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For lack of time to focus on one story, I've decided to write a very self-indulgent connected scenes, that I sincerely hope will never be published, except maybe for its (edited) epilogue.
#yup I wrote the epilogue first#I had a strong sense of what I wanted the ending to be#it's bad because I'm trying to emulate chinese culture#(in a way... taking my inspiration from xianxia)#but I'm fully aware I know nothing about chinese culture#so not matter how good my prose could be#it's going to end up inadvertently racist or leaning heavily on exotism#let me never publish it#btw I consider it part of tales of rheio#but probably more as a myth or so old that there are no contemporary recordings left to confirm it#and all texts about it were written one or more centuries after the events#this is quitet ironic considering it introduces a magical being called the Living Library
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Gael García Bernal & Raul Castillo in Cassandro (2023)
Raul Castillo: I saw Amores perros when I was still living in Austin before moving to New York. I saw a screening at the Paramount Theater on Congress Street at the Austin Film Festival. And I knew when I saw Amores perros that I was going to work with Gael García Bernal one day. I just knew it. And it became a reality last year. I got to work with Gael on a film called Cassandro. I was too sheepish to tell him. I'd be gushing if I did, and I didn't want to embarrass him like that. (x)
#gael garcia bernal#raul castillo#gael garcía bernal#cassandro 2023#cassandro#filmedit#ggbedit#filmgifs#cinemasource#lgbtcinema#lgbtsource#moviegifs#fyeahmovies#they never gave us any event with raul and gael together where i can use that quote with#so guess what mimi. i made this instead .#giffing cassandro is so fun. thanks penachino and molina#electricdreamachine#nonbinarybriarmoss#userlyudmilla#usertennant#i love the final gif frame sm. blocking of faces#ok let me just finally publish this sb
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came up with this promotional idea for my new book while I was very tired, may or may not live to regret it
(here is the book)
#into the tower#OUT NOW ACTUALLY#as a disabled author who cannot do conventions. i am simply trying to reach other nerds who might appreciate this book#this book is so on my bullshit and i love it but i DO fear publishers will never let me do another if it flops so reblogs always appreciate#solo ttrpg#cyoa
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actual footage of Maximus surrounded by the flames of my desire for him
#i was so excited to screencap this scene :D#i have multiple sets that i’ll be publishing and i am just#on the floor panting begging for some mercy from him honestly#there has NEVER been such a man#i simp for maximus at every stage of the movie but#general maximus is special#he’s so in control and in charge and strong and capable and competent#and authoritative and powerful and strong and courageous AAHHHHHH#i want him to take charge of me ifyouknowwhatimean#he’s so stunning in these shots#framed by the fires standing among the men he’s killed#mourning for the men he has lost#just taking a moment to realize that he’s survived again and he’s got so much work ahead of him still#but this is his last battle and he’s done now#ohhhh how i wish this had been his last battle#how i wish he had gone home and spent every day in the arms of his family#how i wish he could have brought life from the earth instead of being forced to take even more lives#he is so precious to me#so dear so wonderful so adored#i love him with all my soul#i wish i could be waiting for him in his tent#let him fall asleep in my lap while i stroke his hair and sing to him#I WANT TO LOVE HIM SOMEONE PLEASE LET ME LOVE THIS PERFECT AND PRECIOUS MAN#gladiator#maximus#maximus decimus meridius#gladiator 2000#russell crowe
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since your girly over here wants to redecorate her wall so she's making her own "movie posters" of her favorite bls
#never let me go#never let me go the series#thai bl#thai drama#bl drama#did y'all know that I spent three months in the unpaid internships for the illustration cycle#designing posters for a publishing house? no drawing#all graphic design#good times#anyway if y'all are interested in other series that migh not join this saga let me now#I'll work on a ifylita one next#bl poster
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INTERFACING - You let the empty bottle go. Upon contact with the ground it shatters into pieces that scatter, joining its intact brothers on the cold linoleum of your kitchen floor.
YOU - It'll hurt.
HALF LIGHT - Of course it will. Do not jump down from this countertop. You will cut yourself and bleed out through the soles of your feet.
INLAND EMPIRE - That's not what he meant.
ELECTROCHEMISTRY - What then, the hangover?
PHYSICAL INSTRUMENT - The shoulder?
VOLITION - The failure?
LOGIC - The resetting of the timer? Going back to day zero...
YOU - No.
ESPRIT DE CORPS - The idea of letting Kim know that he could not protect you from this. It rips a hole in your stomach for all to see.
YOU - But who else could I tell?
[VOLITION: Impossible] - Call Jean
[PAIN THRESHOLD: Challenging] - Call Kim
[ELECTROCHEMISTRY: Easy] - …
#disco elysium#harry du bois#the furies#alcohol abuse/alcoholism#ficlet#inspired by ''who do I tell/The idea of letting my mother know/she could not protect me from the world/#It makes me ill/So who do I tell'' that i wrote a while back but will never publish anyway so now im turning it into a DE ficlet#aka op recently reset a timer of their own and is taking it out on the poor fictional man theyre obsessed with dot jpeg
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Kana and Ruby were desperate to be seen by Aqua/Goro. Meanwhile, Akane sought to see—understand—the real Aqua.
Aqua shines the spotlight on Kana to save her from her bad habits. He does the same for Ruby, freeing her from her burden.
The manga puts a lot of emphasis on the way Goro was Ruby's light, on the way Aqua brought out Kana's radiance. We're shown that Sarina wants to marry him, that Kana wanted to be his idol. Despite this, neither is privy to the burden Aqua is carrying.
With Aqua and Akane, the manga paints a different picture: It actually allows Akane to get involved. Aqua saved her life and ever since she has been doing her best to save his heart in turn.
What's more: Goro has been saving people all along, but Akane is the one the manga has actively taking mesures to return the favor.
#aquakane#my aquakane meta#going through my drafts and I have a bunch of aquakane posts I never published#I'm pretty sure I never published this one because it mentions kana and ruby#but you know what: if aka wants to make a fool out of me I'm gonna give him the tools lmao#I'll serve them to him on a silver platter even#that said it's pretty obvious that sarina was goro's light while he was alive which I do consider more than enough retribution#if there's someone that can save him emotionally that's her#so let it be known that this is exclusively about goro's current life as aqua lmao
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Insane over the awakening trio again. We fought a war together, saved each other multiple times, and I know for a fact I can trust you with my life. We have never learned to socialize normally so we can't interact in a normal environment for five seconds without dunking on each other. I would follow you through time and space and abandon everything with you. You are the living reminder of every awful thing that have ever happened to me. Our traumas make us hurt each other at every turn. We're the only ones who know what lead to each other becoming Like That. Our jobs are barely in the same area and we don't even hang out that much outside of necessities. You are all I have left. I cannot fucking understand you. I am the only one in this entire world who has the ability to even try to.
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#my text#asks#fe13#This ask is so good I wanna publish it first without any of my commentary and then i'll rb it with my own comments later#this is just fun to read#thinking of this line in particular:#'Our jobs are barely in the same area and we don't even hang out that much outside of necessities. '#i don't show it enough in my fics because a lot of my fics are fates focused or au focused for convenience sake so i want the awakening tri#to be hanging out way more and have had their growth but canonically before awakening they really like. Do Not Associate.#i think of this for so many of the awakening kids in general but like. they all travel through time together. they go through something lik#the future past DLC together. their lives depend on each other so much. most of them cannot stand each other.#inigo and owain Do Not fucking get along and never have really until fates when they're both adults and even then they're ribbing each othe#there's no doubt to me that they have gotten into a physical fight at least once before. or they avoid each other and are extremely rude#when forced to work together outside life or death scenarios. especially pre-awakening.#in their supports owain tries to be nice to severa repeatedly and she goes out of her way to be extra rude to the point#that he has a crises about being weird. and even if their s support isnt' canon#severa notes that owain was always nice to her and she struggled with being nice back throughout their lives#inigo and severa don't get along either. inigo is trying to be “nice”/build his confidence of talking to others with compliments#but he's genuinely condescending and quite rude and doesn't listen to severa telling him to stop talking to her like that.#note: severa actively goes out of her way to be mean to a lot of people back then. she's not easy to get along with.#(interestingly she tells noire she only does this to take people down a peg and doesn't do it to people with no self esteem like noire.#(similar to niles in a way. to be explored later.)#These people are Not Close and they are not each other's first choices to hang out. and they probably were aware of each other in#childhood but much more aware when they're older. owain's childhood friends were probably the Justice Cabal.#severa canonically hung with noire tot he point where noire grew up relying on her. i suspect she hung with the girls most of all#inigo... i'm not sure he has any close childhood friends. which could be attributed to maybe (a) living in Regna Ferox with Olivia#if you believe they went with basilio after the first war#or maybe learning early on to hide his real self early on so he never lets anyone get close. he clearly Cares about everyone in a#'won't let anyone die if he can help it/won't let them die alone (gerome/owain)' kind of way#but is he Close with them? I don't think so. not until Awakening and he has A supports
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It turns out you don't have to worry about bots scraping your fiction to feed AI when your brother FEEDS IT TO THE AI HIMSELF!!!!
#letting my family read my fiction was apparently a mistake#my brother centers a large portion of his personality around thinking that chatgpt is hilarious#and saying things like 'you should write all your stories with ai because it's better and all books suck' any time writing is mentioned#but i never thought!#that his immediate response#to me trying to let the family engage with this part of my life by sending the link to my published story in the family group chat#would be to copy-paste it to chatgpt and tell it to generate a critical review#mind you: he has not read a word of the story himself#the less than 1000 word story#he has tried to apologize by saying he will actually read it as if this is something i should be grateful for#after he's already done this#another brother has tried to console me by pointing out it probably would have been scraped anyway#BUT I WANT THEM TO HAVE TO WORK FOR IT!
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I think there's some irony to the witcher books that while Ciri is the main character - it is all about her - the only reason the books etc have had the success they do is because it's from a man's perspective. If the books were from Yennefer's pov they definitely wouldn't have had the reach they do, and if they were wholly from Ciri's pov I doubt they'd be much more than a beloved but overlooked ya fantasy. I adore the Tamora Pierce books - Ciri's story isn't too far from Alanna's and yet there's not the same audience/ reach for Tamora Pierce.
#they speak#the witcher#the witcher books#im aware that the books had an english translation before the games but the games really made the books the phenomenon that they are#im not saying either that the books would have been better if they were from ciris pov#and that tp's books are ya not adult so ofc there's not the same reach - but most of the characters are adults for most of the books#they could have very easily been for an adult audience but would they have been published?#yes im aware that ciri does have a good chunk of pov in boe and tos is basically her book - but i think that reinforces the point#she gets half the first whole book and only gets her own book when there was an established audience#and yes im aware that tp has big reach but not nearly the same as the witcher#tp is big in the us yes but id never heard of her until one of my friends introduced me and let me read her copies from the us#and i was a huge reader as a kid - she just doesn't have the same international audience#i can't get her books from my local bookshops without ordering them - i know ive tried
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Has anyone endlessly dissected Armand's subtle Marius shade yet
#iwtv#iwtv armand#LESSER skill 💅🏽✨#im sincerely so curious to see how their dynamic plays out once he finds out marius is alive#bc it seems like he still thinks hes dead as of s2#as far as i can tell book!armand doesnt find out marius is alive until he reads lestats book?? which will never not fuck me up#book!lestat is truly aint shit for hearing armands Tale of Woe then kicking it at marius’s mcmansion for a week#writing and publishing a book about it meanwhile never letting his friend armand who he ‘loves’ know that his fucking maker is still alive#but anyway in the show theyre definitely leaning into armand being more embittered towards marius which i loveeee#vs in the books where he seems more ambivalent?#its hard bc u can make a strong reading of book!armand as deeply resentful#but unable to process that relationship enough to understand his feelings about it#but ar is so shit at character development/keeping emotional consistency that it feels like a fluke when something actually tracks#like theres a great moment in qotd where marius is seeing armand again for the first time since his ‘death’ and marius is all hugging him#and armand is just sort of solemn and passively allowing it and not rly engaging with him#but then when marius needs him armand goes to his side and comforts him a few chapters later#and i think theres a lot you can glean from those two interactions but since ar spends no time digging into that at all its like…..#did it even mean anything? or am i imagining a better story than im actually reading#she just has this knack for laying the groundwork of a deeply fascinating character dynamic and then never fully seeing it to fruition#even in armands own book which is largely dedicated to exploring that relationship his feelings on marius stay pretty unresolved#he feels conflicted at the start and conflicted at the end and telling his story doesnt illuminate anything he still just feels the same#i can sit around and make different interpretations forever but the text never Goes There enough to be satisfying for me#and im not fucking reading blood and gold so if the insight i seek lies within someone just tell me. pls
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sick of me that my fascination with tozer does stem from him seeing tuunbaq get collins' soul. get haunted tozer
#does one not bring habits#im thinking about him im thinking about him what if i dual poved solittle#also interested to see where this will lead if to anything in terms of like#idk its not like ive never written smut but ive never published anything#i usually prefer fades and like honestly just the build up but never letting the fucking happening BUT ALSO mind#this is all me talking about like middle to high school me its been so long#since ive written in general but fanfic is picking it back up#im only ranting bc to be so honest when i was writing the tobacco fic#ill be real i didnt think hartnell would possess me to kiss (nearly fuck) that old man#and its like idk i love the sexuality of vampires#im not going to worry if hickey is ooc sorry hickey fans he's gonna be what he is in this one
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Me a nosey and messy bitch:
Soooooooo, whats the hot take 🧐👀👂
i was gonna be like "come off anon and i'll tell you privately!" but honestly idgaf, this is my blog!!
i've been reading fanfiction since i was 9 years old, and writing it since i was in middle school. in my early teen years i mostly read fanfic for "het" ships (primarily nejiten, sasuino [lol] and shikatema.) as an older teen/adult i've been consuming more gay content. as y'all know i love team gai. my fave ships are kakagai, nejiten, and gaalee, so these are the ships i read the most fic of. and i've gotta say.
IN MY EXPERIENCE!!! fics for gay ships are usually way better written! BY A COUNTRY MILE!!! and idk why it is!! i have found NUMEROUS long + incredibly well-written fics for kakagai and gaalee, less so for nejiten. even searching ao3 and seeing fics for other "het" ships that nejiten is a side pairing of, just on the summaries alone i can tell A LOT of them are not for me....sorry! sorry!
like i don't want to be a mean and messy bitch but alas here we are. sometimes, the plots just aren't giving. like, they're not interesting! but also, i am primarily talking in terms of technical writing craft and skill!! summaries be riddled with grammatical issues and typos*, or don't make sense, or, again, aren't compelling and make me want to read the fic. or the characterization is abysmal! from blatantly out of character actions to, just, like, fundamental misunderstandings of the characters
i just find a lot of nejiten fics that are written exactly in the way that i used to write when i was 14!! and i'm sorry again! that may work for some people but i am a voracious reader and also want to write as my CAREER, so that's just not gonna cut it for me....
of my 3 favorite naruto ships, nejiten is the only one that i've been shipping SINCE the beginning of my days in the naruto fandom (aka when i was 9/10 years old!!) but of my 16 ao3 bookmarks, only 4 of them are nejiten-centric fics–two of them are by the same author (shoutout to @winterberryholly) and 1 of them is a oneshot.
hence the point of my original post. WHERE are the well-written, nejiten-centric fics that are, like, longfic. i've found cute oneshots or shorter fics here and there but it's like damn. what's a bitch gotta do for a 300k slowburn friends to lovers bi4bi ptsd trauma + healing nejiten fic? write it myself?!
TLDR my hot take is that gay ships tend to have much better written fic than "het" ships
#*understandable if english is not your native language. i get that and NEVER EVER discount a fic on that basis#but if you are an adult american naruto fan. writing in american english. and the fic is written like a 13 yr old wrote it? sorry but no!#and again. LIVE AND LET LIVE. i'm not saying people shouldnt post what they want to post. i'm just not gonna read it <3#it also doesn't help that i don't like most of the canon ships and there is hardly a nejiten fic where nh ss or si aren't included#and another thing. whenever i see a nejiten fic where lee is paired with a random girl i'm like wtf?#personal preference but lee is gay to me sorry. even if he's not with gaara. thats simply not a straight man#'oh but he was in love with sakura' 1. he barely knew her 2. ever heard of comphet?#like. i was hunting for a fic on ao3 last night and saw a fic where lee was paired with anko. wtf do yall be smoking!!! SORRY!#also. ironic that i'm saying all of this but just took down the literal 1 fic i had published on ao3#its b/c i am rewriting it b/c i have an idea for a sequel so i have to fix the first one djwajej#anyway. sorry if this shows up in tags i'm trynna keep it cute <3
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I have been thinking about the show and you guys a lot more, not just because we're approaching the anniversary of the end but because...it seems like LA ties keep popping up everywhere!
I know I haven't been active, but I do like coming back to see you guys on my dash even if I have no idea what you're posting about because I'm not part of those fandoms. I've been debating on coming back more -- or going back to that LOL, Z blog I started just to make sure I keep writing and staying in touch. So, we'll see.
Work has been crazy, and I just took the first actual day(s) off in a good while. I had some rough losses near the end of last year, and then huge project after huge project has meant not just working without days off but also working on my days off. Finally actually took a couple days off and did nothing. And I actually got a good amount of writing done, so now I don't want to go back. (I find I actually do get going a lot quicker if I start by hand, but my joints cramp up soooo quickly. It's always been annoying. ANYWAY.)
What finally prompted this was I was watching last night's SNL, and NCIS:LA got a mention, despite being off the air. (There was a joke about character actors and appearing on arcs on shows with titles that are only letters. There were four spots, and LA was the fourth. IT IS STILL REMEMBERED! But holy crap, how about that Hawai'i turn? Wow. Anyway.)
In the past year, small things have made me think about LA:
-Waking up to an old episode from a syndicated outdoors show (I sleep with the TV on, don't judge me) that featured Gerald McRaney talking about his acting career -- filmed years ago -- and doing outdoors stuff -Spotting Medalion in a small spot on New Girl -Being addicted to Disney Dreamlight Valley when I was redirecting my impulse shopping addiction into cozy gaming (that was basically ADHD-crack because of all the tasks you just have to complete!). How is this relevant? Because the only fish I could seem to catch most of the time? COD! -Todd popping up in new commercials all the time -Getting into Elsbeth and watching CBS shows on Paramount and hearing the little logo music after or before a show and remembering watching LA on the platform a lot towards the end
And I know there are many more, but age + too may back-to-back storms and natural disasters have made my memory even wonkier. (We currently have a joke about our "weekly tornadoes" here. It's funny because it's not completely a joke. Lololol.)
Anyway, I won't lie to say there wasn't some freedom and relief that came with the show's ending. But there are definitely parts of it I miss like you guys.
#just z being random#and z#so that's sort of normal#i actually made progress on that pilot/show I came up with as a half-joke#and then somehow got inspired to write it in prose form#which is what i was writing the other day#and for some reason it's sort of a cozy mystery novel now#but at this rate more of a novella#but anyway#if you need some inspo to get going#just start handwriting#and if you're ever bored and want to read chapters one day of a book that will never get published#about two widowers who meet at a crossword convention and solve a mystery#you just let me know
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Alex Aster is not a good writer.
It’s amazing to me that she has a publishing deal.
#lightlark#Alex aster#I’m trying to read#skyshade#and boy it just ain’t it#it would be one thing if it was just her first book#I’m more than willing to look past a debut novel’s flaws#if the premise is decent enough and the characters are likable#but when you continue on the same vein and aren’t checked on the substance#bro what’s the point#why do we consume books anymore#publishing has seriously gone downhill#also guys#let me say this#I take ‘booktok’ recs with a grain of salt#I try some of them in the hopes that I’ll find diamonds#some of y’all have never read quality writing and/or can’t tell the difference#itd be one thing if you said#I like this despite its obvious flaws because it’s fun to me#but some of you guys will swear up and down that these books are literary masterpieces#and I’m always like 👀👀👀#are we reading the same thing#and some of you don’t know the difference between genres……
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Nooo no no no I started reading a super cute Human!AU fic that now turning super sad and heartbreaking and oh so real and Crowley has early set dementia now and - no my heart is breaking. I don’t wanna-. But I’m hooked. BUT I know I’m gonna cry yet can’t put it down. Noooooooo 😭
#good omens#fanfic#human!au#good omen AU#you are all such good writers it’s unreal#some of these fics have sunk their claws into me and aren’t letting go#I never used to read fanfic but so many of these are way better than any published book I have read#y’all are doing gods work#Crowley#aziraphale
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