#legal: 'hey you REALLY shouldnt do that'

[answrs]

from another article, I appreciate turning their argument back on them using their own language:

"Here you are whining about a flag. Sure, take away a flag so the feeble-minded don't feel condemned, but guess what? The real world doesn't work like that," said one student. "No one walks around and baby-proofs the world so your delicate sensibilities aren't insulted."

I'm tired.

[insertdisc5]

this is a stupid question and there’s no reason for my sending it besides trying to understand/overcome my own anxiety/insecurity. your post on game dev software was extremely informative and seems like something you’re really passionate about. for some reason i can’t get past the idea that using premade visual novel/rpg/whatever software will be seen by others as, like, “that doesn’t count as making a real game, you just dragged and dropped stuff into a program someone else made, anyone can do that” or something. I’ve never played any visual novels, but i enjoyed rpgmaker games like The Witch’s House and Ib when i was a kid, and undertale is my favorite game of all time, so I know how good games like that can be. I thought I could learn to make video games at some point by studying computer science in college, but by my 3rd semester i couldn’t focus so i changed my major. That was almost ten years ago, and I feel like an idiot seeing so many people younger than me having so much fun doing stuff that i just gave up on after it became “too challenging” even though I’ve been using computers all my life. I guess what I’m asking is, how do you get over the fear of doing something, saying “hey look what i made/accomplished!” and having someone else say “that’s actually easy to do, you shouldn’t be proud, and here is an example why” and then you’re just left standing there like “damn, maybe i need to reflect on how stupid i am” instead of “man, that guy was a jerk.” sorry if that didn’t make sense.

you have to not think of yourself as yourself, but think of yourself as your friend telling you "someone said mean things to me" and of course when a friend says that to you you say "i will kill them for you you are amazing and the apple of my eye and they dont know what theyre talking about and what you made was great and once again: i will kill them for you". also if anyone says to you "you shouldnt be proud of this thing you made" then you are legally allowed to kill them it's in the world constitution

[taffywabbit]

im also anti proship but calling rugrats porn drawings "child porn" really dilutes the severity of actual child porn. we shouldnt be confusing actual cp that hurts real children with just weirdos drawing porn of cartoon characters that happen to be kids, the two things are not at all on the same level

ok i suppose this was inevitable, i may as well get into it.

(CW for some discussion of CSA and child pornography, obviously)

first off, "i'm also anti proship but" is a terrifying way to start your message, and to go and follow it up with some extremely common proship copypasta i've heard a million times about "taking attention/resources/severity/etc away from real CSA victims" or whatever kinda makes me wonder how "anti proship" you actually are...?

kind of the point of this whole debate is typically that "proship" folks insist that fiction, or in this case "porn of cartoon characters that happen to be kids" as you put it, has no effect on reality or people's mindsets. and so-called "antis" like myself generally respond to this idea with something along the lines of "well it sure seems to affect the reality of your cock and balls", and point out how repeatedly consuming media with a particular focus or message has been shown time and time again to quantifiably influence the way people view the world around them, in ways that subsequently affect how they act, or desensitize them to things that might otherwise upset/offend them. y'know, like political propaganda! or blockbuster movies about killer sharks! obviously some people are going to be more resilient against that sort of influence when the real-world equivalent of "porn of cartoon characters that happen to be kids" is something so blatantly unacceptable, and nobody is really claiming that the impact of fictional CP is "on the same level" as its IRL counterpart.

but at the very least, most people who would be considered "anti proship" WILL tell you "hey, i'm not trying to say that you jerking it to twitter porn of Gwen Tennyson or Tails or whatever is LITERALLY THE SAME as committing CSA, but it's still really fucking concerning and creepy that the majority of your sexual fixations are all specifically cutesy vulnerable cartoon characters under the age of 12, many of whom also have canonical adult designs that you conveniently avoid in favor of sexualizing the ones that are barely old enough to learn long division. you should maybe do some introspection and figure out why that is and whether or not you're really comfortable with what it implies about you. personally i know I'M not comfortable with that shit and i'm not going to keep hanging around you unless you make some serious changes." except usually in my experience the conversation ends up being a lot shorter and ends in a block pretty quickly. like i'm not a psychologist and i don't keep a bunch of studies on hand to throw at you about how fictional CP is often a factor in grooming, but i DO have a brain and can pretty clearly see when someone is rationalizing behavior that will lead them to places i'm not willing to follow.

ANYWAYS to focus more specifically on the actual reason we're talking about this (which was, to be clear, a mobile ad Tumblr served me that depicted one of the dads from Rugrats having sex with his 3yo daughter): yes, actually, that shit IS illegal to create or distribute. it's not the SAME as literal photographs of real children, OBVIOUSLY, but it's still also extremely fucked up in its own right, and any reasonable person in your life would probably stop talking to you if you told them you got off to it.

don't believe me about the legality part? check this out:

so like, I GUESS you might get some legal leeway with cub furry art or sonic porn or stuff that isn't always obvious in how much it's intended to parallel real children? if you really care? but this ad was literally multiple illustrations of a human adult man having intercourse with a human toddler. it's pornography centered around openly fetishizing the sexual assault of a child by a parent. i fail to see how referring to that in shorthand as "child porn" is inaccurate in any way that matters.

and Tumblr is a US-based company, beholden to the laws shown above, so they are at least somewhat responsible when illustrated pedophilic incest porn gets shown to thousands of their mobile app users in an ad they got paid to display. THAT was the original point i was making in my post. but thank you for trying to derail it to interrogate my "anti proship" views or whatever, i have had multiple people send me fairly nasty asks about it in the past year and you finally caught me in a moment when i was already pissed enough about something else that i felt like going off about this stuff. sorry if you actually agreed with most of this and i came off as overly rude/harsh, but if that's the case then this response is for all the other anon asks and replies i've gotten too, i guess.

now we're all clear about where i stand and i hopefully don't need to talk about this again - it's kind of a fucking bummer to think about this stuff and i've been avoiding the subject intentionally. you are always welcome to just block me if you have a problem

[thisisaname-whatahappyname]

fox news the absoloute Belothed fuck those bastards

[soulsilvers]

srry if you got asked beforehand (or your welcome since you love the kantrio alot as is) but what's your overall thoughts on how pokemas portrays leaf and her dynamic with the Homosexuals (said lovingly) feel to you if you've tried to see how it goes? personally i'm alright with it (i have a bias towards how you do her easily bc you just understand as someone who was nuts abt these three for literally 10+ years) and find it kinda amusing that they even try to get her role dealing with them gameplay wise aka red is always the hard hitter of things bc battle autism go brrr, blue is often put as support while meanwhile leaf is like "wow you mfers focus on one thing okay i'm going to have hard attacks but be able to heal and attempt some buffs" while in the background just gushing about how much she loves her eevee and how its the cutest; so she doesn't stand out alot but i have a still huge appreciation of her easily just wish there was y'know more without the other two being there 65% of the time

on my still unfinished but pretty lengthy already neocities shines i try to gather together EVERYTHING that kantrio canonically is and is implied to be, from all media thats gameverse. comes with some speculation bc once you get really invested youre gonna be SO pissed at how much unanswered questions there are lol. so thats one thing i direct people to.

i like that shes an all-around character as you pointed out! i had not paid attention to that cause yknow. i dont actually play pokemas bc its gacha brain poison, only seek all dialogue on the internet and all videos from absol-utely.

the protags regardless of gender, aside maybe from red, in pokemas are pretty much intentionally written to have these very "safe" unrisky personalities that couldnt possibly offend anyone with unique ideas for what theyre like. but id say pokemas leaf isnt ENTIRELY devoid of sauce as i was able to say a lot about her on the shrine. i like that while her friendship with red is sweet, she and green on the other hand are constantly beefing.

but yeah, im not necessarily opposed to leaf gushing over cute pokemon (i literally go crazy over certain breeds of little dogs myself) but it shouldnt be the only thing going on for her sooooo well.. tpc may or may not approve of my garbage-eating leaf who teaches children that anything is legal when cops arent around but hey that just makes her funnier and ill do it anyway #feminism

and make her less of a satellite that orbits around red and green. let her go on her own adventure with some other character (misty perhaps?) for once at least!

[gaeasun]

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That's 1,531 more posts than 2021!

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Rex: Dumbest scar stories, go!

Fives: I burned my tongue once drinking tea.

Tup: I dropped a hair dryer on my leg once and burned it.

Echo: I have a piece of graphite in my leg for accidentally stabbing myself with a pencil in the first grade.

Twitch: I was taking a cup of noodles out of the microwave and spilled it on my hand and I got a really bad burn.

Dogma:

Dogma: I have emotional scars.

149 notes - Posted June 28, 2022

#4

Oh hey heres a random terrible thought

You remember in the brain invaders episode? Where the clones were hunted down by anyone with a worm and forcibly infected?

Some version of that must have happened at 66.

I mean, come on. Not every clone is going to have their comm on, and listening. Somewhere across the galaxy, someone must have been asleep. Someone must have had their comm muted.

All officers were just called to the bridge. And this one clone, he needs to use the refresher. It will just be one minute, so he mutes his comm and breaks off. But when he gets back, everyone is looking at him strange. We have orders, the Commander says. Let me play them for you.

Just after a battle, most clones were sleeping. In the middle of the night their.comms chirp. Priority alert. Some listen, some take a moment to wake up. And watch as their brothers stiffen. Watch as they come closer, comms outstretched. We have our orders, they say. Listen to them. Some figure it out quickly and have a few seconds warning. They run to the door. But their enemy is now their own flesh and blood, and they are everywhere. Those who run are caught, forcibly pinned down as someone sets a comm to their ear.

Incredibly rare are those who physically cannot hear the order. Those who had commanders, medics who cared and who wouldnt give them up. Vode for whom the entire group learned signing. But they dont understand why everyone is acting so stiff. Execute Order 66, someone signs. But it has no meaning. The blaster suddenly pointed at their face does. Traitors will be executed, they read off their commanders lips. Traitor? What-

197 notes - Posted February 10, 2022

#3

Fixit au where the Wrong Jedi arc went differently because at the beginning of the war Rex, Cody, and Wolffe made a groupchat called "Protect the Padawan"

302 notes - Posted November 16, 2022

#2

HC that Fox was the clone who helped Padme after she fell from the ship and because he helped a Senator that's why he was put in charge of Corusant and now he wishes he never even heard of Padme

317 notes - Posted May 4, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Another thing that kills me in the Tales of the Jedi trailer is how young Anakin looks before time is passed.

Hes what, 21? Hes 21 and hes barely not a teen anymore and hes given a 14 year old kid. In the middle of a war. Being told, hey she's your responsibilty now. Dont get her killed.

And so he pushes her, desperately. Giving her a little more than she can handle every time, but hopefully not enough to get her killed. He trains her relentlessly, again and again, having their own men (who shouldnt be either of theirs) shoot her over and over until she can hold her ground. Dueling with her until shes adept enough to battle a Sith Lord and win before shes old enough to legally be in the army.

Because she is his responsibility. And he loves easily and ferociously and dangerously.

1,174 notes - Posted September 11, 2022

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[forestryfae]

honestly one rly hard thing to unlearn my brain that. somehow everything i want is high demand and probably like way too serious and somehow too much and i shuold manage without and theres no real reason i should need or want that cus i dont REALLY need it i wont die without it and its just. unattaineable and not even a question worth asking cus the default aswer is gonna be a no or you dont need that or if i somehow get whatever i want i need to live with the guilt of having it and the sheer guilt from having needed it and frankly i shouldnt even use it because i should do without it so ill only use it a little or even not touch it because that makes up for it and also i shouldnt really talk about it or anything its almost something i have to hide because its so shameful

and the thing i wanted and got will be like. pancakes for dinner or a slightly more expensive rice cooker or i decided to buy a specific food at the store that cost a little bit extra compared to cheaper alternatives cus i only like that brand or like. hair dye or a haircut or a heater when theres no heat anywhere or a shirt or pants i like and will in fact use and i just normally i think most people just get these things if they want it and can afford it and itll make their lives better but i see something i like or want or even need and i have this crushing guilt because nah man i should do without it i dont need it i have other stuff already. and i havent even gotten it. its bad to want things its bad to see something you want and then it results usually in not even trying to get something i need that will make my life better and easier or i go treat yourself or whatever ive been good at not buying anything i want that isnt food and then i spend way too much money on things i barely want

but yeah shoutout to my mom and brother and family for this. i know for a fact its something ive learnt from them. if i even look at something in a store and say its pretty im immediately hit with "you dont need it" or "you have enough stuff" instead of just. oh thats cool or oh yeah that does look nice. normal people tend to respond with conversational replies. not commands or judgement or unwanted comments on someones economic status or what they have in their home.

like. im even a little afraid to ask my legal guardian for money for food because im scared hell say no or start asking what i have in the fridge or cupboards and why i havent used that first. even to the point where im trying to rationalize why i cant make flour soup in case someone asks why i didnt just do that instead of. buying food. or being afraid that ill be told im asking for too much money and ive gone over my limit and ill get scolded for using too much money. like. he doesnt do that. hes never done that. hell gently give me alternatives. i still need to find a couch and ive looked at a store nearby that sells for cheap and i was like "do we have a budget" and he reminded me that theres a thrift shop and told me hed like me to check there first. hell tell me its my money and im an adult and i get to choose within reason what to spend it on. if i use a lot i think he might hit me up and be like hey whats going on with the spending but he doesnt like. scold or yell at me or get mad. his job is to help me and help me avoid financial ruin and help me have control over my stuff, not take over and be mean or deny me agency. he doesnt do that. its still scary but atleast i can trust that when i do it scared its gonna be okay afterwards.

still it really fucking sucks that my brain keeps working this way. like im doing something wrong at all times because i exist. needing food or spending money or even cleaning or having small moments of ocd and so on. its. not a crime to buy hairdye because the colors i already own arent the ones i want. or buy new pants cus my other ones are useable but uncomfortable because they dont fit as well anymore. and so on. its not a crime to buy new paintbrushes cus my old ones are worn. or buy a certain brand of food thats a lil more expensive cus i dont like the other brand thats cheaper. its. literally what normal people do.

anyways the bottom line is i think i gotta work on this a little and not be so judgey and try to catch myself and go hey be nice food is literally neccessary so you dont go into organ failure or starve to death people eat multiple times a day its actually weirder to not eat that often. clothes are supposed to fit. youre allowed to enjoy things. you dont have to suffer just because you can handle it youre not supposed to be in survival mode. i can afford to buy food im allowed to eat i can turn the heater on i can clean i can do stuff i need to do to take care of myself i can be mentally ill and get through it i can make choices i want to make. its allowed.

[hopeididntscareyou]

I may be a sweet person but one thing you would know about me is I have a health condition where I always feel like throwing up after eating something sweet. I can never finish an ice cream, cake, or shake/smoothie. I've never been a fan of chocolates. I thought its just because I didn't just like sweets but I realized that I am physically just intolerant of sweets. I can still consume sweets like juice, a few bites of something sweet but anything more than that the consequence is me vomiting. It really sucks but hey sweets are not my favorite foods anyway.

Speaking of vomiting, I find it hilarious that people are shocked to find out that Lucifer V. is an actual, IRL-psychopath who exploits mentally ill children and abuses the fuck out of them so he could use them to film his stupid vomit porn. Why is that surprising? How stupid are you to think that someone who makes snuff porn is a good person? The fact that Marian Dora's films features real animal abuse should be alarming. It disgusts me even more how people proudly say they love LV movies like what the fuck? You are basically consuming child porn/animal abuse/sexual debauchery material and you love that huh? Even if you say the actors/actress are of legal age at the time of filming the literal plot of these garbage films is about being devoid of morality so why are you denying you are consuming the exploitation of children? In A Serbian Film there was the "newborn porn" - a literal baby being raped, the young son of the main character was raped by his own father, another underaged girl was sexually abused as well. August Mordum shows countless of raping of children. Salo is all about sodomizing and doing scat porn with boys and girls. These are not grown adults these are children not only engaging in sexual acts but disturbing and vile sexual acts. Congratulations for proving that watching the torment and sexual abuse of distressed & exploited human beings let alone children makes you feel good about yourself. I do admit I have seen the same stuff but would I say i love them? No. Would I go out of my way to purchase DVDs and post a collection of these childporn posession on the internet? No. You fucking degenerates need to be locked up and get fist fucked in prison. Anyone who claims these banned films is art is pretentious as fuck who doesn't understand anything about existential philosophy yet embarass themselves even more by throwing Nietzsche quotes to sound edgy. Its amusing to me how do fucked-up individuals can just freely roam around doing the most depraved shit you can ever imagine and getting away with it because people are too busy getting offended and cancelling people over racist/homophobic words on twitter. People are so fucking ignorant, it makes me feel ashamed to be a human being. I actually wish there were more Jeffrey Dahmer in this day and age so people could be aware of the actual dark side of the humanity rather than focusing on the slavery in the 1500s or some shit in stone age. How about the slavery in todays age where big chain companies pay workers a minimum wage which is not even livable at all because how the fuck could someone pay for an apartment in the city that costs atleast $1,000 excluding utilities, electricity, car and gas while only making $8.00 per hour? People would just rather get offended about things that shouldnt concern them like celebrity news being racist or some shit. If I was a serial killer, my goal would probably to eradicate stupid people in this planet . The other day though, I carelessly mentioned to a friend how I would want to publicly execute a celebrity billionaire. That was awkward cause the intention of murder threw them off and they did not get my humor at all. I guess this is why i only genuinely get along with aspies despite not autistic enough to care about chemistry.... ( this just goes to show that my final exam on chem was a GG)

[leosnumber1fan]

high

god look at this show it looks like some wizards magical ass pull. shit look he pulled out a rabbit or something let me grab onto my train of thought before i lose it here

lets talk about THYME

ok so this guy? girl? i cant really tell what theyre going for here but they look like if you were to go to the psychological section of a childrens hospital and take a shower and the hair in the drain straight up started fucking talking to you mouth and everything. hey did you know your dick looks really fucking dope at this angle?? props down to your mom who had to push that giant thing out of her front ass.

i think im getting my point across

also that firey red hair has to be some kind of war crime because i cant look at it straight without it searing my eyes out. i mean how does that fit on someones head it looks like a 70 pound wig. im surprised she doesnt have her head hanging down near her waist like some college graduate after carrying a bookbag for so many years. seriously those things shouldnt be legal it has to be some form of renaissance child abuse. carry some jacked purse full of stone bricks on your back for about 6 to 8 hours so i can laugh manically and twirl my mustache that looks like a fuzzy caterpillar rolled up underneath my nose and pulled some goofy motherfucking death under it.

oh man she has that elf ear thing where it looks like willy wonka stretched out her ear after she chewed some blue sap or something mid-evil like that because i have to incorporate the time frame in this "review". oh god get this she apparently has mommy AND daddy issues no surprise there. jesus fucking christ did someone rip out the average tween goth story and shit on it because thats the vibe im getting from this.

oh yeah here on the topic of shit lets talk about SAGE

her design looks like if you pulled the harry potter costume out of the shredder where all the outdated garbage goes (no harry potter fans shut up) and made it less flashy and threw some blinding blue food coloring in this already fucked potion and called it a day. her design makes her look like a humongous fucking child that still gets spoon-fed but with a goddamn ladle since her mouth was wired open when she was born. she looks like a godawful piece of shit that ikea pulled together at the last minute for their plushy designs. they have this thick miasma of cringyness here really sweeps me off my feet

i mean damn this is only the second character and im scared to push forth oh shit i gotta talk about the pink haired bottle cap character

ok ill do this later

[parismemes]

THINGS SAID IN DISCORD: NOVEMBER EDITION!

“EY TONY STOP WALKIN ALL OVER MY FEET” “hopefully this person has the gift of prophecy” “at least youre not ALSO part gemini” “apparently a lot of women just go into labor when it floods” “this mf walking into subway like im about to manipulate this unsuspecting employee into making me a sandwich” “im like a proud mother with a gun today” “im coming to your location and im going to knock everything off your shelves” “jsyk if anyone doesnt say happy birthday in here im prepared to show up on the astral plane in your location and haunt you” “im not doing anything except for having an opinion” “you guys have got to stop rectangle squaring things” “dont you know that its emo to have trauma” “hey everyone i just want to say sorry in advance for the way im going to behave tomorrow” “come to the conclusion that i shouldnt be allowed to type things. very sorry” “rotisserie chicken boy.” “i dont agree with my result im gonna find a worse quiz made by a middle schooler” “god im so good at loopholes im so smart” “WAS THIS WHAT FUCKING STARTED MY FUCKING CATBOY AND CATGIRL OBSESSION FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF” “i always feel like a pickle in a jar when ur not here :(” “hey. you know youre not allowed to get good sleep around us.” “either this man is fuck you years old or he just gets around A LOT. or both but unrelated to eachother i guess” “nice going ___ that is just the movie enchanted.” “I COULD NEVER KILL HIM hes my poor little meow meow” “formal apology everyone i was in what we like to call in the business a mood” “what if one day i wake up and i realize i still feel completely empty. what then.” “theres nothing in the ocean i will not eat” “ppl just like to get pretentious about not cracking their cheesecakes” “we're being assassinated for being correct this is political suppression“ “well thats just not true. i can think of at least one occasion youve been wrong before” “EXIT. THE PREMESIS” “___ your bf would eat raw meat. you have no room here” “i was like wait what the fuck other golf terms are birds and then i remembered. birdie” “im glad you enjoy me calling you a shit head” “overstimulated in this cheesecake factory” “we missed you so we are chewing up the couches” “one time i went to a wax museum and i tried to take a selfie with the tswift wax figure but i couldnt even fit us both in frame bc she was so tall” “if you have to resort to gamer slang to win your argument youre automatically wrong” “ill accept it because yellow and purple are basically the same thing” “i dont need to use scientific tools to prove my point i have eyes” “im not having this debate because i want to solve it im having this debate because im right“ “i think the terms of the debate were pretty clear in that it cannot be anything other than green or yellow and since its not yellow its obviously green” “i love you with all my soul but thats the worst and most incorrect thing youve ever said“ “i think everyone is qualified to judge my taste.” “rip king sorry to hear about ur tragic fate“ “this interaction for sure is ending with one or both of them getting alcohol poisoning by the end of the night” “i love watching these minecraft guys go to war. if we did minecraft id absolutely go to war with one of u.” “active decisions can still be dumb” “if that really happens thats more valuable to me than winning any lottery” “i put laundry away when the stars are properly aligned” “i just never stop thinking about it because i dont like the vibe it gives me at all even a little” “hes never done anything wrong, except for the things he did do wrong, which i forgive him for” “i could say the fuck word before too it was just not legal” “ok its definitely not square vs rectangle because then youre saying everyone with a piss kink is a vampire but not all vampires have a piss kink” “thats like saying "oh you like juice? well try this ;)" and then putting it through four water filtration systems and giving them the remains” “how dare you cater to my tastes.” “im going to crawl into a hole in the earth and bury myself” “this is a step backwards. but ill take it as a good omen anyway.“ “i can tell why critics hated it because it has every film element that a critic would not like, but luckily that happens to be exactly everything in a film that i love” “why am i in everyones dreams lately” “i dont believe in colors” “I HATE HIM SO MUCH ITS UNREAL” “(sobbing) i try not to judge appearances but why does your face look like that.” “i actually have no idea how to send things in the mail and im too embarrassed to ask“ “tone wise that feels like a dream i once had about Evil Youtube” “yeah hes hinged but like instead of being a normal door hes a funhouse door that is tilted a little too horizontally and is also randomly placed in the middle of the wall”

[agayconcept]

hey, i really hope this doesnt come off the wrong way but you need to take a step back and reprioritise your costs. the people in your doctors office are the biggest assholes in the world but you shouldnt be using money on legal fees to go after them if it means you cant afford your rent.

actually, those funds are kept completely seperate, and i'm not intending to use any of it on some stupid lawsuit. i am however going to have to pay legal fees to have a legal representative advocate for me and my rights with this doctors office. because i cannot just up and leave 'the biggest assholes' there just bc it's financially inconvenient. because this office has 4 referrals in progress for me, a disability application in the works, and have all my records - some of which have not been completed/updated yet. and they are deliberately dragging their feet on all of the above.

so if i 'just don't bother' as you're suggesting, i would have to leave and i'd lose all those referrals and have to start completely over with a new office- which the wait list for is over a year. i would also have to completely restart the 3-6 month process for my disability application- which is the main financial reason i struggle with rent costs! because i'm not on disability and need to be! because i keep being discriminated against even outside this drs office.

(on a less important note, i would also have to wait until they finish updating my records before i can even register with another dr bc they wont have any correct/up to date info on them)

hence why i HAVE to continue dealing with/through this office even though i desperately dont want to - which means i have to have advocation, support and legal knowlege- which comes from a legal rep / organization / charity (which only provide free advice, you do still have to pay them to Do Anything). it is NOT something i can do by myself. cool for you (genuinely, no sarcasm intended) if you're able to get your rights respected or have the privilege to simply say fuck it and walk away- i do not. many people do not.

i think you may have misunderstood my intentions and reality here - this is not a situation where the abuse has happened, its over and im out, and therefore it is not worth legal hassle after the fact. this is an Ongoing Situation where i am TRAPPED dealing with this until i can get what i need (records, referrals, disability application) that is legally owed to me and is my right, but is instead being witheld.

so your suggestion, going with that, would be to either abandon or put off any and all healthcare progress (and my human rights, nbd) to instead pay my rent....which is something that, worst case scenario, i cannot be evicted for immediately. there is a grace period, its in the lease. they have to give us x amount of time, or offer us the option to split the payment. they only have to provide/allow that one time, but i havent used it yet so this could be that one time if i have to. (hence my notes earlier mentioning that the new building management seeming nice so hopefully they wouldn't be fussy abt it and would give us some time - bc as ppl on the internet often forget: my mother pays half the rent. i am not totally on my own here on that at least.)

look, i get that you may have had good intentions, but don't come into a situation you don't know the details and nuances of, and tell someone what to do with their money- especially when they're using it to protect their basic human rights. i didnt ask for anyone's financial or legal advice - so idk why you felt it was wanted, needed, or necessary.

like. you dont know the whole situation, i have (obvi) not shared all the details w strangers on the internet. you cant play financial advisor to a random person whose life you don't understand. idk why ppl think they can/should, rly.

anyway, genuinely for anyone on here: if it bothers you that much that my financial situation is incredibly complicated & messy due to a myriad of reasons, and that my scraping / surviving by might not be in the exact same personal fashion you would choose yourself?

you can ignore it or unfollow me, thats all good n cool.

if that wasnt your intention, and it just came across that way, then apologies for being short, and i hope the above explanation clears up the reasoning as to why i do, in fact, need to do certain things that i'm doing.

(for future reference: anons like these will be blocked. the only reason this one wasnt was because i knew it could have been a misunderstanding. but if it isnt, and anyone decides to send stuff like this, welp, its time for my best friend the block button to come hang out)

[ashenberry]

hey i dont know why but you seem to subtly imply you dont exactly appreciate whatever the magical turnabout had to offer.

,,care indulge me in these anti 6-2 feelings

ehehe

spoilers for 6-2 and probably aa4 under da cut

this case is like a culmination of almost everything I dislike about soj But I’m gonna start with THE POSITIVES the PLUSES the PROS

•the investigation is super fun actually

•anytime we get to see the show ^-^ you go girl

•I like the twins

alright. Now that we got that out of the way

The Trucy

augh. It flattered her character to like a generic performers anxiety. I had a friend point this out to me but aa4 Trucy has a deep love and respect for professionals. it’s something unique to her! it gives her an interesting depth and in magical all she has is perfectionism and sHE SHOULDNT HAVE BEEN THE PERCIEVE TUTORIAL i DO think she should have had a breakdown given. fuckin everything but I think it should have been later I think she should of held it together a little more cause as it there is not enough buildup to give it the weight it deserves. Trucy is aa assistant archetype a she is very good at hiding her emotions I think it would have worked better either during a recess or the end of the trial but as is she cries once and is over it and. aug. For comparison at the end of the game when Apollos leaving she hardly gets a line to talk to him so it REALLY feels. artificial igues. Trucy u deserved so much better

Setup

should have mentioned set up earlier tee hee anyways it’s very clear they wanted an Apollo defending Trucy senario and like. Fair good call but I hate the way it’s done. They have Phoenix miss his daughters (who he loves very much) first televised magical show over a false alarm because if they did have Phoenix in the country no way in hell was he gonna let Apollo take the case and oops! They already gave him his job back last game so they can’t use that excuse! Honestly this doesn’t annoy me as much as it did when I was playing the case but I do think something ala monsterous would have been way more interesting with Phoenix trying to take the fall for Trucy and that becoming a whole thing

(but ashen! You say, what about ahlbi‘s trial? first of all. story contrivance it can happens whenever second of all you can have Maya take his defense without moving when it takes place and then I don’t have to watch Phoenix be cringe and blantsntly disrespect other cultures (another one of sojs major issues))

Mr Reus

this is a really blatant retcon that annoys the hell out of me because aa4 had a whole ass case about how there wasn’t another gramarye cmon guys. Easy fix just make him a syndrome type he has never actually talked to a gramarye he just thinks he’s sick and HATES Trucy for being cooler. Manov Mistree you will be missed

Really Really bad pacing

this case feels long as fuck and that’s because of two (2) reasons. First off, it’s a near perfect murder. Honestly feels like your running in place until the end i sucks to get through and aa’s most egresious example of this type of case. This is compounded by the fact that honest to god gameplay wise Nahyuta is the worst prosecutor. Unlike the trilogy prosecutors who suffer from chronic hubris or klav/Simon/Zieks who do want to discover the truth behind the crime and will help you get there, Nahyuta does fuckin nothing and feels like he doesn’t want to be there. Tells you to find the holy mother in your heart and then tries to end the trial every other line. It is a battle to get this guy to talk about the case and i Wanna say magical is where it’s the worst but I didn’t even truly finish rite of the turnabout so

Other Grevinces I can think of right now

• sojs creep quota I don’t know why it has one but this case has the cameraman

• Start of sojs building up Apollo for 6-5B and honestly. not his most impressive win for them to by hyping up

•I think these are general soj grievances oops. I think trucys face looks weird in this one compared to dd

• valant should’ve been mentioned I miss that fuck. I think he’s in jail but it’s never mentioned in the english versions of the games so I choose to believe he’s trapped in borginia

•he might’ve been mentioned honestly it’s been a year and I don’t want to revisit this case. Poor Trucy chose the weekend when everyone was out of town

•no way was that contract legally binding Trucy is not a legal adult get fucked reus

[sailorhyunjinz]

Hey Cherry.. can i make a little confession? So im 18 and im a virgin, never had a bf and never been touched before and like i do masturbate quite a lot.. but the thing is is that i never fingered myself and only tried putting a tampon in once but that failed.. point is ive never had something in me and im so scared of doing it idk what to do.. like i really wanna know how it feels and also wanna start using tampons but each time i try i just chicken out and end up on the verge of tears (wish i was joking).. any advice?

WELL FIRST OF ALL DONT CRY, WE'LL SORT THIS OUT

being a virgin and not having any dating experience at 18 is WAAAAY more common than you think. we tend to get quite caught up in what we dont have instead of what we do and so it just seems like everyone is in a relationship and fucking whenever youre single but NAH THATS FAR FROM THE TRUTH. especially at a younger age since I MEAN YOURE 18 YOU ARE BARELY LEGAL AND SO most of the things you thought you should be doing like having sex and stuff is actually more suited for people of a bit higher ages? LOOK, everyone matures in their own unique ways and some are ready to smash earlier on but theres a mental process that also goes into being in a relationship or being intimate that no one talks about and that needs some level of personal understanding of oneself in order to achieve,,, this just sounds like an essay rn BUT BEAR WITH ME

ok now for the tampons and the fingering. hmm,,, if you do want to try penetrative masturbation,,, is that even what its called,,, you just need to make sure that you are wet. like do not under any circumstance try to shove your fingers or anything else for that matter up your coochie without being lubricated or wet enough. it shouldnt hurt an excessive amount and,,, i mean this is different for everyone tho depending on how tight you are but try to loosen but a bit by a) being lubricated b) being comfortable, i would say that like,,, a middle finger,,, should,, be able to fit without any pain AND IM SAYING PAIN, you will feel a bit uncomfortable at first cause lmao at first i was like "w-h-how is this even,,, gonna,, make me cum?" and you wont have any massive orgasm,,, IF YOU EVEN ORGASM AT ALL,,, most people with vaginas cant orgasm vaginally, like the vast majority of vaginas cant,,, OR MAYBE NOT WITH FINGERS,, some can orgasm vaginally but with either a toy or a partner cause sexual experiences and preferences are so so so different from person to person.

as for the tampons,,, LIKE WHY DO YOU EVEN WANT TO START USING TAMPONS? is it cause you genuinely feel like it would be a more comfortable option for you and your lifestyle idk either you sport a lot or just hate the feeling of a wet pad or is it because of this whole "i need to prepare myself for when i lose my virginity" bullshit cause trust me,,, tampons do not prepare you for a dick. THOSE ARE TWO DIFFERENT FEELINGS MY BOO. im no expert in tampons,,, i barely use them myself cause idk,,, they uncomfortable (in my humble opinion) but im sure you can like lubricate the edges of it? but make sure that you apply a TIIIINY bit on the tip and thats its water soluble,,, u dont wan vaseline or anything giving you a nasty vaginal infection so,,, just reevaluate why you are taking the desicions you are taking? im sound very deep rn and this is already too long but why are you doing or thinking the way you do? is it curiosity? is it a will? or is it a society that has shaped your thoughs for you based on biases and expectations~?

[gyufilms]

love, victor character ranking

worst to best

13. armando

- literally fuck him i hate him so much

- i hate how he talks to isabella, he puts all of the blame on her AND is homophobic? damn sir, pick a struggle

12. derek

- the only reason he’s mean to benji is bc he knows there’s an equal power balance in their relationship. like, sure he may be older but benji is 100x more attractive than him so the only way he can make himself feel superior is by making benji feel bad

- derek would definitely tell black people that juneteenth shouldnt be a holiday because we already have a month

- he’s ugly

11. lake’s mom (whatever the fuck her name is) and isabella

- they both suck

- i literally want to strangle lake’s mom bc those! aren’t! things! you say to your daughter!

- also isabella needs to learn how look after her kids and stop relying on victor to be the third parent like fuck her

10. mia’s dad

- HOW ARE U NOT GONNA TELL UR DAUGHTER UR ENGAGED OR UR HAVING A BABY WHEN UR FIANCE IS 3 MONTHS PREGNANT FUCK U

- it’s interesting how mia’s mom left bc she didn’t want a kid, but mia’s dad did and when he tells mia they didnt plan for a kid, he puts his hand on veronica’s knee. hmm

9. veronica

- i dont hate her

- but like, if mia doesnt want to try and have a relationship with you, leave her alone

- stop trying to force it

8. felix

- i love him, right?

- he just says some really weird shit sometimes and it rubs me the wrong way

- mainly his ‘warning’ to victor about benji being gay. like why say that?? i dont understand

- does it make sense in that episode when victor refuses benji’s help because people are wolf whistling? yes it does. but it’s never brought up again and i feel like it should be??

- i hate that his backstory revolves around lake, but whatever

- he deserves better

7. lake

- drop the blog ma

- that’s it

- i literally love her so much and she deserves better

6. benji

- why’d you kiss victor😐

- you know what you could have done? “hey, vic, i broke up with derek bc he makes me feel bad and he’s ugly, but you’re neither of those and i like you, but i’ll wait until you figure your stuff out with mia!”

- like, that’s not hard

- but also i wanna protect you with like everyhing i have i love you

5. adrian

- the most unproblematic and under rated salazar

- king deserves more attention

- AND HE’S A MAGACIAN

- i’d lay down my life for you sir

(now the top 4 isn’t necessarily a top 4, more like 4 characters at the number one spot bc they are the best)

1.d) victor

- best boy i love him so much!!

- i wanna protect him

- but again, the cheating storyline. i can look past the first time but he did it TWICE!! he also ditched mia to sleep with benji!

- they need to address the fact that he’s essentially the third parent in s2 bc the show made it seem like it was a commendable thing when it’s not. he’s 16

- my baby deserves a break

1.c) mia

- if you dont like mia that is something you need to sort out between you and yourself like why do you hate black women so much?

- name one thing she’s ever done wrong? that’s right, you can’t

- perfection uwu angel

- and i dont want to see anybody try and say she’s homophobic. no honey, she just caught her boyfriend cheating on her

- if you caught your s/o cheating, you’d be upset regardless of who it was with

- no mia brooks slander will be tolerated in this house

1.b) andrew

- KING I LOVE HIM

- andrew can do no wrong in my eyes

- did he make a gofund me for victor to get basketball money? yes, but it’s not like it’s his fault victor’s poor😗

- (uhm, for legal reasons that was a joke)

- i dont understand why you wouldnt like him

- i’d say im an andrew spencer apologist, but he has nothing to apologise for😌

1. pilar

- literally leave right now if you think im wrong

- like, evaporate

- i love her so much!!

- i wanna give her a hug🥺

- she is the best character and i take no criticism bye

[enbypanposi]

hey genuine question but whats the difference between bi and pan? so sorry if this sounds rude but im just curious

Alright so im gonna use this ask to soapbox a little. Your question is not bad and is in fact a common one so no shame but I just have some Thoughts on this.

Hot take, but: There is no functional difference that matters among any mspec identity. Hear me out:

I see loads of posts trying to find a difference, and they ultimately become very granular and honestly thats not how orientation usually works. Its an instinct and and impulse and we dont control it. There a whole lot of “bi means 2 or more and pan means all with no preference and omni means all with preference” and etc for every mspec identity but thats not accurate. Pan people have preferences, omni people might not, and there are definite flaws with the ‘two or more’ definition of bi that bi blogs have pointed out better than I ever could. When we get more and more specific with identity that way we exclude people who dont fit the definition because we make it retroactively narrower. “Pan means x and y but not z” leads to “therefore all mspec people who are x and y must be pan no matter what label they use” and “therefore pan people who are z must use a different label.” Thats not right. Labels arent just words whose definitions we fit, their words we CHOOSE to describe us. Definitions dont pick peoples labels, people pick peoples labels. So I think when we ask this ‘whats the difference’ question we mean well but ultimately reinforce gatekeeping identity. ‘Whats the difference’ is kind of meaningless because sexuality is individual and everyone has different experiences with it and how they define themself, which may not be exactly 10000% in line with their chosen label. A bi and pan person may both describe their sexuality the same way, but that doesnt mean that they ARE the same, and plenty other bi and pan people will describe it in different ways. Sexuality isnt rigidly defined and in fact cant be. It may make it easier to think about when we invent these rigid definitions but ultimately thats not a good thing and will just make people more confused about themselves. Not everyone is able to parse out and differentiate x and y and z in their sexuality. Plenty of people dont want to. They shouldnt be barred from these labels and these labels shouldnt be made to bar people.

Now, that doesnt mean they should all be collapsed into one label, it means that this ‘whats the difference’ question is irrelevant and ultimately made to create restrictions. These restriction shouldnt exist. Labels are and should remain flexible terms we choose to apply to ourself. They should not be forced on us because we fit that definition ‘better’ than another, thats just weaponizing definitions. And honestly? I do see people do this quite a bit and its not right. Bi people will say they use that label because theyre capable of being attracted to anyone and people will tell them they should be using pan instead then. Thats not right. This happens not just to bi people but to all mspec people, and I want to make it extra clear that thats the exact kind of nonsense that happens when we insist that these things are rigid and inflexible and that the only reason we use labels is because we fit the definitions. Not true. Personal choice and attachment plays a huge role, and no one can or should force another to adopt a certain term. So, the idea that they have to be monumentally, quantifiably different and distinct only really plays into this idea. Are there distinctions? Yes. Are there reasons a person might choose one over the other? Yes. But BOTH of those things are ultimately person to person, not innate truths of the words themselves. The words are just loose ways to be mspec, and individual people will be mspec in their own way which is as varied as people can be, ie: infinite.

Again I dont think this means that its all one label or should be collapsed into one. I think no matter how you try to do that youre going to be elevating one mspec identity while insisting the others are inferior to it. The Bi+ Umbrella is just one example--no shade to people or organizations who choose to use it. I understand how its important from a legal standpoint to say ‘all mspec people fall under the B in LGBT+’ because otherwise there are no protections for us mspec folk who are not bi--I think it gets a bad rep from folks who dont get this and I think theres definitely BETTER ways to do it, but, sure, it exists for a reason which deserves to be acknowledged. What it does, however inadvertently, is imply that Bi is the pinnacle of being mspec and all the umbrella identities are less. Youll see a lot that Bi is a macro identity and that Pan, Ply, Omni are each microlabels because ‘they all fit the definition of bi’ but in truth each fits the definition of each other anyway. You could easily say that Omni is a macro identity and Bi Pan and Ply are microlabels because they each fit the definition of omni and youd be right. Its not a useful way to describe labels no matter which way you slice it. Theyre equals and the distinctions are as varied as the people who use them. Its one grand community of mspec people all using the same words in different ways and that should be celebrated! When we focus in on differences we just separate from each other and exclude and nitpick the words we use for ourselves and each other. It prevents us from forming solidarity as people who all face the same oppression and the same joy.

TLDR?: Theres not really any kind of distinction that matters since sexuality is different to different people. Its better to leave labels vague and flexible because thats how theyre used and doing the opposite reinforces gatekeeping and other negative ways to view being mspec. The differences arent identity based theyre person based and rooted in experience and not the literal definitions of words. Forming solidarity is much more important than picking out the minor ways we are different.

[tartagliaxx]

hiii lei :3 how are you? do you feel better from your hangover? i'm not doing as bad as i thought i would after sleeping for like 3 hours probably because i had relied on snacks but i did end up taking a break and took a nap i'm glad i feel okay but i looked in the mirror and yeesh my eyebags look bad

also i don't know if it's just me but something about diluc's model feels off like he looks good in the manga and that kfc collab i can't help but think he's kinda ugly and it doesn't help that i think he has the ugliest outfit too maybe i am committing diluc slander but maybe diluc should try to look less like a 30 year old that uses 3 in 1 shampoo/j don't you think he feels kinda off? it can't just be me can it? 😩 but if you don't think that who do you think is the ugliest or has the ugliest outfit? and who has the prettiest outfit to you? for me it's xiao and ningguang most of the characters have beautiful outfits but they stand out more because of their fighting style they both have flowy outfits and i know xiao jumps high so players like to use plunge attacks so his extra layers look elegant in motion and when ningguang attacks she spins making the slits in her dress look prettier diluc's jacket looks heavy on him i think its supposed to referance the burden of his dad's death and how he's covered from neck down is i think showing how guarded and unvulnarable he is i'm prob reading to much into it and i'm hoping he doesn't come home cause i'm near pity in the standard banner and really want keqing- 🍰

yea it faded off after i ate lunch yesterday and now it’s officially gone.

sometimes you feel ok but you’re not actually ok? idk but that happened to me once. i was functioning normally but i felt like i shouldnt so i laid down and slept for a while and when i woke up, i felt different. like the ‘normal’ was ‘natural’. anw get some breaks and rest in you!!

LMFAO the diluc slander i cant— i laughed so hard at the shampoo bit that it shouldn’t be legal. i want to defend him as a diluc main but hey, im not a liar yknow? i think it’s bc in-game model diluc’s hair is so rigid and flat? so like he’s robbed of a lot of character and charm. his face is also in a perpetual -_- and it’s a little unnerving. idk if you’ve seen it but the high pony tail and fluffy hair edits of diluc just *chef’s kiss* perfection.

uhhhh i wouldn’t say it’s ugly but i don’t rlly vibe w lisa’s outfit. i agree tho. xiao and ning’s designs are top-tier. i specifically love running around as ning and watching her pretty hair and clothes do those waves. special mention to zhongli tho. i really love how his hair moves and his color scheme and everything about him. he looks very sophisticated. love that diluc analysis tho. i see it very well.

i’m at 47 pulls in standard banner and i also want to get keqing as my five star. here’s to hoping we both get her when the time the shimmering gold comes out.