#like how am i supposed to hate him ….. he’s just a boy 💔

[litrallytyrus]

also nobody touch me i was watching percy jackson with my dad + little sister and the way i had to stop myself from giggling like a little kid everytime luke came on screen ….. all i see is bobby cañero reed like my babyyyyy

[yourlastbraincell-kiwi]

A/N: It’s time for another song imagine y’all! I was going through my wattpad drafts, there’s still some more that I haven’t posted.

This one is also really sad, literally almost cried editing this. I don’t know what I was on, when I made this one. But please enjoy!

Pairing: Spencer Reid x Reader

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I heard the sounds of something heavy. Like fists hitting a wall in anger. "Anybody here?!" I heard, yelling.

I wanted to tell back the only thing I could muster was a wee groan.

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in

Sometimes I feel like giving up

But I just can't

It isn't in my blood

They continued to yell for me as they keep searching. I then heard the one voice, I loved so much. "(Y/N)?! Can you hear me?!"

Spencer.

I wanted to yell, back and tell him that 'I was okay,' and that 'He didn't need to worry,' and knowing that my voice was horse and scratchy, I tried.

Boy, did I try.

"Spence.." I just ended up in a coughing fit.

Laying on the bathroom floor, feeling nothing

I'm overwhelmed and insecure, give me something

I could take to ease my mind slowly

Just have a drink and you'll feel better

Just take her home and you'll feel better

Keep telling me that it gets better

Does it ever?

I tried to call out to him again, but I just ended up in a coughing fit once more. I didn't want to move, I didn't want any of my wounds to get worse.

I have to wait for them to find me. I kept trying to apply pressure, but with how weak I was getting, the pressure I had on it, was getting weaker too.

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in

Sometimes I feel like giving up

No medicine is strong enough

Someone help me

I'm crawling in my skin

Sometimes I feel like giving up

But I just can't

My eyes were starting to shut, I'm trying so hard to keep them awake, but it's hard. But what caused them to jolt open was the steps that approached the basement door, and it being swung open.

"(Y/N)? (Y/N)!" Spencer ran over to me, putting his gun in its holster.

It isn't in my blood

It isn't in my blood

I'm looking through my phone again, feeling anxious

Afraid to be alone again, I hate this

I'm trying to find a way to chill, can't breathe, oh

Is there somebody who could help me?

"Get a medic down here!" I heard Derek yell, out the door.

"(Y/N), look at me. You're going to be okay." He said, applying pressure on my wound, seeing as to how weak I had been.

"Okay?" I nod, and put my left hand to his cheek.

It's like the walls are caving in

Sometimes I feel like giving up

No medicine is strong enough

Someone help me

I'm crawling in my skin

Sometimes I feel like giving up

But I just can't

It looked like Spencer tried to hold in his tears, and I managed to crook out a few words. "Don't cry..Spence..." I wiped his eyes gently with my thumb, he shook his head.

"Where is my medic?!" Derek yelled again, clearly impatient, leaving the room so it just Reid and I.

It isn't in my blood

It isn't in my blood

"Spence..just know that.." I closed my eyes, for a couple seconds, before opening them up again. "..that I love you." He shakes his head again.

"Don't say that (N/N). We're going to get you out of here-"

"Spence-"

"If we don't then how am I supposed to call myself an FBI Agent, but more importantly-"

I need somebody now

I need somebody now

Someone to help me out

I need somebody now

"Spence." I said a little louder, but Spence keep going.

"How am I supposed to call myself your boyfriend-" I used a lot of the strength, I had left to kiss him. I pulled away and rested my forehead on his own.

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in

Sometimes I feel like giving up

But I just can't

"Promise me, this." He didn't respond, but I know he we definitely listening. "Repeat after me, okay?"

It isn't in my blood

It isn't in my blood, oh, oh

"I take you Spencer Reid..to be my lawful wedded husband. To have and to hold, from this day forward.." He then started to repeat after me.

"To have and to hold, from this day forward, from better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, for sickness and in health.."

It isn't in my blood

I need somebody now

It isn't in my blood

I need somebody now

It isn't in my blood

"..until death do us part. I love you Dr. Spencer Reid." I said laying back down.

"I love you too Special Agent (Y/N) (L/N)." I heard before, resting my eyes, with a small smile set on my lips.

[the-words-we-sung]

Thoughts and pictures - S3E2

Here we go for the rewatch of S3E2 (sorry in advance, it might get long ^^')

The new rules at Hillerska are pretty dumb and way too severe. And this phone policy is so stupid: how are these 2 horny boys supposed to survive? :p

So on one hand, online hate is about Simon not being good enough for Wilhelm, and on the other hand, it's about Wilhelm who should not have said anything in his speech because he's betraying the school. Though Wilhelm is not reading the online comments like Simon, and the attacks are less personal and vicious. Seeing Simon read through everything was so painful, I just wanted to go kick the ass of everyone who dared be a bully so this lil' muffin.

Gosh the third years are over the top: "three years here and we get nothing", just because they can't have a proper graduation and all the parties and stupid stuff they wanted to do before graduating? I guess that it's frustrating but compared to the real issues that are being raised about the school, it sounds very very superficial... August is way more reasonable than Vincent about it: the issue is not that they won't have a graduation (even if they don't have the party, they will still graduate high school) but that the school might close, thus sending them all to other schools before the end of the term. Vincent is an idiot.

"Why can't she call me?". Episode 2 and Wilhelm is already heartbroken because of his mother.

Farima doesn't believe Wilhelm about his initiation, look at her face! But it strikes me that her main concern if he did go through this awful initiation is that it would look bad for the Royal Court to keep him here, and not at all about his well being and how traumatizing it would have been!! The adults in this show are the worst... And nobody cares about Wilhelm (except Simon) 💔

"He's such an attention whore". Another ass that needs to be kicked!! How dare they talk about him like that?

Simon keeps being bullied and Wilhelm pressured: if they close the school, it'll be his fault. Why is everyone so mean and terrible to them?

The Felice interview makes me so mad!! And it reminds me of the interaction between August, Simon and Wilhelm back in season 1 when August tells them how nice it is that rowing bring students together, with no regard for their ethnicity, background, etc. Which made Simon super mad too. I love the switch from Felice in the office with her strained smile to her angrily throwing punches during gym class. Excellent cinematic!

Micke and Sara: I'm still so surprised to see him act so well.

This freaking blonde girl from the choir: I hate her 😡 She was the one slut shaming Felice in season 2. Now she's complaining about the point of training for a song if they're not sure they'll be performing. You're annoying and mean. I don't like you 😤

But Simon's face when Wilhelm joins the choir 💜💜

I love this little scene so much: they are just so cute and in love. Like you can feel how much they love each other: they're literally glued together, kissing and then just keeping their faces so so close to each other while talking. It just feels so true to life, when you love someone so much that you just want to stay as close as you can, just touching each other in any way you can, never letting go. Also I just love how Simon loves Wilhelm. How clingy he can be.

So the scene between Nils and August: we know that they were victims of this awful initiation but I'm realizing now that we don't know if they ended up being beaten up and made fun of because they got an erection? I've seen several posts of people discussing that August could be queer because he had a reaction to the porno (which I don't agree with, I don't think that it can be taken as an indicator of someone's sexual orientation). But we don't know if he had a reaction, do we? Or am I misunderstanding/missing something?

Wilhelm is so angry with August. Yeah his reaction in the library can be seen as a little over the top ("don't talk to him!") but I understand his anger. And okay, the way we go from the fight to both of them sitting silently in Boris' office is comedy gold :p I'm almost frustrated that the fight was so short though, I wanted Wilhelm to get some good punches in!! These mediation talks: I'm not sure how I feel about them. On one hand I get that the Court wants them to get along, but on the other, August did something truly awful and traumatizing to Wilhelm. So if he doesn't want to talk to him, to see him or to have anything to do with him anymore, well, it's his right! He shouldn't be forced to interact with him like that. Also I was a bit disappointed by Boris this season: he was so good during season 2 but I find him a bit underwhelming this season...

"I can be your revolution". Please can we get the song again in the last episode? The full version for a happy Wilmon who are a revolution together? Pretty please?

Simon giggling while reading the messages about his video is the cutest thing ever. And it's a tragedy that it was one of the only giggle we got from him this season 😫

Wilhelm is wearing a purple jumper when he listens to Simon's song. It's rare to see him wear purple, isn't it?

Linda still annoys me a bit this season. Like in this scene: no, don't ask your son, who's been betrayed so hard by his sister, to still care about her right now. He's angry at her, and rightfully so (I love love love that they let him be truly angry at her). She should understand that.

Rosh and Stella: yes please, I ship it! (Yeah I don't like Frederika so I'm all for a new potential love interest for Stella :p)

Also after 2 seasons where we regularly saw guys peeing outside, it's the girls' turn!! I don't know why but it made me laugh ^^

The conversation about their summer plans: this scene is so awkward!! And the tent scene that follows is just terrible 😭 Also hear me out: maybe unpopular opinion but I think Simon overreacted. Maybe from his point of view what Wilhelm is gonna do during summer is not working (because it's not the kind of job that him, Ayub and Rosh will have) but it's still working. Taking classes to become Prince/King is not gonna be a walk in the park, it's gonna be work for Wilhelm. It's terrible because I understand where Simon is coming from during their fight: telling Wilhelm that he never had to work to afford anything, that he's so incredibly privileged, it's so hard to be with someone who's from such a higher social status and be easily pissed off when they don't seem to realize it (what do you mean it sounds like I'm talking from experience.. 😅). Side eyeing Wilhelm hard with the shushing though. Don't talk to Simon like that >< (I would have stormed out if I had been Simon!) And yeah throwing the line about the settlement money was not nice (I've seen people being angry about it) but he's mad and got yelled at while he thought he was just trying to relate to and hang out with Simon's friends. So I understand throwing a mean comment there (I would have done the same 😣)

The "is it my fault?" breaks my heart. And so again: the crushing weight on Wilhelm's shoulders... His mother is unwell so he has to be strong, to be ready to take over, and on top of it, he has to keep it to himself.

Gosh season 3 is just things piling up on Wilhelm and Simon. Different things but still crushing them, slowly but surely...

[onionnstinks]

ramble abt gamquius from that one gamquius guy

honest to god i am a gamquius truther through n through, i feel like it works both ways (talking about kismesissitude and matespritship) mainly cause of Equius. That dude has a HATE for Gamzee but at the same time wants him soooo bad. I take a lot of this from their one (1) conversation, Equius absolutely hates how Gamzee is because he’s not what a highblood is supposed to be in every way imaginable but since he is a higher caste than him he still has to adhere to him and that’s what he loves to do! no doubt about it. Which is why he asks Gamzee to boss him around to meet that relationship of him being a subordinate and Gamzee being a superior.

I like to think about Gamquius in a red rom light or just in general because of that one (1) conversation they had, it’s very clear they do have a close relationship, even if that relationship is like incredibly… let’s just say they both have different views on it #LOL. Gamzee is very carefree n doesn’t gaf abt the hemospectrum whereas Equius’s whole world view is revolved around it. Though in that one (1) conversation he expresses he doesn’t even get it because of how Gamzee is versus Aradia. & The fact that he can express that to Gamzee is enough to have me kicking my legs. i’m just trying to say i feel like Equius could improve as a person w Gamz… Also Gamzee is like one of the only other trolls we see other than Nepeta that genuinely fws Equius so ahahhaia ☝️. but we all saw how that ended so …💔 💔💔thanks andrew hussie, i will definitely not be at your door tonight!

the convo i’m referencing #btw: https://www.homestuck.com/story/2221

[bellamyblake]

hi!! I’m a former HUGE fan of the 100 and bellarke, but after the final season completely shattered my heart and destroyed my trust in showrunners 😀, I haven’t been able to really return to the show or ship at all.

Did you have a similar experience? How do you still enjoy it without the sting?? 💔 Just curious, thank you!!

I understand that this is how it is for most fans, that everyone pulled away because of the ending and I understand and respect that.

I think for me, it's simple, i'll be honest that I never expected Bellarke to happen as much as I wanted it and for me the simple reason why was because of the way things happened back in season 3 with Lxa and everything else. I wanted it, of course, I was hopeful for it, especially after 6x10 and I wished for it to happen but when we found out Bob needed time off, I understood that decision and I understood why it won't happen. Yes, I still think that it was just JRoth being absolutely bitter making that ending, they all admitted it, even the writers that for example Levitt's ending where he gets hurt in the final episode was supposed to be Bellamy but that didn't happen because Bob needed that time off. And yes, I am pissed because of the fact that she killed him, I don't think I'll ever get over it but I just...find it to be absolute bullshit and that is because of the way Clarke's character is ruined to me rather more so than Bellamy's.

I know people talk about him being OOC in s7 and him never doing that, never believing Cadogan, I get that. I do agree that it is somewhat OOC. BUT

I have always been a person to look at all sides about this and that is why I survived season 3 and the way fans were back then (may I remind you the bellarkers hated Bellamy and people were awful to him) and I do think that I find it i my mind the reason why he chose that side. I have my own theory about Bellamy's choices about season 7 but I won't indulge here in that because I'm sure I'll bore you to death (It's a Jasper-Monty-Bellamy meta that I have talked about before I think and for me they are still the only three characters who reached a sort of understanding of how to survive/not survive in this world but who separated themself from the cicle or wheel that Clarke talked about in s7 and who saw things for the way they were, as grim and sad as they happened to be at the time-again, another meta if you want me I can indulge).

But the truth is I have always been realistic about Bellarke and them not happening (Not that it didn't hurt me that they didn't happen, i catch myself wishing I saw a kiss) but I also cannot say I was too surprised. For me, and people talked again a lot of shit about Bellamy in s5, but I do think Clarke is a lot more different in s5 than she was before and I think from there on now we don't see the character we first saw, just glimpses of her. The problem with s6 as much as I like it and find it interesting is that we don't see Clarke much in it since she's kidnapped and I hoped we did saw her in s7 but I feel like she wasn't really herself back there.

So...anyway I can talk a lot and probably bore you to death, but I don't want to do that. The simple truth is that I CAN thankfully separate myself from the show and what I love. I know it was shitty what happened, I cried and still cry when I think about my boy Bellamy dying (Because I will be honest, I was always a Bellamy fan first and Bellarke second, I even write more familial fics with Bell than I do Bellarke, that's how I am) but I can find my reasons behind his actions and no, I'm not blindsided by my love for him, I know his mistakes, I can point them out and I can explain why they happened.

I really have no other simple explanation other than I chose to enjoy what I love and have always loved and ignore the last part. I know most people can't and I do not judge them. He brings me joy. Bellarke do bring me joy still, I love think, headcanon and meta about them and just because someone was bitter and because they didn't really show any understanding and BECAUSE and let's be honest, he didn't want to make Bellarke because Bob and Eliza happened and he refused to play into the narrative of actors being married in real life and indulging fans in the fantasy one, is not my problem.

I often think about JRoth and how shitty he was on more than just the Bellarke occassion (that's another meta) but just how much he, because he is an a**, hates religion for example, so he absolutely demolished it and made fun of it and then used it to show stuff in the most awful of ways just like not just with the deciples btw, but starting from season 1 where he crucified the kids on the trees, how he made fun of the grounder's religion and the commanders, everything JRoth did was a mockery caused by his own inability to deal with his problems so ...honestly WHY would you give away something you love to that guy? I think that's just bs.

Again, I am sad and devastated, I always will be but I choose to separate myself from this narrative, enjoy my Bell and writing about him, enjoy reblogging gifs and making gifs in our now little circle, I enjoy seeing new fans of the show too and them reblogging our stuff. That's basically it.

My love for Bellamy Blake is stronger than JRorth's bs.

[hazashiovo]

Now for my request, i'd like some angst with aemond with the Arranged Marriage x In love with another trope where Aemond is in love with fem reader but she is in love with someone else. 💔 The night before the wedding he lets her go to be with the one she loves. She leaves, and aemond picks up the pieces of his broken "unlovable" heart😭

So I was genuinely excited when I saw this and I said oh I'll write it the next day but the next day I woke up with no network, so my dear I'm so sorry for delaying it but here is your request!

Aemond Targaryen x Lesbian!Reader

Haelena Targaryen x reader

Type:Angst, reader in love with somebody else. Arranged marriage

For a head start, I am so sorry for this.

When you first heard that you were to be married to Aemond Targaryen you didn't know how to react. You didn't know the prince in a way to be afraid to marry him... but you knew, you could never find it in you to love him as a husband, a lover even.

Someone might say you're broken,that you're supposed to be like your mother, or Alicent, but you can't love... men, your heart belongs to a special one, unfortunately, your to be husbands sister, Haelena Targaryen.

Oh how you wished to be able to feel things for the prince, or even feel attracted to men.

But no, you even had to fall for your betrothed's sister, who's also married to their older brother who happens to be your uncle.

Each day getting closer to the wedding made you sick to your stomach and I'll in your head, why was it necessary? You kept asking yourself, you have no heritage of your mother, your older brother gets the throne after her , and like, since he's a boy gets driftmark, which leaves you with no properties, so why was she so eager to marry you off to Aemond fucking Targaryen.

At night, you visited Haelena's chambers, since Aegon was mostly never there, in the day, you two spent most of it together. Of course the court only saw some really close friends. But there were suspicious people, like Otto, your step grandfather who always found a way to judge you.

Soon enough the wedding night came. You were nervous and anxious. The party was beautiful, you liked Aemond, at least you weren't married to Aegon, but you couldn't help yourself.

All night long you had loving eyes towards Haelena, and the sweet girl towards you.

You didn't even notice the way Aemond chased your looks, the way he figured it all out just by watching.

The thought of you loving another pained him dearly, but he said nothing , not wishing to ruin the atmosphere.

Even though this wasn't what you wanted, you let yourself enjoy the night. Talking with Aemond, dancing and eating some of the delicious food your cooks prepared and the fiery wine.

The night came to and end quicker than you expected.

The two of you made your way to your now shared room.

The way Aemond looked at you... God how you hated yourself for what you were.

"Can we.. Talk?"

The Prince's voice broke through the empty room.

You nodded your head, bit knowing what to say.

"I saw the way you looked at Haelena, and, I need to confirm something."

He continued.

You sighed, sitting down on the bed next to him.

"I'm sorry Aemond, I truly am I just... It's not what I wish to do, but I can't seem to find myself to l9ve one opposite of me.it eating me up inside that I hurt you in this way."

You spoke sincerely, barely looking him in the eye.

Aemond sighs as he runs a hand through his hair. He stays quiet, not saying anything, just looking down.

"Don't apologize, I don't want you to ever apologize to me for something you didn't do."

His hand finds yours, reassuring you that even if he's in pain, he understands and accepts you.

He loved you ever since you were children, he loved the way you smiled, the way you talked and especially the way you defended him from his brother and nephews, your brothers.

You hug Aemond tightly, how you wished this to be different only you knew.

"You can go, be with the one you truly love."

He could never forbid you to be yourself or be with your loved one.

"Aemond, I do love you.. But not in the way it was supposed to be.."

You ran a hand through his hair lovingly.

"Go, we can speak tomorrow of how this wil work."

Reluctantly, you got up.

Once you left the chamber, Aemond remained alone with his thoughts, why couldn't he be loved instead of his sister? Why was he not enough?

How he missed the feeling of your hand, or the way you hugged him, he wished it was in another way. He cursed the gods for playing with him this way .

.

.

The next morning, he found you in the bed with him.

When you woke up he made a deal suggestion.

This implying that you could be with Haelena, as long as no one catches the two of you but, he will need a child.

The only thing he asked.

You agreed to his condition.

The princess and you were lovers unknown to Aegon, all ways drunk or with the company of whores, while Aemond was alone.

You knew how you made him feel and you felt horrible, so you made sure to give him the affection he deserved,you made sure to make him happy.

This one is done, 4 more to go.

I feel like I don't really see any Haelena love here so since the person who requested this decided I can chose who to hurt Aemond with, I chose the sweet princess.

Anyways, the requests are open and my Master list is a post down this one.

Baiii!

[jwowwsboobs]

9, 13, 22:))

HI HI HI :))) i got very chtty w these SORRYYYYY so its under the cut 🫂🍻 sending u lots n lots of love !!

9. 3 things you like doing on a rainy day

definitely reading, ive got this big ol book of alexander pushkins prose (supposedly the complete collection but i dont always buy tht) n a bunch of other stuff i hvnt started on 💔💔 sometimes ill reread hillbilly elegy by jd vance or the collection of ftwillz stuff it just depends on my mood; writing also ofc, im always working on stuff whether it’s poetry, prose or a song just depends on my mood but its still writing 2 me LOL; n watching either tv (probably xfiles, sometimes trailer park boys or girls next door) or a bunch of movies tht hve been rotting on my tubi watchlist LOLLLLL

13. 3 classes you used to hate in middle school

HATED english, my teacher sucked so unbelievably bad N she was a disney grandma. she retired when i was in 7th n moved 2 florida outside of disney or smthing. hated science cuz the teacher was awful, couldn’t teach at all kept like. giving easily checked false information. n hated hated hated religion (went 2 a priv catholic. the priests were cool (favorite memory is when the class clown asked abt black metal n the priest was like. do not EVER listen 2 christian black metal is SUCKS. listen 2 real true black metal. tht priest was super cool he played guitar n did fencing n collected swords n was trying 2 get the bishop 2 let him grow a super duper long beard. he also went paint balling as chaperone w a bunch of kids from the parish. i got 2 go (was the only girl💔💔) but it was really fun!) but it was. catholic religion class. in 8th grade we were supposed 2 do sex ed yk? like state mandated n whtnot. ours was a vid abt how women were created 2 b submissive 2 men in all ways, how marriage protects the sanctity of sex n its only btwn a man n woman whtnot. it was super cute🩷(sarcasm) 

22. 3 movies/books/tv shows that made you cry

so idk if this is well known abt me but i am a MAJOR crybaby ill cry over anything (it my cancer moon LOL) like i went 2 the senior nite soccer (trve football) game n this guy who im guess his dad died scored a goal n his family had a little yk framed headshot of him n when he scored he ran over 2 side n grabbed n tht made me cry 4 a good five minutes. crying rn writing tht out !! but anyway. xfiles made me cry (scully wanting kids n not being able 2 hv them got me 😭😭😭😭n also just mulder like in general. he looks like a kicked dog sometimes) miami vice made me cry (sorry 4 falling 4 the copaganda but their CLOTHES. n the CARS……..), secrets of playboy made me cry but like. in anger. also in sadness n sympathy. but the root was anger. i hvnt watched a lot of movies recently the last one tht made me cry was kill bill vol 2 but beyond tht idr like i said i cry over anything LOL. most of the books i read r nonfiction n but the last one tht i read was give me some truth by eric gansworth 4 english class n i cried from frustration reading tht 😭😭 but beyond tht, like w movies, i dont remember 💔💔

[rainbowbeanstyles]

I’m so thankful that Louis and the rest of the boys were there for Liam. He seems to have gone to hell and back personally and I hope he’s on the surface now, I hope he’s back and good. But to know that he had a group of close friends to catch him, and drag him out of it and the appreciation and gratitude he feels towards them is just 🥺💔❤️‍🩹

All this emotional turmoil and then Lewis went and released a song about mental health struggles like how am I supposed to function today and not just lie down and stare at the ceiling??

hello im sorry i never replied this was just such a lovely ask and i had to appreciate it well jsjsjs

YES YES YESS YOU KNOW IT ANON. Only they know what they have gone through and I'm glad they were there for each other, the loveee is there🥺🥺🥺 Liam is a sweetheart and he does not deserve all the hate he's been getting this past year? (don't remember how longs it's been since like the big big discourse but you get it) seeing Li at the premiere with Lou looking so happy made me soo!!!! and then his ig caption ohh darling boy i wanna hug him:'''''

alsoo i didnt know about lewis' new song!! imma go check it out noww

[khaleesiofalicante]

"The problem of pain is that I cannot feel my father's, and he cannot feel mine. This, I suppose, is also the essential mercy of pain." -Eula Bids.

He looks serious and soft and mischievous and beautiful. Alec wants to marry him yesterday. 💙💙💙💙💙

Magnus with cats is my reason to live<3333 Also I will make an official request for Magnus to name all my pets pls🥺

I smell problems... Well, fuck.

Student loans are fucking insane!!! How the fuck do people do it?!?!

Ok, but the fact that Robert asked for Magnus opinion about this... ✨YES✨

I love you. And I will do everything in my power to hold onto that love. See... That’s kinda the thing...

FUCK YOU CAMILLE!!I HATE YOU!!

Rafael making future plans with Anjali🥺🥺😭😭

He is just Rafael. But he knows someone like him will never be defined by his first name. Only his last. not crying over this :)) it is all ok :))

And unlike Rafael, who is a creature that adapts, Bapak is a creature that migrates. Have I mentioned how much I fucking love metaphors?!?! ✨wow✨

I know Max is always a mood, but Rafael?? Holy shit that boy hits too close to my heart. MOOD AS FUCK🥺

"But if you start doing things just because you can, you will never know when to stop.” Alastair is so wise and sexy ngl.

Now the eating thing makes sense....

I FUCKING KNEW IT!! ALEC WAS THE ONE THAT ASKED HIM TO DO IT!! HOLY FUCK THIS SCENE?!? HEARTBREAKING💔

“Don’t make me. Please don’t make me,” Rafael cries. “Daddy. Please don’t make me do this.” Him speaking in spanish and asking him not to do it. No me puedes hacer esto y esperar que este bien!! Voy a estar pensando en esta escena 24/7 😭😭😭

God that was just so much pressure on him!! And too many expectations!! He is a kid!! Can I kidnapp him and just keep him safe from everything and everyone????

No, you dont undestand. I was sitting next to my father trying not to cry bc if this and I didn’t succeed huh!!! 😭😭😭

"Help me keep my Magnus safe.” FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK-

That being the reason Alec didn't let him move to London. I AM NOT OK *SCREAMING INTENSIFIES*

Max talks too much. Rafael doesn’t talk enough. No but the way this is literally my sister and me jdhdkndkd (I am Rafe 100%)

Catarina is wise and beautiful!! I'm love her!! 💙

Fish Alec and Max are everything that is right in this chapter, I dont make the rules😌

The fact that even if he is drunk, he still has a solution and he does it by himself is making me emo ok?!?!

Is this what it’s like for all parents? To helplessly watch your children turn into a mini version of yourself? I'm not FINE 😭😭

If your child is scared to show you their pain, then you have failed. THIS>>>

The list halfway done omfg🙂

FUCKING FUCK. THIS SCENE OMFG. I'm not even angry at Rafael bc that boy has finally blow up and it was just a matter of time...

"He can decide he wants sole custody. Let’s just all accommodate whatever the fuck he wants. Max can fuck his own cousin and you would just-" I leight screamed at this. is he wrong?? Not about the cousin thing tho, I wont allow Mavid slander!! 😤

“You haven’t been my father in a very long time,” Rafael repeats in a whisper. “And I have been everything to you." 💔💔💔💔

NOT MY ROSEWOOD PLEASE I NEED TO DRAW THE ANGST LINE SOMEWHERE KDHDJDJDK

“I have felt anything but like your son,” Rafael cries. “I have felt like I’m your parent. Like I’m your boyfriend. Like I’m your nurse. I’m not any of that, bapak. I’m your son. I’m your fucking son. So, why doesn’t it feel like that?” THIS PAIN BUT HE RIGHT. MAGNUS FAULT? NO. BUT THIS BOY HAS BEEN CARRYING TOO MUCH!!!

"Fuck. Fuck, bapak. I don’t even know. Nobody ever asks me what I want. Now I don’t fucking know anymore.” I'm dead. bye😭

“I wish I hadn’t found you.” The tears fall then. “I wish I hadn’t found dad in Buenos Aires,” Rafael says, his eyes closed. “I wish I hadn’t found you in your bedroom that day.” NO. FUCK. AHDJDJKDJDK. I AM CRYING AT THIS POINT. PAIN. THATS IT🔪

I dont know what to say other than I loved, loved, loved the angst and pain in this chapter. I could do a whole analysis on this family istg-

Anyway, I'M LOVE THIS ANGSTY HOES BUT HELL IF THEY DONT NEED SOME MORE BRAINCELLS

10000/10 every time I think it cant get any better, you somehow do it...HOW???💚

I have a tiktok for you of Rafe 🥺

[hella1975]

THAT WAS SUCH AN AMAZING CHAPTER HELLA

How am I supposed to draw if you keep putting me in my feelings like this!!! The povs and the transitions to them were just- didnt know you could cook, but that gets a chefs kiss from me💕

Im so torn: sokka feeling responsible because it was his plan, tomkin trying to lighten the awaiting doom, nan holding his hand to support, hakoda and chena and just the entire crew surrending hurt me, and MAIN MAN KANUT out here doing Tui and La’s work punching the crap out of gen dingdong 😫😫💖💔 (dont give him too much pain after this, he’s just been through too much already hella plzz 🥺)

THE ZUKO AND ZISE PART!!

Zuko and Zi’se are out of there in more terrifying hands I pressume. Also I know we established that Tovahs not a good person(she literally takes the hush money while someone got robbed🙄) , but can she slide my boys a meal??? We can just say its apart of the manipulation or something but theyre starving :(

Also Zuko bowing to Chan, I dont know why but it made me feel 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨

Anyways this is getting long, and idk why I wrote this here instead of commenting on ao3, but this is all just to say that I love your writing!! Cant wait for the next chapter 💕💕

hey marry me challenge. jk jk..........unless

i personally love that you wrote it here. unique. sexy. showstopping. 11/10.

lads i was SO nervous for sokka’s pov bc it’s his first one AND he’s super stressed so it’s not even gonna be his normal character so i was just sat there trying to write it like 😰😰😰 so the fact you guys don’t hate it is making me go hsiguhdsgihsiug ily 

honestly chan’s part wasn’t planned AT ALL and yet its wound up being my fave part of the chapter. all my plot outline said was that chan kills spider and zuko lets it happen. and then dumb monkey brain went feral with that and now we’re here and honestly? i just think it’s what chan deserves. like he was never a bad guy. he was broken too and him and zuko were just as bad as each other, and because chan has been there longer and is older, he just knows that there’s not really much point him getting out. anyways-