#like i have the worst writers block rn i keep just starting new fics

[obitoslay]

I KEEP ABANDONING MY WIPS.. HELP

[st6rly]

ALL OF THEM FOR THE TRUTG OR DARE 🗣️

- tired

you little... why i ouaghta...

🎱 — post your AO3 total stats 

i haven't posted on ao3 in two years bro ... might cross post my moze fic there though

🍓 — how did you get into writing fanfiction? 

discovered wattpad in grade 6, mainly read those original stories, got into watching haikyuu, found character x character fanfiction, then discovered x reader, gender expression got weird & wanted more m!reader fics, started writing! that wattpad book is NEVER seeing the light of day again... gods i can't believe one of the stellaronhvnters "knew" me during my wattpad days...

🕯️ — on a scale from 1 to 10, how much do you enjoy editing? why is that?

love-hate relationship um id say an 8 on a good day and 4 on a bad one. editing is nice because then i can expand on metaphors and connecting these, making the whole piece more cohesive. bad bc sometimes i can't stomach reading what ive written TwT

🛼 — describe your latest wip with five emojis

in terms of fanfic: 🐦‍⬛⚔️🏨🫁⭐️

but for my longterm wip: ☕️🗯️🎶⭐️📱

💌 — how many unread emails do you have right now? 

81.

🐇 — do you prefer writing original characters, reader inserts, or a mix of both? 

both! fanfiction is often a warm up for me in order to write other stuff. that's why my posting schedule is so slow... but tbh im more focused on poetry rn and trying to beat out a big writer's slump rn

🎲 — what stops you from writing more in your free time? 

burnout from general life :/

🧸 — what's the fastest way to become your mutual?

genuinely surprised i have mutuals in the first place im horrible at talking to new people um... idk.

🪐 — name three good things going on in your life right now

writing groove is starting to come back, started writing multiple different oc projects again, got into uni ^^

📚 — what's the last thing you wrote down in your notes app? 

details for plans with irls this weekend

❄️ — what's your dream theme/plot for a fic?

some sort of boxing interactive fiction or a religious horror theme based on some ocs. i love gritty scenes and such. been meaning to write stuff akin to that when time permits ^^

🌿 — give some advice on writer's block and low creativity

keep going. even if you feel imperfect, lost, scared, annoyed, frustrated at you "lack" of productivity, keep going.

🦋 — share something that has been on your heart and mind lately 

i would but it would be vent territory. but!! can say im worried my mental health and social life have been rocky lately.

🦴 — is there a piece of media that inspires your writing? 

poetry ive read often influences my writing practices

🐚 — do you like or dislike surprises?

um depends. typically dislike, but only if it's in situations where the plan is no longer being stuck too

☁️ — what made you choose your username?

starly was my first ever pseudonym and i missed it

🐝 — tag your biggest supporter(s) and say one nice thing about them

@/my irl — they have tumblr i just don't want her to know this blog FKJDHKJF but we've known each other since early elementary school and has been one of the most supportive figures in my life <33 has stuck by me through my worst, even when i refused to talk abt what my worst actually was. would not be here tbh if not for their support

@stellaronhvnters — ALL OF THEM!! i love this server and the people... brought a really big amount of cheer to my life during a really rough period last summer and through the fall with academic and social pressures

🧩 — what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

when there's no line breaks. just. a wall of text.

[fandomlovingfreak]

It Was Written on Their Wrists in Stars (ch9/?)

Egon Spengler/F!Reader

Ch1. Ch2. Ch3. Ch4. Ch5. Ch6. Ch7. Ch8. Ch10. Ch11.

Rating: General Audiences

Includes: Soulmate marks, soulmate fic

Word Count: 1328

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Summary: Ever since you were a child, you had dreamed about getting your mark and finding the perfect person. When you finally got your mark, a quarter-sized star on the inside of your wrist, you were delighted! Your fairytale romance was just getting started.

Egon didn’t believe in fate. He didn’t believe that a mark on your body meant something just because it matched a mark on someone else’s body. When he woke up one morning and found a star on his wrist, he brushed it off. Moles could be star-shaped, he supposed.

Disclaimer: I do not own the Ghostbusters (sad, I know). This work has not been created for profit or financial compensation, and is a transformative fair use work in accordance with Section 107 of the United States Copyright Act.

Notes: Thank you for being patient for this update. I am having the worst writers block bc of stress from my job rn! I genuinely just wanted to get this out and am so sorry if it’s like 0_0 ya know ugh! Anyways, thanks for always being lowkey cool people who say nice things when I struggle with writing<3 I appreciate it

Enjoy

The sunlight cascades through the large windows of the hole-in-the-wall cafe. We sit across from each other on the beat-up couches, exchanging little more than looks. 

I have little idea of what to say to Egon. Do I admit out loud that I didn't even want to be with Peter in the first place? I'd spent so much time now convinced to settle for less than I wanted. Peter was fine, he was a good person even, but he was never the person I wanted.

Continuing to gather my courage to speak, I sip my coffee, cooled with a dash of heavy cream. Egon had ordered black coffee but had all but ignored it since the barista had handed him the disposable cup.

"So," I try to break the silence between us, "Um-- I don't know what I'll say to Peter."

"I'll talk to him."

It's sweet, but I don't need a knight in shining armor. I can fix the problems I've created. "No, I will. Peter doesn't know you're involved yet, and it doesn't make sense to get you involved until you have to be." 

He remains unreadable, something I'm sure I can get used to with time.

"What will you say?"

An excellent question. I wouldn't lie, as it would make the long term uncomfortable. The last thing I wanted to do was be in the middle of some dramatic fallout or ruin a friendship. The best outcome for all of this would be for me to be with my soulmate while keeping Peter and Egon's friendship intact.

"I'll tell him the truth. He'll find out eventually, won't he?"

Egon nods, "Venkman will get over it. He moves on quickly from all his brief romances."

He must notice how my face falls over this declaration as he quickly tries to remedy the accidental hurt, "You know what I mean. Peter is... he's Peter. He'll survive."

He looks at me. Yeah, Peter was Peter. He could be sweet, but like Egon, I felt that he truly would be fine.

I sigh, "He will, but it doesn't make breaking the news any easier."

"I can be there with you if you'd like."

"As much as I'd like that," I say with a smile, "I think I need to speak with him first. I don't think he'll take it too well that I'm breaking up with him to date his friend."

Pink rapidly blooms on his cheeks, making me feel self-conscious over saying we're dating. We aren't technically but-- I mean, I assumed!

"Oh, I thought--" I look away to hide the embarrassment.

"I want to be with you. Romantically." He blurts out.

"You do?" 

"Yes. I'm obviously not great at this, but if you have patience..."

My smile returns to my face, "I want to be with you, too. But I won't put labels on it right now if it makes you more comfortable."

"I'd prefer a label."

"Okay. Once I've spoken to Peter, we can decide on that label then."

Egon nods, a small, rare smile on his face, "I'd like that."

***

I feel lighter when I leave Doctor Leinonen's office. Despite our lunchbreak being heavy, a path had been semi-cleared for my soulmate and me. I felt electric like you were supposed to feel when you found your person. Even if it wasn't the instant connection I had dreamed of, it was our beginning, which made it special. Heck, it may even be a bit funny in a few years.

The only thing that could dampen my mood was the eventual talk I would have to have with Peter. Two dates weren't a lot in the long run, but Egon and I had kissed minutes after my date with Peter ended, and that made me feel like I'd done something wrong. Add in the part where the man I went out on a date was one of my soulmate's closest friends, and it ended up sounding like a movie.

If I could preserve their friendship, I would feel better about everything else. Besides, Peter had to understand, right? Egon and I were destined to be together. It wasn't anything he did! He had to understand under these circumstances.

I close my apartment door, running straight into Monica.

"You're home! I'm making dinner right now. Do you want some?"

Grinning, I toe off my shoes before following her into our small kitchen.

"You're smiling awfully big. Did something happen at your internship? Or maybe you went out with Peter again for lunch?"

The smile falls from my face, "Uh--"

Monica frowns, "What did he do? I'll--"

"Mon!" My laughter comes out awkwardly, "He didn't do anything. I should... I have to be honest about something."

Her frown deepens as I lead her towards our small kitchen table, "If he did anything to you..."

"He did nothing, but this is about him. Sort of."

"Don't keep me in suspense."

"You know my friend Ray, right?"

Monica nods, "I do."

"Well, he's got this friend, Egon--"

"Why are you telling me about your friend's friends?"

"Let me speak, Monica Gabarro!"

Monica puts her hands up in surrender, "Sorry, continue."

I wait a couple seconds to make sure she's committed to letting me speak before continuing, "I met his friend before finals in the library, and I accidentally saw that he had the same star as I do on my wrist," Monica's eyes widen. Still, she doesn't interrupt, "but he made it incredibly weird by pretending it wasn't a match mark, so I let him, right? How can I force someone to be with me, right?" Monica nods along, "And then, I met Peter at the bar and found out that Peter and Egon are friends! And by this weirder twist of fate, I ended up working with Egon at my internship! And get this! He got all weird and jealous over Peter and me and kissed me!" 

"What!" Monica's eyes widen.

"Right! And now I have to break things off with Peter because it's the right thing to do, and Egon told me he wants to be with me and I really really want to be with him. Is that crazy? To break up with Peter over this?"

"Uh, no?" Monica grabs my shoulders, shaking me lightly, "Your match mark said they want to be with you. And I could tell you didn't feel that spark with Peter after the first date. Heck! Even at that bar, when you met him, you looked tense. When are you going to speak with him?"

"Soon."

"Soon! Give me a time, a date!"

"Monica! This has already been an extremely stressful couple of weeks--"

She interrupts, "The sooner you break it off with Peter, the sooner you can be with your soulmate. If I had a match mark, I would do anything to be with them."

I shake my head, sighing dramatically, "I feel horrible for leading Peter on."

"Oh, please. Joyce remembered why she knew that name, and I had planned to tell you tonight why! Her roommate Vivian, you know, the short brunette, was dumped by the same guy. He's a total jerk."

Part of me had sort of suspected Peter to be a player, and Egon's words at lunch only furthered the suspicion.

"Oh god, Mon. I am such an idiot."

"No, you are not. You thought your soulmate rejected you. You know I would've done worse if I were in your shoes."

I smile, "You would not. You wouldn't have gotten yourself in this position in the first place. If you were me, you would've told Egon the moment he lied and said the mark was a star-shaped mole."

"Oh my god. Are you for real? A star-shaped mole?" She snorts.

"I know, it's ridiculous." We laugh for a moment over the absurdity before calming down enough to get words out.

"I am so talking about this at your wedding," she says, pulling me into a hug.

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

no dont apologise! i didnt check until just then so np :)

mmm yeah it is a bit trippy. hehe ITS TRUE THO. yeah sadly i think ur right, and tag blocking is probably a good idea. sometimes smut written well or not in excess is okay but goddamn when its abt 01 line and thats the whole fic... *silently blocks tags*

hehe i do that all the time lol this conversation is carrying on threads from a month ago :) mmm yeah ur probably right sadly, same. HA HE DIDNT HAVE A CHOICE and now i have someone to talk to abt them, so thats good! I KNOW felix was actually the one who got me into skz with his iconique gods menu line so i guess i have a soft spot for him. i always tell myself my bias is chan but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ guess im more whipped than id like to admit. mmm yeah that does make sense dw i hope they do that as well. YES king seungmin hIMSELF. GODDAMNIT DONT GET ME STARTED ON MINHO IN GODS MENU I DIDNT EVEN KNOW HE WAS PART OF THE GROUP UNTIL I STARTED GETTING MORE INTO THEM. BITCH (affectionate) THE LINE DISTRIBUTION HAS BEEN UTTER DOG SHIT but *deep breath* its better now so were moving on adn hoping it stays that way. sis same but i may or may not have gone thru a rlly depressed phase and actively sought out the elimination episodes so i could actually force some tears out of my emotionless shell of a heart but what cna you do? lmaoo i feel that irl, binnie deserves more vocal lines. yesss channies accent is rlly prominent then, i think also the way he structures his phrasing? is more english speaking than korean? but yeah i totally get what ur saying. AJKSAL lmao

okay then! im excited for whenever it gets done! (maybe tag me?) ahh the cold shrivelled heart of a dark au writer beats again at the thought of torturing another poor characters very soul (/j) :(( yeah that would suck not being able to see them. ohhh ur on the other hemisphere to me! were just going into spring rn. mmm smth to look forward to! YES you put it into words. they rlly are pretty independent from the company (remember how jyp rejected that other dudes songs after like 3 seconds and then how he was apparently nervous to show the song hed written to chan cos chan was so good at writing hits ahhh sweet revenge) mmmYES we rlly need a mute and remove notifications button for our brains dont we?

YES CORRECT i totally agree. some people jsut dont give it a try, adn assume its bad cos its korean smh racist assholes. yes! im coming up to my 6 month anniv actually! sis sAME, i feel like theyre being tugged into appealing to the western american market and theyre not staying as true to their artistic flair as a group, especially with only writing english songs atm. *sigh* ah well, at least theyre bringing recognition to the kpop world. AHUH dead on, theyre going to be discarded pretty soon and then where will bp be? theyll prob go solo paths which is rlly sad but what can you do when the company is run by a prideful asshole? yg is not going to last much longer in the big four if they keep this up.

hehe you get it. oooh very cool! whos ur ult? (sorry if youve said this before) mmmm yeah good decision, i feel liek thats probably a wise decision. this is my first album release as a kpop stan (not counting mixtape oh) so i think ill get it for sentiments sake. yeah! im excited for the new music! mingi was the one who got me into them, but atm my bias is seonghwa followed by san, wooyoung and ateez but jonghos high notes man *swoon* he, yeah atm ive got jake, jay, nikki, jungwon and sunoo down so just trying to get the rest :) heh, yeah kard i rlly only got into cos of bm, ive seen him like interacting with a lot of idols and he seemed nice so i decided to check out the group. ikr gunshot man *another swoon*

no noe! i didnt know what it was until i got it lol. thx toffee ill try and take that to mind :) yeah lol im on a waiting list thats not going to be free until late september so hopefully i can hold on until then. hope ur okay, that sounds like it sucks, hope you can find someone. maybe ill just take you along on my phone and the therapist can get a two for one patient deal lmaooo. mmm, sorry no i havent mentioned it before, i dont rlly talk abt it much. uhhh basically hypermobility? if you google it, it doesnt seem bad, jsut joint flexibility but ive got the severe end of the stick, leaning towards ehlers danlos syndrome so thats fun. basically it just makes it hard for me to exercise, run, jump, stand or just walk for long periods of time and gives me a lot of joint and muscle pain so... thats fun! but obviously so many other people have it worse than me, so i try not to complain. normally in young people it will improve as they get older, but my doctor said bc its severe in me, its unlikely to get much better. but again, i dont have the worst lot in the bunch, so its all g.

oh its good that its not the bad type of rain, a light sprinkling can be relaxing sometimes. aww thx darl, the concern is appreciated but it went pretty well and i managed not to cough too much on stage or kill myself trying to run around to the other side of the stage in the pouring rain so thats good! oooh tea buddies! my dogs a labradoodle, but shes a bit more of a feral poodle lol not much labrador in her at all, unless its her relentless urge to hunt down every bird that has ever walked this earth smh :((( hopefully they can come back on soon, does uni have dances?

ahhh a mood if i ever heard one. hopefully things will get better for you soon, ik anxiety sucks ass. ooh thats always good! when its sunny here, its always melt ur thongs to the pavement hot so the nicely cool sunny days are a lovely change. hehe impatience is not so good for you, but good for us that get to see ur beautiful theme early. ahh no worries, itll come eventually hopefully. and if not, then just things that make you not anxious are good. it doesnt have to be black or white, sometimes gray is good. mmmmm sames i have midterms this week to catch up on and then two weeks of end of terms so thats fun! i hope u can overcome that a little, heres some channie to be ur motivation https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8LWyNjzOww. hah! i hear that all the time, he seems to be everywhere. did you see that tiktok of hans slowed back door rap, i stg it sounded EXACTLY like namjoon, it kinda scared me. also teh beginning of another day, sounds so much like joon i swear.

that reminds me! idk ur biases! i feel like this should be smth i should know so please! feel free to elaborate!

ahh im glad, i was worried it is. mmm same, so no hard feelings if either of us misses a day or smth. ill start worrying if weeks/months have gone by, but if its just a little while thats more than fine. ill just picture you studiously completing notes and i wont worry lol

<3 w.a. 🐺

at some point i really think i'm going to start blocking accounts because blocking tags won't be enough. i saw ask tags the other day and it just made me want to bleach my eyeballs.

i could talk about god's menu felix for hours man. the teaser for god's menu that featured his part on the bridge made me look forward to the mv release. you: biases chan, also you: lixiesbabyhands. yes you are more whipped than you think. i can't believe orange haired minho was given NOTHING during that era but they kind of made up for it in the b-sides. i also hope it stays that way. the distribution for this era was pretty fair.

"torturing another poor character's soul" in all honesty, i used to live for this. 2017 me leading up to early 2020 wrote nothing but angst. i have another aussie friend on twt and tbh i'm still really (O.o) about the seasons! jyp should be terrified skz could easily take over that company. heck if skz grow old and start their own company, they'd probably do a great job at running it. PLEASE. i have issues on muting/notifications both mentally and in real life. sometimes, i just wish to disappear.

some people in my country are just disgusting tbh. not only racist but homophobic too. they label kpop as 'gay' and it DISGUSTS me. it's a problematic behavior/mindset people in my country need to fucking get rid of. anyway, HELP ME 6 MONTHS??? and i've been in this shit for like a decade eye. tbh, i’m not fond of kpop groups trying to appeal to the western audience :// it feels like they’re losing their identity in a way. yes recognition but at what cost? yg has my favorite groups but that’s one shitty company when it comes to promoting.

okay my ult! it’s haechan from nct but i consider chan an ult too. like a close second above my whopping list of kpop boys. oh yes! you should get the album just for like a keepsake? remembrance? how did mingi appeal to you? omg did you start getting interested in ateez back when he was still on hiatus? NOT YOU BIASING THE SAME PEOPLE I DID WHEN I FIRST STARTED STANNING. the infamous ateez thot-line. jongho is easily one of the best fourth gen vocalists out here, no one can change my mind :( good luck with memorizing the rest of enhypen! just in time for the comeback too. i hope i’ll get into kard soon but i’m pretty content (and a tad bit overwhelmed) with the amount of groups i stan right now.

please hold on though, feel free to vent here if you like. thanks for the offer tho HAHA but like i’ll try to get checked here too when the cases die down a bit. i’m sorry to hear about your condition though :( please don’t ever overwork yourself to the point that your joints/muscles would ache. it’s completely valid to complain about it tho. i get that you have others in mind but keeping that mindset really doesn’t do you (like you internally) any better? so if you need to, vent your frustrations out and don’t keep it in.

oh my god, about your performance last sunday. was the stage out in the open? glad you didn’t cough too much and did well on your concert. i’m proud of you! i can never understand dogs and poor birds T_T uni doesn’t have dances unfortunately. i think there’s just one party at the end like a graduation ball. what year are you in anyway? if it’s something that you’re fine with sharing. if not, it’s cool.

good luck with your exams! and thanks for the link! AHA what a cutie. i think he does this motivation thing once in a while during his lives and it’s just comforting. yeah joon and han my irl just freaked when we made that discovery. ult crumbs for her. oh god not me forgetting about every biases when you asked. you can ask for my biases in a few groups just list down the one’s you’re interested in knowing. 

i missed yesterday because i was grinding and finishing what if we stay + school work. finally did it today. i’m sure i’ll reply in like a day or two, definitely not a month unless i state otherwise. if i ever decide to abandon this blog, i’ll let you know.