#like i know im bad at socializing and have v little social spoons

[the-silent-hashira]

ever feel like ur boasting abt yourself too much in a server so ur brain just tells u to shut the fuck up Forever™️

[refroged]

@obiwoman ​ tagged me in this - thank you!! and sorry it took me a little while lol

Are you staying home from work/school? yep! my university stopped in-person classes 2 weeks ago, so i’ve been home for those 2 weeks!

If you’re staying home, who is with you? my family! i usually live with my parents and younger brother, and my older sister came home from Toronto last week because she lives alone and was worried about being isolated for a long time

Who would be your ideal quarantine mate? uuh idk! i love my sister but she’s also extremely “healthy” in a very performative way which is stirring up some of the v unhealthy guilty attitudes towards food that i struggled with when i was younger:( so she’s maybe not the ideal quarantine buddy? i started seeing someone before all of this happened! and i like her and i wish i could see her more rn! not wishing we were stuck together for like, 2 months or whatever though lol! so idk! idk! i don’t think any single person can accomplish what the range of human interaction im used to like, provides for my brain lmao

Are you a homebody? i think so! although its not always by choice! i like a social gathering of the ‘close friends hanging out’ variety, but i appear to have befriended many borderline-frat-bros recently so im lacking in the social engagement that i like best:( so mostly i just stay home. straight people parties exhaust me lmao, and im tired of being concerned about alcohol poisoning or weed-induced anxiety. also don’t know how to ask people i like to spend time with me so moslty! i just stay home!

An event you were looking forward to that got canceled? yeah! i had a poster presentation for a research project the week everything got cancelled, so i was a little disappointed about that! i was also supposed to see a production of paradise lost in late april and also maybe go to paris that week, which are both noooot really going to happen at this point:( AND i was supposed to go over to someone’s place and she was gonna cook for me and i was gonna try to hype myself up and maybe kiss her so IDK!! kinda bad timing lol!

What movies have you watched recently? aaaah recently i watched The Farewell, Okja, and Horse Girl! and i was super late to the party but i did watch The Shape of Water for the first time not long ago too

What shows are you watching? i’m watching Altered Carbon rn! also rewatching Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt in the background while i like, brush my teeth or chop onions or whatever lol! i finished rewatching ATLA 2ish weeks ago, and i’m considering a rewatch of LOK too 👀

What music are you listening to? uuh i’ve been listening to a lot of Courtney Barnett the past few days ! i mostly listen to music on the bus and i. am not really on the bus much these days lmao.. i listened to New Order and Spoon in the car the other day as well i think!

What are you reading? mostly stuff for class:( i’m not allowed to read anything else until i catch up on my class reading! i’m making my way through Hanif Kureishi’s The Buddha of Suburbia rn, and i read Coriolanus like 5 times this month for an essay lol. i also found a printed copy of “Crossing Brooklyn Ferry” that i had put up in my cubicle last summer, which is now taped above my bedside table lol so i have been reading that poem a lot, if that counts!

What are you doing for self-care? hmm im cooking more for sure! playing animal crossing! allowing myself to be unproductive, which is something i definitely struggle with! and i am TRYING to drink more water but ooooh my god am i bad at it lol. i also just spent more money than i should’ve on art prints bc im in my bedroom more than ever before and i want nice things to contemplate :)

i’m gonna tag @hale-of-stiles-heart in return! if we’re mutuals (or even if we’re not mutuals!) and you enjoy/don’t mind being tagged in things, let me know (like sincerely! let me know)! i feel bad bothering people out of the blue, but if you want to do this say i tagged you! i really really mean it! or like tell me so i can tag you next time lol

[ofangelos]

hi it’s dani ( duh ) this is my trash son a*gel im v excited pls come plot with me :)

╰☆╮ SHAWN MENDES ─ ANGELOS ALESANDRO ALMEIDA identifies as CIS MALE and uses HE/HIM pronouns. they’re a RAPPER and they’re only TWENTY-ONE ! they’re said to be AMBITIOUS, but also DISHONEST. i guess that’s why they’re known as THE BLACK HOLE in the tabloids.

he was born in mykonos, greece to the ceo of the philip-morris tobacco distribution company. when i say angel is rich, i mean angel is riiiiich. his family is worth over 120 billion dollars. angel grew up with a silver spoon in his mouth, and has never ever ever dreamed of having anything less.

to better understand angel, u guys need to better understand the almeidas as a family. in my first intro, i sorta??? brushed over the fact but i’ve come to realize that they’ve had a huge impact on his psyche and his morals and everything??

to put it in short…  have y’all seen dynasty on netflix? blake carrington is basically just… angel’s father. the carrington dynamic is the almeida’s dynamic to a t.

okay, being in charge of such a huge company that not only ruled tobacco distribution, but own 6 major cigarette brands that reach every single continent in the world meant that angel’s father hardly had time for him. it was only business with him. if he wasn’t at the office, he was cheating on angel’s mother - it was a habit the whole family knew about. it was no surprise. angel’s never been good at relationships because he experienced infidelity his whole life. his idea of love was really messed up at a young age.

tw: drug abuse but yes ! his parents never paid him any mind. his father was far too busy with work, and his mother was far too busy passing out on narcotics to bring some feeling back into her dull life and her awful marriage to take care of angel.

angel was essentially just raised by nannies, and they weren’t awful to him at all. they were dope and super nice to him? but he still managed to build up a resentment towards them because he didn’t have enough time to experience his parents and build up a resentment towards the people who actually deserved it

angel had a lot of pressure for him to do well in school - he was supposed to step up and be the ceo of one of the most powerful companies in the world one day, after all - so he constantly had tutors rolling in and out of his house to make sure he was the best and brightest he could be! he never got to go have play-dates and be a normal kid because his father was so focused on prepping 7-year-old angel to be a ceo. that’s all he was to his father - another him.

because of this inability to hang out with the other kids outside of school, angel had a really really hard time making friends??? he was a very lonely kid. he just couldn’t relate to any of them because he was constantly being prepped for public appearances and learning 7 other languages so he’d be useful by the time he was old enough to put on a suit.

angel’s father actually hired someone to have their kid be angel’s friend - and also lowkey a body guard that would take any hit and any bullet for angel, but angel didn’t know this and just thought he had a loyal friend dsjioad

but yeaaaa not having the opportunity to talk to people his age is what causes him to be so stand-offish and say such rude things sometimes?? because he didn’t get the chance to develop useful social skills at a young age? the only things he knew how to do were 1) demand things 2) speak an absurd amount of languages and 3) charm the press

when angel’s father did make the time to see angel, it was never for good reason.

angel used to be?? so upset about not being able to spend time with his father?? but as time went on, it clicked in his head that he was only relevant to his father when he was doing something wrong / bad, so he hated when his father made meetings with him

u read that correctly – meetings. angel stopped seeing daddy dearest at home when he was about 11. after that, it was pure business. he’d have to schedule an appointment with him just like anyone else. because being his father’s son was just a title - it didn’t actually mean anything. he was just another person.

tw: mental abuse anyways ! these meeting never went well for angel because all they were was an opportunity for his father to let out his pent-up frustrations about everything on his son. angel could miss one question on an exam, and boom – meeting ! he was essentially his father’s outlet. and at first it was just mental abuse - yelling at angel about how stupid he was, or how he’d never amount to anything, or how he was ruining the almeida legacy

which made angel feel terrible about himself?? i mean… duh … but like… he couldn’t do the /one thing/ he’s basically been trained like a fucking dog to do his entire life ??? he couldn’t just be perfect and it killed him??? because he tried so, so, so, so, so hard to come as close as possible

it’s not the typical acted-out-for-attention. eventually, angel learned that he didn’t want the attention because it was only ever negative. he acted wonderfully and tried to be the best he could possibly be to keep his father away from him

tw: domestic abuse, tw: abuse eventually, just yelling at angel wasn’t enough to express his anger, and his father fell into an awful awful habit where, whenever angel did anything to piss him off, he’d light a cigarette and then jab it onto angel’s arm and let it burn. angel has little circle scars up and down his arms that he’s tried to cover up with tattoos from this

angel always read in books or saw on tv that families were supposed to love and support each other, so he just assumed ??? that this was what love was like?? that it was tough all the time and sometimes cruel??? so he has a very twisted image of family and relationships and love and all of that

he has a very inflated perspective of self-importance because, in greece, he just is that important. he’s as close to royalty as you can get without actually being a king or a prince. his family essentially has a monopoly over the entire country when it comes to property and business, so, of course, the almeidas are well known. they’re the kardashians of greece without the hit tv show. they never showed their lives because they put up a beautiful facade of a happy family running a billion dollar business, when really, they were as messed up as they came

tw: drugs, tw: alcoholism, tw: addiction he ended up going to oxford university’s business school straight out of high school and dropping out when he was a sophomore / second year because drugs and alcohol slowly crept their way into his life just like how they had with his mother, and it got to the point where he was dependent on them to get through the day + couldn’t concentrate on anything else

the one thing he found solace in was music, so much to his father’s dismay, he began a career as a rapper ( vc is g-eazy ) aaand that’s what he’s been doing since he was nineteen.

i don’t really have much else to say other than that he’s a crackhead and heavily reliant on alcohol / drugs and a huuuuuge douchebag ok thanks

[niicolc]

     hello  hey  what’s  good  hunnies,  i’m  rollin  up  late  but  uh  !!   my  name’s  maia,  21+  y/o  living  it  up  in  the  ast  part  of  the  world  and  uh  listen  i  don’t  have  discord  bc  i’m  a  literal  grandma  when  it  comes  to  keeping  up  with  all  the  new  means  of  being  social  lmao  so  if  you  would  like  to  chat  and / or  plot ??  just  shoot  me  an  im  on  here —  i’m  usually  always  mobile  &  i  obviously  love  to  talk  a  lot !  and  i’m  a  heaux  for  dramatic / angst-fuelled  plots .. just  a  little  fyi … i’m  excited !!  so  anyway !!!  onto  the  Idiot  of  the  Hour  you’re  actually  here  to  read  about;  my  darling  nicole.  i  have  a  pinterest  board  for  her  HERE  ,  her  stats  page  set  up  HERE  ,  and  a  connections  page  HERE  which  as  you  can  see  is  bare  as  all  hell  so  let’s  plot  <3

     virginia gardner .  cis female .  she / her .  ／  nicole  porter  just  pulled  up  blasting  prophet  by  king  princess—  that  song  is  so  them !  you  know,  for  a  twenty  three  year  old  actress,  i’ve  heard  they’re  really  -inquisitive,  but  that  they  make up  for  it  by  being  so  +piquant.  if  i  had  to  choose  three  things  to  describe  them,  i’d  probably  say  silk  robes,  vanilla  vodka  &  berry  liqueur,  knotted  cherry  stems.  here’s  to  hoping  they  don’t  cause  too  much  trouble !

okay so homegirl here has had it pretty easy her entire life. both of her parents are well established in the industry ( which is actually how they met; mr & mrs smith style u know ... sfdgsg ) & household names, featuring in several blockbuster hits. like the infamous philosopher dr justin roberts once said: “six figures, i was only four”, nicole was born with several silver spoons in her mouth. while most would assume she’s a straight up trust fund punk, though, she inherited her parents’ impeccable work ethic and talent to a fault.

as an only child and therefore sole heir to the porter estate, her parents have been on nic’s ass her entire life to give her absolute best in everything she does. health, school, sports, friendships, relationships, the whole shebang. raised as a poster child, her marks were always near the top of her class, she excelled in the ballet classes her mother insisted nic attend since she was a little girl, took on leading roles in almost every school play / musical, and even tried her hand in softball. but it wasn’t until she hit her mid adolescent years, that her focus on going to university and becoming the world’s next best neurosurgeon faltered.

after graduating high school with exemplary marks, instead of taking the opportunity to potentially thrive in the big leagues of the surgical world, nicole opted to stick to her creative roots, following in his parents’ footsteps. she auditioned for several roles, acting small parts here and there, but it wasn’t until she landed a role on fox’s musical show glee ( as quinn fabray ) that nicole earned her stripes and leaped to stardom. since then, she’s also made big waves with her role in house at the end of the street ( as elissa ), starred in an episode of black mirror ( as yorkie in san junipero ), and even voiced a video game character for until dawn ( as jessica riley ).

wanted connections ; 1) ok so uh she obviously needs her cast mates / ppl she’s worked with. hc glee is just in its third/fourth season rn so uh......gimme some glee cast. also somebody pls somebody give nic the kelly to her yorkie oml. past & present ( & future ?? if y’all wanna plot somethin cool like that idk ).   2) also on that note, maybe a fellow actor/actress that she’s worked with &  hooked up / had relations with?? but that would be kept v lowkey bc her pr wants her to be single ( and so does she tbh bc commitment freaks her out dsfkhgdfg ) so that would be a loAD of angst huh.   3) she need her some fwb / hook up type deals, whether they be a regular occurrence or a one time thing. sweet girl is lowkey hypersexual.   4) ex gfs/bfs!! i don’t see her having like… a SHIT load of exes bc she tries to stay away from relationships but probably anywhere between 1-4?? whether they be on good terms, bad terms, lingering feelings, maybe a publicity stunt, etc. i’m cool with whatever.   5) how about some enemies tho. like… idk man i’m SURE there are ppl she rubs the wrong way bc she’s a pretty nosey girl lmao. or maybe they think she’s fake. or maybe there’s some acting rivalry or publicity rivalry or she broke ur bff’s heart?? the possibilities are endless.   6) some PARTY PALS!!!! girl loves to hit up the clubs / events, dress to the nines & drink fine wine. ppl she is regularly seen with, either out in public or at awards shows, etc.

[sunnysidewrites]

Boyfriend!Byungchan

Requested by anon: i know this is so simple but may i please please PLEASE get boyfriend!byungchan he's my ult n i love him so much but i never see anything written for him sadly and i know you'd do him justice 😭💗 thank you in advance mom!!

JINGLE THEM BELLS THIS CALLS FOR A CELEBRATION!!! i have finally written another scenario after 2 months!!!! and i feel incredibly bad bc i haven’t written much yet for this gem of a group victon so!!! here it is anonnie i hope i didn’t let you down and im so sorry it took me 9374932 years!!! happy reading my children!!!

warnings: thinking abt byung esp as a bf made me wanna die so there ya go!! a giraffe who does not hold back for birthdays

THE SWEETEST CUTIE PATOOTIE E V E R!!!!

He’s extremely soft and I’m p sure that goes for every single aspect

He’s emotionally soft, he’s physically soft…. just a whole sweetie!!!

CUDDLE SESSIONS!!!! ARE A MUST!!!!

He’s super touchy and would keep you within arm’s length everywhere y’all go

He’s an actual giraffe so he would be the big spoon but sometimes his lil boy at heart persona wants to be the little spoon,,, even though,,, that will be quite difficult given his build,,,,,

Pls keep him giggly and happy at all times and it’s NOT just bc of his insanely cute dimples ⅓ DIMPLE KINGS SQUAD

He is so pure and deserves the entire universe and seeing him sad instantly breaks your heart bc he just does everything he can to shower you with affection and give you tons of love

Every time you’re sad he would instantaneously rush to your side and gently take you by the shoulders and look you in the eyes while worriedly asking, “what’s wrong honey????!!!”

And sometimes you tell him but sometimes you’re afraid you might just break if you utter a single word

And in those sadder times, he understands without any words exchanged and pulls you into an engulfing embrace that warms you up more than the shining sun outside

He rubs your shoulders and draws circles on your back to soothe you and kisses the top of your head

He whispers sweet nothings and repeats “shhh, I’m here. I’m here for you, it’s okay” and then bam you’re about to bawl out the Pacific

When he’s sad he loOKS SO CRESTFALLEN AND HE LOOKS LIKE A PUPPY AAAAJSJDJSDJSJSN

He would get x827392937 clingier and he demands hugs and cuddles

“doNT LEAVE ME HONEY!!!!”

“sweetie,,, I’ve been holding in my pee for the past 2 hours lET ME GO”

“>:((( fine,,,,, I suppose,,,”

y’all invented couple goals especially those super cute aesthetic ones that keep popping up on your social media

You lowkey get someone to third wheel for you but it’s chill bc you pay for their meals even though you sit in front of them and do Cute Couple Things

He has his arm around your shoulders primarily bc of the height difference but he would also definitely grab your waist!!!

Very very touchy and affectionate!!! Did i mention that already

Holding hands, back hugs, piggy back rides (those are your favorite I mean loOK AT THE VIEW YOU GET LOL), the whole nine yards

He easily scoops you up every time he tries to stop your pouting,,,, a lil too easily,,,,

“puT ME DOWN BYUNGCHAN!!!!”

“uhhhh sorry can’t hear you from up here now let’s go to that favorite restaurant of yours!!”

When he first introduces you to his friends he will be a little bashful sdljfldjf!!!!

And his friends are like wOW BUDDY YOU ARE WHIPPED!!!!

“Ah so this is the Y/N we’ve heard so much about!”

You: *violently whips around to face him* WHAT DID U TELL THEM

Him: *panics* ssdlfjdfsj it waSN’T ANYTHING BAD

His friends: yea he loves to talk about how he gets lost in your eyes and how you always smell like fresh laundry and how your hair is soft and--

Him: OK WE GET IT!!!! THANK YOU

Them: --yeah he just has a blabbermouth when it comes to you

By the time it’s around your fifth visit, they’ve already taken you in as their lil sibling and it’s a v v heartwarming relationship, considering their strong familial dynamic so that’s an entire step itself

He gives you affection so naturally that when you do it back to him he’s like LSDFJEOJFOSDL???!?!!1!?? Error: Choi Byungchan does not exist

AND THEN HE BREAKS OUT INTO THE DIMPLEZ,,,, ICONIC

He would be v v willing to let his partner be happy all the time so he would always try to meet your needs

But sometimes this bby gets so lost in fulfilling yours that he ignores his own!!! :((

And so that’s why each of your birthdays are uh,,,, pretty wild tbh bc y’all are trying to smother each other in love to the highest level possible and then some

When it’s your bday he goes A L L O U T

He takes you to your favorite place that he knows always puts your soul at ease

He treats you to your favorite dish that distinctively reminds you of your childhood

He gets you that bag you’ve been lowkey eyeing for the past few weeks bc he knows how much you need one for work

He gives you!! A back massage!!! And boy did you need it

He presents you a slideshow about how much you’ve grown in your relationship and some of the photos date back even before y’all got together to other very recent ones where he captured you mid-laughing in the middle of a street

And by the end of the day, he’s still not done wow jfc

He presents you to one last meal for dinner and it’s the first one you cooked for him and he lEARNED IT JUST FOR YOU!!!!!

And after you cry bc you’re just so happy and moved he pulls out one last trick up his sleeve and wants to slow dance with you :’))))))))

And what do you know it’s your fav song

While you’re swaying you thank him a billion times but it will never even amount to what he’s done for you

And all he does is press his lips to your forehead

“Happy birthday, Y/N. it was truly a happy birthday that day”

WOW IM CRYING OK

All in all, he is such bf material and will literally do anything to have y’all smile with him so you can blind everyone with your beautiful smiles and thus increasing the jealousy factor of those around you!!!!

[undiagnosedautismfeels]

Not a feel

- What is 'autism/autistic burnout?'

For want of a better phrase, it’s when you act more obviously autistic (sensory issues are worse, more prone to melt/shutdown etc.) as a result of something like stress or having been low on spoons for some time

- (Not a feel) Is it possible for a certain person or thing to make bad sensory things not bad? Like for example, I have issues with loud noises. But, there's this one person who, if I'm around, for some reason it won't affect me? Like, I was in a really loud place with this person, and normally I'd be dying of sensory overload, but I was fine. It used up most of my spoons, but I was fine otherwise, and it's super confusing? So, like, is it possible? - V

I think so?

- Hi! I've been diagnosed with general anxiety and they want to also diagnose me with asd. Though I feel like i would have adhd rather than asd, could adhd and general anxiety together be misinterpeted as asd?

It’s certainly possible. There’s a lot of overlap between ADHD and ASD and the anxiety aspect wouldn’t help with that

- Not a feel but, what is infodumping?

Saying/otherwise conveying a large amount of information, generally about a special interest. Often with very little control over the amount of information given as it just comes rushing out

- Hi um im new to this blog , im a 22 year old female who was diagnosed with dyslexia and ADHD (innatentive type ADD) in childhood. However, as I read mor about ASD there's so many traits (in fact have all but one according to DSM 5) that can not be explained by my previous diagnoses. only thij is I also have experienced anxiety from as long as I can remember. someone's opinion is it possible to have ASD as well as dyslexia and ADHD Or could my anxiety be causing similar ASD syptoms ?

Both options are possible. Some people do have anxiety from a young age but autism is also possible. There’s also a lot of overlap between ASD and ADHD so it’s hard to say without knowing you

- Is it an autism thing to never feel shame? Even for things I should probably feel a little ashamed about? I just...I dont experience shame at all and I dont understand it. 🌟☉

It’s possible, as it may be related to social issues