#like i am half-asleep rn..

[teddybeartoji]

neighbor!toji finds you sitting in front of your apartment door late at night as he's coming home and at first, he's really not planning on saying anything. he still doesn't know you, he hasn't talked to you – the most you've gotten is a look and a nod whenever you happen to take the elevator with him or when you just bump into him on your way out. and he really isn't the type to make small talk but with your knees pulled to your chest and your head rested on top of your hands, you look miserable and toji finds it very hard to ignore you.

he keeps stealing glances at your curled up figure as he searches for the keys in his pocket and it's only when he's got the door open, he swallows the weird lump in his throat.

"y'wanna come inside?" his voice is raspy, tired, but it does the job of luring you out of your little bubble.

there's a moment of silence.

toji isn't stupid, he knows the dangers of the world and it doesn't take him long to realize how strange his offer might sound. his eye twitches out of sheer embarrassment as he averts his gaze, rough fingers fidgeting with the keys in his hand.

"that would be really nice actually, yeah."

there's no suspicion in your tone, nothing that would indicate that you're thinking what he's thinking. toji's mossy green eyes meet yours and he's met with a look he knows all too well.

exhausted.

"just so i can charge my phone?" you're already trying to apologize for yourself. to tell him that you'll only stay for as long as you need, afraid that you're bothering him.

but he just gives you a hum, patiently waiting for you to push yourself off the ground. for a moment, you stand next to him in front of the door, waiting for him to step inside first but when he gestures to go in before him, you don't argue with him. your hushed 'thank you' doesn't go unheard.

his apartment is tidy. probably even more so than your own. it looks surprisingly cozy – the light isn't a big, bright one but a dimmed down one instead and the sight of his big couch makes you let out a soft sigh. from the corner of his eye, toji observes you. he hasn't had anybody over in a long time and now here you are.

he tells you to take off your shoes and to take a seat while he goes to look for a charger, giving you the perfect opportunity to take a better look around the place – dvd's, old magazines and newspapers, a few movie posters and one singular plant. it's not a lot but it still feels like a good home.

at the sound of his voice, you snap out of your thoughts. your fingers brush against one another as you take the charger from him with another 'thank you'. a

"you're not going to kill me or anything though, right?"

...

for a man his size and his age, he feels a bit small under your gaze. you're blunt more than anything and he's just a little caught off-guard by your question.

"no."

"that's good."

you break the eye-contact to look for a place to plug in the charger and he feels relieved. "you feel safe."

you say it like it's nothing.

"i wouldn't've accepted the offer from anyone else, i think. well, maybe from the lady across the hall but then again, she'd just scold me for being up so late and i'm way too tired for that."

the words slip from your lips as if they're light as air while toji needs a second to really hear you, to know that he isn't making you uncomfortable. that in your eyes, he isn't scary or threatening in any shape or form. perhaps you're just naive for putting your trust into a stranger like this but toji still can't help but feel a little warm inside.

he doesn't say anything and you don't mind his silence. you do thank him a third time and let your lips curl into a proper smile when he almost unintentionally raises his brow at you – like it's weird that you're doing that.

he ends up bringing you a glass of water before joining you on the couch, both of your eyes set on the tv screen and the show that plays on it as you eakt for your phone to come alive again.

it doesn't feel wrong to just be with him like this.

it's right enough for you to let your exhaustion sneak up on you. your eyelids grow heavy without you even realizing it and then you're already dozing off on your neighbor's couch.

your quiet snores are so unfamiliar, the mere idea of somebody being able to fall asleep in his presence so surreal that he's left sitting there dumbfoundedly. regardless, he reaches for a blanket before throwing it over your body ever so carefully and turns down the volume of the tv as to not disturb you.

a stranger, a neighbor. somebody, who makes him feel a bit more alive. a silly comment, a blunt reply. a smile and a thank you.

a push to keep on going.

[eeveekitti]

hi pressurizers may i make a humble offering

[ask-the-sagents]

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BTW there's an updated font chart in the masterpost since the last one had duplicates 😅

[skitskatdacat63]

2023 Las Vegas Grand Prix - Qualifiying - Fernando Alonso

[keeps-ache]

well, you can see it!

[wrongcaitlyn]

yk what just kinda frustrates me a bit? it’s that whenever someone hates on taylor swift, i need to defend her, not bc i think she can do no wrong ever, but because they always choose the wrong things to criticize.

like if someone tries to say shit abt the i hate it here 1830s lyric to me? i’m obligated to point out that uh no it’s not racist, literally look at the next fucking line, you idiot. she’s saying the exact opposite of what you’re implying. nostalgia is a mind’s trap.

and if someone tries to call her a climate terrorist, then i’m going to have to point out that yes, she uses a private plane a lot, but she’s not even in the top 30 of celebs with highest carbon emissions. if you really want to criticize a celebrity and not the huge factories/companies that are polluting the air, then focus on travis scott

but like?? you could literally choose any argument that doesn’t have to do with literal false information. or better yet, you don’t even need a reason! say you don’t vibe with her music and that is literally none of my business. good for you. enjoy whatever music you like. but don’t try and put yourself on this moral pedestal for hating on this musician who doesn’t even know you exist and let me listen to the grand theft auto lyric in peace.

[lesbiansanemi]

I do not know why I bother trying to go to bed early cuz every single time I have done it my roommate has deliberately woken me up usually for something fucking stupid

[urlocalwormtoday]

when you get this, you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly. then, send this ask to 10 of your followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool) < 3 <3

OUAA 0,0

this might be a little hard because, as strange as it is, I don't know a whole lot about myself via myself tbh. I absorb most information from the people around me-

[1.] uuohhhg I like my poetry. it's not always very good, but it's always there as a mechanism to turn to so I can scream into the void when upset

[2.] i like my bracelets that I wear, both of them are rainbow n pride and they were both gifts so they're very close to me :,D

[3.] i like my collection of figures. i have so many dinosaurs I think it's an obsession at this point but I wouldn't trade it for anything. it's childish but I think it reminds me that I have an identity

[4.] i like how I help people sometimes. or try to if I can, not everyone wants help and that's respectable. i wanna be like a lighthouse so people can dock their ships full of baggage and just rest for a while <3

[5.] i like my drawing skills(??), to an extent. i haven't really found a style yet on account of still needing to get better at drawing in general, mostly humanoids though

I HOPE IT'S ALR IF I TAG PEOPLE INSTEAD OF SENDING IT AS AN ASK BC I THINK IT MIGHT PROVIDE MORE CONTEXT THIS WAY 😭

tagging; @vallkary @ratmouseshrew @semidecentpoet @saltedcaramelchaos @wet-ass-pigeon @traygaming @nachtsynth @internet-cheesecake @ceramicbirb @hallytall12022002

[walking-fnaf-encyclopedia]

writing is hard when youre trying to continue a story you wrote half of like ten months ago

[astrxealis]

dear gods i adore horror tbh but i am way too sensitive to it

[orcelito]

Despite all odds, I have arrived home safely👍

Turns out that the earlier goop was the better goop. The adderall goop. The adderall has worn off now though. So I am. Very incredibly out of it.

But I am home. And I will take my quick shower. And then I will climb into bed.

I do need to eat. But... later...

[sexynetra]

If you’re wondering, this is the Marcia I picture when I’m writing :)

[scattered-winter]

bigwings shiro........

[weltato]

lilarky cuddle session real

Idk dude, you'd have to ask them yourself. I'm sure they would though.

@lilacthebooklover @sharky-the-idiot Thoughts?

[angeltism]

wow har.uka really is so so so so me. forever and ever and ever. meeee.

[douglasfeiffel]

I was dealing with the emotional impact of pasithea 33, listening to the credits and knowing that it would be the last I’d hear of this amazing podcast and- hold on a second. Harlan Guthrie???