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lanterns-and-daydreams · 2 months ago

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SOME TIG CHB HEADCANONS!!

-Xander is a Hephaestus kid.

-Grayson and Avery are Athena kids.

-Jameson and Rohan are Hermes kids.

-They hate that they're related and keep hiding each other's things and then fighting about it.

-Libby is Hecate's daughter.

-she sometimes uses potions in her baked goods.

-Thea is Aphrodite and Rebecca is from the Demeter cabin.

-Gigi and Savannah are Apollo's kids.

-Nash is Ares. Not all Ares kids are bad give em a break.

-Max is Apollo's kid.

-Jameson LOVES the climbing wall.

-Grayson loves the lake.

-He's friends with Percy and sometimes they both just sit down near the lake in silence and in comfort of each other's presence.

-Annabeth and Avery hang out and give each other riddles to solve.

-Xander is best friends with Leo and you'd think they're attached at the hip with how much mischief they get up to together and how they're always sitting around building things.

-TIRAMISU RIDING FESTUS'S HEAD WEARING A TINY PUPPY PAWTHORNE SIZED PARTY HAT!!!

-Xander knows about Bunker 9.

-Him and Leo call it their 'Super Secret Hawthorne-Valdez Hangout Forge"

-Drew and Thea do each other's makeup and help each other dress up.

-Wherever you find the Stolls, you will find Max.

-They're always giggling with each other, and when you look over at them, they will pretend they were doing nothing.

-Avery and Max love having sleepovers in each other's cabins.

-Max is amazing at Archery and playing the piano.

-Gigi, however, sucks at Archery, while Savannah is great at it.

-Clarisse looks up to Nash and actually acknowledges him as her older brother.

-They often train together.

-Everytime Libby learns a new spell, she always runs over to either Avery it Nash to show them.

-She has the greatest witch cackle in all of camp.

-Grayson’s weapon is a longsword.

-Max uses a bow.

-Savannah uses a gun, despite how limited it is.

-Jameson uses a javelin.

-Nash just fights with his bare hands (you go bro. Heizou would love you).

-He has a thing where he whispers a very low "yeehaw" under his breath before he beats the shit out of you.

-Avery uses a sword

-Thea has a dagger. It's decorated with roses and coated in poison.

-Rebecca uses her ability.

-Gigi has an axe.

-Rohan has an electric spear.

-Xander uses his machinery and things he's built.

-Xander and Leo often joke about their height difference.

-Rohan has beef with the Aphrodite kids.

-He was also constantly throwing jabs at Apollo as Lester.

-Lester wrote a poem about him where he's a slimy slug.

-Nobody knows why Rohan is like that but everyone knows he's a hater who only likes Savannah.

-The one time Jameson had to go to the Oracle for a prophecy in the attic (before Rachel became one), he was comically under prepared and when the Oracle started speaking, he screamed like a little girl and threw a shoe at it.

-He hates the attic now, even though the Oracle isn't there anymore he never even walks by the staircase.

-Grayson plays games (pinocle, cards, etc.) with Mr. D.

-He's very salty about being forced to wear a bright orange t-shirt.

-He accepted his fate and decided to wear a full sleeved baggy one with the sleeves rolled up.

-Jameson makes fun of him.

-Everytime Grayson sees Nico he asks him if he's eaten, he doesn't even know when he basically adopted this emo kid, he just remembers Nico being around when Gigi hung out with Will.

-Will is a sucker for Libby's cookies.

-He gives her stickers in exchange for cookies. Stickers are basically their currency now.

-Jameson thinks Hazel is very cool. Like damn, you can control rocks and gems? That's awesome!

-Nash is very protective of Frank. Like, no, the rest of the cabin can't be mean to him for being soft. no.

-Rebecca and Piper get along so well.

-The brothers get VERY competitive during Capture the Flag, and it's a show to watch when they're on opposite teams.

-Lyra is a Hunter of Artemis. (I'm not so sure about her I haven't read tgg yet. IM SORRY 👹 👹)

-Slate is Nemesis's kid. He's emo.

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toasecretsanta · 2 months ago

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Secret Santa for just_snakess for "Meg giving a piano performance" and "Meg sees Apollo's true form for the first time" MCD for the last part

For @just_snakess from @femmefangirl

When Meg was very small, before the word pain had any meaning other than the prick of thorns or a scraped knee, her father had told her stories. There were many stories that he would tell her, most of which she had long forgotten. The rest she had kept with her, close to her heart where everything she could remember about Philip McCaffrey lay.

Except for one

Nero doesn’t like stories. He tells them of his greatest feats and pretends away his failures, but he never tells them stories and even though Meg saw him kill her father, it’s the lack of stories that give him away. That made her not trust him.

She’s his favorite, she knows this because he told her that himself. He tells them all their rankings in his mind, tells them that it’s for the greater good, that it will make them better fighters, better soldiers, better weapons. It’s what Luguselwa says anyway, and she trusts her more than she trusts Nero. Luguselwa doesn’t tell her stories though, except for once.

When Meg was six, just before her first gladiator match, Luguselwa tells her a story. It’s a different sort of story because this story Luguselwa tells her is true. She talks about the earliest memory she had, of her and her mother and her father and her brother. Luguselwa tells her about the way the flowers danced in the wind; the feeling of the breeze in her hair; the way the sounds of life within the settlement held her as she went to sleep every night. Meg didn’t understand then (and she doesn’t now) why Luguselwa told the story.

But Luguselwa became Lu after that nonetheless.

The first very first time Nero tells her a story, it is about the snake that lives in the basement. It doesn’t actually live in the basement, he says, it just lives in a metaphorical basement. Meg nods her head in understanding even though she doesn’t understand because not understanding angers The Beast. She doesn’t like The Beast; it brings fire and blood and screams with it.

“There is a snake. A very old and very powerful snake who can see things that you as a mortal cannot. His powers are even grander than mine.” Nero lowers his voice to a whisper as he adds on “At least that’s what he believes.” And that’s what Meg believes as well, because Nero is the most powerful man she’s ever met. “This snake is called Python, my dear. He was defeated by the Sun god Apollo after he came out of his mother’s womb because even as a baby, Apollo was arrogant. The only reason Python was defeated was because he never expected a baby to defeat him and so he got careless.”

Nero kneels down and looks at her blue-grey on black-brown. He takes one of his fingers, light as a feather, and caresses the freshly bandaged gash on her face. “I do hope you won’t get careless Meg.” There’s a threat not-hiding in those words.

Nonetheless, Nero gets split into her kindly stepfather and the monstrous Beast.

The first time Lester tells Meg that he’s the god Apollo, she doesn’t believe him.

In her defense, who would? The whole acne-riddled, baby giraffe look doesn’t scream God. It also doesn’t scream the Sun, Archery, Music, Poetry, Disease, Truth, Healing, Light and a bunch of other things she can’t remember. His nose looks twice as large as it should be and there’s a layer of dirt on him with garbage juice stains on his shirt and jeans.

Besides, he doesn’t even say it to her. He said it to the two jerks that were beating him up, the two jerks that she saved him from. Meg says as much to him and then he explains his situation to her, asking a bit about herself in the process.

Then he implies that her mother is a garbage goddess which. It adds to the whole ‘I’m a god’ thing he has going on. She says some things and he says some things, most of which she tunes out because his voice is grating. Nails-on-chalkboard sort of grating, all whiny and high-pitched. Annoying.

Meg is seriously considering beating the guy up and taking all his money because neither does she fully trust him, nor does she fully believe him. The only reason she’s still considering him at all is because there was a crack of lightning before he appeared, giant and painful, and the fact that he came from nowhere. There’s also something about him, the air around him is shimmery, or maybe hazy.

If he is the God Apollo, then Nero would be happy with her if she informs him about it. The Beast might not be unleashed if Meg brings Nero something to appease him, a sort of distraction from the fact she ran away. It’s not like she’s going to go back though.

And maybe he can defeat Python. After all, he defeated Python when he was like, a baby, and now he’s an adult which means he’s more powerful so even though Python is also super powerful there’s a chance.

What catches her attention in the end plants a seed of thought in her mind is him saying that “Usually Zeus requires me to work as a slave for some important demigod.” Goddy powers would be helpful in Hell’s Kitchen, but it’s not the usefulness that makes her ask her next question, cutting his rambling, it’s something else. Something to the left.

“How do you know which demigod?”

“What?” Meg notices that his neck goes forward in a twitch whenever he seems confused.

“Which demigod you’re supposed to serve.” She says, rolling her eyes (but only a little). Meg tacks on a ‘dummy’ at the end there, to make sure he knows that it was an obvious question.

“I…uh. Well, it’s usually obvious. I just sort of run into them. That’s why I want to get to the Upper East Side. My new master will claim my service and—” His explanation really boils down to ‘first come, first serve’ and so she’ll get served first.

She sort of knew that this day would change her life, but never would she have expected how much.

When Lester – Apollo – came back all immortal and goddy back again Meg thinks it’s goodbye. Going off to fight isn’t a goodbye because she ordered Apollo to come back to her, and as long as he was mortal he’d have to listen to that order. So that meant he had to win. Simple. Easy.

Once, a four-year-old Meg had planted her very first seed and she’d sat down in front of it, waiting for it to the Opuntia to grow. She sat in front of it for the whole day, her father finding her only when the sun started to stain Aeithales a pretty orangish red. Philip McCaffrey had asked her what she was doing, to which she only said waiting. Four-year-old Meg didn’t have much of a vocabulary, her sentences made up of very few syllables.

Her father had laughed then, smile lines stretching in a practiced motion, but then he’d apologized after seeing her pout, so she forgave him for that. He told her things in the way he often did, with a story.

“Long ago,” he begins like usual. “There was a warrior named Odysseus. He had lots of adventures but we’re not talking about him today. Today we’re talking about his wife Penelope.”

“Penelope was the Queen of an island called Ithaca. Her husband, Odysseus was naturally, its King. They had a son whom they named Telemachus and for a few months they were happy. And then news came of a war, a war that Odysseus was invited to fight in. The King of Ithaca wanted to refuse at first, the desire to stay with his family was strong, but in those days the honor of war overshadowed this desire. And so, Penelope and little Telemachus waved Odysseus and the soldiers of Ithaca off, wishing them a swift victory.”

“The victory was not swift. It was long and sad and violent but eventually Odysseus and his men prevailed. They beat the other side, and they were glad, because now they could return home. However, for reasons he, and only he because his men died in the war and later the journey back to their homeland, came back twenty years later. Penelope, who had to raise Telemachus with the help of her servants and not her husband could have chosen a new husband, a different one. But she didn’t, because she knew Odysseus would come back and so she waited twenty long years with suitors vying for her hand in marriage. She waited and she waited and. She. Waited.”

“Anyone else would have lost hope, lost patience but Penelope waited. And then she got him back. Odysseus returned home and he came back to her and to his son.”

Meg thinks twenty years is too long and she doesn’t want to wait that long for the plant to grow. She plans on saying as much to her father when he holds out a hand, signaling her to listen to him first. She does, but her legs shake in anticipation to speak all the same.

“Meg. I’m not saying the Opuntia will take twenty years to grow. I’m saying that it takes a while for things to happen. Nothing big ever starts and finishes in a day, no matter how much you want it to. It’ll take a while for your plant to grow, but patience is important, and so, you must wait.”

She nods her head at him which gets her one of his smiles. The smiles of Philip McCaffrey are the most common thing around, but each one directed at her is as precious as diamonds and water.

It is this memory she thinks of whenever her skin itches with the need to know. When the ants come crawling out of nowhere and decide that they’re going to creep around on her.

It is this memory that’s playing in her head when she sees her best friend (brother) again.

He looks the same, but also different. The acne isn’t fresh anymore but instead a crater of scars against a tan face; there’s a confidence lining his body turning him from freshy born animal to ballet dancer; his eyes, which were perpetually wide and anxious are half-closed in an easy way that reminds her of a sleeping cat. He looks content even with the undercurrent of nervousness in him.

“You’re back.” She breathes out, joy written so clearly in her voice that she would be able to read it.

He smiles at her, and she can see how he’s the Sun God because it’s so warm. Warm like the orangish red that bathes the greenhouse sometimes. “You’re sunburned.” Apollo says pointedly.

She orders him to come even though she knows it’s fruitless, he knows it too, but he comes back to her anyway. Meg should remember the rest of the day better but the only thing she can know for sure is the feeling of a huge weight lifted from her chest after seeing him alive and well. Her brother-best friend is back and that’s all that really matters anyway.

There’s something to be said about her siblings in that each and every one of them came to see her perform, even though it was just an opening for a band in a hole-in-the-wall SoCal café. Cassius, Lucius, Aemilia, Lityerses, Billie, Miranda and even Katie were visible in the crowd. They were bunched together like grapes and looked like clothing patches on jeans with how mismatched they were.

Cassius was in a Camp Half-Blood shirt and wearing a neon green maxi skirt; Lucius with orange bell bottoms and gothic frills was nothing in comparison to Aemilia’s dark, dramatic makeup and a white sundress. Billie, Miranda, and Lityerses looked like they both came straight from weeding a garden, dirt and all which isn’t unbelievable, if you can believe it. Katie was wearing a nice yellow sunflower skirt and a simple black top, which was miles better than what everyone wore.

A keyboard sat on the rickety wooden stage, a spotlight highlighting it and eventually her for everyone to see. It’s all been set up so that Meg doesn’t have to do anything other than just go out there and knock everyone’s socks off with how good she is. And she’s good.

Apollo had told her that after her very first piano lesson, most people don’t get it quickly, but she does. In fact, his exact words were “Anyone can play the piano Meg. Instruments are meant to be played and everyone who starts an instrument knows that. But you, Meg, shouldn’t settle for playing piano. You should perform it, make an art out of that piano.” To this day she doesn’t understand what his words meant but Apollo doesn’t give out compliments of greatness all the time. Goodness, yes, he’s nice like that but he doesn’t often sound awed by people.

That memory brings a smile to her lips. Apollo had magicked a dark green suit for her, with a dark orange bowtie as per her request. He’d pursed his lips and there was judgement in his face which if she’s being honest with herself is the reason she chose the color combination in the first place. His disgusted-horrified face is the funniest thing, especially if he looks concerned for her health.

An inhale and exhale later, Meg’s walking towards the keyboard, a cheap and plasticky thing. Even before she starts playing there’s applause from the crowd, Meg doesn’t even have to look at them to see it’s her siblings and also Apollo who’s posing as a bartender. A flush rises to her cheeks, Gods they are so embarrassing, she thinks as she plays the opening of Chopin’s Etude op. 10 No. 4.

Later on, she’d deny it but there’s a smile on her face the whole time.

There’s a sun on her grave.

Meg has been dead for two years and the apple tree that had been fertilized by her ashes looks healthy and strong. Lots of things can be said about the fact that she’s here and not in Elysium (like the fact that Nico owes her far too many favors) and she doesn’t want to say any of them. Living for a whole century is a considerable feat but it was wholly expected.

She had felt like there was something just to the side that kept tumors, diabetes, blood pressure and other medical illnesses that come with age at bay. Healing her left, right and center; she knew what, or to be specific, who it was, and it was that who who wept fiery tears on her grave.

At first Meg had thought it was the sun itself in humanoid form but the longer she looks at it, the more it seems like a rainbow, but only a pale silver, a monochromatic rainbow if you will. The edges of the form don’t flicker and dance in the way fire does but dilate and enlarge in a rhythmic manner like a heart does. The tears that fall are like glowing moon drops, all shimmer and shine.

Instinct that shouldn’t be there tells her that this is Apollo, that this amalgamation of light and melancholy is her brother. Her mind rages against the thought because he’d never, ever looks so not put together. The very same shouldn’t-be-there instinct tells her that this is Apollo’s rawest form, that if she weren’t already dead, she very well would be.

“Hey ‘pollo.” She whispers, words carried onwards by the breeze.

He whips around, quick as the Bach Prelude in C Minor, face morphing into several thing before settling on what she’s lovingly dubbed ‘Lesterpollo’. It’s a combination of his favored Apollo look and Lester Papadopoulos, which includes big brown sheep eyes and banana slug yellow curls. His acne has turned into scars, and they along with freckles and two moles shift constantly making different constellations. Her shoulders loosen up seeing his familiar face but then immediately tighten up when she sees tears as clear as her glasses well up inside his eyes.

“Mind a hug?” Apollo chokes out, she doesn’t even have to nod, just clench her jaw in a way and he’s hugging her like she doesn’t need to breathe. Which she doesn’t.

It takes an age and a day for the hug to stop, and she doesn’t want it to because a hug from Apollo God of the Sun and also Light and a bunch of other things is the warmest thing you’ll ever feel in your life. In every sense of the word warm, it will be warm. Even before Meg had died at the ripe old age of one hundred, she had been perpetually cold.

Apollo wipes the tears from his eyes, but the shifting patterns of dots do little to mask some rapidly oncoming tears stains.

“How –”

“Nico owes me a bunch of favours. Cassius is still here, and I was – I was waiting for him to kick the bucket so.” She cuts him off with her waterfall of words and shoves her liver-spotted hands into her burnt umber handmade satin coat she got from her youngest daughter.

“Younger siblings. Huh?” Apollo asks her, a dry joke that makes her want to cry and laugh at the same time because she’ll perpetually look like Apollo’s grandmother, and she likes looking old. It makes her feel happy and proud and fuzzy all over but there had been a point in her mid-forty’s where when she and her brother went out for something or the other and they’d been mistaken for mother and son. They’d laughed about it immediately afterwards, but she thinks of it in the most randomest moments.

A peaceful silence settles itself cozily between them as they watch the sun makes its descent downwards. She’ll be here till her youngest brother turns 101 years old because he competitive little shit and see more sunsets in this ghostly form, but she’ll always have company.

#toasecretsanta #trials of apollo #meg mccaffrey #pjo apollo #character death #femmefangirl #just_snakess

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lains-reality · 2 years ago

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hi :) i hope you’re having a wonderful day

you’re literally the only blogger i trust when it comes to non-duality, and your advice has been the one i’ve been most easily able to apply/understand. I hope this doesn’t come off as a vent, but it probably will just because this question is so complicated and problem riddled, and tbh idek if you’re actually going to respond, but yea. it’s like star wars you’re my obi wan kenobi! my last hope lol

basically i’ve put my life on hold and procrastinated everything i’ve needed to do. (TW: death?? health problems/sa?) I went through a really bad year, last year. the human character i identify with (non-dualistic terms, bc ik this character isn’t me?) was sa’d in the beginning of the year. really traumatic. i dropped out of school, i couldn’t go out of the house because i feared for my life. i became super paranoid. i reported it and filed charges, but the justice system is fucked so.

anyways, after because the amount of stress i was experiencing, i became very ill. my biological father wished death on me, and i believed it at the time, because my sibling wished for me to get raped, and then it happened. i can see now, how my belief may or may not have been the cause of what happened. i then got cancer. the doctors couldn’t figure it out for months, and even ridiculed me- saying how i relied on google.

i finally went to a specialist who was immediately concerned, and then confirmed my suspicions. i was sort of friends with a blogger on here who got into the void and manifested their dream life. they went into the void for me and affirmed that i no longer had cancer, and that i could tap/wake up in the void. the next day, the huge lump/tumor on my neck was gone. all of my ailments- trouble breathing, patchy and rough skin ceased. i literally told my mother what happened which made her start believing in the power of “manifestation”.

because of the paranoia, and then cancer- i didn’t go to school my last 2 years of school. i switched to online, but never felt the need to complete my classes because i knew i would get into the void. i’ve gotten into the void, both by waking up/tapping into it but i haven’t been able to change my awareness, or “manifest” bc i was just mumbo jumbing words or poetry. i didn’t apply to university, because i thought i’d enter the void before then and revise my school grades + make it so i got into the university of my choice.

now, i have a week left before i have to finish my classes- which i have 7 of them, and so many assignments. i have to move out in the middle of august because i lied to my parents and said i got into university, because i thought i would’ve already changed things with the void by now. my life was fucked, then i fucked my life. after discovering non-duality i gained hope that i would be able to turn things around by now, yet i haven’t. i don’t know what i’m doing wrong, because i was able to show myself the truth of reality (as lester levinson said).

i am really stressing because now everything is falling down on itself. i try to forget my problems, and don’t give them life by letting go, yet it’s so hard when teachers are bombarding me with messages how i have to finish the classes, or how i have to move out soon. i know this is probably ego driven, but i feel as if i can’t see a way through because of how attached i am to this. my health has also been abnormal, which makes me fear that the cancer has returned. what should i do?? im kinda freaking out.

anyways, i am so sorry if this came across trauma dumping/venting. i am just at a point where i do not even know where to begin to conceptualize this into understanding. this took a lot of courage to type, as im a bit afraid still- that people who hurt me from last year will see this (even though i know they won’t, but still). i totally understand if you wish not to post this or answer it, as it is very long and limiting. thank you though! i hope you have a wonderful week:)

this was quite difficult to answer as i've never been through so much turmoil all at once. i hope this answer helps and you'll continue taking care of yourself! (i'm sorry i linked way too much lol just don't read it all at once!)

firstly i want you to rest.

you've been through a lot and you've also been putting off a lot to get into the void. stopping life for manifestation is common it seems, its not healthy either. so much pressure is coming from time. you put all your expectations on a method, and i'm gonna guess that you also put so much onto your mind to get you into the void.

practically: your biological father sounds abusive and so does your sibling, i would be more careful around him. idk if your not around him anymore, it sounds like it? but you need to plan accordingly for your lie. are you gonna tell your parents or ?

theres a massive chance you'll just go crazy trying to figure out all these moving parts, so i suggest do what you can and leave the rest. do the minimum to keep you safe, then figure out the rest as it comes. do whatever you need to do, just remember to not take on too much at once.

ask for breaks on work at school for medical reasons, maybe think about jobs, etc. you see how much more could come into the picture? but this is all the body-mind can do. its easy to treat it as god, but its not god.

"but i feel as if i can’t see a way through"

You fail to do the works of God, because you take the body to be God. - Ada B. [4dbarbie]

take a look at these meditations:

butter meditation

peace meditation

surrender meditation

un-identification exercise

crying meditation

i'd like you pick one of these exercises:

feel all the shit. feel bad. just do it. let all the bad feelings out. put on sad music and fucking cry. cry it all out.

let yourself rest, with no problems. if a thought or feeling comes in just let it, because its not a problem remember? :) just put on some calming music or visualise a calming place. and let yourself have some time with nothing. no conditions. no perfection. no obligations. no 'have to' 'should' 'must'. let that go for this time

feel as if you've died. feel as if you've been completely forgiven, feel as if there was a powerful white light that washed you away of all the crap. really feel as if the divine came down, hugged you and said 'i love you and forgive you'. its all over. finally its all done. you can rest. (i suggest kickstarting this with imagery or music, its hard to generate feeling such grace on you own. i saw a jesus holding a baby lamb picture that made me burst out in tears and realised that all i wanted was just to be, no obligations. i imagined waking up in a heaven, in a gaint flowerfield. do what you want)

one time i did the 1st and 3rd exercises (i made it up on the spot) and it was worth it. the next few days felt much better. its like an exercise in rebirth. let yourself be reborn.

some days you'll just do one or all 3. pick what ever feels right in what ever order. but i suggest that 'feel as if you've died' or 'no problems' comes last! the whole point is to let the painful emotion pass through and settle in a neutral or grateful place.

"after discovering non-duality i gained hope that i would be able to turn things around by now"

here's the problem, you went into a philosophy intending to manifest. yes,, (1) you can do that (2) its okay, AS LONG AS YOU DONT MISS THE POINT. the point being that there is no person! the character is a character, not you. manifestation is just another concept, you can use it as long as you understand that its not real. thats why i shared the BOOKS, you need to READ.

"i try to forget my problems, and don’t give them life by letting go"

don't force yourself to forget (don't say you're not forcing it, otherwise you never would of wrote "TRY"). just let them be. deal with it when it comes up. the mind'll want to make a bazillion plans and stress. if you can make plans without spiriling, then do it. if you can't, don't. there will probably be some things you need to plan and thats okay. but everything else, leave it.

you haven't actually let it go, you're here in my inbox. you do not need to force letting it go. you naturally let it go by realising who you are in relation to it all. if you think you're the body-mind then its impossible to let go, because its your life and it involves you and if you let it go to shit, you might die!! - says the mind. but if you're Self, then this is not you. all those stories mean nothing compared to Infinity, Absolute Perfection and Love!

the Self is who you truly are. Self is still underneath it all, it is all. its imagining itself being a human. the character is the wave, YOU are the ocean. ultimately this is about realising all the identities, images and roles that "you've" taken on and used as reference are not you. how can a story be you? how can the past be you? are you the past? are you currently living in the past? you can be if you keep bringing it into the now.

when you stop using the past as a reference point, how much more posibilities come up now?

this is because the mind only knows what it knows. it cannot know anything more than what it knows right now. it can't access infinite intelligence. that's why it'll try to project into the future, and make plans. but it doesn't truly know. all it does is give suggestions based off the past. it is a combination of identity based off feelings, thoughts and memories that is collected and turned into a habit.

the past, memories, feelings, thoughts, identifies, roles etc all pass through you. they all come up like waves and then leave on THEIR OWN. if you hold onto these (which the character wants to do, it thinks thats all it is) it'll be painful when they are threatened in some way. a simple remark of "oh you look xxx" can be so painful for some characters because they based their whole life on a singular identity that WILL go.

Most of you can't change because you are so desperate TO change... but there is nothing to want to change. Things just are. Don't work with changing self, just realize who self actually is. [4dbarbie]

this is not a forcing thing, its just a rememberance. its done out of love, passion, a desire to just be free! with no ties to whatever identity! its takes courage, not convincing or denial.

Disbelieving you are Vanessa and denial are not the same thing. Denial is when you deny reality to something you're already giving reality to. Disbelieving was meant as an experiment, you never thought yourselves to be anything but this body, what will happen if you did? What are changes in your psyche, do you feel more confident, do you feel like you could take on the world? Don't you love Vanessa now that you know that she always was a choice? Even if she wasn't the greatest, what's so wrong with her? She is just somebody, she just lives a life. Things are only so serious when you're identified with her, you get scared, you get hurt, you feel stuck. But when you know that she can't hinder you? That she was never you? Don't you just want to laugh and hug her? [4dbarbie]

are you sure you're reading books and posts? a lot of this is already answered. your case is just more to deal with, but the point is still the same: you are not the body and mind, see what would happen if you questioned them.

just KEEP IT SIMPLE!

i'd like to leave you with this.

Once a young woman came to Hafiz and said, “What is the sign of someone knowing God?” And Hafiz became very quiet and stood in silence for nearly a minute. Lovingly looking deep into the young woman's eyes, he then softly spoke: “My dear, they have dropped the knife. The person who knows God has dropped the cruel knife so often used upon their tender self and others.” [source]

some extra resources

eft - health fear

eft - afraid to feel

we cannot practice letting go

heart of an emotion

i want to wake up with everything

hafiz - love's victory (PLEASE WATCH IT)

trust yourself

"You think you're doing it all for nothing, that's why you don't do it. But is freedom from pain really nothing? At least you are, for once in your life, sighing from relief from all this never-ending sense of doing."

health anon

apply

"All the process requires is letting go of thinking you are Vanessa."

behaviour

letting thoughts and emotions pass

challenge yourself

stories

everything brings you back to your Self

you've been through a lot and i'm glad you still are full of love! otherwise you never would've tried in the first place to change anything. use that love, take any anger and turn it into love for freedom! for Self! i know you can do it!!

also: the feeling of bad health coming back is a sign to me. you've put so much on hold: your healing from the sa, the healing from your family, the lying, LIFE in general. you can't keep doing that. turn inwards. the fear won't consume you.

#lainsmail

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leonardcohenofficial · 2 months ago

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as is tradition here are my top nine new-to-me watches of the year—in no particular order (l-r, top row to bottom row):

the african desperate (martine syms, 2022) not a pretty picture (martha coolidge, 1975) anatomy of a fall (justine triet, 2023) the girls (mai zetterling, 1968) network (sidney lumet, 1976) the year of the cannibals (liliana cavani, 1970) all the beauty and the bloodshed (laura poitras, 2022) straight on till morning (peter collinson, 1972) microhabitat (jeon go-woon, 2017)

i hit 150 total films and my continual goal of half of the films by women and nonbinary filmmakers, and still definitely need to keep up with deliberately seeking out films by directors of color! feel free to tell me your faves if you’ve seen any of these 🖤👀🎬🍿🎥

i'll tag @privatejoker / @wanlittlehusk / @majorbaby / @edwardalbee / @draftdodgerag / @lesbiancolumbo / @frmulcahy / @nelson-riddle-me-this / @firewalkwithmedvd and anyone else who'd like to share their top watches of the year!

full list of films for the year is included below, favorites are bolded in red:

Farewell Amor (Ekwa Msangi, 2020)

Hell Camp: Teen Nightmare (Liza Williams, 2023)

Blacks Britannica (David Koff, 1978)

New Year, New You (Sophia Takal, 2023)

Family Band: The Cowsills Story (Louise Palanker and Bill Filipiak, 2011)

The Color Purple (Blitz Bazawule, 2023)

The Apology (Alison Star Locke, 2022)

Close (Lukas Dhont, 2022)

Unintended (Anja Murmann, 2018)

Other People’s Children (Liz Hinlein, 2015)

Omega Rising Women of Rastafari (D. Elmina Davis, 1988)

The Gypsy Moths (John Frankenheimer, 1969)

Be My Cat: A Film for Anne (Adrian Țofei, 2015)

Insomnia (Christopher Nolan, 2002)

Chowchilla (Paul Solet, 2023)

Intimate Relations (Philip Goodhew, 1996)

Monument (Jagoda Szelc, 2018)

After Sherman (Jon Sesrie Goff, 2022)

Remnants of the Watts Festival (Ulysses Jenkins, 1980)

Network (Sidney Lumet, 1976)

The Taking of Pelham One Two Three (Joseph Sargent, 1974)

Down Low (Rightor Doyle, 2023)

Our Father, the Devil (Ellie Foumbi, 2021)

The Zone of Interest (Jonathan Glazer, 2023)

Youngblood (Noel Nosseck, 1978)

Joy Division - Under Review (Christian Davies, 2006)

Being Frank: The Chris Sievey Story (Steve Sullivan, 2018)

Sun Ra: A Joyful Noise (Robert Mugge, 1980)

Fanny: The Right To Rock (Bobbi Jo Hart, 2021)

Depeche Mode: The Dark Progression (Alec Lindsell, 2009)

Kraftwerk And The Electronic Revolution (Thomas Arnold, 2008)

Blank City (Celine Danhier, 2010)

Oliver Sacks: His Own Life (Ric Burns, 2019)

Monster (Hirokazu Kore-eda, 2023)

Black Is Beltza (Fermín Muguruza, 2018)

Werewolf (Ashley McKenzie, 2016)

The Humans (Stephen Karam, 2021)

Relative (Tracey Arcabasso Smith, 2022)

The Believer (Henry Bean, 2001)

Lost Angel: The Genius of Judee Sill (Brian Lindstrom and Andy Brown, 2022)

Animals (Collin Schiffli, 2014)

Scott Walker: 30 Century Man (Stephen Kijak, 2006)

Novitiate (Maggie Betts, 2017)

Hunger (Henning Carlsen, 1966)

Late Night With The Devil (Cameron Cairnes and Colin Cairnes, 2023)

The Stunt Man (Richard Rush, 1980)

New York Doll (Greg Whiteley, 2005)

The Iron Claw (Sean Durkin, 2023)

Your Fat Friend (Jeanie Finlay, 2023)

Scarred Justice: The Orangeburg Massacre 1968 (Bestor Cram and Judy Richardson, 2008)

Targets (Peter Bogdanovich, 1968)

Uptight (Jules Dassin, 1968)

Messiah of Evil (Gloria Katz and Willard Huyck, 1973)

Plastic Paradise (Brett O’Bourke, 2013)

You Hurt My Feelings (Nicole Holofcener, 2023)

Pretty Poison (Noel Black, 1968)

The Shout (Jerzy Skolimowski, 1978)

Shakedown (Leilah Weinraub, 2018)

Class of 1984 (Mark L. Lester, 1982)

Betty: They Say I’m Different (Philip Cox, 2017)

Beautiful Boy (Felix van Groeningen, 2018)

Anatomy of a Fall (Justine Triet, 2023)

Gimme Shelter (Albert Maysles, David Maysles, and Charlotte Zwerin, 1970)

The Beach Boys (Frank Marshall and Thom Zimny, 2024)

High and Low (Kevin Macdonald, 2023)

Brats (Andrew McCarthy, 2024)

I Saw The TV Glow (Jane Schoenbrun, 2023)

The Talented Mr. Ripley (Anthony Minghella, 1999)

Altered States (Ken Russell, 1980)

This Closeness (Kit Zauhar, 2023)

How To Have Sex (Molly Manning Walker, 2023)

American Commune (Rena Mundo Croshere and Nadine Mundo, 2013)

Look In Any Window (William Alland, 1961)

Private Property (Leslie Stevens, 1960)

We’re Still Here: Johnny Cash’s Bitter Tears Revisited (Antonino D’Ambrosio, 2015)

The Wobblies (Stewart Bird and Deborah Shaffer, 1979)

Last Summer Won’t Happen (Tom Hurwitz and Peter Gessner, 1968)

Goodbye Gemini (Alan Gibson, 1970)

Keyboard Fantasies: The Beverly Glenn-Copeland Story (Posy Dixon, 2019)

The Most Beautiful Boy in the World (Kristina Lindström and Kristian Petri, 2021)

The Passenger (Carter Smith, 2023)

The Boys Who Said No (Judith Ehrlich, 2020)

Synecdoche, New York (Charlie Kaufman, 2008)

Karen Carpenter: Starving for Perfection (Randy Martin, 2023)

...And Justice For All (Norm Jewison, 1978)

I Used To Be Funny (Ally Pankiw, 2023)

Badlands (Terrence Malick, 1973)

Straight On Till Morning (Peter Collinson, 1972)

The Same Difference: Gender Roles in the Black Lesbian Community (Nneka Onuorah, 2015)

Thanksgiving (Eli Roth, 2023)

Sorry/Not Sorry (Caroline Suh and Cara Mones, 2023)

Am I OK? (Tig Notaro and Stephanie Allynne, 2022)

Joan Baez: I Am a Noise (Maeve O’Boyle, Miri Navasky, and Karen O’Connor, 2023)

No Direction Home (Martin Scorsese, 2005)

Shutter Island (Martin Scorsese, 2010)

Water Lilies (Céline Sciamma, 2007)

The Strings (Ryan Glover, 2020)

The Crucible (Nicholas Hytner, 1996)

Woman of the Hour (Anna Kendrick, 2024)

The Platform (Galder Gaztelu-Urrutia, 2019)

Tabloid (Errol Mark Morris, 2010)

Will & Harper (Josh Greenbaum, 2024)

Miller’s Girl (Jade Halley Bartlett, 2024)

Give Me Pity! (Amanda Kramer, 2022)

Landlocked (Paul Owens, 2021)

Perfect Love (Catherine Breillat, 1996)

Not a Pretty Picture (Martha Coolidge, 1975)

Seeking Mavis Beacon (Jazmin Jones, 2024)

Renfield (Chris McKay, 2023)

Compulsion (Richard Fleischer, 1959)

An Angel At My Table (Jane Campion, 1990)

Longlegs (Oz Perkins, 2024)

Rare Beasts (Billie Piper, 2019)

Nightman (Mélanie Delloye-Betancourt, 2023)

The Changin’ Times of Ike White (Daniel Vernon, 2020)

The Substance (Coralie Fargeat, 2024)

The Year of the Cannibals (Liliana Cavani, 1970)

Fanatical: The Catfishing of Tegan and Sara (Erin Lee Carr, 2024)

The Loneliest Planet (Julia Loktev, 2011)

Marjoe (Howard Smith and Sarah Kernochan, 1972)

Witches (Elizabeth Sankey, 2024)

Angela (Rebecca Miller, 1995)

The Morning After (Richard T. Heffron, 1974)

Beach Rats (Eliza Hittman, 2017)

Last Summer (Catherine Breillat, 2023)

The Fits (Anna Rose Holmer, 2015)

Hold Your Breath (Karrie Crouse and Will Joines, 2024)

What Comes Around (Amy Redford, 2022)

Dear Zachary: A Letter to a Son About His Father (Kurt Kuenne, 2008)

Priscilla (Sofia Coppola, 2023)

The Girls (Mai Zetterling, 1968)

Sweetie (Jane Campion, 1989)

Victim/Suspect (Nancy Schwartzman, 2023)

The African Desperate (Martine Syms, 2022)

Les Nôtres (Jeanne Leblanc, 2020)

A Sacrifice (Jordan Scott, 2024)

All the Beauty and the Bloodshed (Laura Poitras, 2022)

My Name is Not Ali (Viola Shafik, 2011)

Committed (Sheila McLaughlin and Lynne Tillman, 1984)

Chained (Jennifer Lynch, 2012)

The Hour of Liberation Has Arrived (Heiny Srour, 1974)

All Power To The People! (Lee Lew-Lee, 1997)

Night Moves (Kelly Reichardt, 2013)

Destroyer (Karyn Kusama, 2018)

Late Night (Nisha Ganatra, 2023)

The Year Between (Alex Heller, 2022)

Loved (Erin Dignam, 1997)

Girl In The Picture (Skye Borgman, 2022)

Microhabitat (Jeon Go-Woon, 2017)

Dear Ex (Mag Hsu and Chih-yen Hsu, 2018)

#i might watch more films between now and tomorrow so who knows but here's the final list; 150 new to me features feels like a good yearly #goal and if i surpass it all the better lol #the african desperate was my top film of the year <3

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Hi Pen !

I'm rather new here, I discovered you like two weeks ago, with NG, wich was my introduction to tomharry fics. And well, what was I doing on A03 if not reading your works ?! Just want to tell you how amazing it is really, can't wait for it's update. I've tried to go over most of your tumblr (impossible mission) and found out people wants V to teach Harry how to fly. Could be quite good, but what I really crave since this V/Bellatrix duel, is V teaching Harry How to properly duel. I can imagine them flirting like that, it would be quite awesome. Would Harry's ability to perceive auras represents any advantage in this kind of exercise ?? Also, please, do not listen to those who wants Voldemort to be meaner to Harry, I can't stand it, i've already cried so many times reading this ff, last chapter positively destroyed me, I need Harry to get maaaad, to make V regret the abuse. Considering last chapter events, V is clearly going to go beyound Harry's consent, does it mean he broke the deal ?! Is Harry going to get his eyes back ?!

After NG I needed more, so I read all of Hunted and Haunted works. Well. If NG is amazing, then this collection of works is a downright masterpiece. I laughed out loud so many times I actually had to justify my behavior to people. I cried so much I had headaches for days. I think this ff shattered me as much as it healed some parts of me. Found myself craving for the friendships you described, especially Harry/Draco and Harry/Luna. Wanting the protection Severus can provide, the joy the weasley twins can bring... I'll never get over this fic, I swear. I'm gonna read the alternate ending, but the one we already have, as sad as it may be, feels so right.

After that, I read B&G. And DAMN. I love every bit of it. I love your depiction of Tom Riddle. I love how strong Hermione is. Got to say, I do like Lester Maddison, as hated as he may be right now. I hope we are going to see more of him, your OCs are just too good.

What I like most about your stories is they are actually realistic, and you respect who the characters are deeply in canon, and that's really refreshing.

Needless to say I started reading Apogee, will read anything you give us (even a shopping list by your hand will be most welcome at this point), I will wait patiently for any update you might grace us with, and thank you thank THANK YOU, feeding us starving crowd with these amazing creations of yours.

(Sorry for any spelling/grammar mistake that might assault your eyes, english isn't my first language, and well, that's quite a big text I wrote there, so sorry about that too)

Much love 🫶🥹

oh my stars what a wonderfully nice sweet comment 😭🥹🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 I’m so glad you like what I’ve put out there!!! Thank you for reading and coming along for all the rides!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖

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stained-glass-cicada · 2 months ago

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Very occasionally a small angry Christian child riddled with guilt will come running out of some dusty corner of my brain like "I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU LIKE THAT CHARACTER, THEY ARE A BAD PERSON. go back to your morally upright favorite characters now and never talk about them again!"

and recently I've had to start kneeling down next to this [imaginary] kid like "uhm listen sport I'm real sorry but None of our favorite characters are really good people in the Traditional Sense anymore. Can I interest you in a good man made monstrous?"

Which is to say, wish me luck boys we're unpacking guilt over [checks notes] liking arthur lester tonight

#cicada buzzing

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thesagesoftherealm · 8 months ago

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not a good day for simeon

previous || next

[elena]: simeon?

[simeon]: elena?

[elena]: hey! i didn’t know you were here... honestly i didn’t think anyone would come here

[simeon]: i’m always here. i mean, not always, but i like to use the space to think and other things

[elena]: oh? that’s nice! uh, i think i should go now

[simeon]: you just arrived. we could hang out... together

[elena]: no, i mean... i would love to, but i... i need to go

[simeon]: maybe another day we could—

Elena]: is everything okay?

[simeon]: i guess we’re not alone

[elena]: *mutters* shit

[simeon]: the garden... it’s very crowded today

[elena]: sorry, simeon. lester and i... we’re sort of in a relationship

[elena]: it’s a new thing and i don’t know... since we’re in the same class... i just wanted to be sure before we announce to everyone

[elena]: can you keep a secret? for me?

[simeon]: sure...

[elena]: thank you! i owe you one!

[lester]: is he okay with us together?

[elena]: why wouldn’t he be?

[lester]: uh, nothing. i’ve missed you

[simeon]: oh! c’mon! are they serious?

#lester riddle #elena winter #simeon silversweater #rom gp #the sages gp #ts4 #the sims 4 #the sims #ts4 simblr

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apostle-of-locusts · 7 months ago

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I’m drawing Arthur Lester how do I make him look worse. He needs to look 80 pounds sopping wet but ALSO, exhausted, riddled with stress and a little bit old, and he looks like a twink. Bro is literally a father

#malevolent #malevolent arthur lester

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alilixx · 2 years ago

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fanfic characters x reader

I would also write fanfics about the actors (they are mostly the ones playing the characters on the list)

Here is my list:

Harry Potter:

Severus Snape:

Remus Lupin

Sirius Black

Barty Crouch Jr.

Bellatrix Lestrange

Lucius Malfoy

Character I'm not sure I do:

Fred Weasley

George Weasley

Draco Malfoy

Harry Potter

Hermione Granger

Tom Riddle

Regulus Black

Fantastic Beasts:

Albus Dumbledore

Gellert Grindelwald

Minerva McGonagall

Lord Percival Graves

Hogwarts Legacy:

Phineas Nigellus Black

Sebastian Sallow

Aesop Sharp

Mirabel Garlick

Ominis Gaunt

Grand Theft Auto:

Michael De Santa

Trevor Philips

Franklin Clinton

Niko Bellic

Steve Haines

Lester Crest

Agent 14

Naruto:

Kakashi Hatake

Naruto Uzumaki

Sasuke Uchiha

Tsunade

Jiraya

Minato Namikaze

Gaara

Tobirama Senju

Senju Hashirama

Inuzuka Hana

Mitarashi Anko

Darui

Kushina Uzumaki

Kiba Inuzuka

Uchiha Shisui

Yujito Nii

Ôtsutsuki Indra

Ôtsutsuki Asura

Uchiha Obito

Mei Temurî

Boruto:

Naruto Uzumaki

Sasuke Uchiha

Mitsuki

Kawaki

Boruto Uzumaki

Konoha-Maru Sarutobi

Sakura Haruno

The Devil Wears Prada:

Serena

Miranda Priestly

Jujutsu Kaisen:

Yuji Itadori

Utahime Iori

Masamichi Yaga

Inumaki Toge

Okkotsu Yûta

Sheko Ieiri

Yuki Tsukumo

Uraume

Toji Fushiguro

Gong Shi Woo

Atsuya Kusakabe

Ieri Shôko

Zenin Mai

Zenin Maki

Choso

Gojo Satoru

Megumi Fushiguro

Ryomen Sukuna

Mei Mei

Kento Nanami

Assassination Classroom:

Tadaomi Karasuma

Irina Jelavic

Koro Sensei (human)

One piece:

Shanks

Portgas D.Ace

Don Quijote Doflamingo

Roronoa Zoro

Sanji Vinsmoke

Coby

Trafalgar Law

Sabo

Marvel:

Agatha Harkness

Hela

Natasha Romanoff

Tony Stark

Yelena Belova

Loki Laufeyson

Sylvie Laufeydottir

Matt Murdock

May Parker

Scott Lang

Shang Chi

Stephen Strange

Thena

Wanda Maximoff

Xu Wenwu

Marc Spector

Steven Grant

Wednesday:

Larissa Weems

Morticia Addams

Lucifer:

Lucifer Morningstar

Chloe Decker

Mazikeen Smith

Amenadiel

Charlotte Richards

Aurora (Rory) Morningstar

Michael

Sandman:

The Corinthian

Lucifer Morningstar

Desire

Johanna Constantine

Bleach:

Ichigo Kurosaki

Sousuke Aizen

Kuchiki Buyakuya

Coyote Stark

Resident Evil:

Leon S. Kennedy

Chris Redfield

Ashley Graham

Ethan Winters

Carlos Oliveira

Helena Harper

Rosemary Winters

Alcina Dimitrescu

Cassandra Dimitrescu

Daniela Dimitrescu

Bela Dimitrescu

Dr House:

Dr Gregory House

Dr Lisa Cuddy

Dr James Wilson

Dr Alissa Cameron

Dr 13

Two and a Half Men:

Charlie Harper

Walden Schmidt

Judith Harper

Jenny

Politicians:

Emmanuel Macron (French President)

Gabriel Attal (French Prime Minister)

Mathieu Maucort (French Interministerial Delegate)

Jordan Bardella (European Deputy and French President of the RN)

Volodimir Zelensky (Ukranian President)

Justin Trudeau (Canada Prime Minister)

I'M NOT TALK ABOUT MY POLITICAL PARTY OR WHETHER I SUPPORT THEM OR NOT!!! ONLY FOR PHYSICS HUH

Star Wars:

Kylo Ren

Captain Phasma

Din Djarin

Poe Dameron

Valorant:

Chamber

Viper

Reyna

Omen

La Casa De Papel:

Berlin

El Professor

Suárez

My Hero Academia:

Dabi

Shota Aizawa

Nemuri Kayama

Todoroki Shôto

Toga Himiko

Shimura Nana

Chisaki Kai

Attack on titan:

Hanji Zoe

Levi Ackerman

Annie Leonhart

Mikasa Ackerman

Pirates of the caribbean:

Jack Sparrow

Elizabeth Swann

Sweeney Todd:

Sweeney Todd

Mrs. Lovett

Judge Turpin

The Witcher:

Geralt Of Rivia

Yennefer of Vengerberg

Ciri

Kaamelott:

Arthur Pendragon

Léodagan

Bohort

Yvain

Gauvain

Ygerne

Elias de Kelliwic’h

Spy X Family

Loid Forger

Yor Forger

Castlevania

Dracula

Leon Belmont

Alucard

Trevor Belmont

Richard Belmont

Tera

Five Nights at Freddy’s

William Afton

Michael Schmidt

Vanessa Shelly

Satsuriku no Tenshi

Isaac Foster

Haikyuu!!

Yū Nishinoya

Tobio Kageyama

Tetsurō Kuroo

Fugou Keiji: Balance:UNLIMITED

Daisuke Kambe

Haru Katou

Ryo Hosino

Owari no Seraph

Guren Ichinose

Mikaela Hyakuya

Ferid Bathory

Crowley Eusford

Kureto Hiragi

Shinya Hiragi

Horn Skuld

Chess Belle

Rokudenashi Majutsu Koushi to Akashic Records

Glenn Radars

Sistine Fibel

Celica Arfonia

Albert Frazer

Domestic na Kanojo

Hina Tachibana

Rui Tachibana

Masaki Kobayashi

Reiji Kiriya

My new boss is Goofy

Shirosaki Yusei

Mitsuo Aoyama

Kinjo Aigo

Buddy Daddies

Kugi Kyûtarô

Suwa Rei

Kurusu Kazuki

Unasaka Misaki

Other characters

Sakata Gintoki from Gintama

Brienne of Tarth from Game of Thrones by Gwendoline Christie

Hans Gruber from Die Hard by Alan Rickman

Sinclair Bryant from Close my eyes by Alan Rickman

Miranda Hilmarson from Top of the Lake by Gwendoline Christie

Charlie Harper from My Uncle Charlie by Charlie Sheen

Isaac Foster from Angels of Deaths

Link from The Legend Of Zelda

Cereza from Bayonetta

Leonora Lesso from School for Good and Evil by Charlize Theron

Elaine Markinson from Gringo by Charlize Theron

Hannibal Lecter from Hannibal by Mads Mikkelson

Miss Perergrine from Miss Peregrine’s Home for Particular Children by Eva Green

Joel Miller from The Last Of Us by Pedro Pascal

Mr.Cat from Kaeloo

Marc from Le Flambeau by Jonathan Cohen

John Wick from John Wick’s movies by Keanu Reeves

Joe Goldberg from You by Penn Badgley

Crowley from Good Omens by David Tennant

Max Black from 2 Broke girls by Kat Dennings

Tobias from Ghost

#harry potter #severus snape #hermione granger #draco malfoy #howgarts #the witcher #sweeney todd #alan rickman #ghost #young royals #john wick #five nights at freddy's #good omens #the last of us #hannibal #miss peregrine imagine #zelda #others #etc

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phanfictioncatalogue · 8 months ago

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Memories Masterlist

7 Minutes (ao3) - saraswords

Summary: “Moments, memories, that’s all that Dan had left to relive, but he could only pick a handful. He only had 7 minutes after-all. So…he picked. He chose his favorites, a compilation of small and big moments: lying in bed together, moving in together, slow dancing, life-changing questions, and simple nights.

And what they all had in common, was one person…”

2009, 2012, 2019, 2022 (ao3) - OliveTheHobbit

Summary: “Most people have like yearly photo books, we have this weird ass videos” - Daniel Howell, some bloopers from phil is not on fire 10.

Some of the memories they gathered along the way got fresh in their minds at the moment they decided to buy a photo album.

In celebration to Dan and Phil’s 10th anniversary.

constant future memories (ao3) - kishere

Summary: time travel fic, either dan and phil time travel from current year to 2009/2012, or vise versa, introspection would be nice of how much they’ve changed

Cute Neightbours Make the Best Friends (And Sometimes More) - crescendohowell

Summary: The day Dan starts watching Phil’s videos he gets in a car accident causing him to lose his recent memories. The only problem is he hadn’t subscribed yet. And it isn’t until years later, when he’s a lawyer living in London, that he meets a cute neighbor in the elevator named Phil, makes a best friend (one that he has a minor infatuation for), and the memories come back.

Eyes on You (ao3) - krissyxlove

Summary: To the public, Phil has always been the one taking sneaky candid photos of Dan but behind the scenes Dan has also been taking photos of Phil.

Alternatively, Dan has had a disposable camera for 10 years now and he has finally used up all the film and is ready to develop the candid photos of Phil from over the years.

Favorite Record (ao3) - jfcmartin

Summary: Phil’s most treasured memories are the times he had spent with his childhood best friend, Dan. Unfortunately, Dan doesn’t remember it just as much because of an accident two months after he moved away. Phil is determined to help him bring back his memories, winding up making new ones in the process.

Getting To Know You (Again) (ao3) - rainbowchristy

Summary: After an accident, Dan and Phil lose their memories. They’re left to learn who they were and what they meant to each other. Turning on Tumblr (aka phan central) to do that, though, may not have been the best idea.

Golden Days (ao3) - sunshineandsadness

Summary: Dan is remembering his golden days

fond memories (ao3) - overmyhead

Summary: Dan remembers meeting Phil for the first time.

Friday, I'm In Love (ao3) - raindropsonconcrete

Summary: When cleaning the apartment, Phil stumbles across certain items that compel him to take a trip down memory lane.

higher than high (ao3) - watergator

Summary: prompt: skybar

japan brings back some memories

I’d Forgotten to Fall in Love With You - echohowell

Summary: Phil is involved in a serious accident causing him to lose all his memories of his time with Dan. In a rush of panic to try and see Phil, Dan claims that he’s his fiancé. But unfortunately now, everyone, even Phil’s own family, believes the lie.So Dan embarks on a new mission. Dan’s in love with Phil Lester, and he’s going to make Phil Lester fall in love with him.

I Think I’m Breaking Down (ao3) - Lizzyboo

Summary: “Hello?” he answered, surprised to find his voice calm under the circumstances.

“Phil,” Martyn’s voice was tired and tight, and Phil wanted more than anything to hang up on him and crawl back under the covers for a few more hours. Days if possible.

“Yeah.”

He didn’t ask the question, they both knew what the phone call meant.

It didn’t make it easier to accept though.

John Doe (ao3) - Riddle

Summary: After one of the worst fights in their history as a couple, Dan flees the apartment and is hit by a car and left for dead. When he finally arrives at the hospital, a computer error misidentifies him as deceased and effectively kills him in the eyes of the world. Phil must learn to live thinking that Dan is dead, and Dan–who no longer remembers anything of his life before waking up in the morgue–tries to start a new life and regain his memories with the help of a kind stranger.

Kairosclerosis (ao3) - orphan_account

Summary: Kairosclerosis n. the moment you realize that you’re currently happy—consciously trying to savour the feeling—which prompts your intellect to identify it, pick it apart and put it in context, where it will slowly dissolve until it’s little more than an aftertaste.

2009/2010 Dan ponders his happiness and new life with Phil.

keep it or yeet it (ao3) - possumdnp

Summary: Phil’s armed with sticky notes, ready to keep or yeet everything in their room before the big move.

Dan just wants a break.

Keys to My Heart (ao3) - thatsthephan

Summary: We’ve all wanted Dan to get his piano fixed forever. But when a cute repair guy shows up and causes trouble, can a simple song played on the piano fix things? Well, that and a long overdue discussion of the past.

Memories in Manchester (ao3) - Spring_Haze

Summary: Dan and Phil feel nostalgic while in Manchester for tour and recall their earliest memories of one another, including their first kiss.

We Built This House on Memories - 2009 - darling-phil

Summary: A look into Dan and Phil’s relationship over the years from the moment Dan bought his train tickets in 2009 to Phil stealing his cereal in 2016

who’d have known? (ao3) - CallofTheCurlew

Summary: Nerd!Dan and Badboy!Phil meet at a club Dan isn’t even sure he wants to be at. But it’s his last year of university, and those are made for memories. Allegedly.

#phanfictioncatalogue #phanfiction #phanfic #phan #masterlists #memories #memories masterlist

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Characters included in bracket

The Onceler from the Lorax (11)

Noise from Roleslaying with Roman (10)

Link from The Legend of Zelda (8)

Ambrosius Goldenloin from Nimona (4)

Enjolras from Les Miserables (4)

Chip from Just Roll With It (4)

Osamu Dazai from Bungo Stray Dogs (4)

Vash the Stampede from Trigun Stampede (3)

Hong Lu from Limbus Company (3)

Silver the Hedgehog from Sonic (3)

Julian Bashir from Star Trek Deep Space 9 (3)

Homestar Runner from Homestar Runner (3)

Keefe Sencen from Keeper of the Lost Cities (3)

Marvin the Magnificent from Jacksepticeye (3)

Ballister from Nimona (2)

Howl from Howl’s Moving Castle (2)

Yuki Sohma from Fruits Basket (2)

Hunter from The Owl House (2)

Nico di Angelo from PJO (2)

Prompto Argentum from Final Fantasy XV (2)

Tamaki Suoh from Ouran High School Host Club (2)

Mercutio from Romeo and Juliet (2)

Hamlet from Hamlet (2)

Daniel from Camp Camp (2)

Lear from Pokemon (2)

Asmodeus from Obey Me Shall We Date (2)

Nathan from Misfits (2)

Scout from Team Fortress 2 (2)

Nagito Komaeda from Danganronpa (2)

Alfredo Linguini from Ratatouille (2)

Tomoe from Kamisama Kiss (2)

Jermey Heere from Be More Chill (2)

Shin Tsukimi from Your Turn to Die (2)

Rui Kamishiro from Project Sekai (2)

Luke Skywalker from Star Wars (2)

Nei Huaisang from mdzs (2)

Lester Papadopoulos from The Trials of Apollo (2)

Vince Noir from The Mighty Boosh (2)

Rick Pratt from The Young Ones (2)

Haruka Sakurai from Milgram (2)

Lilia Vanrouge from Twisted Wonderland (2)

Riddle Rosehearts from Twisted Wonderland (2)

Kuzco from The Emperor’s New Groove (2)

Ennon from Good Omens (2)

Eric “Bitty” Bittle from Check‚ Please! (2)

Mars from Project Nought (1)

Twink from Q-Force (1)

Mike from Roleslaying with Roman (1)

Icarus from Greek Mythology (1)

Kajiyama Fuuta from MILGRAM (1)

Damien from Dream Daddy (1)

Mills from Be my Villian (1)

Kyo Sohma from Fruits Basket (1)

Tobias from Faroff (1)

Venti from Genshin Impact (1)

Kyoya Ootori from Ouran High School Host Club (1)

Bo from She-Ra (1)

Zazie from Trigun Stampede (1)

Leviathan from Obey Me Shall We Date (1)

Demon Eric from Good Omens (1)

Hypnos from Hades (1)

Jenson Endo from The Prince of Southland (1)

Yule from Wild Beast Forest House (1)

Lyney from Genshin Impact (1)

Kyle from She Ra (1)

Sampo from Honkai Star Rail (1)

Tartaglia from Genshin Impact (1)

Oscar from Tea for Two (1)

Ezra from Tea for Two (1)

Shut from Pretty Cure (1)

Merlin from Fate Grand Order (1)

Felix Escellun from Last Legacy (1)

Asra from The Arcana (1)

Julian from The Arcana (1)

Florian from Tea for Two (1)

Marlon from Tea for Two (1)

Errol from Tea for Two (1)

Billy Kaplan from Young Avengers/Marvel comics (1)

Chuuya from Bungou Stray Dogs (1)

Belphegor from Obey Me Shall We Date (1)

Haku from Spirited Away (1)

Anasui from Jojo's Bizzare Adventure: Stone Ocean (1)

Mizuki from Kamisama Kiss (1)

Kurama from Kamisama Kiss (1)

Sigma from Bungo Stray Dogs (1)

Gowther from Seven Deadly Sins (1)

Yukito from Cardcaptor Sakura (1)

Ren Ichimoku from Hell Girl (1)

Ashitaka from Princess Mononoke (1)

Shuntaro Chishiya from Alice In Borderland (1)

Bailin from Bailin and Li Yun (1)

Li Yun from Bailin and Li Yun (1)

Kappa from Castle Swimmer (1)

Siren from Castle Swimmer (1)

Jack from Check, Please! (1)

Al Leon from Appare-Ranman! (1)

Dr. Facilier from The Princess and the Frog (1)

Shang Qinghua from The Scum Villian’s Self Saving System (1)

Lio from Promare (1)

James from Pokemon (1)

N from Pokemon (1)

Bruno from Encanto (1)

Diego the Squire from Nimona (1)

Finnian from Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler (1)

Satan from Obey Me Shall We Date (1)

Ingo from Pokemon (1)

Akito Sohma from Fruits Basket (1)

Hatori Sohma from Fruits Basket (1)

The Man with the Yellow Hat from Curious George (1)

Laurent de Vere from The Captive Prince (1)

Miles Maitland from Bright Young Things (1)

Lance Mcclain from Voltron Legendary Defender (1)

Lelouch from Code Geass (1)

Edgar Valden from Identity V (1)

Hercules (pre training) from Disney’s Hercules (1)

Shinji Ikari from Neon Genesis Evangelion (1)

Connor from Dear Evan Hansen (1)

Orpheus from Hadestown (1)

Charlie Price from Kinky Boots (1)

Wallace from Pokemon (1)

Keith Kogane from Voltron (1)

Double Trouble from She Ra (1)

Shigure Sohma from Fruits Basket (1)

Ayame Sohma from Fruits Basket (1)

Langa from Sk8 the Infinity (1)

Jaskier from The Witcher (1)

Fay D. Fluorite from Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles (1)

Karube from Alice in Borderland (1)

#tournament of the twinks

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