#like i dont know if theyre actually going to do it but they ralked about wanting to

[soup-child]

Everyone shut up what if Siobhan plays Barry Nyne in aso season 2

[smileymoth]

ed / nutritionists/ sh whatever

I am so easily triggered by food talk its ridiculous. i hear anyone mention food plans diet plans calories nutrionists healthy eating clean eating intermediate fastign etc etc etc etc any food related topics and i just instantly shrivel up and want to end it right then and there. I told my mom can we not talk about food at newyears when i had a panic attack over grocery shopping and she still does it i hate it. I dont want to talk about food please let me be a trainwreck in peace i dont want a random healthnut nutritionist to tell me what to and what to not eat im already so miserable on a day to day basis let me have food i actually enjoy eating please i know i get mad triggered over food in general for fuck sakes i had a panic attack over a bowl of rice while my friend looked at me weird i dont need more anxiety over food since im already so picky and not capable of making food for myself most of the times. I knwo im a bastard who is unhealthy i know it probably affects psoriasis but have you considered that maybe being severely depressed also influences that. It only flared up again after my dad died it was gone for a few years already and now its back better than ever and now my mom is on my back about healthy eating and movement like mom im trying please leave me alone i already have anxiety over food i dont need more of it i really dont i really dont i really dont i really dont i need a psychologist not a nutritionist but i cant fuciifn have that i cant even have a psychiatrist i want to go back to collegetown already and ive only been home for an hour and 30 minutes i want to go back i hate being here i wish it was like back in highschool i dont cqre that dad was mad at me if i went to sleep 5 minutes too late or that i ****** myself out of fear of food bc i cant stand people seeing me eat i still cant i still freak out when i eat "too much" becqyse i eont kbow what a normal portion is i cant have a fuckinf nutritionist tell me what to do id actually harm myself over it bc id just seevmyself as an obeast lazy bastard who cant stick to plansbecause theyre probably all fucjign annoying white women who weigh 1 cigarette and a single grape bx theyre so healthy and fit and never eat sugar ever am i overrreactign absolurely do i care absolutely not because i am fucked up in the brain and i dotn want people to help me wirh this because i am slowly getting better with healthier eating and if someone tried to monitor it id harm myself i want to go back to my apartment i dont wanr to be here i hate how it happens every time i go home i dont want to talk about food i dont want ro ralk about health i just want to come home and feel happy but i cant because my dad will never be here again and my mom is stressed and tired from work and my grandma is chronically ill forever and my aunt is somehow even more paranoid than i am and is slowly losing her mind because she worries so much. I want my fucking therapist back i hate everything so much iwish i wasnt a mentally ill cunt with issues that make my mom worry for me. Dont worry about me just leave me alone leave me the fuck alone . I want to leeaaaaaaavveeeeeeeeee

[midnighteloquence]

RIGHT

uh labels are the ones i used last time because i cba

so recently, well not recently for a longgg time now, ive been feeling like C is trying to take B away from me. not in the weird tway, in the way that they are LITERALLY TRYING TO BE BETTER FRIENDS WITH THEM THAN ME. and it literally sucks because B’s one of the closest friends of mine and also one of the reasons i havent killed myself.

idk but whenever i confront C on the fact that they so OBVIOUSLY like B more than me theyre all like “yeah i speak to rhem more but i think about you more!!” yeah fucking right. literally you deny any chance to fucking talk to me?? whenever prompted to talk to me you mock my interests. YOUVE LITERALLY SAID HOW YOU DK WHAT TO RALK TO ME ABOUT. if you care about me so much why do you never talk to me unless its to flirt??

and C’s literally claimed to be better buds to C than me like bitch no?? im the fucking reason youre even friends and youre gonna say that you two are better friends than me and B?? shut up. not even respectfully, actually shut up. they spend all their time with B and are always walking away with them and i feel like theyre trying to replace me and i just hate ittt.

theyre trying to be with one of my closest friends and i hate ittt i hate it i hate it stop it

i once screamed in their ear when they wanted to text them but hinestly i regret doing that because that was immature

“i’d pick you in a room of crowded people!!” bffr?? you’d search for B just go ahead and admit that you dont like me and want to steal B away from me

and also C bring up ALOTTTT about how me and A are always together but bitch bffr you barely talk to me even if B’s not there and just talk to them

i know all of this is super petty and mostly paranoia but stillll stop lying to me