#like holy shit theyd be a nightmare

[chrisrin]

Alright, crossover time, they both have gem aus so if one mcyt gem and one homestuck gem could fuse what do you think the most interesting combo would be?

i've been thinking about a Grian and Vriska mega Aquamarine fusion for too long. maybe... just maybe.... i'll doodle them tonight.

[voidzphere]

might be my last ask but we’ll see….. :3c

im gonna list som sanscest ships and u tell me how u feel about them!!!

classicdreamccino (classic x dream x ccino, or chamomile)

errorswap/errorberry (error x swap)

dreamdust/stardust (dream x dust)

crepic/crossepic (cross x epic)

horrordustfarm (self explanatory…)

driller/dreamkiller (killer x dream, i lov them sm :3)

classicmare (classic x nightmare, i find this ship rly interesting….)

classiccross/crossic (classic x cross)

classicdust/dustclassic/dussic (classic x dust, i drew this ship bc its starting to grow on me…)

star sans poly/swapinkdream

dreamberry/bluedream (this ship has a special place in my heart)

(i typed bluedream instead of swapdream/dreamswap. i feel like thats self explanatory)

probably listed too much classic ships, but i like to hear peoples opinions on classic ships, esp ones that are rarepairs :3 (there arent enough popular classic ships and thats so confusing bc classic would be such a good partner……)

(tell me if uve already talked about any of these ships)

GUYZ IF YOU WANT RAREPAIR SUGGEZTIONZ GO TO CC HOLY ZHIT /POZ

DUDE i love all of theze zm but m'gonna lizt them down either way cuz who the fuck carez

firzt off, CHAMOMILE IS SUCH A CUTE SHIPNAME + i definitely think this could work out :3

ERROR AND SWAP. WE LOVE THEZE TWO WE LOVE THEM HERE

dream and dust is a rarepair ive seen get thrown around here and there, havent seen a lot of content of them and hope to see more !!! their relationship is intereztin to me ^_^

CREPIC HOLY FUCK. ONE OF MY FAV SHIPZ EVER RAAHH

fucking ADORABLE. they def help saejun on the field <3

AAHH I LOVE DRILLER. I NEED MORE CONTENT OF THEM PLZPLZPL

CLASSICMARE IS DEF INTERESTINF !!! /poz :3 i think theyd get along (someway)

never heard of thiz one, but id love to see how it'd work out tbh :o

THIS ONE EITHER WHOA. WOULD LOVE TO SEE MORE ZTUFF OF THEM

LIVE LAUGH LOVE SSP. WE LOVE SSP.

SHAKEZ YOUU whenever i zee thiz ship itz alwayz the mozt wholezome cutezt shit ever. love them <3

GREAT CHOICEZ 10/10 WOULD EAT AGAIN >_<

[isa-ah]

man i had a fuck of a nightmare last night

an old friend and i had moved out to japan together to kind of start over and get a new lease on life. we got a ground story apartment that butted right up against a college, & i found out pretty quickly that someone i grew up with was attending! she introduced me to her best friend, and thats where stuff kind of hit off.

her friend was this cute little latina girl with huge dark eyes and curly hair (my greatest weakness) and i, being terminally weak and single in my dream, immediately invited her over to hang out. she kind of giggled abt it and followed me over to our apartment while we made small talk and once we walked in, the buddy i was living with hops up immediately like oh? you brought over a friend? thats so exciting and kind of swarmed her. not in a bad way! shes just a very strong personality and can be an acquired taste. that said, this girl i brought over was really shy and kind of folded under the attention so i pulled her into my room for some. privacy. to talk.

and it was a lot of fun honestly. we really hit it off. she asked me if i could fix something wrong with her laptop so i was messing around with it while she did this little scavenger hunt for pieces to put together a 3D puzzle she was really interested in. it was nice. id crack jokes and shed like giggle and flush and i was like oh i am KILLING this until i turned around to ask her a question about her computer and realized shed left my room at some point and the 3D puzzle was only one piece away from complete, laying on my bed.

i went to find the last piece and then trailed out with it in my hands to find her and realized my roomie was talking her EAR off and shed been shooting me sos texts about it. i came around the corner where i could hear them talking and only my roomie was there, looking dejected and sunken into the couch. i was like, whered she go? and she said i dont know. i dont think she likes me very much.

i gave her a little pep talk while we waited, assuming shed run back to her dorm or over to the corner store to get something. but gradually nearly a week passed where we didnt hear back from her. upon asking, her friend hadnt either. concerned, my roomie and i gathered up all the stuff shed left (including her whole laptop) and stuck them into the living room closet so theyd be safe when she finally returned.

we slipped into my room to discuss it because we were both really starting to worry when the shadow cast from my window shifted and i spun around to see just the very top of her curly little head poking over the windowsil. thinking she was checking to see if we were home, i JUMPED up so relieved, but was knocked back by the force at which our front door SLAMMED open and SLAMMED shut.

we looked at each other like whwhhhh why do you think she did THAT...? and held our breath as we heard her stumbling footsteps across the carpet and then a clattering of things pulled off the closet shelf in the living room. so shed come back for her stuff. thats good, right? thats a good thing? but as i pushed the bedroom door open to ask if everything was okay, the living room was empty. the closet door was swaying but everything else was still.

my roomie and i glanced at each other again like oh. uhm. okay. and as were trying to figure out what had just happened, i hear her voice, wavering from within my bedroom calling for me. so i book it like holy shit, are you okay? but my room is likewise empty.

and again, from behind me this time, i hear her shy voice as if from under water, call for help.

we pulled the apartment apart but we couldnt find her anywhere. her stuff was still sitting untouched on the top shelf of the closet and her phone was off. and slowly, realizing she wasnt here in any way physically, my roomie and i sat down. & i just remember her saying slowly, quietly, "i dont think shes okay, isaiah." before her jaw fell open and a horrific foghorn blared out of it.

waking me up.

brother i lost so much sleep after that. idk. idk. felt bad

[bre3zycoins]

now i can ask YOU set it off for the band ask game >:))

my phone crashed and died when i tried writing this the firat time so now im on ky notes app pre typing this 😁👍

am i a fan?: absolutely 100% all the way baby tride and true

first song i heard: ill sleep when im dead noghtcore.

fave song: this is so hard UGH ok so first off ashely's song is the song ever, the only one of all time. and then some runner ups for that spot are nightmare, id rather drown, third wheel, swan song, dream catcher, actually just all of cinematics, plus hourglass, no disrespect, bleak december, and cordial (i have so many more i could go on about how much i just fucking ADORE this band)

fave album: HORRIBLE KIDS AND CINEMATICS, I CANT CHOOSE ONE OR THE OTHER I LOVE THEM BOTH SO MUCH. i would also like to say that elsewhere was shockingly good. like the first two singles released TERRIFIED me bc they had the tik tok virality structure with the chorus being first THEN the berse. but then i stayed up for the release of whos in control and i was SHOCKED. it really felt like a tride and true set it off song i loved it! it felt like a musical love letter to previous albums especially midnight. then the album dropped and it was really good actually!! i love how they combined an almost glass animals esque aesthetic with their own punk rock one from the previous decade of music theyd released!

fave music video: i dont watch a whole lot of music videos in general, BUT I ABSOLUTELY ADORE HOURGLASS

do i have merch?: yes!!1!1! i have the silly hourglass mascot pin, a hoodie, a beanie (that i almost lost in a parking lot after flying over an 8 foot tall fence in a snow tube), n the holy grail: number 83 of 100, set it off bucket hat. all midnight era stuff bc i was like, mega broke when elsewhere dropped n also for upside down era

have i ever seem them live?: NO BUT I ALMOST DID AND IM STILL MAD ANOUT YHAT BECAUSE THE COMCERT I WENT TO AS A COMPROMISE I GOT COVID FROM. the show i was supposed to go to was the day before my birthday n it was in new york and my parents got my hopes all high n shit for a while that we were gonna go n then boom, no we cant. plus i just in general live in a terrible spot for concerts, im super far north like really close to canada and the closet concert hosting city is five hours away in a completely different state so i just dont really get to go to concerts.

fave member: maxx all the way, literal one of two inspirations that kept me drumming n then also indirectly got me into guitar.

this band literally means so much to me i am a twinge crazy me thinks

[moonglittering]

What is a Romantic pet peeve that Virote has?

vi hates big romantic gestures. he hates overblown, public gestures. they make him fuckin SICK. they mean nothing to him. i think his worst nightmare is a man proposing to him in a public space. virote’s immensely private at times and proposing in public feels so disgusting. an intimate question on whether or not he’d like to spend the rest of his life with someone? presented in a space with other people?? holy shit. that’s so disrespectful and gross to him. he’d say ‘ no ’ immediately. but in a good relationship something like that would never happen anyway because theyd know him well enough to not pull that kind of stunt.

do wanna kno what would happen if a man proposed to vi in public?

there’s such a good text post i have in his drafts for this:

the american obsession with ur love being Witnessed is so sick like public airport confessions of love and restaurant proposals and everyone clapping when you kiss in movies that is so wrong and disgusting i don’t want a love that only feels real when there are witnesses present i want a quiet love i want to be kissed around the corner i want to feel content with my love when i am alone

he doesn’t mind like... you know holding hands and all that. but big gestures are a huge no for him. don’t even try it. he doesn’t want his relationship to be a spectacle. its nots a centerpiece.

also he’s an adult that respects himself lol.

[her-canine-teeth]

decided to not make a whole analysis bc. thats much so im just gonna like write my thoughts to each line! slay.

spiracle by flower face - notes

!!i dont have like many symbolism here yet. and with that i mean almost nothing; i was mainly, like, testing the waters or smth bc it was the first one etc and i wasnt really familiar with anything just yet.

I want your quiet, your screaming and thrashing

jackie's quiet, shauna isnt.

The salt on your lips and the hands that god gave you

'salt' -> ocean -> water

And I want your violence, your silent sedation(....) who ever she killed not sure

violence is pretty obvious i think; sedation sounds kinda sterile to me and the clip too

Your moon eyes, your telescope,

literally had no other ideas

morbid fixation

it does seem. morbid sorta

And I want your pyro,

fire

your born-again virgin

she wasnt a vigrin when she died. but for a pretty long time. and shes like 'born again' in shaunas mind yk??

Your hands on my insides, your fingertips crawling

makes sense

And I want your Jesus,

I THINK she sorta looks like holy?? savior typa IDK how to say that. but it reminds me of jesus.

your suicide mission

died

Your lips on the microphone,

bc shes like leading, actively the captain

soft disposition

looks rlly soft <3

And I want your parties,

party

the shark in your water

fit somehow im not sure anymore ahhh also dont have any notes. but i still think it fits

The scrapes on your knees and the blood that spills over

blood that spills over = cheating

And I want your zeroes,

sorta seems at a low point

your polluted marrow

.sorta obvious i think

The sweat on your palms and

bc shes like nervous, she doesnt know what to say

your surveillance shadow

she still there, in the distance, watching over shauna and she cant get closer; if jackie is a shadow, then shauna is the light.

I want your secrets,

fits with jackies line

your clementine fields

i googled clemetine meaning and it means innocence and i thought that fit like rlly well

The ropes that you climb up,

sorta a stretch; the ropes are jeff (that shes climbing for a 'normal', heterosexual life). jackie wants this (otherwise she wouldntve been with jeff pre crash) but shauna is the one to eventually actually climb them/marry him.

the parts that won't heal

still succumbs to violence or however you want to call it. thought it more fitting to her killing adam bc the rabbit required like precision n shit

I want your safe word,

idk

your passive resistance

shauna doesnt want it, but still isnt active.

The sickness you foster, your favorite addictions

quite obvious too i think. personally one of my fav parts

And I want your nightmares, the ghost in your doorway

shes a ghost, shes in something sort of resembling a doorway

Your paralyzed sleep and your- [scream]

thought it was funny, also it is indeed true. if i like had to choose then the scream is my fav part i think esp bc it just lines up so wellll like the death scene and everything really

I want you, butterfly, I want you, sailor

actually asked sb what theyd say who is who but since ive watched it like a feww times and: jackie is the butterfly bc shes a beautiful (and seen as such) and fragile (was the first to die). also she has a butterfly shirt (which is worn by shauna later on - which was actually the reason I asked sb! bc i was unsure if i should use shauna in the shirt. but then i decided against it, mainly bc i didnt like the vibe of the clip and i wanted them to interact). the symbolic meaning of butterflies doesnt really fit her (transformation, change, growth)(really its more the opposite) BUT it doesnt fit shauna as well.

shauna is the sailor bc she like sailed away and left jackie behind, a million miles apart and unable to do anything but to dream of each other (which jackie is doing then). technically, jackie is leaving here, but this is still jackies last goodbye (even though its imagined)

I am your lover and I am your jailor

originally 'I am your lover' was supposed to be 'thats not what youre hungry for' but i changed it. Not sure why (like id do it again but idk why) but its like. shes (the picture) her lover shes gone she wont (cant) ever come back (not rlly) shes representing everything that was and thats been lost (everything thats irredemable. shauna herself.) shes her lover but shes not real (shes not even a hallucination that only shauna can see, but a picture that everyone can see and does see bc its on a really big screen on a get-together with many people; shes not shaunas, she doesnt belong to shauna which she never has - even though thats all that shauna wants. (I think jackie thinks, or at least feels otherwise. whcih shauna doestn know, of course, cause their communication is ATROCIOUS)). shes never been real, actually, cause whats shown on the screen is the jackie that shes been showing them, not the one she really is (today she is pretending for shauna, too. she doesnt, cant see her real self, who she really is; theres nothing beneath the surface of 'jackie, homecoming queen' anymore)

shauna is the jailor bc she wont let jackie go. in doing that (and in living the life jackie was supposed to live, represented by jeff being with her at the function) shes also her own jailor

[glitchdollmemoria]

i open youtube on my phone and watch a video. it begins with two ads and i can only skip the second one, and every 5-10 minutes theres another one or two ads. at some point in the video the youtuber spends a few minutes advertising their sponsor because thats the best way for them to get paid for their work. i do not have the money to afford the ad free version of youtube.

i decide to watch youtube on my laptop with an adblocker instead and i use my phone to open an art app instead. i have to watch an ad to access the brushes that i like to use. any time i exit and reopen the app, an ad pops up on my screen. there is an ad banner on the top of my screen nonstop. when i try to switch between artworks, another ad pops up, and when i press the X to close it, i am taken to the app store to buy what the ad was for. i refresh the art app because thats the only way i can get rid of the ad. i do not have the money to afford the ad free version of this app.

i finish drawing and open tumblr mobile. by far the least aggressive in advertising but holy shit, some of these are unsettling. sometimes i mistake the ads for real posts at first. i still prefer the mobile app, but i need to edit my blog, so i go on desktop and see a popup calling tumblr a hellsite and asking me to turn off adblocker and pay to remove ads instead. i do not have the money to afford the ad free version of tumblr.

this continues with nearly every digital service i use. i cant afford to pay to use it, so i either use an adblocker or just put up with companies trying to pretend theyre my friends, or disregarding peoples safety by making ads that flash or are untentionally unnerving, or putting in the absolute minimum amount of effort by using a text to speech program instead of hiring a voice actor and yet they still think i trust them to put any amount of effort into their product when i have no reason not to suspect theyd cut corners for profit in production just the same as in advertising. companies are constantly competing for real estate in my brain, and yours, and yours, and yours, and the alternative is that we all just shell out to use services that are so ingrained in our lives that it becomes incredibly difficult to imagine not having access to them - because these services are often designed to be addictive and draw us in and take up as much of our time as possible and keep us scrolling and scrolling and scrolling and generating more and more revenue. from ads.

and then i say all this to my therapist and he says "yeah youre right this is all kind of a nightmare and i dont know what to do about it either and it scares me" and then we do shots together or something. you get the picture

[jomnki]

had the world's longest fucking dream.

can't remember how it began, but it was related to anime esqe horror zombie stuff. there was white eyes and oH yeah i got kidnapped by some maniac who was in love with me and somehow i convinced them that we were going to go kill every power havin individual in the apartment. Next door neighbour excluded because he was helping with my master plan. somehow we escape the apartment. also next door neighbour is the protagonist.

met up with a bunch of kids? one was very suspiciously quiet and the protag later exposed her for like.. being a zombie i guess. i keep switching povs from myself and the protag at this point. i have dream powers that let me read her mind and maybe she isn't evil. and yeah i feel asleep in my dream it was.. weird.

beforr that we moved back to china and there was this old lady who was supposed to be related to me but looking back that was legit just a random person. and then we had this big feast in a big foyer where i cried over some music. we were only supposed to have one bowl of food each so when you're finished you get up to let other people eat and i think i went to stim walk a while so when i came back to my table there was a bunch of tough lookin strangers eating? i just sat down and finished my meal.

anyways then chinese soldiers from a past dynasty came in and took everyone hostage and decided to show that they were serious by cutting into my neck and it was very painful. the raw terror. i got away at some point while other soldiers got in through the doors to start having a mass massacre i guess. like there were swords and arrows and black face paint and they were all dressed in ancient chinese soldier uniforms. i found the protag and somewhere along the line the dream decided my blood was holy and the leader of the pervious soldiers got a sip and went oOOOoOoohoohoo. i left the protag and the leader to do their, fuckin anime battle or something.

i ran home and found the lady whowassupposed to be myrelative and shes like wHAT hapPENED TO YOUR NECK and i went hey everyone's safe (lie) just let me get into the apartment so i can get everyone else somewhere safe (i thought if i sent em onna trip hunting theyd be away from the battle) but alas the door to our apartment was missing the envolope slot and whatever and i waa like huh that's unsettling and the lady was acting a bit loopy. then we got in and. i shit you not it was a hotel scene from anOther nightmare i had where there was gore everywhere with an ominous lil girl just standing there. the lady went who are you and i woke up at this point.

i cant describe to you how anxiety fueling this entire dream was, like constantly my life was in danger. like im sure somewhere there i had a dream in a dream to when some shark cosplay ing people broke in to our other not real house (that had appeared in multiple separate dreams before) and hunted us down to kill and i had to hurt them instead. it felt so real.

[catghoulz]

my headcanon, given bloodbornez themez ov human evolution, iz very much tht nothing in bloodborne iz truly ov extraterrestrial origin.

like if the great onez really were just lovecraftian alienz from space why would a land in contact with the cosmos be required for them to transcend. surely theyd have just done tht in the cosmos itself! no i think itz pretty clear tht ultimately everything in the setting tracez itz lineage back to terrestrial beastz at one stage or another. at most i could certainly buy tht not all ov them emerged from hominidz specifically. i could see amygdalae for example deriving from some sort ov swarming creaturez tht suppressed their beasthood & ascended to the status ov great one cockroachez given how numerous & Kinda Stupid they seem.

but like. kos haz a human face & her child a human build. kos iz almost certainly a human/pthumerian who ascended to great one status without becoming a kin, likely in loran going by the crawlers in nightmare frontier. in my opinion flora the moon presence waz a woman from isz who ascended to the nearest cosmic body & waz likely the original crafter ov the Holy Moonlight Sword, given her proclivitiez.

imo before isz the world ov bloodborne waz just beastz undergoing millionz ov yearz ov evolution in a way minimally divergent from our own world until eventually some early hominidz suppress their inner beasthood & start hunting & gathering & shit, eventually culminating in the ppl ov isz (sans ebrietas) reaching transcendental planez of thought & diverging from our own history by way of Cosmic Horror Bullshit

extremely odd to me tht so many ppl insist "kin" & "great one" are mutually exclusive categoriez & anything tht iz kin subsequently Cannot be a great one wen like. a significant proportion ov the great onez are marked az kin? like itz just orphan, wet nurse, amygdala & moon presence who arent kin

[sailorvinus]

❣

✨ @seekesotsibteadmist. meme. still accepting!

he hates big romantic gestures. he hates overblown, meaningless, disney styled gestures. they make him fuckin SICK. i think his worst nightmare is a man proposing to him in a public space. virote’s immensely private at times and proposing in public feels so disgusting. an intimate question on whether or not he’d like to spend the rest of his life with someone??? presented in a space with other people???? holy shit???? that’s so disrespectful and gross to him. he’d say ‘ no ’ immediately. but in a good relationship something like that would never happen anyway because theyd know him well enough to not pull that kind of stunt.

do wanna kno what would happen if a man proposed to vi in public?

that.

[dramarising-replacement]

deep breaths..

okay. i have a hatchery of a decently in demand... class of dragons that require very specific colours. i have one pair finished and another pair under construction (aiming to eventually have 6 pairs) getting the second pair was a nightmare. unfortunately for me, getting dragons of the right xx colour was hard, and im likely gonna have to breed for some of them because its a somewhat rare combo. i actually managed to secure TWO fathers before i got the mom, because holy shit getting her was difficult. after i sent out the initial messages to people asking if they were open to selling and how much theyd been looking for, i got back an “i need to think about it” on the mom. no big deal, i was expecting a lot of those. they asked if i would be okay just borrowing her and i said no, and that if they weren’t willing to part with her no worries. the back and forth that ensued yall... i was ready to move on, preparing to expand my colour range a bit just to get this over with. i had both dads, so if i happened to breed a female with the right colours i could switch dads and it would be okay, since these hatchlings could make enough to pay for their all parents genes in a single nest. in total, from the first time i contacted them to when i got the dragon, our message chain accrued 9 Re:’s. the majority of which were them going back and forth, sometimes double messaging me when i hadn’t even had a chance to respond, changing their mind. i get it! sometimes it’s hard to decide if you’re ready to part with a dragon, especially if someone is offering to buy them. but i had already said it was fine, i was searching further, i was moving on. and then out of the blue they agreed to sell. cool! i paid a little more than i was hoping to, but im not super low on funds and like i said, the hatchlings basically pay for themselves. i thought that was the end, until today. “please don’t exalt or rename her” okay, please don’t exalt i understand. not that i would exalt this dragon that i spent so long trying to acquire and am buying genes for anyways, but i get it. not that it’s their call anyways, because the dragon is mine now. but RENAME?? i can’t RENAME MY OWN DRAGON?? anyways i reminded them that once a dragon is sold it isn’t their call what happens to it anymore, and that she would likely get renamed during my lair purge & remodel later this year. i’m probably the asshole here, but i just wanted to rant about this.

[mutantenfisch]

I've had two weird dreams both in the night to Saturday, due to being high on painkillers I suppose?

The nice one was one were I was an actor in an Alexander von Humboldt biopic (interestingly, I was the only real German theyd cast and basically my role was to geek out about his work and be the fanboy on main). Oscar Isaac was in that dream too. I can't remember what else happened, but flash forward to the film's premiere and I used every possible moment to gush about mum and my fiancée to whom I was already married in that dream 😙

I woke up, fed the purrtelloni because he was yelling for his 3am snack and went back to sleep. Then, the almost-nightmare happened.

For whatever reason we had a new ecology prof and everyone had to retake the lecture. Even those who'd already passed the exam. So, all this was fair and good (in that dream's logic) and her marine ecology videos were really cool. But then she showed us a vid from a sunken temple in the Aegean sea and the orca that was diving closer to the camera was a bit too real and in that dream it felt like I was sitting in the classroom but at the same time was diving in that temple and when I ducked away from the orca, I noticed mural reliefs and frescoes and statues depicting Medusa. I was like "holy shit that's a temple to Poseidon. We're all going to get sacrificed" and I awoke from that trance, sprinted out of the classroom and ran away as quickly as possible. The town was no longer Jena, but looked like an urban Assassin's Creed setting, but still vaguely familiar, probably Erfurt?? I felt like some sort of presence was chasing me, but did not dare to look back because of Medusa's petrifying glare and decided that only the Holy Mary could help me, so I tried to get to the convent and church I could see a few turns down the hill/road. I parkoured into that direction and collapsed on the church's stairs, just to glance up into the mortified face of a kind looking old nun who was staring at what was behind me.

She then started mumbling prayers to Mary, Artemis, Isis and a bunch of other godesses and I woke up because the pain in my leg had gotten worse.

[radioactivetirade]

i wish i didnt get so angry over this shit. like I KNEW roe v wade was gonna be overturned, we all knew it. its the main reason amy barrett is on that fuxking court to be frank. and yet here we are, and i am still seething with the idiocy of this clown parade. at this point there is no stopping the barrage of far right laws being forced into american homes, like whos gonna step up lol the fucking dumbass liberals who are about as effective and progressive as a wet fucking blanket ?? jesus fucking christ at this point i just want things to get worse faster so enough peoples eyes are opened to the authoratarian nightmare we are basically already living in to start the fucking revolution already holy fuck.

and ppl in my life judge me for getting so into american politics, but if they were paying a modicum of attention and applied like the eensiest bit of critical thought theyd see canada just follows the vibe of the states every damn time, we are the coors lite to americas fucking coors ultra. we are in this together in north america. while i understand i dont have to live in the same present conditions as ppl living in america, their fight is mine too and i will get angry and i will be vocal and i will not fucking stop until i am elderly and living in a commune. or dead from nuclear war/choose-your-own-adventure climate death/murdered for being a whistle blower. bc lets be real im the type to blow the fucking whistle .

god i know im fucking riled up i just cant help it. i feel pain and anguish and injustice and inequality deep in my soul and i feel change coming in my bones. i cannot be a leader or a revolutionary because i dont know how to force people to hear me and force them to are and force mywords to matter. in fact i dont want to, and want to speak and have people want to hear me and want to care for themselves.

like i dont know whats wrong with me but i just feel like the weight of injustices piling up and looming over me and i want so fucking bad to be like lucy parsons or angela davis or a million other revolutionaries but i am not and i never will be. im not waiting for others to fight for me i just dont know what the hell to do

im goddamn broken man. fuck