#letters i can’t send

[princessdollie111]

STOP BEING FUCKJNG NICE TO ME I WANT TO HATE U DUMBASS SON OF A BITCH

[laterinjune]

september, did you ever have to catch your breath in breakneck intervals as a desperate attempt to save your life? did you have to resist the urge to bang your head against the grey walls of your bedroom? have you ever had dangerous thoughts of smashing your guitar on the cold, hard tiles of your floors? push the buildings off your shelves? curse your father out at the dining table?

do you do it on purpose: serenade every single woman to sleep, become the love interest in their dreams? do you purposefully leave them in the darkness after flickering your flashlight on them?

do goosebumps crawl over your skin when faint whispers of love pass right by you, or are you already sick of things before even starting them? do you make your victims feel as sick as they make you? do you ever feel sick? because i do. i do, i do, i do — but you don’t. you never. the words you speak to me are both the cause and antidote of my what-ifs and deluded desires; my words, for you, however, are mere second things — a prayer already answered, spoiled food left on the back burner, a letter swept under your bed. they are words already heard from a person that was never meant to be me.

did you ever mean to do that to me?

did you know? have you ever known?

i don’t know if i want you to.

[tristanrhayes]

was supposed to rant to piano and then got spooked so i will be emo over here in hopes it is not seen bc spooky x2

being back in my hometown is hard. i knew it would be. i told you so i wouldn’t bother you with it when it hit me. somehow i still feel burdensome when i get upset and am scared to talk about it because most of it is stupid anyway. the last time i was here i was so lost. you know that. i really didn’t have much. a lot has changed obviously but seeing the same things gives me the same feelings. before that, i was here for the start of the downfall. memories are everywhere. with that comes feelings.

i don’t know how to describe the thing going on with z emotionally. im not their biggest fan at the moment but its not like i want anything bad to happen between the two of you. even if i hated them i wouldn’t hope for that because i know how hard it would be on you. four years ago i was in the same place hating them. wanting them gone more than anything. jealous that they got your attention for even a second. even if i don’t want that now i still get the anger that comes with it.

it’s not even really anger towards them. im not angry at anyone but myself. my chest hurts every time i remember i wasn’t enough and likely never will be. not in a “oh let’s be monogamous” way because i don’t want that. more like “i am so lacking and am constantly reminded of that fact”. i’ve worked so hard to change who i am. why am i back where i started? i haven’t felt this unstable in months.

these are the best days of my life and somehow i feel more alone than i have in years. i don’t know how to explain it. we’re always talking. i guess with my work and your sleep and general depression on both sides and everything else going on it’s hard to just have a full day with you. there’s always some interruption. even when we do call we both do our own thing until you fall asleep. and then it disconnects before i do. and then the day is over and it feels wasted. you were talking the other day about being scared i was going to get bored of you. i worry you’ll think the same of me. im not exactly giving you anything you can’t get elsewhere.

im stressed about money and visas and school and just making it to next year or next month or next week or tomorrow. this is so hard to do alone. i know i have you, but i am physically alone. even just waking up next to you would take all of this away. im so tired of everything and just want it to be over already. i want to be there and not have to worry about all this. i want everything to fix itself. im tired of fixing everything myself. i usually make more of mess of it first anyway.

i’ve thought about writing about it. i don’t even know what i would say. “im in the best situation ive ever been in and somehow im crumbling more than ever”? “at least when i was a bad person i didn’t care about any of this”? “im a big whiny baby about everything because nothing is perfect enough for me boo who life is hard”? pretty shitty bars.

i know i have you but i can’t stop myself from wondering for how long.

[butterfliesoverfeelings]

All My Love, All My Love.

“You’ve got all my love, Whether it rains or pours, I’m all yours. You’ve got all my love, Whether it rains, it remains. You’ve got all my love. All my love.”

These words, simple yet profound, have become my silent anthem—a confession whispered into the void, a love I can’t hold, a future that will never be mine.

Today, I saw an old man, (Mr. Dick Van Dyke from Coldplay’s video - All my love), his face etched with years of stories and laughter. In his weathered frame, I saw you—your future. My heart ached as I imagined the world that will embrace you in the years ahead: people who will walk beside you, love you, laugh with you. And then the realization struck, sharp and unyielding—I will not be one of them.

I am but a fleeting fragment of your past, destined to dissolve into the folds of time. You will carry forward with the same twinkling eyes that once held me captive, and the same laughter that could light up the darkest days. The years will carve their story into your skin, your silvering hair a testament to the life you’ve lived. But I won’t be there to trace the constellations of time upon your hands or hold them as they weather.

I won’t be there to see your smile deepen with the wisdom of age, to hear your voice soften with time. I won’t be the reason for the joy that spills from your lips like sunlight after a storm. Instead, I’ll become a forgotten melody, a shadow lost in the noise of your brighter days, a memory buried so deep it may never resurface.

Yet even as I fade, my love remains. Unwavering, absolute—echoing silently in the corners of my heart. I am tethered to this love, to a quiet longing that neither time nor distance can erase. You will move forward, and I will watch from afar, unseen and unremembered, tracing stars not on your skin but in the vast expanse of my own yearning.

In that yearning, with all my love, I will carry you—forever.

Yours truly,

A Love destined for Shadows.

©butterfliesoverfeelings

[corsairspade]

Halenthir scenario where they get married for tax benefits (in a platonic good friends sort of way) and fall in love long distance via sending each other letters with ideas on how to best leverage their marriage for tax evasion.

[baura-bear]

I wanna live in a world where pen pals thrive

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

In The Roses of Pieria

dark fantasy romance

a woman takes a well-paying but suspicious sounding job as an archivist working for a mysterious estate owner, and finds herself translating numerous never-before-seen artifacts from her specialty field on an ancient civilisation

as she begins to translate romantic letters between two ancient figures and unravel more about them, her frustration over the knowledge being kept secret and confusion over what the letters reveal grows

but between that and her developing feelings for her employer’s assistant, she finds out that getting to close to these secrets is dangerous

lesbians, vampires, fey

[tristanrhayes]

oh to be one you love again. i miss you always. it takes everything in me to not scream how deep my love runs everytime i see you. you’re so beautiful.

[loveisnotfinite]

I am begging you Lukola, stop it. I don’t think I can handle to love you more than I already do.

[bucksboobs]

I would say it’s unrealistic to write a fic where Chris comes home after the summer only to find out Buck and Tommy have moved in but then I remembered Eddie canonically asked Marisol to move in within a week of Chris being out of town

[highspeedinterconnect]

this week has been fucking awful I just wanna lay down somewhere quiet w my gf and cats. holy shit

[sesamestreep]

the particular insult of getting a job rejection email for a position you’ve been interviewing for for 3 WEEKS and they don’t even have the consideration to spell your name correctly…

[theathenanebula]

tomorrow I’m giving notice at the job I’ve grown to hate ☺️

[inkykeiji]

goooood morning it is so rainy and dark out it makes me just want to crawl back into bed with bungou stray dogs and stay there all day >.<

[lovelettersicantsend]

november 29, 2024 | 6:44 AM

oh, i loved you—truly, deeply, with everything i had. i still do. but i have to let you push me away now. our bond, as much as it meant to me, isn’t healthy—not with everything you’re going through, and not with the boundaries i failed to honor within myself.

when i said all i wanted was to love you, i meant it with my whole heart. i wanted to pour every ounce of love into you, to make you see the beauty in yourself that you sometimes couldn’t. to sit with you in your darkness, to help you reflect, and to grow alongside you as we built something healthier, something lasting.

i think i’ll always love you. you’ll always hold a special place in my heart. but god, how i wish things were different. how i wish this wasn’t the ending we found ourselves in. and so, i’ll step back. i’ll let you go, just as you’re asking me to, and i’ll do it with as much grace as i can muster.

still, a part of me believes our story isn’t over. i’ll live my life while you live yours, and if the universe brings us back together someday, i’ll know i was right. but if it doesn’t—if this truly is goodbye—i’ll carry the peace of knowing i loved you with everything i had. and even then, i’ll find my own happiness, just as i hope you’ll find yours.

[marfromthestars]

how to confess to your crush that you’ve been obsessed with for 5 months and 16 days no glue no borax