#like i have been assessed

[thetimetravellercat]

And once again my physical state has been dismissed by a medical professional (my GP) as "psychological distress" and "anxiety". I'm just so tired of this. Like, sure I have some anxiety, but it's ok and most importantly it's under control ffs. Other than that, I'm fine. But they never listen to me ugh.

Also, pleasant activities that I thoroughly enjoy doing should not physically destroy me afterwards. Like, you don't go home from having a nice time outside to almost immediately crash because your body is fighting itself as if you suddenly had the flu.

And of course, on top of that, she's decided after seeing me a handful of times that I did not fit the "autistic type" and so I was probably not autistic. Like, sure, dismiss every therapist that has ever seen me, including the pediatric psychiatrist who followed me from age 2.5 to 16, sure, it's fine lol. My current therapist is actually working with me because I'm constantly overcompensating so much that it's making my life extra-exhausting, so yeah, I'm not super surprised that you "don't find me autistic".

She also, of course, told me that that first pediatric psychiatrist was right to not diagnose me officially because it would have been bad for me to get stamped autistic. Like fuck you. I struggled during my entire childhood and adolescence because of his shitty "denial will turn him normal" policy. I never got the help I desperately needed and ended up going through burnout at 16 and had to drop out of highschool because of it. But sure, he was right. Well, fuck you.