#like anya has so much pent up trauma that she tries too hard to hide and push down that it just makes her worse

[calico-strawberry]

Ya know, thinking about Rift Anya again, and specifically the last bit, where Anya's probably most buried most deep down thought is simply not wanting to exist anymore. How awful would that be to learn for Erin?

Erin was also on that line of thinking not too long before meeting Aelita, Anya and the rest of the group. So I guess learning that someone she trusts and cares about so much has those feelings buried deep down despite all of the people Anya still has that cares about her so much would be pretty awful. Erin caring about her that much would just make the idea that Anya doesn't want to be alive is just, an awful feeling, even if it's a sentiment Anya has tried so hard to push down. Erin would also be pretty pissed too ngl and would definitely be moving to knock some sense into her for being so stupid.