#like appreciation for flowers or cooking or performance or video games or music genres

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this is so stupid but i always have fun imagining the milgram characters watching their own/others mvs and seeing their reactions, especially for MeMe

That’s not stupid at all, thank you so much for the ask!! It’s sooo interesting to think about! I planned on just posting this drabble, but the more I thought about it, the more I started jotting down headcanons for everyone 👀 Of course there’s the initial disbelief and shock that Milgram can really do what it claims, but once they accept that, they’d have a lot of interesting reactions…

Es gets to watch the video first, then the prisoners are free to watch their own in the privacy of the courtroom/extraction room/wherever. Other prisoners can watch them only with explicit permission from the video’s singer. No one is allowed to watch Undercover except for Es. At first they spend hours looking at those final frames of themself flinching from the camera, hoping to jog any sort of memories, but eventually they give up on it. While actually watching it, they don’t mind the murder silhouettes. While sleeping, however, it has triggered more than one nightmare.

Haruka: He thinks Weakness is very pretty – he’s amazed seeing himself on the screen and hearing his voice, knowing he’s not that good of a singer. Even before his innocent verdict, it gives him a huge surge of confidence. Once he gets to know the others better, he gives them mv permissions, then stares intently at their faces to see their reactions as they watch it. AKAA scares him a bit, seeing his own intense emotions on screen, and he only gives Muu permission to see it. When he’s alone, Haruka pauses the shots of his mother, just to stare for a while.

Yuno: Laughs at the symbolism her mind used in Umbilical. She’s never shied away from sexual words/thoughts, so it's funny the video was as tame as it was. She thinks the song is fun, and isn’t afraid to show the others and sing snippets of it around the prison. Some days it’s too emotional for her to get into it, but most of the time she tries to display a confident attitude about it. After Tear Drop, she’s satisfied with her anger and more overtly sexual images. If anything, she feels too exposed by the shots of herself looking more vulnerable/sad. 

Fuuta: He experiences a solid mix of embarrassment at the gaming theme in Bring it On and feeling a surge of pride that he looks badass in the knight’s armor. He’s worried the warden won’t take him seriously with the video game obsession, but he absolutely loves the song and thinks it portrays his toughness and ideals well. He’s less thrilled with Backdraft, everything about it unsettles and embarasses him. He’s thrown by the shot of crossing out his own silhouette – he’d had self-harming thoughts, but wasn’t quite ready to confront them so blatantly yet. Like Haruka, he can be caught pausing the arcade shot just for a moment before turning the whole thing off and storming away.

Muu: She has mixed emotions towards After Pain. She hates seeing herself look so weak and pathetic, but it gives her a lot of hope that her story will be understood. She misses her friends, and seeing them again is bittersweet. She closes her eyes at the moment of the stabbing – she’s only gotten the courage to watch it through her fingers once. She watches INMF once, then refuses to look at it again from shame/horror. Despite Haruka’s begging, she doesn’t let him watch it, either. 

Shidou: He asks Es what they saw in Throw Down. Upon finding out his family wasn’t in it, he chooses not to watch it. He believes he already knows all about his emotions and crime, so there’s no need to go through that pain again. He’s tempted to watch it when he’s confused about Es’ verdict, but still holds off. He does watch Triage when informed his family is in it. He spends hours in front of the screen by himself. Only after seeing that one does he watch Throw Down, though he’s still left confused about Es’ decisions.

Mahiru: Absolutely loves TIHTBILWY. She thinks it perfectly describes her situation, and that the song is very cute. She lets others watch it, and unlike Yuno, feels like singing it 24/7. It reminds her of her bf, and she thinks that’s very romantic. Similar to Shidou, she spends a lot of time watching I Love You just to look at her boyfriend. She shows it to everyone, just to show him off and talk about him, even if she does skip over the beginning and end each time.

Kazui: He is very similar to Shidou; he refuses to watch his videos until T2, assuming it would be too painful to watch something he already knows and wishes to avoid. Unlike Shidou, seeing Hinako is far too painful, and he regrets watching it and seeing her so happy on their wedding day. Though maybe he’s still waiting, and hasn’t seen any of the videos yet…

Amane: Magic makes her worry more than anything. She fears she’s poisoned by unnecessary vainness since so much of her video involves cute things, colors, outfits, animals, and is set up like a tv show. She’s also worried that Es and the others will really see her as a child because of how cute the whole thing is. She prevents herself from watching it too many times, but buried under all her fears, it gives her a surge of pride seeing herself so talented and pretty and the star of the show. Purge March only reaffirms her confidence in her crime – the video brings up some awful memories, but it shows her as a leader, a warrior, a hero! It brings her comfort and confidence more than anything.

Mikoto/John: The videos are distressing to both of them, and they spend all their time studying the others’ screentime. Mikoto watches in horror as John does things that line up with his spotty memories, and John panics seeing that his actions distress Mikoto more than they’ve reassured/saved him. John does end up watching his own scenes a few times – it feels incredibly good to appear in a way that Mikoto may finally notice him. He feels seen. Now, logically I think that MeMe would be the final tipping point in which Mikoto finally accepts the situation and his DID, but if I must stick to his canon denial, then I’d say he goes on a whole rant about movie magic andt the crazy things you can do with editing nowadays. He doesn’t have a good explanation on how Milgram found his home and knew so much about him, but he explains everything away as cgi or camera effects. Double manages to sway him a bit more, as he hears John speak so plainly to him. Just as the audience had some debate on who was apologizing at the end of Double, Mikoto and John wonder who is apologizing to whom. Though they both come to the conclusion it’s their own apology, they decide that if it was the others’, they’d accept it and forgive them.

Kotoko: She’s very pleased with Harrow, and is unashamed to show it to the others. Though she’d been able to watch a few of the previous prisoners’ videos, it still shakes her a bit when she realizes that Milgram really does have the tech to look deep inside her. She watches it just a few times – not obsessing over it, but not afraid either. Deep Cover, however, is a once-and-done sort of deal. She claims she’s not letting the others watch it because “they couldn’t handle such harsh but true criticisms about themselves,” but she doesn’t end up watching it anymore herself, either.

[cosmichoneyedblossoms]

Atiny Project:Mission 3

Since my lovely anon asked me to do all of them, that’s what I’m going to do. All of them💛

1. Which three members of Ateez it would you get on well with the most, why?

Mingi, he’s pretty much a soulmate to me. We’re so much alike it’s mind baffling. He’s such a high energy person and when I’m with people like that it gets me out of my shell or out from behind the walls I built to keep peop at bay.

Hongjoong, artsy fartsy people are my kind of people. Seeing as I’m knee deep in the arts, I have a great appreciation for him. There’s just something about getting messy in an art project that pulls people together.

Seonghwa, I’m always the momma of the group, so tag teaming with Seonghwa would be a dream. He’s really chill and calm and I love that about him, his not all high energy 24/7, he has a calming point. Not to mention we could harmonize for days.

2. If you were to take your bias(es) somewhere in your hometown/the place you live, where would you go?

Taking Mingi on a tour of my hometown? Let’s begin! Heidelberg Castle, Hauptstrasse and the Altstadt, Heidelberg Zoo, the Botanical Gardens, and the Palatinate Museum!

3. What genre of movie would you watch with each member?

Hongjoong: Adventure

Seonghwa: Romance

Yunho: Comedy

Yeosang: Thrillers

San: Horror

Mingi: Horror (even though he’s a wussy, I wanna feel him cling to me)

Wooyoung: RomCom

Jongho: Action

4. Which Ateez member do you personally relate to?

San, we’re both really upbeat people and we’re very passionate people.

5. What is your favorite live stage from Ateez?

All of them. Like for real. They never seem to fail when it comes to live performances.

6. Do you have any similarities you share with any member?

Mingi — we are one in the same. Sleepy babies who want to eat and lay in bed and watch TV.

7. Which member would you switch bodies with for a day?

Seonghwa, I wonder how it would feel to have all the eyes on me for once.

8. Which member makes you laugh the most?

Yunho, the jokester 💛

9. Which member would you trust to dye your hair?

Hongjoong, I feel like that boy would be a perfectionist.

10. What fruit do you associate the members with?

Hongjoong: Strawberries

Seonghwa: Star Fruit

Yunho: Papaya

Yeosang: Blackberries

San: Watermelon

Mingi: Cantaloupe

Wooyoung: Raspberries

Jongho: Fuckin Apples

11. Is there a (non Ateez) song that makes you think of a member? {YAY MORE MUSIC SUGGESTIONS}

Hongjoong: The Only Exception— Paramore

Seonghwa: A Time if Wonder — Alexis Ffrench

Yunho: Sweet Soul — Alayna

Yeosang: I’ll Be Fine Somehow — Benjamin Ingrosso (ft. Julie Bergan)

San: Heaven — Julia Michaels

Mingi: Floating — Alina Baraz (ft. Khalid)

Wooyoung: Attn — NBDY (it’s pretty much a R&B remix, but it’s fabulous)

Jongho: Love Someone — Lukas Graham

12. Is there a hairstyle you really want to see on your bias?

Honestly? I like his hair the way it is now. The blue fake braids when they debuted were not my favorite, but I loved the teal tinted locks. His hair for Zero to One was cute, and the hair now is just adorable.

13. Which member would you choose to accompany you on a long car ride?

San or Wooyoung, I feel like they’d be the most talkative members.

14. What food would you love to cook for a member?

I’m pretty bomb with pastas and desserts, so probably some homemade Fettuccine Alfredo and a Lava Cake for dessert.

15. Which member would you choose to put an outfit together for you?

Seonghwa, that handsome fashionista.

16. Rank your bias’s looks throughout the Ateez Eras.

He’s handsome, period. One to All: 5000/10, Zero to One: 4000/10, and All to Zero: 3000/10

17. Who do you think has the best eyebrows in Ateez?

All of them have some bomb ass brows, but like San and Mingi are tied.

18. What job do you think would suit each member if they weren’t idols?

Hongjoong: Music Producer

Seonghwa: CEO of a Cleaning Business

Yunho: Stand Up Comedian

Yeosang: Video Game Graphics Designer

San: Flower Store Owner, a florist, a landscaper.

Mingi: Kindergarten Teacher... c’mon any idol with kids is cute.

Wooyoung: Perfumer

Jongho: (with that adorable face?) an Actor