#like don't get me wrong I understand the concept of ugly hot

[crustaceousfaggot]

TikTok will call someone "Ugly-hot" and then you look at him and it's just like. Some conventionally attractive guy who isn't quite the paragon of traditional masculinity.

[fallinfl0wers]

thinking about xiao, who would be the last person on teyvat to care about your appearance.

don't get me wrong, he adores you, you're pretty much his biggest, and sometimes only, reason to live.

but he, out of all the characters in genshin, is the only one i can see with absolutely zero defined preferences. if anyone asked him, whether on his past or his present, about what traits he found desirable in a person, he would have no answer.

even if people say that personality is all that matters, everyone always looks at the one they find most attractive first.

xiao's case isn't quite like that.

where others, if speaking honestly, would mention specific ranges of height, build, hair colors, texture, skin colors and whatnot- like a super tall, muscular man with a well-kept beard, or a slender, elegant-looking man who wears suits, or a delicate and petite woman with big doe eyes and the longest, straighter hair possible, or a tall, well-endowed lady with a tiny waist and a piercing, alluring gaze, among an infinite number of other combinations, xiao would only tilt his head in disconcert.

was he supposed to think of any of those traits as attractive?

because to xiao, in a way, everyone looks the same.

be it humans, other adepti or the archons, xiao thinks nothing about any of their appearances.

although if you caught him people-watching during his free time or patrols, you could think he's harshly judging everyone's looks and demeanor from his unwavering, hawk-like gaze.

in truth, he takes in apperances all at once, in a fraction of a second.

woman of short hair. intact foreign green dress, according to the direction she's coming from she must be entering liyue from sumeru. no recent wounds in sight, her face is flushed from the heating sun. there is no trouble on this road. move on.

lanky man gasping for air as he reaches the peak of a mountain, adventurer's typical uniform. green eyes, black hair. the gloves on his hands ripped from climbing on stone, and his hands have minor scratches. the bandage on his arm is the work of an amateur but would've done the trick to stop bleeding. the cloth isn't soaked in blood, but he can make out the distinctive shape the blade of an arrow makes when nearly piercing flesh. whatever happened, this area is safe. send a minor breeze his way to lead him to a safe path.

the appearances of the people he sees every day are little clues that let him know of any immediate threat to the lands. he's not staring hard at that child because his haircut looks silly, but because for a second he saw a ghost following him. he's not staring at that woman with dulled out eyes because he finds her hot, but because he's feeling the beginnings of the effects of a karmic curse poisoning her soul.

xiao has no preferences, all he sees in people's apperances are traces of what they do and where they come from- he doesn't associate any specific trait of the human body to 'beautiful' or 'ugly'.

peace is beautiful. war is ugly. those are his only definitions.

it's only after you've spent long with him, letting him join you while you fulfill your duties in the city or just to take a stroll, that he starts to understand the concept of beauty as seen by human society.

differents sets of traits are deemed attractive to a majority and each individual will have a different set of traits they deem attractive- beauty is, therefore, in the eye of the beholder no matter how many times a standard is pushed as the only one.

he doesn't understand.

appearances will fade, that perfect and smooth skin will one day turn into fragile wrinkles, that tattoo won't look the same when enough time has passed, that hair will become frail and fall, humans won't look the same forever, there is no use in making such a big deal out of their appearances to the point of feeling miserable about it.

xiao doesn't find any particular trait as attractive.

until you.

due to his nature, he's not going to be immediately mesmerized by your looks, whether you seem overweight or like you have god-like symmetrical proportions everywhere, whether you're tall or average or tiny, none of that matters when he meets you or when he falls for you.

one would think an adeptus like himself would have high standards, but what makes him fall is something as painfully simple as honest, pure understanding and care.

be understanding to him, care for him, hold him on cold and dreary nights, smile for him, share little moments of joy with him, help him carry the weight of his constant grief, let him care for you, let him protect you, and protect his fragile heart.

he will fall for you.

and then, and only then, will he start associating physical traits to the concept of beauty.

beauty is you. you are beauty.

at least to xiao, that is the only logical conclusion.

whether you're confident on your looks or not, to him, it is that simple.

beauty is peace. beauty is you, and all that makes you, you, is beautiful.

[songmingisthighs]

every time i open x (twt) i immediately get reminded why i hate that shithole

within the past 5 minutes, i saw 2 things that got me going "heh ???"

- the absolute boycot towards eric nam and dive studio bc dive studio is being funded by a company who openly support israel

- an atiny complaining about ateez's group photo teaser and calling kq cheap and saying shit like "ateez don't eat dirt anymore" (it's user hvpnosis and i decide to not like this person based on that one tweet)

i'm ranting. ignore if you don't care. and i'll be talking about the eric nam and dive studio situation in regards to their stance on palestine and israel so if you think you might get triggered or you can't objectively understand my point, just ignore this.

NOW IN MY DEFENSE, i don't know what's going on between palestine and israel like i know there's bad beef and it started bc england promised both sides gaza during world war or smth and i know civilians are being (X - X) from both sides and something about abduction or kidnapping or hostages ??? i don't follow the news and frankly the only battle i'm keeping up with is the battle going on in my head and that's hard enough to watch as it is. but from what i read about the eric nam situation is that people are boycotting him and dive studio for something they didn't even do ?? like a company who invested in dive studios did smth but apparently... it's eric nam and dive studio's fault ??? like make it make sense. and under this atiny's comment, people are like "SILENCE MEANS SUPPORTING ISRAEL" like g0rl i don't even know the shit going on in my own country but i know innocent people paying the price is BAD bad and it shouldn't have happened at all but so far i don't see eric nam or dive posting anything about palestine or israel but people took that as them supporting israel ??? like idk that whole comment section and the hate it support just made me feel uncomfortable

NEXT THAT FUCKING ATINY. I feel like this person equates ateez's success to kq expanding to a monster company WHICH IS SO NOT TRUE. kq is still a small and young company and idk this might be me, but i think kq put the money ateez made more towards paying ateez for a job well done than corporate expansion ??? and how do you think they were able to make sure their idols are thriving while still being able to make comebacks and tours ? financial planning and budgeting. as simple as that. even with investors, there's NO WAY kq could shell out $100,000 per comeback bc the way idol companies work is do your best but don't overdo because there's always a chance of failure. not to mention they have to pay not just for the set, but the photographer and videographer, editing, actors, dancers, outfit rental, collateral (on outfits bc ateez are performance monsters, shit is bound to rip), staff overtime, transport, music stage decor, and more bc those are just off the top of my head. i don't see anything wrong about the published comeback teaser photo bc in my head, i literally thought "ooo hot men" "ooo what is this concept?" but apparently people on twt think it's ugly beyond any excuses and absolute trash ??? what a way to talk about ateez. ew. and i don't see these people who complain do anything to get what they want (which they shouldn't and couldn't bc kq is not your parents who you can just call a bitch and cut contact with) like it's the same logic with fanfic writters like if you contribute nothing to a creation, don't complain. don't like it? DON'T BUY :D simple concept really

rn my manic is making me want to scream out into an abyss or smth bc W H A T T H E F U C K T W T elon musk should just shut that site

[soupy39]

> Announcemen, a photo should have been sent in every one's group chat. Please have a discussion over this photo. Remember anyone who broke the rules and decided to conversate with other life forms outside of the chat. Is by our government standard? "Very dumb," please make more friends. Thank you for your continued cooperation and our government assigned friendship group chat. And remember your compliance as mandatory in this universe.<

FC: words?

Charlotte : Yeah, like. tell me your space government without telling me all that.

Sacha : let stay on Topic.

Edward: Oh my jellyfish from space.

Sasha: Everyone, this picture it seems humanish. At least, that's their art style.

FC: Yeah, Edward, we have no shot at this, so you're up.

Edward: It seems like an affront to the space squid. Indefinitely an awful version of our Are noodles jella fish highness That raises the sun. But it is also just a cute little guy.

so I guess, like in human ways, this is an extinct animal.

Charlotte : Shirley, it's ugly.

Sasha: it's cute

Charlotte : Do you honestly have to disagree with everything? I say, or is that just like a fun hobby for you.

Sasha : No. It is objectively cute. Its eyes are little dots. Its features are very round. It's objectively cute, and it would be pretty kind of someone... I don't know, just learned about a friend of yours having a sun creature that. They very much care about and then something else that looks kind of like that same sun creature being. Maybe? A little complimenting of its general shape since it is the same as Something very important to their friend.

Charlotte: Wow, I mean like I know since you're such a hot head. it's a little hard to hear over the. Flames, but Edward said it's in the front to his like culture. I guess. It's Sacrilege basically, and yeah, saying it's ugly. I think it improved his opinion of me.

FC: I don't think I like pizza

Charlotte: Why would you say something like that of course you like pizza? Everyone likes pizza you're just trying to be...

Sasha: I think you mean to say that your point has been taken and that you have no valid ideas.

Charlotte : Shirley, you can't just say that. I would say that opinion is objectively wrong, or maybe it's not wrong. Or just a simple opinion that do to evidence of you eating pizza recently...

FC Coming in with the interruption :Wow wow wow pizza pizza, eating? me eating pizza. Yeah, that never happened.

Edward here, working on butting in, and Edward also apologized for butting in: I just want to get back on topic for just 1 second, and then we can go right back to the pizza topic, and then we could generalize what pizza is. At work here, the animal in question does not seem to have a purpose. It's squirming, yet it has a shell and then a plate on the back.

Sasha here: Yes, I can agree with that statement, but at the same time. I can't agree that it has no purpose. The design of a plate does seem unnecessary. But maybe it's one of those animals that are meant to just be. Gooey. Little choice. Bit snacks for other animals.

Charlotte: No way. I mean, the shell definitely is high defense. I just don't know what the plate is about, either. I understand the tentacles, therefore, easily reach straight to the mouth, kind of like mandibles. But. That? Plate in the back. I don't know if it's an extra set of armor, so animals don't, like. eat his tail.

FC: I have been cooking this idea for a while, and I just got the best Souffle ever, and this thing is not gonna, reveal. A circle in the middle that was just full of air the whole time.

Edward, Sacha, Charlotte: hu?

FC: it's a cap on the ice cream cone.

Edward: Oh, don't tell me that.

Charlotte: That makes an aggressive amount of sense.

FC: Why don't you want to hear that? I mean, Charlotte agrees it makes sense if he wants to protect itself completely.

Sasha: If I could elaborate on Edward's notion and also edward, feel free to chime in. If I have this wrong, the concept of putting a cap. On an ice treat and then expecting to open that cap and find a slug like creature.

Charlotte interrupting: That is cute. Remember, you said it was cute.

Sasha: Yes, that is cute, and then finding that in your ice cream instead of actually something you want to eat is disturbing.

Edward: No notes.

FC: What I have? Described is. The most accurate? Interpretation. Of what that snail is gonna do, he's gonna hide in that little cocoon. Ummm, what if we're thinking about this from the wrong angle just looking at it for a while. It's one of their dinosaur claws.

Edward here : if you're referring to humans. Then they do not have dinosaur claws or if you're referring to dinosaurs. Then it's a little too squishy for that.

Charlotte: Who's to say that this quid creature does not have the tenacity to actually seek out a dinosaur, attach itself to his claws, assume the calcium, From his claws and Eat the nutrients from a dinosaur like some sort of leech some ugly disgusting leach.

Sasha : sasha, it does seem highly improbable, and also, it's not ugly it's pretty cute.

Charlotte : No way you're telling me this

< The discussion of said picture will now be over. Your group chat will be closed for twenty-five days. Again, thank you for your cooperation in this mandatory group chat with the universe inhabitants. Feel free to not have been born in this universe in order to end the mandatory universal group chat. thank you.

F c > Dances out of the group chat.

Charlotte leaves the group chat.

Edward says goodbye and leaves the group chat.

Sasha suddenly leaves the GROUP CHAT

[dismie]

hi here's my smoking hot fresh off the griddle take on calling people pigs discourse because you said you wanted it in your tags 😁😁 eat up while it's hot yummy yummy yummy 😋

so i disagree with calling unsavory people animals/diseases/forces of nature/any other dehumanizing term for much the same reasons as that post you reblogged. fighting fire with fire (or in this case, fascist ideology with fascist ideology) has literally never once worked in the history of politics and i don't get why we expect it to now. (inb4 what about all the oppressed groups who have had to respond to violence with more violence are they WRONG??? no and you know that's not what i'm talking about i'm talking about philosophical concepts and ideology okay i just wanted to clear that up.) i think people get so bogged down in like... surface-level specifics of which oppressed group is being harmed by what that sometimes they fail to stop and consider the ideology behind it if you will? he who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster and all that. we should be fighting on the side of oppressed groups because we respect everyone's innate right to freedom and a quality life not because we like fighting so much. obviously it's better for someone with a bloodlust to use it for something good, but also i believe in leftists! i believe we can be more compassionate than the murder party! and we should be striving to achieve that!!

implying that fascists or bigots or cops or whatever are less than human also removes their agency from the situation. animals don't (to our knowledge?) understand morality and harmlessness and ethics and i don't think any of us really blame them. when a hamster eats her excess babies nobody should really blame her, that's just what millions of years of hamster trial-and-error has deduced to be the most effective way to ensure as much of your genes as possible can continue on. if a human parent that wasn't expecting twins decided to mend this problem in a similar way i imagine we would all have qualms with it? fascists *choose* to be violent, they *choose* to be bigoted, acting like it's simply how they are just lets them off the hook. humans are capable of both good and bad and a gazillion shades of gray and we need to be able to accept and understand that so we can make sure we're being good people, not just cover our ears and pretend we're not also capable of intense evil.

also maybe it's the crraaaaazzzyyyy ara (i'm also an ara LOL) in me talking but i think we should respect animals more than that! acting like humans are the pinnacle of creature and to be anything else is bad and wrong just doesn't sit right with me, even though i accept that that probably isn't the conscious intention of people who call others pigs. i dunno. i just think that if we want to stay humble and respectful of other life on earth we shouldn't use them as insults.

bonus: pigs are awesome and don't deserve to be associated with fascists. i'm not even sure which trait of pigs is supposed to make them like fascists? they're not particularly dirty when given enough space to actually get away from their waste. i mean they mudbathe but plenty of people use mud or clay on their skin too. they're quite smart and perceptive and even show empathy towards other pigs and humans in some cases. i don't think they're particularly ugly and while they can be aggressive, pretty much every animal (including non-fascist humans) can and is when they feel threatened.

sorry for rambling it's one in the morning right now so this might not make a lot of sense :D i feel like i should end this ask with an actual question. seeing as it's an ask and all. i came out into the living room because i heard a weird breathing sound and i thought it was my dog but it wasn't. got any theories?

Okay so:

1) I'd like you to know I was terrified when I open my notification bar and the words "Here's my fresh smoking off the griddle take since you..." came up because I recently made a bi erasure post and have already been getting anonymous hate. Thank you for instead being SANE this was a very informative ask and a wonderful surprise :)

2) this was a wonderfully worded explanation and I do agree on your points on morality and ethics and how animals can't understand them; I was mostly wondering because, obviously calling fascists/cops/capitalists pigs is a pretty well ingrained thing in leftist culture! I wanted to know what the updated concensus was and I am absolutely going to refrain from using the term to describe people in the future!

3) To answer your question about the origins of the term "Capitalist Pig", from your local National History Day finalist [my brag for the next year and a half]: the origins of the term actually trace back to the Soviets, who called Americans pigs---as well as political cartoons, as you might expect. Probably due to the "dirtiness" of pigs--and likely as well some fatphobia as well or a way to, like you're saying, dehumanize the enemies; though honestly, pigs are probably cleaner than some people I know...

4) most absolutely i fucking LOVE pigs all my homies LOVE pigs. and another point: petting them is so nice in a sensory way...

5.1) i love how the ask is unrelated your vibes are great

5.2) ghost

[sehodreamsthoughts]

noo i don’t think ur wrong for that, in my opinion fanfiction as an interesting… is just a very grey area type of thing in general, and if u don’t like reading sexual wlw fics (with idols) then like, u shouldn’t be made to do that lol… i get it. tbh i don’t rly read female idol fics, i like a few girl groups that i keep up with and 2 girls that come to mind that i really like are chaeryoung (itzy) and nayoung (lightsum)… like they just give me butterflies lmaooo but like i don’t even rly see them in that much of a sexual way but it’s def like a gay way.. i sound insane but again, i fear you understand me😔😔😔 but bottom line, if ur not into smth in fics.. that’s fine. it would be weird if ppl were like “u have to read [fic genre]!!!!” lmfaoo

i had a slight issue when i started reading fics again with toxic and noncon stuff and honestly i still read things sometimes and am just like… wtf is wrong with ppl😳😳 but i also understand this is meant to be a safe space and it’s all fiction and sending hateful messages to people is not productive so if i don’t like smth i just don’t continue reading it or try to avoid fics with similar content lol.. something more ppl should do! but i obviously like toxic headcanons and such now but it’s.. fiction, it’s like,, a roleplay almost it’s like a story and it’s not something i would ever want to experience irl.. and i think it’s just one of those things that if u get it, u get it and if u don’t, u don’t.

im also slowly starting to understand more and more the idea of dark fic content as a coping mechanism, and i think that’s really cool. it’s definitely not for everyone and that’s okay! but again, if it’s not for u, don’t do it, simple as that.

i don’t want to turn ur inbox into a soapbox or whatever the expression is, so chubby chaser jake time! im just making excuses to talk about chubby!reader but of course this is ur blog though and i like talking to u so if u ever did want to talk more about such topics im down!! im just getting myself away from going on a tangent atm

jake would 100% think it’s really hot if ur collarbones weren’t visible at all because of how soft u were🤭🤭 would go crazy for the arm pudge that sticks out from your sleeves, being pushed outwards by your bra wiring.. and if you lift your arms up and your shirt rides up to expose the underside of your tummy, it’s over for him<333 he looks so soft n sweet in the new enha concept pics.. need that jake to be an obsessed loser boy… again, going dark mode, thinking about him masturbating at home to pictures of u on social media thinking about getting his hands on your soft squishy body and making u all his :((((

- 🥟 anon

Bro that girl from itzy is sooooo pretty, i honestly can't understand how some people call her ugly??? but yeah, fanfiction is full of grey areas and of course I'm not forcing myself to read a type of fiction I don't enjoy. Still, I'm afraid I could be also be categorized with those guys that have the madonna-whore complex which is the only thing I'm scared 😭 I understand that is not a requirement for me or any human to sexualize people. Still, at the same time I hate that my aversion for reading fics with real women idols as lovers could also be seen as a way to project them as people that shouldn't be seen in a sexual light when all women are individuals who deserve feeling pleasure too (okay maybe right now I sound crazy but I swear I have many things in my mind that I can connect with this idea I have). Well, in the end I know that I'm not having any kind of real relationship with them so not the world or any person will be affected by the fact that I don't enjoy that kind of content, I'm just an overthinker who reads and feels too much 😭😭😭

Also, sure people can enjoy any kind of content while not harming others. Personally, I love death dove do not eat, dubcon, noncon, etc, and it's totally okay to see dark fiction as a coping mechanism, but I don't think that is the only reason why people enjoy it or should base liking dark content (not that you said this, it's just a little thing I've had in my head). People, like I said, can like anything they want, and dark fanfiction it's all words and no real act of harm, and writers, and readers, being real individuals in a society with values to coexist, should understand what is correct or not in real life, and we can't control people by hiding or creating certain a kind of content, if they want to find something, they're going to do it, whether is on tumblr, ao3 or any other platform. Also, I find it dumb how the people who go out to defend the morality of fanfiction (not only with dark content but with smut in general) are also the ones sending a ton of hate to people who do enjoy it as if they had a special spot in heaven to fight for 😭. (sorry I'm half asleep so maybe I don't make any sense and I'm just blabbering, I can talk about nothing and just keep and keep going)

CHANGING SUBJECTS, JAKE WITH CHUBBY!READER... I can't lie, the last concept pictures are fucking good. I love the lightning, the palette, THE PICTURE OF HIM UNDER THE TABLE WITH THOSE GLASSES???? It's totally dark fic potential. I can't help but imagine obsessed!coworker!Jake hiding in the weirdest places to spy on you. Jake going under the desk and looking up at you with those puppy eyes and those glasses begging to eat you out. So pervert!Jake too, tilting his glasses and maybe sometimes his eye twitching?! (that maybe sounds insane but with that pretty smile I imagine him looking at your mouth when you talk, his eye twitching and then moving his eyes down to your chest, pretending is because of something he can't control 😭). AND THE SHIRT THAT RIDES UP, ARE WE THINKING THE SAME??? Maybe loser!Jake working in a store with you and asking you to help him accommodate things up just to see your uniform moving with your movements 😭- this boy would totally make something sick too, maybe masturbating with pictures he took of you while you were in the changing room, or what if he's a manager... asking for some help after the end of a shift and convincing you to open your legs for him if you want that special help from him with your schedule since you have an important exam 🥺, oh but, also, if he feels like being kind to you because he likes you a lot, he won't try to fuck you, not at all, yeah, Jake is such a respectful boy, he only wants to see your plushy legs and maybe for you to show him your pretty ass to then slid his cock between your thick thighs... and maybe you could get used to the extra help too, telling him that he could slip inside if he gives you extra vacations day too...

[omniseurs-blog]

Blog post - Concept of intelligence, the cultural belief of intelligence/learning as bad or embarrassing socially, and the association of labels for intelligence or interest in learning with the right wing

I've always been interested in learning, and I've always been uncomfortably aware that this made me lame, but I never cared because I was placed in special Ed at a young age and whether I was also interested in learning or not, I was still a social outcast. Still, it's always made me wonder why.

As I grew up, I've realized most people DO love learning, they would just never call it that. How many hours they put into learning how to play each and every new game they came across, learning how to play sports and how to get better at them, learning how to use the machines at the gym, learning how to love their partner, which drinks taste what way, the best way to smoke weed, they all love learning. It's a cultural belief that if they learn the wrong thing, they'll become like the nerds who don't know how to socialize, and not that they hate learning. It's saddening. In a way I get it, I would never show anyone my hobbies because I am the socially inept nerd who talks literally and can't understand social cues to save my life, but on the other hand, learning how to do origami isn't going to turn you into a sword wielding kimono wearing weeb over night, and if your friends care about it that much.... Fold them a middle finger and find better friends.

It's so, unfortunately, common to come across people who have no hobbies other than scrolling social media and playing video games. No hate to people who's hobby IS playing video games (and more than a little hate to the people who uh... only scroll social media on their free time... Cmon, start a blog or making videos at least) all because their peers killed their curiosity and labeled all of it as lame and socially unfavorable, with the exception of things that are popular and fun (video games were once a nerds hobby, which is why the older "I was once popular" crowd makes fun of them), and help you be reminded of the "in crowd" (social media).

The fear of ostracism is, mostly, very dumb. It prevents us from reaching our full potential, doing what we enjoy, what we are or would be passionate about. Nobody (Of the people with a disgust of what they perceive as learning) wants to be a microorganism marine biologist because.... the public image of a scientist in a niche subject is "lame", even if you could be the one to find a cure for your grandfather's Alzheimer's in the form of a previously unknown bacterium only found in the waters off the coast of Chile (though, the myth of a cure of anything is another discussion). The only way to make it cool, or interesting is, well, cool, or confident, or funny, or captivating, or "attractive" (or fitting a society's' or large groups' beauty standards) person to be a popular mascot for the topic, ie. (I am going to avoid the term attractive in my examples because it is subjective and anyone could argue anyone is "hot" or "ugly") Bill Nye, confident, funny, and captivating, Steve Erwin, confident, captivating, and cool, Michael from vsauce, funny and confident, hacker stories, cool and captivating nearly every time, Electroboom, funny, captivating. These people make other people who previously would've been afraid of ruining their public image interested in having that public image and thus feel safe in exploring similar topics to the ones the cool, funny, or confident person shows. Confidence goes a long way, but if you have none, humor goes just as far.

Now on to the topic of "intellectuals", polymaths, and people who call themselves modern day renaissance men. These people are doing more damage than good to motivating people to learn things. Sure, they're funny, confident, and/or captivating, but they're usually also sexist, racist, anti-lgbt, and "traditionalists". They're so interested in learning so many things, yet bigoted or hateful. They gatekeep what they consider to be smart and dumb, parrot right wing talking points on eugenics or phrenology or talk about ubermensch, not Nietzsches ubermensch, but the Nazis ideal of the ubermensch. To them you're as good as worthless if you can't fulfill or strive for "attractive, intelligent, muscular man" and you might as well not exist if you're a woman, disabled, or BIPOC. They have an air of superiority as if they're smarter and better than Leonardo Davinci, or for a more modern example, they're smarter and better than those pesky scientists, Einstein and Hawking. They always list off a giant laundry list of everything they're studying and doing, learning 5 languages at the same time while reading 5 books a day, meditating for an hour each day, journaling AND writing a book for 30 minutes a day each, AND drawing, AND taking a course in philosophy, anatomy, and astronomy, AND working out for an hour each day, AND going for a walk every day, AND working an 8 hour job on top of it all ALL DAY EVERY DAY and their only proof is "well, there's my proof, I told you, isn't that enough?". Even just a picture of you at the gym next to a picture of your art, no matter how bad, and maybe throw in a screenshot of your Duolingo streak and I would already be impressed by one of those alone, but then if you did all that, it's all ruined as soon as you utter the words "lookmaxxing", "mewing", "traditional", "JB Peterson", "*insert color*pill" or "ubermensch" even once.

For this, I suggest if you're interested in learning and your goal is to become proficient in multiple subjects... Tell the truth of what you do, SHOW people what you do, remember that you DONT know everything EVEN IF you know a lot for one person, don't exclude people, encourage a welcoming environment, encourage learning, tone down your ego, and maybe, just maybe.... Being a gigachad super polymath intellectual supreme being won't be so lonely and people might ALSO listen to what you have to say AND look up to you.

[nataliaphantomhivesblog]

In the end of it all, Monaca Towa was still a child.

To start this off, this isn't my usual Black Butler posts but ive been meaning to talk about Danganronpa for a hot minute, so please bear with me! Second, this is solely my opinion and before anyone wants to attack me please read thoroughly first. Thank you:)

(Spoiler warning for Danganronpa: Ultra Despair Girls and Danganronpa 3)

Also, before we dive in I'm going to list some trigger warnings:

Physcological abuse

Physical abuse

Manipulation

P*dophillia

Suicide attempt

Violence (?)

Childhood trauma

Please take care and read at your own risk<3

Hello there Danganronpa fandom! Today I will be talking about Monaca Towa (as stated in the title) and how people often minimize her trauma and sometimes forget the fact that shes still a child who got heavily manipulated by Junko too.

Monaca is seemingly very amiable and caring, because of her charming personality, all of the Warriors of Hope love her and try their best to keep her happy and go along with what she wants. However, it's slowly revealed that she is actually manipulative and cunning behind her friendly facade.

Monoca is a character that is cruel, manipulative, and extremly unhinged. Many of her actions cannot be excused or justified, but you can understand where she's coming from.

Monaca's Backstory:

She was born an unwanted child by both her father and her mother. Monaca's mother was supposed to take care of her but instead abandoned the child soon after her birth. Because of all her actions, Monaca saw her mother as a completely selfish and pathetic person. Monaca's father thought of giving her to an orphanage but instead took her into his family.

However, Monaca was always unwanted and everyone else felt uncomfortable around her. Every time Monaca smiled or joked, the others looked at her coldly, as if she didn't deserve to laugh. Every time she spoke, the others turned silent. His older-half brother thought of her as an alien, not part of the family.

She was also physically abused to the point that she pretended to be seriously wounded for them to stop as a result.

Monaca also attended Hope's Peak Elementary School and was part of the "trouble-makers class" along with Nagisa, Masaru, Jataro, and Kotoko.

Along with her fellow abused classmates, she planned a group suicide; however, Monaca never had any plans to commit suicide in the first place and was planning to let the others die as a prank.

The group suicide was stopped by Junko, who took the kids in and manipulated them by treating them with kindness and love.

Monaca then helped Junko mass produce Monokumas for the Tragedy by using her position as a representative of the Towa Group.

She lied to her father and the other adults in order to produce the Monokumas, telling them that she wanted to create futuristic robots that could be domestic helpers and emergency aid workers.

Due to her separation from the family and her genius, her family decided to give her leg room to do what she wanted as long as she brought in profits to the company, and didn't delve too deeply into her plans.

Things to keep in mind about Monoca's backstory:

She was emotionally and physically abused from a very young age.

She started to pretend to be paraplegic because she was finally treated with some kindness and she could have more control over people.

She convinced Nagisa, Jataro, Kotoko and Masaru to commit suicide.

Out of all the Warriros of Hope, Junko took the most intrest in Monoca due to her position, meaning that she was the one who got used and manipulated the most.

How Monoca's mindset works:

The moment she got physically abused to the point that she had to fake her injuries to make her family feel bad was the moment she learned that through sympathy from others comes power. Due to her families neglection and abuse, she started to quickly pick up on things in which benefited her yet hurt others.

She started to use manipulative tactics on her family to gain control over them. She then started implicating these tactics with the Warriors of Hope.

When Junko got into the picture, everything changed for the worst. Junko was the only person in Monaca's life who showed her affection. Even though deep down Monaca knew Junko only cared for her as a means to use her robotics genius for the Tragedy, Monaca didn't care, and happily helped out Junko with her plans if it meant being loved and appreciated in return. At the heart of it, despite all her horrific acts, that's a very child-like thing to do, right? So when Junko dies, Monaca's entire reason for living basically disappears.

AI Junko via Kurokuma may have planted the idea of a successor in her head, but in Monaca's mind it's a way to get her big sis back, and very specifically chooses to mold Komaru into becoming Junko's successor. That's for a big reason, Monaca doesn't want to become Junko, I'd say she actually just wanted her big sister back who would love and appreciate her again, and hence tried to make someone else take on that role initially. Once again, that's the mindset of a child.

Monaca's relationship with the Warriors of Hope:

The Warriors of Hope are a group of children who are extremely resentful and hateful of adults, regardless of whether or not they were involved in their rough paths. 

We all know that the Warriros of Hope are extememly tramutized kids. Masaru had alcoholic parents who physically abused him, Jataro was physcologically abused to the point he bealived he was so ugly that if anyone saw his "repulsive" face they would die, Kotoko was r*ped multiple times by disgusting p*dophilic men (not to mention, Monaca's brother was attracted to her), and last but not least we have Nagisa who had pressuring parents who wanted to raise him as the child prodigy and expirimented on him constantly.

Monaca used the Warriros of Hope's trauma against them, manipulating them to the point were they had to do her bidding completly.

As much as I hate to say it, Monaca truly saw them as pawns. Although there are some instances where she openly declares her care for the Warriors of Hope, it's likely she does that as a form of emotional manipulation.

If anything, she probably did see them as equal in the beginning but then when she started to gain control over her own family, she started to do the same with the Warriors of Hope as a way to protect herself from getting hurt, then again this is my baseless assumption.

Her dynamic with Nagito:

Monaca was amused by Nagito's strange behavior and contradicting beliefs and appeared to be somewhat annoyed with him at the times. However, the two appeared to at least seemingly respect each other in some way, as they treated each other somewhat formally as allies.

Her dynamic with Nagito is one of the most intresting ones. Obviously I think that her being rasied by Nagito was potentially a dangerous thing, considering Nagito's goal was for Monaca to become Enoshima's successor. Monaca seemed to agree with this goal, but Nagito's constant rambling about hope and despair made Monaca bored and feel embarrassed about the whole thing.

She claims he made her an adult in a way, as she grew up in the mental sense and became more cynical and apathetic, not really caring about anything.

In the end, Monaca found Nagito creepy and annoying, but she also appeared to get closer to him during their time together, while originally calling him just "Mister Servant" in UDG, she later refers to him as "Big Bro" in Danganronpa 3. I do think their dynamic was sort of soft and I would've loved to have seen more of it. Honestly the concept of Nagito being a soft brother to Monaca warms my heart, and the wasted potential will forever anger me.

(If any Danganronpa fanfic writer or any writer in general is reading this post: if u could be so kind and do a PLATONIC Nagito and Monaca prompt and tag me in it, I would love you forever!!)

My opinion on Monaca:

I think that Monaca was a very well-written character who deserved more than what she got in the end of Danganronpa 3. She was abused, mistreated and belittled by her family. If anything, I see her as a completely misguided little girl. If she actually had a positive authoritative influence in her life, she wouldn't have turned astray.

A lot of people disregard Monaca's trauma and forget that at the end of the day, Monaca was a child who the moment she was born, the people who were supposed to love her were unwelcoming.

Don't get me wrong though, there is no way in hell I will ever justify or condone the things Monaca has done. If anything, I just think that she alongside the rest of the Warriors of Hope should've been properly taken care of.

Also, if you dislike/hate Monaca thats 100% valid! She did a lot of inexcusable things and its alright to hate on her. I personally love her character but I know she is not everyones cup of tea.

If you read all the way, I'm actually surprised! Thank you and I hope you enjoyed<333

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Can I request headcanons for yandere Bakugou, Todoroki and Deku where they have been leaving their darlings voicemails proclaiming their love and whatnot and seeing as they're not reacting badly to it, their darling must be happy. Turns out they haven't heard any of it because they don't know how to access their voicemail

Oh gosh oh gosh I love this concept??? Thank you for requesting! 

Okay so,,, these get a little unhinged real quick because i am in a mood so!

Tw: Dacryphilia, degradation, stalking, yandere relationships, unhealthy relationships,  (Maybe?? just in case,,,) dumbification, lots of cussing (Thanks katsuki.) They’re all pretty abusive,,, Midoriya’s gets a little n/sfw-ish? Like just motions of moans but,, to be safe also panty stealing. I love these boys so much so i’ll make them terrible,,, as a treat.

All of these characters are third years!

So here now, we have a temperamental one.

And no, it’s not Katsuki.

It’s Shoto.

Half cold, half hot.

He’s easy to anger. If you say the wrong thing, well you’re in for it.

But, he likes you.

You’re always smiling at him.

He knows that you smile at others but there has to be something to smiling at him, right?

People tell him he’s handsome, they tell him he looks good. Women ask for his number.

So you smile at him because you like him.

So he’ll dote on you a little.

He has your number. He paid someone for it.

And he’s been leaving you just about the nicest things he could.

He loves talking to you, even if he doesn’t quite feel comfortable talking to you face to face.

And he just loves telling you how sweet you look for him. How cute your voice sounds and how he just loves you.

“I’ll make sure to marry you one day. You’ll have anything you want.”

“You looked so sweet in that outfit today, once we’re married, I’ll get you something like it. Would you like that? I’ll make sure you have the nicest clothing for when you walk down the isle, goodbye.”

“Your voice is stuck in my head, I can’t wait until I can hear your voice all day in our house together. Goodbye, I can’t wait to see you.”

“When we have a child, you’ll be a wonderful parent. I love you, goodbye.”

“You’ll marry me, right? Goodbye darling, say yes.”

And well, Shoto wasn’t being told to stop, but you weren’t talking to him.

At all.

And so, he tries to ask you about it after class, in the dorms when you two are in the common room.

Luckily for Shoto, you’re the only one there.

You send him a quick smile as you see him sitting in the corner, before you return to stretching.

It makes his heart stop - just for a few seconds - before hastily standing up and walking towards you.  

“Why haven’t you said yes?” He’s got that intense sound in his voice, like it’s as important as finding a villain.

“Yes to what?” You’re still stretching as you look up into his eyes.

It’s clear to him that you don’t have a clue. And really, that shouldn’t make him angry. It’s irrational to think that you’ve been deliberately ignoring him. But who doesn’t check their voicemail?

“The messages I’ve left you, why haven’t you responded to any of them, don’t you love me?” Shoto feels as calm as ever.

You’ve stopped stretching. Expression blank as you attempt to process whatever is going through your head.

“Of course I love you!” And your smile is back. Shoto nods, of course you love him, he can give you whatever you nee- “You’re one of my friends!”

Oh.

“Oh.” Ice begins to melt beneath his flesh

“I don’t know what messages you’re talking about though, did you ask Sero for my number? Class notes, right?”

You can’t not know how to check your voicemail. No one is that stupid.

“The messages I left you. You must’ve checked them.”

“I’m uhh..” You laugh a little. Normally it’d make him blush. “I don’t know how to check them. Sorry Todo...”

“You know exactly what I am talking about.” The look you give him is nothing but confused.

“I... don’t, could you explain it to me?”

“You wouldn't need this explanation if you just talked to me.”

“Sorry Todoroki, I didn’t know you wanted to talk.” You’re a good actor, because there's no way you didn’t know he wanted to talk to you, to marry you.

“I’ll show you.” He grabs you hand and yank you off the ground. “Give me your phone.”

“Wha-” You shiver.

“Your phone. Give it to me.” You hand it over without hesitation. “Good.”

It doesn’t take long for him to find the messages he left. 

“How do you know my password?” He ignores your question.

He opens the most recent message he left. Just this morning.

“Good morning. I want you to know, that our marriage won’t be a quirk marriage. I can’t wait to see what you’ll look like in the dress i have picked out, I love you. Goodbye.” 

“Todo-” 

“Shoto. I’m going to be your husband.” 

“I- give me some time to process-”

“You have had plenty of time to process. So you must’ve been ignoring me.”

“I haven’t!” It’s adorable how desperately you try to lie. You’re quite good at it. 

“Be quiet.” His voice is devoid of emotion. “You can’t go around ignoring your future husband like that. Now we’re going to have a nice, long chat about this in my room.

“But Todoro-”

“You will call me Shoto.” He sends a flare of ice up your arm.

“Shoto! You’re name is Shoto and I-” Your free hand scratches desperately at the ice. 

“Desperately trying to get me to remove the ice.” He gives you a cold smile. “Once you really learn your lesson, that won’t happen again. Got it?”

You nod. Tears dripping down your cheeks. 

“You wouldn’t be crying if you didn’t ignore me.” He pets your hair. “Now, I’m more than a friend to you, right love?”

“Of course Shoto! I love you more tha-”

“Then smile like you do.” You look like you’re helpless with those tears in your eyes though. 

You try, you really do but this is where your acting prowess stops. It’s not a cute, sweet thing like normal. No, it’s ugly and contorted.

“Try again.” Practice makes perfect. “That isn’t what I asked for.”

You wipe your tears with your free hand. He should’ve frozen them both. You’d have to learn to rely on Shoto sooner or later. You take a deep breathe and fix your face into that adorable little smile you gave Shoto.

“Was that so hard?” He brings a chilled hand to your face to wipe away a tear that had gotten away from you. “Come, we’ll talk in my room. Once your arm melts, we’ll see if you’ve learned your lesson.” 

Katsuki only has your number for study sessions, he swears.

Your friends don’t believe it no matter how loud he yells.

Probably for good reason.

You’re not doing nearly as poor as Kirishima in terms of grades, and you weren’t a bad note taker either. So the fact that Bakugou still invited you to study and the fact that he seemed a little extra harsh on you?

Your friends find it a little strange.

But Bakugou also calls Kirashima “Shitty Hair” so it’s not really out of character for him to tell you how much of a dumbs you are for getting from point A to B in a different way than normal. 

Hell, Bakugou does it the way too.

He tells you it’s because you’re “A shitty extra who’s just trying to be better than me!”

Which, to be fair, checks out with how he treats the rest of the class.

So he’s fine.

Your friends are just a little paranoid that’s all.

And he can understand that. After all, who wouldn’t want to protect you?

He even leaves you little messages. He thinks they speak for themself.

“You got bruised today when you were trying that shitty new move of yours. Be more god-damn carful next time!”

“Hey. Why aren’t you at our study sessions? Shitty Hair isn’t as stupid as you and he actually understands the material. I’m stuck here for another damn hour if you don’t- Oi! Pick up the fucking phone you shit head!”

“Fuck, I went a little far with the last message. I saw your new cut. Did you get it from a shitty piece of paper? You’re a fucked up excuse for a hero if you got beat by a piece of paper. Don’t worry doll, once I’m with you, I’ll kiss it all better.”

He leaves countless messages a day. 

You haven’t even thought about them he bets.

Your brain might as well be a cows, you’re so fucking stupid. 

“Oi! Cow brain! Talk to me.” He doesn’t dare drag you over. You’re still delicate even if you have the mental capacity of a shrew.

“One second Bakugou, I’m going to talk to Mr. Aizawa about mastering my quirk.”

You haven’t even figured out how to master your quirk? So fucking useless. But he waits for about fifteen minutes outside the door. 

“We need to have a study session.”

“Why? I’m doing pretty well, aren’t I?”

“Not with that stupid burn mark you got from sparring with the laser extra!”

“Aoyama?”

“Fuckin Aoyama.” Little blond bitch is trying to hurt you. 

“I’m fine Bakugou, i’m going to be a hero I should get used to a few cuts and burns, with the villain climate,”

“The fucks a villain climate?” You don’t even know that climate is used for weather. You really are a stupid pig. Someone needs to save your bacon, huh?

“The way villains are at the-” Damn your eyes look like a deers’

“I know what a villain climate is!”

“So, you pulled me aside to study, right?”

“At least you remember that.” Any smart person would’ve figured out that was a lie though. “But you’re a fucking idiot for thinking that was the case. You’ve been getting my notes, you know how fuckin worried I am about you getting hurt.”

“You worry about me getting hurt?” Your mind really did move like molasses. 

“Pretty fuckin slow on the uptake there sweetheart.” 

“You’ve been sending me messages?” Oh fuck. You’re even dumber than a cow. 

“Are you completely braindead? I’ve been calling you a dumbass for months,” 

“I don’t know how to open my voicemail, not my fault technology is confusing baku-”

“No one is that fucking dumb!” 

“Bakugou, you’re yelling.”

“No Shit?! I wouldn’t need to be if you actually understood anything that I’m telling you! It’s not that fucking hard to understand you just open your damn phone, and click on those stupid ass red icons on the phone app.” If you weren’t so delicate and in need of keeping safe, he’d punch you.

“Oh uhh- Bakugou? Did you mean to play these?”

“Fuck no I didn't.” Maybe he’s a little obvious. But not so obvious that you’d pick up on it.

“I uhh really think I love you? Maybe it’s cause you're such a fucking dumbs that I can’t stand that you get hurt. It’s painful to see. Shit. I hate that I love you. Just die already.” Katsuki in the phone sounds like he’s gone soft. Can’t have that.

“Bakugou, it isn’t very heroic to tell someone to go d-”

“That’s the thing your shitty mind picks up on?” You’re such a cute little doll. “I just told you that I loved yo-”

“Even more of a reason to report you. Two pro heroes shouldn’t have a relationship, it’s unprofessional.”

“Your stupid ass really thinks you’re gonna be a hero? You can’t even go a round with Aoyama without getting a burn. Nah baby, you’re gonna be at home, well protected and away so that you don’t have a chance to fuck something up.”

“I’m going to be a hero Bakugou.”

“I tell you that I’m gonna keep you at home, away from everything and everyone and you’re concerned with being a hero? Dumb as hell.” 

“Bakugou, you seem to be especially mean to me-”

“Fuck it. You wanna get a shitty Lunch Rush meal?” Oh it’d be so easy to drug you up. You probably don’t even think about people who might drug your food. You're just a stupid little doll.

Midoriya really likes stalking you, okay?

You’re cute, a real old family friend and really sweet too.

You were absolutely ecstatic when his mom held that dinner to celebrate his quirk’s manifestation.

He almost told you the truth about All For One.

Big developments should be shared with the people you love, right?

Course he never really got your number cause he’s a little bit shy, but.

You won’t mind if he finds it in your house, right?

He’s been there countless times before, so it’s not like this is anything big or new or a groundbreaking development. 

It’s just, he’s here at night now, and you’re asleep. And so are your parents. 

But he’s quiet, don’t worry! He’s not gonna wake anyone up. It’s a hero’s duty to make sure that others are okay, and that includes getting the proper amount of sleep!

So he makes his way around your house with a nervous shuffle. 

How can he be calm when you’re sleeping just mere rooms away? It’s very distracting with you on the bed, just splayed out for him to watch and look at while you dream. 

Sometimes you moan. 

He likes to think he caused that.

He’s a little disgusted to think it, but he’s a little pent up. All the time

And you just look so cute on top of that bed-

But he came here for a phone number, and he’s gonna get one. 

Besides, he’s going to be the number one hero, a symbol of peace! He can’t sully All-Might’s legacy with dirty thoughts!

So he finds your phone charging on a chest of drawers in your room. 

After a few seconds of watching you sleep.

And oh you look good in a tank top and shorts, eyes closed and-

He picks up your phone to distract himself.

You were really trusting, weren’t you? You didn’t even have a lock on your phone.  

He’d hug you if you wouldn’t wake up from his cold skin.

He’d do more than hug you-

Nope, not gonna think about that and Midoriya hates himself a little for looking through your drawer to find where you keep your panties. 

There a lot of pairs to choose from, colored, patterned, laced... So many, pretty kinds of panties.

He settles for a pure, white pair. It’s plain. You won’t miss it.

After he pockets the guilt-inducing panties, he once again sets his sight on your phone.

Once again, he opens it, tries to find where you’ve put your contact information, and quickly duplicates it for his own device,

“Goodnight Bunny! Sleep well!” Oh what he wouldn’t give to kiss you goodnight.

After that, he decides to send you a few messages. They’re quick, innocent, sweet. He almost recorded himself cumming in your panties.

That morning, he wakes up bright and early, with even more energy than normal. He send you a good morning message, and moves on to stretch before class. 

He isn’t late but the only notes he can take in classes are those about your sleeping habits.

You snore, you like to sleep on your left side rather than your right, meaning Midoriya is the little spoon, and you like to sleep in tank tops which means Midoriya has to start wearing them.

When lunch rolls around, before Midoriya meets with Iida and Ururaka he sends you a quick update.

He should probably return your panties,

After he washes them, of course. 

He returns that night to your house with a notebook he’s decided to dedicate to you and your shared love story.

He checks your phone again and debates playing the recordings back to you in your sleep, or waiting for you to find his sweet surprise.

You’ve always likes surprises, you’d love one from him!

He looks at your panty drawer again.

It takes most of his willpower not to take another pair.

“Goodnight! Sleep well bunny!”

He makes a swift exit and leaves another message.

He repeats the process for several days and maybe it’s his imagination, but you sleep with a smile on your face now!

He wonders if it’s the returned panties that did it, or his messages.  

Sunday is date night for your parents, and it’s U.A’s day off. It’s like the stars have aligned themselves for Izuku Midoriya and your love.

He’s going to ask if you like his messages and if you’d like him to start texting you.

After five days of sneaking in the night, finally Izuku can knock on your door and see the light shining on your perfect face.

He knocks on the door, dressed in casual clothes. 

You answer in an All-Might hoodie and Izuku imagines it’s his All-Might hoodie.

“Oh! Hey Midoriya! Parents are out now, would you like to come in?”

“Oh uh! Yes please!” Even if he’d imagined this playing out so much, he can’t help the nervous tick of his hands. He’s so so close to you.

The door stays open until Izuku walks through, It’s nice to come in the front, and not a window.

You begin leading him towards the kitchen, hang a left out of the foyer. 

“I just started some chicken nuggets, hopefully I made enough for you,” You spin around suddenly. “I don’t know why, but I don’t think I have your number.”

That means you haven’t listened to any of his messages then? Izuku’s smile drops.

“Oh it’s nothing personal, I just never thought of giving it to you before, agues i should’ve considering how long we’ve known each other. I didn’t mean to make you look so sad Doriya, here its...”

Would he have to show you his messages? Would he have to make you see how much he loved you?

But that... sounded so violent! So villainous. It wouldn’t be right.

“Hey..” You put a hand on his shoulder. It fits perfectly. “You got that Doriya?”

“Yes!” His smile isn’t hard to regain with your hand so warm on him.

“Nuggets are done too! How many you want?”

“Oh, I’m actually, not- that hungry.”

“Any reason?”

“In my-” What did should he  — that’s got to work. “In my most recent work-study, there’s this case where someone is leaving voicemails to their targets,” But that makes him sound more villainous  than he wanted to.

“Oh shit really?” You look very cute with your wide eyes. 

“Uhm, yes?” It’s a terrible lie and anyone could pick it up if they weren’t so good and kind and trusting - and oh no.

It just had to make him sound like a villain.

“I’ve been getting some voicemails recently, and if it’s evidence or anything, do you need to take a look?”

“No,” He can feel the sweat dripping from his face. “It’s ah, fine?”

“Midoriya, if I have evidence and I don’t bring it in, wouldn’t that make me an accomplice?”

“Technically-” But if you knew they were from him why would you think they were an accomplice- you thought he didn’t have your number. 

You hadn’t heard those messages.

“Do you know is it’s evidence?”

“Well I can’t actually open m voicemail but if it’s anything, you can teach me, right?

“Of course!” He offers a hand to take the phone. “You just -” He taps a few things, “There!”

And you two listen to them. Izuku has such a big smile on his face.

“Good morning! I hope you feel great today! I’m going to do the best i can today, and i know you will too! I love you!”

“I’m about to at lunch, i wonder what you’re having. Maybe one day, we can cook together? Love you, have a nice meal!” 

“I’m about to get ready to come see you tonight, if you want to, stay up! I want to kiss you goodnight! Love you Bunny!”

“What is this?”

“I’m a little embarrassed, but it’s like the voicemails said! I love you, morning noon and night!”

“Midoriya, have you — oh god is that where my panties went?” The anger in your voice hurts him. “Get out.”

“Bunny I-”

“Get out of my house Midoriya. Before I call a real hero.”

“I love you!” 

“You don’t love me, you like my panties and an idea you’ve cultivated because we were never really that close.”

“I’ve known you since i was-”

“Yes, you have, but it’s our parents who are friends - not us. If we were friends, by now I’d call you Izuku.” And like that the notebook of his brain that’s pages were being torn out and stomped on were being sewn back in by a practiced hand.

“You can call me Izuku, if you want.”

“Midoriya, i’m telling you, get out and I won’t report you. You could get your license revoked. You don’t want that.”

“But-”

“Leave.” The way you stood your ground was very admirable. 

He makes a mental note, you are trusting, sweet, kind and headstrong. 

He can work with those. 

He’s suddenly glad he only returned one pair of panties.

He’ll get to visit you again real soon.

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HOLY SHIT DID THAT TAKE FOREVER TO GET Through. I rewrote Shoto’s part five time but im pretty happy with it. Overall I think Bakuboi’s is the best.,., and Izuku,,, my poor deku,,, yours is.... interesting. Anyway thank you for the patience of the requester! And for also requesting these three lovely lads. Oh boy,,, time for some smut coming up... 

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SMART NEEDN'T PROVE

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HOT HEADS

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CLEAR VERBAL COMMUNICATION

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STYLE WILL DEVELOP AND FOLLOW ... AKIN TO MUSCLE MEMORY

ELABORATE ON "SAID SUBJECT" ...

"SAID" - "(adj.) a reference back to a thing that was previously mentioned or identified, popular in legal documents, as "the said driver drove said automobile in a negligent manner."

LIFETIME ... CLOSE AND PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH CONFLICT???

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GREAT QUESTION !!! ... "GETTING CLOSER TO TRUSTING OWN TRUTH, THEREBY THWARTING OTHERS FROM USURPING AND ACCESSING PERSONAL POWER SOURCE."

USING ALL CAPS BECAUSE THEY TRIGGER A SAFETY NET RESPONSE ... THEY SOMEWHAT REMIND ME OF CASTLE FORTIFICATIONS ... AND I WICKED LIKE THE WAY THEY LOOK !!! ... DON'T USE THEM ALWAYS BUT THEY ARE A PERSONAL VISUAL FAVORITE ...

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. OBJECTIVE refers to an unbiased and balanced statement that represents facts about something. The statement is not coloured by the past experiences, prejudices, perceptions, desires or knowledge of the speaker.

Central Question - Whether the individual adapts reality to their thinking or do they accommodate and adapt their thinking to reality?

. A proposition is considered to have OBJECTIVE truth when its truth conditions are met without bias caused by a sentient subject.

Example of OBJECTIVITY?

OBJECTIVITY aims to eliminate decisions based on personal bias, cultural differences and any other criterion that cannot be measured or proven.

SUBJECTIVITY ...

The opposite of OBJECTIVITY is “SUBJECTIVITY,” which is personal bias or opinion.

A SUBJECTIVE point of view is characterised by the past experiences, knowledge, perceptions, understanding and desires of the specific person.

OBJECTIVITY VS. SUBJECTIVITY

The difference between OBJECTIVE and SUBJECTIVE is related to the difference between facts and opinions.

The word OBJECTIVE describes information that’s based on verifiable facts. OBJECTIVE truth can be verified by a third party, regardless of who the third party is.

The word SUBJECTIVE is the exact opposite; it describes information that’s based on personal opinion or personal interpretation.

SUBJECTIVE truth might be different for different people, depending on their own tastes, preferences, or experiences.

How Can You Tell if Something Is OBJECTIVE or SUBJECTIVE?

To determine whether a statement is OBJECTIVE, ask:

* Is this statement based on factual evidence?

* Is there a way a scientist could test this statement to figure out if it’s true or false?

* Would a robot without any concept of human emotion be able to say this statement?

To determine whether a statement is SUBJECTIVE, ask:

* Is this statement based on someone’s feelings, preferences, or personal tastes?

* Is it impossible to determine whether this statement is true or false?

* Does this statement make a judgement about something (e.g. good or bad, right or wrong, beautiful or ugly)?

3 Main Differences Between SUBJECTIVE and OBJECTIVE ...

- [ ] Facts versus feelings. An objective reading of a text focuses on the facts and data-based information, regardless of the person’s feelings. A subjective reading of a text focuses on a person’s unique feelings and experience.

- [ ] Embracing versus denying bias. Subjectivity refers to the personal opinion that a subject has, embracing personal biases. Being objective means erasing any personal bias that a reader may have.

- [ ] Grammatical meanings. In grammar, subjective refers to the subject of a sentence, or the noun performing an action. Objective refers to qualities dealing with the object of a sentence, or a noun that an action is done to.

Comparison Chart

BASIS FOR COMPARISON OBJECTIVE SUBJECTIVE

Meaning

Objective refers to neutral statement which is completely true, unbiased and balanced.

Subjective means something which does not shows clear picture or it is just a person's outlook or expression of opinion.

BASIS FOR COMPARISON

Meaning

Based on

Truth

Verification

Reporting

Decision making

Used in

OBJECTIVE

Objective refers to neutral statement which is completely true, unbiased and balanced.

Facts and observations

Provable

Verified

Same

Yes

Textbooks and encyclopedias

SUBJECTIVE

Subjective means something which does not shows clear picture or it is just a person's outlook or expression of opinion.

Assumptions, beliefs, opinions.

Subject relative.

Non-verified

Varies to a great extent, from person to person, day to day.

No

Blogs, comments on social media and biographies.

When you are a really nice person,some others assume you are also stupid.Not true!

[janiedean]

have you had a bad experience with s*nsa/j*nsa fans? it seems that the entire got/asoiaf fandom has problems with them (dany stans, arya stans, targ stans, jon stans, jaime stans, brienne stans, braime shippers) i don't want to generalize but they seem to be a very unfriendly, hypocritical and "holier than thou" bunch. they don't care for any female character who isn't sansa while screaming "misogyny" when someone dares to criticise their fave. they also bitch about jonerys despite shipping jonsa (i couldn't care less for either ship but wtf?) they gush about how flawed and complex sansa is but act like she did nothing wrong and get angry whenever someone criticises her. they act like arya throwing food at her clothes is horrible disgusting irredeemable behaviour, but say "siblings being siblings" when sansa literally tells her that she should marry hodor because she's ugly like him. The double standards ugh. as a brienne lover, i personally hate the way they only see brienne as a bodyguard to sansa and don't seem to care about her character. what about you? I really love (BOOK) Sansa but her fans' attitude makes me lose interest in her character which hurts me. It's gotten to the point that im wary of anyone who has a Sansa icon :(

I mean my worst experience with... anyone in that camp wasn’t even for fandom stuff but it was someone who shipped it/was a s/nsa stan being pro-trump under a springsteen post I made and that was... let’s just say extremely unpleasant and then there was the anti-sansan twitter crowd which was also extremely unpleasant and that one person who hated joncon and was a jon/sa stan/dany anti who couldn’t handle being told to not tag joncon hate who also was a trip though I’ve had friends who had way worse run-ins, that is if we don’t count my by now legendary beef with THAT one s/nsa-j/nsa stan who hated robb stark but I mean... half of her own fandom hated her so X°D 

that said: I personally detest show-sansa from s5 onwards and I loathe how part of her fandom has decided to make the entire show/series about her and how they discard arya and brienne to give s/nsa parts of their storylines/their love interests/making both of them basically the glorified bodyguards (which was also why I loathed a brienne in sansa’s qg ending and I’m way happier with the one we got if I had to choose one evil) and I detest how they turned her into cersei lite and everyone hauled that frankly shit ooc ending she got as FEMINISM just bc she became qitn when it’s against everything in the original text, not even going into the mess that was S5 which is better not touched and I honestly can’t with the part of fandom who has decided that the entire series revolves around s/ansa while at the same time denying all over the place her actual book traits and the fact that both people who are her only realistic viable canon interests aren’t standard hot. I do love book s/nsa a lot and I’m trying to detach the show version from the book as much as I can and if I write fic I’m sticking with the book characterization because I don’t want the show mess near me at any time, but tldr: idc for any section of this fandom who discusses s/ansa which isn’t either san/san or sansa/tyrion shippers too at this point because everyone else at this point is going to be a minefield and I’m tired of the continuous denial that s/ansa’s stark love interests are those two guys but nah let’s give her all the hot guys as if it’s not like... against the text, I’m tired of people denying book canon and I don’t want to see the show version anymore. I have nothing against like... liking showsansa or shipping j/nsa (even if idc for it same as idc for jon/erys) or shipping her with anyone and I don’t judge anyone’s shipping preferences but I’d just like some intellectual honesty when it comes to discussing the actual text and admitting that showsansa is basically cersei lite and nothing like her book self, and that’s not something that happens outside those two corners now so *shrug* and I’m not even touching the BRIENNE AS THE BODYGUARD concept as last time I tried to discuss it on twitter without bringing shipping into it I got accused of hating f/f ships and honestly I’m too old and tired for this discourse except to say that making brienne or arya s/ansa’s bodyguards only is rude af, shows zero understanding of the text and I really don’t want anything to do with it. :/

[septembersghost]

since you talk about the boys in a way I understand, can I ask you something about how some people are talking about the ending? what I don't get is how people who didn't want them to split up find it so affirming/healing or whatever and keep saying it proves that the journey mattered when it literally doesn't? they were parted by DEATH for decades? Dean may as well have died in Faith? why are they worshipping this ending when it burned the story to the ground? for Sam as much as Dean? 😣

you are welcome to ask, and I’m very glad if the gibberish I write makes sense to you <3, but I’m not sure I have an answer to give - because the succinct one is...I don’t know. I wish I did, because then I feel like I could unlock some measure of healing/catharsis that I do not currently possess. but I just don’t know.

your question has a few components, which I’ll try to tackle, but this is all biased/subjective/personal insight and could be wrong! those who find it affirming, first of all, I imagine have a different perspective than I do about Dean specifically. they take his final words as an affirmation of his growth and a restatement of his purpose, rather than as a regression/sublimation of his self and him reaching for a way to comfort Sam and give him strength to withstand the catastrophe. these are incompatible points of view, because one frames him as only having purpose as the caregiver, where the other acknowledges the importance of him in that role, but also sees him as an autonomous, worthwhile person independent of it. in the white hot grief and rage in the immediate aftermath of the finale, that concept filled me with bitterness, and it continues to hurt, but now it’s just that realization of viewing it from opposing angles. if you see his ultimate fulfillment as being about Sam rather than as something for himself, then I would guess that makes the ending really moving? if you don’t hear what Dean says as him intentionally diminishing himself, and if you don’t feel like Sam is bizarrely silenced (and ooc in his inaction) in that moment? it’s impossible for me to fully rationalize (this isn’t me being upset with you for asking, by the way! it’s okay that you did), and it’s become a sort of nightmare intrusive thought, where I’ll have gotten away from it, and then I’ll be laying quietly in the dark and it comes rushing in. that’s the portion of it that has been filed in the same place where I store real trauma/grief, the things that haunt my brain in the middle of the night. that still feels like someone I love being brutally murdered in front of me, it’s never not going to feel that way, so I can’t manage to build a framework of peace or affirmation around it. peace and affirmation shouldn’t have to come at the price of death. and healing in your life...can’t happen at all when you’re dead, because you’re dead. even in their universe, where dead doesn’t mean gone, where dead means heaven...okay, yes, you have eternity, and you have the hope that you can mend wounds and heal all things in that eternity, and that’s the point where I’ve landed with reconciling heaven, with the symbolism of the bridge, BUT you will never get to do or to be everything you could have done and could have been, that’s unequivocally over. Dean can reconcile and laugh and hug everyone in heaven forever, and that’s lovely, but he also died bloody and ugly and terrified and in pain while he was still young without ever having a path for himself. it’s not fair. (I KNOW, life’s not fair, and death is cruel and random and meaningless! but this is Supernatural? forgive me if I think “realism” excuses after fifteen seasons of paranormal, infernal, and divine intervention don’t exactly cut it. as if death by vampmime on conveniently placed OSHA violation rebar is “realistic” when it’s the most contrived, absurd thing that’s ever happened.)

it also requires a disparate understanding of their characters and their journeys, where one has to take at face value their original presentation (despite the fact that this is deconstructed from the start and is dismantled entirely by the later seasons) - that Dean is the ultimate, consummate hunter, and that it is meant to be his life (repeatedly proven untrue, stated as false by Dean himself in Inherit the Earth), and that Sam was never comfortable in the life and was shackled to it/needed to be freed from it (repeatedly proven untrue, also by Sam himself). this outlook maybe, maybe could’ve withstood scrutiny in S1, but by S15 it doesn’t exist as anything but flimsy posturing (not from Sam and Dean, but rather from fandom?) and poor writing. there’s a lot of misattribution of traits and misreading of key character components/dynamics happening, which is confusing/frustrating.

on the topic of Faith - I’ve seen two schools of thought, what you said (he may as well have died there), and that the ending was RESOLUTION for Faith because he was always “supposed” to die by violence on a hunt, so it was closing the circle, which I think is utterly ridiculous (it would be like saying Sam was meant to be stabbed to death, wouldn’t it?). in theory, my problem with it doesn’t entirely lie with him dying unexpectedly on a hunt - the blaze of glory ending for them was a continual possibility, the idea that they might walk into a situation without the upper-hand - it’s the way it happened and was presented that’s hurtful. it’s the implications of what came before it in that final season and how it unfolded that make it insulting. S15 insinuated that the only reason they’d survived as long as they did was plot armor and machinations from their puppeteer rather than inherent resilience and hard-learned skill/ability (I refuse to get into it because this will become a long rant, but The Hero’s Journey is appalling and only exists to set the finale up conceptually). S15 broke him down with the intention of killing him, and there’s this undercurrent of malice to that which now permeates the story.

I also disagree with the “he may as well have died” at that point, and maybe this is because Faith is one of my favorite episodes of all-time of anything, so I will fight to salvage it from the wreckage of this however I can, but - Dean was 27 there, and very different than he was by Carry On, and you could make an argument that his death in Faith would have been more tragic, but I think the tragedy is just fundamentally distinct. in Faith, Dean is still very much defining himself by everything that was forced upon him and by hunting, and he’s fairly callous about facing death. (Dean: “Look, Sammy, what can I say, man, it's a dangerous gig. I drew the short straw. That's it, end of story.” Sam: “Don't talk like that, alright? We still have options.” Dean: “What options? Yeah, burial or cremation. And I know it's not easy. But I'm gonna die. And you can't stop it.” Sam: “Watch me.”) His feelings of worthlessness outside of that are clear - “Why? Why me? Out of all the sick people, why save me?,” and, despite the knowledge we gain later about the reaper-on-a-leash, Roy gives us an answer that echoes throughout the narrative: “I looked into your heart, and you just stood out from all the rest. [...] A young man with an important purpose. A job to do. And it isn't finished.”

Sam striving so hard to save him follows the fights and the fallout of Asylum and Scarecrow, his seething resentment having bubbled over, and then him coming back and renewing his commitment to his brother. Faith is vital to an understanding of Sam and the lengths he’s willing to go. Dean has a self-contained arc within it, both with blame/guilt/questioning and with a quiet embracing of (even the tiniest bit of) faith through the episode, but he walks away from it with a renewed sense of both purpose and injustice (doing what they do does have an impact; sadly, good, innocent people die all the time who don’t deserve it, something he’s known since the age of four) and of tenuous hope (which is not allowed to last, but it does flicker there for a moment). Dean is rightfully skeptical, yet not incapable of extending belief. (an aside fact: the next episode was Route 666, which had the highest audience ratings SPN ever achieved, which...yeah, I put that squarely on Faith being extraordinary, and, much as I like Cassie, it’s a shame that it was followed up by our first example of B/L messiness. imagine the AU where Faith was followed by something equally excellent and that duo had never written for our show...so much might be different). we’re shown his justifiable cynicism and also more of the depth of his empathy. had he died there...the sorrowful truth of it is, he would never have experienced a litany of calamitous, traumatic things, but he’d also never have grown into himself and transformed beyond that, and his growth is valuable.

Dean in Carry On is much changed, except, amazingly, he’s still Dean to the core. he has had a long, hard road, and we’ve traveled it with him. this Dean has died - way too many times (among others, at only 29, shredded by hellhounds. again at 35, at the fists and blade of Metatron). Dean has been pulled from hell, survived purgatory, the Mark, Michael, instances of suicidality, too many grievous losses to count, fought angels and demons and the Devil and God himself, and has realized how precious his freedom is, what his choices affect, he has longed for things, hoped for things, he’s affirmed his self-worth, has reached a place of healing, level ground with Sam, has a home (and a dog), has a life he has embraced and light ahead of him. Dean dead in Faith would be the tragic loss of a young man who didn’t allow himself to recognize that he had worth and purpose of his own. Dean dead in Carry On is the tragic loss of a man who DOES understand that he has worth and purpose of his own. both are terrible. Dean dying at 27 is horrific and crushing, but in a markedly contrasting sense. Dean dying at 41 after everything he endured, after everything he suffered and witnessed and did, is a desecration of the arc that came before it. it isn’t the same as him dying in Faith, it’s somehow...worse. he has a reason for hope that is then wrenched away from him, and he’s fully aware of all that he’s losing, and the traces of cynicism wash away entirely as he opens up to complete vulnerability because he knows he is going to die and this is his last chance. and I guess through a certain lens you could see this as a positive? - he dies in a healthier place and bolstering Sam and he doesn’t have to worry so much about what will happen to him - but I am emotionally incapable of giving it that spin. it is a devastating loss.

a devastating loss which is Sam’s worst fear and which he just gets to live with, I guess, because they decided he wouldn’t be allowed to do anything about it (I know, I know, he ~kept a promise~ uh, shallow Swan Song redux? as I’ve previously discussed, does not work). so Sam, the one who had faith as established from its origin IN FAITH, who was always the “there’s a light at the end of the tunnel and I’m going to save you” guy, Sam with the constant thirst for knowledge who was always researching things, Sam who was relentless and obsessive when it came to problem solving, especially when it concerned trying to save his brother, loses everything, cuts ties with everyone, abandons the home that was only a home because of Dean, and becomes someone we don’t know. suburban dad Sam? is literally a stranger to us. I have no idea who that man is, which is why it’s easier for me to think of that as a trippy hallucination than it is to accept it as reality. we know nothing about him. we don’t know what he does with his life (beyond blurry no-face wife and cipher Dean child). we know more about Dean in heaven than we know about Sam alive because...Dean gets in the Impala and takes a nice drive? Sam, though, I don’t know him. and the thing that makes the narrative difficult at that point (and I don’t care about blurry wife or the kid, I truly do not believe the narrative wants or expects us to), is that when Sam shows up on the bridge, IF those decades were real, he is no longer the version of Sam that Dean knew, because you’re right, he’s lived more years of his life without Dean than with him (which...I hate). you have to avoid thinking about it or somehow retcon it, because we’re supposed to see him as our Sam - but then, what was the point of the poorly handled flash-forwards? bless the boys for selling that moment on the bridge as beautifully as they did, and for adding in the components that they chose to bring it emotional weight, they did everything they could with what they were given, but you can’t examine it too closely or it crumbles. the fandom that didn’t want them to separate are cool with this outcome? yet if they were ALIVE, they would always have been in contact, no matter where they went, and they could have recovered and grown in their actual lives and shared experiences, rather than being dead and being in mourning for perpetuity?

furthermore, as I’ve also discussed, it’s outcomes neither of them wanted. Dean didn’t say he thought he’d die bloody as if that was some great, triumphant thing, it’s that he couldn’t envision better, he didn’t think he deserved more. I saw someone who said, “Dean didn’t die for Sam, but he stayed dead for Sam,” and wanted to scream forever. as if that’s what Sam most needed or wanted? as if that was some incredible service to him? Sam did not want the “normal” life anymore, which he made clear on numerous occasions, so he was only living that life...what’s the inverse of vicariously?...for Dean’s sake, in tribute. it doesn’t even make sense to me to support it as an ending for Sam.

as far as proving that the journey mattered...it can’t. Dean died horribly. Sam quit. (and you asked this specifically about the boys, but as a footnote, certain angels being back in heaven, serving, ew, “God,” wrecks even the most basic concept of internal logic.) they would’ve been in heaven together no matter what, we know this (Dark Side of the Moon established this, and Dabb co-wrote that. although, pile up his writing and it is full of contradictions), so the meaning doesn’t come from there. it’s hollow misery and grief and I would have to have my brain rewired to see it as anything else.

yet the fact of the matter also is, Dean didn’t die in Faith, nor was he trapped in hell forever. Sam didn’t die in AHBL2, nor was he trapped in the cage forever. gloriously and complexly and difficultly and extraordinarily, for the rest of the time when we had them, they lived. (the point is that they lived.) they made mistakes. maybe they didn’t always persevere. nevertheless, they kept trying. that remains in spite of the finale, not because of it. so no, I can’t explain those interpretations. I’m never going to understand how anyone views it as a win, or as somehow even better than the story deserved. heaven and reunion on the bridge still could’ve happened with any number of different paths to get there. you will never convince me that there wasn’t a better way. you will never convince me that the answer to the question wasn’t supposed to be freedom.

Chuck (before he was what he became) asked rhetorically, “what’s it all add up to?,” and gave us emotional weight with it then. that being said, I refuse to believe or allow it to destroy the meaning that DOES exist. yes, past episodes are shrouded in the ache of this now, it comes up in a million little ways, but it does not steal or erase everything. the intrigue of the folklore/gothic horror/Romanticism, the concepts of free will and radical actions, and divinity within the human spirit, and love as a holy power that breaks through walls and plans and destinies, and facing trauma, and extending compassion, and bravery as a flame in the dark - it all still exists. it can only be burned to the ground if we decide not to hold onto it, it’s like...you can decide, if those flames burn it down, or if it’s the fire that keeps your brittle heart warm the heart and hearth of the story alight. and that’s a unique experience for each of us. for the people who view the ending as resolution in a positive sense...they’re making their own meaning, and isn’t that what we all do? so for those of us wounded by it, we have to make our own meaning as well. it’s more difficult and aching for us, but it’s not impossible. look at us here, still poring over the story, loving the characters, seeking the light on the shore.

endings are hard. (nothing ever really ends, does it?)