#legit want to curl up with him and watch movies forever

[ozarkthedog]

he's so precious to me 🥹

[petersasteria]

good 4 u || harry holland

sour masterlist || harry || sour taglist

1,589 words sorry for the shit ending ?? bc i didnt know how to end it lmao italics are flashbacks

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“Babe, you didn’t have to spoil me.” You chuckled.

“You deserve it, love. You deserve the world.” Harry looked at you lovingly before pressing a sweet kiss on your lips.

-

“I really want to be a professional photographer and filmmaker, you know?” Harry told you one day. Both of you were lying wide awake in bed, staring at the ceiling. Both of you couldn’t sleep, so you talked about random things.

“I believe in you, Harry. I believe in you more than anyone or anything. You can do just that. I support you.” You smiled as you turned your head to face him. He looked at you and grinned, “So, you think I’m really going to be those things?”

“Yeah. Why not? You’re an amazing photographer and filmmaker. Believe in yourself, Harry. My faith in you will be nothing if you don’t believe in yourself. Trust me.” You told him.

“That’s true. You’re right.” Harry said before yawning.

“I’m always right.” You curled up against him and rested your head on his chest. He chuckled and kissed the top of your head.

-

“Harry, where are you? I’ve been waiting out here for an hour now.” You said through the phone. Harry said he’d pick you up from your university, but he wasn’t there yet. Then it began to rain heavily, causing you to run to the nearest shade. You were cold, wet, and impatient.

“I’ll be there in a while. See you later!” Harry hung up.

After thirty minutes, Harry finally arrived. You quickly got in and sighed in relief when you realized the whole car was warm.

“What took you so long?” You asked him.

“My car’s acting up. I hate this old piece of shit.” Harry grumbled as he tried to start the car. After five tries, it finally worked.

“You need a new car.” You laughed.

“Yeah, I do.” He chuckled.

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“I hope I’m not interrupting your sleepover or whatever.” Harry said quietly through the phone. You were at your friend, Elouise’s slumber party because it was her birthday.

“No, you’re not. We’re just watching a movie and I’ve seen this movie a bunch of times.” You assured him. You walked out of the living room and went to the kitchen. You sat on the bar stool and asked, “What’s up?”

“Mum and dad are just being mean, that’s all.” Harry sighed.

“I know you’re about to cry, so just let it out. Talk to me.” You said softly. Harry started sobbing and telling you about his fight with his parents.

“Y/N/N, I got offered an apprenticeship in Dublin. That’s the biggest opportunity I’ve ever received and they’re stopping me. It’s like they don’t want me to succeed, but when Tom wants something done, they let him. It’s so fucking tiring. I never asked them for anything and the one time I do, they say shit. It’s unfair.” He sobbed and your heart broke for him.

“I feel you. I legit feel the same way, but we just have to prove them wrong, yeah? You’ll make it big and what they say won’t matter as much anymore. They love you and they just want what’s best for you, but sometimes they don’t exactly know what’s best for you. It’s weird, I swear. Just prove them wrong. You’ll get another opportunity again and when you get that, it’ll be bigger than that apprenticeship in Dublin.” You told him with a small smile on your face.

“You get me so well.” Harry smiled as he wiped his tears. “I’ll just go to sleep now. I love you.”

“I love you too.”

-

You couldn’t take it anymore. Harry’s face seemed to be everywhere you went, haunting you. After being together for two and a half years, Harry broke up with you because of reasons only he seemed to know. After he broke up with you, you spent the whole week just crying. You didn’t understand, but life was really cruel.

Three weeks later, word got out that Harry was dating some model and that surprised you. It surprised you because he moved on really quick and he looked really happy and healthy. He looked better compared to when he was dating you. You were proud of him, but it made you wonder why Harry chose to make himself better for this girl and not for you when you were together. It seemed unfair.

Unfortunately, you were still friends with Sam. You were Sam’s favorite and he actually preferred you instead of Harry’s new girlfriend. Wanting to hang out with you, You and Sam met up at the mall and just shop or walk around. You couldn’t really hang out at Sam’s house because of Harry and his girlfriend.

“She’s nice, but I’m on your side.” Sam said as he ate his ice cream. You laughed and shook your head. Sam looked at you and said, “I’m serious! She’s trying to make me her best friend or something. Like, she’s trying really hard.”

“Then try to be her friend. Maybe you guys might click and then you’ll replace me like how Harry replaced me.” You said. You were aware it was petty and pathetic, but you couldn’t help it. This time, it was Sam who laughed.

“You know, I overheard him the other day. He told her that she’s the only person who gets him and I’m just sitting there all confused because he said the same thing to you. In fact, it’s like he forgot all about you.” Sam said as he animatedly spoke with his hands. He seemed really annoyed.

“Okay, then.” You chuckled. “You seem annoyed.”

“Yeah because I thought both of you were it for each other.” He said with a sad smile. You returned it, but didn’t say anything.

At the end of the day, it was time for both of you to go home. Sam groaned in frustration as he texted while walking. “What?” You asked, turning your head to look at him.

Both of you stopped walking when you reached the mall’s exit. Sam was typing furiously as you looked at him in confusion. “What’s wrong?” You asked.

He looked at you and sighed, “Tom can’t pick me up.”

“I thought you drove here?” You asked and he shook his head. “What happened to your car?”

“My parents borrowed it because their car is in the shop, getting fixed. Tom can’t pick me up because he has to use his car to go to an event that he forgot about. I’d call for an Uber or something, but I literally have zero money on me. So, I have no choice but to ask Harry.” Sam said, biting his lip.

“Well, shit.” Was all you said as Sam looked at you with guilt all over his face. He quickly sent a text to Harry and he smiled a bit when he immediately got a reply.

“He’s coming soon.” Sam told you. You snorted. You vividly remember Harry’s slow and beat up car. Sam was talking to you, but you weren’t really paying attention. Your mind went to all those times you spent in Harry’s old car and all the places you’ve been. Those were moments you’ll never forget.

“Y/N, my ride’s here.”

You were pulled from your thoughts as soon as Harry said that. You looked at the direction that Sam was looking at and you were surprised to see a beautiful, new car. It was charcoal grey and the windows were so clean, you could see the inside. Harry was driving and his new girlfriend was sitting on the passenger seat.

“Oh shit. I didn’t know she was coming.” Sam turned to you. “I’m so sorry, Y/N/N. If I had known he was taking her, I wouldn’t-”

“It’s okay. I’m mature and civil. I can handle it. Besides, I can’t avoid them forever. It was bound to happen.” You gave him a small smile.

Harry stopped in front of you both and he rolled his window down. His sunglasses were resting on top of his head and he looked really fresh.

“Are you getting in or not?” He asked Sam, completely ignoring you.

“Hello to you too.” Sam rolled his eyes and crossed his arms as he took a few steps to the door of his backseat. “Y/N, do you need a ride?”

You shook your head, “No, thanks. I’ll call an Uber.” You turned to face Harry, who was already looking at you. “Your photography is improving.” You said.

“Thanks.”

“Nice car, too. I’m glad you replaced the busted ol’ thing.” You chuckled awkwardly.

“Yeah, I figured I should buy myself a new car. The old one wasn’t doing it for me. I need to upgrade, y’know?”

You held back a snappy reply because it wouldn’t do you any good. Plus, you didn’t want to draw attention to yourself. You wanted to ask him if he broke up with you because he needed a girlfriend upgrade, but you kept it to yourself.

“Yeah, that’s nice. Good for you, though… and congrats, I guess.” You gave him a tight-lipped smile and he returned it. Sam got in the car and rolled his window down. “I’ll text you, okay?” Sam said and you just nodded. Harry drove away and you stood there, watching.

You wished you could not care like Harry and you wished you could move on just as quick, but you couldn’t. No matter how hard you tried, you were still stuck on him. It sucked.

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[hatterstan-shameblog]

Nobody asked for this but I'm gonna do it anyways...

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Fluff Alphabet: Takeru/Aguni Edition

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A = Attractive what do they find attractive about the other?

Takeru: only reason he let Aguni wear regular clothes and not swimwear is because he saw ARM in that tank top and was like "oh damn okay 😳." So, y'know, that. (And he'll never admit it but he kinda likes how Aguni is a little bit taller than he is....) Also likes that Aguni has a really dry, deadpan sense of humor—he ways finds a way to make Takeru laugh, even when he's not really trying.

Aguni: I think the physical aspect of things wasn't really a make-or-break for him at first—like, yeah, Takeru's a good-looking guy, but that's secondary. He liked how Takeru is such a live-wire, very loud and colorful and seemingly fearless, no matter what kind of trouble they got into. (But also...he likes the hair. That's a thing for him.)

B = Baby do they want a family? why/why not?

Takeru: If they end up with one somehow, then, sure. But, like. He's not going out of his was to make it a thing. (But also, he has his cat, Ziggy, who he calls his baby, so...)

Aguni: Would secretly love to be a dad but is too worried he might mess the kid up or something. Is more than happy to be 'unofficial parent' to the neighborhood kids, though. Handing out ice pops to the kids that show up at the shop, keeping an eye out and telling them to get home before dark, maybe even showing one or two of them how to throw a better curveball...you know. Real Hallmark channel shit. (And yes, for those who were wondering: Ziggy the cat loves him and often curls up on his lap while he watches TV)

C = Cuddle how do they cuddle?

They don't really "cuddle" outside of bed. Just kinda sit next to each other, shoulder to shoulder, no big deal. But in bed, Aguni lies on his back with his arm sorta outstretched while Takeru...well, my man is worm on a string but OFF the string, he just flops all sorts of ways and a lot of them don't look comfortable but he falls asleep in minutes so whatever.

D = Dates what are dates with them like?

I don't think they do "dates"—they've got a long-term thing going on, so they often end up on the couch eating takeout and watching movies. I think they'd go to the movie theater sometimes (and talk shit for the entire film lol) and every once in a while grab dinner somewhere nice...but, usually because they have some cool limited-time-only dessert item that Takeru insists they try. (And Aguni pretends to be upset about having to get dressed up and go out, but is actually rather pleased to have a little romance...and get something to satisfy his sweet tooth.)

E = Everything you are my ____ (e.g my life, my world…)

Aguni: Emergency Medical Contact

Takeru: Co-Signer On The Apartment Lease

F = Feelings when did they know they were falling in love?

Takeru: About a week after Aguni (drunkenly) confessed his crush. Literally spent a whole week like, "Wow, it's a shame I don't love him back. He's so kind and handsome and smart and funny...too bad, I guess..." until one night he sat up straight in bed and said "Hold up." He then immediately called Aguni and began demanding why Aguni didn't tell him he was in love with him this whole time.

Aguni: They had been friends since they were kids, so it's hard to say when his feelings went from "you're my best friend" to something different. But, once he figured it out, he swore never to mention it because that could complicate their friendship.

G = Gentle are they gentle? If so, how?

Takeru: Yes and no. He's got a bad case of "grabby hands" and often yanks Aguni to and fro to look at something or whatever. Just zero respect for the man's personal space. But otherwise...I imagine he's not particularly rough or gentle, just kind of normal. EXCEPT when it comes to the emotional stuff—like, the real heavy things. I think he's very gentle with that, not asking too many questions and just sort of taking care of him where he can.

Aguni: Generally gentle—physically, emotionally, whatever. But I do think that he's confrontational, like when there's an issue, he comes straight out and asks Takeru what's going on. Even corners him, sometimes. He seems like a "no bullshit" guy, and since Takeru is "Mr. 99% Bullshit" he's gotta deal with it as best he can.

H = Hand/Hold how do they like to hold hands?

The only time they "hold hands" is when Takeru is grabbing Aguni's wrist to drag him somewhere (or run away lol) and when Aguni is pulling Takeru's hand back to stop him from touching something...

I = Impression first impression/s

I headcanon that they met very young, like grade school age. After school, in the park, where Takeru was chilling in a tree and Aguni walked by and he was like "Hey, there's a spider up here, wanna see?" and Aguni is like "Not really, I don't like bugs..." Now, Takeru, being "weird bug kid extraordinaire" can't believe his strange little ears and hops down from the tree and starts explaining why bugs are so cool and that Aguni is wrong...and Aguni listens as this funky, tiny firecracker just talks his damn ear off. Aguni liked how excited Takeru got about things, and Takeru liked how Aguni actually listened to him. And they were fast friends after that!

J = Joker are they into pulling pranks?

Takeru fucks around all the time...and doesn't often find out, because Aguni tolerates all his antics. (To a certain point, but still.) Every once in a while, Aguni will tell some harmless little lie just to watch Takeru freak out—he told him once that Lady Gaga was leaving the music scene forever, and Takeru screamed so loud the neighbors filed a noise complaint.

K = Kisses how do they kiss?

I think they most often do quick pecks—at the breakfast table, when they get home from work. You know. Domestic stuff. But when it's not like that...I think 9/10 times it's Takeru initiating, and Aguni reciprocates by wrapping his arms around him in a big hug (because he likes it but also to keep that skinny little weirdo from wiggling so damn much, he's always moving, he can't just be still—)

L = Love who says I love you first?

Neither! I don't think they really say it at all! Why say something that doesn't need to be said? (At least, that's how they see it...)

M = Memory their favorite moment together

Aguni: It's not really a memory, but...just how they have breakfast together some mornings. Sipping coffee, discussing whatever's going on in the world, the general "togetherness" that comes with it is one of his favorite feelings.

Takeru: The time they spent a full 24 hours in a karaoke booth singing 80's hits and knocking back tequila shots and ordering way too much food.

N = Nickel do they spoil? do they buy the person they love everything?

Takeru: Absolutely buys stuff for Aguni all the time. Mostly random snacks, or little knick-knacks that catch his eye. And also clothes, but...Aguni doesn't always approve.

Aguni: Doesn't buy Takeru stuff BUT leaves vases of flowers he grew on the table for Takeru to find.

O = Orange what color reminds them of their other half

Anything bright and obnoxious reminds Aguni of Takeru—red in particular, which also happens to be Takeru's favorite. And Takeru thinks Aguni has calm and soothing blue-green vibes. Like the ocean, beautiful and serene, but also dark and capable of incredible destruction.

P = Petnames what pet names do they use?

Takeru: All of them. Darling, babe, sweetheart (but he calls everyone those lol). Aguni-specific ones are always over-the-top and ridiculous like "brightest star in all of the heavens..." and he always gets an eye-roll for his efforts.

Aguni: Absolutely does not use pet names. Just says "hey you" or something. Once called Takeru "babe" and Takeru had to stop washing dishes and sit down because he was laughing so hard.

Q = Quaint what is their favorite non-modern thing?

Takeru: I feel like he would collect a ton of vintage stuff—clothes, records, just random little bits and bobs he comes across. But his favorite is definitely his record player—it belonged to his dad, and he keeps it in a place of honor in the hat shop.

Aguni: A set of very old and well-cared-for gardening tools. Takeru got them for him for his birthday, and he legit treasures them.

R = Rainy Day what do they like to do on a rainy day?

Lay on the couch and do literally nothing. Takeru gets the left end, Aguni takes the right, and they binge trash TV shows all day. (And also they make box-mix brownies and eat them straight out of the pan. It's "their thing.")

S = Sad how do they cheer themselves/each other up

Takeru: Aside from all his self-destrictive behaviors (binge-drinking, dangerous situations, etc.) he just really needs a good laugh. And Aguni somehow always manages to make him laugh with an unexpected, deadpan comment. Also, he makes Takeru actually talk through his problems instead of ignoring them...

Aguni: if he's in a bad mood, you just need to let him work through it on his own. He hates being "talked down to" and feels that most attempts at cheering up are cheap, so most people don't attempt. Buf...Takeru is not "most people" and breaks out his most ridiculous jokes to try to get Aguni to crack a smile.

T = Talking what do they love to talk about?

Other people! You know Takeru is the "XOXO Gossip Girl" of the neighborhood, but Aguni...he's like a little old church lady and ADORES hearing all the latest drama.

U = Unencumbered What helps them relax?

Both of them have the same method of relaxation and it's...bubble baths! Aguni does a basic, skin soothing soak and just hangs out in the warm water with a book or maybe just his thoughts to keep him company. But Takeru? He's got some fancy bath soaps, and he takes in a glass of wine and lights a few candles and does a face mask and it's a whole EVENT.

V - Very thoughts about each other

Takeru: Thinks Aguni needs to loosen up and take more risks...but also just loves the guy to pieces.

Aguni: Kinda wishes Takeru would calm tf down sometimes...but also knows that it's just how the guy is and wouldn't dare change him.

W = Wedding when, how, where do they propose?

They're not really the marrying type! They just have a mutual understanding of commitment and that's that.

(But if they did have a wedding... I think it would be a relatively small affair with all their closest friends and family. Like a dinner party, but somewhere extra nice and with lots of good food and alcohol. Intimate and meaningful, with just enough "extra" to satisfy Takeru.)

X = Xylophone What’s their song?

"Total Eclipse of the Heart" because they hid out in a karaoke booth (different from the 24-hour event that Takeru cherishes so much) to es ape the Yakuza and Takeru sang it over and over to pass the time.

Y = You the ___ to my ___ (e.g the cookies to my milk, the macaroni to my cheese)

"Breaking" to my "Entering." The "Assault" to my "Battery." (They both hate this sort of thing and try to come up with the worst answers possible lol)

Z = Zebra if they wanted a pet, what pet would they get?

They already have the cat, Ziggy, who is their perfect little angel.

[kenjikutie]

okay when you said you were taking hinata requests, i RAN😳 if it's alright with you, may i request just some cute fluff with our tangerine boy. maybe some cuddling hcs? it's all up to you, my brain isn't cooperating rn with me so i can't think of something big brain request😔✋

oh my goodness i love ur blog so much i-😳

Cuddling with The Sun Hinata:

- hinata is definetly shy the first time you cuddle together so you’ve gotta take it slow like maybe a head on shoulder here and there or smth

- even then, he’ll still want to explode and his cheeks will look like you smeared bright red paint on them

- believe it or not, hinata was the one who initiated legit cuddle sessions

- you two were just vibing and watching a movie then he rested his head on our stomach and curled up like a lil cat or crow, technically

- run your fingers through this baby’s hair and he is all yours forever. will go limp in yours arms tho, be warned

- when he loses a game, he gets really down on himself and starts thinking of everything he could have done better

- when that’s happens, just pull him into your chest. he’ll tense up at first but then nuzzle and grip onto your shirt so tightly

- he is 99% of the time the little spoon but when he is the big spoon??? very very soft and warm

- will someone please find me an orange to cuddle with pls

[feelthepainofdodick]

Do You Want A Forever With Me? (D.D. Imagine)

Summary: You offer the idea of marriage to David because you really want to travel the world with him and he hesitates making you question your relationship.

Notes: I kind of got this idea from the podcast before he married Lorraine. I remember he was talking to Jason about his immigration status saying that his only way to get citizenship was through marriage. Jason told him that he could legit put out a marriage ask on Instagram and a million girls would offer to do it. I know I totally would. But then he said that if he ever got married it would be with someone he truly loved. Then, that dumbass, married Lorraine for a joke. ANYWAYS - this imagine was inspired by that. Hope yall enjoy <3 -Julie

Word Count: 726

You were all curled up next to David on the cloud couch watching a movie together. Under a warm fuzzy blanket, your arm wrapped around his torso, you looked up at him while he stared intently at the movie playing on the screen. 

“Honey?” You ask.

He breaks his focus and looks down at your face. He smiles. “Yes?”

“So as you know we’ve been dating for over two years.” You start.

He chuckles. “Yes. I’ve been wondering what we’ve been doing this entire time.” He sarcastically jokes.

“And I love you to bits and pieces but I really want to start traveling the world with you by my side.” You say.

He frowns. “Baby, there’s nothing more I’d love to give you than that but you know I can’t travel out of the United States.”

You are now sitting up, your legs draped over him, as you continue this conversation. “Yes! I know that David. That’s why I was thinking we should get married so you start the process to get your visa.” You say rather quickly.

David sucks in a quick breath. “Uh. I -I don’t know.”

You look at him confused. “You don’t know? As in, you don’t know if you want to marry me?” You begin to feel hurt and anger rise up your body.

“No no no. Baby, it’s not that -” He begins to say.

You abruptly rise onto your feet interrupting him by saying. “Then what is it David!? Have these past - almost three years - mean nothing to you. Why would you keep dating me if you didn’t think of a forever with me? I love you David. I thought it was reciprocated, b -but I guess not... Aargh. I need some air...” Frustrated, hurt, and slightly embarrassed, you walk off to the back yard. You sit down in the grass, knees bent towards your chest, and stare off into the setting sun. 

After ten minutes of contemplative silence, you here the glass doors slide open behind you. Then a familiar body sits right next to you. You feel so utterly connected to him. You can feel his warmth radiate from him to you. His scent so distinct only to you. You can feel his presence whenever he is near you in your heart as if he were tethered to you. David was what you always thought a soulmate would feel like. When he hesitated to the idea of marriage with you, it hurt, to say the least. 

You turn to look at him. “Do you not want to marry me David? Forget the visa, forget the travelling, forget every other factor in this... Do you want a forever with me?”

He looked at you with soft eyes. “(Y/N), I want to love you for the rest of my life. It just startled me that you asked. I promise you, you are my forever.” He reaches for something behind him. Gets up slightly to get on one knee. You gasp as he pulls his hand forward with a small black box. He opens the box to reveal a stunning diamond ring and begins to talk.

“Honey, I love you so very much. Over these past two years, you’ve given me the world. Your heart is so pure and beautiful. I don’t know what I ever did to deserve someone like you. But you came into my life, took my heart, and never let go. I want to be the lucky man that gets to keep your love forever. I definitely wasn’t planning to do this right now -” He chuckles. “But I couldn’t let you think I don’t want a forever with you. That is all I want baby. You and me forever. That will be my heaven... So, (Y/N)... Will you... Marry me?” He questions.

You stare at him, tears in your eyes, and love in your heart. You smile and go to grab his face giving him a tear filled, passionate kiss; whispering yes over and over again between kisses. You both pull back with goofy smiles on your faces. He grabs the black box that fell out of his hands as you both were kissing. Grabbing your left hand, he places the ring on your finger and kisses it. You smile, moving to cuddle into his side, to watch the sunset as a newly engaged couple.

[mrs-livvy]

So Into You: Chapter 3

Note: I finally got the chance to update SOMETHING. Good gawd. I’m not gonna waste y’all’s time, so here we go!

Warnings: if ya squint and tilt your head to the left it’s bare minimum

Word Count: 3,465

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Premier days contain the following; hair and makeup, fasting for days, needing to fit in said perfect outfit picked out months ahead of time, sneak peak pics for the gram and occasional teasing from a pair of old friends.

“All my life, been grindin' all my life. Sacrificed, hustled, paid the price, Want a slice, gotta roll the dice

That's why all my life, I been grindin' all my life. All my life, been grindin' all my life. Sacrificed, hustled, paid the price, Want a slice, gotta roll the dice

That's why, all my life, I been grindin' all my life.”

Getting into the groove of premier night, the sounds of the late great Nipsey Hustle rant through the walls of my decent sized hotel room. There’s curl wands on the counter; a few makeup cases opened, couple of dresses on hangers in the spacious bathroom and just wine flowing mixed with the good vibes.

Chris has stayed over my house over the weekend for the premier of Endgame. Yes a few kisses were shared, slight touching here and there but that’s all it’s been. Sharing a bed with him with our feelings out in the open, it’s really different now for the both of us. The way he makes me feel now, is way different than before. We agreed we’d switch up the tradition and get ready at the Hollywood Roosevelt Hotel, in separate rooms that happen to be 3 doors down from each other.

A familiar voice had been heard, on the other side of the door, over the music to suddenly stop the flow. Becoming alert, I had tightened the tie on my silk robe. “Knock knock.” 

Upon opening the door, I had to contain the excitement when Cleo came in. “Come on in, come on in!” 

“I heard there was a certain goddess, that needed a dress for the one of the biggest Marvel movies ever. I of course care prepared and granted what the queen asked for.” As she set up the dress on the rack next to Danai’s, I unzipped it and was floored.

Cleo does not disappoint at all. The dress was white, with a gold beaded bodice flowing down from the breast line; cut out shoulders with spaghetti straps, a cape and it hit right at floor length. It was more elegant as I could imagine. A growing smirk appeared on my face, as a sinister thought came to mind and boy I was ready for it.

“That look, I know that look Roxanne.” Danai was always on my toes when it came to certain moments. Especially in rehearsals, we formed a tight bond and I couldn’t be happier to have her in this moment.

“Oh lord that look. The one look that says, “I plan on making guys sweat.” Kind of look. Know it all too damn well.”

“Whatever do you ladies mean?” I tried to play it off, but my face was giving it away too easily.

“Who are you planning on having to stop in their tracks this evening, Ms. Alexander?” Danai asked out of curiosity, while getting her makeup done.

A soft shrug and a smirk, was given. “That’s for me to know, and for everyone to find out later if anything happens from it.”

“Well, we gonna guess who the mystery man is.” Cleo arched a brow in triumph.

“Cause he’s putting a smile on that gorgeous face, and we wanna know who.” Tessa, who is also one of my good friends, was always one to get on the case for anything.

“Guess away ladies. You may or may not get it.” 

Getting my hair curled, I felt a sense of adrenaline rush through me with trying to keep this a secret. Over 30 plus years of friendship, with added pent up sexual frustration, has come to a halt with a kiss and revelation.

Upon moisturizing my legs to shine in these pictures, I received a text from Chris. Only god knows what he wants at a time like this.

Chris: I bet you’re gonna look real good tonight, baby doll.

Baby doll? That’s a new one. The grin on my face must’ve gave it away, by the glares I got from the girls.

“Now now who's making Kida all happy? Is it Milo?” Tessa never missed a beat when it came to guessing games. As far as she knows, I hope she doesn’t guess Chris. Responding back to his text I had to be quick, I had to hide my phone away from the vultures. Yet he replied with quick like speed.

Me: baby doll? That’s a new one, Evans. You planning on showing out tonight? Being America’s golden boy and all.

Chris: You know I will be. I have Cleo to thank for styling me.

“She’s grinning like a Cheshire Cat! Who is the man?” Cleo grabbed my arm and shook vigorously. The girl had a vice grip on me and I couldn’t help but laugh. 

“If I tell y’all, will y’all stop asking?”

“Yes!”

“Ok damn.” I bit my bottom lip feeling anxious about delivering the news. We weren’t legit yet but I could trust them to keep it quiet. Geneva and Miyah already know so, why not tell the rest of my tribe? Well part of the tribe anyway.

“The Milo Thatch to my Kidagakash, is Evans.” I say with my eyes closed, awaiting the peanut gallery as I slipped into my dress and heels.

Danai was giddy as a kid in a candy store. “I knew it!!! Y’all got closer over rehearsals. I knew that whole only childhood friends thing wouldn’t last.”

“What about Delilah?” Cleo arches a brow, before zipping me up in my dress, then helped the other girls.

“Tuh. What about her?” If my hunch was correct, I would I think she’d be cheating on Chris without a second thought. She already has her name out there being a low budget actress and all, thinking she’s high and mighty.

With a slight nudge from Tessa, we shared a smile. “She has an inkling that little miss Delilah is messing around on Chris. If she is then he has every right to explore whatever he’s got going on with Roxie. They deserve it.”

Cleo added they final touches on my makeup. “That is true. Well, ladies you’re all set and ready to go. The car is outside and I’m sure your dates are too. I’m sorry I can’t make it, already have plans.”

“Girl why aren’t you going? Is it Jake?” I asked with a smile.

“Ha ha, very funny. It kind of is but it’s me, him and Callie. We’re doing dinner at the house and his date got canceled. No it wasn’t me this time, I need to get my hit count up though. Anyway, I gotta get Callie from her dads. Send me pictures!” On her way out she said her goodbyes, and we all headed out as well.

The look she gave me when she saw Chris come out of his room, was sinister. She pointed down the hall towards me and he froze instantly. When was the last time he saw me in a dress? My birthday party actually, and it was a sundress. This one was form fitting and gods know I loved every moment of it.

Now Chris on the other hand, he looked like a god. His elegant royal blue suit, paired nicely with a simple black and dress shoes. He looked regal almost, yet commanding as he always did when he walked into a room. He held out his hand to me, I graciously take it as he spun me around.

“You look amazing. God damn I can’t believe I was blind to not see the beauty in my best friend. I mean I always knew you were beautiful but, damn. Look at my girl.”

“Chris honey, you’re rambling.” I couldn’t help but chuckle at his bashful nature, as I pecked his cheek. I let the ‘my girl’ comment slide for now.

“You look good too, hella good actually let me check you out now.”

Having him give me a full turn, showing off the goods here and there I could tell he felt good. The smirk on his face was proof enough for me. I could tell he hung out with Anthony Mackie too much.

“Salvatore Ferragamo? Nice job.”

“Yes actually, custom too. You’re good Roxie, very good.” Offering me his arm to hook with mine, I did so as we headed for the car downstairs. 

“Well I know my suits like I know my man. Plus, you don’t wear anything but Italian cause mama Evans and I talk.” 

“Your man huh? Since when am I your man, Alexander?” He looked at me before we both got in the SUV, eyeing me down like prey. If we weren’t going to this premier I’d be jumping his bones right about now.

“Since we’re on the subject, since when am I your girl?” I whispered against his lips in a seductive tone, watching him buckle at the knees. 

Sending a wink in my direction, I knew this ride was gonna be awkward and dirty. “Since forever. You know that, doll.”

The car ride was exactly that and more. We weren’t even that far from the Dolby Theatre, about 10-15 minutes out, and he couldn’t keep his hands off of me. His left hand was creeping up my right thigh, making me close my eyes at the feeling. Having his hands on me was always a fantasy of mine and to have it come to reality, was something brand new.

“Christopher, were almost there and you need to chill.” I say through my small giggles. The crowd was even louder than I anticipated and I could feel their energy through the car.

Once we got out of the car, the paparazzi were swarming like mosquitoes on a muggy summer night. Asking a question left and right, gesturing me to turn for pictures. I let Chris do his thing at a distance, that was until he called me over to take pictures and answer some questions. Of course I had to plug Cleo’s designs when asked about my dress, no way was I gonna leave my girl hanging.

“Seeing as though this is going to be one of my last interviews, I have to say Miss Roxie I have to say you look good girl.” Zuri Hall, one of the best interviewers around for Entertainment Tonight, always made it her mission to find me. I loved the girl the death, her personality was just outstanding and her energy was electrifying.

“Girl I’m just trying to be like you, all fine and our here doing the damn thing.” I was never one to hide my presence when it came to interviews.

“Last time we spoke it was a year ago for Infinity War, as a Dora Milaje.”

“Correct, I was one of the fearsome warriors.” I nodded gently with a sweet smile etched on my face, then looked over at Chris who was doing his own thing. Zuri must’ve caught me cause she chuckled softly.

“And you’re here with one of the main stars correct?”

“You caught me slippin. But yes I am, Chris Evans himself. America’s golden child if you will. We’ve been best friends since we were kids, and to be in each other’s lives for this long with our careers it’s astounding really.”

Whenever I talk about the friendship Chris and I had, it made me feel special and proud to have a guy like him be my friend for so long. Maybe in more than friends if the stars aligned.

“With a friendship that tight I can only imagine the shenanigans you two get into.”

“Oh yeah, it’s a lot going on but it’s all fun.”

“That being said, what can you tell me about the movie?” Arching her left brow, Zuri tried her best to get information out of me, but that wasn’t gonna happen.

“All I can say is: be ready. That’s all I can say because we were all shooting scenes at different times and no one really knows how it all ends but the core six. The rest of us common folk don’t know anything.”

“Ah man. Well I tried ladies and gentlemen. Special thanks to you Roxanne for the opportunity, we’re all excited for the movie. I know I am, back to you guys.” Once the interview ended, Chris signaled for me to meet him down by the end of the carpet. 

Upon walking twisted him, to my left I saw a curly blonde head with pink tips. How many people has that hair style? Stopping in my tracks I was shocked to see none other than Delilah herself. She decided to come after all huh? Getting a closer look I saw who her date was, and to say I wasn’t shocked at all was facts. Carter and I have been on and off for years, just a few months back I called it off because I needed someone committed to me and not just for publicity.

Carter was never an honest lover to be honest. He looked like the sneaky type because he is. He’s conniving, vindictive and just plain douche. Yet to know he’s with Delilah and she didn’t tell Chris was a bitch move. Part of me wants to tell him, but the rest of me is gonna keep my mouth shut until the volcano erupts.

“Ready to cry? Everything ok? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.” He asked in a teasing tone, lacing my fingers with his to get me out of my trance.

Once coming to, I rolled my eyes playfully as we walked amongst the crowd, I bit my bottom lip. “Yeah, yeah. I’m good. Glad I have setting spray on, let's do this.” 

-3 Hours and 2 Min later-

“Y’all ain’t right. My god that wasn’t fair!” 

“I told you, you were gonna cry. You didn’t want to listen to me.”

“You’re an ass. Actually no, scratch that Steve is an ass. I’m happy for Sam, I am cause I know Khadijah is excited as fuck. But really? Steve just had to go back to Peggy? I know it’s just a movie but that was a dumbass move.”

To say Chris was enjoying my ranting was an understatement. I could tell he was doing his signature left boob grab, as he laughed in hysterics. I made him stay on the other side of the door, as I changed into my second dress for the after party back in the hotel room. 

The royal blue dress hugged my curves like a glove. It was another one of Cleo’s creations, with a keyhole and gold embellishments around it. The top was mainly a halter top but still showed off a little something. I somehow managed to get the zipper all the way up with a wire hanger. 

Stepping out in all my glory, I made my best friend stop in his tracks this time around. He eyed me up and down, with the classic wolf whistle.

“Roxanne, Roxanne. You can’t keep doing this to me.” Planting kisses all on my face and being handsy, I never experienced affection this much.

“Christopher, come on love. We can’t be late and everyone is expecting you.” Pinching his cheeks caused him to stop and bite his lip.

“Ok ok. Let’s go so I can show my best friend off.” Holding my hand once more, we managed to make it back to the car on time and to the party. 

-After Party-

The party was live and full of good vibes as it should be. Chris was talking with the guys by the bar, and I was hanging with the girls by the fountain. We promised to find each other on the dance floor when the time was right. I was still thinking about seeing Delilah and Carter our in public and can only think about what the tabloids were gonna say.

Tessa rapped me on my shoulder. “Roxie, you got something on your mind? You’re staring into space.” 

“Hmm? Oh I’m sorry, it’s just I saw something today and I can’t shake it. I’m still seeing images in my head.” Since Tessa caught me this time around, I couldn’t shake the thought away. Granted all Chris and I are doing is just cuddling and sharing a few kisses. He did tell Delilah that he’d be at the premier and after party with me. Yet she’s here, just hanging on all over Carter. 

They’re like 10 feet away from me, cuddled up on a plush couch sharing a few laughs. Part of me wanted to tell Chris so bad, but I didn’t want to ruin his night by being vindictive.

“Chris told me about that when he was talking to Chadwick. Are you feeling ok?” Danai rubbed my shoulder in comfort and serenity.

“At the moment no. I’ve seen something and I don’t know who to tell. It has to deal with Chris and Delilah, because she’s here with Carter.” My mouth was like a running waterfall of information. 

The shocked expressions from both Tess and Danai were unmatched. They always knew something was wrong with me, didn’t let my conscience get the best of me.

“She’s here? With Carter, who decided to come out of his arrogant hole?”

“Yes Tessa. That Carter is here, with his bitch ass face of his. Condescending ass, they deserve each other honestly.” I have never spoke ill of a couple before or anyone for that matter, and yet these two were the bottom of the barrel evil.

Danai nugged me a bit. “You can y’all him when you’re ready. Let’s just have fun ok? It is after all the greatest after party of the cinematic universe, lieutenant Ashanti.”

“That’s easy for you to say, general Okoye.” Tessa snickered and grabbed herself a glass of wine.

“Oh you’re one to talk, Miss King of Asgard.” It was my turn to snicker as I danced the night away with my friends, all the while letting the alcohol flow without being tipsy. 

The rest of the night was just a blissful night full of love, laughter and good times. I knew that the epidemic that happened earlier, would make it to the surface of every social media platform soon. It would grow faster than a wildfire and burn everything in its path. Once I met with Chris at the front door, he looked exhausted.

“Ready to go home?”

“Yeah. I need to cuddle my best girl and eat the cake she made the other day.” He placed a kiss on my head, holding me close to keep me warm. 

“Your best girl? What about Peggy, or Delilah?” Arching a brow in hysterics, the slight eye roll of his caused a smirk on my face.

“Now, now. You will always be my best girl besides mom, Carly and Shanna of course. But you come first, and if Delilah can’t understand that then she’s not for me. Any woman I date for that matter.” 

Hearing him refresh my memory of an old phrase he’d say to me, made me feel at ease for once all night. Saying goodbye to our friends, getting a couple of goodie bags to go.

“Alright. Home is 45 minutes away, the hotel is 10 minutes. Which one?” Hooking my arm with his once more as we headed to the car, I started to think about seeing Carter and Delilah again.

“Home. Matching pajamas and snuggles.”

“Deal.”

The drive home was amazing and peaceful. Just the sounds of jazz music playing in the car and the city moving past the windows, created a calming effect. Getting ready for bed was the easy part, crawling into bed was tiring along with tying my hair down.

My neon green Victoria’s Secret boy shorts and a black camisole, were comfy for me and made Chris very happy. His black boxers and white tank top were anything but subtle, with his muscles bulging everywhere.

“Night Chris. We can do lunch tomorrow.” Snuggling up against him under the heavy duvet, I was knocked out against his chest.

“Sounds good Roro. Night love.” As he places one final kiss on my head I was dreaming. But it was so peaceful to tell you the truth. I remembered where I saw Delilah and Carter before: it was at a charity function 2 years ago.

No wonder they looked so cozy. The facial expressions they had were relaxed and rejuvenated faces and I knew that all too well. I was going to catch Delilah in the act for actually cheating on Chris, and boy was I going to relish in it.

___

Recap:

Ch1 || Ch2 ||

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My Love {Kirishima Eijirou x Reader}

Just a little thing I decided to get out because a really cute post I saw. Legit my uwu’s… were owoing. It was so cute. It was about how this man only called his wife 'My Love' even around their kid to the point the child was even calling their mother 'My Love'. This will be really short or super long I have no idea lol (Super long with 1919 words). The reader is gender neutral! -Bomb

At first, it was a forced friendship

The cute shark toothed spikey red-haired boy getting in everyone's business in class 1-a, determination glowing from his crimson eyes to be friends with everyone he stumbles upon. He succeeded in befriending the fiery hedgehog, and it was only a matter of time before he got you too

    It wasn’t to say that you were actively avoiding befriending your classmates, it was just the fact that you didn’t see a point in it all. Sure, having friends seemed like a good idea; being able to go out and hang out with close mutuals. But when it really came down to it, was it gonna be worth it?

    In almost every instance I could recall from my middle school and elementary years, once you moved schools or grew out of your childish antics with destroying figurines and Barbie dolls with your mother's lipstick or caking yourselves with mud fights till dawn, people moved on from you. They found new friends with new hobbies, as so did I. But after it happens so many times, it begins to seem like that’s all friendship gives you. Temporary relations with each other until one or the other gets bored and finds new people to pester and befriend

    It left me hurt. Thinking that was all I was gonna be offered when I bonded with the strangers I only knew as classmates. But after seeing Kirishima and Mina, finding out that they had been friends since middle schools and then Deku and Bakugou since elementary school, things changed

    It was a silent change that I dwelled on internally for nearly weeks before I finally started agreeing to go with Kirishima instead of allowing him to drag me wherever he pleased. A silent change that I slowly grew accustomed to when his smile would prod my own lips to curl ever so slightly. A silent change that I hardly knew would change my life forever

    Then, it was friendship

It started off slow, only being asked to hang out in the dorms occasionally with a few of his friends. Then it was hanging out outside of school. Partnering up to do projects. Making vine and meme filled group chats. Pestering Bakugou. Teaming up for hero work. And before I knew what hit me, I had found a family of dipshit weirdos I could call my own

And then feelings got involved…

Kirishima and I began to hang out on our own. Helping each other with work that the other didn’t understanding. Helping each other through problems neither of us understood. We started looking out for each other even more than we did for the others, able to just automatically tell when something was off with the other

We watched movies together in his room, throwing popcorn at the screen from across the main dorm room floor, leaving small smudges of butter sticking to it we would be forced by Aizawa-Sensei to clean off later, sending each other sheepish smiles to cover up our embarrassment that would leave my cheeks dusted with a rosy pink hue

But then the rosy pink hue started showing up more often. Whenever he smiled, it would appear in the lightest shade possible, leaving my palms sweaty. Whenever I saw him shirtless during training, watching his muscles ripple and move as they glossed over in a layer of sweat, glistening in the daytime light and evening sunset, I couldn’t but stare and feel the rosiness of my cheeks and nose worsen to a dark crimson, my entire body heating up

I began to notice the little things about him I'm sure other people never noticed. Like the way his teeth only seemed to get sharper as the years in Yuuei went by. The way his hair slowly grew longer in the back and his black roots began to pop out before they disappeared again the next day with his hands stained a light red. The way he only got broader and tanner that would make my palms sweaty. And how his B.O. took on a different scent…

And then it hit me like dump truck full of bricks. The rosy cheeks. The heated body and sweaty palms. The increased interest in everything that changed about him

I liked Kirishima Eijirou

I fell for Kirishima Eijirou… hard and without notice

And I was too oblivious to know that he did the same

Until the night of our graduation

The kids of 3-A, 3-B, General Studies, and the Support Department partied in the 3-A dorm till we were exhausted and peeling our clothes off from sweat, having a blast as we sipped punch from our solo cups, not allowed to have alcohol on school property. We broke down and danced on the homemade dance floor to childhood songs and new songs we played on the whim that they might be good. We played party games like we were elementary kids again before we were shoved right into the adult world. It was a great night… Great for everyone else anyway

My mind had nothing on it other than Kirishima. How he slipped away between classmates, hanging out with everyone else as it seemed like he was actively avoiding me. And to be honest I couldn’t complain, it’d be hypocritical of me as I had been ignoring him and avoiding him for nearly a week now when I couldn’t help but crave him a bit too much for my liking

He probably didn’t feel the same, is what I told myself. I avoided him to protect myself from being hurt unintentionally by something neither of us could control. And then once we get out of here within the following week I could avoid him for the rest of my life

But he had other plans once the party came to an end

He finally caught up to me and asked me if I was ok. I only said yes as to avoid him from worrying, but he kept pestering, wondering why I was avoiding him. I couldn’t avoid having him worry about me because he already was, wondering if he had done something wrong that made me want to separate myself from him

Our proximity only worsened the situation, as my bottled feelings and attraction to the male swam back to the top of my subconscious, and I cried

    I cried my eyes out, holding my hand over my mouth as I tried to hold in my sobs. His arms immediately found their way around my body as I apologized profusely, feeling bad for just avoiding him like that at the drop of a hat. I rested my forehead on his shoulder, letting the tears slide down my face as he cooed in my ear that it's going to be ok

    It took me nearly a whole five minutes to calm down enough to be coherent in my speech and to organize my thoughts. I relished myself in his scent as I let go of myself, curling my arms around his waist

    “Now can you tell me what’s wrong? Why you're crying?... Why you’ve been avoiding me?” His voice almost seemed to crack towards the end, like he might start crying too

    I immediately panicked, unable to stop myself before I blurted three words that would either get me made fun of, laughed at, loved for, or ignored for

    “I like you”

    I was surprised to feel him begin to laugh. My heart sunk in my chest as I just tightened my grip, feeling my body wanting to shake with sobs once more before he asked if that was all it was. I hesitantly nodded, explaining to him my fears and doubts about how I thought he wouldn’t like me back, considering all his options throughout the rest of the upperclassmen and even some of the older lowerclassmen. He sighed as a response

    I panicked once more when I was being pulled apart from him before I was swiftly kissed on the lips, feeling their rough texture against my own soft ones. I was so surprised I didn’t even react. But it wasn’t like I was given any time to when they were pulled away from me

    I was confused, giddy, and felt a bit silly all at once as he explained to me how he liked me as well, and how we both probably should have seen the signs earlier since it now seemed pretty obvious we liked each other when we thought about it

    He took my hand in his, leading me back toward the kitchen. “Now come, my love, let's get you some cold water to splash over your face to reduce your puffy eyes”

    And from then on, we were lovers

    It wasn’t long after when we shared our first ‘I love you’s’ on our 6th date to a nice fairy lit picnic spot in the park. And then, just four years later, we were engaged and married within six months

    He’s called my ‘My Love’ since that very first night when we both confessed our feelings and became each other’s. And he still calls me it now, with an adopted year and a half old child happy smiling while playing on the floor with his pro-hero father and I made dinner

    “My love, how much longer till dinner’s ready?” Eijirou called out to me, our son stopping his playing and staring at us curiously, looking back and forth between us

    “Not long Eiji. We just gotta wait for the Enchiladas to cool down. Promise.” I took the Enchiladas out of the oven and set them on the stove, smiling as I felt his body press against my back while taking off my oven mit and closing the oven door

    “I love you, (s/o).” he put his hands over my stomach and kissed my cheek, eyes closed as he filled it with love

    “I love you too Eiji.”

    “Mah wuv…” We both heard a gurgle and stopped what we were doing on the spot, wide eyes and open-mouthed as we stared at our son. We looked to each other before looking back to him

    “My love?” Eiji repeated him, an eyebrow quirked as his grip loosened around my body

    “Mah wuv!” He giggled, grabbing the toys in his hands and waving them around while looking right at us

    “Oh-Oh my god. HIS FIRST WORDS!” I screeched out, chortling and hopping up and down and covering my mouth my hands

    “I-I thought babies first words were supposed to be mama or dada?! He called you my love!” Eijirou was both confused yet happy at the same time, scooping up our son in his hands and smiling broadly, he giggled in his father’s arms

    “He never even heard mama or dada in his life. He’s only heard you call me ‘My Love’ and I call you Eiji. He’s heard you say it so many times he must have wanted to try it out himself”

    “He did a pretty damn good job with it too! My love!” He shouted your nickname, the baby repeating it the best he could

    The sight made you smile, happy tears brimming your eyes as you pressed your hand lightly over your mouth watching the sight. Hearing two of your most loved people in the damn universe calling you ‘My Love’ filling your heart with an overwhelming euphoria

    I couldn’t believe this. I was gonna have two people running around just calling me My Love. And I couldn't wait

[bamby0304]

Her Saviours- Ch.8

Series Masterlist

Summary: During an odd case, the Winchesters came across Y/N, a scared young Omega girl who had been used as a lure for a nest of vampires. After rescuing her from the monsters, John and his sons took her in knowing she was in no state to live among ordinary people. But three Alphas and one Omega is a mixture bound for disaster.

A/N: This is unbeta’d, ‘cause I legit just finished it and kinda wanted to just post it quickly so I could move on and start writing more...

Warnings: Explicit language. ABO dynamics. Angst.

Bamby

You were fast asleep, curled into Dean’s side with his arm around you as he laid down flat on his stomach. He twitched, pulling you closer as his other hand snuck under his pillow to grab the knife hidden underneath. You barely had a chance to register the fact someone else was in the room, before Dean suddenly rolled over and held you behind his back as he turned to the intruder.

His body relaxed in an instant the second he spotted Sam standing there, with a tray of coffees and a paper bag you assumed was full of food.

“Morning, sunshine.” Sam grinned knowingly at Dean, who still had you behind him.

Rubbing at his eyes, Dean groaned, “What time is it?”

“Uh, it's about five forty-five.”

“In the morning?”

“Yep.”

You whined, rolling back over to try and get some sleep.

“Where does the day go?” Dean grumbled as he dragged himself to the edge of the bed. “Did you get any sleep last night?” he asked, his words directed at Sam.

“Yeah, I grabbed a couple hours.”

Bullshit.

“Liar,” Dean called him out. “'Cause I was up at three, and you were watching a George Foreman infomercial.”

“Hey, what can I say?” Sam shrugged. “It's riveting TV.”

“When was the last time you got a good night's sleep?”

Sam didn’t seem fazed. “I don't know, a little while, I guess. It's not a big deal.”

“Yeah, it is,” Dean argued.

“Look, I appreciate your concern-”

“Oh, I'm not concerned about you. It's your job to keep our asses alive,” he gave your covered leg a pat. “So I need you sharp,” he noted. There was a paused before he asked, “Seriously, are you still having nightmares about Jess?”

That was the last straw.

Pulling the sheets back, you threw yourself out of bed, grabbed a fist full of clothes, and stormed into the bathroom.

It’s not that you didn’t like the girl, it’s just… things were weird. They were awkward. They were complicated. You were pissed.

Here you were, with two Alphas that you cared about, and they cared about you. They were young, unbonded, familiar, safe. They were smart, funny, strong, caring. They were both the full package. Two perfect specimens… and neither wanted you. Not the way you needed them, at least.

The longer you went without John, the more time you were stuck with Sam and Dean, the clearer things got. Sam was never going to get over Jess, he was never going to let you in, you were never going to have what you used to have with him. Dean was never going to settle down, he was never going to give up other women, he was never going to claim you despite the fact he insisted he had feelings for you.

If things don’t change, I’m leaving, you told yourself.

Staring at your reflection in the crappy motel mirror that made everything look a little distorted, you made a promise. If no one was willing to step up, you were going to step down.

“Thanks for making the trip so quick,” Jerry started.

After a long shower, you’d walked back out into the motel room to find Sam and Dean packing. Neither talked about your sudden departure, instead Dean had pulled you closer and kissed your forehead before telling you about a possible case. That’s how you ended up here, with Jerry, walking through the hangar he worked at.

“I ought to be doing you guys a favour, not the other way around.” Jerry turned to Sam as he went on, “Dean and your dad really helped me out. And Y/N… she was the saving grace that really calmed my family down.”

Sam glanced down at you then, lips twitching as if he wanted to smile. He fought the urge though. “Yeah, Dean told me. It was a poltergeist?”

“Poltergeist?” one of the other workers called out. “Man, I loved that movie.”

“Hey, nobody's talking to you,” Jerry snapped. “Keep walking.” He waited until he was sure no one else was listening before he nodded at Sam. “Damn right it was a poltergeist, practically tore our house apart. Tell you something, if it wasn't for you and your dad, I probably wouldn't be alive,” he told Dean and then went back to Sam. “Your dad said you were off at college. Is that right?”

“Yeah, I was. I'm… taking some time off.”

“Well, he was real proud of you. I could tell. He talked about you all the time.”

“He did?” Sam was genuinely surprised.

You ducked your head down and smiled at the ground. John had always gone on about his youngest son. The defiant black sheep of the family. John could brag about his college boy for hours if you got him going.

“Yeah, you bet he did.” Jerry nodded. “Oh, hey, you know I tried to get a hold of him, but I couldn't. How's he doing, anyway?”

“He's, um, wrapped up in a job right now,” Dean dodged.

“Well, we're missing the old man, but we get Sam. Even trade, huh?” Jerry grinned as Dean chuckled.

Sam, however, didn’t quite agree. “No, not by a long shot.”

In Jerry’s office, you all took a seat. Jerry sat on one side of the desk, while the rest of you sat on the other.

“I listened to this. And, well, it sounded like it was up your alley.” Jerry grabbed a cd and put it into a drive. “Normally I wouldn't have access to this. It's the cockpit voice recorder for United Britannia flight 2485. It was one of ours.”

The recording started, and within seconds you found your hand shooting out to grab Dean’s.

“Mayday! Mayday! Repeat! This is United Britania 2485—immediate instruction help!”

“United Britanis 2485, I copy your message-”

“May be experiencing some mechanical failure...”

Suddenly there was this loud whooshing sound before the recording stopped.

“Took off from here, crashed about two hundred miles south,” Jerry explained. “Now, they're saying mechanical failure. Cabin depressurized somehow. Nobody knows why. Over a hundred people on board. Only seven got out alive. Pilot was one. His name is Chuck Lambert. He's a good friend of mine. Chuck is, uh...well, he's pretty broken up about it. Like it was his fault.

“You don't think it was?” Sam asked.

“No, I don't.”

“Jerry, we're gonna need passenger manifests, um, a list of survivors-”

Dean nodded, cutting Sam off, “Right, and uh… any way we can take a look at the wreckage?”

“The other stuff is no problem,” Jerry assured them, “but the wreckage... fellas, the NTSB has it locked down in an evidence warehouse. No way I've got that kind of clearance.”

That didn’t seem to bother Dean, as he simply shrugged. “No problem.”

You stood with Sam outside a Copy Jack, while Dean was in doing his thing. You could have gone in with him, but you felt the need to be with the car. With the Impala.

She was as much your home as she was the brothers’. You’d lived on the road for years now, and the only consistent place you could call your won was Baby. When things always felt like they were crumbling, you knew she would always be there.

Like now. John was John, Sam was back and it was weird, Dean was his usual self which wasn’t helping you at all… you weren’t sure how much longer you could deal with all of this.

Looking over at Sam as he leaned against the car, just a few feet away from you, you wondered if things would ever be the same. If things would ever feel less strange and foreign. He used to be your best friend, someone you could rely on for anything, but now you weren’t sure.

The door to the Copy Jack opened as Dean walked out, almost pumping into a young and attractive woman right away.

She smiled, looking him up and down. “Hey.”

“Hi.” He grinned, checking her out in return.

Having seen enough, you sighed and pulled the car door open before climbing in. Just because you knew what you and Dean had wasn’t an exclusive thing, doesn’t mean you wanted to be reminded of it every time a pretty woman walks by.

“You've been in there forever,” Sam noted as his brother neared the car.

You looked out the window and watched as Dean held up two fake IDs. “You can't rush perfection.”

“Homeland Security?” Sam took one of the cards. “That's pretty illegal, even for us.”

“Yeah, well, it's something new. You know? People haven't seen it a thousand times.” Dean shrugged as he walked around the car. Both he and Sam slid in before he went on, “All right, so, what do you got?”

“Well, there's definitely EVP on the cockpit voice recorder.” Sam grabbed his laptop.

“Yeah?”

“Listen.” Sam pressed play and started the edited version of the recording Jerry had shown you.

The voices from before were all scratchy and distorted, followed by something new…

“No survivors!”

Dean frowned. "’No survivors’? What's that supposed to mean? There were seven survivors.”

“Got me.” Sam shrugged.

“So, what are you thinking? A haunted flight?”

“There's a long history of spirits and death omens on planes and ships, like phantom travellers,” Sam started. “Or remember flight 401?”

“Right.” Dean nodded. “The one that crashed, the airline salvaged some of its parts, put it in other planes, then the spirit of the pilot and co-pilot haunted those flights.”

“Right. Maybe we got a similar deal,” Sam suggested.

“All right, so, survivors, which one do you want to talk to first?”

“Third on the list, Max Jaffey,” Sam told Dean.

“Why him?”

“Well, for one, he's from around here. And two, if anyone saw anything weird, he did.”

“What makes you say that?”

“Well, I spoke to his mother. And she told me where to find him.”

“He’s in a psychiatric hospital,” you explained before Sam could.

Turning in his seat, Dean looked to you. “Psychiatric hospital?” Both you and Sam gave a short nod. His eyes landed on you again. “You’re not coming.”

“No surprise there,” you mumbled.

“Hey. It’s a psychiatric hospital, you’re an Omega, there’s no telling what might happen,” he noted.

You shrugged. “I’m not arguing, Dean. Why should I bother?” Shifting in your seat, you turned your back on him and looked out the window.

When you don’t know what the brothers might be hunting, there’s not a lot you could do. What little research there was, had already been done. So, while locked away in the motel room, you just flicked through the TV, doing your best not to overthink.

You wanted to call John, but you couldn’t. You couldn’t bear the thought of listening to his voice mail for the millionth time. It was painful to hear, knot knowing when or if you’d veer see him again.

The motel room door opened as Sam and Dean returned. You glanced up from the TV to greet them, only to have your words get caught in your throat.

“Why are you dressed in suits?” you asked, eyes dragging over Dean and the black and white suit he wore.

Sighing, he dumped his keys, phone and wallet on the table. “Sam thought we needed to look the part.”

“You, uh… you look good,” you managed, suddenly finding your mouth a little dry.

Dean paused as he looked over at where you were sprawled out on the bed, having been watching TV. His lips curved into a grin as he started tugging on his tie and heading your way.

“I look good, huh?” He threw his tie onto the ground and then started to crawl up the bed.

Laughing lightly, you leaned up to meet him halfway as he bent down to press his lips against yours. Despite having been upset with him earlier, you just couldn’t stay mad. Especially not when he looked like this… there was something about a guy in a suit that made you all tingly.

“Guys,” Sam groaned. “Not right now. We’ve got a case and I’m still in the room.”

“Get your own room,” Dean grumbled, trailing his lips down to your neck. “My girl needs some attention.”

Your heart fluttered when he called you his girl, all thoughts and doubts from earlier fading. Dean always managed to get you to forgive him.

Sam wasn’t letting the two of you fall into each other so easily. “Dean, the case… the sulphur.”

You tensed underneath Dean and pressed your hand on his chest to pull him back up. “Sulphur.”

Nodding, he sighed again as he pulled back and stood again. “When we checked out the wreckage, we found sulphur.”

“So… we’re thinking demon?”

“Yeah,” Sam answered, looking from you to his brother, as if he was waiting for Dean to tell you more. As if he was waiting for something specific.

Dean glanced over at his brother with a look that clearly said he didn’t want to say more, but apparently, he had no choice. Sam just waited, expectantly, making Dean sigh one last time.

“Sammy and me think you should stay out of this one.”

You looked to each brother with a growing frown. “You mean… you want me sitting in the motel room doing nothing? Not even research?”

“We can’t risk you getting involved. You’re an Omega. You’re an unclaimed Omega. We don’t know what this demon is about, and the last thing we want is for it to get a whiff of you. It’s too dangerous.”

There was a tightness in your throat as you watched Dean. You took in his words, you understood where he was coming from, and you hated it.

“I’m an Omega.” You gave a curt nod. “Sure, Dean… I’ll stay out of it.” Shaking your head, you got up and headed for the bathroom before closing and locking the door behind you.

You’re an Omega. You’re an unclaimed Omega. So, in other words, you’re too fragile and vulnerable to help us. You’ll just get in the way. You should stay home and be a good little Omega, like you’re supposed to. You’re not built for this.

Fine then. If they didn’t want you to help, then you wouldn’t. Clearly you weren’t needed here.

A knock on the bathroom door had you turning your head against the bath’s edge. You’d been in there for about an hour, soaking in the hot water you’d filled the tub with.

“Y/N?” Dean called from the other side. “We got a lead… Sam and me, we’re gonna head out. You okay here?”

Rolling your eyes, you turned away from the door again. “Yep.”

There was some mumbling on the other side that you couldn’t quite make out, before Dean snapped in a harsh whisper. “I got it, Sam. Just go get in the car.”

You listened as someone moved around in the other room before they left.

“Sweetheart… you sure you’re okay?”

“I’m fine, Dean. You should go. There’s people to save and monsters to hunt, remember.”

He paused for a moment before giving the door a tap. “Okay… call us if you need anything.”

“Yep,” you answered shortly again.

Nothing else was said.

You listened as he moved about the room before leaving. Next you heard Baby start up, her roaring engine loud enough for you to hear perfectly. Then she was driving away.

The instant you were sure you were alone, and the brothers wouldn’t be back, you pulled yourself out of the tub and emptied the water. Grabbing your towel, you dried yourself off quickly and then pulled on some clothes before heading back out into the room.

Gathering everything of yours, you stuffed it into your bag. After making sure you’d left nothing behind, you pulled the strap of your bag over your shoulder and headed for the door.

Looking back once, you gave the room a sad smile before leaving.

It took no time at all before you found a car that was out of the way. No one saw anything as you broke into the car and dumped your things in the seat beside you. Dean had taught you how to hotwire a car a couple of years ago… you doubted he’d expected you to use that skill to run away from him.

Bamby

[baekhvuns]

I read the spoiler and 🤗

I don't think I've seen Luhan in many dramas, but maybe I have 🤔 Ooooh you mean Youth With You? Lay was there, I started watching for Minghao. Then the 2nd season because Lisa and Xukun were there! I didn't follow the group from season 1 but I was into THE9 the girl group that debuted from season 2. Actually I see some resemblance between CXK and Sunghoon, Sunghoon is my son <3

Really, Suzy came out with Satellite and Stayc with Yung Luv - those songs were dream poppy, same with Loonatic by Loona. But we need more seriously, less ballads more soft vibey tracks wkhejeuudendj

Literally my brain is like "BRING THE BOYS OUT!!!" randomly lol. Pls I'll never forgive Pledis for disbanding Pristin they had so much potential, my villain origin story... Everglow forever let's go! I know people complain about their sound post La Di Da, but I love their titles tracks, same with Itzy.

Pixy had a come back with a song called Villain recently 👀 it's strange but so cool, I didn't expect it! One of the members - Lola is a huge Ateez fan and wants to collab with them <3

Heroine is sad, nostalgic and a banger at the same time! I liked Tail and YCSWU too, but I love their older songs more, Sunmi is having a cb soon though

Yes, for sore throat warm milk (🤮) and honey and sometimes...garlic? Idk even before going vegan I DESPISED WARM MILK. I like turmeric, but let's calm down... yikes

Omg the hairdresser put a curse on your hair 😭 my mother decided I should have short hair at some point, I was around 7 years old and I'm convinced it's one of the reasons for my hair problems now (maybe not but I'm gonna blame her anyway), because my hair was pretty straight and nice before. I don't mind waves and curls I like them, but my hair is so frizzy 😭

No I don't remember that Yunho one omg? Maybe I erased it from my memory 🤚🏻

Bestieeeeee look someone made him lego flowers 😭😍. Also I LOVE this Atiny my fucking hero lololol

Btw hair, I knew something was up with Hwa's and he confirmed he cut it slightly, I'm glad he likes it, he said it's similar to Answer era, but I dislike the mushroom style especially when they straighten his hair and cover the forehead dhsijdjsyehshs fluffy Hwa only </3 I was so mad at the Answer era styling... Seonghwa looks cute ofc, but I was so happy his har got longer, rip.

I watched 2 episodes so far and I enjoy it, it's messy and the FL is interesting, the actress is killing it. I can't say I 100% like her, because she's questionable, but I understand why she's this way. Not to spoil but her and In Yeop's characters have more history and ugh I like their chemistry and his character is a baby boy baby I need to protect, but I'm not sure how to feel about their upcoming romance ksudidjbdjsbsusis my guy is a simp.

Miss Baek what's up with the emotional quizzes hahahq, I got admiration and joy (joy when I'm legit decaying in my bed feeling pretty mehhh, well okkk) what did you get? - DV 💖

hi HELLO THIS IS SO LATE ANYWAY ATEEZ DROPPING IT IN THE MOTNH OF PRIDE <3

I read the spoiler and 🤗

hope u liked it bestie 😭😭 hopefully yn isn’t annoying asf dbwmdbwm

I don't think I've seen Luhan in many dramas, but maybe I have 🤔 Ooooh you mean Youth With You? Lay was there, I started watching for Minghao. Then the 2nd season because Lisa and Xukun were there! I didn't follow the group from season 1 but I was into THE9 the girl group that debuted from season 2. Actually I see some resemblance between CXK and Sunghoon, Sunghoon is my son <3

he does more movies i think (????) YES THAT SHOW IT WAS GOOD BC FAN BINGBING’S BROTHER WAS THERE AND THEY WAY THEY HIT ON HER IN FROMT OF HIM FHWNFBWK xukun went from contestant to judge 😭😭😭 i watched the one with tao in it he’s more serious and angrier 😭😭🤚🏼 YEAAAH FHWKFHE I WAS RLY TRIPPED WHEJ I SAW HIM AT FIRST I WAS LIKE DID YG FINALLY BAG XUKUN 😭😭

Really, Suzy came out with Satellite and Stayc with Yung Luv - those songs were dream poppy, same with Loonatic by Loona. But we need more seriously, less ballads more soft vibey tracks wkhejeuudendj

omg im abt to go listen to them bc wtf 😭😭 yes yes !!! but sokor loves them ballads 😭😭😭🤚🏼

Literally my brain is like "BRING THE BOYS OUT!!!" randomly lol. Pls I'll never forgive Pledis for disbanding Pristin they had so much potential, my villain origin story... Everglow forever let's go! I know people complain about their sound post La Di Da, but I love their titles tracks, same with Itzy.

EXACTLY RWKDHWK OR GIRLS GENERATION MAKE U FEEL THE HEAT 😭😭😭 no fr bc pristin was so elite???? get it was and is one of the best songs by a group,,, yEAH !! i feel like fans just think a sound songs “the same” just bc they’ve heard one tune similar to it 😭😭

Pixy had a come back with a song called Villain recently 👀 it's strange but so cool, I didn't expect it! One of the members - Lola is a huge Ateez fan and wants to collab with them <3

👁👄👁 iM ABT TO GO RUN TO SEE

Heroine is sad, nostalgic and a banger at the same time! I liked Tail and YCSWU too, but I love their older songs more, Sunmi is having a cb soon though

EXACTLY EXACTLY !!!!! the “one last time” + the show must go on echo 🤌🏼🤌🏼😭😭😭 absolutely best angsty song >>>

Yes, for sore throat warm milk (🤮) and honey and sometimes...garlic? Idk even before going vegan I DESPISED WARM MILK. I like turmeric, but let's calm down... yikes

GARLIC??????? 😭😭😭😭😭 FBWNDBEJ IVE BEEN BROUGHT UP DRINKING WARM MILK SO I GET RLY SURPRISED WHEN OTHERS SAY THEY HATE IT 😭😭 yEAH turmeric is lit but haha.

Omg the hairdresser put a curse on your hair 😭 my mother decided I should have short hair at some point, I was around 7 years old and I'm convinced it's one of the reasons for my hair problems now (maybe not but I'm gonna blame her anyway), because my hair was pretty straight and nice before. I don't mind waves and curls I like them, but my hair is so frizzy 😭

SHE FR DID 😭😭😭 NAURRRR UR MOM PUT A CURSE ON IT FBWMFBEM straight hair god damn id rob ur hair 😭😭😭

No I don't remember that Yunho one omg? Maybe I erased it from my memory 🤚🏻

Bestieeeeee look someone made him lego flowers  😭��. Also I LOVE this Atiny my fucking hero lololol

BESTINY THATS A THE BESTINY EXACTLY LOVE THIS ATINY 😭😭😭 where his ding ling was blurred 🔫🔫

Btw hair, I knew something was up with Hwa's and he confirmed he cut it slightly, I'm glad he likes it, he said it's similar to Answer era, but I dislike the mushroom style especially when they straighten his hair and cover the forehead dhsijdjsyehshs fluffy Hwa only </3 I was so mad at the Answer era styling... Seonghwa looks cute ofc, but I was so happy his har got longer, rip.

HE LOOKS CUTE 😭😭 A MUSHROOM HEAD AND THE BROWNISH HAIR >>>

I watched 2 episodes so far and I enjoy it, it's messy and the FL is interesting, the actress is killing it. I can't say I 100% like her, because she's questionable, but I understand why she's this way. Not to spoil but her and In Yeop's characters have more history and ugh I like their chemistry and his character is a baby boy baby I need to protect, but I'm not sure how to feel about their upcoming romance ksudidjbdjsbsusis my guy is a simp.

BRWNDHKS I SEE HER EDITS AND SHE LOOKS SO FINE 😩😩😩 HE ALSO HIS CHEEKIES HIS CHEEKSIES 😭😭😭 I will watch this after tomorrow bc im watching it rn 😭🔫🔫

Miss Baek what's up with the emotional quizzes hahahq, I got admiration and joy (joy when I'm legit decaying in my bed feeling pretty mehhh, well okkk) what did you get? - DV 💖

BESTIE IDK FBWKDHEJ

[thedegenerateasexual]

the last of let’s talk about love under the cut, chapters 27-34 + the epilogue:

chapter 27:

v v short, just a visit to the therapist again where she tells him about coming out

chapter 28: 

alice went to her parents wioth the law school thing and told them she wanted to change majors and they...cut her off financially

that was not what i was expecting and not what she was expecting either god damn

she went to takumi’s to be sad and

“What about a weekend away? Forget about everything for a few days and relax. How do you feel about camping?”

“I feel like I’m not going to like it.” She rested her head on his shoulder.

He traced the bridge of her nose. “In a cabin, not a tent.”

“I feel like I might like it.”

lmao mood

“I’m not going to sleep with people to make them happy anymore. It’s kind of my thing, but I don’t want it to be.”

“Wait, he asked to have sex with you?”

“No, but if things went well, he would have. Eventually.”

“He might not,” he said. “You don’t really know what someone will say until you tell them.”

That … was not what she expected him to say. Her admission should have gotten her a solemn nod, meaningful condolences, and a promise that she’d find someone someday.

Did he really care that she was self-rejecting? Or …

Or …

Or …

OR!!!! i’m dying

“It seems easier to just not date,” she began, watching for any change in his demeanor. “Sex is too much a part of everything, and I don’t think it’s reasonable to tell my partner I don’t ever want to sleep with them and expect them to stick around. I’m not saying they wouldn’t agree. I personally am not okay with asking. And I’m not saying I wouldn’t want to try again someday, but I don’t want them to have the expectation that I will. It has to be my choice and a lot of people don’t respect that.”

She stared at his profile so hard she thought her eyes would cross. She prayed he would say the Perfect Thing.

please i’m losing it

He said nothing. Alice waited and waited, watched the way his fingers gripped the steering wheel, the way his thumb tapped to the soft music. He looked in the rearview mirror at the sleeping twins in their car seats, out his side mirrors when he changed lanes, but never at her. Not even a glance.

Maybe she shouldn’t have told him that.

She always told him everything, but she should not have told him that.

Not yet.

NOOOO what that’s the end of the chapter???

i guess in all fairness he can’t say “i’ll date you and we can never ever have sex if you want and i’ll always be OK with that” in like full honesty without, you know, really thinking about what that would be like, and it’s not a good idea to promise something if you don’t know if you can make good on it, and sex is super important to some people (??? i know but it is) so

chapter 29:

all takmui/alice hangouts at their camping cabin. alice decided to get drunk and He, A Gentleman, refused to also get drunk, just to make sure nothing untoward would happen. i lvoe him

chapter 30:

They stared at each other. Alice blinked first, but her eyes didn’t make it back to his. She focused on his smile, his lips, not wanting to kiss them; rather she wanted to touch them to see if they were as soft as they looked. The dangers of drunk-thinking could end in disaster. Her hand was halfway to his mouth when he asked, “Do you want to watch a movie?”

HE’S A GENTLEMAN i’m cryin

He gave her a funny look. “You like romance? In real life?”

“Of course I do. How do you not know this about me?”

Takumi laughed, turning away to look out the window for a moment. “I’m trying to figure something out and it’s not making sense to me.”

“Okay.” She willed herself not to be nervous.

“Before, you said ‘bisexual minus the sexual’ but didn’t add in a substitute. So if you don’t care about sex, what do you care about?”

“Ah,” she said, pleased by the question.

be still my beating heart i can’t believe he’s ASKING QUESTIONS where do people like this COME from

semi-related note i like that the book didn’t end with her coming out and them dating and it’s all rainbows, they still have a little poking to do, some understandings to come to, it’s Nice

“And for the record, I don’t believe in true love either, but I think it’s possible to feel like it could be real. That it’s possible to share something that feels that way with someone.”

The skeptical look on his face made her laugh without humor.

“And I think it’s possible to feel that way more than once. Sometimes even with more than one person at a time. Feelings are messy and confusing. It takes me a god-awful long time to sort through mine and I don’t always completely trust myself.”

i’m telling you dude. aces overthink shit. this is almost universally true i’m sure

about prom:

She didn’t know how to explain that, yes, her friends had been great, but going alone wasn’t in the plan. Every movie and show she had seen portrayed it as this big romantic event and she’d missed out on that because nobody asked her and she had been too afraid to ask anyone else. She wanted to wear her dress, get a corsage, and slow dance. It was stupid and archaic, but that didn’t stop her from wanting it like burning. If she thought about it too much, she could still feel that crushing hope that grew each day while she waited to be asked and that pervasive fear stopping her from asking anyone.

what a mood! i could type a thousand-word essay on my baggage re: school dances ALONE. at least alice got to GO to prom

OH my god alice is like still a lil tipsy and her brother called to yell at her about changing her major and he clocked that she was both drunk and hanging with “a grown-ass man” because “you have 2 friends and if you were with them you would have said their names and was immediately furious and demanded to speak to takumi

and alice, in a total power move, just HANDED HIM THE PHONE

“Yes—I’ll keep that in mind. Not that you could stop me if I wanted to, but I hear you.”

Her eyebrows slapped her hairline. She grabbed his hand, pulling it to her chest. “Wanted to what?”

Takumi squeezed her hand. Smiling, he looked at Alice and said to her brother, “No. You really couldn’t.” He hung up the phone. “That was fun.”

I BET I CAN GUESS WHAT THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT

listen. /I/ have a crush on takumi. he’s literally the perfect man

chapter 31:

FEENIE AND ALICE FINALLY MADE UP THANK FUCK

tbh feenie had some legit beef that is too long to copypasta - that alice was just using her for self defense - and admitted she had some bs going on too - it was a good make-up, actually. i’m so relieved

yk what’s cute?

“I really want us to grow old together, you know? Go through all the typical life stuff together even if that means we can only e-mail each other once a week because you moved to the middle of nowhere in Nebraska with your ten kids and I’m still in California because it’s amazing. Just like in that one movie—we’ll never lose touch with each other, ever. Is that weird?”

“No,” Feenie said. “It’s perfectly fucking normal.”

god bless

now that they’re back together feenie is ready to murder alice’s entire family for ditching her and helps her get a gameplan together about her future with no financial aid from her folks & god bless that too

chapter 32:

He watched the road.

She watched him.

God, did Alice want to kiss him. She had always liked kisses, small ones here and there. She wanted to kiss his cheeks and temples and the tip of his nose and his jaw and below his ear and every other place he would let her. She wanted to kiss him like he was the darkest night sky and her lips had the power to make stars.

AWWW she does like kissing well more power 2 u honey kissing is disgusting but live ur best life

omg it’s CONFESSION TIME

“So now would be a good time to say something,” she said when he continued to be silent.

“I’m trying. I’m just”—he paused—“I’m a little floored here.”

“I guess that means no.” She bit her lip.

“No. I mean, I’m not saying no.” More pausing. “I think I’m trying to say I need some time to think about this.”

“About me?”

“Yeah. And about us being an us. How that would work.”

Oh No ):

i was so sure he would be good!!!

“It’s just you’ve made your stance, I guess, pretty clear on things.”

A nervous quiver began to build in the pit of Alice’s stomach. “Oh. That.” She lowered her head. Her fingers toyed with the collar of her shirt when really they wanted to curl into a fist and press against the pain in her chest. But she didn’t want him to see.

“I remember what you said,” he said softly. “I don’t know if it’s something I could give up.” He closed his eyes, hands out in front of him as if he were reaching for the perfect combination of words to break her heart. Alice waited—wanting to hear it, wanting to run, wanting, wanting, always waiting and wanting.

IF HE FUCKS THIS UP I AM GONNA ZAP MYSELF INTO THIS BOOK AND KILL HIM fuck obviously he’s not obligated but C’MON!!!

“i’ve been reading everything that i could“ bye that is so thoughtful

An eerie calm settled over Alice. Every time this happened, she felt her pain with bone-shattering clarity, but this time—nothing. There was nothing. A numbness, surreal but true, made her heart keep beating at a steady rhythm, kept her breathing even, and allowed her to look at him. She watched him fidget and struggle, unsure where to look, what to do with his hands. Was he shaking from nerves or from worry?

Neither of them believed in forever, but for now wasn’t nearly long enough. Until he grew tired, until he moved on, until he left her because of something she had no control over. The thought of pretending, of faking her way through whatever kind of relationship he wanted, made her sick to her stomach. She had to be the one to leave him.

NO!!!!! goddammit!!

“It’s fine. It’s fine.” She inhaled, nodding and staring out the windshield at nothing. “It was my mistake. I should’ve asked and not assumed that you’d be okay with me as is.” She turned to him. “Let’s just forget the whole thing, okay? Everything.”

i’m gonna lose all my shit what the absolute FUCK how are they gonna fix this in 2 chapters

chapter 33, which had better be BETTER:

AWWWW it’s actually a phone call between alice and her dad!! he had a change of heart & agreed to pay for rent and groceries as long as she was in school doing SOMETHING bc he loves her and wants her to be happy ;_;

chapter 34, i’m dying, how will they fix it in one chapter:

“I wish it felt like this stupid, small thing I could crush in my hand, but it doesn’t. I wish it were some line in the sand that I could hop, skip, and jump over, but it’s not. It matters to him enough that the only thing he could say to me was that he cares, which you know, comparatively, wasn’t even that bad, but I can’t stop crying, because I’m pretty sure my heart’s breaking in there.

“A year ago, I would have said whatever. Sure. Yeah. Okay. But not now. Because I really, really like him, he knows everything, and he couldn’t answer me, because it matters enough to make him pause. Just that one stupid, small thing.”

she’s talking about her “breakup” with takumi and she’s miserable but yk what? it’s so good that she’s still not willing to budge and sleep with him just because she wants to be with him. it’s not like an admission fee. she likes him a lot but she’s done compromising herself w/ that line and i’m so proud of her for that

“I’m sorry about what I said the other night. I’m not perfect, but sometimes it really feels like you’re expecting me to be. I know I messed up, but refusing to talk to me isn’t fair. I’d never even heard of asexuality before I met you.”

Alice turned so fast she got a crick in her neck. “Will you hush?” She clamped a hand over his mouth,

sdfksghdkfgj fuck

altho fair point even i have called him perfect like 800 times. he’s trying hard & that’s what matters

oh my god so alice is like look im sorry but i like you too much we cannot be friends and he’s like yeah i think that’s true we can’t be and so she, tearfully, is like: that’s that then! and then he, wonderful man that he is:

“Except it’s not.” He grasped her wrist, rubbing his thumb gently over her pulse point. “I could say that I knew as soon as I saw you that I was doomed. I could say that I fell in love with you the morning after you fell asleep in my guest room and we got into a pillow fight when I tried to wake you up. I could say that when I was sick and you took care of me, almost asking you to marry me sounded like the greatest idea I’d ever had. I could say that every day I don’t talk to you, I feel like I’m dying a slow, melodramatic death.”

Alice stared at him, eyes wide, mouth agape. That kind of declaration was the bread and butter of romance movies, and it was for her.

IS HTIS SPECIFICALLY BECAUSE SHE TOLD HIM SHE LIKED ROMANCE MOVIES oh my god

OH MY GOD

I

JUST 

SCREAMED

ok ok so he kisses her and then starts to kiss her again and then FREEZES

Inches away, eyes locked onto hers, he stopped moving. Alice pressed her lips together, anxious to get out of that frozen stance, but unsure of what to do. Didn’t he want to kiss her again? She wanted him too. What was he waiting for?

Takumi subtly raised his eyebrows.

(A question for her?)

(Oh. Oh.)

Now was probably the wrong time to tease him, but … “You didn’t ask first.”

“I realized that. I’m sorry,” he whispered back, words tickling her skin. “I’d like to kiss you again.”

“I’d like that, too. Yeah.”

I AM WAILING HE ASKED IF HE COULD KISS HER ARE YOU KIDDING ME

i take it back, he’s still perfect

i love this. romance novels for aces. make this a thing! straight women’s wish fulfillment is all that bodice-ripping ravishment BS and aces just want to be asked if it’s A-OK to smooch

She kissed him with everything she had and borrowed what she didn’t.

what a wonderful sentence

On the list of things Alice loved about Takumi, touching him was definitely in the top five. Resolutely she added kissing him to that list. Kisses were not supposed to be like this. They were nice and soft and made her feel warm inside, special, when done right, but were overly wet and vomit inducing when they weren’t. Kisses had never left her with her chest heaving and desperate for more moments like this. She never wanted to stop. She never wanted this kiss to end.

THIS IS REAL...alice understands the struggle.......literally i did gag once during a kiss they are patently Awful

“I already apologized, but I want to do it again, because I truly am sorry that I said what I did. I was too flustered to think properly and instead of taking the time to think like I knew I should have, I tried to answer you right away. I know what I want to say now.”

oh boy

“The reason why I hesitated wasn’t because of sex itself. You were spot on before. Sex is like jogging. Either you enjoy doing it or you don’t. To me, and this is just me, it’s the feeling that I care about—what sex is supposed to represent.”

“And that’s what to you?”

“If you felt the same way as I feel about you, you would want to have sex with me. You would think of me as someone worthy of your passion and desire, and you would show me how you feel physically. Not just with words but with action and urgency,” he continued, “but you don’t and for the most part, I understand. That’s not a part of who you are and I know that doesn’t mean that you don’t have other feelings for me. The thing is, that feeling that you can’t give me? It’s important to me. And I can’t apologize for feeling that way or for wanting it.”

TAKUMI....

oh my god

“This morning it finally clicked. I was thinking of sex, actually having sex, as the Holy Grail, and when I got frustrated, I tried to look at it from a different point of view and I realized something else.

“No one has ever complimented me as much as you do. Every day. All day. I could show up wearing a burlap sack and a tinfoil hat and you’d probably tell me how avant-garde and handsome I looked. You genuinely listen to what I have to say and value my opinion. You tell me I’m wonderful and talented and amazing—”

Alice didn’t mean to laugh—it bubbled out of her before she could stop it. She tilted her head to the side, looked at him, and said, “Because you are.”

“When you thought I didn’t want you, you started to cry,” he said. Alice tried to memorize the gentle look in his eyes as he spoke. “I watched you lower your head, clutch the front of your shirt, and try to smile because you didn’t want me to see how much what I was saying hurt you, because you do desire me. You wanted me so much that me saying no caused you actual pain. The thought of me only caring about not being able to have sex with you hurt because you thought I knew how much you wanted me.”

“For the record, I didn’t cry in the car. I cried in the shower.”

“It was still because of me.” He raised their joined hands and kissed the backs of hers. “It’s the same thing. Whether you’re so overwhelmed you can’t keep your hands off me or you’re crying because you think I don’t want you, it’s the same thing. It comes from the same place. That’s desire. That’s passion. You’ve never held back how you feel about me.”

AREY OU KIDDING ME...lmao i am crying again fully i can’t believe this

i have literally...never once in my entire 12ish years of struggling with this...thought of it that way

not one single solitary time. wow. i love this book. this is the best book ever, dumb fandom references and all

“Thank you,” she whispered, wiping away a rogue tear. She hadn’t realized she’d been waiting for someone, anyone, to say that to her. She knew it was true, of course, but sometimes hearing it out loud made all the difference in the world. “For saying that. Thank you.”

“It’s the truth.” He wiped away another of her traitorous tears with his thumb. “If we take away everything—there’s just you and me, nothing else, I see us together. Stripped down to the core, being with you is what I want because I’m in love with you. If we never had sex, I would still want to be with you because you’re in my heart, too. Just laughing, dancing, and twirling in circles, and I know that sounds weird as hell, but you are. And it’s important to me that you know that.”

STOPPP i’m like boo-hooing i can’t believe this

“So it would make you happy if we had sex?”

“I’m happy now.”

“Fine. You’d be happier, then?”

“Alice, we’ve been dating for five minutes. We have plenty of time to figure out what’s best for us.”

(DATING.)

bless her and bless him too

“Being in a relationship takes actual effort to be successful,” he said. “Not just talking, but listening, being honest, respecting each other, and compromise, you know, those kinds of things. That’s why people say make sure to marry your best friend because once the honeymoon is over? Nothing will save you if the foundation is shitty. But us? Me and you? We don’t have anything to worry about. We got this.”

“Okay.” She breathed. “Okay. I think that’s it.”

“It?”

“Yes. Yeah.” She kissed him.

It wasn’t the Perfect Thing, but it was real and honest and damn it, she’d take that any day.

THAT’S IT!!!!!

HTIS BOOK IS SO GOOD EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW THIS ABOUT ROMANCE

okay and also there is an EPILOGUE:

SHE’S SURPRISING HIM FOR THEIR ANNIVERSARY sdfkljs

“We’re still doing this every month? I thought six was the big one for you?”

“Yes, until we hit one year, and then I’ll stop being quite so extra. Not a lot though. Just a little. No promises.”

It had been seven glorious months.

(SEVEN.)

SIX IS THE BIG ONE FOR HER AND THEY MADE IT SEVEN!!!!

Getting Feenie and Takumi in the same room had taken weeks of machinations and failed attempts. Everything had finally come together on Thanksgiving. Takumi had volunteered to cook, Feenie refused to acknowledge his presence, but right before grabbing a third helping of his macaroni and cheese, she had looked at him, and said, “You hurt Alice, I hurt you. Are we clear? And pass the cranberry sauce. Please.”

(Alice had nearly fainted when she got her wedding invitation. It had been addressed to her and Takumi.)

i’ll allow feenie to be the good egg again

awww and her mom called and things are getting back to normal with them too, takumi’s even gonna meet them!

and then the v last lines:

“I know you make me happy,” he said, seconds away from falling asleep. “I know you love me.”

“I know you love me, too.”

and that’s that

overall review: i fuckin...love this book...it cuts you right to the core and doesn't mess around and the characters are so real and layered and imperfect and messy, and i can’t believe this is this author’s debut novel, like Damn. it is so good, and she is so brave for putting it all out there like that. best book ever 9.5/10 (half a point off for making me think about supernatural, but otherwise: perfect.)

[elletromil]

elle’s self rec list

So I figured out that with the billions of fic I have written for Kingsman I would do a little list of those that are dear to me and I think you should all read. (I could legit put everything on this list, but 138 completed fics is a bit much even for me)

Of Flowers, Thunderstorm and Tranquility - M, Hartwin, AU

The fresh snow crinkles satisfyingly under his feet as Harry slowly makes his rounds of his part of the Forest. He is seconds away from humming when a whimpering sound from a bush nearby gives him pause.

Harry carefully makes his way towards the sound, on his guard. He gasps in surprise when he parts the foliage. He doesn’t know what he expected, but one thing is certain, it wasn’t the unconscious Summer Child curled up around himself.

This is quite frankly the one I think of as my masterpiece. (though that will probably change when Red and I post the bang). It took me over a year to complete, but oh boy am I proud of the result.

I'm not calling you a ghost - G, Hartwin

He closes his eyes for a few seconds, before opening them again. Hun. Still there. He must be on the really good drugs.

In the chair besides his bed, Harry Hart is sitting reading what must be a report, a little frown that only accentuates the scar on the left side of his forehead.

Definitely my most popular fic. Way back in the beginning, before we knew we would get a sequel, when everyone was sure Harry Hart was dead for real and not coming back.

Before getting 101 dogs, you need at least 2 - G, Hartwin, 101 dalmatians au

JB loves his human, but he's getting rather fed up with how Eggsy won't even look at the nice gentleman he's clearly interested in they keep seeing in the park.

He's going to take the matters into his own paws.

Short and sweet and I am still amazed at how much people liked it :D

Merlin, dogsitter extraordinaire - G, Merlin-centric, background Hartwin and Percilot

All through his childhood, he has had dogs and he’s always enjoyed their company and unconditional love. Then he had left for college where he just hadn’t had enough space to keep one and after being recruited into Kingsman he had just been too busy to even think about welcoming one puppy into his life and training him or her accordingly.

You like Merlin? You like dogs? You like ocs? This one got it all

I’ve seen the way you look at me when you think I don’t notice - G, Hartwin

“What I don’t understand is why you thought it was necessary to make a montage of every time Galahad appears in someone else’s feed though.”

“No, what you watched is every time an agent looked at Galahad’s when the boy was looking at you.”

I wrote this based on a prompt I got, but damn I still adore the way I chose to write this.

A Boxful of Kittens - G, Merhartwin

While he's taking a walk around the manor, after coming back from dealing with Valentine, Merlin finds four kittens and their mother.

After what he just lived through, he cannot bear living them outside to fend for themselves.

Kittens and out three favourite men... What more do you want?

Only a fool would deny love - G, Hartwin

A princess' kiss might have been Eggsy's highlight of that horrific day. Because seriously who can honestly say they’ve never dreamt about kissing a princess (or a prince, because Eggsy is many thing, but picky isn’t one of those)? Until he got back on the plane and finds out Harry's back from the dead.

The first long fic I started writing in the fandom. I really love it even if it shows that this has been written 2 years ago and I have definitely improved since then

Messenger of War - T, Hartwin, AU

He shivers at the brief contact of a hand on his shoulder and he forces the ripple of familiarity back down, but something in Harry’s eyes before he turns back and leaves hints that he is not the only one feeling it.

I am still stupidly proud of this fic okay and I’ll forever will be.

Kisses Like a Thousand Snowflakes - G, Hartwin, Roxlin, Percilot

“I wanted to know… What’s Kingsman’s stance on Christmas’ decorations?” It’s hard not answering to Eggsy’s enthusiasm with a grin of his own and he doesn’t really try. “Well since the Angels Incident of ‘97, the Garlands Debacle of ‘02 and the Reindeers Nightmare of ‘09, the late Arthur had put a ban on all the stuff and confiscate it all.”

This Christmas, mistletoe is everywhere and nobody is safe.

Okay this is a christmas fic, but who cares? It’s also the ultimate fix-it where everyone is alive and nobody’s dead.

Baked Love - G, Hartwin, AU

There were no other customers, but he didn’t think he was wrong in assuming it had more to do with the hour, after lunch but before the afternoon rush, and the awful weather, than anything wrong with the shop. For one thing, the interior was decorated really simply, but with enough nice touches to make it feel cozy. For another, the smell permeating the air, a mix of baked goods and coffee, was quite mouth-watering. The gorgeous young man walking out of the backroom with a polite but genuine smile wasn’t a slight against the shop either.

Or in which Harry is really a tailor and Eggsy works in a bakery shop.

Food and pining is a think one of the best combination in the world.

A Summer's Day - G, Pre-Hartwin

Harry doesn’t sigh when he notices the empty bench in the familiar corner of the park. He had not gone on a walk with the intention to come here, but since Mr. Pickle has died a month ago, his feet continuously lead him to what had been their usual spot to waste a lazy afternoon away.

In which Harry recites poetry to a pug in a park.

Because meet-cutes are the best

Kingsman's Nursery - G, Gen, AU

It is by sheer luck that James witnesses Princess Tilde’s kidnapping.

He’s only walking in the area, minding his own business, when he notices the infamous criminal mastermind Valentine and his deadly bodyguard Gazelle forcing the princess into a car.

In which they are all children except for Chester and Valentine, but they're all spies too (or princesses).

That one was just too fun to write and I think more people should read it

Room for Three (Not Only You and Me) - G, Merhartwin

The first time it happens Merlin honestly doesn’t know. Though, in Merlin’s defense there is nothing indicating that this is any different than usual.

Wherein Merlin date-crashes Harry and Eggsy's dates without realising it at first. Except, when Merlin tries to give them some space, they don't seem to be happy about it.

This one will always have a special place in my heart because this is the one that made me meet Red. Also writing about oblivious Merlin was very fun xD

Stay (A)head of the Case - G, Roxlin, Pre-Hartwin, Sleepy Hollow AU

In the relative comfort of the carriage bringing him to Sleepy Hollow, Merlin scoffs as he revises the facts that are known about the case he's being sent to investigate.

There are already three victims, the Heskeths, father and son, as well as a certain widow Winship, and the only suspect is a Headless Horseman? Who could ever believe such rubbish really? Whoever the true perpetrator of those murders is, they must be having a jolly time indeed.

In which Merlin is a constable from New York sent to Sleepy Hollow to investigate a series of murders.

I just love what I did with this AU and seriously there isn’t enough Roxlin in the fandom

Come Sail Away (Into the Light of the Dark Black Night) - G, Hartwin, soulmate AU

Eggsy had always known his soulmate would be older than him.

Or no, that wasn’t entirely right. He might have been hearing his soulmate all his life, but it had been a while before anyone had explained to him what it really meant.

It’s a soulmate au, if you like those do you really need more? :D

Labyrinth of Love - T, Merhartwin, Labyrinth AU

It is not the first time that a mortal catches the fancy of the Goblin King, but it is the first time one catches the eyes of both Kings.

In which Merlin and Harry are co-rulers of the Goblin Kingdom and Eggsy makes what he thinks is an unfortunate wish.

Who doesn’t love the movie Labyrinth? Who doesn’t want to imagine Merlin and Harry as the Goblin Kings?

From your hearts, I make a home - T, Hartwinrox

Since he’s started living on his own, Harry has always done everything so that the house he goes back to feels like a home. Sometime it was all that kept him sane while he dealt with whatever trauma that came with being a Knight.

And sure, nowadays he doesn’t see much field work, but the rituals have stayed and being able to offer that sense of home to not one amazing being but two? It is priceless.

Because domestic fluff and Harry/Roxy/Eggsy is always a must

I Get a Little Bit... - G, Merlahad, Ghenghis Khan AU

Merlin is putting his two children to bed when his phone starts ringing with a too familiar alert. He curses under his breath, thankful that Roxy is already fast asleep and won’t reprimand him on his language.

It’s the Genghis Khan Merlahad au everyone wanted but nobody was writing really.

Love is a fabric which never fades - G, Hartwin, Dragon AU

When Harry started his hoard of clothing, it has come as to no surprise to either him or his parents. After all, he has been drawn to fabrics and texture and colors for as long as he can remember; one of his earliest memory the soft cashmere of his father’s brown sweater and the rough red scales of his mother’s skin.

Harry has been courting Eggsy dragon style for a while now without telling him because he's a self-sacrificing idiot who doesn't believe he can be loved. Luckily for them, Eggsy is no such idiot.

Quite honestly, I am very surprised by how much people seem to enjoy this??? Like sure it’s dragons, but I never would have expected the kind of response I got :O

Fairy Tale Ending - G, Mercival, werewolf AU

If it had been anyone else, if he had been stranded in the woods with, let’s say, Lancelot instead, he would have believed the words to be a very ill-timed joke.

But this was Merlin, Merlin whom he trusts with his life.

And Merlin's a werewolf.

It’s a werewolf au. Need I say more?

Warm and safe, like a home - G, Merwin

It starts simple enough, with Eggsy bringing Merlin a cup of tea.

But before it can become anything more, Harry comes back from the dead and Eggsy realises he never truly had a chance.

Pining and misunderstandings but with a happy ending. I am sure I can’t be the only one who loves that

[itsnanasims]

100 questions no one asks

I was tagged by @tickledsims to do this tag and I have to say I loved doing it so here goes

1. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR CLOSET DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED?

Closed of course

2. DO YOU TAKE THE SHAMPOOS AND CONDITIONER BOTTLES FROM HOTELS?

No, I don’t, I’m kind of “polite” (not the better wording) in that way

3. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR SHEETS TUCKED IN OR OUT?

Welp they’re tucked in when the bed is made but it’s only made like twice a year so it gets messy. I do have to have the bottom tucked in, but other than that it’s fine

4. HAVE YOU STOLEN A STREET SIGN BEFORE?

I have never even thought about it, should I? Seems fun

5. DO YOU LIKE TO USE POST-IT NOTES?

It’s pretty rare. I use it for school books and maybe if there’s something I want to remind myself of because when you have a memory as bad as mine you need some methods. I do have a bunch of non post-it notes with ideas and thoughts I have which aren’t organized at all yet they’re lying around in my bedroom and it’s so messy... and I keep writing stuff down which adds on... oh man

6. DO YOU CUT OUT COUPONS BUT THEN NEVER USE THEM?

I don’t even get coupons

7. WOULD YOU RATHER BE ATTACKED BY A BIG BEAR OR A SWARM OF BEES?

I HATE beens ever since I was stung right below the eye when I was opening a door and so I got caught by surprise and that shit was serious, my whole face was sort of bloated for a whole friggin week and it wasn’t pretty it looked like some accident (and it was?) so I guess the bear, even though I wouldn’t know if I should run or play dead, sorry for the long story

8. DO YOU HAVE FRECKLES?

No, but I wouldn’t mind at all, I’d probably learn to love them! I do that with myself

9. DO YOU ALWAYS SMILE FOR PICTURES?

No, I’m not photogenic at all so it’s actually better if I don’t. Even though I kind of have a resting bitch face so I need to have a balance between smile and not smile lmao

10. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE?

People. Lmao seriously there are some people that really like to annoy me. I’m one of those poor humans some people just like to annoy? I never get seriously mad, or even mad tbh... I don’t really know what my biggest pet peeve is, I don’t really have many, I like to be a chill person

11. DO YOU EVER COUNT YOUR STEPS WHEN YOU WALK?

No, never ever

12. HAVE YOU PEED IN THE WOODS?

I have. Never again

13. HAVE YOU EVER POOPED IN THE WOODS?

No, thank god

14. DO YOU EVER DANCE EVEN IF THERES NO MUSIC PLAYING?

Even with music it’s hard for me to dance

15. DO YOU CHEW YOUR PENS AND PENCILS?

I don’t think so, but I like biting my school and bus cards since they’re the ones I use the most. Side note, that chewed pen on my case wasn’t me and the piece of my bus card that fell off wasn’t me either

16. HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH THIS WEEK?

That’s a zero

17. WHAT SIZE IS YOUR BED?

It’s a double bed for a forever alone girl

18. WHAT IS YOUR SONG OF THE WEEK?

Kind of an easy one. It’s Night’s with You by MØ

19. IS IT OK FOR GUYS TO WEAR PINK?

Yeah wtf I’m all for equality

20. DO YOU STILL WATCH CARTOONS?

... does Dragon Ball count... I’m watching the new episodes as they come out each Sunday with my brother, who is older than me 😂 I am in no way ashamed

21. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MOVIE?

I don’t know. If it’s bad I’ll just forget. I guess I haven’t seen one worth remembering from being so bad

22. WHERE WOULD YOU BURY HIDDEN TREASURE IF YOU HAD SOME?

Depends on the treasure, but my messy room would probably do? I dare anyone to try and find anything. Believe me, I tried not too long ago to find something and couldn’t. It’s not THAT messy but... it sorta is

23. WHAT DO YOU DRINK WITH DINNER?

That would be water

24. WHAT DO YOU DIP A CHICKEN NUGGET IN?

What DO you dip a chicken nugget in?

25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOOD?

Lasagna!

26. WHAT MOVIES COULD YOU WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND STILL LOVE?

Nerd alert, but I used to watch Lord of the Rings several times, like the whole trilogy. I related so bad when Clay said he did that too in 13 reasons why. Tbh I could still watch them. I really like medieval themes. I’m not really that obsessed anymore and I haven’t watched it for pretty long now but I don’t really have a better answer? My memory is pretty bad to think of one

27. LAST PERSON, YOU KISSED/KISSED YOU?

I don’t remember. I’m that girl who’s always sort of tough despite being the shortest even though I then love a good romance but don’t tell

28. WERE YOU EVER A BOY/GIRL SCOUT?

No..

29. WOULD YOU EVER STRIP OR POSE NUDE IN A MAGAZINE?

I don’t think so, lol!

30. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A LETTER TO SOMEONE ON PAPER?

Years ago! When I could simply not care at all about class and write my friends some “I love you, you’re my bff, remember this” sorta notes. Now I think it was lame af but I still have some of them in my room

31. CAN YOU CHANGE THE OIL ON A CAR?

I can’t

32. EVER GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET?

Just wait a couple of months till I get my license

33. EVER RAN OUT OF GAS?

Same answer

34. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE KIND OF SANDWICH?

Either with cheese or mortadella with olives. Or both, of course. Even better if I heat it just a bit so the cheese melts

35. BEST THING TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST?

Cereal

36. WHAT IS YOUR USUAL BEDTIME?

It used to be pretty wild but now I usually get to bed before midnight

37. ARE YOU LAZY?

Af

38. WHEN YOU WERE A KID, WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN?

When I was a kid we didn’t even “have” Halloween here, we just went dressed normally the next morning which is a different tradition but still similar and ask for candy... so we still had candy

I miss that candy, too bad I’m old now

39. WHAT IS YOUR CHINESE ASTROLOGICAL SIGN?

Rabbit

40. HOW MANY LANGUAGES CAN YOU SPEAK?

Only two, Portuguese and English. I had French classes but I high key learned nothing, I know a few words but if I went to France you’d see me speaking English (I did that, but in Belgium and I’m proud of myself for that. No offense to the French or the language, it’s just like geography, a bunch of years I spent learning and now I just don’t remember much)

41. DO YOU HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS?

No

42. WHICH ARE BETTER: LEGOS OR LINCOLN LOGS?

THIS WAS NOT A PART OF MY CHILDHOOD

43. ARE YOU STUBBORN?

Damn right I am and proud to be

44. WHO IS BETTER: LENO OR LETTERMAN?

No idea

45. EVER WATCH SOAP OPERAS?

When I was younger, yeah

46. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS?

I got somewhat scared when I was sliding down a zip because I was looking directly down a zip, it was a new experience, but then I just looked around me and appreciated the view

47. DO YOU SING IN THE CAR?

No

48. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?

It’s pretty rare and only if I’m home alone (in which case I sing anywhere I want as long as I feel like it)

49. DO YOU DANCE IN THE CAR?

Haha no

50. EVER USED A GUN?

Oh I wish. I did use a bow and arrow though

51. LAST TIME YOU GOT A PORTRAIT TAKEN BY A PHOTOGRAPHER?

Just last week I took a photo with all my class. Ok that’s not a portrait, I hate taking photos and everyone knows it, I suck at it, I’m really not photogenic at all, I always look weird?

52. DO YOU THINK MUSICALS ARE CHEESY?

Kind of, yeah. But I don’t watch them very much

53. IS CHRISTMAS STRESSFUL?

Not at all! Though I’m sooooo lazy to decorate for it

54. EVER EAT A PIEROGI?

No, I haven’t, I had to see what it is. Here in Portugal we have “pastel de nata” though, it’s really good (and kind of famous I guess) and I dunno why I just said that

55. FAVORITE TYPE OF FRUIT PIE?

Almond (I admit that I didn’t know if it was a fruit)

56. OCCUPATIONS YOU WANTED TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?

I always wanted to be a vet and have a clinic and take care of cute little animals and have a bunch of them at home. As I got older I forgot about that of course

57. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS?

Not really, I’m not superstitious at all, but I like supernatural stories so go figure

58. EVER HAVE A DEJA-VU FEELING?

Sure! Several times

59. DO YOU TAKE A VITAMIN DAILY?

No

60. DO YOU WEAR SLIPPERS?

Very rarely, I’m always just wearing socks around the house. I take them off when I’m sitting so I’m too lazy to put them on

61. DO YOU WEAR A BATH ROBE?

I do

62. WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED?

Comfy pajamas

63. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CONCERT?

It was a Portuguese band, Xutos e Pontapés, with my parents lol! I’ll always remember it because our car was robbed :)

64. WALMART, TARGET, OR KMART?

I have none of these in my country. Walmart for memes though

65. NIKE OR ADIDAS?

THIS IS HARD maybe Adidas

66. CHEETOS OR FRITOS?

Cheetos, mostly due to nostalgia (?)

67. PEANUTS OR SUNFLOWER SEEDS?

I don’t like peanuts (I feel like I could get hate for this) and sunflower seeds barely have any taste?

68. EVER HEAR OF THE GROUP TRES BIEN?

I haven’t, but I know the meaning so I guess french classes for 3 years did something

69. EVER TAKE DANCE LESSONS?

Noooo I suck

70. IS THERE A PROFESSION YOU PICTURE YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE DOING?

Heck I don’t even know if I wanna get married

71. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE?

Yes I can, though only one time, I used to have a friend who could curl it more than once? I dunno how to explain it

72. EVER WON A SPELLING BEE?

Yep

73. HAVE YOU EVER CRIED BECAUSE YOU WERE SO HAPPY?

Not really, only from laughing too hard

74. OWN ANY RECORD ALBUMS?

No... should I...

75. OWN A RECORD PLAYER?

No

76. DO YOU REGULARLY BURN INCENSE?

I don’t know if I’ve ever done it actually

77. EVER BEEN IN LOVE?

I don’t think so, not truly

78. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN CONCERT?

THIS IS HARD. I can never get too fixated on just one artist, I legit don’t know what to answer but ok since I’m Portuguese and Salvador Sobral won Eurovision I guess I’d like to see him sing. Also Banks, The Weeknd, Coldplay, Callum Scott’s Dancing on my own, James Arthur, OneRepublic, X Ambassadors, Blackbear (in no particular order)

79. WHAT WAS THE LAST CONCERT YOU SAW?

Damn it, I don’t even remember

80. HOT TEA OR COLD TEA?

I never even think of drinking it cold

81. TEA OR COFFEE?

Coffee! I drink it pretty often actually. But then there are some pretty good tea too

82. SUGAR COOKIES OR SNICKERDOODLES?

Idk, sugar cookies?

83. CAN YOU SWIM WELL?

Not really which is kinda lame since I live right by the sea

84. CAN YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH WITHOUT HOLDING YOUR NOSE?

Are there people who can’t? I’m confused

85. ARE YOU PATIENT?

Not at all

86. DJ OR BAND AT A WEDDING?

No

87. EVER WON A CONTEST?

It wasn’t really a contest? It was pretty small, but I was 1st place on this spelling contest in 6th grade. It wasn’t just done in a day though, it was over the year and it was just with my other classmates so we weren’t even 30. I won a pretty cool bookmarker which I still have and use sometimes

88. HAVE YOU EVER HAD PLASTIC SURGERY?

No

89. WHICH ARE BETTER: BLACK OR GREEN OLIVES?

BLACK. It’s a miracle if I eat a green one and like it.

90. CAN YOU KNIT OR CROCHET?

My mom wanted (and wants?) me to learn but I’m pretty much always like “hell no”

91. BEST ROOM FOR A FIREPLACE?

Living room, next to the tv?

92. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?

I’m not sure. I get the idea of it, but I feel like getting married would take away my freedom? I don’t know exactly how to explain it, I feel like things go a bit downhill from there, maybe not to all, but I just don’t want to ruin a good relationship even though it’s not the purpose. Also I’m not really interested in kids so there’s that. Then again, I’m pretty young rn so idk I feel like this answer is pretty immature

93. IF MARRIED, HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN MARRIED?

No

94. WHO WAS YOUR HIGH SCHOOL CRUSH?

Who IS my high school crush 😝 he’s sort of the class clown

95. DO YOU CRY AND THROW A FIT UNTIL YOU GET YOUR OWN WAY?

No, I’m already kind of childish enough, no need to start throwing fits lol ok maybe not crying but I’m a little stubborn sometimes

96. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? No

97. DO YOU WANT KIDS?

Idk, it’s definitely not on my mind, I don’t imagine my future that far ahead

98. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR? White, black, grey... neutrals. I’m always wearing neutral colors and if not then something not too bright but if I had to choose a non neutral then blue

99. DO YOU MISS ANYONE RIGHT NOW?

Not really

100. WHO ARE YOU GOING TO TAG TO DO THIS TAG NEXT?

Ok this time I want to actually tag some people so I’ll just tag @simmyemmy @eefahsims @itstwina @forgottondawn (if you all feel like it) and anyone else who wants to do it!

[kimchichigay]

first love with jaemin

dO YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING BEING NA JAEMIN’S FIRST LOVE AND HIM BEING YOURS MY HEArT alright before we start this is my first time making something like this so pls be patient with me

• ok this twerp would definitely be the kind to slyly drop a lot of subtle but not so subtle hints that he likes you before y'all started dating

• hints as in I’m talking about lOTS OF SKINSHIP AND BEING SUPER CLOSE AND INTIMATE WITH ONE ANOTHER BUT IM NOT TALKING ABOUT THAT KIND OF INTIMACY dONT GET YOUR PANTIES IN A TWIST YA NASTY

• like for example he’ll tuck your hair to the back of your ears like its nothing and then flashing you his million dollar smile

• or him telling you some cringey pick up line that is worth punching his beautiful face for poor chenle nearly threw up his lunch when he overheard you both

• BUT WHEN HE FINALLY THINKS ITS ABOUT TIME TO CONFESS HIS FEELINGS PROPERLY HE’LL BE THE CLUMSIEST LIL SHIT EVER

• HE BE TRIPPING OVER HIS OWN FEET AS HE MAKES HIS WAY TO YOU OR EVEN FALLING FACE FLAT oN FHE GROUND POOR BABY

• HE STILL TRIES TO BE COOL THO

• donghyuck, jeno and chenle makes sure to film everything down and probably make a meme out of his mishaps

• mark and renjun are probably just there for emotional support

• he’ll probably begin by wiping his sweaty (ew) palms on his trousers and nervously clearing his throat cORNY I KNOW

• you will most probably be like ??!??? at first but then you realise what was going on the second you saw the trash can moved behind jaemin. you knew this was bound to happen so you secretly kept it inside of you knowing too damn well jaemin will appreciate it if you pretend not to know anything for his sake

• this hopeless romantic smh

• “ok so y/n there’s this thing I’ve been trying to tell you all along. this may sound ridiculous but this takes so much courage from the bottom of my heart and the strength of jaehyun and yuta hyung’s fist to knock some senses into me. and if I don’t do this now johnny and ten hyung are going to call me a wimp and I have to buy them pizza later because I proved their point. I–”

• but who the hell said you were good @ keeping your mouth and excitement shut you can’t stand the tension anymore too either so lmaO

• “I like you too jaemin.”

• “pls do not interrupt me y/n”

• before he could say the three little words he’s been dying to say, he took a deep breath but stopped half way, opening his half lid eyes widely after his mind was able to process

• “wait what”

• “SHE SAID SHE LIKES YOU DUMBASS”

• “SHUT THE HELL UP DONGHYUCK”

• “can I come out now???” jisung’s head pops out of the bushes

• long story short jaemin was finally able to claim your heart that day and jisung got ant bites from hiding in the bushes for too long with the bouquet of flowers jaemin planned to give you after his confession

• the dream unit with the exception of jaemin also found their new source of entertainment from the video they got that day

• NOW DATING JAEMIN YES LETS GO ONTO THE DEETS

• NA JAEMIN IS DEFINITELY THE TYPE OF BOYFRIEND WHO WOULD SPOIL YOU WHENEVER

• he’ll get you small lil gifts of whatever reminds you of him

• that hair clip??? ITS CUTE BUY IT FOR Y/N that necklace?? A MUST BUY !! THAT LIMITED EDITION PIKACHU DOLL?? SCREW THAT VIDEO GAME WINWIN HYUNG WANTED HE CAN LIVE WITHOUT LIKE HE DID FOR THE PAST 19 YEARS

• he’d even turn up at your house at 2am with fried chicken if you text him at night saying you’re hungry GOALS YALL

• HES ALSO KIND OF LOWKEY LIKE YOUR 2ND MOM LMAO

• I call him dropping by your classroom during snack breaks/lunch breaks with food with him, knowing so damn well about your horrible habit of skipping on your meals

• he would force you to eat with him or at least take a few bites from the food he specially prepared/bought for you

• cOUGHS HE ONLY BOUGHT/PREPARED YOUR FAVOURITES COUGHS

• and didn’t he say he enjoys cooking in the dorm too?? imAGINE HIS HOME COOKED FOOD MADE WITH HIS LOVE

• I’m crying blood

• AND IF YOU REFUSE IM 999999% SURE HE’LL FEED YOU PERSONALLY

• “say ahh, y/n”

• “jaemin I said I’m not hungry”

• “stop lying through your food deprived mouth and eat!!!”

• “jAEMIN!!”

• “LISTEN IM NOT LEAVING UNTIL YOU FINISH THIS LUNCH BOX”

• JAEMIN WOULD ALSO BE KINDA PROTECTIVE BUT NOT CRAZY PROTECTIVE YKNOW

• HE’LL ALWAYS CHECK ON YOU IN BETWEEN TOILET BREAKS BY WALKING PASS YOUR CLASS AND TRYING TO CATCH A GLIMPSE OF YOU THROUGH THE WINDOW

• AND THE SMILE OH NY GSKDNDN THAT SHEEPISH SMILE HE’LL GIVE YOU WHEN YOU TELL HIM TO GO AWAY IN EMBARRASSMENT JSNNDKEBXOEKE

• but lbr it’s either that really cute BF material kind of smile he be giving you through the window or that weird derpy smile he always has when he’s being dumb

• either way you’re embarrassed by this goofball

• and to add on to your embarrassment, he knows that some of your classmates may be watching the two of you so he’d blow kisses/make kissy faces at you

• he just absolutely loves to see you blush because it’s just so cute to him and he loves cute things especially you you’re his favorite cute thing and he wants to keep you by his side forever

• FIRST KISS YES

• YOU CAN NOT FORGET ABOUT FIRST KISS

• AND yALL KISS ON YOUR FIRST DATE TOO OMG SO IMA INCORPORATE BOTH PLS BE PATIENT WITH ME YALL

• because jaemin has been receiving lessons from his hyungs on dating it isn’t surprising that he brought you to the movies on your first date not because it highly suggested by his hyungs…

• you both agreed to meet outside the movie theatre and he was there an hour early and boy was he nervous as heck

• the older members were also there for a little while to prep him up aw how supportive

• sO after giving him half an hour long of prep talk and re-styling his hair (for running through them anxiously mULTIPLE OF TIME) ITS FINALLY TIME

• YOU TURNED UP RIGHT ON TIME AND YOU SAW HIM STANDING THERE OUTSIDE DAZING OFF INTO THE DISTANT

• HE LOOKS SO GOOD JUST STANDING THERE AND YOURE LIKE ‘tF HO W IN THE WORLD DID I END UP WITH HIM BLESS’

• pls excuse me for a moment here oh my god na jaemin is seriously one of the most attractive 16 years olds I’ve ever seen f U CK CALMD DJOWN

• ok lets get back

• IT WAS THEN YOU START TO FEEL THAT WEIRD FEELING IN THE STOMACH LIKE YOURE ABOUT TO THROW UP FROM THE NERVOUSNESS AND ANXIETY BUILDING UP INSIDE YOU

• BUT YOU STILL APPROACHED HIM ANYWAYS FROM BEHIND AND WHEN YOU FINALLY REACH HIM YOU GAVE HIM A LITTLE TAP ON HIS SHOULDERS

• POOR BOY WAS SO STARTLED HE JUMPED A FEW FEET IN THE AIR jk I was just exaggerating

• bUT STILL

• AND WHEN HE TURNED AROUND HIS JAW JUST DROPS THE MOMENT HE LAID HIS EYES ON YOU MAKING YOU BLUSH AND SHIT AND YOU COULDNT LOOK AT HIM IN THE EYES GOD DAMNIT SHDBNDSKDN

• SEEING HOW SHY AND EMBARRASSED YOU ARE BY HIM AND HE JUST LOVES SEEING YOU LIKE THIS ,, YOU BET MY LAST $3 THAT HE’D TEASE THE HECK OUT OF YOU

• “aigoo, my beautiful girlfriend looks even more beautiful than usual tonight. did you dress up especially for me?”

• I want to kms

• you’d just smack his arm and walk away, trying to hide your face. “let’s go buy the tickets before the show starts, you twerp…”

• the smile on his face would just become wider and he’d catch up with you, naturally reaching out for your hand and intertwining them together

• where the fuck did that nervous dipshit go and where the fuck did he find such confidence to become such a cheesy little shit

• jaemin also bought popcorn and drinks for the both of you and being the cheesy lil shit insist y'all share the drink with two straws while giving the excuse “i wouldnt be able to finish mine if we bought two” 

 • “I can buy my share myself” 

 • “nonono it’s too late for that now the movie is about to start and the line for the snacks is now really long lets go babe you don’t wanna miss out the beginning of the movie”

 • he holds your hand and leads you both inside the theatre and to your seats • “what are we watching again” 

 • “the conjuring 2” 

 • TOTALLY NOT TEN AND JOHNNY’S SUGGESTION 

 • “hmm,, ok… wAIT WHAT” 

 • you stared at him wide eyed and jaemin suddenly looked remorseful and he regrets everything especially listening to his hyungs who probably learnt all their “techniques” and “moves” from watching too much corny chick flick and kdrama 

 • “sorry, I should’ve asked you. do you want to leave right now? I can get tickets to see another movie.” 

 • THIS BOY IS LEGIT READY TO GET UP AND GET YOU TICKETS TO WATCH ZOOTOPIA IN THE THEATRE NEXT DOOR 

 • HE WILL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU 

 • but your cheapskate ass just grabs him and pulled him back down in his seat but not letting go of his hand 

 • “its fine jaemin, ive seen the trailer and my friends say it’s pretty good. let’s enjoy this movie shall we? haha.”

• though your face say yes but heart say no, jaemin was reluctant but eventually decided to sit back down when the lights went off

• “but if the movie gets too scary and you dont feel like watching it anymore you can always tell me, ok y/n? we could have dinner early or something, i’ll bring you some place nice.”

• instead of watching in the beginning of the movie, jaemin was watching you the entire time with a stupid smile of his face despite worrying over the fact that you might be scarred for life

• eventually you caught him and you had to forcefully make him stare ahead at the big screen instead. at first he was pretending but soon enough he was immersed in it

• this dipshit istg

• when the climax of the movie came, you knew what was going to happen and you immediately grabbed jaemin’s hand while following your instincts and hid behind his shoulder

• he was caught off guard at first lmao since he was too immersed in the movie that he nearly forgot that hes on a date 

• after realising you had grabbed his hand and possibly squeeze it for as long as the climax part of the movie lasted, he blushed and tries to bite back a smile from forming on his face

• and when he turned to look at you, seeing that you’ve curled up in the seat, ears covered with your other hand and eyes squeezed shut, he was this close into melting into a puddle of goo because you looked so cute and squishy and he just wants to hold you 

• and he did 

• i am trying not to scream as i type this 

• he skillfully wrapped his arm around your shoulders and pulled you into his embrace, stroking your hair as he teases you “aigoo my big baby i told you we should’ve watched something else instead.”

• you both went on to watch the movie like that, you clinging onto him like your life depended on it and him enjoying every second of it and lowkey wishes the movie to be longer

• when the creepy music in the background began to play as the second climax arrive, you were already gripping onto jaemin’s arm. being the perfect boyfriend material he is, he covered your ears. (BASICALLY JUST LIKE THE WAY SUNGJAE DID TO JOYIN WGM WHILE THEY WERE WATCHING A MOVIE I MISS THEM SO MUCH)

• but as soon as it was over (after all that exorcism and shit and everything becomes brighter), you’ll just look up and blush in embarrassment cos jaemin was staring back at you with a smug look on his face tHIS LITTL E SHIT

• you also notice that there are red marks on his arm from where you were grabbing him so you gasped and began apologizing for nearly tearing his arm apart during the movie while gently stroking his arm while rambling on and on about how sorry you are and also complimenting how he’s practically hairless 

• apparently you were rambling on too much that he couldn’t take it??? not in a bad wAY BUT it wasn’t just your rambles that was driving him crazy 

• it was your moving lips

• yes LiPSSSS gIRL YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS

• YOU GUESSED IT

• he kissed you 

• to shut you up 

• and to also finally man up and kiss you like how he should’ve 3 weeks ago when you both started dating

• mmMm gotta get me a guy like jaemin A++

• you were too stunned to kiss him back so you just stared at him wide eyed when he pulled away

• “i-what-huh-wait, jaemin-what-” you poor confused child

• “how did you know peach was my favorite flavor.” he wipes the corner of his lips as he said that with a shit eating grin, causing you to turn crimson.

• “what are you kids still doing here? the movie is over; leave.” 

• whoops 

• so basically that was how jaemin found his confidence and that was just only the beginning of this cute relationship and he just adores the heck out of you and loves you to bits you guys are practially engaged in his head and he hopes that not only you’ll be his first love you’ll also be his last iTSNT THAT THE CUTEST THING EVER

• i am crying blooODdd i hope you guys enjoyed this like how i enjoyed torturing myself ㅠㅠ