#like damn girl what type of beef did you have with a 15 year old

[ki-sol]

A little storytime because math and I have a lot of history.

So, in ninth grade (note that I already had had that teacher the year before and that it is when I fell from a C down to an E), I was really adamant about trying to get better at math because at least a D would've solved a lot of my problems and I thought that maybe I'd get into a better headspace with that problem gone.

Little me goes up to teacher a day or so before the exam and asks: "What can I do to deepen my understanding of the subject at hand? What pages would you recommend I study?"

And my teacher, chuckling into her fist, was like: "Oh, Kisol, you're a hopeless case." and didn't even give me any fucking pages to study!!!

Safe to say, I failed the exam and lost any interest in even trying, which fucked up a lot of my chances for uni later on but well, the hopeless case still got somewhere.

ok wait, reblog if you’ve cried at least once because of math, doesn’t matter which grade i’m trying to prove something 

[gamergirluprising]

(WARNING SENSITIVE INFO WILL BE DISCUSSED OR GIVEN. IF YOU CANNOT HANDLE INFO REGARDING SELF-HARM OR BULLYING I’D ADVISE YOU NOT TO READ ON. VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED)

Hello, everyone, I’d like to share somethings that have urked me and outright surprise me when getting deeper and deeper into this whole shebang cause honestly, this is too much to NOT notice. If you're wondering what I am talking about I am referring to all the stuff I found out about Viv and the fact that she never truly seemed sorry for what she's done to said people based on what I have found out and what she's said in recent years.

Now you all may say "G, she said she's sorry and that's that. Don't bring up things that happened years ago or have been resolved." and look, man, I'd leave it alone if it was CLEAR that she was truly a person of her word, wasn't a hypocrite, and didn't cause 3 people to be suicidal and cause/know of witchhunts that she KNOWS happened and/or wanted to happen. You guys can like her all you want and defend her, but be sure they are good defenses, understand WHERE I am coming from, and be mindful of what I am saying. Don't just ignore everything she did just cause you THINK she's super nice or because she's your idol.

I will also emphasize that I wish for NO ONE to send any unnecessary hate or anything of the like to Viv. You don't stoop to someone else's level just cause they did some bad crap. I just wanted to say any of this, loud and clear, cause its straight facts that shouldn't be buried just cause she wants to hold onto her image the best she can. That isn't at all fair to those victims who have been wronged and had their names tainted over her destructive and mean-spirited hypocritical behavior. AGAIN DO NOT ATTACK VIV AND DON'T THINK ME CALLING HER OUT IS A REASON TO HATE HER. We can be better than her in terms of handling things. Do not also think me calling her out shouldn't have been done JUST CAUSE you don't wanna hear it or not. If you don't wanna see it, you don't have to read it.

with that being said, LET'S DISSECT.

 S T A R V A D E R

First I have to start off relaying to you guys what Starvader had stated at the beginning of the document so you'll get a jist of why she even spoke up in the first place. 

 "I type this document with no malicious intent only my personal thoughts on how I feel recently about the situation since its been on my mind well every day now since 2013. At least five years I’ve had thoughts below as to my personal experience of meeting an ex idol and why sometimes meeting your idol isn’t the best approach. For me, that ex idol is Vivienne Medrano creator of Zoophobia and Hazbin Hotel. I’m not aiming to defame this creator nor do I think people should stop liking their work or stop supporting them. If you like their work there is nothing wrong with that but I will refuse to silence myself any longer due to how much this rarely leaves my mind and tends to come up. This has been a situation swept under the rug and most would probably state ‘ well why are you bringing all this up now it was so and so years ago you guys squashed this etc etc “ that being the case, sorry doesn’t fix emotional trauma that comes up frequently during depressive episodes and comments do tend to stick to people in a certain way. Apology or not, words have a heavy weight to them."

I put this here even though I will be putting a link to her doc because people will most likely not read or press the link and just act as if Starvader wanted blood. No, she stated her mind and was clear when saying she wanted no harm done to Viv.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/e/2PACX-1vRX8VEoTS7Xot7D9u5i7MMEgtT44mNEtgpl4FY7QDZCA7ZY2j-CTJF7Uw_JwSJ6WUQNVvaTQv60Igte/pub

In this link It tells anyone who comes across it what she and some others mentioned here had to go through when being compared by Viv, wanting to do what's right and still being "called out" and bullied while getting hate sent to them, and having been told how her dreams would never ever be achieved and that she should practically give up, how she put friends against one another, etc. It showcases screenshots of these examples. 

It all began with the accusation of art theft. The very thing she played the victim in with someone else. I'm sure some of you old-time fans of Viv know who this person was and are aware of the beef they had with one another. After reading Starvader's Doc, I want you to look at the post Vivziepop made to defame someone known as 

  D O L L C R E E P

This may be a throwback to you and you all may have thought this person was abusive. I won't say that they did absolutely nothing wrong since they themselves have said they did some wrong in the situation, but I will say that one was more of a problem starter than the other. 

http://web.archive.org/web/20151008172207/http://enoughisenough-dollcreep.tumblr.com/post/125101370456/my-experience-with-dollcreep

Notice in this post that the very things she did to Starvader she said DollCreep did to her and how she tries and paint DollCreep as this SEVERELY abusive person. Hell even in Starvader's document you'll see that DollCreep told SV that he talked with Viv about the whole thing regarding SV and Viv and she apparently listened at the time. Not to mention that the screenshots Viv put in that post were either take(very possibly) taken out of context or not even bad to begin with (though his reply about the face thing was odd and shouldn't have been addressed b but due to circumstances, I think that's why he was so cautious). I don't know DC like that, but this kinda makes me feel as though he wasn't a bad person Viv makes him out to be and more her trying to destroy his image ENTIRELY for her benefit, cause till this very day she still calls him an abuser and someone she doesn't want to meet again. 

if you continue on into the post she made, you'll see that she has made characters, EERILY SIMILAR to DC's, some WAY MORE than others. SV was willing to change some of the designs and even wanted to stop, Viv, however, seemed to take great offense over such an accusation and took to social media to make her frustrations known. SV kept this hidden from 2013 to 2018.

Oh btw, if you read the doc you'll see that SV wanted to commit suicide. DC actually attempted it. The cyberbullying ran that deep and it ANGERS me.

here’s what someone who saw the sitch had to say.

https://web.archive.org/web/20170619163024/http://dcs-personal-blog.tumblr.com/

can find everything here regarding what DC said about the sitch. You guys DO NOT ATTEMPT TO HURT THIS PERSON. It actually pisses me off that people even attacked DC and blindly believed Viv. It’s Johnny Depp’s situation all freaking over again

Here’s the picture of Viv saying that he was abusive, completely ignoring her behavior, and knowing hate would be sent to DC. Again won’t say that DC was completely innocent but damn man, was this necessary? DC even said that they talked it out and everything 

https://vivziepop.tumblr.com/post/179705403534/im-only-going-to-say-this-once

Don’t even get me started on the whole character credit fiasco that Viv refused to properly fix.

https://krieg-was-taken.tumblr.com/post/101438542866/dollcreep-kibadoglover45-dollcreep-even

Look at this as well.

https://web.archive.org/web/20200104224648/https://tyacutie123.tumblr.com/post/125800399071/beware-of-abusive-artist

it mentions SV again, but it also brings into light a parody character meant to mock DC during all of this drama. 

https://killapunk.tumblr.com/post/125896144245/dcs-personal-blog-enoughisenough-dollcreep/amp

DollCreep does the same thing back and is treated like the enemy. Hypocrisy at its finest.

now, most of you guys will be saying that this all happened in the past. It’s over, some will say, She’s changed (some of you may even say that these people deserve it. Yes people actually have said stuff like this to me or others) but here’s the problem, She still pulls crap like this to ruin people or to make others feel stupid. Just last year she was laughing with JaneGumball (who APPARENTLY made up with the victim) saying that she deserves it for being rude when the girl just said her opinion and was still a fan of Viv at the time, meaning she didn’t even mean to hurt Viv’s feelings and, hear me out, even if she did WHY FIND HER CYBERBULLYING FUNNY AND JUSTIFIED OVER AN OPINION? What sort of logic is that? That’s GREATLY immature and unnecessary, especially for someone her age (She’s 27 or 28 guys while the victim was 15, come on man!)

 and I’m sure some of you know what happened with the person who made a meme regarding HH and other animated cartoons.

She’s VERY MUCH AWARE THAT THEY WERE ATTACKED....and this is how she responds....wow O K A Y.

So no, she didn’t actually change because she most likely didn’t think she had to. People kept supporting her thus making her believe that what she did was correct. Oh and Faust is practically Viv as well. (As seen by the SV doc and this tweet thread)

https://twitter.com/melonbea/status/1206994000563068930?s=19

Hell Viv seemed to ignore this too, as well as a lot of shipping drama if it involves a specific ship, but I won’t delve too deep into that subject since I am not very aware of the things that go down in that side of the fandom. 

and there’s this 

https://afraidofmonsters-headcanons.tumblr.com/post/188662798256/so-lets-talk-about-this-blog-the-fandom-and-viv

and this

https://historia-kq.tumblr.com/post/190882421127

I’d advise you guys to hear these things out. 

Oh and Viv is the type to be a Hypocrite regularly,

https://twitter.com/VivziePop/status/613097846603026433?s=19

I could send you all the screenshots of her tweets but that should be another post on its own cause THERE IS A LOT. Like her Cancel Culture tweet, that tweet where she said, and I quote, “The hypocrisy is strong” back in 2014, November 29th. That time she had a thread of tweets saying, and I quote “never let someone dictate your value as an artist! Never seek the approval of someone else and conform to what they say you should do!” Despite doing this to StarVader.

If you guys want screenshots I can either personally DM or make a post showing her hypocrisy. Cause honestly this is rather, dare I say it, TOXIC. She’s manipulated people and has used them when they don’t abide by her rules or make a mistake that could have been resolved privately, she attacks and it’s saddening. I am TIRED of people getting hurt by her and I am tired of her abusing her power. If she wants to change I am COMPLETELY DOWN for that, but change starts when you want it. You can’t say sorry and expect people not to see past the lies or see that you obviously didn’t change. Sorry should mean what it means, feeling regret or penitence, but if you don’t at all exhibit these things then how are we supposed to believe that you are at all sorry for anything you’ve done currently AND in the past? I mean damn dude did you guys even know what happened to the cosplayer that Viv was mad about?

https://boricua-moonbakery.tumblr.com/post/616407364553310208

Now look, if you like Viv’s content, that’s your choice. I for one very much do like some fan content that i’ve stumbled onto and find some very creative and my cup of tea and while I’m not a huge fan of HH I still very much find the premise very creative. What I do if a creator of something is majorly sketch or strange I simply seperateb the content from the creator. I simply wanted to point out things many peeps don’t know about and any person who is a fan of Viv, I hope you’d at least understand WHY I am at all saying anything I am saying. I want there to be justice but I want things to be fair. I don’t want Viv to get hurt, but I want her to actually learn from her mistakes. I am not here to discourage you from anything, it’s your choice if you choose to stay and I will not judge you for it. I am a girl who SIMPLY wants people to be more aware of who exactly Vivienne Medrano is. She’s mistreated both fans of HH and ZP and it boggles me.

If you guys want more info, like her tweets that I mentioned, just message me.

      END OF DISSECTION

[lildishsoap]

50 questions you’ve never been asked before

Thank you sm for tagging me @satans-helper ! 💕

1. what is the colour of your hairbrush? 

Light brown

2. a food you never eat? 

Blue cheese *gag*

3. are you typically too warm or too cold? 

Despite living in a tropical country, cold lol

4. what were you doing 45 minutes ago? 

Concentrating my hardest on not throwing up while I decluttered my phone to distract me.

5. what is your favourite candy bar? 

I’m not that much of a candy bar girl

6. have you ever been to a professional sports event? 

Not that I can remember

7. what is the last thing you said out loud? 

“Sí” @ my dad asking if I wanted him to lock my door on the way out bc he was sweet enough to get me a pillow that makes it so that I can sleep upright and not be as nauseous

8. what is your favourite ice cream? 

Chocolate Coconut Bliss ice cream is pretty damn good

9. what was the last thing you had to drink? 

A sip of water

10. do you like your wallet? 

Yep, it has a lot if pockets and that is something I appreciate in both wallets and clothing

11. what was the last thing you ate?

Like 7 quinoa puffs (that’s like a tablespoon of cereal lol) to try and calm my stomach down a little

12. did you buy any new clothes last weekend? 

I have not gone shopping in a very long time

13. the last sporting event you watched? 

Maybe the last summer Olympics? I’m not big on sports as you can tell lol

14. what is your favourite flavour of popcorn? 

Regular movie popcorn is good

15. who is the last person you sent a text message to? 

An artist friend of mine

16. ever go camping? 

Yes! I love camping, despite the fact that I’ve only gone twice and the first time I went camping the tent broke bc of the intensity of the wind and crushed me. It would crash down and crush me every time a gust of wind came. I looked over and one of the people I was camping with had just crawled into their sleeping bag completely, as if it were a cocoon and proceeded to sleep as if nothing was happening. Unfortunately I did not have a sleeping bag, so I could not do the same lol

17. do you take vitamins? 

Yes, I take a liquid multivitamin and I try and have these magnesium capsules some nights to help me sleep even better. However, I SUCK at swallowing capsules. If y’all have any tips on how to swallow pills I’d appreciate it :)

18. do you go to church every sunday? 

Sometimes (Bc of my parents, not my own beliefs)

19. do you have a tan?

Nope, I don’t tan, I just turn into a tomato.

20. do you prefer chinese food or pizza? 

Pizza

21. do you drink your soda with a straw? 

I don’t drink soda

22. what colour socks do you usually wear? 

Black

23. do you ever drive above the speed limit? 

I’m a newbie to driving so I go at a snail’s pace lol

24. what terrifies you? 

The thought of looking back on my life and not having achieved anything

25. look to your left, what do you see? 

An open door

26. what chore do you hate? 

Washing the dishes is the worst. I love vacuuming.

27. what do you think of when you hear an Australian accent? 

A YouTuber I watch was the first to come to mind

28. what’s your favourite soda? 

I don’t drink soda. I guess the least terrible soda would be 7up. Sometimes I’d drink it when I was younger to ease stomach discomfort since it’s carbonated.

29. do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive-thru? 

I don’t eat fast food.

30. who’s the last person you talked to?

Some time has passed since I started this so as of now, it is my mom.

31. favourite cut of beef? 

I don’t eat beef, and even when I did, I was not knowledgeable enough to know the difference between cuts 😅

32. last song you listened to? 

My neighbors are playing “Mr. Brightside” rn

33. last book you read? 

Last book I finished was The Great Gatsby

34. favourite day of the week? 

I don’t think I have one

35. can you say the alphabet backwards? 

I legit just go “z....” and it takes me a million years to think of the next letter, so no, lol

36. how do you like your coffee? 

I’m more of a tea person

37. favourite pair of shoes? 

I love my Docs to death

38. at what time do you normally go to bed? 

The latest I like to go to sleep is 10:30, but since quarantine started I’ve been going to sleep a little later. But to be a properly functioning human being I need to get a sufficient amount of sleep and wake up early

39. at what time do you normally get up? 

Around 7:00 since quarantine started. But when I went to school I usually woke up at 6:00

40. what do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? 

I love both too much to pick 🥺

41. how many blankets are on your bed? 

2

42. describe your kitchen plates? 

White with red and grey detailing

43. do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage? 

I’m not legal yet, but I’ve tried little bits of some and I’ve hated most alcoholic beverages but coquito is *chef’s kiss*. It is a little too sweet though.

44. do you play cards? 

I’m not sure what type of cards this question is referring to. I like to play spoons and I used to be into Magic: the gathering lol

45. what colour is your car? 

A very dark greenish blue that almost looks black. I love her, she sounds like she’s going to fall apart at any given moment and she’s as old as me but I am beyond grateful to have my Chona.

46. can you change a tire? 

Yes, actually! Well if I remember how to do it, but we were taught how to change a tire last year at school (for once I was taught something practical at school lol)

47. what is your favourite state/province? 

From the ones I’ve visited (I’m not from the US), California

48. favourite job you’ve ever had? 

I haven’t had any paid jobs, but I gave fellow high school students art classes as a job experience for one semester. That was nice :)

49. how did you get your biggest scar? 

It’s not really big but my most notable scar is because I used to have a small patch of warts on one of my knees and the dude who got rid of it did it incorrectly and butchered up my knee. No matter what, children always point out that scar lol 🙃

50. what did you do today that made someone else happy? 

I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️

I’m tagging @tymeconsuming @yoooooooooooboiiiiiiiiiiiiii @anothermultifandomblogkk @jimmypagesandbrianmayshair @satingrass-maidensfair

[chattegeorgiana]

Gotta give it to you, watching/reading Boruto after the shit show Naruto was and analyzing the story... Holy shit, I'm still upset with how things went after many years of following and I'm unable to bring myself to read/watch the sequel or want to. I wonder how the shitty sequel makes you feel after everything that happened with the shitty original.

Welp, I must admit that being “freed” from Naruto and its canon, helped me a great deal in this matter. That’s why I am able to read Boruto with no problem.

I am no longer attached to it, therefore I can easily just get through the new phase. I was too attached like many others in the fandom to the old story. Maybe a little bit too much. Buuuuut that’s who I am, quite passionate when I am really taking a liking into something. And Naruto made it there. I don’t get attached to many things, I have about one story to each phase of my life. For example, for childhood Sailor Moon tops everything. 

Same with games. I am a gamer, but not that idk fanatic type. You can count the games I played on the fingers of your hand. It’s quite simple: all Need for Speed series up to Carbon (VIVA MOST WANTED!), Diablo 2 and 3, Starcraft Brood War and Starcraft 2, Sacrifice aaaaand I think that’s about it.

With Naruto I gave in because it seemed something else aaaaand due to its great symbolism. I have to admit I am a fool for love, ahem, symbolism. Even in school when we studied it, I was all over the subject. You wanna have my heart? Give me a story with mythology and symbolism and I’m all yours. That’s why I have great interest in astrology as well.

But anyway, getting back to the subject because I have derailed a bit once more (sorry for the bad habit!).

How does it make me feel? Curious. I have a curious mind and that curiosity of mine can be both a blessing and a curse, depends how someone wants to use it, haha. Guess it can be used for my own benefit or against it.

I’ve said in the past that I am done with Naruto - and I am, nevertheless. It’s not a story that I will recommend due to the illogical paths it took from a development pov and character development pov. After Pein arc it suuuuuuure went crazy. Imo, up to that point Naruto as a story was gold. From there on, the whole mess started if you ask me.But I still watched it and still gave it a chance because I thought Kishimoto would end it in a somewhat satisfying end for the story. Of course, he was never gonna satisfy everyone, that’s for sure. You can never do that because we’re 8 billion people on this goddamn earth and we each have our views and taste. However, I wished he would’ve stayed true to his intentions, to his authorial intent.

So what if Hinata grew popularity without doing nothing? Keep that damn Sakura development going on, damn it. Aside for everything else, this is something I will never be able to forgive Kishi for. Pairings aside, plot aside, everything else aside. I don’t care about them in the end, life moves on. But for this move, I’m like.. nah, bro. Ain’t doing it. This is the reason I’ll never ever ever support any  Kishimoto written story ever again, nor I will forgive him.

Of course, not that he needs my forgiveness anyway. I’m a mere human continents away, he’s a world renown writer who wrote his story. But that’s the thing here. Naruto was his story. He should’ve stayed true to it. Not change it at the last minute on the whims of a loud fanbase. It’s that resilience against external forces that makes you who you are, and the way you respond to it. Apparently, Kishimoto gave in.

And you know what’s funny about it, in the bittersweet sense, of course? And imma throw a little pairing shade here. People were quick to jump the bandwagon that “Naruto didn’t give up his love for Sakura”. But I am posing a question here… didn’t he really? I mean, think a bit logical here… if we’re to make an analogy, as we all know it Kishimoto always said that he identifies as Naruto. And in the interview with Kobayashi he said that no matter how much he tried to write about Sakura, he saw Hinata’s popularity grow inexplicably, so then, in the end he gave-up writing about Sakura.Therefore, in a parallel way (like he so much liked to build his story on), couldn’t one say that “Naruto gave up on Sakura”? 

Kishimoto always said how he’s fond of Sakura in her own way, because she was the normal one, she represented the human weakness.

But you know what the problem is? She was that mirror, Sakura was that mirror to our humanity, and thus to our weakness. In a world full of powerful ninja-gods, we didn’t like to see a human girl trying to attain her own worth through her own trials and errors, while showcasing human weakness at doing so. Why? Because she brought-us back to reality, out of our “genjutsu’d” way of living in that story. In that very story we all liked to live, where we had powerful Uchihas, Hyugas, Senjus and Uzumakis who were offered everything on a silver plate from birth, here came a girl who had nothing, no support, no special ability, nothing more but her brains.

And that girl was human, and humans are weak. And we are humans. And we don’t like that we’re weak. So of course, we had to take her out. By all and any means. And they did so. The loud fanbase whose name I won’t be naming right now did so.

And thus, Kishimoto, the Naruto of our story, saw himself forced into a corner to give up on his love for Sakura. Of his fondness of a character that was something else, than your usual god-like powered ninja. So in the end, yes… Naruto gave up on his love for Sakura. Take it shipping wise or authorial-character relationship-wise, however you wanna take it, but it’s the truth.

And that is my beef with Kishi. He could’ve made this open-ended, he could’ve made this like it is but with different development, a normal and in accordance with his story one. And I would’ve been just fine with it.

But he didn’t. He preferred to throw all that into nothing, throw Sakura away for the popularity of this wretched story. He took the short way out. And for someone who preached different in his story, boooy it so seems wrong.

However, I’ve made peace with it. I moved forward, accepted that this is the way he chose to deal with the situation. Now only my curiosity is peaked in seeing how will they deal forward with the story and how many retcons will they build over and over again in order to rewrite 15 years of development, for that “shock value” of the finale.

As someone who aspires to write her story one day, and who happens to work in marketing and thus knows the know-hows of how you advertise a product, for me at this point as I said, this story became a case-study from where I’ll be drawing my own conclusions on how to and how not to. Even if things didn’t fully went the way I predicted them (though funnily enough 80% did so and even do so in the current story with Boruto - which is odd - but alas), and one could argue that I am bitter because of the pairings and because I lost and whatnot, I am at peace. It was never about the pairings - though one could argue so because most of my writings were NaruSaku centered. It was about the characters themselves, the relationships and dynamics between them AND their development. A cornerstone in every well-built story. But alas…

In the end it’s as the old tale says: You win or you learn. You never lose.

[notaboutmeeee]

Thoughts on episode 3 while I watch

Warning: SPOILERS, read at your own risk!

Oh noo poor Clark with his powers going haywire; so much tumblin

Yeaa I still got no intetest/idea about Jon's story about footbal/beefing up/fitting in with the guys

Uhm hmm, the jordan & Sarah drama... I need to know if Sarah was guilty about having kissed someone else or bc she kissed a girl and liked it;feel like there's a difference; trying to compare her secret with his secret about powers? Uhm no;one is a life altering and threat ting secret and the other is 'I kissed a girl'

Yes! Lana for mayor; tho it's a no for the blouse for me haha

Ah her second daughter exists still yay haha

Teasing the quince;I can't wait

Mr Lane just chilling in that lake, love it! He deserves to fish in peace, tho if he were to take his position back from Anderson I wouldn't mind that at all

Oh oooohhh hot digidy damn; Clark?!you OK? Dude take a breather, your eyes are glowing and you're huffing and puffing and growly voice!! On the one hand I was like give me mooore but on the other hand his powers going haywire bc of the thing in the mines almost hurt Jordan, nooo

But Jordan's part in the fight was so cringe? A 15 year old thinking about marriage? Uhhh whut? My dude, there's a line between love and obsession/infatuation

I get lois side but I'm probably more on Clark's side..

Wait she kissed 1 girl and jordan ends the relationship? Or is it bc he doesn't want a relationship where he has to keep a secret&lie? (which didn't bother him too much before)

The teen drama in this show is all over the place and not my scene

Ahh yes! I knew it the x kryptonite huffing for Jon's storyline (ugh big sigh)

Jon better not join in, he should know better; imma be watching him

What if he does some investigating like his mom, I'd like that for him;similar to the van in s1 tho hopefully not as traumatising

Why are the townspeople still blaming Lana and Kyle for edge and the town not doing so well? She did her job with the loans like any employee and how should she have known about edge? The guy was super secretive and once she knew she went to lois, a reporter ;I haven't been a fan of this plot line for the cushings; they deserve nice things! They aren't to blame

Ooh getting closer to Lucy showing up yes!

Wait Jordan should be telling his mom and dad/superman about the x kryptonite thing

How are teenagers getting access to the xkryptonite??

Oh more glowy eyes?!

What?

I AM CONFUSION BUT VERY INTERESTED AND CURIOUS

Lol what wonky truck driving/swerving

A psychic link with the thing.. Interesting

John Henry better stay safe in the mines

Aww lana, I'm still rooting for her as mayor! She got this, I know she does

How can you sit with your shoes on the bed? No Natalie, don't do me like this

Ha "don't go all doomsday on me" you're funny lois (/the writers)

That lady better not - God damn it I was just gonna say she better not knock John Henry out and she immediatly does it nooo

(im sorry I can't remember her name at all)

What is going on in the mines? I'm so confused lol

Oh I'm getting excited about Lucy, she seems like a firecracker

For a second I thought Sarah was gonna say "what if.. What if I liked kissing a girl?" and now I'm sad

I don't get why they make an emphasis of her having kissed a *girl* but then the kiss literally meaning nothing except for a drama plot point between the teens bc of a secret

Aww lois and Clark being all cute

Oh it's happening yes I'm not ready oh god

Who is in that suit? For crying out loud! Ugh ads again (I'm probs gonna have to Google to find out who it's supposed to be, cuz I don't know superman lore)

Oh they are kryptonian OK, I mean I figured but still

Oh they're beating the crap out of supes

John Henry to the rescue yay

Blue glowing eyes? And scars? Lol I paused just now to type this and it looks like an alt version of clark/supes (ie it looks like hoech is in that suit) and now I'm scared but very excited

But it would explain their connection hmm

I'm flying blind here OK! I know no DC stuff so I apologize if I'm supposed to recognize who that was haha

Nah that was not my bae evil supes from John Henry's world, did you see the teeth on this alt supes?? Haha

Wait but how did Nat get here? I still don't knowwww

"Bizarro"? I feel like that's a reference I'm not getting oops

I'm feeling a dark path is coming for jon and I'm scared

Yes Natalie is helping! Yesss

Oh a barn upgrade? Or change in location?

Oh lana doing social media aghhhh OK I kinda love it but also kinda cringe

I was gonna say "oh a heart necklace, how cliche" but oh Clark gave him his mom's necklace to give to Sarah that's a sweet gesture

But also I cannot with this teen "we're gonna be together forever and ever" stuff

Yeaaaa dark times a comibfor Jon I'd say

Omg the cult leader woman

How dare this woman! The gall! I hate her already so much

Wait what did alt supes say there? Also wasn't Clark's ice Palace thing destroyed by his bro? Or is this a new place?

Ooh the face scars and holes in the cape; what's up with the necklace?

Lol the hair side parted and a bit tousled had me giggling

Added later on:

I for some reason did not notice Bizarro supes speaking 'weirdly' in the fight scene, only picked up on it in the closing scene; but now I know he spoke backwards! And that he's Bizarro supes! Hope i/we don't have to play all his scenes backwards

Thoughts on Superman and Lois season 2 episode 2 (sort of while I'm watching it)

Aww lois trying so hard to get Natalie to talk with her/like her, hopefully she listens to John Henry's advice to just be herself

Ugh this show is making me feel slightly bad for Sarah.. Tho at the same time I'm like "dude just give her some space and wait for her to come to you when she's ready to talk about whatever is going on with her"

What is your secret saraaaahhhh

Natalie and Sarah? Yes more of that!

Lana is for sure gonna end up running for mayor herself right? I knew she was gonna enter the city politics back in s1 lol

The lights on the creature/person in a suit that is in the mines are sorta throwing me off a bit, can't figure out who its supposed to be hmm

Jon wants to be more buff/man's man to get a better position in football/fit in with the guys or sth?... I do not care

Aww Jordan protecting his dad

Also how are Tals powers back? Did the energy/power sucking thing from s1 not work? How did no machine/security thing at the dod notice his powers being back, aren't they hightech? Confusion...

Is it lois' mom or sister who was invved in the cult.. Hmm I think Lucy.. Either way interesting...(further in the episode and ahh Lucy was the source)

Tag!! Ahhh;maybe I'll join team sulerkids/superschool (this does not include Anderson)

Poor Clark with his visions, headaches and being smacked around by villains loki/hulk style hahaha

So smoking the exkryptonite gives you temporary powers? But does it only give temporary strength /aka only one power?

A little flashback moment of alt!lois.. Will we see another flashback moment of evil superman (pls pls pls)

The bro bro mom drama with dupes tal and their mom is meh, so much drama, don't really care much about it tho I thiiink

Is tal gonna join team superman (like John Henry did in s1)? And try and be good to win his mom's love/approval or sth?

Is the cult leader gonna be one of the many villains this season?

Ahhhhhh I knew it! But also YES supportive Kyle! Yes! I love ittttt! Aww two great minds (Kyle and lana) thinking alike

Wtf is the point of Sarah's secret? I'm sorry? So she's straight (it was just a camp thing; which ugh, coulda been some bi rep, sigh) but also felt guilty about kissing a girl/her friend but also wasn't sure about telling Jordan about it? This makes no sense..

I'm confused why only Clark is having this telekinesis connection with whatever/whoever is in the mines and not the other 2 kryptonian aswell.. Hmm

'sth came through' so there's a portal in the mines?? Came through from where? Another planet or universe?

Who even knows who she's talking to, I'm not gonna try and guess yet lol

[voightsgirl]

tag game!

tagged by @chloeswans thank you my love 💛💛

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people (sorry i don’t have that many friends rip)

I tag: @writteninthestarsandthesky @chillmydude @riverdaleangels @sophiaxjesse @halsteadpd @e11evenseggos @caffeinatedkafreen @erinllindsays and yo anyone else if you see this and wanna join in i tag you

last

1. drink - water

2. phone call - my friend we were working on an english presentation

3. text message - i texted my friend to arrange to meet her for lunch earlier today

4. song you listened to - currently listening to waterloo by abba because i am cOoL

5. time you cried - had a total meltdown on thursday rip it’s been a really tough week

6. dated someone twice - lOl i’ve barely dated someone once

7. kissed someone & regretted it - nope

8. been cheated on - i mean,,,,,,,..,,,,,,,,,.........not exactly

9. lost someone special - yes

10. been depressed - yes

11. gotten drunk & thrown up - nope

fave colours

12. red

13. yellow

14. black

the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes and i am so grateful for them 💛

16. fallen out of love - with a friend aye

17. laughed until you cried - oh my days too many times (usually in english class, which freaks out my teacher)

18. found out someone was talking about you - lol remember that time i overheard people proper biTCHING about me and i was like...........?? (it was lowkey funny tho because i am a NICE person and people know that and they came and apologised lul)

19. met someone who changed you - yes, actually in the last year i’ve met a few people who have had such a massive impact on me it’s unreal

20. found out who your friends are - omg too much

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - hA no

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in irl - all of them

23. do you have any pets - two cats sparky and olive and a doggo called lizzie

24. do you want to change your name - no although i am slowly implementing the nickname meg as opposed to megan bc it’s shorter and i like it

25. what did you do for your last birthday - uh idk i don’t remember,,,,,,,,,? it was easter sunday i’m p sure (or maybe that was the year before) idk i probably went to a movie or soemthing? maybe? i literally have no recollection of my last birthday is that bad

26. what time did you wake up today - 9:30

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - lying in bed trying to sleep (rip i actually need to sort my shit out i’ve been running on about 3-4 hours of sleep every day and i can’t deal)

28. what is something you can’t wait for - i’m going to austria tomorrow to ski and i am SO EXCITED even though i have to leave home at 5am

29. what are you listening to right now - there she goes by the las because bOP

30. have you ever talked to a person named tom - my history teacher is called tom does that count??? oh wait no yes i know loads of toms

31. something that’s getting on your nerves - the fact that i have to write an entire fuckin 5000 word dissertation by next week but i am so crazy busy and i am never ever gonna get it done

32. most visited website - no joke either thesaurus.com or wordreference (a level english and french be like)

33. hair colour - brown

34. long or short hair - shoulder length

35. do you have a crush on someone - literally so many people tho

36. what do you like about yourself - i was gonna say that i always put 100% into everything but then i realised that i literally hate that about myself because it means i am exhausted all of the damn time so i’m gonna say i’m good at giving people emotional support. like i’m not great at giving people solutions to problems but if they want a shoulder i’m good at just being there

37. want any pericings? - i really want a nose stud but i have a tiny ass nose and idk if i could pull it off rip

38. blood type - no clue 

39. nicknames - meg

40. relationship status - single pringle

41. zodiac - aries

42. pronouns - she/her

43. fave tv shows - chicago fire/pd/med, castle, one tree hill, gilmore girls, brooklyn 99, line of duty, absentia, how to get away with murder, probably more that i can’t think of rn

44. tattoos - i want a cross on my inner wrist and also a bible verse (either philippians 4:13 or romans 8:1 i’m not sure yet). also maybe some flowers i love flowers

45. right or left handed - right

46. ever had surgery - nope

47. piercings - just ear lobes

48. sport - i go to the gym a lot i like doing push ups and trx and spin and that kind of thing but i suck at team games

49. vacation - where i’ve been? gah idk lets see.....france, spain, italy, switzerland, germany, portugal, netherlands, all the countries in the uk, sweden, denmark, hong kong, usa, australia, turks & caicos islands.....going to austria tomorrow and hungary in the summer (and hk again to visit family!!) and i would love love love to go to india and lebanon and canada and iceland and norway

50. trainers - what ones i have?? currently mine are chewed up messes by my pup soooo none??

more general

51. eating - i just had a weird leftover meal of rice and couscous and curry sauce and beef stew rip to clear the cupboards before tomorrow

52. drinking - fizzy water

53. I’m about to watch - nothin i need to get to bed its 10pm but i need sleep

54. waiting for - myself to get my shit together and sort out my head

55. want - to get my shit together

56. get married - yeah one day 

57. career - i want to be an english teacher yeet

which is better

58. hugs or kisses - hugs

59. lips or eyes - eyes

60. shorter or taller - i mean if anyone is shorter than me they’re quite substantially below average so imma go taller

61. older or younger - don’t care aha

62. nice arms or stomach - arms

63. hookup or relationship - uh at the moment? i don’t even think about that kind of thing because dude i don’t even have time to breathe or think about myself soooo imma pass on this question cause i honestly don’t know

64. troublemaker or hesitant - both

have you ever

65. kissed a stranger - no

66. drank hard liquor - of course

67. lost glasses - sunglasses yes but i guard my prescriptions with my life

68. turned someone down - yes

69. sex on the first date - nope

70. broken someones’s heart - i’m not sure??? i mean i broke up with someone but like,,,,,,,they deserved it?

71. had your heart broken - i don’t know i mean i’m a fuckin mess but not because of boys

72. been arrested - no thank the lord

73. cried when someone died - see imma sound like a dick when i say no but honestly i’ve lost quite a few people who were close to me and i couldn’t cry for a good few months, even years, later (i am an expert at denial and repression apparently) so yes but not in the way you’d think

74. fallen for a friend - yes

do you believe in

75. yourself - hA

76. miracles - yeah

77. love at first sight - no

78. santa claus - haha no

79. kiss on a first date - yes

80. angles - oh yes i believe in those good old obtuse and acute angles (i assume this meant angels which, yes, i believe in)

other

81. best friend’s name - jenna

82. eye colour - blue

83. fave movie - ooOooOooOh idk probably dead poets society because that’s a masterpiece but i honestly am not a very movies person

84. fave actor - sophia bush 💛

[aporiaeuphoria-blog]

I choose thin.

I am a phenomonally picky eater. I’m talking like 4 types of vegetables, almost anything wheat and most meats. Theres a million things that I just do not like. Which is okay, I’m an adult now, I cook my own food. So I can eat what I want (yeah, mum, even prawn crackers at 4 am). Though I can’t deny that my laziness within the kitchen is legitimately unreal. If it’s harder than heating up a tin of beans I’m just not down for it. 

Recently I’ve been thinking about my change in weight over the last 2 years. It’s an ‘everything I own is two sizes to small, damn Eddina would be proud’ kind of situation. I would not call myself fat, by a fair stretch, but I’m pretty firmly opposed to my new size 15 figure. Printing off photos from when I lived in Shanghai the other day I realised just how much fitter I used to be, I was shocked. I hadn’t really noticed the weight come on, I’ve been busy with other things, like paying my rent. Something I’m sure resonates with many. So, how did that perky, size 10/12 18 year old morph into the, to be blunt, lazy, slightly overweight, bushy and unplucked 20 year old sat at her computer about to roll a spliff on a Monday night? I’ll tell you. My entire life was uprooted and turned on it’s head. Finally finishing the IB I was ecstatic, the whole concept of IB was ridiculous and I had not entered into it of my own volition. During this time I had suffered severely from depression and spent most of my time skipping out on school, crying about how my cousin touched me and cutting myself. Towards the close of the school year I felt I had found my place. I was meeting people and having fun, I had wound down from the rebellious implosion of the year before. I was coming to terms with what had happened to me, I realised who my real friends were. I wasn’t particularly concerned with my exam results because I didn’t want to be deemed acceptable by a system so detrimental to the mental health of so many people. It was sort of a joke to me. My lifestyle at this specific point in time was actually quite active. I had a relatively large amount of friends strewn far and wide and made a genuine effort to socialise with them all. Even though I was barely showing up to school, par the odd day where I was given no choice. I was often out running errands with my Mum, or I’d be going for walks with my conveniently located friends and of course, if I wasn’t doing that I would be out around the town, running a muck into the wee hours. So we are talking atleast 8 hours of solid dancing a weekend. Food wise I was eating really well, I was no prude and I definitely had relations with a cheesy bacon burger or two a week. For the most part, though, I once lived for 2 weeks off of nothing but homemade low fat 17 bean and lean beef chilli. I drank masses of water and got plenty of sleep. I showered, blow dryed, plucked, shaved, buffed, primped, and moisturised basically daily. Not that those are by any stretch of the imagination the most important things a woman does. I also thought about things constantly, I was in a forever state of contemplation. I would go on endless dates and experience so many personalities and different types of charm and charisma. I would have conversations with people endlessly. I was a clever girl. I was clever, I was pretty, I was fit, I was funny and I was charismatic. Fast-forward 2 years and I have a handful of friends who, to be painfully honest, I would be ashamed to leave the tiny town I live in with. Ridiculously lovely people, but also just ridiculous. I eat basically a Greggs a day, on occasion more. I work in a convenience store and I get hourly breaks, so I am constantly snacking on rustler burgers and crisps, simply due to my absolute lack of willpower. At home, the little time I get to myself I just want to sprawl out on my bed and comatose. So cooking is hardly a priority. The best it gets in my house is a weight watchers read meal from Iceland, largely because they’re 2for£2. Proper good deal, you should check them out. I jump at any opportunity to go to my Mum and Dad’s for tea hoping I will inspired to whip up a giant batch of chilli for myself and freeze it. But alas, literally never takes. As hard as I try, and as much as I wish I could just snap back into my old ways and be the confident go getter that got busted for a coke problem. I just can’t. I’ve gone full stoner and it’s pissing me off. Now although I used the term stoner negatively there, does not mean I want to give up smoking marijuana. No way - No how. In fact, I’m high right now and I am actually being quite productive, writing like this and whatnot. Last night I cleaned my room. It was disgraceful. I found a bag with sick in it from last weekend. Not one of my finest moments. No, I am passionate about marijuana. It has helped me in more way than it hasn’t. For one, I do less lonely drinking. So i’m hungover a lot less, that’s nice. But, in a country where the use of marijuana is illegal, it’s not that much of a social act. I tend to stick to smoking in my bedroom or in my living room. Pretty strictly although I have been known to venture outside on occasion. But that’s not what we are here to talk about. I firmly believe that when I am thin, life is better. I am more confident, I feel like dressing up, I feel like doing my makeup, I feel worth investing in. I’m well aware that my mind is more important than my dress size. And it pains me to feel the way I do. When I am skinny, I am a better me. I have found myself recently willing to fall ill with the mental illness of anorexia once more, how sick is that. Just enough to slim down to my old size and from there I will simply maintain. But it’s all I want. People will listen to me again. People will care about what I have to say.

[circlesofts]

Please don't hate me... from the "Get To Know Me" questionnaire: All of them? Or at least all that you choose to answer. You don't have to answer those that you don't want to

Thanks for asking! Don’t worry about it, no hate, i’m happy to do it (Sorry it’s a day or two late, mobile Tumblr doesn’t give me notifications for messenger. Luckily I remembered to check…)

1. What is your middle name? Claire

2. How old are you?20 years old

3. What is your birthday?6th of Feb, the 20 years old thing is fairly recent

4. What is your zodiac sign?Aquarius

5. What is your favorite color?I quite like green/turquoise/purple (#339933, #008060, #990099 for an idea)

6. What’s your lucky number?I don’t really have one, probs 6 or 2

7. Do you have any pets?Used to have lots of pets, currently just a dog and cat, they’re p cute

8. Where are you from?I’m from the North West of England, around the Fylde Coast

9. How tall are you?5″5

10. What shoe size are you?I’m a size 4.5-5 for shoes

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?There’s 10 pairs with me at uni (including slippers) but I have an extra 5 or more pairs at home I think

12. What was your last dream about?I can’t remember my last dream

13. What talents do you have?Umm, I don’t really have any talents, I can sort of do things but nothing I’m really good at? 

14. Are you psychic in any way?I don’t really believe in psychic stuff, but I sometimes really vividly dream stuff before they happen? Then a strong sense of Déjà vu

15. Favorite song?I have too many favourite songs, from too many genre. A few good ones that I listened to recently, Vectors by Area 11, Boy With A Coin by Iron and Wine, Salad Days/My Kind Of Woman by Mac Demarco and finally, the hot new meme Bag Raiders by Shooting Stars

16. Favorite movie?Again, there’s a lot. Anything Ghibli is a hit, also Your Name is a banger. Rogue one was p fantastic, Amélie, Fight Club, Animatrix, so many more

17. Who would be your ideal partner?Idk, someone who tries to understand me I guess, who never stops trying and always want to find out more. Also patience is key, I’m not the easiest person to live with

18. Do you want children?I do want children, but also the idea of it terrifies me

19. Do you want a church wedding?I’ve never been super fussed about marriage but a church wedding does sound appealing in some ways.

20. Are you religious?None Religion with Left Beef

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?I’ve been to the hospital a few times

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?Nah, never been caught

23. Have you ever met any celebrities? Met Alfie Boe, his aunt or mum or smth lives v close to me

24. Baths or showers?Showers for sure

25. What color socks are you wearing?No socks lad

26. Have you ever been famous?I’ve been in the local newspaper a few times, wouldn’t exactly call it famous tho

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?Yes and no, like the idea of being remembered and being influences. Also kind of a poor background so the money would be nice. But also too much pressure

28. What type of music do you like?Cliché as it is, I like a bit of everything. Although preferences for rock, indie, folk. Although I’ve been on a vaporwave jam recently

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?nah

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?2 usually, sometimes 3

31. What position do you usually sleep in?On my front or side I think

32. How big is your house?My uni flat is p small, my parents house is 3 bedroom, small but not super small

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?On the rare occasions I have breakfast, toast w/tomatoes on. Although I did just treat myself to a box of cereal which is very rare.

34. Have you ever fired a gun?Air rifle at scouts, I wasn’t half bad

35. Have you ever tried archery?Again, at scouts

36. Favorite clean word?Altruism

37. Favorite swear word?It has to be cunt

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?3 days, it was during exam period as well

39. Do you have any scars?2 on my face

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?Umm, not in the super romantic sense with surpise gifts and shit. More like people have had crushes and told me months/years later, doesn’t end well usually

41. Are you a good liar?Yes

42. Are you a good judge of character?I’d like to think I am, but probably not. Sometimes tho

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?Poorly

44. Do you have a strong accent?North-west doesn’t have any particularly strong accent. That being said, some people at uni can tell I’m not from the south

45. What is your favorite accent?Italian probs. Although for comedy, it’s gotta be Somerset (think Hot Fuzz)

46. What is your personality type?Quiet probably, I’m not really sure

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?I own some Dr Martens boots, that or a shirt I got in a sale that turned out to be heckin expensive

48. Can you curl your tongue?Ye

49. Are you an innie or an outie?Innie

50. Left or right handed?Right

51. Are you scared of spiders?Definitely house spiders

52. Favorite food?Burgers or chocolate.Although red peppers.

53. Favorite foreign food?I really like Indian curry, not spicy tho. Although there’s nothing more British than going for an Indian, unless it’s a Chinese.

54. Are you a clean or messy person?Kitchen is always clean, bedroom is always messy.

55. Most used phrase?Soft boy, Ayy lmao, That’s gay, it’s chill, It’s a banger. I have a lot of stock phrases I just kinda say without thinking, I don’t remember all of them

56. Most used word?Probably soft, or dickhead

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?if I’m late and I don’t have to look nice, I can be ready in 10-20. However for most things I’m late because I take too damn long59.  Do you have much of an ego?Not really, but it’s easily bruised

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?Bite

60. Do you talk to yourself?Sometimes

61. Do you sing to yourself?Yes, a lot

62. Are you a good singer?Average

63. Biggest Fear?Forgetting things, memories, smells, how something felt. That and things like aneurysms and strokes, I’m really afraid of them.

64. Are you a gossip?Definitely. If it’s not v important or a secret I’m gonna be all over it

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?Little Miss Sunshine

66. Do you like long or short hair?All hair is good hair

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?Nope

68. Favorite school subject?Sociology, Philosophy, Art

69. Extrovert or Introvert?A shy and anxious extrovert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?Nah

71. What makes you nervous?People with any authority to judge, people judging, being alone, loud people and loud noises. Laddish people

72. Are you scared of the dark?Nah

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?Depends on the mistake, but usually

74. Are you ticklish?Very

75. Have you ever started a rumor?Kinda, yeah. In high school. My friend put his newts in the bathtub while he was cleaning their tank. We were all having a laugh in maths about it and I made a joke about him bathing with his newts and then it became A Thingl. It wasn’t super bad, mostly funny.

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?Yeah

77. Have you ever drank underage?Ye

78. Have you ever done drugs?Ye

79. Who was your first real crush?One of my online friends from back in my Deviantart days

80. How many piercings do you have?None,

81. Can you roll your Rs?Not really, with great effort

82. How fast can you type?Very fast on my phone, average on my laptop

83. How fast can you run?Not sure, I don’t do a lot of running anymore, probably not v fast. Used to be p fast tho

84. What color is your hair?Currently brown

85. What color is your eyes?Hazel

86. What are you allergic to?Nothing

87. Do you keep a journal?Nah

88. What do your parents do?My dad is a welder fabricator, my mum is currently unemployed

89. Do you like your age?Not really? I don’t feel 20 but it makes me anxious, I wanna be a teenager again

90. What makes you angry?injustice, being tricked, when people make me feel stupid

91. Do you like your own name?Ye

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?Nah man

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?Gender or sex isn’t important

94. What are you strengths?I’m a good listener, and I always try and be as kind as thoughtful as I can be. Although sometimes salty, I am usually p good at moving past things and forgiving people, although sometimes a weakness.

95. What are your weaknesses?Anxious, sometimes way too defensive. Because I hate being tricked I have a very bad reaction to pranks. I’m also really forgetful and have poor motivation.

96. How did you get your name?My Grandma is Irish and there’s a river Shannon, also my older bro is called Shaun. Shaun and Shannon is a good name combo.

97. Were your ancestors royalty?Don’t know, don’t think so

98. Do you have any scars?question 39

99. Color of your bedspread?Green and White

100. Color of your room?Room at home is red, room here is white and pale blue.

[aalexchuu-blog]

Chapter 3: Maybe it isn't that bad in here?

Today is finally the day when the classes begin. I couldn't wait. I had Defense Against Dark Arts with da... I mean with Professor Snape and Potions with Professor Slughorn. My favorite subjects. I had my books and other equipment ready and headed towards my first class. The class room was dark, very dark only a little light was coming off candles near Professor's desk. My father always liked creating scary atmosphere. I sat in a middle row between a girl from Slytherin named Alyssa and a boy from Hufflepuff named Aaron but his friends call him 'spike'. I think it's because of his little mohawk. Classroom was full, I looked around a little I always wondered what kind of a teacher my father was. I wonder if-

*SLAM*  

- Class... Quiet, please.

*Class room goes completely silent.*

- Take notes off the board, today I will teach you about gnomes, where to find them, what are their perks and how to get rid of them.

Damn he was scary. I followed his instructions just like the rest and copied the board. Topic wasn't too bad but I think after the war, it might be a bit too easy and somehow not really that scary when you compare it to the death eaters, Voldermort and other monsters. After two hours the class was over.

- For tomorrow I want one page about gnomes. I want to see what you learnt today. Now, you may leave.

*Severus gives Alex a reassuring smile.*

I quickly gathered my stuff and followed the rest of the class as I wasn't sure where the potion class was being held in. I eventually got to the class and grabbed the first empty stool. Not long after Professor Slughorn entered the room.

- Hello class. I'm Professor Slughorn and will be teaching you all about potions. I can see you're all excited.

*Awkward silence.*

I think I was the only one who was excited, it was my best subjects after-all.  

- I want to see your strengths in this subject so for today you will be working individually but the next time I see you, you will all be paired up. Alright, who can tell me what is the name of this potion?

*With one swing of a wand Slughorn unveils half- filled cauldron. Students not sure what to say all turn to look at Hermione Granger who also didn't know what this potion was for.*

- Sleekeazy's Hair Potion, sir.

*Everyone turns to look at Alex in shock.*

- Oh, yes! Perfect. What is your name, may I ask?

- Alex Shier, sir.

- Now Alex, the name of this potion is correct but can you tell me what it is used for?

- Of course, it's basically used for beauty treatment. It will smooth any type of hair within seconds. This potion was created byt Fleamont Potter.

- Good, good. Very good!

*Slughorn claps his hands in excitement.*

- 15 points for Slytherin!

*One student pats Alex on the back, gesture of happiness.*

- Now class. Please take what you need from the shelves and start brewing.

*Students scatter around the room to grab equipment and ingredients.*

- Oh and the recipe can be found on page 116! Whoever brews the perfect mixture or will be the closest one to perfection will gain 30 points for their house! Begin!

*CLINK. CLANK. TSSSK.*

Alright, let's do this. Two drops of this, five spoons of that, pinch of grey sand and dragon's hair.  Oh! I almost forgot the special ingredient. Now it just needs to brew for a little while. I looked around to see efforts of other students but no one came even close to what I or Professor has not even Hermione Granger who is suppose to be the smartest witch of our generation. She actually looked very frustrated. Her brew smells like orange juice when it's supposed to smell like lavender. She probably added 5 1/2 spoons of dragonfly liquor. I could fix it but... I didn't want to attract too much attention.

*Slughorn can be heard in the distance, commenting on other students work.*

Mine is almost finished. I actually might grab some of that potion for my hair, it always gets frizzy in the mornings. Oh, it's finished.

- Professor Slughorn?

- Yes? Who said that?

- Me, sir. Alex Shier?

- What can I do for yo- Oh! would you look at that, it's perfect... it's absolutely perfect! Its proportions, ingredients and perfect temperature. I think we have a winner! You have a talent, pure talent which kind of reminds me of when Professor Snape was a student in here. He also has a gift!

*I swallowed... hard.*

- Thank, thank you sir.

- 30 points for Slytherin!

*Silent 'yees' can be heard in the background, some Slytherin students showing their appreciation of gained points.*

- Sir! Do you mind if I grab some of this potion?

- Of course, knock yourself out. There are empty vials at the back.

*Slughorn all happy from seeing Alex's work returns to grading the rest.*

I got off the stool to see a lot of hateful glares from Pansy, her friend Laurie, some Hufflepuffs and strangely Hermione. I acted like I didn't notice them, grabbed 2 vials, poured some potion and threw them safely in my bag.

- For our next class, can you please read a little about every ingredient that is in this recipe. I will be asking questions. Class dismissed.

*Students moving around, leaving the class room while Alex is having trouble with zipping her bag.*

Finally, I thought that I'd never close it. I was about to leave the room when Professor called out my name.

- Alex? Could I speak with you for a second?

- Yes, of course. Did I do something wrong?

- No, not at all. I just wanted to compliment you on the work that you did today, not many students are able to brew this potion especially on their first day. Magnificent. May I ask, who thought you about it?

- Oh... It was my father. He loves potions.

*Slughorn goes completely silent and stares at Alex's necklace.*

- It's a beautiful necklace...

- Wha-

- Your necklace, lily is it?

- Yes...

* Alex is shocked from the sudden change of topic.*

- I used to have a student here long time ago, she had a good heart. One day I found a half-filled bowl of water on my desk. There was lily, floating inside. It suddenly started to sink and when it hit the bottom of the bowl it turned into a little goldfish. It was a beautiful and pure magic.

*Slughorn stops for a minute, Alex not sure what to do looks around nervously.*

- Her name was Lily, the student that gave me the goldfish. In return I gave her this necklace.

*Slughorn points at Alex's necklace.*

- But... it was my mothers. My father said that it belonged to her, you must be talking about a wrong necklace. There could be hundreds of them in the world.

I grabbed my stuff and quickly ran out of the room.

*Alex slams the door and leaves.*

- I must be... *Murmurs Slughorn.*

He doesn't know what he's talking about. My mother, he couldn't know her. My father said she died in young age. That she only attended Hogwarts for 2 years. I believe my father. How could he say that to me. He's old... he probably gets confused a lot. That must be it.

*Alex calms down and goes to the dining hall for dinner.*

I decided to go with the roast beef for dinner tonight, it looked delicious. I started with the beef, and then made my way to the vegetables.

- I heard you're quite smart!

* A strange student unexpectedly sits in front of Alex making her jump.*

- Sorry, I didn't mean to frighten you. So tell me, is it true?

- Is what true?

*Alex still shocked.*

- That you scored us 45 points in one day, smarty pants.

- Oh... that... yes.

*Alex puts down her cutlery and wipes her mouth.*

- Nice, thanks to you Slytherin is leading the race.

- What race?

- You don't know? Each year all houses compete with each other to win a house cup. Slytherin hasn't won in years. Maybe thanks to you this year will be different.

*Stranger grabs one of the chicken wings and bites into it, grinning.*

- I'm Eli. I'm attending Hogwarts for 3 years now, well 2 if you exclude last year. I'm also a seeker in our team!

- Nice to meet you Eli, I'm Alex. I started this year.

*Eli wipes his hands and proceeds to shake Alex's hand.*

- Lovely to meet you too. *he smiles*

- So have you met any cool people yet?

- No... not really. Most people in here suck, they're all mean.

- You. are. breaking. my. heart. girl.

*Eli pretends like he's about to cry.*

- I guess there might be an exception.

*Alex smiles at Eli and his dramatic act.*

- Thank you!

- I gotta go, but if you ever need a friend to talk to. I'll be there. I know how hard it is to fit in.

- Thank you, it means a lot.

*Both smile at each other, Eli begins to leave but stops halfway and says something.*

- And Alex, generally every school suck and most of the people in it but, try to find people who don't there is a few. Trust me.

*Eli smiles and leaves.*

Eli was right, and he was one of those people who didn't suck. He was nice to me, and from what I've noticed he isn't mean to anyone and I'm pretty sure that he is friends with everyone even Gryffindor. He doesn't really fit into Slytherin, he's more of a Hufflepuff type. He was tall with mid- long brown hair, he was sporty and had green eyes. He seemed cheerful and was friendly where most of Slytherins are cold and mean. Maybe I could be friends with him? After-all he made an offer... didn't he?

The rest of the day went pretty fast. I finished my homework and also used some of the sleek potion on my hair, it was all over the place. I thought a little about what Professor Slughorn said maybe the girl that he talked about was my mother? I wonder if there is a yearbook in the library that I could look at, maybe I would recognize her somehow? I'll look for it tomorrow, the library is closed now so no point in going. Instead, I went for a refreshing bath, at this time no one was really around students either were in beds or sneaking off with their girlfriends or boyfriends for some alone time. It was a plus as the bathrooms were completely empty. I turned all of the taps on, it was amazing. So many different colors of water and soaks started to fill the bath. It was the best bath I ever had. I dried my hair and dressed myself in a pajama with house crest on it. I went back to my room. I still wasn't tired so I decided to read a little. I had my first muggle book that I have ever read with me, it was called 'Winnie the Pooh'. It was a kid's book but I didn't mind, even if it was a muggle story it was still magical, at least to me. I sat at the windowsill and found the page where I left the other day:

                                                                    'How sweet to be a Cloud

                                                                         Floating in the Blue!

                                                                           Every little cloud

                                                                         Always sings aloud.

                                                                                'How swe...'

*Alex reads the book for a while but eventually falls asleep on her windowsill.*

[suggers-got-dingled]

I saw you & your friends defending Jack and WOW it doesn't matter that it was 5 years ago, he should've known better and a 15 year old knows right from wrong, he should be held accountable for racism and homophobia. I've seen so many white people defending him like they have the right to forgive him when they're not the ones offended by what he said. I was a fan of his and knowing he said slurs about people with my colour skin breaks my heart, white girls forgiving him doesn't help anything.

I literally have no idea why you’re bringing this to my tumblr account which is specifically a fan account, anon. You could have confronted me on Twitter and I would have happily had a reasonable conversation with you!

I don’t want to bring the drama to my dash but I have no choice to have it out with you here so let me try and clear the air (under a cut) as best as I possibly can…  

first things first: in no way did I ever defend him specifically or make out as though his comments were acceptable in any way???

my exact tweet was ‘What is it with the calling out of problematic tweets from the past lately?! I’d hate to think someone recalled what I said when I was a naive teen with no diplomatic influence because now as a better, mature, more educated person I know I was in the wrong!’

which means I’ve been there, I’ve been an ill-informed teenage moron with a tendency to use offensive slurs because I didn’t have the leverage nor the maturity like I do today as a grown adult with respect and morals

it was normalised in my school and society in general, heck even in my family! but now there’s been a huge increase in social awareness around these slurs, offensive language and bigotry, we’re openly speaking out about these issues and that’s important

a brilliant tweet I quoted articulates it a lot better than I can: “You can’t compare tweets from 16 year olds from 5 years ago to today. Although it’s still unacceptable, internet culture and society in general has changed so much with regards to political correctness and offensive slurs.” 

15 year olds NOW would 100% know not to converse with this type of language because it’s publicly acknowledged to be deplorable, but trust me we’ve come such a long way in 5/6 years compared to how it used to be!

it’s all part of growing and evolving as a person, admitting your errors, accepting you were in the wrong but changing the way you thought and expressed yourself, taking that distasteful behaviour, apologising for it, and using it as an example of why you are continuing to try and be better

he absolutely should be held accountable for gross things he’s said but in these circumstances, as a way to use that against him to kick him off a TV show??? I’m just not sure I entirely agree that’s fair dismissal 

because honestly if my fucking idiotic views and opinions and what I said when I was 15/16 on social media when it was ~cool~ to use indirect discriminatory vocabulary without ever realising the damage it can have played a part in hindering the direction I take today as a 24 year old I would be absolutely in the shit 

and I aren’t saying he shouldn’t be called out for being derogatory and that he shouldn’t be made to address his tweets (from what I’ve read he already has) I’m saying I don’t think there’s one of us in this world who hasn’t made a mistake and learnt from it

especially when there’s contestants still in the show who also have tweets of the same nature, and when there’s people (can you call them human?! probably not) like Katie Hopkins and Piers Morgan spouting bile online and still making it to the top 

I don’t know what Jack’s like, I wasn’t a fan of him, I haven’t been a victim of any of the targeted slander directed to those susceptible to oppression, I don’t have any right to say how someone may feel and I cannot be held to decide if him candidly using racist and homophobic words can be forgiven

but what I do know is that me and many others who were in the same boat back then currently try their damn hardest to make the world a more honourable and equal place now

what I do know is that I feel the anger and the upset some awful people in the public eye can cause, I empathise, I protest, and I speak out about it 

what I do know is every single day I’m informing myself and reflecting my beliefs and my attitude on to others and gaining understanding from the people I surround myself with 

(you literally wouldn’t even want to know how many arguments I’ve caused by standing up to disgusting remarks made by my often disgusting family, don’t ever think I’m that type of person because god I will oppose with all my might until they step out of 1940 and wake up to 2017)

(and remember that time when me and the girls had beef with Danny and got so much abuse directed to us by other fans because we really didn’t agree with his borderline biphobic comments and that tweet about Trump being elected) 

look, I genuinely apologise if it offended you and I’m truly sorry if you’ve been affected by what happened tonight but please also take a closer look at what I was trying to make a point of

your prejudice is the perfect instance as to why those inconsiderate, horrible tweets and Facebook statuses we all used to write?? absolutely do not exist anymore. I’m for and never against, and I’ll continue to work on improving myself to amplify this statement!

you sending me this message has already made me reconsider what I said and I hope we can reconcile without any resentment whoever you are 😊