire burns his house down and leaves him an orphan and the only way he can get any governmental assistance/literally SURVIVE is by becoming a trainer so that’s what he does

team: arcanine [starter], goodra, reuniclus, clefable, whimsicott, snorlax

reo is the son of the current champion and he’s training to be a gym leader and eventually possibly replace his father as the champion

team: gallade [starter], mawile, persian, flygon, cinccino, florges

chigiri used to be a very famous rapidash racer but he has a very bad accident and injures his leg to the point that he can’t race anymore so he also has to become a trainer in order to earn money

team: off-the-track rapidash [starter], zebstrika, dragonite, gorebyss, liepard, pyroar

hiori literally just becomes a trainer so his parents leave him alone and he can have some peace and quiet; i’m thinking he appears in some kind of fossil-related side quest hence why he gets a fossil pokémon

team: kingdra [starter], metagross, nidoqueen, luxray, aurorus, swanna

isagi is completing the trials to become an elite four member so he kinda runs into mc and co every now and then?? he seems to have known barou in the past so mc tries to talk to him about it but isagi doesn’t know what happened to barou; or, if he does, he’s elusive about it and refuses to answer mc’s questions

team: charizard, lapras, stoutland, machamp, leafeon, raichu

aiku is in training to be a pokémon professor and is currently doing research for his thesis about whether pokémon are capable of forming familial bonds on the level that humans do or if it’s more instinctive pack-bonding for them

team: aiku doesn’t really have a team per se since he mostly does catch and release for research purposes but he does have an arbok that stays with him permanently and is his partner in crime and rizz

um…anyways…that was a lot as you can see…LMAOAOA idk who the endgame would be in terms of a love interest (probably nagi if we’re being real) because the main focus is honestly mc and barou’s sibling relationship ☝🏻 i also don’t know who tullia would end up if anyone i just wanted another female main-ish character so it’s not just mc with a bunch of boys 😭

HELP I LITERALLY HAVE A FORMULA FOR REJECTING GUYS tried true and perfected so feel free to steal!! i just say “hey i’m flattered you thought to ask me and i really admire you for speaking up but i’m not interested in you like that. i hope we can still be friends!” (i ghost immediately afterwards though ngl) that only works if they’re straight up abt it otherwise if they’re being sneaky i just ignore/ghost or make up a boyfriend/parental excuse 😭 i have made some opps sadly but for the most part it’s worked out well!!

EEK tbh i’m used to watching some very crunchy animes and gaslighting myself into finding characters attractive so i think my mind just automatically yassified him…like i see the vision and the vision is hot enough that i’m like ok yeah he’s hot LDFHJSJS

[therealprismcat]

WIP tag game!

tagged by @wario-speedwagon ty for tagging me!!

Rules: In a new post, post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it!

here's a ton of shit from my notes app and docs. some of them have actual words done and others are just outlines or vague story ideas that havent been started or even outlined yet, but i vaguely know where im going with them

"doll" (thats it i couldnt figure out what to name it) like half an outline, a bit of maths to figure out the timeline but thankfully it has an actual storyline.

"flowers for the sick and dead" a wip one-shot ive been working on for over a month and still am not even halfway through with

"all good things ch2" my wip longfic (probably.. dont even know where its going) thats on hiatus pretty much because it confuses me.

"get out of my house" unfinished omori crackfic from almost a year ago

"fbc au" no outline, no words written down, but its been through so much and i do want to talk about it

"phasmophobia" one shot turned into a fic with many little chapters instead. no words written down but like half an outline.

"blackjack au" multichapter fic with nothing but half a story going for it rn

"ouroboros" old fic idea that got rebranded into something completely different, but i kept the old ver because i still wanna write it one day

"the incredibly strange little girl ch3" literally just the third chapter of one of my crackfics i for some reason havent finished yet

i wish i had more mutuals who wrote fanfics, so im just going to tag a bunch of my mutuals who have fanfic author vibes and hope im right. if i didnt tag you tho, feel free to join in anyway @p13rr0t @jpuff9 @fastrainbowdas @puppetkirbee

[okthatsgreat]

hiii okay i just started reading opddmh and i was wondering if you have any thoughts about komaru and toko's relationship and udg in relation to the virtual reality au you're writing? :3c they are so precious to me and if u dont have any thoughts on it thats fine!! just wondering <3 have a good day!!

OOOO DEFINITELY !!! nothing too complex or thought out but ive definitely got some thoughts on it >:)

first things first ultra despair girls is most certainly some kind of spinoff in this universe! so its not considered a main storyline/killing game however it is still on ongoing series! i imagine after 53 seasons the danganronpa timeline has been seriously fucked up and udg is absolutely one of the main reasons its so wonky, you can IMAGINE all of the conspiracy youtube videos trying to piece that shit together lmfaooooo. but yep udg is a running spinoff series starring toko, komaru, and the warriors of hope (who are teenagers in this au at this point!!). it also features a range of other villains and side characters that were introduced later on :] udg definitely isnt as popular nor is it as consistent in its production as the main danganronpa story is (while danganronpa has at least one season per year, udg has one maybe every three), but it still gets a whole lot of views !! which means toko and komaru are unfortunately in it for the long haul </3

they live seperate from each other however they're over at each others apartments so often that they basically live together LMFAO. they rely on each other SO so heavily. i personally think they have romantic feelings somewhere underneath their fear of losing each other to the mental trauma of danganronpa however there is NO WAY danganronpa would ever let them be a couple. the most theyre allowed to do is queerbait ghfdsjkghjkdf. if they confirm anything between the pair they are destroying an entire market of fans they can profit off of and also likely losing hella sponsorship money. its extremely difficult navigating a relationship like that, where they have become so heavily codependent on each other not only because their wellbeing relies on the other being healthy and well but also because they've grown so close it's impossible to imagine a future where the other isnt involved somehow. everything danganronpa has put them through, it has usually been TOGETHER, which means they've bonded through those experiences. is that healthy? absolutely the fuck it is not however there is no time or space to navigate that or to spend time away from each other (even if they wanted to, which they don't)!!

the pair stay relatively close with the warriors of hope-- or at least komaru does lmfaooo. like i said before the warriors of hope are teenagers at this point (honestly theyre probably mius age!! which sparks a lot of hypothetical interactions LMAO) so they dont really need babysitters or anything like that but because there are not very many people who could possibly understand what they've gone through they tend to stick together!! a few of them, at least. i imagine nagisa is a lot more distant and kotoko probably has other friends she talks to a whole ton :] people that arent constant walking reminders of her current and past traumas lol

komaru also doesnt talk to makoto as often anymore! they kind of keep in touch and definitely see each other at press conferences and all that, but the relationship has become somewhat strained. its a bit awkward knowing they arent actually related!! theyre still kind to each other and care about each other like actual siblings but its hard not to feel sad around the other unfortunately :(

and toko definitely doesnt talk to byakuya much anymore besides the occasional promotional material LMFAO. they dont despise each other but both have done a lot of growing and a lot of that included distancing themselves from each other

SORRY IF THAT WAS MORE THAN YOU ASKED FOR!!! THANK YOU <33

[toskarin]

hi! im going to make the Attempt to finish the fate route tonight - ive been playing every night but im starting extra early so that hopefully ill be able to finish it (although its. Gearing Up For The End, so i wouldnt be surprised if its hours more than i have set aside the time for aidhfiuashf).

i have strong feelings at the moment!! i think the caster fight was cool although,,, didnt end up being about caster, which is unfortunate aiusfhiuashf. a lot of those like, screentime casualties im ok with just on the grounds that theres a whole nother third of the game for them to do shit, yknow?

the second archer is really cool! my Gamble is that he is gilgamesh, just bc i know that he is another big fate guy, even though i dont have a face to attach it to like i did with arturia.

i think kiritsugu is really fun from what ive had explained to me by the shitty priest - i bet a lot is like, "wow thatll be fun when i one day get to fate zero", but he seems really interesting and fucked up! im excited to know why he blew up the grail, and like,,,, this may be a situation where im Dead Fucking Wrong, and i would also not be super surprised if im like. running off of spoilers i dont entirely remember from years ago ; but i Think that like. the grail is a monkeys paw situation, and that it will either fuck with your wish, or just outright Not Grant It.

im really excited, but also like. aisufhiusafh - part of me is more excited to play through the other two routes? i always hear people talk about UBW and heavens feel (i hope those are the names) more than the fate route, and im SURE some of that is just that the default route is almost never as interesting as the other two, but in my head theyre gonna both be Xtra fucked up!

after F/SN is done i plan to get through hollow ataraxia which seems neat from the little i know, and then watch zero, and watch apocrypha (which apparently astolfo is from??) - i know theres more, but. i would like to get to tsukihime Someday, yknow asdfhasuidf

(sorry for this long and kind of silly to send ask - i hope youre doing alright!!!)

I'm currently recovering from surgery rn so I may be a bit short on words, but I really do appreciate the check-ins!

also you're definitely approaching some of the best content in the story!

as for post fate, it's worth keeping in mind that Zero is "sort of an au" (because of some big creative liberties urobuchi took) so it's kind of best when taken as its own thing. as for Apocrypha, it's a completely different timeline and generally isn't as good, but Astolfo's presence (and Mordred's!) make it a lot more watchable

happy reading! the second archer plotline is a ton of fun

[axemetaphor]

im definitely not ripping off my friend by making a list of au ideas i have no siree //gonna slap this under a readmore cause i. well i say a lot. all of the time. i tried so hard to format this Good but tumblr fucked me up i am so sorry

so first-off i know i already have one WIP AU (Auckland) on ao3 so i wont talk about That one cause like. spoilers. i actualyl have it like 80% created so its likely gonna truly get finished for once and i dont wanna ruin shit

the other one ive posted about is something me and ben (catgirlrepublic) have worked on together its not at all close to done or anything but it's. a fun little crossover. Between jdate and my fuckinuhm. Original characters story “Untitled Villains Project”. the sketches of the comic version ive started is actually my pinned post 👉👈 its like the first chunk of the story, i think half of part 1? yea.

Tldr john fucking Somehow is able t oget into contact with a certain curious scientist from another reality who’d just love to study the Soy Sauce, most certainly not for her own nefarious purposes

John and Dave meet up with the scientist, her name is Boss, and her lab assistant, Toxic, and after a bit of a preliminary Vibe Check where john determines her trustworthy (which Dave doesnt agree with,) the two agree to be taken to the world UVP is set in. from there they stay in Boss’s lab (big old fucking abandoned military lab). John and Toxic are fast friends due to mutual love-of-chaos. John n Dave get to fuckin, camp out on an air mattress.

The day after they arrive, the two get split up, not exactly intentionally; big plot points of UVP are liek. Fueled by Boss sending Toxic to go fetch her “research materials,” which are usually important artifacts

Fuckin side note i guess i have to explain my dumb bullshit: Boss’s, uh, field of expertise so to speak is actually fckin, basically the scientific study of magic and superpowers n shit like that. This shit’s all real in that world. Toxic’s got fuckin superpowers, so do 4 other main characters, whatever. It’s got a bit to do with spirituality, iss Boss’s hypothesis. So she has Toxic fetch important artifacts that might have “energies” to them. The thing is actually way more fuckin complictated than that, this is just Boss’s initial hypothesis.

Motherfucking anyways. So Boss gives Toxic a job to do, and John get excited about how Cool that sounds, and ends up going with Toxic, leaving Boss and Dave alone. Neither is thrilled about this. But Dave and Boss get to have a bit of conversation (while Toxic and John are off bonding and having a good time) and come to a… mutual grudging understanding of some kind. They still dont like each other though lmao

Theres gonna be deeper shit going on but we havent sorted it out yet/tbh havent like Written For It in a while but i still like thinking about it a lot lol

Also pretty sure our endgame is john and dave steal toxic and bring them back with em lmao boss is kind of not nice and toxic would most certainly be better off in Undisclosed. Actually theyd fucking love it. Theyd become a local cryptid im sure. Undisclosed’s mothman is a teleporting spike baby.

I have. Another crossover AU that i might. Post something about for halloween? Maybe? If i have it finished?

Crosses over into, you guessed it, another one of my original-character projects. God, am i vain or something?

I promise this is just because i think blue and dave should get to team up to beat up some monsters

Quick briefing on my fuckinuh. Original character story, this one doesnt have a name (yet? Idk lol my work never actually goes anywhere sso who gives a shit). It centers around two grim reapers, Red (26, bi woman) and Blue (22, aroace agender asshole). In this reality or whatever, grim reapers function kind of like low-level office workers. They get told who’s going to die + when by some middle-management types, and upper management only involve themselves when punishment needs to be doled out. These Higher-Ups can be seen as analogous to Korrok; they’re decidedly not human, never were, and fucking terrifyingly powerful. Additionally, grim reapers are sort of .. designed to be “background noise” people. In reality theyre supernatural beings and, uh, look Real Fuckin Weird (the whole deal has a neon aesthetic im terrible at drawing uwu) but most humans just perceive them like extras in a movie. A body’s there but the camera’s not focused on it.

To the narrative: the shit starts when Red n Blue get relocated to Undisclosed. Relocation is something that just happens every now and then to reapers; they usually work in teams, but they get split up into different cities to avoid any strong bonds forming (a counter-union strategy from the Higher-Ups).

Red, Blue, John and Dave end up running into each other for the first time in a McDonalds where John n Dave are getting some 4am “hey, we just survived another horrific monster fight” celebration burgers. John and Dave are the only two people who can see how… strange Red and Blue are. Nobody else notices.

John unintentionally pisses Blue off, leading to Blue whacking him upside the head with a dildo bat. They all four get kicked out of McDonald’s. Dave and Red both are less than thrilled

Blue and John end up resolving their differences, somehow. Red and Dave briefly bond over their dumbass best friends being, well, dumbasses. They all part ways amicably.

somehow-or-other (idk yet) they end up running into each other a few more times, and eventually john invites them over to his place, and the four (plus Amy now!) get to know each other a little better

while there, Blue gets a text about some guy who's gonna die and John offers to drive them to where that's gonna go down. they take him up on the offer and get to have a bit of one-on-one conversation

after that ordeal though Blue has had Enough of people and bails, leaving John to head home alone

theres a sort of mirror-development going on with the five of em. Red, John, and Amy would all like everyone to get along, though theyre a bit tentative about it (John moreso than the other two, actually, jsut cause. well Red n Blue could still be Sauce Monsters). Dave and Blue on the other hand do Not like people enough for this shit, and Dave's not unconvinced theyre Sauce Monsters. he will not trust them until proven he should

the story's kinda nebulous but i got an idea for some Shit going down that involves both Sauce Monsters and also the Higher-Ups to have some fuckin absolute chaos go down.

Oops! All Trans

Everybody is transgender. Everyone

Ive actually workshopped this one both with ben (catgirlrepublic) and ghost (ghost-wannabe) lmao its a fun lil concept ive had from the get-go cause i mean. What’s an internet tran gonna do other than hit all their favourite media with the Everyone’s Trans beam

Dave transitioned post-high school and faked his death for it. People go missing in Undisclosed all the damned time, after all. He moved to the next city over, transitioned fully, then came back as a completely new man. Yes i know this doesnt exactly fit with the “everyone knows David from high school” thing alright, hush.

Anytime anyone brings up John’s old best friend (pre-transition Dave) John throws an entire fit like an overdramatic grieving widow. Full-on sobbing “why would you bring her up?! I miss her so much—” to the point that people just stop bringing up because Jesus Christ That Sure Is Uncomfortable KJHGFDS.

This is a scheme he and Dave came up with prior to Dave leaving, though Dave hadnt exactly anticipated John putting on this much of a performance about it— but it’s stopped Dave from ever having tto hear his deadname again, so hey.

Amy transitioned sometime in middle school/early high school. Her family was super supportive and loved her a ton and most people just know her as Amy. she was super shy her whole life really so. Yeah. people just dont think to bring it up lmao also i Feel Like big jim would absolutely wallop anyone who gave her trouble of any kind

John’s nonbinary (genderfluid specifically) and not exactly Interested in transitioning ? like hes fine with how he is. mostly.

he came out to Dave in high school but hes not out to anyone else exactly. Maybe his bandmates. Probably any other trans person in Undisclosed knows, too, cause theyre safe to tell lmao. Johns mostly a “he/him out of convenience” kinda nb who’s cool with any pronouns but does prefer they/them most. Dave and Amy use they/them when the trio are alone

Also this is a totally self-indulgent caveat that i think would be great, Dave’s actually agender but because he's transmasc and transitioned when he thought there were really only two options, and being Boy at least felt less weird than being Girl, he just kind of assumed he was a dude. It’s only through a lot of (like fucking years and years hes probably in his 30s/40s when he puts 2 and 2 together on this one) talks about gender with John that he realizes he actually feels like No Gender. Masc aesthetic with none gender.

I Just Think It’d Be Neat Is All Okay

Also Amy came out to Dave about being trans early on in them seeing each other and his response was to get very nervous before blurting out “me too” and then just being too embarrassed to talk about it for the rest of the day. Hes got a lot of hangups on talking about it actually it takes years for him to get comfortable in that

by contrast when Amy comes out to John about it his response is to yell “EYYY ME TOO” and give her a big ol hug lmao

I think itd be neatt if Amy ran a like. Transfem help/advice blog on tumblr. Kind of helped-with by John who can give her transfem nb insight for certain asks. I also just think that would be neat.

Cowboy AU - i put this one last cause its got drawings to it actually. Theyll be at the bottom

Basically just. Hey you ever watched a western. I think they look neat

This is another one me n ben have come up with lol

The soy sauce and all that shit still exist, im not sure where korrok fits in yet but ill figure it out

Theres no real like solid narrative yet ? but heres the barebones of everybody’s arcs.

John

Johns an absolute troublemaker, Of Course. Hes wanted in several towns for absolutely stupid shit. Hes a loner who shows up, causes chaos, gets drunk, does some drugs, runs away if people get too mad at him

He definitely had the same kind of deal with the soy sauce as in canon— he was at some kind of party, somebody offered it, he took it cause why the fuck wouldnt he, now he can see monsters and shit

Hes kind of a mooch also. Like. dont let him stay in your barn man he’ll never fucking leave and drink all your booze.

He runs into Dave when they happen to just, cross paths in the same town. the bullshit John stirs up ends up involving Dave in a way that makes it seem like it's his fault too, and they both get run out of town

after that he just tags along after Dave. hes decided this guy's Cool he wants to stick around. Dave is pissed at first, but not enough to shoot him or anything, and eventually, John grows on him

Dave

Dave also is a loner but unlike John hes simply so fucking awkward and bad with people. He doesnt feel like he belongs anywhere so he just travels

He’s the stereotypical Lone Ranger tbh. He wanders from town to town, solving their problems, though hed deny its out of any moral obligation (it kinda is, a little bit, tbh. He does like feeling useful). He shows up, fixes things, leaves. He's kind of a legend but most people think he's hiding something dark. other people jsut know him as that guy who farted real loud in the middle of the saloon and promptly skipped town out of sheer embarrassment. you know how it goes with Dave

He ends up involved with the Soy Sauce when a snake (not Actually a snake,) bites him. The snake’s more like the wig-monsters, really. Anyway, it injects him with the soy sauce, he fucking trips balls in the middle of the desert, he can see monsters now

He runs into John and shit goes tits-up, as said, but they become traveling buddies after that. he'd never say so, but he's glad for the company, actually. it's nice. hes not used to companionship but he feels a strange kind of easiness hanging out with John....

not sure how the Monster Dave concept will like fit in to this reality but like. trust me i want it in here. I'll Figure It Out.

Amy

Amy’s been living in a town John and Dave end up passing through and she is very curious about these two new Handsome Strangers who claim to fight monsters and just kinda. Persistently tags along til they let her join for real

Her family’s all dead, unfortunately, just like in canon, and she’s been living alone for a few years before meeting John n Dave. she had nothing left in that town to stay for, she'd been fantasizing about escaping on wild adventures for a long time and this felt a little like a dream come true. (Dave still gives her a spiel about how Difficult it is, but really, her fantasies were pretty grounded-in-reality already. i jsut think thats how she is, yknow?)

Shes the first person to react to the whole “we see monsters” shit with a kind of “oh, okay. neat” kind of response lmao

John and Dave fix whatever the fuck is up with her town (maybe that’s where the Korrok shit can fit, who knows) and Amy ends up being integral to that. After, she insists they take her with them because “they need her now” and Dave just cant really say no. John too is very much "the more the merrier!" and hes actually glad to have another person along he loves people lmao

At the start she has long hair but after she joins them she chops it short with a knife for convenience

also she still is an amputee. justt. idk. it was a wagon/stagecoach accident rather than a car accident lmao. just to clarify since i hadnt mentioned it, i wouldnt rob her of her ghost hand or yknow. all of the significance to her character that Missing A Hand has. although also now im going to have to research what was used as painkillers way-back-when, but im betting shes still got, like, her pain pills, they probably had those, maybe i wouldnt have to try too hard there. old timey medicine could be WACK though,

Shitload

Yeah hes in tthis shit mostly cause i liked designing his cowboy self lmao

Hes a kid (like 16, 17, technically i think in those days that was more Young Man than Kid but whatever. Hes Young i mean.) who got possessed by the Worms out in the desert and, by his family’s perception, just went missing!

Hes also a wanderer, but he ended up at the same town john and dave met in, at that same time, and starts following them after, already aware of who/what they are.

He keeps his face covered 24/7. actually he covers a Majority of his self for reasons. kinda want him to be a slightly more horrifying Worm Entity rather than human idk,

I kinda dont have much for this boy yet sorry Shitload

images !

with some editing notes for me cause im doing a very specific aesthetic with this lmao. i might change some lil details/colours though ...... idk

im also kinda 🤔 about shitload's colour palette. i want things assoicated w the sauce to be black'n'red predominantly but i think his palette might mirror dave's too closely. also im working on a korrok design i jsut am too busy to draw it now

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Rhaella, Rhaenys, Aegon VI and Jon Snow?

Rhaella Targaryen

Sexuality Headcanon: Straight but after Aerys she wants everyone to stay 28763685748674967 miles away from her so she doesnt engage in sexual or romantic relationships 

Gender Headcanon: cis woman 

A ship I have with said character: Rhaella/Being alive, Rhaella/Beating Aerys to death with her bare hands. In an AU i think Rhaella/Doran could be interesting given that they’re only a few years apart in age.  

A BROTP I have with said character: Rhaella/The Princess of Dorne/Joanna Lannister. I wish we could have seen more of their friendship. I like to think the princess of Dorne was the cool older sister Rhaella and Joanna never had. 

A NOTP I have with said character: Rhaella/Aerys. 

A random headcanon: Rhaegar got his talent for music from Rhaella. She has a beautiful singing voice and used to sing duets with him as a child. In the begining of Aery’s reign before everything went downhill Rhaella was a patroness of the arts.

In a modern AU rhaenys is the only one of Rhaella’s grandchildren that will go to the opera with her. They often do girls nights out together. Dany doesnt like the opera but she joins in when they go to art galleries and plays.

General Opinion over said character: Rhaella is my canon oc and she didnt die. I can confirm her Elia and Rhaenys are on a beach in the summer islands somewhere sipping sangria and having a grand old time away from their loser husbands.

Rhaenys Targaryen

Sexuality Headcanon: Bicon. Distinguished bi on the outside, disaster bi on the inside. 

Gender Headcanon: cis woman 

A ship I have with said character: Rhaenys/anyone who treats her well. Rhaenys/Willas, Rhaenys/Robb, Rhaenys/Edmure Tully

A BROTP I have with said character: Rhaenys/Viserys. In a modern AU theyre like Troy and Abed from community complete with the fake morning show. 

A NOTP I have with said character: Rhaenys/Jon where Rhaenys is one of Jon’s harem of women. I’ve only seen ONE fic that approaches Rhaenys/Jon in a sensible way that is respectful to Rhaenys so @ that one fic writer good on you.

A random headcanon: Rhaegar named Rhaenys after himself but Rhaenys likes to pretend she was named after Rhaella. Rhaenys is the only child out of Rhaegar’s three children to inherit his exact eye colour. Rhaenys loves dancing but unlike Aegon she prefers slow dances like the waltz.

General Opinion over said character: I will never get over Rhaenys. Her death makes me incredibly sad and I think the story would have been so much better if she lived. She’s alive in my heart tho and is my canon OC along with Rhaella and Elia.

Aegon VI

Sexuality Headcanon: Straight. Aegon VI is the token straight kid out of his siblings. 

Gender Headcanon: cis man 

A ship I have with said character: Aegon/Shireen, Aegon/Margaery, Aegon/Arianne when its done well

A BROTP I have with said character: Aegon/Rhaenys ultimate Brotp. They’d be super close in any AU. Rhaenys sort of mothers Aegon and in turn anyone who even looks at Rhaenys in the wrong way goes on Aegons shit list. Aegon/Arianne

A NOTP I have with said character: Aegon VI/Elia Sand. I hate the fanon idea that Aegon will marry Arianne and secretley lust after Elia and mistreat Ari like Rhaegar mistreated Elia. Literally what would this contribute to the story? Also Elia is FOURTEEN leave her alone.

A random headcanon: Once JonCon got drunk and morose told Aegon a little bit about Elia in between going on about Rhaegar and said that Aegon had almond shaped eyes like Elia. Whenever Aegon misses his mother he looks in the mirror at his eyes and tries imagine what she looked like.

Aegon has a decent singing voice but prefers dancing to singing. His favourite dances are the fast ones such as jigs and reels. 

General Opinion over said character: Aegon is not evil or bad. He is a 16 year old who has normal levels of arrogance compared to other noble boys in Westeros. I love Aegon and I hope he is Elia’s son.

Jon Snow

Sexuality Headcanon: Bi

Gender Headcanon: cis man but i’ve seen convincing headcanons for Jon being trans. Also that post that points out that Jon’s deadname is Visenya.

A ship I have with said character: Jon/Satin gang rise up. Pray tell Jon, how do you know that Satin has soft skin 👀 👀 👀

A BROTP I have with said character: the canon brotp we get with him and Sam. Also Jon/Robb and Jon/Arya are more canon brotps.

A NOTP I have with said character: Jon/his harem of women. These fics innundate the Elia and Rhaenys tags on Ao3 and i hate them so much. Every time i see one i do 1 pushup and i will one day be extremely buff.

Jon/Val is a bit of a notp for me because I think Val represents the normal life of a legitimate son that Jon so longs for but for me it’d be kind of boring at the end if he ended up lord of winterfell with a wife and 2.5 kids. Also dont think Val would love living like that.

A random headcanon: In my Rhaegar wins AU Jon, Rhaenys, and Aegon get raised together in the Red Keep (but its a very unhappy and stressful situation for everyone. They are not 1 big happy family). Jon and Rhaenys resent Rhaegar in particular and when they’re kids Rhaenys gets the bright idea to prank their father and put a ton of salt in his wine. Both of them dont realize salt in large quantities is an emetic and Rhaegar gulps the whole thing down in one go and starts vomiting everywhere. Jon and Rhaenys freak out and are staring across the dinner table like this wondering if theyve become the youngest murderers in Westeros:

General Opinion over said character: Canon Jon is great and as ive said before he’s an emo 16 year old doing his best. Fanon Jon though? I am looking away. I pretend I do not see him.

Thanks for asking!

[write-havoc]

This Is How I Disappear Ch. 8

Summary: A girl named Chuck finds herself in the exact place she doesn't want to be, living with violent men in a desolate nursing home. After her former gym teacher finds her, will he be the savior she was looking for?

Fandom: The Walking Dead AU

Pairing: Negan/Original Female Character

Status: Completed (story continues in The Flame Is Gone, The Fire Remains)

Contains: swearing, violence, sexual assault, blood, smut

Readers 18+ of age only

Masterlists in my bio

“Ung. Ah!” Chuck wakes up to a searing pain in her left side.

  Oh god! What’s happening?! What’s wrong with me?! I need Negan.

 “Doc! She's awake!” Negan calls out as he jumps up from the chair beside Chuck’s bed and leans over her. “Hey, baby girl,” he says gently as he strokes her hair.

“Negan? Ung!” Chuck croaks out as her face contorts in pain.

“Give her something, doc! She’s in fuckin’ pain!”

“Charlotte?” Carson says from the other side of the bed. “I'm going to give you some medicine now. You'll probably get a bit drowsy,” Carson readies a syringe and injects it into Chuck’s IV.

“I'm hurt… Negan?” Tears stream from Chuck’s eyes as she waits for the medicine to take effect.

“I'm here, baby girl.” Negan's gentle words echo in Chuck’s ears and she drifts off into unconsciousness.

 Chuck wakes up some time later to a dimly lit room. She still feels the effects of whatever medicine is in her system, but it’s faded enough that she can keep her eyes open and her pain is still manageable. She turns her head to the right to see Negan sleeping uncomfortably, half in a chair beside the bed and half on her mattress. His head is right beside hers, close enough that she can feel his breath on her face. She stretches her right arm out slowly and lightly touches Negan’s cheek with the back of her fingers, enjoying the feel of his facial hair. He takes in a sharp breath and lifts his head up quickly.

“Chuck?” he whispers. “Do you need the doctor?”

“No. I don't think so.”

“You're in the infirmary.”

“I see that.” She chuckles slightly at his obvious statement.

“Do you remember what happened?”

“Yeah. I think so. Two men… -the man who was in here and his friend- attacked me and stole medicine. Did you catch them?” She looks at Negan meekly.

“Yeah. We got them and we got the fuckin’ drugs back, too.”

“Good. I'm sorry I couldn’t stop them-“

“Don't fuckin’ do that. Don't blame yourself. You didn't do anything wrong.”

“Okay.” Her voice cracks as tears well up in her eyes. She doesn’t want to cry in front of Negan, but she can’t really control her emotions at the moment.

“It's okay.” Negan hugs her as much as he can from their positions. “I'm sorry I didn't protect you, baby girl.”

“No. It's not your fault, Negan,” she says as he pulls away from her. She moves her left arm to caress his cheek. “Ah!” She cries out as pain shoots through her left side at the movement.

“Careful! Don't pull your fucking stitches.”

“They… stabbed me?”

“Yeah. You almost fuckin’ bled out. I had to give you some of my blood. So you got fuckin’ high octane shit running through your veins, now.”

She laughs, but it causes her pain. “Ouch! Don't make me laugh.”

He smiles at her for several moments, but his face turns sour as if a bad thought comes into his mind. “I need you outta this fuckin’ bed,” he says as he puts his head down, his breathing heavy.

“What do you mean, Negan? Are you okay?”

“It's just… fuck.” He rakes a hand through his hair and scratches his neck. “Lucille. She was in and out of the fucking hospital for months before the end. Tests. Treatments… I stayed with her during it all. Saw her wither away to nothing in a fucking hospital bed. This shit… Seeing you like this is, uh… bringing back some bad fucking memories.”

“I'm sorry, Negan.”

He sits in silence for a few moments. “You know, she was the first one I saw. I watched her turn into one of those fucking dead things. Right before my eyes. And I didn't even have the fucking balls to end her. I just fuckin’ left the hospital.” He clears his throat and repositions himself in his seat. “Shit was bad everywhere at that time. I hadn't really even fuckin’ noticed. My world was already fucking ending, so I didn't give a shit about everyone else. I don't even remember what I did after that. I just fuckin’ wandered around. Somehow surviving.”

“I'm glad you did. Survive.”

“That makes one of us.”

“Please don't say that,” Chuck’s voice cracks as she struggles to get the words out.

“Fuck. Don't be upset.” Negan leans back over her, resting his hand on her cheek. “I never want to see you get fuckin’ hurt... By anything. Even me.” He swipes away a tear from her cheek. “You need to know that after Lucille… I changed. I had to or I would fucking kill myself one way or another. I had to stop… feeling for people. People are just a fuckin’ resource to me. Nothing more.”

“That's not true, Negan. You saved me.”

“I’m not a good man, Chuck. The fuckin’ shit I've done…” He backs away, shaking his head.

“You're not perfect.”

He chuckles dryly in response.

“I'm not, either,” she continues. “No one is. We've all done things to survive in this world.”

“I haven't done things just to fuckin’ survive.”

“You've been nothing but good to me.”

He laughs humorlessly. “I didn’t stop this from fuckin’ happening.” He gestures to her bed. “I threw you in a fuckin’ cell when all you needed was a little help.”

“You didn't have a choice with that. I understand why you had to do that.” She holds her hand out, prompting him to take it. He hesitates, but accepts it after a moment. “You saved me. You’re my friend . Even if you don’t want to say that. And you’re taking care of me right now. You have no idea how much all that means to me.”

“I'll fuck it up somehow. You'll hate me eventually.” He shakes his head at his own words and withdraws his hand from hers.

“Maybe. Maybe not. But I don't hate you right now. So don't worry about it.” She smiles as she speaks causing him to chuckle.

“How the fuck are you half dead in a hospital bed yet you are the one fuckin’ consoling me?”

“I’m awesome.” She pauses. “And you're an attention whore that makes everything about you at all times, I guess.” They both laugh. “Ouch! I said don't make me laugh.”

“Sorry, baby girl, but you were laughing at your own fucking joke.”

 ——— Negan’s POV ———

 I leave the infirmary and go to my office with Simon when the doc came in to watch over Chuck. He better not fuck shit up again. He's on thin fuckin’ ice. Besides, I got fuckin’ shit to do now. Namely beating the fuck outta those thieving motherfuckers.

“What are we doing with the guys in the cells?” Simon asks.

I’m fuckin’ thinking it over. They're gonna die, that's for fuckin’ sure. But I want to draw it out. Take my fuckin’ time with it. Make a fuckin’ spectacle.

“Gather everyone in the courtyard.”

“Alright. You got a plan?”

“Yup. Those fuckers are gonna fucking know just how bad they fucked up.”  

 An hour later and everyone is outside just waiting for the show to begin.

“Alrighty, ladies and gentlemen. I know you've been waiting, so let's bring out the main attraction!” I yell out in my showman’s voice. My saviors drag the two pieces of shit before me and put them on their knees, facing the crowd. They’re fuckin’ crying and shit already.

“Now,” I start to pace around in front of them, looking over the crowd, “we are here because these two men decided to break the rules. Now, I know that every-fuckin’-one here knows that the rules are fuckin’ serious shit. Everyone,” I pause and point Lucille at the men, “but these motherfuckers. And they're gonna find out real fuckin’ quick. Just as a reminder for those who may be slow as fuck, why are the rules so goddamn important?”

“The rules keep us alive!” they all say in unison.

Fuck, I love that shit.

“That's right!” I stand back for a second and let that shit sink in. “But these fuckers decided to break the rules, anyway. And when you break the rules, you get fucking punished. Now, I don't like having to do this. I really don't. But, apparently, y'all need a refresher on what happens when you break. my. rules!” I scream the last part. Really pound it in. I wait a second and rub my face before moving on.

“These idiots right here, didn't break just one rule. No! They broke a few of them. Fuckin’ serious ones, too.” I quickly bring Lucille up to one of the guy’s faces to point at him. “What rule did you break?”

“I- I'm sorry. I didn't-“

I interrupt that fucker with a fist to the fucking jaw, causing him to fall to the side. I grab a fistful of his hair to bring him back up and crouch down to look directly into his fuckin’ ugly ass face.

“I didn't fuckin’ ask if you were goddamn sorry. I asked what rule you broke, you fucking dumb motherfucker! So tell me, what rule did you fucking break?!” I yell as I harshly push his face away from me and stand up to my full height.

“I- We stole p-pills.”

“That's right! You stole fucking medicine. A whole fuck ton of it. Medicine that you all,” I gesture to the crowd, “work hard to use every fucking day. That is life and death shit, and these fucks decided to just take it. Without fucking earning it.” I move to point to the other guy. “What rule did you break?”

“We… tried to leave.”

“Yes. You tried to leave. There are fuckin’ reasons why everyone here needs fucking permission to leave the goddamn gates. It is dangerous as fuck out there. There are herds of dead fucks that want to eat your fuckin’ gooey insides! And people that would slit your fuckin’ throats the first second they got the chance! My saviors know about them. They know where those dangers are. They know how to safely get around out there. That's why y’all need permission and a fucking escort outside these walls.” I gesture to the crowd. “To protect y'all from all that nasty shit!” I turn my back on the men and face the crowd. “That just makes fuckin sense, doesn't it? So what am I supposed to think when someone leaves without goddamn permission? Are they fleeing some fuckin’ crime they committed here? Are they working with another fuckin’ group and selling out our goddamn secrets so we’re vulnerable to a fuckin’ attack? How am I supposed to know? So the only reason I can figure that someone would leave without permission, without the safety of my saviors behind them, is because they are not with us. And if you're not fuckin’ with us, you're against us. And I think everyone here knows what the fuck we do with those who stand against The Sanctuary.”

I turn to face the fucks again, anger written all over my face. “What rule did. you. break,” I growl out.

“H- He hurt the girl,” one of them says quickly, pointing to the other one.

Selling your buddy out now won't fucking save you, prick. You hurt my girl.

“You- both of you, fuckin’ attacked doc’s assistant. Almost fuckin’ killed her.” I turn to pace in front of the crowd. “Now, she's just like you guys. She’s not a savior with fuckin’ survival training. No, she works for points. Does her fuckin’ job. Then one day, these two chucklefucks decide that she's in their way. So they fuckin’ stab her and leave her for dead. They attacked one of our most vulnerable citizens so they could fuckin’ get fuckin’ high! That shit will not stand. Not in my fucking Sanctuary.”

I pause to glare at the men then turn to face the crowd. “Lay these motherfuckers down!” I call out to my saviors. They put the men down on their backs with their arms outstretched. I walk over to them and call out so everyone can hear, “First, I'm gonna take those fuckin’ thieving hands of yours. Just pound the fuck out of them with my girl here,” I indicate Lucille, “until they look like fuckin’ chili con carne.” I pause so I can look at them fuckin’ shaking in their goddamn boots. “Then, I’m gonna bash the shit out of those legs you tried to escape on, starting with your fuckin’ feet and working my way up. See just how far I get before you guys fuckin’ pass out.” Those motherfuckers are white as ghosts, now. “Oh! But that’s not fuckin’ all! I’ll make sure you’re both fuckin’ awake for the the last bit. I'm gonna take my fuckin’ bigass knife, plunge it deep into those fuckin’ bellies of yours, and gut the both of you, nice and fuckin’ slow. Kill you guys real fuckin’ bloody and put you outside the gates on my fence. You'll be more useful out there than you ever were in here, you fucking wastes of fuckin’ space. That sound good with everyone?” Nobody says a fuckin’ word. “Welp. Let’s get to it.”

 ———      ———

 Over the next few days, Chuck recovers in the infirmary. Both Negan and Simon visit her often, dropping off books for her to read and keeping her company. Her pain is intense at first, but everyday it becomes more manageable.

“Dr. Carson said that I could go back to my room today,” Chuck tells Negan after he enters the infirmary for his morning visit.

“You'll be staying in my room to recover,” he says as he takes his usual seat beside her.

“Do I have a choice?”

“No,” he answers matter of factly.

She gives him a disapproving face.

“What the fuck?” Negan exclaims. “What's wrong with staying in my room?”

“Nothing is wrong with it. You just didn't ask me if that's what I wanted. I would've liked to have been consulted on my own living arrangements.”

“You don't want to fucking stay with me?”

“I hadn't really thought about it. I suppose it'll be better. I mean, I won't have to shuffle all the way down the hall to go to the bathroom. And your bed is way comfier than mine.”

“Then what are we waiting for? Let’s get you the fuck outta here. Doc?!” Negan yells impatiently.

“Yes, Negan?” Carson calls out from the examination area.

“Is she good enough to leave right the fuck now?”

“She still needs to take it easy, but she can leave.”

“Come on,” Negan says as he stands, pulling the blanket off of her legs, and putting his hands underneath her.

“What are you doing?” Chuck asks.

“I'm going to carry you.”

“Negan, you need to mind her stitches,” Carson drones as he walks closer to the pair.

“I'm being gentle, fuck. I'm not a complete fuckin’ dumbass.” Negan lifts Chuck up, bridal style, and starts to walk toward the door.

“My medicine,” Chuck says as she points to her pill canister on the little table by the bed.

“Make sure you finish out the bottle of antibiotics. And change the bandage regularly,” Carson picks up the bottle and wound dressings she will need and puts them in a small bag, handing them to her.

“I know. I will.” The pair walk out of the infirmary and head to Negan's room.

“Did doc feed you breakfast?”

“Yeah, I ate. Look, Negan, I think I can walk.”

“Nope. You've said that once before. And I ended up carrying your ass up to my room anyway.”

“This is kinda embarrassing. I don't really want people to see you carrying me through the hallways like a… a damsel in distress… again.”

“Why the fuck do you care what people see?”

“I've managed to fly mostly under the radar here, even though I’m friends with the boss. I kinda want to keep it that way. If people see you carrying me around, they're going to ask me all sorts of questions.”

“No they won't. They see you with me, they'll keep their fuckin’ distance.”

“So then they'll just gossip about me behind my back?”

“Probably.”

“Great.”

“Barely anyone is in the halls right now. Don't get those panties of yours in a twist.”

They enter Negan's bedroom and he carefully sets Chuck back on her feet just inside the door. She looks off to her left and sees a pristine record player along with a large shelf filled with vinyls on the wall past his bed.

“When did that happen?” Chuck says excitedly as she points to the new objects.

“Had this shit brought up yesterday. Thought you might fuckin’ enjoy it when you moved up here.”

Chuck slowly moves toward the shelf, favoring her left side, and starts to look through the albums. “Wow, you have some great music in here. You even have some newer stuff. Where did you get all this?”

“We found one of those fuckin’ hipster record stores not far away,” Negan says as he moves in beside her. “I think I got some of those fuckin’ bands you’ve been yapping about missing so much in here, too, somewhere.”

She looks up at him and smiles. “You actually listen to me when I talk?” she asks sarcastically.

“Occasionally.”

She laughs at him then winces in pain at the movement.

“You good?” he asks.

“Yeah. It only hurts when I laugh. And move. And breathe. And sometimes when I think too hard.” She picks out a record and puts it on the turntable.

“Why didn't the doc give you any pain pills then? You fuckin’ need them,” he says with a disapproving look on his face.

“I don't need them. We should save them for other people that need them more. I’ll be fine, really. Don’t worry. I can always raid your stash of Tylenol if it gets to be too much.” She chortles and sets the needle carefully on the vinyl. The familiar tones of Dark Side of the Moon drift out of the speakers.

Negan listens for a few moments then looks at Chuck with a smirk. “Shit, I never knew you had such good taste in music before. Never pegged you for a classic rock fan.”

“Yeah, I guess we never really talked about it.”

“I knew you were one of those band geek kids-“

“You knew that?” she interrupts.

“Yeah. Why the fuck wouldn't I? I even went to a couple of your concerts.” He pauses to move away from her. “That's why I got you that guitar. I knew you knew how to play it.”

“I never saw you at our concerts…”

“You're just not that fucking observant, I guess.” He jokes and walks across the room.

“Hey!” she yells out, feigning offense.

He gives her a wink. “I gotta get some shit done,” he says moving toward the door, “so I'll see you for fuckin’ dinner. I'll get the kitchen to cook us up something special.”

“Okay.”

“I'm leaving a radio here for you. If you need any-fuckin’-thing, call me on it,” he calls out from the doorway as he points to the radio sitting on his coffee table.

“Okie dokie. Bye.” She gives him a wave as he leaves the room.

 ——— Negan’s POV ———

 “Any people we fucking find get screened at the western outpost first. If they pan out, they come here.”

I finish up my meeting about the future of this place with the saviors. We’ve had to venture out further trying to find more supplies. All the places around us are fucking tapped out for necessities. And I don’t want to have to rely too heavily on what the communities under me give us. If they don’t provide then we’d be fucked and I’m not risking that.

We're going to have to start producing shit on our own pretty soon. We need fuckin’ craftsmen and shit. I instruct my men to start bringing in any stragglers they find. We haven’t brought in too many new fuckin’ people in a while because it’s fuckin’ dangerous. We’ve been fuckin’ burned before. But we need people that know how to do fuckin’ things and there must be some of those out there still. I just hope my men are good fucking judges of character and don’t bring in any fuckin’ psychopaths.

I dismiss my saviors, but tell Simon to hold back.

“What’s up, boss.” Simon replies.

“I need you to do something with me.”

“What do you need?”

“Chuck is going to be living with me while she's fuckin’ laid up. You and me are going to pack some of her shit up for her and take it up to my room.”

“Okay.” Simon gives me a goofy fuckin’ face. Goofier than his regular goofy ass face.

“What?” I bite back.

“Nothing,” he says as he shrugged his shoulders fuckin’ sarcastic as shit.

“What?” I say with more force.

“Are you fucking her?”

“No. Are you?” I know he isn't. Even though I think he fucking wants to. Chuck would never fuck him, though.

“Of course not.”

“Then why the fuck are you asking me, Simon?”

“I know you let her sleep in your room and now she's going to live with you?”

“So?”

“The wives don't even go in your room. Hell, I barely go in there and I've known you forever.”

“What the fuck are you getting at?” I’m getting pissed off at his insinuation.

“What is she to you?”

Fuck. How the fuck do I answer that? “I don't know.” I just decide to be fucking honest, but I give him fuckin’ attitude with it.

“You love her?”

“You know I can't.”

“Then what are you doing with her?”

“I'm not ‘doing’ anything, Simon. I'm trying to be fucking good to her, okay? She deserves that. I'm trying to make sure she's fuckin’ healthy and happy. I'm not going to hurt her.” I hope. I fuckin’ sigh at the thought. “Look. From the first time I laid my fuckin’ eyes on her when she was a goddamn freshman, I knew I had to protect her. She was just so fucking sweet and shy... I knew this world would eat her up.” I pause to rub my face. “I made her so fucking nervous when she had to talk to me that she got the fuckin’ hiccups. Every damn time.” I chuckle at the memory. “That’s actually how I fuckin’ recognized her when we brought her here.”

“She got the hiccups when you talked with her?”

“Yeah... I stopped trying to fuckin’ talk to her back then because I didn’t want to upset her all the fuckin’ time. But I still did so much shit for her, Simon. Most of it she doesn’t even know about. Whenever I heard boys talking about her in the locker room, I’d shut that shit down. I fought for the school to keep the fucking music program because I knew that she was in the band. That guy I fuckin’ almost beat to death outside that bar? It was because he was a teacher and talked about how he wanted to fuck her. I just told her about that one not too fuckin’ long ago.” I lean back in my chair and sigh. “She didn’t get comfortable with me until she broke her fucking foot her senior year and she had to spend one on one time with me to make up her grade.” I run my hands through my fucking hair. “I don’t fuckin’ know why I have this need to protect her, but I do. Okay, Simon?”

He looks at me with this weird fuckin’ look on his face. “You don’t know why?” He asks me as if I did know. What the fuck is he getting at?

“No, Simon!” I say forcefully. “Why the fuck are you fucking meddling with this shit, anyway?”

“Not meddling, boss. Just observing.”

Observing, my ass. He’s jealous. I’ve seen him get like this before. I know he’s fucking loyal to me and he won’t fuck shit up between us here, but he’ll be a fucking whiny ass pussy for a while until he gets over it.

“Well if you're done fuckin’ ‘observing’, can we go get her shit?”

We walk up to her floor and enter her room.

“It smells nice in here,” Simon ‘observed’. Heh.

I’m happy that he sounds fuckin’ surprised. That means that he’s never fuckin’ been up here. “That's cuz Chuck isn't a sweaty motherfucker like you are. I'm sure your room smells like fuckin’ ball sweat and jizz.”

“That's probably about right.” Simon laughs.

I've never really gone through Chuck's things like this. She doesn't have fuckin’ much, that's for sure. She has the points, why the fuck doesn't she buy shit?

“Grab that bag and get her clothes,” I say as I point to a duffle bag beside her dresser. I move to her desk and grab a small backpack beside it to throw her toiletries and shit in.

“I feel weird touching her underwear like this,” Simon says as he turns his head to me, hands in her underwear drawer.

“Well don't fuckin’ pocket it or anything. Just throw it in the bag.”

He turns back to the drawer. “Oh shit. I think I just found her diary.”

“Don't fucking touch it.” I look back at him quickly.

“Shit, boss. I wasn't gonna read it.” He looks upset that I would think that he would want to.

Fuck, I  want to read it. I'm going to read it at some fuckin’ point. But not with Simon around. That shit is too fuckin’ good to pass up.

“Let’s fucking get back up there.” I radio to the kitchen about delivering our dinner then grab my bag and her guitar and make my way up to my room with Simon following behind me.

 ———      ———

 Chuck continues to listen to Negan's albums until he comes back into his room, Simon close behind him. They are both carrying bags and Negan has Chuck's guitar in his hand.

“Hey, Simon,” Chuck greets cheerily.

“Hi, kiddo. How ya feeling?” he responds as he and Negan set the bags down. Negan places the guitar gently on the couch.

“I feel less like a shish kabab than I did a few days ago.” She chuckles at her own bad joke. “And being out of the infirmary is always a good thing. That place is not very comfortable.”

“I caught Simon fuckin’ sniffing your dirty panties in your room, so I recruited him to help me bring some of your shit up here.” Negan interjects.

“What?!” Chuck says, horrified.

“I didn't! I wouldn't do that!” Simon says excitedly as he looks from Negan to Chuck swiftly.

“Negan, that's gross! Don’t tease like that!” Chuck yells as she realizes that Negan’s joking around and laughing at Simon’s expense.

Negan dismisses Simon when the kitchen worker arrives with dinner. Chuck and Negan fall into their familiar routine. Dinner, chess, then bedtime.

“I need you to help me change my bandage before bed. It's still too sore for me to twist my body enough to do it myself,” Chuck reveals as she gathers the supplies Carson had given her.

“Really? Can't I just get the fuckin’ doc up here to do that?”

“You're the one that insisted I come up here with you,” Chuck points out.

“Fine.” He huffs. “What do I need to do?”

“Um.” She looks around the room. “I think it'll be easier if we do it on the couch.”

“You want to do it on the couch with me?” Negan wiggles his eyebrows at her as he speaks.

“Are you fourteen years old?” she dismissively asks in a joking tone. She sets the supplies on the coffee table and lays down on her right side on the couch. She lifts her shirt to reveal the large bandage on her left side. “You can take the bandage off.”

Negan peels back the bandage slowly and throws it down on the coffee table. “Shit,” he breathes out, staring at her side.

“It doesn't look that bad.”

“It doesn’t look great , either. But I guess it looks a fuck load of a lot better than it did the first time I saw it. When you were fuckin’ bleeding out.”

“You need to take one of those alcohol wipes and clean it and then take a new square of gauze and tape it on. That's it.”

“That doesn't seem so fucking hard.” Negan kneels down beside the couch and gets the alcohol pad ready. He gently lays his left hand on her ribs just under her lifted shirt to keep it out of the way and brings the pad to her wound.

“Watch the stitches,” Chuck reminds.

He huffs. “I will. Shit.” He does his best to be gentle with his motions. As he lightly dabs the wound with his right hand, he began to softly move the thumb of his left hand back and forth on her waist. The tickling movement causes her to laugh out suddenly and jerk away.

“Ouch! What are you doing?!” she yells.

“What?! What the fuck did I do?!” he exclaims as he holds his hands up and away from her.

“You were tickling me with your hand!”

“No I wasn't, was I?”

“Yes!”

“Shit! Are you okay?”

“I didn't rip a stitch out, did I?”

Negan moves in to look closely. “No. It looks fine.”

“Don't tickle me. What were you thinking?” Chuck says, a bit annoyed.

“Fuck! I didn't realize I was tickling you. I was just... moving my fucking hand, I guess. I don’t fuckin’ know! I think you're just overly ticklish.”

“Yeah sure. Blame me,” Chuck says with no real bite in her tone.

“Can I fuckin’ finish?”

“Please.”

Negan finishes up and gently moves her into a seated position on the couch.

“Thanks.”

“You’re fuckin’ welcome, sweetheart.”

“Will you help me get undressed?”

“What?” Negan asks as he chuckles in surprise.

“It hurts to lift my arms up and it hurts to bend down. Carson has been helping me-“

“Carson undressed you?!” Negan exclaims as he glares at Chuck.

“Yeah. He’s a doctor, Negan. I’m sure he’s seen the vast majority of people here in various states of undress.”

“I fuckin’ guess.” Negan’s face is still in a scowl.

Chuck moves to her bags which are on the armchair and gets out a shirt and a pair of sleep shorts, setting them on the bed after.

“Are you going to help me or not?” Chuck asks after Negan makes no move to join her near the bed.

“Fine.” He slowly moves to stand in front of her.

“Just lift my shirt up and over my head. I don’t want to lift my left arm too much so I’ll kinda put my head down. That’s how Carson did it.”

“I’m sure he fuckin’ did,” he says in a disgusted tone.

“Come on, Negan. Don’t be so overprotective. You sound like my mother.”

Negan lets out a growl and begin to lift her shirt up slowly. She lifts her arms up about half way, making sure not to pull on her stitches, and Negan gently pulls the shirt over her head and off of her arms.

“I didn’t know you had a tattoo.” He points to the text printed on her right side at her ribs. “Well, I saw it before when I had to take care of your drunk ass, but I didn’t get a good look at it. Because I’m such a fuckin’ gentleman.” He throws the shirt on the bed as she lets out a laugh.

“Yeah right. Has anyone ever called you a gentleman in your whole life?”

Ignoring her dig, he reads the script lining her ribs, “Because the sky is blue it makes me cry.”

“Yeah. That’s from my dad’s favorite Beatles song. Mine, too. That’s his handwriting, actually. He wrote the lyrics in a note to my mom once and I thought it would make a nice tattoo.” She shrugs her shoulders and looks away from Negan hoping he would get the hint that she didn’t want to talk about her parents right now. She grabs her sleep shirt and begin to put it on with Negan helping.

“I like the tattoo. It’s cute.”

She giggles in response. “Thanks.” She begins to unbutton her jeans and Negan pushes them all the way down. He helps her step into her shorts and pulls them up to her hips.

“You need help with the bra?” he says with a smirk.

“No. I think I can manage that myself, thank you very much,” she responds a bit indignantly, but not seriously.

“Just trying to fuckin’ help,” Negan comments with a smirk as he holds his hands up.

Chuck proceeds to unlatch her bra with her right hand and pulls it though the armhole of her shirt as she shuffles over to the hamper and throws it in, along with the rest of her clothes.

“Are you gonna help me get undressed now, sweetheart?” Negan asks as he stands in the middle of his floor.

“Shut up, Negan.” Chuck says with a laugh.

Negan strips to his boxer briefs and helps Chuck into the bed. He gets in on his side and cuddles up behind her like usual, but is hesitant. “I don’t want to fucking hurt you. Where do you want my arm? I don’t want to rest it on your fuckin’ cut.”

“Uh. You might need to keep your arm to yourself until I’m less sore.”

“Shit. I can’t fucking sleep otherwise. We’ll have to figure something out.”

“What? You need to hold me to sleep?”

“Kind of,” he says quietly behind her. “I haven’t been sleeping for shit since you’ve been in the fuckin’ infirmary.”

“Really?” She giggles at the thought of him needing her help to do something as basic as falling asleep.

“Shut the fuck up, Chuck. You need me to sleep, too. That’s why we do this.”

“I guess.” She still giggles even though he’s right. She probably wouldn’t have slept very well in the infirmary without Negan, but the pain meds helped to knock her out.

He repositions himself and puts his arm higher up, over her ribs to miss her wound.

“That’s pretty uncomfortable. You’re squishing my boobs.”

He lets out a frustrated grunt and backs away from her. “Turn around then.”

“I can’t lay on my left side, Negan. You know, because of my injury,” she says pointedly.

“Fuck!” Negan hops out of the bed and rounds it to go to the other side. “Scooch over.”

Chuck complies and pushes herself over to the other side of the bed as he gets in to her right. “Am I being the big spoon?” She giggles at the prospect.

“Fuck no. Come here.” Negan lays on his back with his left arm extended toward her.

She scoots to Negan and when she’s close enough, he pulls her into his chest. She has no other choice, so she lays her head on his shoulder.

“Any fuckin’ pain this way?” he asks.

“No. This is okay.” She keeps her arms tight to her body and her legs stiffly out straight. She has never been in this position before and is afraid of doing something awkward. This new sleeping arrangement seems so much more intimate than what she is used to.

“Why are you so fuckin’ tense? If you’re not okay with this, we can fuckin’ do something different.”

“No. It’s okay. I just... don’t know how to lay with you like this without being awkward.”

“What do you mean? Just get fucking comfortable. I don’t give a fuck how you lay as long as you don’t knee me in the dick.”

“Okay.” She giggles her response. Her body relaxes as she processes Negan’s words and lets go of some of her anxiety. She extends her left arm across his abdomen and brings her leg up over his thigh.

“There. Now get some fucking sleep. I’m tired as fuck,” Negan rasps as he gently runs his fingers over her shoulder.

“Good night, Negan.”

“Good night, baby.”

[the-appreciation-zone]

I LOVE jalexy's taz fics. Raise and get Razed is fuckin hilarious, and Do You Remember Me is so sad and sweet and Im so excited for the next update <3!

Jalexy I don’t really know you that well but from what I’ve seen you are very nice and I love seeing your icon in the chat discussions!!

Galexy is really jazzed about dnd! And she knows her stuff! It's really fun going back and forth when talking about the pros and cons of spells in different situations!

Hey Jalexy! It’s been a lot of fun seeing you around on the writer’s discord! Thanks for giving boom and me ways to customize the server to maximum non-readability – I’m sure we’ll use that information in totally responsible ways and not at all for fun and goofs. Your ideas for the potential Pacific Rim au were great – you mentioned that you like to make connections between the different stories and that’s one of my absolute favorite parts of coming up with aus. We should talk more about aus sometime! I love them so much, come and talk and share this au pit with me. (Then we can trick other people into writing them.)

I read your fic, “Raise and get Razed” and it was wonderful! I really like that you took a look at what necromancers might be beyond very goth and hiding out in caves; those are fun too, but the necromancers in your story are original and interesting! I love the idea of average people getting creative with a dark form of magic for relatively innocent reasons – I never would have considered a person using necromancy to help their farm, but asking a parent for advice using plants as a sacrifice are excellent ideas.

I think my favorite part, though, were the pun names and Lup’s reaction to them! I have no idea how you came up with so many but that entire section where the group is being asked for their names was wonderful. My absolute favorite line is this: “B- Buddy- Buddy Corpse? His name’s Buddy Corpse. It’s- it’s ironic how he- he died really c- cause I can admit that it sounds like bloody corpse but th- that’s his real god given name.” (Poor guy, how did he never notice this trend?) Lup going back to retrieve the bodies just so she could see if their names were also puns was hilarious and absolutely something Lup would do. Poor Kravitz is trying to be professional and Lup and Barry aren’t helping; it’s a mess and a delightful peek into their dynamics together!

Thank you for sharing this work and some wonderful experiences on discord, and I hope we can talk again soon! I hope you feel every bit as appreciated as you deserve to be!

I’ve also read your fic “Do You Remember Me?” that you’re collabing with hyperInactive, and I am so excited to see where you two go with it! I’m incredibly fond of aus, and especially those that explore what might have happened differently in the story with even a slight change. I really love the idea of Lup getting out of the Umbrastaff early, and this is the first time that I’ve seen it explored with Lup leaving the Umbrastaff during the Rockport Limited arc. (While I was reading I hoped that the au aspect was going to be Lup being freed early, but I was not expecting it to happen in that moment! I had to stop and try to remember if that was how the fight went down - and then the crab snapped the staff and I had a great “oh shit” moment.) That’s such a unique opportunity! Lup has the chance to see what’s happening on the moon base and react to it, but is also able to more obviously interact with events of the story in a way that she couldn’t in canon. There are so many possibilities here! I’m not sure what you’re planning with the rest of the fic, but there are several arcs filled with potential and I’m so excited to see where you go with it!

What I especially liked in the fic - something else I haven’t seen before - is Lup refusing to believe that her brother would have forgotten about her. There are a number of fics that explore Lup learning things from inside the umbrella, and in most of them she figures out almost immediately that Taako has forgotten everything, including her. I love the difference of, despite all of the evidence that might hint otherwise, Lup doesn’t believe it. (And the moment on the train when she wonders if Taako stopped looking for her after a couple of years broke my heart - she’s not angry, but she never would have stopped looking for Taako.) That’s such a realistic way to portray that realization; it’s the one thing that Lup refuses to accept until she absolutely has to, and that gives her moment of realization so much more impact. I’m very excited to see what you do with both this and other fics in the future!

"Jalexy, the apprecaition zone has led me to your Ao3 and i have never been more greatful. 'Raise and get Razed' was hilarious and all round a wonderful short read! All their names are puns and it took me a while to get it but once it clicked I died laughing. Also the setting of the barn, and their reason for summoning (pumpkings, the first instinct when pumpins arn't growing is ask a demon. im.)  was great?? I loved it. Im not very far into 'Do You Remember Me' that you have been writing with hyperInactive but bOY is it good. The lup feels are so heavy in this one, and I can assure you I'll be binging the entire fic sometime soon. Theres this wonderful mix of lines straight from the podcast as well as explorations of scenes from Lup's perspective and its just. The feels. Its just all so good."

Cool. Well I would like to say that I read some of her fics and that her strongest skill, one I really envy, is her ability for description! It’s really easy to picture what she’s saying and it’s all so real seeming. Honestly it’s an amazing skill and makes her writing great in a way that keeps my attention and I just assume everyone else’s

Their angst is absolutely A+ and their tumblr has the perfect balance of fandom v memes, and i enjoy following them v much (although I don't understand their homestuck references, which i assume are very funny based on other experiences). They're a warm and funny presence on the discord, which is mainly how I know them, and they're always around to chat or to help generate Horrible Ideas. They are eminently quotable and the discord would be an emptier place without them.

Ive got my addition! Ive read and reread your gift for candlenights sooo many times!! I love your works, but that one in particular was so funny i was dying! Badass dysfunctional reaper squad is the absolute best, and I love how you write them! You’re a ton of fun to have in the chat, from the thousands of cursed jean jokes that get dropped to the fun ideas tossed around (even in the dangerous waters of the homestuck tag). Stay cool!!

Raise and get Razed was one of the funniest TAZ fics I've read!! Barry is a nerd, the characterization was spot-on, and the sheer amount of puns... I kept laughing through the entire thing! Also, I love your blog and blog theme,, it's so soft and nice to look at.

I hope this isn't too late but for galaxies good good feels thing I wanted to say that I knew them in the McElroy party server and they've always been extremely fun to be around and just a joy to be near. they always have soft, fluffy ideas that they execute beautifully, it's good enough to be published as a children's book, and honestly, their ideas are great for when you just want to unwind with a warm and fluffy story.

Sorry this is so late ive been moving house while working full time things been slipping x.x Jalexy! Holy jazz you beautiful human, you are a day-brightener in every possible way! You're so positive and easy to talk to and an actual literal Great Human with a tumblr that is aaaaaall Good Shit (bc I legit scrolled through for a couple hours because all of it was so good?? You know how to pass on that good good content and it's ALWAYS a good day when you're on my dash. Thank you for being one of the sunshine people <3

"Hey!!! I don't get to talk to you nearly enough for how fucking cool you are, but you are super fucking cool. I wish i had so much more substace to put in this than i do, but school is kicking my ass (like always, really, fucking developmental disorders, why are they like this???) and i am a nervous bean who has seen your url and your killer handle (seriously, that nickname and handle are to die for!!! good shit right there) many times and been too weenie to talk to you. I know you are super chill and super cool, and i admire you a lot, and hopefully we talk a lot in the future. <3"

Time To Appreciate the Shit out of Alex!  Like, ok, you are just so good???? im giving up on anonymity here, you're gonna know its me by what I say.  If I tried to be vague and anonymous, I wouldnt be happy with what I said.  (Also this is gonna be super sappy bc i have two modes: Angst and Sap, and this sure as hell isnt gonna be the former).  Anyway, you are so much fun to write fics with.  Like, hands down I would write endless amounts of stories with you bc you have such good ideas, constantly.  Half the time our brainstorming is me sending you an idea that I think is decent but not that great, and then you sending back an idea that is just So Damn Good.  Your story ideas are super original too, and they're stories that if I saw them in a bookstore i would buy them in a heartbeat because I've seen nothing really like them.  And your writing never fails to make me laugh, because you just have this way of adding humor to stories that doesn't seem forced at all and I'm convinced its a whole different art form because I could never be as funny as you when I write.  And then, when the humor is super obvious in the writing it doesnt even feel wrong or clunky in any way it's just hysterical.

Your writing style is just so unique and I could read it forever.  Youve been one of my absolute Best Friends for four years now, and you've motivated me to write so much, I can never repay you for all the ideas youve given me and the beta-ing help and the brainstorming we've done that most of the time turns into us making jokes about Everything.  Do You Remember Me is one of my favorite things to write, and thats largely thanks to you.  You're just so supportive of all my writing, no matter what it is, and I hope that I'm doing a good job in return because honestly?  I think one of the reasons I'm so intent on making that fic perfect is because I want to make you proud?  You're just a huge inspiration to me and I really want you to be happy with the fics we make together.  And you'd better know that when you publish your first novel, I'll be the first one to get a copy because its gonna be amazing! You're gonna be amazing!

[kwamiwayzz]

citttrrruuuussssss

I don’t see enough of the meta when it comes to citrus so I decided to ask myself these questions after copying and pasting them from another blog cause why not >.> 

And I may be low key still trying to ignore my responsibilities

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Main ship <3 Yuzu x Mei (i dont even think they have an actual ship name) 

I’m gonna cut it at a certain point cause I realized how much I was rambling 

• When or if I started shipping it:

Ah...surprisingly I didn’t start shipping these two until a few months ago. I’ve been following the manga since the day it came out and I’ve always liked them but I never actively “shipped” them or anything. Even though I went all “YeSSSSS” when they started dating in chapter 16, I was still just more of a casual fan.

There are a few reasons I can think of to why I was drawn into shipping them (finally...) was that I somewhat got back into yuri over the summer after watching a clip from Fate Kaleid.......*cough* anyway...and started going back on dynasty-scans to see what kinds of new yuris have been made huehuehue. Long story short I shortly got back into MadoHomu and Yuzu x Mei, and saw the latter ship as the “less angsty” version and went on from there 

The other reason I got super into them was that the latest few chapters, and remembering chapter 24, was that I really started to notice how Mei became less cold and closed-off from Yuzu. And seeing her blush and be all nervous around her was just..... <3 <3 <3~~~~~~

Oh and this one comic by smxmuffinpeddling made me laugh (and still makes me laugh) so it spiraled from there. They are a blessing to Citrus. 

• My thoughts:

I tend to gravitate towards ships that have that dark/light dynamic. I’m cliche and I have a weakness for ships that have the aloof dark haired girl who’s usually looked up to or very popular fall in love with the ditzy, but kind and optimistic light haired girl and vice versa (see: Chikane/Himeko, MadoHomu, Diakko {to an extent}) Not exactly opposites attract, but I found their interactions funny when they initially hated each other and whenever I read the manga in retrospect in my head I’m all, “honey you two have no idea” 

i like ships where i can see a little of myself in both characters 

• What makes me happy about them:

I understand that the pseudo-incest thing can turn some people off from the pairing but in this story I feel like it’s justified enough that pretty much the whole fandom is cool with it. Yuzu and Mei didn’t grow up together nor are they blood related, but taking the “they’re not related by blood” justification out of the way while the kiss that Mei stole from Yuzu is what led to Yuzu developing feelings for her step-sister, Yuzu already started showing some sort of attraction in chapter 1 when Mei hugged her to just to get her cellphone. So, kiss or no kiss, Yuzu probably would’ve developed a crush on Mei regardless. As for Mei, the step-sister thing forced the seemingly-opposite girls to interact and it’s what led to Yuzu finding out all these things about Mei and help her with her issues. So, I think the fact that Yuzu would go great lengths for her is what would lead her to falling for her.

I really like how Yuzu doesn’t give up on Mei despite Mei always having to push her step-sister away. As much as I love Yuzu and do relate with her on a spiritual level, I do relate with Mei a lot (despite some friends saying I’m more like Yuzu lol). Anyone else who would try to get close with Mei would either get tired of her for being so closed-off and eventually just give up on her. I like the fact that Yuzu does see a lot of the good in Mei that she can’t see in herself. The whole dynamic of the closed-off, pessimistic, sometimes brooding person with the open, optimistic, never-gives-up person is a common dynamic I’ve seen everywhere and I happen to be one of those people that really do like it (at least if done right to an extent or I relate on a certain level) and also reminds me of sasuke and naruto despite never shipping that *cough* but anyway...

Plus, I remember smxmuffinpeddling mentioning this in the tags of one of their fics, but I really do like how both of them put in a lot of work to make their relationship work. Yeah, sure it seemed like Yuzu was doing all the work in the beginning, but as soon as Mei began to open up and trust Yuzu more, she does try to put in genuine effort in maintaining their relationship (using Yuzu’s notebook as a perfect date template, when she talked with Yuzu in chapter 24 that their relationship has nothing to do with other people’s opinions, asked Harumi for advice on how to start a conversation with Yuzu in the vol. 7 extra, being open to Yuzu’s offer of the one kiss a day thing, and i wish to see many more things~)

• What makes me sad about them:

Need I explain...

*Sigh* as much I love these two, I just want them to interact more with words. Like have more casual conversations. It could be the mundane things or about any problems or issues they could be having. I live for healthy communication, and I feel like Yuzu and Mei are still working up to that.

• Things done in art/fic that annoys me:

So...finding actual fan content of these two, let alone for Citrus in general is like treading through the Sahara fucking Desert 

I haven’t really found anything concrete in art/fic that annoy me...yet but the most I’ll say is making both of them unreasonably OOC. This fandom is pretty small despite citrus apparently being a super popular yuri manga (I really didn’t know that until recently) so OOCness isn’t too much of a problem. I used to be heavily into the Frozen fandom so of course when you have a larger fandom you’re going to have a crap ton of fan interpretations and lots of AUs that either don’t fit or drive the characters being written about to be OOC.

• Things I look for in art/fic:

Lots of fluff cause we don’t get enough of it in the manga TT_TT 

If it’s just them talking or having a date or something mundane that allows them to get to know each other more then sign me the fuck up. I like seeing fics that go into Mei’s perspective and I’m also a huge fan of content that really showcases the support they have for one another because feels~

In fact here’s some fics I’ve read that show some of this stuff I’ve mentioned: 

citrus schtuffs by angel0wonder (literally anything written by smx/angel0wonder bless them)

 Citrus - A Compilation by mikotyzini

The Adventures of Mei and Yuzu by mikotyzini 

Citrus: Fantasies by epitomeodisaster (i literally don’t remember if i read this one but so far it has what i mentioned earlier)

Sweet and Sour by Cynical-Banshee (words cannot describe how much I love the writing style and characterization of Mei and Yuzu in this fic, it has almost everything I’m looking for that the manga doesn’t have enough of...and chapter 5...*dies*) 

that’s all i can think of for now, but despite low numbers of content most of the stuff ive come across so far is pretty good 

• Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: 

For Yuzu, I wanna say Harumin only because they’re best friends and she’s always got Yuzu’s back and stuff and I know some people in the fandom already highkey ship them...however (yeah I’m gonna be one of those people ^^;), in the story I feel like it would be a bit cheap having Harumi secretly have feelings/fall for her best friend because while I was used to the yuri cliches when I first read the manga, I personally feel like the story is already far in Yuzu and Mei’s relationship that adding more unnecessary third party drama would kinda be tiresome to me. That’s not saying I’m not open to it. If Saburouta does something new or different with the whole “best friend is in love with main protagonist” cliche that I’ve seen in other yuri like Strawberry Panic, then I wouldn’t mind reading it. 

For Mei...this is gonna sound like a weird answer, but I’d probably go with Matsuri. Part of the reason just being that they do kinda share some similarities together (being alone most of their life, sometimes clinging to the one person they feel like they can trust a.k.a Yuzu), but I’m also bad at explaining shit so I’ll probably just leave it at that :P 

• My happily ever after for them:

THEY HAVE A KID (i think i came up with a concept for them having a son in my head but i never drew it...yet) 

and they live in a cozy apartment together. Mei being self-conscious about her parenting skills and Yuzu always reassuring her that she’ll be fine and she’ll support her in everything she’s having trouble with if Mei has no fucking clue how to show love and affection to a child, let alone her own. The girl already took awhile trying open up and show her love to Yuzu, so this would be a challenge lol 

Yuzu trying to reassure their kid that while his mother is pretty stubborn and has a hard time expressing her feelings, she loves them both very much <3~

• What is their favorite non-sexual activity?: 

TALKING/COMMUNICATION (wait that’s my favourite lol) 

I’m assuming that once they’re deep in their relationship, just sitting down and talking about the mundane things whether it’s about their day or ranting about whatever, would be something they would find relaxing. In the end, they’re still learning more about each other (and I fucking love that) 

oh and trying new things with each other. Yuzu would be the one dragging Mei to try out something they’ve never done before (I can’t think of any right now), Mei would probably be super competitive when it comes to getting the skill down in whatever they’re doing but of course Yuzu would tell her she doesn’t need to get so worked up and should just let loose and have fun

[dipifica]

need help/new story!

hey everyone!!! i know ive been m.i.a. when it comes to the fanfic scene but i have the first chapter of a new story and its......a 10 things i hate about you au! i love this movie a ton and really love the idea so i thought i would try it out! under the read more below is the first draft of chapter 1! i dont usually do this but i would totally appreciate any comments or suggestions on this first chapter (also if you want more/would read until the end, etc.) since im busy and have been having personal problems i feel it would help me be motivated if people were interested! this is a rough draft so things can change but for sure couples are dippica (dipper/pacifica) and wenbel (wendy/mabel) ages are moved around as well but only so i can have the whole gang in high school at once. anyways yeah! please tell me what you think!

Wendy Corduroy adjusted her baseball cap for the final time before deciding that, eh, that will do. She had never been one for nervousness, frankly she considered herself to be one of the chillest people she knew (except around family, but who was stress-free around their family ever?), but today was a brand new day full of brand new people in a brand new place.

Wendy and her family has moved to Gravity Falls only a month ago because the work was good for her lumberjack father. With the world moving faster and faster everyday, Wendy’s father couldn’t seem to keep up and decided a quieter, more rustic town would do well for the entire family. Luckily, the Corduroy children weren’t incredibly disappointed. Wendy was a starting her senior year somewhere new, but she tried to look on the bright side. If she loved it here, she will be happy, and if she hated it, hey, she’s in college next year anyway.

She got an E-Mail the night before instructing her about the school’s transfer policy, each transfer student would be assigned another student to lead them around the school, answer questions, and be a “friend” although Wendy knew well that the school couldn’t make her be friends with anyone. Still, she thought it was somewhat unnecessary, the school wasn’t huge and she was a senior, the last thing she needed was to look lame asking someone younger than her about her school.

“Name, please?” A man asked her as she approached the main office.

“Wendy Corduroy.” She stated, the school was a lot smaller than her last with far less students. Maybe her adventure would turn out to be a dud after all.

“Gideon Gleeful?” The man called to a group of student leaders. Wendy turned to see no one answer, than out from the corner a boy with white hair, dressed business-casual stood up.

“Yes, sir!” He replied.

“Your transfer. Wendy Corduroy, this is Gideon. Gideon, Wendy.”

“Nice to meet you.” Wendy shook the boy’s hand thinking how he even looked too young to be in high school.

“To you as well.” Gideon replied.

“If you have any questions, Gideon will answer them for you. Now, go ahead and start the tour. Next in line?”

“Right this way, Ms. Corduroy.” Gideon exclaimed.

“Wendy is fine, thanks. You are…..chipper.” Wendy chuckled. “If you don’t mind me asking…how old are you?”

“I’m 15 years old!” Gideon seemed to get somewhat angry. “I’m a sophomore this year at GFHS and I am so sick of people asking my age…” He muttered.

“I’m sorry, dude.” Wendy apologized. “You know, it’s good to look youthful.”

Gideon sighed. “Not when you are trying to get a girlfriend. Well, let’s start the tour anyway, you are gonna need a lot of help from me!” Gideon perked up and started his journey down the south east hall, Wendy trailing behind him.

—

“And that wraps up the English department. Next we have-“

“Gideon, can we just end the tour here? I think I’ll figure it out.” Wendy slumped over and sat down in front of a locker. Her feet killed as Gideon insisted on taking the stairs everywhere.

“We have so much more to see, Wendy!” Gideon exclaimed. “We still have the art wing, the back alley, the make out tree!”

“I really think I’ll catch on.” Wendy sighed and hung her head.

“‘Cuse me?” A perky, girl’s voice called from above. Wendy pulled her head back to see a beautiful young girl. “So sorry to bug you but you are blocking my locker.”

“I-uh…yeah. No, I’m sorry.” Wendy picked herself off and moved out of the pretty girl’s way.

“Hey, don’t be!” She smiled. “Are you new? I’ve never seen you around before.”

“Yeah, I am. Wendy Corduroy.” Wendy stuck her hand out.

“Mabel Pines!” Mabel trapped her hand and shook. Her hands were soft in Wendy’s and Wendy suddenly felt light as a feather. “You’ll love it here. Always something going on.” Mabel grabbed the book she needed from her locker and shut it. “I gotta go, but it was great meeting you, Wendy Corduroy!”

“You too, Mabel Pines.” Wendy replied, her heart dancing inside her. She usually wasn’t one for love at first sight but…wow. Mabel smiled once more and turned to join two other girls waiting on the corner for her.

“Don’t push your luck with her.” Gideon snapped Wendy out of her love-filled day dream. “Mabel Pines doesn’t date. Not allowed in fact.”

“Oh really, why is that?” Wendy asked, eyes still on the beautiful junior before her.

“Protective parents. You know, I even heard she’s not allowed to date until her brother does.”  

“Brother?” Wendy questioned.

“Twin brother, Dipper Pines. Basically the biggest dork this school has ever seen.” Gideon chuckled.

“That’s not you?”

“Watch it newbie.” Gideon glared. “No one will go out with him.”

“Hey, can you do me a favor?” Wendy batted her eyelashes.

“Ugh, Dipper is straight and so am I.” Gideon groaned. “And we aren’t that close yet, sister. Maybe you could…”

“Hi,very gay.” Wendy responded. “Plus, I’d feel bad…”

“But you were ready to throw me into the ring, huh?”

“Look, there’s gotta be some way to get her brother a date and get her to…is she gay?” Wendy asked, deciding in the moment it would be best to get that settled before she devised any schemes.

“Heard through the grapevine she’s had summer camp flings with girls and guys. So bi?” Gideon shrugged.

—-

“Ladies!” Gideon called over to two girls who did not look pleased to see him. Wendy trailed behind, listening in on the conversation.

“What do you want Gideon?” The larger girl sighed.

“Just a quick question, Mabel, straight or…?”

“She’s not into you.” The smaller girl rolled her eyes. “She can’t date, you know this better than anyone.”

“Right, right, right, that was last year. I actually am on the market for someone new.” He winked to them, which they groaned and turned their backs to him in response. “So she is or?”

“Bi, weirdo!” One yelled back.

“Wait like, she’s bi, or like goodbye to me?” Gideon yelled back.

“Like she’s bi, idiot!”

“Okay, thanks!” Gideon scurried back over to Wendy who was now crouched behind a trash can.

“You had a thing for her? Should I be worried?”

“Last year, Wendy. Last year.” He waved his hand in the air. “Although Mabel did at one time own my heart, she made it clear even if she was to date…it wouldn’t be me.”

Wendy placed a hand on his shoulder. “I have your blessing?”

“Yeah, but you have to help me find a lady of my own now.”

Wendy laughed. “Okay. In the meantime, tell me more about Dipper Pines.”

—-

Wendy and Gideon sat at the table across from Dipper’s, watching him read a book that was in a language Wendy could not understand. “Damn, you really weren’t kidding. No friends?”

“Dipper can come off as a know-it-all jerkface.” Gideon whispered. “Half of the student body thinks he’s an weirdo nerd, the other half is afraid of him.”

“Afraid of him?”

“He’s got an interest in the paranormal. Really freaky shit.”

“I mean, that’s not that weird…”

“He’s had a few incidents at school…” Wendy raised an eyebrow. “Look, by now you know Gravity Falls isn’t exactly a normal town, we are home to some weird, unexplainable stuff. Dipper…exploits it. Brings it to school. We’ve basically had a lot of lockdowns because of him. Even his perfect grades couldn’t keep him out of multiple suspensions, and causing mass panic every few months doesn’t make him that popular.”

“Damn.” Wendy breathed. “So finding someone to date this guy is going to be…”

“Impossible? Yes.”

“No one comes to mind? Come on Gid, there’s gotta be someone willing and desperate!” Wendy whisper-screamed. “Maybe someone we can even blackmail?”

Gideon perked up and suddenly smiled widely. “Oh, I have just the person. This tour is about to get way more fun than what I expected.”

—

“Her?” Wendy asked. “She’s gorgeous.”

“And my only lead.” Gideon muttered. “Play it cool.”

“I always do!” Wendy scoffed as she followed Gideon towards the beautiful blonde standing at her locker.

“Pacifica Northwest, how are you?” Gideon greeted. The girl visibly sighed and rolled her eyes.

“Gleeful, a new school year is not going to make me forget how big of a weirdo you are. Move along.” She spat.

Gideon let out a chuckle and Wendy caught on he was most certainly enjoying this. “Actually, darling,” He grinned. “I think you should be a bit nicer to me from now on.”

“Psh. Why would I ever show you any sort of kindness? Get lost.” She slammed her locker and started to move away.

“Welcome to Posh Burger, can I interest you in some fries today?” Gideon stated simply, still grinning, causing Pacifica to stop dead in her tracks.

“No. Way.” She muttered, turning back. “Listen, you-“

“No, you listen.” Gideon interrupted, pulling out his phone revealing multiple pictures of Pacifica working at a burger joint. “I’ve got proof here that Miss Gravity Falls herself, works at Posh Burger two towns over. What happened Paz? Daddy ran out of money?”

“That is none of your business! And this right now, is just about the creepiest thing you have ever done!” Pacifica rose her voice. “Delete them.”

“The students of GFHS have a right to know what their homecoming queen does on the weekends. It would take one simple click…”

“What do you want? Is that what this is, some sort of blackmail?”

“Gideon, maybe we shouldn’t-“ Wendy started, not wanting to ruin some junior’s life on her first day.

“Wendy, you are new around here, but trust me, 85% of the school population would expose this brat the second they could. I’m a saint.” Gideon turned his attention back to the blonde. “It is a blackmail thing. We want you to take Dipper Pines out on a date.”

“He’s even worse than you.” Pacifica sighed. “Why would you ever care about Dipper Pines’ dating experience?”

“Wendy’s got a thing for Mabel Pines. Mabel doesn’t date until Dipper does. It’s simple really. You date Dipper, Wendy woos Mabel, and these pictures stay safe with me. In return, Wendy’s basically my slave and you have to date Dipper in the first place. Satisfying enough for me.”

Wendy shrugged and for the first time wondered what she was getting herself into.

“You’re cruel. This is going to ruin me.” Pacifica sighed.

“I think these pictures will more so.”

“Maybe I’ll take my chances.” Pacifica glared.

“No, wait! I’ll-uh-I’ll pay you for every date.” Wendy offered.

“Corduroy, what’s the deal?” Gideon whispered.

“I’m starting a new job over the weekend. I’ll pay you for every date you take him on. And-And we won’t leak the pictures. Deal?” Wendy stuck her hand out for a handshake.

Pacifica eyed her hand, then eyed Gideon who’s finger hovered over a send button. “…Deal.” She shook her hand. “Gideon, you just made it to the top of my shit list.”

“I’m humbled.” Gideon put on hand on his heart. “As an added bonus, I’ll be your information guide. Dipper usually hangs around Lab 324 after school, I think. Best to start the courting early.”

Pacifica cringed. “Whatever.” Pacifica finally got to storm away without interruption and as soon as she knew she was alone, she let out a frustrated scream.

——-

Pacifica paced outside Lab 324, she peeked her head through the small window and saw Dipper Pines sitting with headphones in and writing quickly in his notebook. She didn’t know why she felt so nervous. She tried to convince herself it was the fact this guy had almost destroyed the school and town multiple times, but she knew what it truly was, and feared fulfilling Wendy and Gideon’s task would be far harder than seducing just any nerd. This wasn’t just some nerd, it was Dipper Pines. The Dipper Pines that helped her a few years ago and showed her how horrible her parents could be. She now had to face, trick, and lead on the one who believed she could be better. She was going to prove his belief in her wrong all over again.

She thought back to the photos and sighed. It’s just this one guy. She thought. It’s not like he is a saint either. She recalled all the mean things he said about her that same day of the party.

The memory drove her to finally open the door, alerting Dipper to turn and pull his earphones out. “Pacifica.” He stated, he didn’t seem confused as to why she was there.

“Hey, Dipper.” She said, awkwardly strutting in and leaning on the table next to him. “How have you been?”

“Oh, so now you’ll talk to me?” He spat right away. Pacifica hoped he would be polite and act as if they had no past, but no one was around them to fake for.

“Don’t be like that, I was just a kid-“

“Just a kid two years ago when you refused to acknowledge my existence in front of your popular friends.”

“A lot can change in two years.”

“Yeah, but not that much.”

“Dipper, come on, I know I’ve been a real jerk to you in the past, but I was wondering if you wanted to hang out sometime. You know, like old times?”

Dipper stared into Pacifica’s eyes. “…What do you want?”

“To hang out with you.”

“No, what do you want? You choose now to suddenly rekindle our…semi-friendship almost four years after the fact? Is there another ghost in the manor?”

“No, I want to hang out, Dipper. I’m sorry if you felt like I ditched you.”

“I didn’t feel any way, you did ditch me.”

Pacifica remained silent, backed into a corner by Dipper’s words. She couldn’t argue it wasn’t true, the two had connected, even if it was a short time. By the time freshmen year pulled around, Pacifica learned fast how to survive in a bigger school: cut off the people that didn’t fit in.

“You know I’m right. You are so easy to read.” Dipper scoffed, packed up his things, and left the room.

Pacifica was left standing on her own, feeling guilty and frustrated.

[the-kipsabian]

diary, pulitzer, characterization, carnegie, faulkner, record, trope ~

diary: how many pieces have you written that are just for you or will never see the light of day?its really hard to pinpoint a number with this but i know for sure that theres a few of them. both one shots and bit longer stuff that ive just written for my own personal happiness that im probably not planning on sharing cause im afraid of them not receiving the attention i feel like they deserve, so they are just for my eyes only ~

pulitzer: tell about/link a piece where you fielt your writing was the best.i know theres probably a bunch of these tbh, but if we go by recent things ive done, uuuuh. i did one thing with asagao!nate. this one. not too long ago and im honestly still very proud of that one? like, even if it was a rather quick one to write in the end, theres just. so many little sentences and things in there that i really like? the beginning for example. then theres the part that the first word natemare tells him and the last word nate himself says is the same. im just gonna leave few quotes here cause i just. really liKE THIS ONE OKAY ;;“And yet all he could think about was the amnesia light show that was eventually going to be playing in his head when the darkness was back to consume his soul once again.““It was obvious that something wanted him to stop breathing, stop living, to give up and melt into the sweet embrace of chaos and hell.”“The darkness caught him off guard, grabbing him by the hand and lead him down the path that he knew there was no return from until the damage was already done.”

characterization: describe your favorite character(s) you’ve written.i wanna say. literally any of my antagonist tbh lol. cause like. i love dark themes and angst and shit, and when you have the immoral bad guys that let you play around with that and then some murder and you get to. dig into their minds for what makes them so fucked up its just. aaaaaaaa i am wEAK. ..and that probably a really bad thing to say but i dont care lol. good examples of this i feel like are especially amber and sebastian? probably alex tho hes. a whole different ridiculous thing but yeah. i mean i love writing so many different kind of characters i just. love everyone lol. but murder children are my absolute weakness

carnegie: what authors and/or books/stories have inspired you to write or influenced your work?so. my answer to this isnt going to actually have any authors in it lol. cause i look up to different people in different mediums that include storytelling tho. like. okay the big one is probably the game alan wake? cause its like. basically what inspired the trilogy in the very beginning (and honestly still continues to do so, i love that game so much aaaAAA). and alongside with that eventually came poets of the fall, that i frequently use as a background music and their lyrics are ever so inspiring with things and fitting for characters tho?i love hideo kojima and metal gear is my favorite game series of all time, hence why i like fucked up too complex plots with way too many twists lolim also a sucker for sweet angst/drama relationship stuff with plot twists which i got into when i was younger through the works of arina tanemuraanddddd idk how this exactly counts here but im gonna include him anyways, cause my main man dan avidan was the person that inspired me to finish the first draft of silence kills when i was ready to give up on it, so like uuuuh. i think thats a pretty big thing here lol

faulkner: what tropes do you LOVE writing? which ones are your guilty pleasure?im a slut for literally any type of aus and thats not a secret to anyone lol. ‘childhood friends with secret feelings for each other’ is one i absolutely love. anything with soulmates. ZOMBIE AU cause i hate happiness lmao. uuuuuuuh. shit im sure theres like a shit ton more but my brain is so blank now that i have to answer to this hahhaaaa but yeah theres a few ~

record: have you written things based off of songs? do you like to?i have a few times. i dont know if any of them are any good anymore, but i have done some stuff that was based on songs. at one point i did a few inspired by nate’s stuff like way back when at least, that much i can remember for sure lol

trope: what’s a pet peeve you have about writing?im going to assume this mean about my own writing? tho just in general i hate it how much time it takes and yet people insist that ‘lol writing is easy’ and its just. its really not um fuck you?but as far as my peeves about my own things go, i. hate it that i dont trust my readers enough to read between the lines hngg. i have a mighty need to figure out something excessively impressive and then i go out on my way to explain it to the readers in authors notes or tags or whatever cause i dont want them to miss it and thats such a shitty thing to do cause you should never underestimate your readers catching on to things hngggg. im trying to better myself i swearalso honestly? i made. way too ridiculous and complex storylines. like holy shit dude chill the fuck out, not everything needs to be that hard to understand??and just in general im an asshole. ..to my characters, for the most part, cause i love angst, but yeah ;;

writing asks!

[thespace-dragon]

Hi Mogi! Are there any Klance fics that you would recommend? Thanks :)

Oh good golly gosh, here goes my afternoon, because youre about to get a shit ton. xD

If you want to peruse my bookmarks feel free. the link has been filtered down to only klance fics, enjoy your time sifting through 150+ fics ^^; (i have no self control)  And then theres any of my stuff here because i need validation and have no shame with self plugs, but ill put the focus on the other fics for right now. ^^

But here are the ones i reallllyyyy recommend outside of the big name fics that literally the whole fandom knows about.:

Make Me Your Home by Reader115

Summary: “Oh my god, Keeeith,” Lance wheezed. “Keith you’re the best drunk space cadet I’ve ever seen.”“Space cadet,” Keith mumbled. He repeated the words again although his eyes had zeroed in on Lance’s hands and Lance offered no resistance when Keith picked one of them up and pulled it possessively towards his lap. He began to gently trace over Lance’s fingers, sending shivers up Lance’s arm and down his spine. “You have looong fingers,” Keith murmured after a few moments.Keith’s face perked up then, as if he’d just had a brilliant idea, and Lance could almost not wait to hear what new obscure thought had entered Keith’s pretty head. He was prepared to laugh, and instead found himself shivering again as Keith leaned far into his personal bubble, lips practically touching Lance’s ear when he spoke next.“I bet you could reach all kinds of things, Lance.”Update: Now with ART by suitboxers!!WC: 38169 (6/6)General Notes: just, omg? this fic has like it all, and it all fits into s2?? yes please?? i could not get enough of this fic and talking with the author, there is a rumor that they might write an epilogue and i like high key died. 10/10

Today, anew by MemeKonVLD

Summary: “Lance.”Lance’s eyebrows furrow in concern for a second before his whole face goes gentle and open.“Hey buddy, everything okay?”Keith nods. Then shakes his head, then opens his mouth to let out a noisy sob before he’s hugging the air out of Lance, grip vise tight.Lance hugs him back. That’s one of the great things about him— he doesn’t— he doesn’t need explanations for things like this. He doesn’t make Keith jump through hoops, the way other people might— he’s just— he just knows what Keith needs in times like this. No façades, no posturing.(Or: the one where Keith is trapped in a time loop. A time loop from hell.)WC: 5910 (6/6 chapters)General Notes: this was interesting to say the least, and one of my latest reads. I really enjoyed, told from Keiths pov and he’s stuck in a time loop. Angsty, but has a happy ending. 8/10

Voltron Cafe by PinkHitman

Summary: Lance is the number one butler at a maid cafe, and his number one customer? Just his old High School rival Keith.WC: 66422 (14/?)General Notes: This is really funny and quirky. Lance is adorable in all his dorky glory. The whole team is there and i cant count the times ive had to stifle laughter reading it because it was 3am and i really needed to sleep but, hey what are you going to do xD theres also a blog @voltron-cafe and the art is just as quirky as the fic and i love it to all get out. 9/10

a truth in the blood by angstinspace

Summary: “I’m Galra, Lance.”It’s the first time he’s said those words out loud––and to Lance of all people. He should feel horrified at himself but somehow, he doesn’t. In fact, an eerie calmness has settled over him. Everything comes sharply into focus as he stands there, still holding Lance’s wrist, breathing in and out, waiting for a response. A post “Blade of Marmora” fix-it fic. Mostly broganes & klance bonding.WC: 7489General Notes: So theres a little bit of angst in this, but it does a really good job of filling in the blanks of what could have happened between ep8 and ep9 of s2. I really liked it, has some Broganes in there and Klance bonding. 8/10

Starlight by epiproctan

Summary: For once, Lance tries to be responsible for something. Namely, his feelings. Needless to say it doesn’t go well.WC: 7719General Notes: Lance pov, honestly this boy tries so hard to keep the team dynamic the same, but it never goes well. goes with the trope that EVERYONE knows about mutual pining klance, but goes a different direction just for the hell of it. i loved it. 9/10

He Who Fights Monsters by magisterpavus

Summary: In a world where monstrous dragons terrorize humanity daily, the Garrison trains valiant Knights to slay the evil beasts and defend Earth. But when Knight cadet Lance Espinosa is kidnapped by a strange red dragon who kills its own kind, certain truths are revealed…and so are the true monsters. WC: 64888 (13/13)General Notes: holy fuck do i love this fic, cuz like, wow. Im a sucker for dragons and i loved the way the author inocrporated them into this fic and made it freaking work. A+++. Lots of action, drama-rama and Lance learns a thing or two about hs feelings along the way. 10/10

Burning Love by TeaAndKittens

Summary: An injury sustained on the job for firefighter Keith means an extended medical leave that makes him feel useless and angry. He’s so desperate to get back to his crew at Station 5 that he’s almost willing to try anything - except yoga. Especially after Hunk calls this friend of his that owns a yoga studio and Keith gets supporting evidence for his claim that only crazy people practice yoga.Somehow, despite all of that, Hunk and Shiro manage to bully him into at least trying it. He shows up for that first class expecting to hate it. What he’s not expecting is for Hunk’s friend to be hot like the fire of a thousand suns. Or even more insane in person.Or: Keith’s life. So Hard.WC: 7017 (2/?)General Notes: Firefighter Keith and yoga instructor lance,,, um yes please! this fic is just getting started but i really love it so far. 8/10

Sharps and Accidentals by Zizzani

Summary: Keith is a talented up and coming violin virtuoso. Lance hates him immediately.Or an AU in which Lance and Keith both attend the same music university. Keith is deaf. Lance is Trying™.WC: 39528 (9/?)General Notes: ok, so i just really love this a lot. im a band nerd so music is like my thing, and this is honestly great. Deaf keith, and lance… poor lance, hes trying ok? Im a couple updates behind, but i really love it a lot. 9/10

bouncing off exit signs by steelthighsvoideyesSummary:

Summary: This is the story of two absolute idiots who keep searching for what they’ve already found. WC: 40147 (yes on chap xD)General Notes: this is like one of those comfort fics for me, i binged it one night, and it was amazing. Based off the song Closer by The Chainsmokers. honeslty, well done. 10/10

Duly Noted by TeaAndKittens

Summary: Keith has a box full of scraps of paper, a lovingly archived collection of all the notes Lance has written him so far in their relationship. Their son has a box just like it, and soon their newly adopted daughter will too.Or: 5 (-ish) notes Lance wrote to Keith, beginning with the one that started it all, and 1 Keith wrote backWC: 4913General Notes: this was so fucking cute that i really couldnt stop smiling the whole way through. lance leaving notes everywhere is just so him. 10/10

The Quiet by MilkTeaMiku

Summary: Does he not realise he’s dead?Keith can see ghosts. As a part of his Garrison training, he’s sent to a hospital to do one year of medical clerkship - it’s there that he meets a charmingly irritating ghost who definitely needs to learn what boundaries are.WC: 38000 (19/?)General Notes: Stop reading this list and fucking read this oh my gawd. It is that good, go on, shoo 10/10

Flirting with Death by drippingpen

Summary: Keith commits the ultimate taboo as a grim reaper: he saves a life.More specifically, he saves Lance’s life.Now they are forever linked, unable to survive without the other. Keith must protect Lance from the forces that are trying to right Keith’s wrong and kill Lance.WC: 29346 (9/?)General Notes: yoooo, my friend is reading this, and she is doing such a great job with it. Grim Reaper Keith and lance is high key supposed to be dead, and its awesome. Pidge is as nosey as ever and Hunk is pure™. give it a read, really. 10/10

Days Like Today by literal_trashbaby

Summary: For all Lance’s snarking and posturing, all that easy, cheery confidence, for all his charm and his pretty, pretty smiles (which absolutely did not make Keith a little weak in the knees, no sir). Just every now and then, Keith thought his smile would go just a tiny bit tight around the edges, and he’d go just a little quiet… well, quiet for Lance. And on the days when Lance was just that little bit… Not-Lance, like a force of nature he would, without fail, pull one side of his lower lip into his mouth and just chew on it, destroying those poor, perfect lips. Days like today.OR: Lance is Having a Day and Keith is somehow the only person to notice.WC: 3159General Notes: I love it when people write Keith picking up on Lance’s tendencies, its so freaking cute and my heart cannot handle. 9/10

so why don’t we fall by akinghtley

Summary: Five times Lance used a pet name for Keith, and one time Keith used one for Lance.Keith has no basis for having a relationship with someone, so he’s trying to follow Lance’s lead.WC: 8218General Notes: NSFW saying that now. but i love pet names, and this was all so cute. Touch of angst, but it makes up for it with fluff. I love it. 9/10

I think tht does it for fic recs rn, i could literally go through all of my bookmarks and list every one of them, but lets face it that would take forever.

Hope you enjoy all that fics!

[gray-anxiety]

No Sympathy Facts/ the chaos of my brain

I kept forgetting the damn name

Legit

Like “No… no wHAT????? Oh”

Aella is a name associated with storms and wind, so I gave her that name because I wanted someone who really did embody that

I kept wanting to spell Aella’s name allen smh

This book started when i finally got off my ass and convinced myself to do a mafia au. The entire plot was pulled out of my ass in a period of brainstorming that kept me up until 5:30 the next morning

I actually sketched out the apartment’s layout so I could see it better.

later I actually designed a messy version of what it’d somewhat be like in the sims

Karanese is actually a district in the Attack on Titan universe :)

Each chapter takes me like 2 hours to write simply because I play out each and every ending in my head and choose the best one I’d want to see in a story

Other times I legit just have a feeling like I absolutely know how a chapter plays out like Chapter 3’s murder fight scene. It just came to me and all I had to do was describe it like I had just watched a movie

Chapter one took a total of seven hours to write

The plot twists were created when I asked myself what cliche can I change?

(Except I kept a few just to make fun of it I.E. roommates and badboy x nerdy character because that shit is hilarious and can really show the dynamic of how different each character really is)

Chapter two bore me to death to be honest

An actual example of my brainstorming while writing down facts:

I have no idea what the fuck to do after chapter 3 help

I pretty much said fuck it to planning out a plot and just wung it

Where am I gonna place Hange and the others

What about Eren lol

OH SHIT I JUST HAD THE IDEA THAT HANGE AND AELLA WERE FRIENDS BEFORE AELLA WAS KICKED OUT AOUFHALIUEHFALIUEHF

THEY’D TOTALLY BE LESBIANS FOR EACH OTHER

How’d you come up with the name for No Sympathy?

hilarious answer, actually. I spent two damn hours laying on my bed googling “what’s your mafia nickname” to just messing around with broken languages on google translate until it just popped in my head. Pretty much I was like “oh shit that sounds lit and fearsome lets do it bois” and yeah

I’m actually making this list of fun facts while writing each chapter. I’m going to start working on chapter 4 tomorrow and hopefully get my shit together to make a somewhat good plot??

Lmao I lied I got really fucking lazy and wrote the chapter at 11 at night and published it at midnight

I wrote everything about no sympathy in one iCloud note and titled it “No sympathy; the complete chaos of making a book”

The true main character of No Sympathy is actually Levi since I feel like I understand him completely since I relate to him so much; making Levi the easiest character I’ve written about ever. Though, his true character (in my opinion) doesn’t necessarily shine through in the beginning chapters as Levi don’t get along with new people, but you can see him warm up to Aella by doing her homework, dragging her out of the party, etc.

I’ve realized I have a distinct writing pattern while writing No Sympathy: comma, semi-colon, double dash. (Chapters two and three really showcase it as I wrote those two back to back in the car)

Had I actually had the inspiration and the motivation to write this almost a year ago, I would’ve been writing about the mafia at 13, which is an absolute hilarious thought to think about when I look back to my previous fanfics. Then again, my dumbass 14-year-old self is just as clingy as my dumbass 13-year-old self lmaoo

I gave Aella the same birth day (not year lmao) as mine (September 10) so she’d be 17 during the first month of school and 18 for the rest of the book

Going off of that fact, Levi is exactly 1 year and 8 months older than Aella (I kept his original birthday)

My cat demanded that I gave him cuddles and attention so I had to stop writing for one entire day because he wanted cuddles

Normally my cat just lays on my chest while I write b u t n o he wanted cuddles

If Levi never came into the picture Aella would probably date Hanji (for all of those fellow LGBTQIA+ readers and readers that really love Hanji)

While writing chapter 1 I listened to Ghost by Halsey on repeat and I think if you read while playing the exact song it somewhat shows in the pace I set for readers.

The term ‘block class’ is actually derived from what my own high school (even though I’m not even fully considered a freshman yet jfc) uses when referring to a 90 minute class

The book Technically begins on a Saturday with Levi — the actual power duo meet that Monday (because unlike dumbass schools in real life, their first day of school was on a Monday instead of the Friday before.) on their first day. That Tuesday was chapter 4, Wednesday being chapter 5, Thursday being chapter 6 (we skip Friday because it doesn’t fucking matter in the story lmao), and Saturday being the day of the party.

Writing an x reader but without the reader was really fucking hard, honestly. I couldn’t just randomly say ‘Levi looked over at the H/C girl working on her homework across from him’ as it’d just be weird, so I thought of the next best thing and never described Aella — making her free for interpretation of her looks.

I was going to have Aella have a name reveal like ‘my real name is Y/N…’ but then I was like “No what? Fuck it. Levi already knew from the beginning after looking at her documents.”

No Sympathy was actually going to be an original story, but Levi’s character fit so well I decided to make it a fanfic.

I actually wanted to stop writing after chapter 3 because I didn’t know what to do with the plot, but I asked my friend for help coming up with the plot using the paragraphs of ideas I had to make an actual plot. So, I can successfully say I owe it to her for helping and the one sentence that kept me going in my head: “I want to make a story I’m proud of.” So I fucked up my (nonexistent, really lmao) sleeping and eating schedules and started working on this book everyday even when I didn’t post a chapter that day.

Though, it’s not really specified in the early chapters, Aella was bullied into being hated by the entire school — leaving her to be all alone, which actually happened to me and gave me PTSD after transferring.

Ironically, I gave Aella a ton of reactions and characteristics I would/ just generally have, but I see myself more in Levi, which is probably why I prefer writing about him over Aella.

As of writing this, chapter 5 is currently my favorite chapter as it is a mix of a filler chapter and a regular important chapter still just as important as the rest.

Depression and PTSD actually got in the way of writing so many times I actually am surprised I’ve written so much

As writing has always been my go to for letting out everything (as I have z e r o close friends lmao) I actually don’t realize when I’m done with each chapter until I realize I’m out of ideas for said chapter.

I don’t even realize I write about 2,000 words until it’s like “oh,,”

No Sympathy wasn’t just any fanfic for me, it was like I was actually Aella seeing the entire story unfold from beginning to finish

I tried to push myself to describe more, as I’ve noted while rereading my previous shitty fanfics — I struggled describing everything.

I tried to not have the basic “tch”, “brat”, and just random cursing from Levi unless it was at the exact wrong time (or I just put it in because I could totally see him saying that in said situation)

I tried characterizing Hanji as someone who wasn’t the basic overexcited dumbass most fanfics portray her as — instead I tried thinking of her as an actual person with reactions and different moods  and tried to embody that each time I wrote her

Character development is a huge thing Ive been trying to work on ever since I wrote A Valkyrie and a Mischievous God (though that character development and story sucked ass and I cringe at how popular it’s gotten), and a huge target for it was none other than Aella. At the beginning you could see she felt trapped in an endless cycle of stress and fending for herself, but when Levi came in and was like “lmao I have money you don’t have to stress” she felt like she was in an odd spot, and eventually after she reunited with Hanji she started to feel more free

Parents were completely cut out of this story because I genuinely don’t know how to write them as mine are either states away by choice or always working, so I just had Aella get kicked out and had her entire family gone.

My best ideas surface at 4 am when I’m trying to fucking sleep

Help me

But hey I now have a new passion for this book

I generally didn’t know how to end it

buT THEN I D I D

A huge thing for me, and my entire driving motion for writing this was a simple sentence: “I want to write something I’m proud of.”

Am I proud of this?

Eh. It’s not shitty, I suppose. I could always do better.

Characterization was so difficult for me. I wanted to stray from basic fanfics of an overly hyper Hange (though, I couldn’t help in some situations, but after watching an entire season and a half in one day, you notice personality changes) and write and more serious one — except I’m a damn shitty author with so many grammatical mistakes my ex-mentor would literally rip her hair out.

Writing a book has always been my goal, and I know this is the only thing that will ever come close to it.

I have another Levi x reader planned, but I always hate doing the basic ‘_____’ ‘Y/N’, etc because it literally drives my depressed self I n s a n e when writing

Most times for my outline summaries of the chapters I just put my name in place of Aella lmao

I actually struggled a lot when writing this; sometimes I even broke down thinking no one liked this book or I wasn’t a good enough author to write anymore.

My asshole self mainly spent my summer writing this rip

Currently, as it is July 2nd, I am literally hoping to Levi that I fucking get this done before August or else I’m so fucking screwed with beginning high school and shit.

Oh yeah btw, I’M NOT FUCKING READY FOR THE FINAL SEASON. I’LL BE A DAMN SOPHOMORE AND THAT IN ITSELF K I L L S ME

I don’t know if I’m actually going to continue with this book, but have these collected facts I started writing the moment the first chapter was out :,) It’s already September and my past dumbass was right

High school is kicking my ass

I have another story idea/plot written out and I really like it so idk. I think I’d stop halfway again because I’d think that no one would like it