#let me be your butch dyke daddy!! | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

fer4ldyke · 6 months ago

Text

emilia. thirty-two. lesbian cis woman. she/they pronouns. !! this is a sapphic usfw / nsft blog. minors and cis men dni !!

hi, hello. welcome to my horny blog! my name is emilia ( em, emi, mills + anything nice you want to call me ) and i’m a service top in her desperate bottom era fsr??? who can switch a lot depending on the mood but mainly i’m really really into giving pleasure. i’m also a huge tease, god, i love teasing and make the other person a whimpering mess. i made this account because im ??? horny all the time ??? i’m a very hypersexual person and i need a place where i can pour my thoughts and needs without shame, so i hope this is the one. this is and will always be a safe space for trans people, bisexuals girlies and enbies, butches, femmes and everything in between. def not a place for cis men, but very friendly toward trans men although my interest stops there.

basics: should go without saying really but minors, terfs, swerfs, biggots in general, and pro isnotrael people dni. if you’re between 18 and 21 i have no issues as long as it remains platonic ( i can be your dyke godmother kitten don’t worry ). if i follow you but you feel uncomfortable with my age feel free to soft or hard block me no hard feelings there i completely understand. don’t be weird, don’t be disrespectful, but please, please be all the filthy you want. i can’t think about anything else but if i do i’ll add it here. bye.

icon image by jeniferprince . more under the cut.

LIKES AND KINKS.

general: respect and communication above all. good girls, rough doms, lingerie, toys, power bottoms, mean femmes, sexting, teasing, pleading, hair pulling, name calling, roleplay, bdsm. specifics:

using my mouth/my mouth being used. im so so into eating someone out or suck them dry fr i get so wet just thinking about it. i love to get my face ridden, too.

praise. i have uhh issues and i love being told im doing a good job or how good i feel. i’ve never been called a good girl or a good boy but fuck if i don’t want to. this applies while in a top or a bottom role i don’t care i just wanna be good for you.

edging. mostly i like to be edged. i have a hard time controlling my orgasms sometimes i cum really hard and really fast, i’d love someone who could tame me. however, edging someone and having control over their orgasms make me wild so … ungjjkl yes.

riding. god i love being ridden because my clit reacts wonderfully every time. i love having to hold back while i watch my rider move and bounce and moan. but i also like to ride, i get so fucking desperate i’ll definitely bruise you. just .. let’s ride each other, babe, please.

spanking. i have a heavy hand and i love having a whimpering mess across my lap. i love kneading a full ass, getting it red and tender and taking care of it gently afterward. come here, baby, let me spank you.

rough touch. i like to grab and bruise and being grabbed and bruised. i have firm hands and prominent curves, im not afraid to use them.

cocks. god, i get so wet thinking about them. i need to be dicked down so bad.

domming. i just thoroughly enjoy manhandling people, giving them orders, and having an overall obedient, pliant, sensitive little thing all for myself.

experimenting. trying new things, being shown new things … i’m very open to them as long as they’re not on my hard limits list, so … try me, babe.

already too horny to think of anything else rn but id most definitely be adding to this so keep an eye out ig!!!

TENTATIVES …

no. being called mommy. i can be daddy, but def not mommy. although this can change with time or depending on the mood, that’s why it is on this list.

yes. poly. i’ve never tried it before but i want to. i’d love being a couple’s toy, an inspiring third, an spectator … make your offer and let’s see ;) . THIS ONLY APPLIES TO WLW AND WLNB COUPLES.

yes. submitting. never done this before either but there are days ( and seasons lbr ) when i’m feeling really bottom-y and i’d love to try being submitted, manhandled, and fucked into next year by a good, feral domme.

yes. cnc/dub-con. i have a very healthy, experienced approach to this, especially with victims of abuse who use it to heal and/or decompress, but i like communication to be at its top so it is safe for both ( or more ) parts.

HARD LIMITS.

scat/piss kinks or anything body waste related.

anal. giving or receiving, just a hard no.

minors, ageplay, dd/lg.

furries, animal related kinks in general, zoophilia and the like.

#pinned.#about info.

1 note · View note

vaspider · 1 month ago

Text

Well, for one thing, because that's how art works. You take a thing that moves you artistically and you develop that into your own thing that reaches back and touches the thing that inspires you while making your own thing. Tom of Finland didn't spring into being with no artistic influences or references. Art must iterate or it dies. This would not be "taking the gay men out" but iterating it to say, "and also this, I am influenced by that, let me show you what I can do."

But, and just as importantly to me, there is and always has been solidarity and crossover between the butch communities - gay men and lesbians - especially when it comes to leather dykes & daddies. We are fistbumping each other through time. Some butches used to be gay men. Some gay men used to be butches. Some daddies are also butches right now. And so may it ever be, forever and ever amen.

I'm not saying it's definitely homophobic to use an AI slop machine to make art of women in the style of a gay artist famous for drawing men, but it's not NOT homophobic

762 notes · View notes

heeres-suffering · 4 years ago

Text

Be More Alluring: a Personality Swap AU

[pic description and source will be at the bottom of this post, under the read more]

Start of summary:

“You need to be more alluring.”

"... don’t you mean attractive?”

“I do not. Your attractiveness is adequate, Brooke; if you want to mask your apparently latent queerness, you have to make them want you straight. Isn’t that why your step-father defended you?”

Brooke Lohst is a loser.

But you know what? That was okay.

She always knew she was a weird one. The intensity of her affection for puppies, picture books, and near-constant daydreaming has lasted well-past a normalcy she can’t seem to grasp; when coupled with her inability to befriend anyone (besides the similarly self-identified loser Michael Mell), it’s not a surprise the rest of her peers have left her behind.

However, there were... ah, worse things in her life to worry about then some mild bullying. She liked her passion well enough, and all of her true insecurities went largely unnoticed, so any insults or weird looks rarely lingered in her mind. It’s not like she was a constant target either, which helped a lot. All in all, she just planned to hunker down, wait out the awkwardness of High School like everyone else, and move on to the rest of her life...

Except.

When Brooke develops a crush on a girl she’s never talked to, after years of avoiding fairy tale romance and trying not to think about the inevitability of marriage (or how finicky her attraction to boys is in the first place), it feels like her whole world is about to cave in. She’d do anything to make sure her parents, especially daddy, never find out... including buying an edible super computer from the loudest, tiniest guy in school.

End of summary.

Alright!

Hi, hello, it’s Mod Seb, and here’s an AU I’ve been rolling around for a few days! You are free to do with this concept whatever you want, but I wanted to introduce it with a good chunk of the info I’ve already worked out in my head.

So. As the CWs are... too numerous, I’m going to go with a blanket “Dead Dove: Do Not Eat” label and encourage you not to read the rest of this if you have any big darkfic triggers that could be upset by mere mention; this isn’t a fic tho, so descriptions of anything awful won’t last long.

Although, I will mention upfront that Brooke isn’t a binary lesbian. I know the description might read like I’m setting her up to be 100% homosexual; she’s bi with a strong preference for girls, and anyone who presents soft enough in gender or appearance. If it wasn’t for the end-game pairings, her unfamiliarity with smaller details/history of the LGBTQ+ community, and general “gay newb” status, she’d likely ID as a bi lesbian!

(ships and everything else under the Read More)

Okay. That out of the way, there’s quite a number of pairings; I’m pretty sure it’s a super polyamorous and sexual AU, though you’re free to change this list as much as you’d like:

[bolded are end-game ships. italics physically hook up at least once. strike-through means they were in a relationship but break-up in some way before the ending. (H) stands for healthy, while (T) is toxic and/or noncon. underlined characters are pining for the other and may never confess their true feelings]

Brooke/Christine (H), Brooke/Rich (H), Brooke/Jenna (H), Brooke/Michael (H), Brooke/Chloe (T), Brooke/her Daddy (T), Brooke/Squip (H), Brooke/Jeremy (soft T at first bc of mirrored canon-compliant manipulation, H later on), Brooke/Squip/Jeremy (H), Brooke/Squip/Jeremy/Rich (H), Rich/Moses (H), [insert every form of Rich/Mo/Squip/Jeremy here] (H), Jeremy/Chloe (T), Jeremy/Michael (H), Michael/Christine (H), Michael/Christine/Mr. Heere (H; no, seriously), Madeline/Brooke (H)

This is, of course, a role swap AU where Brooke and Jeremy trade places based on my personal lore for their home lives. I always have some pretty fucked ideas as I don’t imagine MB is a great place with great adults, and I pick and choose which parts of canons I use and which I don’t.

There is no definite ending planned in mind as this isn’t an outline; it’s meta (or an imagine or w/e) for an AU that you’re free to do whatever with.

So,

The big difference is that Brooke was picked by Michael, while Jeremy was picked by Chloe. Jeremy is trans and hadn’t come out yet; if Chloe had known he was a boy, she wouldn’t have grabbed him. In contrast, Michael’s never gave a shit about potential friends genders.

Jer and B’s personalities... are altered some. Not ALL the way, but kiiinda fusing into their roles, kinda tweaked (I'll get back to that).

The main point of this for me was Brooke/Squip/Jeremy, with B/Jer having a MUCH stronger focus than in canon, and a really bad Chloe acting as one of the major villains.

Michael gets roped into Chloe’s shit, even tho he's still generally a good guy here, bc he's worried about B and thinks she can't properly take care of herself.

While B DOES have a strong crush on Christine, she’s the opposite of the Squip’s “goal”; that’s (obvs) masking, or making passably digestible, her queerness.

Her Mom and step-’Daddy’ have reacted to her friendship w/ ‘openly gay moms, also very flamboyant and GNC’ Michael... poorly.

Michael thinks the solution has to be “act as aggressively yourself as you can, and if they reject you, you know me and the mom’s have a space for you”. This works for him bc he’s permanently hyper-visible, what with all of his own marginalized identities. But, not only has she flied under the radar in comparison to him for years, he doesn’t know everything about her life.

In fact, he doesn’t know most of it. She’s very good at hiding things.

Meanwhile, Jeremy, one of the more popular ‘boy... ish’ (we’ll get to this, too) people in school, is mid-psychosis and self-destruction. He actually has schizo-affective disorder--as is the case with all of my versions of Jeremy--which he needs medication for. Combined that with so many bad influences and trauma, he can no longer fully control himself or his life.

The way he handles this (badly) is to ‘whore around’--which, besides being Chloe’s pet, is kinda why he’s so popular. Nobody respects him, but he’s viewed some form of favorably.

Jeremy is in a relationship with Rich, but he won't let him get as close/protective as Rich wants; Mo and Rich were doing their own man-whoring (but healthy, just droppin’ panties and making dudes and chicks swoon--yeah, Rich is out as bisexual, this is a very ‘the Squips are a good thing’ AU) to gain their standard reputation, but in the course of that, they got together with Jeremy and it became... complicated. Both of them are very "nnn" about how bad his life is for Jer.

The way that their personalities are altered is... okay. To explain this, I have to talk about my characterization of canon-Brooke and Jeremy in relation to this, starting with Brooke:

I imagine B as just a liiittle below the line of "all the way there" for sorta-similar reasons to Jeremy here: trauma, and Chloe (which is why that’s what Jeremy gets in this, it’s just WAY worse when compounded by everything else). She’s also--like me, and like almost every character I write as a result--autistic, in a near-permanent state of “not enough accommodations” and over-stimulation. This leads to a lot of dissociation and a very wandering mind, as well as being perceived as a bimbo or dumb blonde or w/e misogynistic bullshit is projected onto her by the boys she dates (she’s also much more down the middle bi outside this AU).

So, going back to how she is for this AU: she's actually not super nerdy, despite the close connection she and Michael have. Honestly, it’s their general neurodivergent weirdness that bring them together, and so she’s mostly adopted her nerdy interests through him, whether directly a thing he likes, or finding a whimsical variant that fits her tastes.

Obviously, unlike Jeremy, she doesn’t mind being called a loser. She does any insinuation she might be queer. This including anyone who calls her gay or a dyke.

She has too much Cis Male Trauma (unlike canon, where it comes from both cis angles) to really entertain the idea of a Traditionally Male Partner. This means she skews HEAVILY towards hard GNC guys at the very least, and generally finds herself most interested in the idea of enbies and women. she's also not super into butches tho, bc her trauma mixing with her sexuality has latched on to Strong Masc People Are A Threat.

An expansion on her interests, in canon and otherwise: animals, ASMR/sensual service work (including massages and stuff), spending hours just sorta sitting by herself and letting her imagination wander, fairy tales, and YA-and-under fantasy books.

(Here, she tries to avoid het or f/f romance... except that, this past year or two, she’s started really like m/m stuff--esp after getting REALLY into drag shows, which she could enjoy safely since girls like Chloe have gotten into them too; in canon, she’s a romance fanatic)

Now... this is one of the really darkfic element; she's fucking her step-dad.

She does this so that he doesn't walk out on her, her mom, and her little sister*. Her mom has a good-enough job as a standard office woman, but he makes enough to pay the rent on their nice townhouse and all the bills she can’t. So, after he expressed interest in Brooke and then casually mentioned he could always just leave if she wasn’t comfortable, she reluctantly entered a relationship with him

(* = her sister is currently know as her brother; he’s like 12 or 13, and started showing signs of trans/queerness which have been Heavily Discouraged. Brooke worries about him a lot)

((I didn’t use she/her pronouns bc I’m not entirely sure he would change them? This is an OC Oli created at the beginning of our interest in BMC, and we haven’t worked on him at all since, so how his characterization will be is up in the air))

Canonically, Brooke's "in love" with her daddy, which is a self-imposed delusion; if she actually addressed it, she’d says she’s well aware that’s not true, but it's so much easier to pretend when you’re cornered like that. Brooke’s life blows.

She’s a lot more honest to herself about hating him here; still, she tries to be as polite and generally-friendly as she can, doing what he says whenever he wants.

OKAY, THAT’S BROOKE. If any of that is badly described or potentially-offensive, it’s just bc I glossed over SO MUCH DETAIL, even in that amount of it!

So. Jeremy.

I don’t have to go over him much and we’re all mostly aware of how I feel about him and also I don’t have the energy to do this again--

(just... read my fics The Devil at your Door or hello yesterday or something... eyyy actually do that, my ao3 username is Sedusa, blah blah blah ANYWAY)

--but basically: He's still very nerdy, like, he’s super into film as well as video games (which is another constant for me), but after being largely ignored in elementary, he's been trailing behind Chloe at her orders since they were in 6th grade. As a result he isn't very open about... any of his interests.

In 7th grade, he came out as trans to everyone. Chloe was furious, but at the same time, intrigued; this was around the time Chloe gets her own... ah shit I gotta go into that too--

--yet another hc of mine is that Chloe gets a Squip on accident around this time at a party (there was one in a “”candy bowl””), and from there, she claws her way up the ladder. I... will not go into that much, but her Squip was crippled by the drugs and alcohol in her system, and therefore largely at her mercy. She’s used his power to manipulate certain things about herself and to sharpen her focus on popularity to the point she’s full-blown Alpha Bitch.

Man, I’ve had to go on so many tangents, I apologize.

Anyway, she drags Jeremy around as a punching bag. She constantly mocks Jeremy's transness, even though she usually calls him by his correct name and pronouns.

This has made the rest of the school follow her lead, hence why I said “boy-ish”; he’s popular, he’s technically ‘well liked’, but nobody really takes him seriously. This is compounded by Chloe’s refusal to let him dress in 'dorky' casual clothes, and, as he’s both too poor to afford designer clothes and also generally hates popular guy fashion, he has to wear the hyper femme clothing Chloe specifically tells him too/

As such, people call him a boy but largely see him as either an idiot, a slut, an attention seeker, or all of the above.

So of course, in Brooke's place, his neurodivergence is more prominent than ever; every day he slips further into this psychosis and self-infantilization haze, as his his mom leaving, his dad severely depressed, Chloe's sexual violence, and other repressed trauma (see: my fic hello yesterday on ao3) all weighing on him. This makes him INCREDIBLY regressed, like, all the time by Junior year.

And then Brooke's Squip (IE: canon Squip) falls in love with Jeremy extremely fucking hard. He pushes her to date him as a way to compromise on her queer desires, since Jeremy is technically a boy, and certainly a few other straight-ish girls have hooked up with him in the past.

WHEW. That is a fucking lot. To wrap this up, lemme go over the interpersonal relationships not already mentioned, and what directions I think it takes.

First off, Madeline has a more prominent role, as I quite like her tbh; she’s a sex worker, she has her own Squip, she’s one of Chloe’s most hated enemies, and she gravitates towards both Brooke and Jeremy. She’s also Actually French, Chloe’s just weird.

(Anyway she prolly sees through Brooke’s straight act and asks her why she’s pretending to be a good little cishet. It rattles Brooke.)

Chloe is scum. This bears repeating. She DEFINITELY rapes Brooke at the Halloween party, and becomes obsessed with her, along with already being obsessed with Jeremy and Jake.

Jake, by the way, has a lot of regressive behavior and impulsiveness bc he’s been in an abusive relationship off and on with Chloe for years now.

Speaking of Jake, moving on to his best bro: Rich doesn’t set himself on fire. He’s having a good time with his Squip.

But.

He IS set on fire at the Halloween party.

Instead of the Smartphone Hour being about Rich's instability, it's actually about the mystery of Someone Did It To Him But No One Saw Who It Was, They Were Disguised.

The answer relates to the fact that Rich and Brooke are ALSO hooking up, after she’s already with Jeremy, bc he Properly introduces her to him and the three of them hit it off really well.

(She initially wasn’t interested, but while Rich is loud and still kinda abrasive, his Squip doesn’t drive him to act like a bully--and in private, his nerdiness is really obvious and he’s extremely gentle with her and Jeremy. Add to that that he’s bi and trans*, when Brooke connects best w/ queer men over cishet one, and it off-sets his masc-ness enough to make him an Exception.

* = I always imagine him as trans. See: all of Vanceypants fics.)

Sooo... the culprit is actually Brooke's daddy, who sees her with this obvious heartthrob and Cannot let that be.

Chloe convinces Michael that the Squips are Very Very Bad and has him team up with her to force Brooke into drinking Red, with the intention to convince him to kill himself after to get him out of the way, bc she’s really going nuts at this point.

Eventually, he snaps out of it when he and Christine get together (he’s thought he was Full Homo all of his life, but Christine’s prolly genderqueer-ness makes him realize “oh shit, I’m bisexual”) and she starts to question why he’s acting the way he is towards Christine.

He also definitely has a crush on Jeremy and during his time with Chloe he kinda tried to flirt a little but couldn’t really... he’s not up for dating someone as sexually active and a push-over as Jeremy is in this.

However, when he snaps out of Chloe’s manipulation, he and Christine approach Mr. Heere to convince him to straighten up and help Jeremy and also bc they really need an adult to successfully fight Chloe.

This requires a month+ of Christine getting him to see her psychiatrist (the one who prescribes her ADHD meds). Jeremy spends the majority of his time staying with Chloe, and very rarely comes home to gather things or to make sure his dad is eating/still alive, as much as he can remember to in his own haze of mental illness. Anyway, point is, he doesn’t know Christine and Michael are there often... not that, in the course of growing close to Mr. H, they both fall for him hard and it becomes one of my stranger OT3s.

(God, Jeremy goes through a lot of shit in this, tho.)

Pre-Squip, Jenna was kinda-sorta Brooke’s friend--or, well, friendly. However, she’s actually full blown “oh my God she’s wonderful” in love with Brooke.

Brooke isn't aware of that, esp since Jenna tries her not to be around her a lot. She's also trying to hide her own queerness, bc she’s a trans woman and she knows Chloe finding that out would be extremely dangerous.

Eventually, Chloe succeeds in making Brooke take the Red months after canon usually ends, w/o Michael’s help. If you’re curious, Red doesn’t affect her normal Squip bc she’s had him too long and a lot of his receptors and stuff are damaged, so it’s the second one she gets in canon that turns off.

This plan backfires, however, as Brooke’s Squip comes back with a physical body w/ help from Rich and also-bodied-now Moses.

With a body, and shenanigans, Mo and Squip take out Brooke’s daddy too. His life insurance more than makes up for the loss of his income, as it’s a sizable amount. Now that Brooke feels more empowered and strong, she overrides her mother’s neglectfulness and takes control of the household w/ her boyfriends*, comes out as queer, helps her sister transition, and begin to heal from all of this trauma.

(* = Rich and Mo move in, as does Jeremy eventually, after graduation; Jeremy gets a psychiatrist and a therapist and prolly has to go through some intense outpatient care and possibly a stay in the hospital, before finally making major breakthroughs and looking like himself again. The five of them are now happy and in love.)

Chloe, after her arm gets twisted by the Squip’s protective presence so thoroughly, gives up on Jeremy and Brooke to focus on Jake. This too gets abandoned when Rich and Mo help him cut her off, and so she stays in her own popularity bubble, bitter, until graduating and going to a community college in a different state.

All in all, things work out well in the end, but getting there is a long, difficult process. This AU fascinates me immensely and feels like a great way to examine some of my really dark headcanons about MB, as I think it’s a town similar to Derry in Stephen King’s IT--as in, just chronically The Worst Place Ever, with this, like, miasma of low-key despair around it. People adjust and don’t question it, which is why so much of BMC is this flippant dark humor in the face of some highly questionable shit.

I’m so sorry this post is so long (I’ll be uploading it to AU under my usual Sedusa account, as metas like this are more than allowed), but I really adore these characters and the way they can be twisted around, so I had a lot to say!

Thank you for reading <3

-mod Seb

image description: virtual-like stairs pointed forward and bathed in neon yellow and blue to represent Brook and Jeremy, which I’ve modified from the original blue-only design.

source: x (link description: a free Wallpaper Flare image that I found off Google Image’s “filtered by ‘labeled and reuse with modification” feature)

6 notes · View notes

fifidunks · 7 years ago

Photo

My fav parts of this Cathie Opie interview got cut cause too something. I can’t let go!

FD: You're known to me for your iconic images of queer and lesbian women. One of my favorites is Miggi & Ilene, Los Angeles 1995. Before I moved here, LA was lore to me by several friends as a power lesbian mecca. Which I feel like I've maybe slid next to or observed from a kind of proximity, but I'm not in it. I was wondering if you could address this myth, or maybe it's not a myth.

CO: Usually, what connotes a power lesbian is financial success. And often that comes through the industry. And I think the industry in terms of LA is a very different kind of idea than the queer community that I came out of in San Francisco. You have this mechanism in place for a power lesbian here. And yeah, I know them. I know some of them. I know Ilene obviously. I made the picture of her, and other power dykes so to speak. But it's funny because they've always felt very different from my community here. Miggi and Ileen threw my first party for me at their house, and I remember they were really nervous about having all my friends from the leather community, that I had made portraits of, come to their home. And then after the party, they were like, “Oh my God, your friends are some of the nicest people I've ever met.” And I'm like, “What the hell did you think like that we were gonna come in and like trash your house?” So, it is interesting, now I exist through a collector base from that power queer world of LA, and I have financial success at 56 years old. My friends and I were scrappy, and the power lesbians seemed really foreign to us. And that's partly where Being & Having came around. We would all wear our fake mustaches and go out on motorcycles outside of Amelia’s, which was the only seven day a week lesbian bar in LA. These lipstick lesbians would come out and we'd be there with our mustaches and our chaps and being all sassy, like, "Hey babe, you wanna ride home on my bike?" And they'd be all like (screams calmly)...

FD: They didn't take you up on it?

CO: No, you know, because butchness down here was a very hard thing.

FD: Is it still?

CO: No, I don't think so anymore. You know where you could have a working class kind of lesbian identity, is Long Beach. Like they're DYKES. Here, up in the hills, like Hollywood, they're not dykes — they're les-bi-ans. And so, there is a, you know, so when you think of power lesbian, the thing that you have to think of is that there was like a class division. That was very pronounced throughout the late 80's and 90's. Because like my friends and I, we were just doing shit like starting Club Fuck or Cinematic. We were creating queer performance culture here. Silverlake was awesome because it was queer bookstores, gay male leather clubs. It wasn't like Silverlake now. So Silverlake, as a community, you know when I lived there, and you know a lot of my friends still live there, it was like a queer mecca like the Castro was. It was fascinating.

FD: The author, Chris Kraus once said, or wrote, that when she was younger, sex was one way that people would traverse class — at least temporarily. AI was noting that among young people I know, that's not really so. It seems like people are sleeping with people in their same class. I was wondering when you were talking about these different classes of queerness, if hookups would break some of those divides at all?

CO: Not really in my group of friends. And I didn't think that we thought about things that way either. I think that that might be more of a gay male aspect in relationship to this idea of a Sugar Daddy, but I don't think that my generation of dykes thought about that. And also if you were butch in a butch-femme relationship, you're supposed to be the one that takes care of your partner if you're like in a butch-femme relationship. I've always been butch, and I'm butch...so....it's what I prefer. I had one femme girlfriend.

FD: Well what made the exception?

CO: I just always loved her.