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Can I just say, I really appreciate how Critical Role plays the Devil trope straight. There's been this phenomena in a lot of modern media (I'm not going to mention specifics but I'm sure a few examples pop up in people's minds) where Hell and the Devil aren't scary or malevolent forces. Hell is portrayed as being basically the same as our world just "edgier", and the Devil is a pretty decent guy actually. Heaven are secretly the real bad guys!
But Critical Role doesn't do that. In Exandria, Asmodeus *feels* like the Devil. He's malevolent and manipulative and terrifyingly powerful and he hates you, personally. We never see that type of portrayal anymore! And it's amazing! And he still manages to be sympathetic and tragic without losing his edge!
And the "Good Gods" are portrayed as flawed without being secretly evil or something! Like, actual nuance? In my Heaven/Hell dichotomy? What!?
It's just such a breath of fresh air after so many "The Devil was right, actually" stories. So props to Matt and Brennan and the cast.
#bg3 does this too which i appreciate#on my “Make Hell Terrifying Again” agenda#I can only see the devil be portrayed as a poor little meow meow so many times before i lose my mind#i feel like that sort of portrayal does such a disservice to the actual mythology/religion behind demons/hell/the devil#its gotten tired. y'all#this post is inspired by me#opening up the lucifer tag and having to filter through a million posts about either tom ellis or some blonde circus twink#like PLEASE END MY SUFFERING#cr spoilers#critical role spoilers#exu calamity#cr downfall#critical role#cr meta#cr asmodeus#the lord of the hells#asmodeus cr#asmodeus the lord of the nine hells#nine hells#the devil
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On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.
Bonus:
#a homestuck walks into an antechamber and asks#hey is anybody going to make this dynamic wholly deterministic and thus dubiously consensual by its very nature#ANYWAY bigger ramble below. scroll down like usual#isat spoilers#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#THATS RIGHT WE'RE STILL SHIP TAGGING IT BABYYYY#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#lucabyteart#RAMBLE START: anyway i think loop is wrong here. they have it backwards. as-- in my opinion--#the main reason they could be called back into existence postcanon is because *their* wish for help is still not complete#they still need help. siffrin still needs help. neither of them will ever stop needing help.#they will thus uphold the wish until the end of siffrin's natural lifespan.#that said. what does it mean that loop can be so wholly forced to abide by siffrin's wants?#(assuming the dagger cutscene posession is them being forced to uphold the 'help siffrin' wish via harsh universe logic)#[as opposed to something capricious and cruel the change god did. which feels out of character for the change god to me?]#much like how the island wish and duplicate objects are neutered by simply sliding off people's brains...#is loop subtly ushered toward their wish? obviously it's not a full override (see: the bossfight). but is there any interference?#and if so. so what? does it matter? if they don't notice? is it even real if they don't notice?#and even if they do notice. the universe leads we follow. how much do either of them value their free will in a belief system like that?#the whole game is dedicated to siffrin habitually NOT excersizing his free will. doing things the same Every Time.#Loop ESPECIALLY does this. predetermined predetermined predetermined even in the FACE OF CHANGE. REFUSING. ANY CHOICE.#Maybe they'd even be comforted by having a universe-ordained purpose even if it is subservient. even if its to Him.#(though. i can't see siffrin enjoying the idea that someone is subservient TO them... then all their suffering is his fault...)#loop got into this mess via WANTING too much. no more free will. can't be trusted with it. take it away from them.#but yeah. gets my greasy detective pony hands all over this. and everyone please do remember i like to make characters Outright Wrong A Lot
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finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using
#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for?#open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer)#maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel#once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs#i respected their commitment to the theme#but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities#dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton#ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered#i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it#aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment#honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet#letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already.#really i've put off my responsibilities long enough#(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings)#(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time)#(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.)#(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)
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PENELOPE LOOKS SO GORGEOUS IN THIS OUTFIT LIKE SHE IS AN ACTUAL DISNEY PRINCESS IN HERE 😭😭😭😭 HER SMILE, THE COLOR ON HER, THE WAY HER EYES ARE SPARKLING
why did it just had to be debling she was talking to 😭😭😭😭
COLIN WHERE ARE YOU TAKE HER AWAY NOW
#sunnie thoughts#bridgerton#bridgerton tv#penelope featherington#COLIN BRIDGERTON COME GET YOUR WIFE#I CANT DEAL WITH PENELOPE LOOKING AT A MAN LIKE THIS#PLEASE END MY SUFFERING#polin#polin bridgerton
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Could you draw a tf2 character lineup?
The slowest drawer on this website reports on duty🫡

First time drawing the whole team together woo!
#i suffer from the chronic lack of time#i’ve done most of the drawing during my shift#which was hell#me all the time being like ‘please nobody come or want anything from me#I need to draw my silly old men#and scout 😒#and pyro i guess??#anyway end of story time#tf2#my art#tf2 fanart#tf2 engineer#tf2 pyro#tf2 scout#tf2 soldier#tf2 spy#tf2 medic#tf2 demoman#tf2 sniper#tf2 heavy
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shipping chart thoughts
(billford always happens and they always break up. ford was obsessed when bill was his muse, then bill is obsessed after they’re no longer together and he realizes what he lost) (this dynamic is just canon, really)
(fiddauthor is always present at some point but in one route they end up together after canon events, and in another route fidd moves on) (it’s possible that they had a thing in college but consider it “typical college experimentation” because it’s the 70s and denial is strong. they still go through canon events)
(fiddlestan only happens during the fiddlestan route. otherwise canon events stay the same and they barely actually interact with each other. in the fiddlestan route they work together in the 80s and grow old together)
(billstan isn’t really romantic but it is a one-sided obsession. bill just can’t stop obsessing over the stans… for very different reasons…) (dare i say an unrequited kismesis dynamic?)
(ford and stan are brothers. that’s it. leave them out of the shipping dynamics.)
(fiddlebill isn’t really included here but i feel like the only way this would happen is if bill was possessing ford and wanted to fuck with fidd by using his crush on ford against him) (this one’s basically only possible if it’s fiddauthor-adjacent)
#do u see the vision#i can’t choose between fiddauthor & fiddlestan so i just have 2 different versions in my head where they both get to be endgame#also i enjoy billford but specifically when they end up in a terrible divorce#bill redemption and billford getting back together is fun and all and i enjoy content about it but. to Me that isn’t how it goes lol#i want that triangle to suffer. amen#billstan and fiddlebill have no shot at getting together in my mind sorry#bill being miserable and hating stan so much he becomes obsessive & being jealous of fidd are funny to me though#anyway. to me both fiddauthor & fiddlestan get to end with them as happily gay old men#lowkey don’t remember if i’ve posted something like this before so if i did then pretend i didn’t#😇😇😇#gravity falls#billford#fiddauthor#ford²#fiddlesix#fiddlestan#billstan#??#fiddlebill#????#i guess?#sorry 😭 not really but i’m talking about those 2 so i’m tagging them#i’m not tagging the brothers though. stay away please#stanford pines#bill cipher#fiddleford mcgucket#stanley pines
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day ?????? of doing things nobody fucking asked for
this thing made me nearly start sobbing last night because every time i thought i'd found them all another one popped up. twitter followers watched me go insane in real time
so here. every bakura eye color change i could find. if theres another im going to be really upset about it but i will add it to the chart nonetheless.
edit: extended bakura eye color chart
second edit: bakura chart 3.0
third edit: bakura chart 5.0
#please god end my suffering#yugioh dm#yugioh#yami bakura#bakura#ryou bakura#they could make pride flags out of his fucking irises#stupid dumbass housefly says things#would tag as art but like. does it really. does it really count as art.
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conclave / i’m your man, mitski / strangers, ethel cain
#thinking a lot about aldo and how self hatred and feelings of inadequacy is one thing#especially when you’re used to it in your own mind almost#but to hear it from your closest *friend* that you are not worthy of the faith he had in you#my guy has suffered more than christ himself#aldo bellini#conclave#thomas lawrence#i almost want to write something about even w the forgiveness scene at the end aldo can’t run from this feeling#and quits the church#and thomas is stupidly naive about it which annoys Vincent#who is like please can you just get him back and he follows him and then they fuck about it#lawrellini#aldo x thomas
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a little morning pick-me-up
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A morning on the way to Baldur's Gate. The party booked themselves into an inn and enjoyed real beds, hot baths, and privacy for the first time since the Nautiloid.
Gale and Mayhew shared a room, of course. They were filled with the relief of surviving the shadows and the glow of finally getting together, so their private room was probably a blessing for the whole party, honestly.
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This was some ascended anatomy practice! Referenced some great stock from @null-entity.
#some people speed run the galemance but i played it as the world's longest slow burn#act 1 was fuuull of uneven feelings and perceived unrequited feelings and slow-building respect#mayhew was immediately down bad & suffering after the weave scene. Plus Gale's lukewarm reaction to flirting felt like people-pleasing#gale slowly emerged from his depression hole much later and only then caught real feelings - but the orb put paid to acting on them#so in my game they simply had a very loaded laden-with-unspoken-feelings friendship until near the end of act 2#they got like one (1) week of happiness before the horrors of act 3 hit. starting with Mayhew getting unwillingly astral tadpole'd#it's tragic and i love it#also: chubby gale. tumblr do you see my vision#mayhew sees my vision#please also appreciate mayhew's bed head and the too-big-for-gnomes dishware. i chuckled about those#my art#mayhew#gale dekarios#gnome tav#gale x tav#bg3#baldur's gate 3
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i leave him to you. | i got it ... my hero.
#mha 413#when the doomed yaoi is doomed twice😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂#how could horikoshi do this to them. to US#they alrdy dead how can u make them suffer even more#LIKE HE DID NOT NEED TO MAKE YOICHIS EXPRESSION AS HEARTBREAKING AS IT IS IN THAT TINY ASS PANEL#i swear to god if they have an even more tragic ending#hori . listen to me. please make them meet again after this. you better.#mha manga spoilers#kudoichi#ichinii#shigaraki yoichi#yoichi shigaraki#mha kudou#his name is now kudou my hero since thats all we know about him😭#second one for all user#when heroes would still sacrifice themselves for the greater good#even in death bruh god let them REST.#duo holders#dahlia.art
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princess of mithral hall
#waiter!! waiter!! more catti-brie dwarvish culture content please#she's SOOO fun to draw i can't stop#i like thinking about dwarf clothing...... metalwork THE HOUSE although this design is pretty simplistic#if i actually sat down and tried to do a full traditional outfit design i would have gone more all out than i did here. MORE METAL!! MORE!!#TAYLOR WANT SHEET METAL#can you imagine all the clan battlehammer weavers tearing their hair out trying to figure out how to fit dwarf trad clothing on a human#i neeeeeeed to stop using green as a prominent colour in all my drawings cuz i always end up hating the colour balance LMFAOAO#i'm halfway through sea of swords now and the way catti is written in it is so... weird.......#like she's normal and fun and acting like herself in all of the scenes where it's just her and drizzt#but then if they have to talk to any npc at all suddenly it's like a fuckin batman and robin situation#and drizzt is doing all the talking and catti is just his sidekick that occasionally interjects#it reeeally feels like it should be the other way around and both of their characters suffer#cuz drizzt is supposed to be quiet and kinda shy and cat is supposed to be talkative and extroverted. I HAD THOUGHT AT LEAST#it's such a weird thing cuz this problem was a lot less prominent in previous books#we forgive cuz it's been a couple books since these two were in the spotlight so maybe that's the issue but bob.......#let catti lead a conversation please#well. it's been 1 book timeline wise since they were in the spotlight#but as far as i understand servant of the shard was also chronologically written in between spine of the world and sea of swords#too many fuckin books with s words in the titles#the tags of my art posts are just a place for me to post reading updates i guess#I LOVED SPINE OF THE WORLD BTW REALLY FUN BOOK EXTREMELY FUNNY#we interrupt legend of drizzt to bring you high fantasy hbo euphoria#OK OK ENOUGH RAMBLING#legend of drizzt#lod#catti-brie battlehammer#catti-brie#dnd#forgotten realms
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Does the ship rebrand mean no more pepper jack ?😔
No more Pepper Jack 😔😔😔 Pepper Jack and Matar Paneer have officially been disowned. Sorry but Burning Spice wants to start life over with Shadow Milk and he has to leave his old family behind to do that :(((
Necessary evil, I'm afraid :((( but it's ok maybe Spice and Smilk will have their own family together!!! Two dads!!! It'll be so adorable!!! Trust me!
#poor Paneer she's a daddy's girl :( but it's ok she'll be ok! they'll all be ok!!!#“where is Pure Vanilla” he reverted back to being Truthless Recluse and lives alone in the mountains out of grief#but that's ok too!!! who needs him? who needs Golden Cheese? who needs the kids? nobody!!! not Spice! not Smilk!#they have each other!!! they're each other's true soulmate!!! everything is as it should be!!!#no i am not insane! no i am not suicidal! what's wrong with you why would you assume that#my brain is on fire. existence is pain. end my suffering. please#IGNORE THE ABOVE TAG I AM OK I AM SANE! YAY SHADOWSPICE! SHADOWSPICE FOREVER#(retroactively removing tags to make this less likely to be seen. even I'm upset tbh lol)
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I am: Heartbroken…
#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#bnha#mha#dabi#touya todoroki#bnha dabi#mha dabi#bnha season 7#mha season 7#i just… what the fuck??? i’m already crying now… imagine when the episode will drop…#can’t do this… horikoshi please give him a happy ending because this is so…#you already deprived us of shigaraki twice toga and magne don’t deprive us of him too…#why do manga authors always love to self-sabotage and sabotage the best characters??? what happened to being actually good writers???#like— YOU OKAY THERE???? HORI BLINK TWICE IF YOU NEED HELP AND FOR ME TO COME AND SAVE YOU FROM YOUR EDITORS 😭#because how do you make peoples who have already suffered enough… suffer even more??? that’s crazy… stop all this deadass???
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stewing and fermenting on whether i want a full on lesbingqiu legally blonde au where sy transmigrates into vivian(and this is how we could have made legally blonde all lesbians) and decides to quit undermining binghelle in all their classes/supports her during the trial completely, but is very confused over how long it's taking for binghelle to woo her shit fiance back. meanwhile binghelle is wondering when the girl who rescued her from a shit engagement is going to realize that she's trying to do the same and whisk them off to go live in the hamptons after being successful career women with entire courtrooms worshipping at their feet
or leaning hard into the scum professor/lawyer!sy who is fucking fighting for his life trying to keep his precocious young student from pursuing him in the middle of this huge TELEVISED TRIAL binghe PLEASE, this professor slash lawyer has a murder case to win without damaging his reputation or muddying the jury with another scandal!!! why aren't you trying to win back your stolen love interest!?! nevermind how stupid that guy is, you definitely deserve better than him, and clearly your classmates are smart but also very mean to you. actually nvm don't even think about dating while you're still in my class. let this old man help set you up with a nice man after you've graduated. what do you mean I'm the nice man!?!
#svsss#bingqiu#im so torn#i want boooooooth#if scum professor sy exists then binghe finds out about him early on bc sy defends tlj's case in the murder/sa of sxy vs hhp#and decides to go to law school to become a defense attorney like his mom n dad's savior#binghe still gets to be a california girl in this au#tlj like 'oh honey you dont need to go to law school! find a hot woman to take care of you like your old man :)'#sxy going 'please go to law school i am BEGGING YOU. do NOT end up like your father. he is an outlier.'#lesbingqiu au vivian!sy will completely dump the warner stand in and find out that binghelle doesnt even have plans to get him back#finds out binghelle is actually there for vivian!sy to free her from her shit fíance#vivian!sy not knowing she rescued binghelle from staying with that creep and now binghelle wants to rescue her in return#cue hijinks and misunderstandings and a loooooot of sleepovers in binghelle's tiny twin dorm bed#someone pls end my suffering
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Things I've said (out loud and in my head) when I'm wearing dem fuckass contact lenses:
GET IT IN!!!! WHY WON'T YOU GO IN?! STOP SLIPPING OUT!!! MTF STOP BENDING!!! GO IN!!!
oh my god why do you keep sticking to my finger
oh oh it's IN *blinks* *it slips out* FUCKKKKKKK
*eyes tearing up and my eyelid hurts* look at you, pathetic
*angry deep breath and then calm*
*watch another video tutorial, from youtube then xhs back to youtube* what do you mean you can show all your whites my eyes aren't 20% your size
*another deep breath* okay it's literally a piece of jelly thing it's not spikes it's not even going to explode why are you panicking? why are you running? JUST DO IT. PUT IT IN. LET IT IN.
think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing—*slips in* OH MY GOD IT WORKED
*stares at the mirror in amazement while smiling like an idiot*
*immediately dread at the second eye* oh my god here we fucking go again why oh my days
*realize I can't pull the other eyelid up as much as the first eye* oh my fucking- is this really it-
*deep breath again* *stares dead ahead in the mirror* imagine Price beside me right now he's going to be extremely disappointed if I can't even do something as simple as putting a flimsy piece of lens into my eyes
*slips in* LETS GO woah this is weir-AAAAAAAAAAAAA it burns IT BURNS WHY DOES IT BURN SHOULD I TAKE IT OUT *rapid blinking* no wait hold on woah the mirror is clear wait i can read the barcode of my toothpaste WOAH
*stares at the mirror for god knows how long* are my eyes bigger?
*goes out while wearing them* everything is clear *blinks* okay everything is not clear *blinks* okay it's clear again why does this feel like im going 1080p to 720p with a shitty wifi?
I can feel them. Don't think about it don't think about it don't think about it don't think about it don't think about it
The very ends of both my eyes are blurry, should I be concerned
I feel very naked (never realized how much I rely on my glasses to cover areas around my eyes)
*does the push glasses up thing forgetting I'm not wearing my glasses* I'm a clown
*stares at reflection* oh shit- that is me? oh woah that is me
Is it obvious I'm wearing them? why is everyone staring at me- did it moved? did the lens move and now I look like an idiot? (proceeds to overthink and be self-conscious, the lens did not move at all)
*reads up more info about contact lenses and realize I didn't soak them in some liquid for 4 hours before wearing them* *starts thinking about the eye doctor again*
I am fine. This is fine. Look at me I look okay I look normal. I'm totally normal.
*looks at something far* woah I can read that! (could do the same thing with my specs but for some reason is fascinated)
friend: "do you feel dryness or itchiness yet?" me: yet? you mean it's gonna happen??? (it has not happen)
*reads up more about contact lenses stuff and getting confused at the amount of liquids brand out there*
*goes home and stare at the mirror again*
Overall 6/10 experience, I would try to wear them again (for now)
Things I've said (out loud and in my head) when I'm trying to take out dem fuckass contact lenses:
oh my god I can't take it out
*watch another 4-8 tutorial videos again*
what do you mean I need to touch it and pinch it out. What- WHAT I NEED TO PINCH IT??? I'M NOT TOUCHING MY EYE LIKE THAT-
what do you mean you can blink it out.
*tries to blink it out and it didnt work and feel like my eyeballs are about to fall out*
*felt like crying but force myself not to because Idk if you should do that when you're wearing lenses*
*tries another 3-4 times and failing*
*sits down on the toilet tile and think about which eye doctor I need to contact and which hospital I can go by train, reciting the emergency number a few times*
*opens socmed to distract myself*
no no fuck you you're overthinking again calm da fak down it's A PIECE. OF. JELLY THINGY.
get up. do the thing. do it scared.
*silently screaming as my index finger slowly reaches for my eyes* I CANT DO THIS
BUT I'M GONNA *touches eye* OH MY DAYS I HATE IT *force myself to slowly slide the contact lens even if it feels extremely uncomfortable*
*starts singing the national anthem FOR SOME REASON* TANAH TUMPAHNYA DARAHHHH KUUUU *finally slide it to the sclera and blinks it out*
*panting like I've ran a thousand miles staring at the folded lens* fuck yoUUUUUUUU *puts it away and looks at the mirror*
oh my god my eye is red, is that normal? should I be concerned? *checks eye*
*stares at the mirror dreading the second eye*
*repeat cycle above with just as much anxiety and stress*
*singing the national anthem did not work this time* *starts thinking about which eye doctor to see again*
*deep breath* listen. if you can take off this last piece. we can...w-we can have pudding, okay? (we don't have pudding, also there's no we it's only me)
*slowly reach for my eyes* *silently screaming*
*realize it doesn't feel as uncomfortable with the other eyes* oh *slowly sliding it to the side then blinks it out*
*it immediately falls to the ground* YEAH you stay down
*looks at mirror* okay this eye isn't red
ah fuck everything's 360p again where's my specs?
Overall 0/10 experience I'm not wearing them again (I still have one more set, I will in fact, wear them again)
#it's not as red now as i write this#it doesn't itch and it's not painful#it's just a bit red#so i think it's okay???#this is agony#LMAO#like- okay i do like the look it gives#but do i really want to go thru this again? i have no idea#it's not the wearing i have issues about it's the taking out part#im very squirmy with eyes#this is#idk bro holy shit#im like#is this what adulting feels like? bcuz im here psyching myself up like an idiot#((im pretty sure no there's a lot more important adulting tasks out here#also im self conscious af and overthink to oblivion and wearing contact lenses made me feel like i can feel the stares in ten fold#which i hate#girlhood nAH FAM pure torture#i dont grow up doing a lot of so call “girly” things in my teen so im aksjfdhkj just suffering here LMAO#like makeup and all that#end up learning them myself but i dont do makeup a lot because my acne's quite terrible and i dont want to worsen it#*deep breath* gomz pLEASE get a grip#anyways im gonna draw and forget about it akjdsadhlfdksjhfsakdj#gummmyspeaks
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I can't explain the emotional connection between a girl and this miserable owl...

Now this is my "all because I liked a boy" favourite character, lol.
#helluva boss#blitzø#stolas#stolitz#helluvaverse#stolas kin#stolas x blitz#all because i liked a boy#please end my suffering
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