#like a permenant one
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Whump that is about change. Whump that is about acceptance. Whump that is about adapting to loss. Whump where there is no rehabilitation, no getting back whatās gone. Sometimes things happen and there is no going back, there is no getting better. Sometimes the person that comes out the other side is different and they will never be the same again. Sometimes you need to grapple with the reality that most people donāt bounce back from traumatic brain injuries, from severe burns, from lost limbs and are their old selves ever again.
Whump that is about change, with no going back, and how the world wonāt end because of it.
#whump#whump prompt#angst#disability#beans speaks#sorry for disability posting on whump#seen a few (very good!) prompts lately but they put such focus onā¦idk the āreturn to normalā#they like the angsty trauma but they donāt like the permenant disabiitiy or impairment.#it kind goes hand in hand w ye old āprosthetics donāt magically make you not disabledā truth#idk. generally with brain damage you can only rehabilitate so much. the friends and family arenāt gonna wake up one day and the mc is Norma#they have to accept and learn the same way the mc has to accept and learn to live with their new limitations or perspective.#yeah permanent disability is tough to write about thatās why I like it in my whump. itās cathartic for me as someone whoās disabled#you can have your fun fantasy everything got all better eventually stories those are fun sometimes too#but. just donāt forget that most people irl donāt get those miracles.
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this is the entirety of the wintersberg community when someone brings up the times karl has harmed ethan in canon
(its me, im the wintersberg community)
#ethan winters#karl heisenberg#wintersberg#OK BUTā¦#acknowleging it is even funnier#because if i were ethan every time karl wpuld get into a argument id lift my shirt#what were u saying?#huh? huh?#i cant hear u over the PERMENANT SCAR U GAVE ME#thats what i thought#now go do the dishes#i love them#im sorry#im gonna make that a comic#karl is a little messed up and i like it#this blonde guy is soooo cute im going to put him in my werewolf pit :3#hes so deranged#idk if theres fanfics like this out there but there should be one where ethan scolds him like a bad dog for all the things he does#he needs to apologize#(saying this even though i dont read fanfic)
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"We were two young men at the start of a great career. Two young men devoted to an illusion. Two young men who never intended to hurt anyone."
Which knot did you tie, Borden?
#the prestige#the prestige 2006#alfred borden#robert angier#not enough content about how insane these two men were to each other#ah yes prestige. my favorite tragedy about two men ripping themselves apart to destroy each other.#christian bale#hugh jackman#christopher nolan#please i can't be the only one obsessed with this movie#man's grasp exceeds his nerve#like this story honestly couldn't write itself#borden missing two fingers and angier with a permanent limp?#these two men hating each other so much it leaves permenant marks on each otherās bodies
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Is there a better way to prepare for June than with lesbian plants? I think not >:3
Plus it doubles as fun color practice!! Two for the price of one!
#gw2#guild wars 2#sylvari#gw2 caithe#caithe#my art#gw2 art#commander oc#zaitinne#look theyre so good and i love them a lot#they hold a permenant spot in my brain for just#THEY HAVE SUCH A FUN DYNAMIC TO ME#aurene gets her lesbian moms who are both have trust and abandonment issues#but theyre working on it#spoilers for the new story from here#when u go on a date w one of ur friends#arranged by gorrik#in my head#zaitinne had to pull taimi aside and ask like#āhe does know im married to caithe right? like someone told him??ā#she did take yao out for a platonic date tho#they just made the most sense#she wouldve probably spent the whole time kicking canach under the table#annoying little brother except hes technically older#but yao deserved a treat#and i hc that caithe doesnt like public gestures and certainly does not like the attention#that the commander gets in public spaces and that caithe herself gets from the whole aurene brand#so they prefer to keep their dates private
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the 'I knew him first' vs 'I knew him fully' & all the ensuing gratifications and absences that mark the Xianle trio's understanding of Xie Lian opposed to Hua Cheng's. THAT is devastation baby!!!
#i loved him despite vs i loved him because LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEE a devotion always at your back door waiting to be let in#opposed to the supposedly conditional devotion on your doorstep#one must shrink so the other can rise & neither can coexist because they exist in complete opposition#and this is SUCHHHHHHHHHHH a long way of me saying that hua cheng and feng xin will always be xie lian's#biggest supporters & the reason feng xin is included in that is because of how xia lian knows him & knows what devotion#is to him & how it is expressed & that age & affiliation are tags that pull you apart as much as they string you together#AND I LOVED YOU FOR WHAT YOU WERE FOR WHAT YOU ARE EVEN WHEN I COULDNT SEE IT BECAUSE I WAS BLIND BUT I WANT TO COME BACK BECAUSE#I NEVER TRULY STOPPED BELIEVING AND LOVING YOU EVEN IF I DID IT WRONG#anywayYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY can u tell. can u tell how ucking. much the xianle trio's relationship to each other means to me#esp in light of hua cheng's unwavering devotion when its like. as much as we would like that to be a permenant reality---thats actually the#outlier behavior here lmaoooooooooo your love will forever be overshadowed because of a SUPERPOWER LOVE NO ONE KNEW COULD EXIST UNTIL IT DI#& also hes a devestation so like. watch out haha#tgcf#heaven official's blessing
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I have little headcanon for FE: Engage,
Do you ever wonder if unit equip emblem ring so long that they start to transform into those emblem a little bit even without engaging? Not in the bad way but because their bonds are really high that they are like becoming one.
I think it would be cool if the Max Lv. Of engage let us see that.
But the change isn't permenent just when they equip the ring / bracelets long enough. ( and if they unequip it, the effect will be gone)
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I give Diamant the Tiki's emblem and imagine that he starts to have dragon's feature like having a tail even he wasn't engaging and he is fine with it ( Amber is amused by this and Jade said he looks cute with tail and want to write about it) , also he has the dragon eyes , fangs and claws when angry.
Alfred's hair having blue strip when equip with Sigurd's ring. Celine's hair is having red / orange strip when equip with Celica's ring.
Since Alcryst has Roy's ring, He also has red strip on his hair and think it's cool cause he is match with Alear's.
#fire emblem engage#fe engage au#yes I like to turn my fav male character into dragon#well one of diamant's crit āNow I'm angryā is sounded like he is transforming into something and really fit with Tiki#Alfred and Celine are bound to their first rings that they have got in the game#alfred is so good with Sigurd's ring while his sister is good with Celica's ring.l#but their transformation isn't permenent just when they're equip the ring for long time and have their Lv. at max.#fire emblem manakete au#is this count as manakete au?#My diamant has Tiki just I want him to be a dragon lol
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yap session up ahead (its about the gachas)
i have to save for the haruka 4* in april and then there are TWO haruka four*s in may with one day trip and the rerun of tied by painful hope
tied by painful hope is limited but the other two are event gachas so if i pull other times they wont show up asdjghfahsd so now i have to grind for the haruka cardsa djfhajsdhga I REALLY REALLY WANT THE BEYOND THE ADVANCING WHEELS ONE BECAUSE SHE LOOKS SO PRETTY IN IT??
(page break cuz there is a LOT MORE)
LIKE HELLO???? i also kinda want the bon voyage one
THESE HAS COSTUMES TOO ARE YOU KDDING ME OH MY IM GOING TO EXPLODE
I ALSO REALLY REALLY WANT TIED BY PAINFUL HOPE BECAUSE I REALLY REALLY WANT THE SHORT HAIRED HARUKA CARD???
what i think ill do is pull for the one on april til i get the card then grind for the two in may
based on how much i have by the time the gacha comes out ill pull a specific amount and then stop then grind more and towards the end of the bon voyage event ill analyze how much i have and how much i should pull
and then ill spend the rest on the tied by painful hopes card
i also kind of want to pull for the mafuyu kitty event cuz its ALSO limited but i may just wait for next year to pull if i get all the haruka cards
there is ALSO an evillious chronicles rerun in may so hopefully that doesnt tempt me to make a detour
I ALSO MIGHT PULL FOR THE HONAKANA WEDDING EVENT BECAUSE THOSE CARDS ARE SO PRETTY?? HELLO??
i might get tempted to pull for the crying mafuyu card in july
and then ill grind for all three haruka bday cards in october because you know what happened LAST OCTOBER??? 70+ PULLS AND NOTHING I WILL NOT LOSE THIS TIME. I REFUSE. I ABSOLUTELY REFUSE TO LOSE TO THE HARUKA KIRITANI BIRTHDAY CARD THIS YEAR
I WILL GET THE SHINY BIRTHDAY CARD
and then i might pull for darkness fiesta mafuyu on the rerun but thats aside the point
and then right after that they have the niigo world link gacha... AND THEN THE SANRIO CARDS??? AJHFDJASHFA THEY HAVE A RERUN FOR FLY TO THE FUTURE IN DECEMBER BUT I ALREADY HAVE THAT CARD!!!! IT ONLY TOOK LIKE FOURTY PULLS (which isnt that bad)
wait i think im missing cards
THERES THE SPORTS EVENT
ughh its in september so i wont have as much saved for the bday cards as i want BUT it IS permenant gacha so ill probably do controlled pulls
and then obviouslt theres brand new style with the new fits but thats just two stars
THERES *TWo* IN OCTOBBER ARE YOU KIDDING ME I CANT
and then theres valentines day card and the one from the minori event that just happened
hoping haruka comes home in the first few pulls so i can pull for other characters too
i honestly just really want the overly luxguriys night the IF card and the bday cards the most (AKA THE LIMITED ONES)
oh yea and the new years one (theres a rerun for it in jan) SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
btw im basing all of this off the japanese gacha schedule so if they change it when doingi things on en i will explode
honestly im hoping i dont get too tempted to pull for other cards from characters i really like but i only really like two characters to want to pull for (being haruka, duh, and mafuyu) hOWEVER i may also go for wondersho world links cuz MAN those are so cool
I LOVE PLAYING CARDS SYMBOLISM
OMG WAIT the card where she (hrk) broke the door handle is also a perment card so i dotn ahve to worry abt that TOO much WAIT AND SO AS WELL AS THE UPCOMING TWO CARDS?? WAIT WHY IS THE WIKI CONTRADICTING ITSELF?? anyways i NEED the birthday cards
#dailyhrkspeaks#haruka kiritani#pjsk#ignore how unorganized this is#i am NOT revising that#lmao i should change dailyhrkspeaks to dailyhrkYAPS#cuz MAN that is all yapping#i also randomly have colorfes hrk (not complaining)#cuz back when i didnt really play the game i think i just pulled randomly#and then now i just have colorfes#very happy abt that#whats the difference between a gacha type being event and permenant#im so confused#cuz thechnially arent all of them event gachas#ecvepy for like colorfes and stuff#man#im also gonna use the gacha tickets from permenant gachas to buy angel clover hrk and the smth biggest fans one#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#im doing ok#yeah totally#hahaha#look at that yapfest!#holy cow!#also i NEED parasol cider?? wait is it cider#im checking rq#IT IS!! OK#im so mad i dont have that 2*#parasol cider after show was the first after show ive ever watched#anways#toodles
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Ngl getting an extra 1,000 diamonds from UR suit completion/reflection awakening on the eve of a major hell is incredibly sexy
#it was all thanks to the Pavillion coupons from the redeem code#I was like eh might as well try a few extra pulls and after 30!!!!!! she was here!!!!#now I only have one piece of glittering date to pull and then I have the permenant Pavillion of fantasy cleared!!!
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Fuzzball dug a hole, so I'm taking that as a sign he's happy. Not that I care. š I made an indentation under the hide. Did he use it? Of course not. Ungrateful brat dug in front of the hide and filled in the indent. š Excuse me for trying to be nice.
Sprinkles has been on top of his hide for 4 days. For a while, he had one foot on the wall, and I wasn't sure if he was settling in or not. But he seems relaxed, no stress curl, and a few times I've caught him being pretty darn sploot-y. He still hates the substrate apparently... Or just really likes his perch.
I read him all of the well wishes. He was so appreciative, he was speechless. š„°
Think I'm gonna try to feed them in a day or three. š©āš³ Hope they like mealworms.
#tarantula#tarantulas#arachnophobia#sprinkles on his cupcake - the pun is complete#why do i talk about the curly hair like im his evil stepmother#idk it just feels right lol#why do i use he/him 99% of the time for both of them when most ppl use she/her#idk but maybe bc everyone wants a female and im gonna love them regardless so i dont have an expectation to project#idk if fuzzball is his permenant name but i cant keep calling him 'the other one'#also i know the pics thru the side suck i tried to color adjust and whatnot#even if he wont eat ill try to get some good pics while the lid is off#his abdomen is the same size as his carapace so if hes not hungry thats ok#but id love it if they both ate esp if i can get video
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making eyrie and zenos work post EW isnāt a thought I thought I was gonna have but here we are
#i dunno if itās canon or not im gonna forever fuck around and find out#but yeah. they both survive UT and come back#and eyrie is tired. just so so tired#they have no more left to give zenos the satisfaction he desires#itās like Zenos killed that part of them when they both killed each other#eyrie was content with their death in UTāfor them both to be laid to rest in that silent place#they had saved the world and that was enough. it was enough to have one last moment of clarity in the fight with Zenos#something for them. but then they donāt die and theyāre just exhausted#and zenos gosh like. he wasnāt allowed to die once and yet again he is denied death#and eyrie denies him the satisfaction he would want again#if itās even something to desire now that itās been unsuccessful once more#to have said all that he did and come out the other side still alive#there is something to connect with there between them through this wide rift#still itās eyrie telling him they wonāt fight him again#unless he can give them them both a permenant death this time then they will not indulge his desire#eyrie leaving it up to him. whether he leaves to seek out someone or something else#to keep him from the muck and tedium of life or will he come back#drawn back to their brightest light#eyrie would have him either way. to have him rip out their throat or be beside themāeither is preferrable compared to nothing#so Zenos is wandering the world in eyrieās canon#doing his own thing in the worldādeciding what he desires most#what lingers of the scions do try and keep tabs on him#and eyrie gets back occasional information of Zenosās whereabouts#itās funny because it would all happen before meeting zero sndndjd#and she is just never told about it. eyrie doesnāt bring it up and no one else does#zenos being alive and his whereabouts arent confirmed or denied by Sharlayan or the scions#at eyrieās behest. they threw some weight around so Zenos could go#oc: eyrie kisne
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For something that had such a fun first series, the mid-series episodes of Fall of the House of Sunshine were so aggresively. mediocre
#like shout out to that one guy and his gay dinosaur lover#but the rest of them were so mid I'm Sorry#never have i been so pleased to hear the opening music to a song about the off-brand superheros the Y-Team (TM) (c) (patented) (all rights#reserved)#does tumblr still do that thing where you need 5 tags before a given tag won't show up in search results#because i like organisation#but because the listenership of this podcast is i think 3 people and felt puppet#i dont want to be That Guy in the maintag yknow#anyway i dont Think they have any impact on the plot so i will learn from this experience#and stick to the main story#the way the narrator guy said 'faster dankent! kill! kill!' has taken up permenant residence in my brain#is this enough rambles am i safe#oh apparently I am not!
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I had a migraine so bad four months ago it rewired my brain and switched me from drinking coffee to tea.
Before it I was drinking like 8 cups of coffee a day and had the very occasional cup of tea (like once a week). One stray 'I want a cup of tea' thought during the migraine switched me to tea instantly from that point. I didn't drink a single cup of coffee for two and a half months (and I started again because of a sleepless night so more from necessity than desire) and even now I'm pretty 70/30 on drinking tea over coffee.
Describing migraine symptoms sounds made-up to anybody whose never had one. āOh itās a headache so evil that it makes me blind.ā Girl what are we talking about.
#one time i went completely aphasic for a few hours#not to mention my permenently fucked thermoregulation#my vertigo is also probably migraine related#so i can't use lifts or walk on mezzanines because of migraines#oh and that vestibular migraine i had where i was dizzy for days and couldnāt walk#migraines are fucking wild#and yet I've had them since birth so know no different#body doing something weird? probably migraine related#*completely aphasic as in couldnāt say anything. partial aphasia is a pretty common symptom of my migraines but the complete aphasia was new#occasionaly you get something new and then you are like 'oh...tick that off the bingo board'
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I've been in a long distance relationship exactly one time and it was so silly tbh bc like.. I was twelve, she was fifteen and we would send pictures of hedgehogs to eachother instead of flirting because our communication was just so good
#thats sarcasm. we were so bad at communication. i was twelve and dumb and confused#mole talks#i think about this sometimes. i don't know if fifteen and twelve is an okay age gap..? i mean#i dunno! three years isn't that bad actually but im about the age she was back then (im sixteen now so actually a bit older)#and i'd never wanna date somebody whos so young. i dunnooooo#she wasn't a bad person or anyhting but i feel bad for her. i was so stupid back then#i guess shes like ninteen right now? i wonder how shes doing i haven't talked to her in maybe four or three years#i hope she got a girlfriend that isn't an immature kid and i hope they communicate properly with eachother š#there was this one time i was hiding at school talking to her#and i was like crying because some Mean Person from school was yelling at me#but i got so sad at her because she didn;t comfort me and started talking about her debit card instead#because she was trying to buy discord nitro while we were talking for some reason#and then a few days later she broke up with me#at the time i was like WAAAAAAAA but now i think thats so funny. cuz like#1) why was i crying about school people to my fifteen year old gf. she does not gaf#2) why was she buying discord nitro thats such a waste of money#i don't understand why anybody would buy discord nitro it doesn't seem worth it at all#so much money for things that don't do anything. why don't you just use that money to buy garfield plushies instead?#discord nitro: temporary and soulless#garfield plush: permenant and full of soul
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the hold hamilton still has on social studies teachers
#i say this as if i am not currently listening to it while i write a paper#me when historical fiction isnāt accurate: [screaming crying throwing up]#i often have this conversation w myself bc like. yeah hamiltons a little rough but i genuinely think that falls on ron chernow more than lmm#like yeah in an ideal world you donāt consult just one source. but also like? idk. thatās a very Trained As A Historian way of thinking abt#things#but like idk accurate historical fiction is often more boring too#there are many things in history that are flooring with their drama. but those are the events not the people#idk i think maybe itās hard to translate the people for a non academic audience#i do still think it did somewhat permenant damage to how people see slavery & the founding fathers particularly in nys#but i seem to be relatively alone in that#i donāt know. usually my stance w historical fiction is that itās fine if it encourages people to actually investigate the history#but like w things that are such a tour de force obvi thatās not happening.#i dunno. i donāt know!#molly's musings
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because Iād only ever played inquisition before I never worried much about the canon timeline you create as the player bc well. I had no context except inq. now that Iām starting from the beginning and with veilguard coming up Iām thinking soooo hard about the implications of every decision I make lmfao
#I tgink world states are such a COOL feature for a game franchise#but oh god the permenance!!!!!!#Iām still slightly stressed over who I want my canon inquisitor to be#bc in my heart I feel like itās still my first ever one I played as#but Iām thinking maybe I should try something more different?? and someone whoās not a mage???#at this rate all my PCs are gonna be mages.#surely. thatās too much#inquisition FEELS to me so mage heavy though.#like given the state of things the inquisitor being a mage of sort of feels right#and Iām saying this having played my most recent run as an archer that Iām actually enjoying the mechanics of more than a mage in that game#(way easier to stay alive plus super mobile)#I feel like playing a mage immediately inq more stake in the story#but Iām enjoying playing a rogue so much that now Iām like hmmmmm#I tgink dragon age in general just has really interesting magic work building#so fun to interact with the world from the perspective of a magic user imo#itsepost#I made typos but Iām on mobile and will not be retyping tags
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I'm trying so hard to be chill but I want to be mean to this bitch so goddamn bad
- šø
#here i was thinking š¤ and i were just having real bad phantom pains but no#a stupid bitch with daddy issues unlike anything youve ever seen stabbed us in the leg like 20 times#im not even exaggerating#i fuckin counted the puncture wounds#one of these days youre gonna do permenant damage to that leg then what?
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