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They should Invent a sink wide enough to wash baking sheets
#and then come Install it in my house for free#like fr it’s my own personal hell#washing#dishwashing#baking sheets#personal ranting#homemaking#when the water pores out onto your feet#or out onto the counter
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who let my flatmate host a houseparty surely i would have vetoed that. walking into the carnage of my living room and letting out a delicate gasp
#HELL AND HORROR. I quietly turned around and went back to my room#i am NAWT cleaning that up 😂😂😂#it wasn’t even that good of a party basically it was her 21st bday so she invited all her sports society friends#(already a red flag. sports societies have never once produced a tolerable person)#and they are SO CLIQUEY but also weirdly awkward with each other?#like me and my mate had our own little pres hiding in my room for a bit bc the start of parties is always so awkward#and we were like we’d rather skip that and go down when everyone’s a little looser#but my flatmate was clearly dead stressed bc it was her party and she was hosting#and she’s always banging on about how much she likes these people and they’re sooo crazy#and soo fun and better than us etc etc like she’s RUDE about it#but last night she was so clearly stressed and trying to impress them and i was just like girl. is it ever that serious#so me and my mate finally came downstairs i shit you not EVERYONE WAS JUST ON THEIR PHONES#HELLO??? and we started talking and getting people to blow up balloons and shit and suddenly everyone was partying#we fr were the life of the party it was so odd 😭#my flatmate though omdsss this girl was doing key after key#she came into my room at the start and i shit u not looked like she’d been punched in the nose#I was like girl i KNOW your ass is on ket gtfo#but yeah. generally a mediocre night. me and my mate made the most of the fact everyone else sucked#hella goes to uni
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crying my eyes out and screaming so fucking loud at 4 am that i woke up my neighbors because i was relating a bit too much to sanji's backstory and luffy's jane-austen-like speech was cathartic as hell and i don't think i'll need to go to therapy ever again
#i don't think i've cried this much in like ages#what the fuck did i just watch#i have so many things to say about 808 and wci as a whole#sanji is so relatable it hurts like hell#luffy we get it you're in love with sanji etcetc#no bc fr what the fuck this was so romantic i never thought luffy could say stuff like this#dude said this as if he had been thinking about it for ages#sanji's self-harming and self-sabotage will always be personal to me#god this hits too close to home i can't do this i'm gonna go cry#lusan is like#my whole brain rn is them#this was so love story and anti hero and you're on your own kid by taytay#sanji#NOT VIN*MOKE I'M MURDERING THEM ALL#sanji i love you#monkey d. luffy#lusan#one piece#whole cake island
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tagging hayden’s photos with ed tags is extremely irresponsible. stop it.
#evidence of life#ethel cain#what the hell you guys#tagging anyone w/ such is ofc but this is what i mostly see as a smth smth horror religious regional gothic literature lifestyle girlblogger#like i’ve had up to here with some of y’all#there’s also a certain style of blogging that seems to go with these accounts so i have to ask#who are you performing for? what are you trying to emulate? what is /your/ personality? who /are/ you?#like no offence you’ll never be an it girl if your goals are to be carbon copies of your perception of it girls sorry to say but it’s true#y’all make me want do that charm school idea that had years for similar reasons#like y’all wack let me teach you some etiquette and inspire you to have your own signature#we cannot progress with all the same parts mary#tempted to tag ethel cain core n preacher’s daughter bc those are the tags that i’ve have beef with since about late fall 2022#that’s when the daughters of cain had a huge shift i feel i have several hypotheses about why and no i’m not going to completely blame ty#TT*** ughhh it’s more about expectations of musicians n fan culture when most are familiar with industry baby performers#maybe if someone gives me likeeee $10 or $20 dollars i’ll post my essay lite posts (girlblogger opinion and analysis time like i intended)#at least i’m still posting SL related stuff and the motif tags but yk ://// i’ll regain the confidence i know it#like your mum suck me good in my jorts fr#edit: lost some followers after posting this lol this is what did it or was it my tags looks like i’ve got to do another bitchfest either wa
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ok dude the finale (this is gonna be cringe and sappy lmao look out)
i wasn't even expecting dean's death to hit me so hard because i was so prepared for it and because it'd been almost memeified on here
but
fuck did it ever hit me. sobbed for real.
i mean that's dean
that's my character
i saw him on my screen in real time back in like '07 and was like "oh yeah that's gonna be the guy i'm gonna model my personality after" (look we can talk about how wise that was but i was 15 okay)
i started drinking my coffee black and listening to blue oyster cult and ac/dc because of dean winchester. i copied his tough as nails attitude and used it as my own shield when i was a miserable teenager.
blah blah i quit the show and moved on and then picked it back up 12 years later and i still love him. that's my guy!!! dean winchester meant a lot to me!!!
and, well. yeah. the worst possible ending. dying the way he always thought he would. it reminds me of season 8 when he told sam he was nothing but a grunt (i relate to him ugh fuck) and that was all he could expect.
but sam told him he's not just a grunt, he's a genius. we saw him talk about wanting to experience things and people in a different way or for the first time. we saw him wanting out, wanting a break, wanting to go the beach with sam and cas and feel the sand between his toes.
and he got none of it. and they treated him like the grunt he always thought he was.
and they never let him see cas again. his best friend who loved him and who told him he was so much more than what he thought of himself. that he WAS love.
they took him away and then they killed dean and we're expected to be fine with it cause he went to heaven and saw sam.
i'm tired and gutted and i saw it all coming lmao, i knew every last bit of this happened!!!! so why is seeing it in context so awful!!!! i feel sick!!!!! ha
#finale bitching#my ongoing spn relapse#spn blogging#dean winchester#my personal character of all time#very flawed and disappointing sometimes but he deserves the time to get better#he deserved the chance to at least try to make things right with jack bro#he deserved to fight like hell to find a way to get cas back from the empty and he deserved to experience love#he deserved to get a fucking job if he wanted it!!! or to move into a house with windows and a porch!!!#he deserved to become a father that was different than his own#he deserved to see sam be happy with eileen ffs#not blurry wife and random son!!!!!#(sorry but since when did sam even express interest in being a dad outside of jack like it just doesnt make sense!!!)#whatever i'm done with these tags now#i'm very unhappy but at least party city wig is making it hard to stay depressed#that shit is too ridiculous they can't be fr#they didnt even try to make sam look old lmao smacked that 6 buck wig on him and said “just frown really deeply it'll look like wrinkles”#whatever dude!!!!!#supernatural#destiel
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If I'm being fully honest there are certain operaposters here whom I think would do well to be assassinated or something. For example.....oh I shan't say...but two of them in particular
you're soooo right anon.
@verdiesque @girlscarpia you heard the guy(gn). chop chop now, off with ye. your time has come.
#ok jokes aside. pretty insane ask to send to someone with my history lol#what even prompted this like djdhsnsbshsj???#like sorry anon but if you wanna assassinate ppl you're on your own. ive changed my evil ways. i no longer wish hurt on any living creatures#im like a good person now and all#i still kick a puppy into the sun from time to time but im working on myself and thats what counts#ask#anon#no but fr what the hell yall#lets not do this again
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Gonna just lean harder into the weird shitass gremlin man thing from now on I’m sure someone finds it hot lol
#related to the last post#I do enjoy the very very VERY few feminine things I’ve picked up on my own#like nail polish for example#and I own a couple tubes of lipstick (black and blue)#<- which I don’t foresee using all too often but the option is there#but being in the space was making me push myself in A Direction that I subconsciously didn’t want to go to to seem appealing#as if it’d make up for the Chronic Ugliness My Face Has#was on the verge of doing slightly dumb shit for attention#never in my life did I ever consider trying to turn my personality dial that direction until I was entrenched in there#just.#holy hell.#glad my friend pointed out what was the crux of my issues fr
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SPIDERVERSE FANS I FOUND CONCEPT ARRTTTTTTTTTTT
All art by: Visual Development Artist and Illustrator Tiffany Lam
Ive tried to format this post TWICE and BOTH TIMES ive messed up. so just take the link and A-posing Miles...
...and a few more cool imgs
Go check out Tiffany Lam's website cause they got some cool The Mitchells vs The Machines and personal art. Maybe TMNT: Mutant Mayhem art soon?
Fun Fact! I did *indeed* email Ms. Lam and she gave the go ahead for personal use so have fun with the new backgrounds!
#potatcatposts#across the spiderverse#arachnophobia#also fyi Im saving both those 2 gwen and mumbatten pieces for my own personal wallpaper#and the mary janes one too!#i spent way too long on this post#cause the first time I made it with a bunch of fun details#MY INTERNET CUT OUT AND I ACCIDENTALLY DID CTRL Z AND ALL MY WORK WENT FUCKIN *ABRA CADABRA ITS GONE BITCH*#TWICE#laughing crying rn fr#hope people still like the *fuck this shit hell site* (to the tune of fuck this shit im out) post#art tag#art#concept art#wallpaper#into the spider verse#spiderman#beyond the spiderverse#spider man: across the spider verse#artwork#character design#illustration#digital art#the mitchells vs the machines#dreamworks#across the spider verse#spider verse#tmnt mutant mayhem
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anyone got exec dysfunction hacks this assignment is stupid long and my usual strats have run out
#usually i can vibe with gum/crackers/smthn + very specifically one of three OSTs i can completely zone out to and get my shit done#OR deadline anxiety is good enough. but i’ve already blown past this deadline AND used up all of my listening things to the point of#annoyance and i can’t listen to my new music (w vocals) playlist bc it’ll distract me#so i’m just sitting here like an idiot doing anything but the writing#hell. i’m very good at writing essays i have a formula a strategy i may do them last second but i get them DONE and i get good grades#this stupid shit????? this field notes narrative-prose-as-much-detail-as-possible is KILLING ME bc there’s no solid way to track my progress#and the end feels a thousand years away AND i have write about my own personal experiences with activates the MEGAanxiety and i’m#i’m a week late now. hell. the teacher even emailed to ask me#i’m so fucjin tired and not even for a reason. i knew this class would suck#to be delete but fr any advice#it’s not that writing is hard. it’s that i’m overwhelmed and can’t even get myself to start and stick with it for long er than a damn minute
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so I wasn't expecting my khux gameplay post to blow up this much because normally I just shout my khux thoughts into the void and that's that, but it's been really amazing and heartwarming seeing everyone's personal experiences with khux, like I can't say enough how much I LOVE looking at everyone's additions and tags :)
I had tried writing a long post about some khux feelings but it just wasn't coming out right. this post isn't about the game this is about me sorry tl;dr I'm a very anxious person and I love to see other people just as excited about khux as I am because I feel better about how much I like it. which is A Lot
#sorry for being vulnerable it won't happen again /lh#the real tl;dr is that I feel very dumb and stupid and anxious all the time constantly for being obsessed with khux#but again everyone's responses made me feel so much better#like yes its a major source of joy for me but I get so anxious#and I dont really talk to people at all bc of it like discord servers are a special hell but I try anyway#and majority of my khux friends drifted away from it forever ago so I feel kind of really alone by myself#I just love other people's posts and content so much I feel so stupid in comparison- I look up to so many people in the community#making memes is such a great joy for me but I yearn for more yknow. I can be a serious artist past all my clown behavior I promise#I mean all my fics are very serious and angsty but no one reads my writing Im not too confident on regularly posting it so its fine really#I'm just in my own echo chamber on here and I always assume everyone hates me or is at least annoyed by me#like people don't really comment on things I make or send me asks or message me#so not getting feedback except a decent number of notes on my posts is like. not the best#im not guilt tripping people into interacting with me really its fine I swear Im just having my own issues#really dont feel you have to because also Im really bad at conversations fr#my personal tag is 'im rambling' for a reason#but anyway this is my house and if people don't like it they can leave#at the end of the day I love to just create for my own enjoyment#and if people like it too then that's great!!!!!#but I'm also still very anxious all the time
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never have i wanted to study a man like a protist under a microscope more than now
#hes genuinely a bad person and not my friend however#this man is the walking manifestation of toxic masculinity#it’s hilarious#guy is short. has the ‘trans voice’. dresses like a divorced dad in the dysphoric trans guy (derogatory to him). walks like he practiced it#everyone thinks hes gay and/or trans which he is neither and also hes homophobic and transphobic#hes giving internalised and repressed#friend outed me to him (we both thought he knew lol) cause they were talking abt shit and he was transphobic abt me#funny as hell like how you gon call me a girl looking the way you do#man asked ‘well why does he dress fem’ and my friend said ‘well i don’t judge the way you dress do i’.#i love my friend like fr deal with your own closet you don’t got a single fit to stand on
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Sigh. It begins (being forced to see the worst aro hcs I've ever seen in my life because ppl have a talent for finding the absolute worst characters to be their token aro hc)
#rat rambles#hey pros of oni. no fandom to make shitty aro hcs#cause like you just know ppl would roll out their aro jackie fanart and Id have to delete my blog#and like normally with shitty aro hcs for things I like its not even that I don't share the hc just that I dont trust allo ppl#but jackie isnt even aro to me shes allo as fuck#I could dig some arospec olivia tho#Im also an enjoyer of aro joshua and aro otto#anyways time to block the wx tag but like for realsies Im not dealing with this shit#anyways happy pride months. Im going to spend most of it being the evil homophobic acearo that they warned you abt <3#I jest I will be trying to enjoy it on my own time I just hate fandom culture and ppl having shit takes#honestly be glad I don't touch sekai tags anymore or Id start posting some real unreadable shit#its so hard being an aromantic person who hcs mafuyu as aromantic and romance repulsed because they're just like me fr#because god damn would that be a red flag to me if it were anyone else's hc lol#oh also does a little dance kanade is unlabeled as hell and no one can convince me otherwise#anyways I should make some dst pride art but its abby and walter in their aromantic echo chamber arguing with everyone that love isn't real#like I've said before its me healing my inner child who had too much of an anxiety disorder to be the obnoxious aro kid I couldve been#I bet both of them are like a wall to argue with but in different ways#walter will do the age old strat of just stating his points over and over again like it makes them right#and abby will do the 'prove it beyond a shadow of a doubt or you're automatically wrong' approach#because theyre both lil bastard kids who drive ppl around them crazy when they feel like it#wendy is also a bit of a wall but more in the sense that he will just plain refuse to believe things that he doesnt want to believe#because his coping mechanism is trying to wallow in his misery in hopes that it'll start to hurt less if he expects the worst#and I think if you tried to correct his stupid emo quotes he'd get all pissy abt it since its not abt accuracy it's abt his shitty coping
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I used to have a general distaste for religion & I think that a lot of that is rooted in the right wing, Christian machine in the United States. There is a massive prevalence of cults in our country, from Mormons, Amish, and jehovahs witnesses, to evangelical Christian’s and mega churches. Our country was founded by puritans, fleeing persecution for their shitty, manipulative ways, and every year we celebrate them with an entire day of thanks.
None of this is inherent to religion. Yes the crusades were horrible, but colonialism and imperialism has been a common thread through western power, with or without religion.
Community is valuable. Rituals are valuable. Coming together with people you barely know, to bond over something you can easily share, is a very powerful way to form bonds with people. If you struggle to make friends after leaving school, think of the benefit of a low stakes, free, public event that happens every week where everyone partakes in the same group activity and there are regularly people there, who attend religiously, meaning they are there basically every week.
I had this realization in 2020, after starting a small outdoor skating group. It felt so so so good to connect with people regularly. Yes skating was fun but it wasn’t about that. It was about the community of it all. You can find similar things in group sports, and clubs, and popular events with a dedicated fan base. Have you ever been to a con? Similar thing.
To briefly take a step back, one of the reasons that team sports are such an effective way to form community, is that you make a stronger commitment to show up reliably for a reason. This is probably the same reason cults are so effective and popular. I personally enjoy the freedom of a voluntary event, where I don’t feel bad if I miss a week or two for whatever reason. But that leads to a lot less consistent participation, which weakens the community. Our lives are so busy and full and eclectic these days, it’s hard to find somewhere with a truly dedicated following that isn’t enforced in some way.
All this to say I think that facing and excising the cult problem in the US, while finding some nondenominational rituals we can have fun with in a much more scientifically minded world to fill that gap in all of our lives, would be massively beneficial to the country at large. It could help form community, heal the gaping divide between generations, establish stronger mutual aid networks, and make it possible for us to actually come together and enforce change on a large scale.
I'm very frustrated by people who think that religion itself is the problem and should be eradicated.
#anyways join my cult#all you gotta do is give me 10k#your first born#and sign for indentured servitude for a quarter of your life#it’ll be fun I promis#that’s a joke I’m joking kids#fr tho I’m personally susceptible to cults#I know a lot of people who long to go live on a commune with an enforced community#myself included#also this should go without saying but these claims aren’t backed up by research#I have a feeling you could track down people who have done extensive research abt this#hell I’m tempted to get into theological philosophy#but I don’t really read non fiction#to my own detriment#I’m like a dog#if u wana teach me anything u gotta wrap it in cheese#(fantastical story telling)
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my woman part two, lando norris
summary : y/n spends the summer break with her two favourite people but summer always has to come to an end. warnings : none a/n : tysm for all the love on part one, here is the highly requested part two xx
y/nusername summer with my love
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user119 omg the bump im sobbing 😭
f1fan my fav family
alexsaintmleux literally glowing
y/nusername 💋
landonorris i don't want this summer to end
carmenmundt can't wait to see you <3
y/nusername literally can't wait to see you again eeek
y/nmyfave i can't believe that they are acc going to be parents soon, literally felt like yesterday when they announced their engagement 🫠
y/nusername
》 landonorris god you are so beautiful
》 y/nusername such a simp 🤭 》 landonorris only for you
》 user11 dress from where???
》 f1fan i think its zara but i'm not sure
》 carmenmundt is that my cardigan i see 👀
》 y/nusername my fashion icon
landonorris the summer break of dreams.
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y/nusername yes he did ask me to play mermaids with him
landonorris yk u wanted to ;)
f1fan normally summer break is hell but my parents being active makes up for it
user9201 he's so cutsie like look at that smile
y/nlover y/n one chance plssss
charlesleclerc inside he's still a child
oscarpiastri i can confirm this ☝️
carmenmundt reunited with bestie @y/nusername
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y/nusername my fav person
landonorris um excuse me tffff
georgerussell ❤️
f1fan underrated duo imo !
user102 imagine being friends with them 😩
landonorris back to the track 🏎
》 user929 stop no more y/n and lando content kill me now
》 f1fan he looks miserable
y/nusername
landonorris good result, good food, good weekend.
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f1lover his smileeee im blushing
user929 the curls are curling
oscarpiastri he did in fact try to fit all those waffles in his mouth all at once
charlesleclerc 💀
f1wagupdates bros majestic
carmenmundt
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landonorris george's face is such a jumpscare
charlesleclerc fr
f1_619 queen of the paddock
user929 stop i miss y/n so bad
f1lover BEST WAG AND BEST COUPLE ARGUE WITH THE WALL
georgerussell i love you
landonorris had to dnf on the last lap, but oscar on the podium so great job team 💪 hopefully next week is better.
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f1fan it's okay pookie we still love you
oscarpiastri sorry mate but if u want we can co own my trophy
landonorris um yesss
f1lover mclaren screwed him over again
user528 girl what-
y/nusername baby girl is here (evelyn norris) and we couldn't be happier. we both love you so much already and can't wait for the rest of our lives with you.
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landonorris our baby girl 🫶
carmenmundt my bsf is officially a mommy
georgerussell congrats you guys !!
user7282 yes i sobbed when i saw this post and what about it?
oscarpiastri real
lewishamilton big congratulations to you both ❤️
f1wagupdates sobbing
fernandoalonso wow i feel old
f1lover im calling it first she will be the star of the paddock
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"Without You."
✿ Sylus x fem!reader (non mc)
✿ He finally realized what it felt losing you forever.
✿ angst. no comfort.
✿ somewhat continuation of Never Yours.
✿ rambles: ran out of diamonds and can't pull for Sylus card so im coping thru angst rn :')
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Life without you felt like hell.
Each day felt like torture for Sylus, he struggled to get through the day, constantly reminded of your absence in every single thing he does.
He found himself avoiding places that are filled with memories of you, like his collection room where you shared equal interest and fondness of said collections with him. The indoor greenhouse he had set up for you where you used to tend to your small garden with him.
And mostly, your old personal bedroom that was left untouched ever since your departure from his life.
Instead, Sylus threw himself into more work, trying to use his job as a distraction from his crippling grief. But no matter how tired he feels physically after working himself to exhaustion, he still found himself having trouble sleeping completely.
The empty space beside him in his bed was another painful reminder of what he's lost—he'd toss and turn, trying to sleep but his mind will start replaying memories of you. He'd often find himself reaching out to the other side of his bed, his hand searching for your warmth—but it was always met with a cold dreadful space.
The crushing realisation would hit him again, causing another wave of grief that made it even harder to sleep. He'd clutch a pillow, burying his face into it as he sobbed silently into the night.
His body felt weak and he looked paler compared to before, the only thing that kept him going was his determination to push through, yet the sadness in his eyes was visible to everyone around him. His appetite decreased drastically, Luke and Kieran had to force him to eat just to keep him from starving, despite fearing the consequence of Sylus's wrath. The loyal twins even resorted to asking help from her because they hoped at least she could snap some senses in him.
And unfortunately, not even Miss Hunter could fill the void you had left behind.
One night, Sylus had a particularly hard time sleeping. He toss and turned in his bed, his mind filled with images of you —your laugh, your smile, your touch, the feel of your skin against his own.
Each memory felt like a stab to his heart, causing his breathing to catch in his throat as he clutched his pillow tightly, his knuckles turning white from squeezing it too hard.
The grief was so overwhelming that he ended up hallucinating that you were still by his side and resting beside him on the bed that cold dreadful night.
Sylus slowly opened his eyes when he felt fingers lightly running through his hair, causing him to shiver a little at the familiar touch.
He slowly turned his head to look at the figure resting beside him and his heart skipped a beat at the sight.
You laid there on the bed, your hand gently running through his hair with a soft smile on your lips.
Sylus's breath caught in his throat, his heart thumped in his chest as he stared at you in disbelief.
*No.. this.. this can't be real...*
His mind was racing, he tried to reach out cautiously, his hand trembled as he slowly extended it, trying to touch your cheek to see if you were real.
As soon as his fingers made contact with your cheek, he almost gasped at your realness. You felt so warm, so smooth, so real, just like he remembered.
His eyes widened, his hand trembled even more yet he didn't pull his hand away, as if afraid that you'll disappear like a mirage if he moves.
Your smile widened, your hand moved from his hair to his hand, wrapping your hand around his own that's still on your cheek, pressing it lightly against your skin. "Hello, my love."
Sylus's heart raced even harder at the gesture, the feeling of your warm skin against his palm was like a dream come true.
His eyes searched your face, taking in every detail of you — from your warm eyes to your gentle smile—hoping that this isn't just a cruel hal—
"It's okay, Sylus...I'm here.."
Your voice was like a soothing melody that echoed in his mind, cutting his train of thoughts short, as it was the same voice that used to bring him comfort and happiness, the same voice that'd call his name gently.
Hearing it now, after thinking he'd never hear it again, made his eyes prick with tears as he swallowed hard, tightening his grip on you as his chest grew heavy.
Sylus couldn't bring himself to speak, his throat felt constricted as his heart raced, his mind struggling to process what's happening.
He pulled his hand away from your cheek, but before you could say anything, he suddenly wrapped his arms around you, pulling you close to him, as he buried his face into your neck, taking in your familiar scent and warmth.
You chuckled softly, your arms wrapping around him as you held him close, your hand gently rubbing his back in a soothing motion.
"You're clinging to me like a koala." You teased him gently.
Sylus felt like he could cry at your familiar teasing, he nuzzled his face into the crook of your neck, holding you tighter.
"Don't... don't leave me..." Sylus mumbled against your neck, holding you as tightly as he could, scared that you'd disappear again. His voice was strained and filled with emotion, his fingers clutched at the back of your shirt in a desperate grip.
Your smile softened, you held him tighter and stroked his hair tenderly.
"Silly.. Why would I leave you.."
Sylus took a deep shuddering breath, your words brought him a certain comfort but he still didn't want to let go, he wanted to hold onto you until this dream ends —no, he desperately prayed it wasn't a dream at all.
This was real. You were real. You were back.
Back to him.
For a moment, neither of you spoke. Both just lay there in each other's embrace in silence, cherishing the feeling of being close like this again.
Sylus continued to hold you tightly, his face buried in the crook of your neck. Your scent and warmth was intoxicating, it made him feel like he's finally home.
As your hand continued to stroke his hair, Sylus was filled with a sense of calm and comfort that he hadn't felt in a long time.
The weight of his grief and exhaustion started to lessen a little as he focused on the feeling of your fingers running through his hair and the sound of your steady heartbeat.
He relaxed a little in your arms, his grip on you loosened slightly as the exhaustion started to take over.
You continued to hold him, sensing his exhaustion and tiredness.
"You should sleep, it's late." You said softly, pressing a gentle kiss on his forehead, your hand still moving through his hair.
Sylus nodded against your neck, his eyelids were starting to feel heavy. The sound of your heartbeat was like a lullaby to him, making him even more sleepy.
"I love you, Sylus.. Forever and always.."
Sylus's heart thumped against his chest, the declaration of love from you made him want to stay awake with you longer. Unfortunately, fatigue soon overwhelmed him as his eyes slowly closed, the sound of your voice, the feeling of your warmth and the beat of your heart were like a soothing lullaby that made it hard to stay awake.
He tried to fight it, to hold onto you for a little longer, but the exhaustion was too strong and he soon fell into a deep slumber, believing he was held in your embrace.
When the next morning came, everything changed.
Sylus's eyes slowly opened, his mind groggy and disoriented, for a moment he was confused as to why he didn't feel the familiar warmth of you next to him.
He bolted upright in bed, his eyes wide as he looked around the room with a sinking feeling in his chest.
There was no sign of you anywhere, and the realization that it was all a dream shattered his heart all over again.
The empty sheets beside him were like a cold reminder that none of it was real. It had all been a cruel, beautiful dream that felt so true that he thought it was real.
Sylus's chest ached, a lump formed in his throat as he clutched the sheets in a tight grip.
"No....no...no..."
His eyes blurred with tears, his heart clenching painfully as he realized that he was all alone again.
*It was all a dream... She's not really here...*
The realisation hit Sylus like a punch to the gut, he felt a wave of despair wash over him as his heart ached with a deep, bone-crushing sorrow.
The room felt cold and empty without your presence, he felt so lonely and lost.
Without your smile, your voice, your warmth... Without you, everything just felt so bleak and hopeless.
You were really gone.
And there's no one to blame but himself.
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i know this is a)mean and b)extra dumb because I also have the exact opposite complaint but im always baffled by trans people with ugly names... i know thats mean i know.... but i just met a trans woman a little older than me named prudence and i want to study her like a bug
#exact opposite complaint being too cool names out us and i get embarrased by it#including my own name#i think its dorky as hell to give yourself a cool name lol#i absolutely respect prudence more#not that i would ever not respect a trans person for their name choice#i have internalized issues but genuinely i love all trans ppls names theyre wonderful fr#trans men with flowery romantic names i love you. trans men with obvious fictional character names u are stronger than any marine#like irl i respect people with weird names so much i get all puppy dog about confident trans people every time#still dont understand prudence though lol#like if i named myself chad. theres so many negative connotations
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