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I was thinking about your portrayal of Naoya and I was already thinking of a JJK actor au which led me to think of how actor Naoya upon hearing that Y/N was going to be in this new romance movie, I feel like he’d immediately use all his connections(Ofc he could audition but he needs to make this a sure thing plus he’s fs a Nepo Baby XD but at least he’s got the skills too) just so he can be in that movie with Y/N(Maybe the Male lead was gonna be Nanami too!). I bet they’d end up getting together by the end of filming Teehee. You don’t have to write anything if you don’t wanna but I thought you might think this au is fun too if only to just daydream about it :D
Heya anon!!
Thank you for your patience hehe. I have to say, AU’s where Y/N or Naoya are a celebrity is kind of like my guilty pleasure; I don’t really indulge much on it because I don’t have a plot line most of the time, but this was the perfect excuse to see what I can do with it :> I just hope you enjoy it!! Also, this is going to be a two-part oneshot so… yeah hehe.
Btw, thank you all for those who voted for fluff, but we know how this goes so I had to put a little bit of drama somewhere :) it’s Naoya we��re talking about.
Warnings: AU. Naoya and Y/N are actors; he’s an idiot, a nepobaby, womanizer, etc etc, but we already knew all that. What’s interesting is his so called redemption OOF.
Happy reading!
Established actor Naoya that’s quite popular amongst the audience even with the rumors of his difficult work ethic, less than desirable personality, and blatant nepotism, thanks to his good looks and deceiving charm.
Because of his status, whatever project he wants, he gets. Sure, there are some that still have the audacity to require an audition from him, but it’s just a formality that he dejectedly complies to—Naoya knows that even when doing a bad job, he’ll still get the part at the end of the day.
But that doesn’t mean Naoya goes for any kind of role; he’s quite specific about what he wants: a pretty co-star.
And the studios had a variety of reasons to allow such demands, starting from a financial benefit: with a handsome face like his to match with an equally attractive coworker, he’ll only sell-out all functions; and in turn, he’ll get his fair share of enjoyment with his fellow partner of the moment. The same ones he discards immediately after getting bored; careless if they unwittingly got feelings for him—but nonetheless a win-win situation all around.
Such a quick lifestyle has him already setting eyes on his next target, a relatively unknown rising star with a seemingly promising future whom he was immediately smitten by upon seeing her for the first time, just as the rest of the world was.
“Y/N L/N” Naoya would repeat, enjoying how the sound of your name rolled off his tongue—fitting for someone of your beauty: vibrant eyes, rosy cheeks, shiny hair… and to top it all off, a humble yet shy demeanor that just made his obsession for you grow tenfold.
Wouldn't be the first time he’s grown interested in up and coming actresses, because in Naoya’s perspective, they’re much easier to impress, far more gullible to manipulate how he wants…
But it would be the first time he’s ever been so desperately obsessed to be with, for soon after he saw you, you became all he thought about. Causing him issues with his current fling (it briefly grazed the headlines, his team quickly fixed that)and some commitments he almost fumbled, keyword: almost.
Naoya couldn’t explain it; there was just something about you that attracted him, almost like you were destined to be together.
He needed you—one way or the other—and he needed you now.
Per usual, he soon demanded his manager and assistants to get a detailed list of all your upcoming projects, to see which ones he could be part of, and if neither were to his advantage, make those opportunities. Naoya was not to let you go so easily.
”A movie adaptation for some romance series that’s been in the talks for a while now.” His manager highlighted. “It’s her biggest work yet as a protagonist—in fact, development just started because of her.”
”Romance?” Naoya breathed, excited at the implications. “Do they have the male lead yet? I don’t think I need to tell you what I want, do I?”
”Oh, uh, no—you don’t, but… about that—“
”What is it?” It was always frightening to see how easily his behavior oscillated when facing his disapproval, but once already here…
“What?! What do you mean the casting’s already done?! Why wasn't I made aware of this????”
Because as obvious as his womanizing ways were, it would be physically impossible to have him assist every single call in hopes he’d settle with someone attractive enough for his standards.
Besides, this project already had their co-stars in mind way before it was even announced, the studio was just waiting for the right female lead to come along: and when that proved to be you…
Nanami was quickly brought on board, perfect for the role in all ways that mattered: from physical similarities to his character which made the fandom very, very satisfied, to work ethic; his professionalism was always beyond everyone’s expectations, no one has ever complained about him.
Kento was, hands down, a dream to work with—and considering what all of this meant, it was safe to say that Naoya was not happy about it.
”Well, get them to change actors!” He quickly demanded. “Call them and let them know I want the part, should be easy enough considering my status, no?”
”Ah, I— I guess I could but I’ve heard other people tried before and failed… so I don’t want to waste your time if you’re going to face that same result…”
The way how other’s interest in the film is implied behind his words makes Naoya’s eyes widen. Because surely no one cares about participating in that irrelevant series he’s never heard of until now, if it didn’t mean getting to work with you, that is. Everyone’s favorite girl of the moment.
His girl.
Ever the competitive one, it doesn’t take him much longer after that to call who he had to call, bribe who he had to bribe to finally, after many insistences, sign the contract that effectively labels him as your co-star.
Careless if his decision would prove detrimental to the project in the long run, or if it would strain relations between him and Nanami. Naoya never really minded him, outside of being bundled together with some other actors the audience generally cataloged as the most handsome in the country—if this change meant they’d never get to work together, fine! He had obtained a much better reward in return anyways.
Naoya wasn’t to allow anyone to deprive him of what was rightfully his—even if he wasn’t aware of it beforehand—and thus, when the fateful day to start working alongside you finally came along, the moment he’d see you for the first time without the interference of a screen, or through a picture—
His breath ran short. Heart skipping a beat when his eyes fell on your figure: truly, the cameras did you no justice.
You were far more breathtakingly beautiful in person.
So much was his shock, that the smooth introduction he had planned for the moment was limited to a stuttering mess, a shame to someone as charismatic as him.
”You’re—you’re Zen’in—No, I mean, I’m—“ Naoya says, a stranger to the heat forming in his cheeks, inwardly demeaning the weak presentation he must’ve given you now.
But if he wasn't already fixated enough on you, the way you appeared to be indifferent to his nerves completely captivated him. A wide smile on your lips as you greeted him with that same enthusiasm that made the whole world fall to your feet.
”Nice to meet you, Naoya!” You chirp. “I can’t believe we’re working together… I mean, so early in my career! Thank you so much for this opportunity, I promise I won’t disappoint!”
”The pleasure’s all mine.” And so is the curse you’ve seem to have unwittingly placed upon him after sweetly declaring you’d be under his care.
He’s made up his mind, Naoya will make you fall in love with him in less of what it takes to wrap up this movie. He’ll make you his, and will go to any length to ensure so.
Even if it meant ignoring your father’s (your manager, a veteran actor of days past) clear warnings.
”Don’t think I don’t know how your kind works.” Eiichi, your father, threatens Naoya during a short moment of privacy. “And I’m well aware of the rumors that surround you, even if you have your team quiet them. I should’ve known you were up to something the moment you insisted on Nanami’s removal—but I’ll let you know that whatever it is that you have in mind, I won’t allow it.”
”I assure you, Eiichi-san, I have no other intentions with your daughter outside of making our best efforts to have this picture timely done.” Naoya cynically responded, which just made your dad even angrier. Your co-star thinks your manager is an all bark, no bite type of dog. An old dog too, and treats him like such.
“Then surely asking you to act appropriately for once in your life isn’t too much to demand, is it?” He frowns. “Especially for someone who’s barely starting in the genre.”
”Wait—you mean to say—“
If this is your first romance movie, does that mean…
You haven’t done your first on-camera kiss?
Or perhaps even better—you haven’t kissed anyone at all?
Not quite, nor were you ever going to disclose personal matters that truly only belonged to you.
But if your father intended to protect you, he really, really shouldn’t have said that. Eiichi shouldn’t have gone ahead and essentially pushed you further into Naoya’s claws, his words being the last piece of motivation to become completely unhinged and make your time with him… tense, to say the least.
Oh, but how could he not? You were simply too adorable when trying to do your best to fulfill everyone’s expectations: barely putting up a fuss when Naoya got a bit too dramatic to what the script demanded, far more handsy, even when not recording: all for the sake of staying in character, he’d claim.
And when he dejectedly worked on those scenes where nothing of his interest was happening, you didn’t even complain. You kept quiet, submissive, taking the situation as best as you could and kept on working—because that’s what professional actresses do, isn’t it? And you’re nothing but the best.
But things didn’t really escalate until it was time to record that long-awaited kiss; what the script demanded to be the first kiss between their characters, in other words, something sweet, overall a touching scene.
However, Naoya naturally had to blur the line between his work and personal life—and instead of taking this moment as what it was, just two people trying to get the job done, he decided to… mark it as some declaration of feelings.
Confirmation that the time the two had spent together, a few weeks now, had actually amounted to something; aside from figuring out what your soft lips tasted like.
Because to Naoya, those interactions in between breaks, outside of the set, and even during filming, had been quite meaningful to him. To you too, he suspects.
Your shy nature just didn’t allow you to openly affirm it, a little push was all you needed to do so.
”Don’t be nervous, dumpling.” Is the nickname he’d given you upon seeing your excitement for last week's catering. You’ve politely told him it wasn’t necessary to call you that, but he insisted otherwise, calling it their very first inside joke. What everyone does to get along better. “Just follow my lead and I’ll worry about everything else, ok?”
Not exactly the reassuring words you were searching for, but for someone of Naoya’s expertise, alongside the physical hold he had over you at this point, hands over your arms, keeping you close to his chest… it’s not like you could demand otherwise.
And so, after everyone was in position, the director finally signals the scene to begin: Naoya delivers the script with an uncharacteristic perfection, outside of that slight rush behind his words, eager to get to that one particular moment, it’s obvious he’s been looking forward to recording this.
To kiss you, which he abruptly does by suddenly moving his face towards yours and then, captivating your lips onto his—giving more than his interpretation of the character’s desire: it was him wanting to take in your scent, warmth, touch, everything, and bask in it.
Claim it as his own, for those in the room, and the world in due time, to see.
One might’ve even assumed you were fine with his intentions too, given how you didn’t complain nor fight back against his desperate gesture, struggling to follow his lead in a way that appeared he was trying to eat you alive.
Which thankfully didn’t happen once the director cut the scene, and just before you ran out of breath.
”Naoya, while I appreciate the enthusiasm, that was—a bit too much.” The director said; if he was aware of your and Naoya’s fluster, he didn’t comment. “Let’s do it again, from the top.”
Normally, Naoya would’ve retorted at what he considered unnecessary reshooting, apparently his time was far more valuable than the rest even when he was being paid millions to be there… but this time around, he was nothing but obliging, in fact, Naoya even suggested that they’d go at it once more just to be sure they captured the right sentiment. Fulfill his desire.
With each time becoming more and more desperate than the other.
Naoya frequently claimed himself to be immune to any kind of addiction, thought of it as weak for the character, above such “petty” faults—But when it came to you… he just proved to be as human as the rest.
He physically needed to have all of you; they’d have to forcibly pry him away to stop—
Or for you to do so, swiftly placing your hands over his chest and pushing him away when it became too much, putting an end to the scene before the director could and subsequently raising many eyebrows around you.
”What’s wrong, Y/N?” The director asks upon seeing your distraught face—exhausted from the many reshoots, and of course, Naoya’s overbearing ways. “Is everything alright?”
”Ye-yeah, I just… I’m sorry, I think I need a break.” You silently plead, looking over to your manager who was more than ready to step in if your request was dismissed; which thankfully, wasn’t. The director sighing before turning around and stating:
”Alright everyone, take 5.”
The perfect opportunity for Naoya to follow through with his so-called affirmation of feelings, trailing behind you soon after.
“Hey, dumpling, wait up! There’s something I need to—“
”Not right now, Naoya.” You respond, your pace unwavering. You didn’t even turn to face him. “I have to—be alone for a moment.”
”Y/N—“
Your father and sister, manager and assistant respectively, close in on you and break eye contact between the two, allowing you retreat into what he assumed your dressing room—
And leaving him behind to deal with his anger, which he immediately takes out on the director, stomping his way to him and giving him a piece of his mind.
“So you’re just going to let her go?” Naoya hisses, the man, having worked with him on previous occasions, simply sighs.
”What do you want me to do, Naoya? You saw how she ran away.” He responds. “Besides, we’ve been at it all day, I’m tired too.”
”This is just going to ruin the pace of the film, you know that, right? You should, considering your… experience.”
”Look, Naoya— it’s quite obvious what you were trying to do back there, I’ve seen it before; but we’re not going to discuss that.” He adds. “The girl is new in the game, naive, and overprotected. Did you know that her management sent us a long list of requisites after the studio offered her a contract? If it weren’t for her family, she would’ve been immediately dismissed.”
”Requisites? What kind of requisites?”
“None that I can discuss with you, but I guess I could tell you the obvious: you were not part of them. There’s a reason why Nanami was firmly set for your role, but guess that doesn’t matter since you know your way around these things…”
”Is there something else you’re hiding from me? Why bring it up if you’re not going to tell me anyways!” Naoya growls. Why was Nanami brought up again, out of nowhere??
”Just take 5 minutes, Naoya. Clear up your head, we still have a long day ahead.” The director insists. “And if it’s worth anything, Y/N will be back, she’s very dedicated to her work, I’ll give her that. Even with your weird… plays, I’m sure.”
But that wasn’t enough to calm Naoya—not with the way you essentially fled from him.
Your behavior led a part of him to feel… inadequate. Underperforming—stupid.
Rejected.
And he’s never been rejected before.
A dangerous observation to make considering his easily ignited attitude.
The moment you were back, he’d demand an answer. Hear, directly from you, why you’d cruelly dismiss his advances when he had been nothing but nice to you.
… but that moment wouldn’t come today.
In fact, not even in the subsequent ones, for after everyone was abruptly requested to go home, the studio announced that filming would go on a brief hiatus to sort out some… unexpected issues—which Naoya immediately connected to you given your radio silence.
Forcing him to directly reach out to you… but you’d never answer. In fact, all of his attempts were swiftly ignored; your team didn’t even acknowledge them! As if dealing with junk mail.
Naoya’s desperation naturally spiked after that, frantically searching for an answer—
Which he’d get soon enough, but only through a tabloid which probably described the worst case scenario he could’ve imagined unfolding for this situation:
“Y/N to abandon latest project—close sources blame differences between protagonists.”
Naoya’s heart sinks.
Also, I wish to apologize if these little comma things “ appear weird? Like not the right ones at the beginning? I’m currently out of my home so all of my writing is being done through a tablet lol I’ll come back later to fix them :> I hope it didn’t ruin your reading experience :’v
And I might as well comment I didn’t feel like ending part one with just the headline, but at the same time the whole naoya’s heart skins doesn’t completely convince me…. But I don’t know, might be my impostor’s syndrome or something who knows!!!! All that I know is I have to make Naoya pathetic on the second part, so if anyone has any ideas of what you’d like to see send them in hehe I want to make him suffer :) or at least guilty, damn…
Anyways, I hope it was to your liking!! I shall proceed with the following part after I write down a little smut hehe. Thank you so much for sending in this ask, take care and hope to see you soon!!!
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whshdfhfjf.,,,
#close up!! because i firstly Did Not render them with such insanity in order for tumblr's lack of general resolution to make it blur#look at all the lines!!! teehee i still really really like this style of digital painting it's super super fun to do!!! and also secondly#because i went back and added a tag ramble and as i seem to often be doing??? lately?? reached the 30 tag limit and went 'hm ok how else..'#anyway the tag essay on that one is now up and talks about the artwork generally and miscellaneous thoughts!! that said. i need a space to#ramble about beatrix at Length because look you don't draw and paint etc a character for like ten hours without having a lot of thoughts#anyways ! i digress terrifically. tag rambles are more like trains of thoughts masquerading as subways and you get on and it's unfortunately#a rollercoaster track. but this is My Blog and i can do Whatever I Want as long as i don't hurt anyone <- affirmations!! also Harm Principle#lately it's been like *kicks up feet* *opens tumblr tags* *treats it as own personal journal* and tbh Good for me!! anyways back to beatrix#fun fact ! the thing that pushed me over the edge to go watch the musical after looking through the tumblr tag was a very specific poll.#and the fact that the winning option was blue hair and pronouns made me double over laughing so hard i had to go see the source material#mm i feel like lately the academic Context has been tossing me essentially into a blender HAHA ;-; so everyone in adamandi is to some extent#a Mood. but bea-specific (haha be specific)(sorry!)(wow this is the same reaction mechanism of my friend who points out innuendos)(...)#i think it's the wanting to prove herself. like from the whole abuela etc thing there's proof here she's got a Stable Support System of sort#and instead what beatrix continues to do is push themselves. 'i guess u could say i'm married to my work? god that's depressing' // no one#here to enforce that // abuela tells me to rest says i'm constantly stressed and i'll just get depressed like before but i still have to try#like. that shred of desperation that pushes you to the brink to neglect yourself (well i guess physically but also your morals..) and like!!#the whole 'lose half your soul thing' proves she's self aware!! like they know what they're doing is super dubious yknow! but they're still#they're still doing it even if it goes into conflict with their morality system in a way and then they justify it to themselves (see pt 1#of ghostwriter) and the whole wanting to achieve at all costs Despite the self awareness. (i think? this aspect also applied to quincy. but#thoughts on him will come later). more beatrix specific also is the fact that they genuinely adore their work.. 'i just love it here where#you know they'll be printing forever and you are just part of it' because that does kind of resonate with me. also the being behind in the#competition is real!!! i'm maybe talking about Art as a subject because that same drive for it exists on my good days i think. even#even when nothing seems to be going right and you've ended up at the back the intent passion inherent in what you do is still there!!!#the genuine. care she has for reporting. is so !!!!! to me... other beatrix thoughts include 'why reveal yourself at the end' aka vincent's#'u should have stayed silent u had a smart plan' like rip to them but i would not // it feels with bea's complex character i can't imagine h#her Not doing that. like the guilt is real i guess. and i am running out of tags but! smth also about her fervent hope or smth that she'll#eventually get to where she wants. and the resilient determination.. 'i won't let their deaths be pointless there's more good i'm gonna do'#they're so so real for that. i'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing; seeing myself reflected in aspects of characters like this.. but it's#it's there regardless. smth smth just make your peace with the person you are ig!! tldr beatrix campbell my beloved. hehe#adamandi
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So I've been thinking. It's funny how enjoying meta is somewhat embedded with trust.
Like, if you're "friends" and have followed a person for a long time, you have more a sense of their values, and it's easier to read their difficult meta because you trust more that they're being charitable/nuanced.
If you don't know them, it's harder to trust that they're not funneling difficult topics into rationalization of liking/supporting gross shit.
#meta thoughts#case in point - so much of the wincest community still comes off super classist to me and it sorts of...leaks into their meta#you'll be going alone with an interesting character study and then you read stuff that just BOOM classism about family ties#then you go to their page and you find that yes they're into that shit and there's typically a desert of thoughtful cas military angels etc#they tend to like benny cause benny is an idealized brother substitute / sam parallel and it's given the most uncharitable reading#just because you choose a partner than is familiar and like your fam members does not mean you're into your family members oh my god#and sure there's tons of visual and overt racism in SPN in general but to me that at least gets discussed#the classism inherent to narrative fangirl obsessions with incest? not as dissected#familism and community are seen as Weird (TM) to them and they kind of tell on themselves with that imho#and like with racism there are just some things you can't overlook to enjoy a series if you're black because that's your day to day life an#with classism it's hard too bc sometimes you can't escape the reminders of day to day life#and when ppl in the fandom see the villain's monologues as TRUTH you just wanna shake your head but know it's not worth arguing#communal living is more normal than america wants you to think...rich folks want it labelled *weird* bc they want you separated and drained#i am begging us to deconstruct suburbia instead of defaulting to TEEHEE incest bc shitting on pooled resources is paramount in a rigged gam#I find the inherent isolation of american living-to-work without any time to visit each other VERY isolating indeed...also...#like how did we get here#where we're so afraid of labels like*cults* and *helicopter parenting* and *enmeshment* than we isolate as a form of hallowed independence#american success culture has a dark side too#and separating low class families is the aim#get them to spend more $$$ and go for lofty ideals in pursuit of american dream instead of pooling their resources and meeting their needs#meanwhile rich folks do so much respectable nepotism and pretend they're *self-made*#to me that's what the symbol of zachariah is ALLLL about#and if you're blind to what his taunts ACTUALLY mean...i'm very suspicious of your worldview#if resource sharing and co-living becomes shameful and *incestuous* for lower classes then they won't pool their power at all#american exceptionalism#spn + class#class#class warfare#giving up college dreams to be a caretaker seems way more common in poor families too#i suspect we see the incest reading less from brown families / hispanic fams...cause familism is more common
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love seeing people draw zote with the little blue pin on his cloak because while i know damn well that it's likely in reference to GPZ and not at all related to cogr. well. it's still a little treat to me
#4am musings again just ignore me#going through the zot tag again because i'm normal. and just giggling any time i see a blue pin#like I KNOW . I know. but also. like. Teehee etc.#like the 'same hat!' image but 'same design headcanon!'#yeah. i'm being normal. walks away#clamtalk
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How am I supposed to focus on checking if my fic looks good knowing that the cute guy called me a good doggy in my dms
#my brain is like. spinning. like those low quality 3d rats#teehee#giggling kicking my paws twirling my fur barking etc etc#dude also how am i supposed to stop thinking about this person that i don't even really know and dont want to do anything with#if he keeps being. like this#im sorry i got called a good doggy once by a cute guy and now my whole brain short circuits good lord#god#man#ough#therian#bee buzz
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How are we feeling about these aes4ki crumbs @nayeonline (yes I’m taking this as crumbs. Don’t question me. You would do it too if your two faves weren’t aware they were both breathing oxygen.)
#.txt#mind you these are not the only music taste related crumbs this is just the clearest evidence in jpg format#also wanna add that 4s4ki and Giselle both like Avril Lavigne‚ 100 gecs‚ Flume etc and her and Ningning are also both Grimes enjoyers#and dont even get me started on how 4s4ki’s music feels very much like it’s Giselle’s cup of tea‚ ik she’d be streaming Killer in Neverland#when I tell you 4s4ki and Ningselle could be besties (and start a trio and drop an EP for funsies teehee but we know SM would be threatened
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top 5 WORST marauders era ships
oh bab! you've got a mind for violence! i love it!
(a foreword: in my heart, i am a hater. as such, i'm going to be a little strict about this, possibly digging myself a larger hole in the process, but--since technically you could come up with hundreds of nonsensical marauders-era pairings, i'm going to limit this to the more established pairings only (which is why pairings that i personally consider too ridiculous for consideration, such as anything involving snape, would be a waste of a slot)).
5. remus / regulus--not necessarily opposed to it in all forms. but also i am sort of bored sorry. sort of interesting maybe in the context of r/s. i don't hate it but it's here to make up numbers. these things happen.
4. james / sirius--i don't actually have a rational problem with this one. if anything, it makes tremendous sense. it is not a bad pairing. but it makes the cut because i am frankly only interested in a sirius that is in love with remus, and therefore i would, personally, rather die than consider it.
3. james / regulus--i was assassinated before i could provide a justification for this one sorry. shouldn't have answered this ask in the back of that open-top car during that motorcade through dallas probably. 2. sirius / marlene (or mary)--boo! rubbish! completely uninspired!
1. remus / tonks--i argue that this one counts as a marauders-era pairing owing to the inclusion of minimum one marauders-era character. i take issue with it on the grounds that they are both gay and i don't care about their child. it takes top spot by virtue of being the only canon pairing on the list.
ask me my top five anything!
#this is the bitchiest post ive ever made please dont be angry...im usually sooo good when it comes to not expressing these opinions#i deserve to be a little bitchy when its asked of me i NEVER get to do this...and we are in my own house after all...#was also going to mention anything involving all those slytherin side characters people seem to buzz about now. like evan barty pandora#etc. i dont even know what those are frankly they are just words to me. less than nothing happens in my brain at the mention of them#i feel like i havent forgotten any of the major ones i dislike. i dont know what the kids are coming up with these days i just think about#the same two guys over and over again. sorry.#this isnt that controversial to be fair. apart from jegulus i might be eaten for that one i know. these are the risks we take x#ask game#literally so glad i got asked this though teehee. you cant blame me for being a hater when im just following orders x
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my fingers hurt again which means i must be IMPROVING
(very, very slowly)
#guitar tag#yall they dont joke when they say being good or just even basic at guitar takes years lmao#im half a year in and im NOWHERE#but i also havent been practiving properly etc like so far i was just teehee having fun learning songs with basic ass power chords#but realizing i want to do solos in the future...now i have a clear goal to work towards to....#which i guess helps a lot in improving and everything#now i know what to practice exactly#and with practicing certain things im also just automatically improving at everything else too yeehaw#glitch shut up
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my only hope in the world is to see more cock and inspire others to slap clown paint on more
#whenni tell u thw gender euphoria from putting on clown paint is real. i mean it#also teehee when ur makeup ends up on uhm. you know#getting messy and sloppy and redacted etc#thanks to everyone for being sweet also i didnt think my pics would blow up like that. blowing u all a kiss and two if ur a woman
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just watched h*redit*ry for the first time. fun.
#river.txt#also what the fuck#(im only censoring bc i dont want random ass ppl interacting with me)#didnt want to watch it for the longest time because its one of Those movies 🙄#u know. ''im a special horror movie snowflake tumblr girlie teehee uwu'' etc#and also im allergic to movies. and also movies that are much talked about. and also many things media-related#But#my [redacted] wanted to watch it so i was like ok. the things i do for u. goober.#anyway it was ok
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Okay, so here's the thing: It randomly hit me, a few days ago, that the way Emily describes Peep, as a mortal exhibiting their fae bird magic, would make her a super cool D&D build (much like her other D&D daughter, Cat from TUC II, the future Aasimar paladin of La Gran Gata).
After that, it was an easy leap to "ooh, how cool would it be for Peep to be a character in ACOFAF season 2, sneaking into the fae realm for the first time and attending the next Bloom, which, for fae time wackiness reasons, could totally coincide with the amount of time that'd have pass for Peep to reach young adulthood??".
And after that, it was way too easy to jump to "But who else would be super cool to have in the party??" and immediately came up with like 3 other fully formed character concepts. Of course I flashed back to this post, too, because well fuck, this fancast is absolutely perfect.
So, if anyone's interested, have my proposal of the ACOFAF season 2 pack of pixies cast and characters:
Jasmine Bhullar as Phillipa Featherfowl - half-mortal, half-fey, with the power of flight and an affinity for birds, she has been kept in the mortal realm for her whole life, and forbidden from ever crossing into the fey realm. Tired of hearing all of her mother's and Uncle Squak's stories and wanting to break free of her moms' overprotective-ness, she has managed to sneak into the fey realm for the first time, and stumbles into the Bloom, without any idea of how to act within the fey nobility, but wanting to experience it all. She must get through the Bloom without anyone finding out her true identity, and most of all, without her definitely alive great-grandfather ever suspecting she even exists. (pronouns: she/her; class: sorcerer; subclass: draconic avian bloodline)
Erika Ishii as Wuvvy - the new master of ceremonies and mistrex of the Bloom, Wuvvy has a lot on their shoulders. Though she has assisted a number of events, this is the first Bloom she's in charge all on her own. She can do it, though, and will work her hardest to prove it to everyone, especially the deeply scrutinizing Court of Wonder, who's been watching her close since her promotion. They miss their best friend, and have mixed feelings about the Court of Wonder after everything that went down last Bloom, but they also love their work, and need this event to go off without a hitch, and are willing to fight for it, and to do anything for the perfect Bloom. (pronouns: she/they; class: druid; subclass: circle of the moon)
Krystina Arielle as Lady Sylmenar - lady in waiting for the Queen Titania, Lady Sylmenar has lived comfortably in the Seelie Court for ages. She's an invaluable confidant, sure, a friend, but still a servant, and even a disposable pawn. The Queen has many moods, and many needs that need attending, after all... She'd be a fool to give up this opportunity, though, this position that allows her, a humble low-born fey, to live amongst nobility. However, that's exactly what she's doing. Having acquired new knowledge about the dark goings-on of the Seelie Court, she arrives at the Bloom with one goal - to desert it, and maybe even bring it down. All as long as she isn't caught by the Queen, of course. (pronouns: she/her; class: rogue; subclass: arcane trickster)
Bob the Drag Queen as Baroness Alven - no stranger to scandal, the Baroness has had their share of former lovers and broken engagements. They're famous for it, in fact, and people have come to expect them to have the best gossip and always a secret or two to share. Between this position, which makes them invaluable in the Bloom, and their high position within the Seafoam Court, what else could they possibly wish for? Well, a way to save their home, perhaps, which has been weakened, and some say cursed, after the last Bloom's "festivities". And, maybe, just maybe, they could, finally, be looking for a true love match... (pronouns: they/them; class: bard; subclass: college of whispers)
Brian David Gilbert as James Michael Evans - new to the Bloom, to the fey realm, and to this entire thing, really, James is a human, brought to the Trickster Court on a whim from his hosts, or some might say patrons, as a lark, for their entertainment. He might be completely overwhelmed, and unprepared for both whatever this court throws at him (sometimes literally) and for navigating the other courts too, but he will not let this opportunity go to waste, of studying the fey realm closer than ever thought possible, and of perhaps increasing his own power, while he can. (pronouns: he/him; class: warlock; subclass: archfey patron)
Jasper William Cartwright as Duke Roshan - attending the Bloom for the first time in ages, the Duke strikes a mysterious figure, and everyone wonders about their intentions. Their home has certainly always been secretive, as the Stone Court has kept to themselves and rarely mingles with others or actively partakes in the Bloom, so to send such a striking champion this year has made waves in society. As for the Duke himself, he may be unaccustomed to the ways of the Bloom, but he has come prepared and focused, with only one mission, which he must keep hidden - revenge. (pronouns: he/they; class: paladin; subclass: oath of vengeance)
Disclaimer: yes, I do realize that if there were to be a Season 2, they would probably all come up with wholly new characters, instead of 4/6 picking up NPCs and bringing them to life, but you know what the problem with that is? Aabria's made the NPCs too interesting!!! I'm invested in having Lady Sylmenar find happiness! Peep sounds incredibly cool! Baroness Alven has so much potential! And I simply need to know everything about Wuvvy!! These concepts were just too cool for me not to want to expand on them, and even if it never comes to pass, I just needed to include them here.
Anyways, let me know if you like this! I've gotten way too invested in something that might never happen... Maybe if we all believe in ACOFAF S2 (and if we all badger Sam about it) it'll come true!!
@quiddie I am begging on my knees. And many many many more with me
#dropout#dimension 20#a court of fey and flowers#my writing#phillipa featherfowl is SUCH a bridgerton name she'd fit in so well with the regency vibes#did i cast jasmine as peep bc even though she'd be an adult in this she's still a kid in my mind#and jasmine's dimitri voice from coffin run is still the cutest thing i've ever heard?#of course#also bdg as just a guy is so funny to me#also would he ever pick that name? of course not. but i couldn't resist teehee.#i might've been too influenced by burrow's end in casting jasper as someone from the stone court#bc you know burrow earth etc#and erika as wuvvy? embodying adorableness and ball-of-nerves-ness and bamf-ness all at once? i would simply die. what perfection#btw i apologize if the classes/subclasses end up not making any sense#i don't know nearly enough about dnd to be statting out a whole party so i just went with individual vibes for each character#which is also why there is no multiclassing i figured it was best to keep it simple or the complications would go totally over my head lol#i kept the descriptions vague but i do have a plot in mind sort of#if ppl like this i might develop it more 😗#this sparks joy
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ok Heres some thoughts now that im not stupidly sleepy anymore. i like thinking about dreamys first encounter with miles after entering his universe, freshly mutated and not having any real idea of whats going on, confused as fuck. so they see spiderman on the news and go “shit, thats the guy i gotta talk to, how the FUCK do i get in contact with him” and then IM THINKING they do something very silly and dramatic which is to stage a crime like an armed robbery or something so hell show up, then as soon as hes there they drop the weapon or whatever and go “oh good it worked. sorry about scaring everyone i just needed to talk to spiderman for a second ill find some way to pay for therapy if anyone needs it after this” and then telling him about their own powers so he can help
#cherry chats#dreamy 🌃#ahhh wait fuck. just realized i should change that tag fo have an emoji in case anyone follows the dreamy tag#augh. hold on. brb#dont read this post yet its not finished. ill come back and say more stuff in the tags in like 10 minutes or smth#OK BACK!!!!! i have more shit on dreamy now that idk if ive said before#their relationship with liv in their original dimension has over time morphed into the WORST fwb deal in the whole world#liv has become so incredibly manipulative and actually downright obsessed w them. idk how that happened#she tries to prevent them from talking to anyone shes jealous she has tantrums shes admitted the true nature of the collider project and its#ties to kingpin etc etc#shes absolutely crazy over there. and i LOVE it#she thinks she can manipulate dreamy They manipulate her right back. theyre sooooo fucked up <3#and they came to miles’ dimension not by choice but as a result of the accident. spider society hates them because theyre anomalous#and also Erm a shit hero. by spider society standards#they have nothing more than just a vague feeling and fleeting memories and strange dreams from their original dimension#theyve tried looking themself up in alchemax personnel files but finding nothing‚ because in 1610 they never worked there#so their memories dont add up with the reality around them which is obviously. SOO fucking frustrating#also. news on powers. their extra eyes have nightvision and their fangs have a temporarily paralyzing venom 👍#they dont know that for sure though. they havent run any tests because they would need a living subject for that and the way they found out#in the first place was accidentally biting their tongue. so they dont know for sure how the venom works#but i know. and its paralyzing The effect is less for them since its their venom but still potent enough to cause irritation#like. when they bit their tongue it stiffened and tensed up for awhile but no numbing#if it bit someone else it would have a marginally stronger effect#and umm……. umm. well actually maybe thats all#after their vanishing in their home dimension shit fell apart over there#both liv and ohnn were distraught and tried looking for them but eventually gave up#theyre gone for years before they manage to find home after all…….. they just assume theyd been offed or something#so umm. i think thats it 😁 i love dreamy i think theyr great#still not sure what their home dimension is called though. i like 8084 but im not sure#so yay My spidey baby Teehee ^__^ i like thinking about their lore a lot ithink its fun
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listen there’s already so little yuri/sapphic content in fandom can we PLEASE stop referring to mlm couples as yuri guys
#idk this is a too much caffeine thought I’ll probably regret posting#I just see it SO often and it’s like……you guys can’t even respect actual yuri or give them the time of day#so maybe stop looking at mlm couples and calling it ‘yuri’#like listen yes lesbianism and gender is all a spectrum and do what you want etc#but also…….maybe consider being normal about sapphic shipping in fandom guys#I know usually it’s done it a teehee joking manner but also as someone who sees so much shit given to actual yuri pairings in fandom#it rubs me the wrong way#tbd probably#I’ve just seen too many posts the last couple days like this
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I'm genuinely curious how the other students of this class are finding these papers (if they're reading them) because a lot of them are very mathematical which is easy for ME but for an arts major idk....
#like between the math and the comsci aspects of every paper i feel like this would be confusing or at least over the head of someone who has#no proximity to these concepts but also like i am SURROUNDED by these things in my everyday studies#so its all very natural for me to read about but idk how different it is for someone strictly in arts yknow?#like *I* know about differential equations and (basic) physics and vectors etc etc but do the other people??#i know one other kid in my class is mathphys and so definitely knows these things#but what about the other students?#like these are concepts above even calculus (just barely tho)#but idk if it even takes away from the paper if you dont know#like i guess you wouldnt get to FULLY appreciate what is being argued for but the broad ideas should still come across#i feel like this paper at least is being VERY clear in breaking down what everything means as equations appear but still maybe theres#concepts used in those explainations that are lost on not maths people#IDK!!!!!#i just think its interesting to think about#in class the prof does a good job to also explain the concepts in a way that retains their mathematical nature but still make sense to not#maths people or at lease *I* think so but again i AM a math major so i understand these things more naturally#well not naturally that implies inherent understanding but i mean i see it all the time so it is more incorporated yknow?#anyways back to work BYE BYE!!!!!!#this assignment is going to be late anyways BUT i need to keep working teehee ^.^
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ok yayyy robinfreckle time...
#SOOOO BASICALLY. the first invasion of the camp where coyotespeck was like Time to slay!#so basically. shadefall was da medicinecat for a long time and finallyyy got an apprentice heatherpaw. and heatherpaw is soso sweet like sh#and softspoken but super super good at her medicinecat duties. shes calm understanding sweet amd evrything. also backstory#for heatherpaw. she was the only surviving kit of her litter and her mom was robinfreckle teehee. n now robinfreckle has justtt given birth#to another litter basically. and heatherpaw is just checking up on her like da day after like omg heyy how is it just gotta do checkups..#meanwhile shadefall is talking to burntstar about heatherpaw becoming a full medicinecat bc like i said Shes really good. andthen all hell#breaks loose THE CAMP IS BEING INVADED!! AAAA and heatherpaw even tho she has nooo warrior training is holding them off from the nursery#shes reeally good and she keeps them out but also gets fatally injured. and also so does robinfreckles MATE crowtalon. sad..#shadefall rushes to the nursery but theres nothing he can do for heatherpaw shes going 2 die. and hes like crying super hard bc he like. sa#her as a daughter essentially he was so so proud of her. and he feels like he shouldve been able to save her.. but shes like. content bc#she knows she protected the queens n everythang.. n her only question was like Was i a good medicinecat. and shadefall is like trying not 2#sob and hes like yes 😭you were the best apprentice i ever couldve asked for#and heatherpaw just kind of like smiles and then dies. VERY SAD!! and then shadefall is like ohh fuck there was a huge battle i need to do#my job. even tho hes all alone again and he keeps like turning to ask heatherpaw to do something but heatherpaw doid etc...#and then robinfreckle. is distraught over losing her kit yk.. like i said she already lost heatherpaws littermates and now shes lost#heatherpaw too. and then she finds out her mate was horrifically wounded and she falls into such a bad depression she cant care for her kit#and she absically just sits silently by crowtalons side in the medicine cats den and just. prays that hell live. but he doesnt saddd sadd#after a couple weeks he dies. and shadefall and her r like. commiserating basically.. bc crowtalon was his brother and obv he cared a ton#abt heatherpaw bc she was his apprentice. so hes like. theyre both grieving rly hard obbbbviously. and robinfreckle starts to do better#and then both of her kits die. SAD. and shes back at rockbottom she feels like she lost everything. and burntstar is like We have to leave#and shes like. i cant leave their graves. i cant leave behind my family. theyre all i ahve... and then shadefall is like. robinfeather. we#might be leaving their bodies here but they will always alwaysbe looking down from starclan!!! they would want you to be happy they would#want you to keep going!! and even if you feel like nobody is with you physically I am here... and robinfeather is like. omg trueee....#and agrees 2 go aww. and after a while her and shadefall become mates#and as of rn they only have one kit together lichennewt. and idt theyll have anymore bc theyre both oldd#but lichennewt (whos name i might change bc i dont like the double n) looks justtt like heatherpaw basically. so theyre like wahh#and lichennewt is suchh a sweetie even tho hes a warrior.. and he got with podtail btw :] they had a kit but he doid sad. rip shrewpaw it#was just after his apprentice ceremony too UGH..#but yaa im emo abt them.. robinfreckle is the one who died btw. it was a rockslide. but i brought her back bc i was so so mad abt it#literally went into the like savefile and i was like dead = false actually ^-^
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#hi its personal post as tho tumblr is my diary in the tags while still being vague time bc my coping strats are failing me a little and#ig being able to essentially shout into the void is kinda nice like i cld physically write things down but i did a lot of that#already today w sssitnments and my fjfknging joints hurt so here we are!#ig theres also comfort in knowing someone somewhere probably read it. regardless of what they think/feel/the impression it gives them bc.#like. i exist! i guess? idk.#anyway that being said tw for talk of sh and upsettio spaghettio n stuff.#but yeah im like 🤏 close to relapsing with cutting or some sort of. idek.#and the only reasons im resisting are like. its been so long and itd be a shame to break that streak#which funnily enohgh mskes another part of me wana do it MoRE to like. idk. remember. and. punish ?? idk.#but we're ignoring him rn hes being a little too edgy.#and then bc it would feel like im being manipulative and ik if ppl find out they would probably be very . distressed.#and if it were me and i found out i know id be incredibly distressed and maybe a little scared and just knowing other ppl like it just#would not help the situation ykwim itd probably make things worse#also kinda too tired physically emotionally etc rn to do it and go thru it and the aftermath and having to clean up and take care and#trust myself to be. safe. enough. abt it.#but. now hear me out. IF i do it somewhere that isnt super obv or visible. i doubt theyll know anytime soon.#and if things go. in a way thats.. i dont think i can cope with then well ill prob end up right back in this feeling without the like#withstraint of someone who cares and wants to care abt themselves and others and want to control themself and behaviours and health#but that thought in itself feels manipulative bc its like saying either way i wld prob do it teehee like a threat but. its. oeurghgnnfd.#i just. am struggling to cope. i feel things. so much. and. hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#i think if i have made it this far for this long i will be able to keep going without resorting to that?#but i really do hate that its like. wld be. yeah like turbo bad.#a very small and fucked up part of me feels like if things do go bad then what does it even matter and even better if whoever were to know#that i HAD relapsed bc ig at that point its like. idc who is upset or disappointed or uncomf or scared of/for me and thinks im terrible bc#at that point like. things are all. tumbling (lol) snd messed up so if i am messed up then whatever! ig. ????#but umm. yeah. idk i guess im just frustrated with my own . caring abt being responsible and stuff#there was a time when i was not as likely to be able to resist consequences be damned#im like over here going thru the stages of grief on god fr fr no cap on the stack or whatever ppl say#in other brighter news i managed to get a bit of work done on one of my assignments and some needed friend time but wasnt actually able to
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