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Whenever catastrophic weather happens in Tennessee (like right now with tornadoes) I remember and think about the girl who was my best friend from first to seventh grades, who then abandoned me in eight grade and then we had an awkwardly cordial friendship in high school, but the only reason I ever knew her mother died was because I saw her obit in the paper. But our last interaction was when she messaged me out of the blue when we were adults and I went off on her for the way she treated me and told her never to message me again. Which was more than valid imo, because childhood hurt and loneliness and the consequences thereof don't magically evaporate when you become an adult. But I know from having looked at her fb when she messaged me that she has a kid and lives in Tennessee now, presumably to be close to her father. I don't know what town she's in, so I have to resist the urge to look her up when things like this happen. I hate associating with people from my past because my childhood was full of things I'd rather forget or at least move on from, but I guess after eight years of friendship starting from kindergarten and of best friendship for seven years after that, I can't help but be occasionally sentimental despite how it all eventually ended
#what's that one saying/poem/whatever I don't remember that went you never realize it's over until you look at the photos#I don't have any surviving photos of us in my possession but the sentimentality lingers#I remember in eighth grade I cut myself out of a photo of my friend group from the fourth grade and then drowned in bath salt water#until my image was completely wrecked then tore it into pieces even more#in a pique of self loathing because everyone had either flat out abandoned me or otherwise drifted away#leaving me alone for years#tbh honest her contacting me wasn't out of the blue#at the time I was fb friends with my old teacher from that era because she had been my favorite and we had a mutual friend anyway#but one night I had a nightmare where my ex friend was hurt and freaked out I asked my former teacher if she knew if my ex friend was O.K.#and then apparently that former teacher messaged ex friend to say I was reaching out to her. Which I was decidedly not#I ended up blocking former teacher after that I was so mad
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what if thistle had confronted senshi before the story started?
#thistle#thistle dungeon meshi#senshi#dungeon meshi#thistle knowing senshi had been living in the dungeon for years haunts me#this intruder is staying out of my business so ill just leave him alone.#my art
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everyone sh. shutd up im cooking smthn
#genshin impact#venti#what am i cooking?? no idea#oh this isnt canon? dont care leave me alone#i remember thinking years ago how badass it would be to have to fight all the archons in reverse order once u get to celestia#like. not that they want to. but celestia or the heavenly principles control them not thru the gnosis but thru their thrones#dont. dont think about it too much i do NOT have enough brains to keep up with accurate lore details#i just want to see venti having lied about being the 'weakest' archon. that bitch has a fucking church theres no way. also gap moe is hhh#fitting to have your first major ally end up being a final-ish boss fight#zilly art
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It's the fact that so far Armand is the most inhuman monstrous vampire still walking the earth that we as readers have met. And yet we see him fall hopelessly in love with the most ordinary human man.
#yes im drunk postng leave me alone#armandaniel#devil's minion#armand#daniel molloy#ig ore how much of a weird freak daniel is and appreciate how armand is essentially reconnectinf with his humanity in this moment#iwtv#i love you queen of the damned#yeah sure its a short chapter but the impact has been felt for over 30 fucking years#i love you armand and daniel i fear i will carry you with me for all of my days#amc iwtv#interview with the vampire#the vampire armand
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[comments on my art] "i can tell you read homestuck" "did you watch a lot of steven universe" "this reminds me of south park" SHUT UP IDIOTS the only true comparison is The Beast from Maggie and the Ferocious Beast
#tell me you can see it#now leave me alone#asdgfdaddsjgskhf#it looks like a creature i would have made up if i was 5 years old and had today me's art style#which is not too far off from truth
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Yamask Ingo in sinnoh chilling doing pokemon stuff idk eating a berry
[That moment when little]
#submas#ingo dying amnestic then having his life pass before his eyes: oh shit i have so much unfinished buissnes#yamask is not native in sinnoh so imagine being the only new little guy there LEAVE ME ALONE#submask au#major character death#theres so many diffrent ghost ingos i love it its funny#i can never decide if emmet should have a beard or not. here its been 2-4 years maybe since ingo gone?
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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I'm sorry but the irony of Nico calling Max unprofessional is sending me so bad like sir there's an entire garage full of people, who were literally in the trenches trying to survive the Brocedes fallout while just doing their jobs, who might have a few things to say about your (& Lewis') level of professionalism at that time 😭✋️
#f1#formula 1#formula one#max verstappen#nico rosberg#lewis hamilton#brocedes#like niki lauda had to try multiple times to literally parent trap them to try and get them on speaking terms it never worked#because one would arrive they'd see the other and the other would leave#& if i remember correctly the garage crew would swap around from race to race as a like see we aren't favouring anybody gesture 😭#and thats no shade to nico because it was both of them contributing to that environment#his comment re max is just making me laugh#like if i was a part of the pr/media team - which is a part of the degree I'm working on irl - at merc that year i would've lost the plot#like its insane reflecting on it nearly a decade later but the poor souls just trying to do their job in the eye of that storm#truly gods strongest soldiers#ngl the professional comment irks me a bit because its not like max is engaging in inappropriate work place behaviour#he's engaging in another aspect of racing that his involvement raises awareness of & that makes racing more accessible#& we all know how inaccessible not only getting into racing is but also to continue to pursue the further along you go#theres so many stories of 1 sibling giving up racing so the other can keep going because the family can't afford for them both to race#its a huge financial strain & we only see a handful of drivers talk about that & try to do something to change it#and nicos fellow sky sports commentators are routinely unprofessional on so many levels#additionally max had a lot of valid reasons to be annoyed at his team today#but alas he's not english so he's ungrateful#i hate that drivers can't criticise their teams or car without immediately being branded as bratty & ungrateful#ESPECIALLY WHEN THEIR JOB IS TO GIVE FEEDBACK#you can see the double standards from sky when say Lando or George have complaints with their team/car v the likes of Max and Yuki#especially Yuki my god the things i would do to get the British media to leave him alone#this was a jokey post at one point and then became a rant whoops lmao#I'll leave it that before i write an actual essay here 😭✋️
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gwen and murderface: the reboot
#bit over a year since the first gwen and murderface#gwen stacy#spiderverse#my art#spider gwen#atsv#across the spiderverse#ghost spider#no i dont think gwen would wear adidas shorts but i had to take a reference pic and thats what i had on.#so leave me alone
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(Just attack!)
#when her eyes do the Change symbol thing. peak#isat#in stars and time#i freaking love her sooooooaur much her and siffrin my sweeties#mirabelle chevalier#rhe most kickass surname in the world btw i wonder if she chose it#mirabelle isat#isat mirabelle#WHICH TAG IS IT. CMON GUYS.#drawing in monochrome is kind of fun. ill be back with more prsk art later combo of artfight + zines is beating me up#as well as In Stars And Autism#idfk about the pose i just wanted to draw her being cool ok IDK ANATOMY LEAVE ME ALONE ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ (HAS BEEN DRAWING FOR A BILLION YEARS)
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Palestinian freedom fighters breaking out of Gaza and reclaiming their occupied territories. They’ve taken over israeli tanks and have chased out the settlers that were on that land. They’ve launched rockets everywhere and the iron dome has failed to intercept. This is about to mark a momentous event in history.
From the river to the sea, Palestine will be free.
#free palestine#it feels so surreal and so shocking#there’s so much hope but so much fear#you just know they’re about to retaliate with the genocide they’ve been planning for years now#i fear for my palestinian brothers and sisters but this is so fucking huge#they tore down part of the barbed wire fence!!!! the people of Gaza are breaking out!!!!#god there’s so much more on twitter but i beg if you look do NOT look at non-palestinian sources#they’re twisting the narrative as if this isn’t retaliation for 76 years of torture#as if the israeli forces and settlers didn’t kill 4 palestinians yesterday alone#as if they haven’t killed nearly 300 palestinians this year alone#do NOT let the media trick you into thinking anything after will be a retaliation to an attack Palestine started#PALESTINE is the one retaliating#also if you’re gonna come in here with both sides or whatever sincerely block me and lmk so i can blokc you#they’ve already out out statements to leave children and the elderly alone so any middle aged fuckers are free to kill :)#which is fine since they’ve likely killed hundreds if not thousands of their friends and family and neighbors anyway#tag: important#fuck israel#gaza#tag: october 7 2023
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go white boy go
#friday night funkin#fnf#fnf pico#pico fnf#friday night funkin pico#moon art#friday night funkin'#fnf fanart#pico's school#picos school#pico newgrounds#nene pico's school#darnell pico's school#fnf nene#fnf darnell#fnf boyfriend#fnf girlfriend#boyfriend fnf#girlfriend fnf#cassandra pico's school#cassandra fnf#daddy dearest#fnf daddy dearest#tankman#tankmen captain#weekends being confirmed to be all pico's side story made me happy actually. imagine wanting to see other ng characters couldnt be me /lh#why are john and cassandra here? uhh cass was confirmed years ago + imagine NOT having the mascots sing together smh#(i know ugh pico version was also leaked ages ago leave me alone)#cw guns#cw knives
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Trick or treat!!!!!!!
happy ween
#this is my halloween art. enjoy#i am sitting inside and playing minecraft leave me alone#( we got a lot of trick or treaters this year it was nice)#ask#yuno#gun#halloween
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Do you think even though Cody hates the burning suns of Tatoonie, he's grateful for them because as Obi-Wan seems to age faster than he had during the war, Cody feels like they are getting to grow old together? Even though they never will?
#sometimes Cody forgets he's aging twice as fast#and he's grateful when he does#because he doesn't think about leaving Obi-Wan alone#he doesn't fear his lover will be alone for decades after his death#because just for a second#they're given the same amount of years#and they'll die in each other's arms#even though they won't#codywan#commander cody#obiwan kenobi#someone sedate me
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Snap: *draws a Megaman-inspired Magneto*
Me: ...Perfect modernization.
wait now that its not 3AM i can do you one Slightly better
bonus:
#xmen#xmen comics#magneto#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#snap sketches#this is legitimately the most self indulgent thing ever ive been wanting to draw magneto like a robot master for months vjAELKJAE#i thought about adding the little 'ears' robot masters/reploids have but not this time#whats funny is that during my initial redesigning i WANTED to pay homage to erik's trench coat look buuuutt i couldnt figure how#so thank you sigma for. letting me steal your shit vjELKAEJ#i havent drawn megaman characters in like. years good lord- whats funny is that magnetman Was one of my faves to draw#which doesnt mean much since i loved drawing pretty much all the robot masters equally LMAOOO#i remember some freak got pressed at me for doodling metalman during class once like dawg what is your problem#bruv leave me ALONE let me draw you are not my mom#anyway. as i said last night i dont have my usual evening class so i figured id fill the time doodlin these#they didnt take long- i think thats why i like drawing This magneto outfit so much#reminds me of my megaman doodlin days ... also it's genuinely just quick as hell WHICH. makes sense#all that done im done megaman-inspired posting thank you for the opportunity anon im glad you appreciated it :]]#im gonna go eat now my tummy rumblin. theeeeeeen i guess ill drive home ???? i guess.#it's almost saturday so that means i get to post more asks- ive been hoarding them throughout the week#so i apologize if some people have been waitin i PROMISE i havent been ignoring i just wanna draw somethin for it </3#ok im eating now BYYYYYYEEE
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Never forget this kiss was unscripted.
#jay halstead#hailey upton#upstead#chicago pd#upstead forever#TO ME#or maybe it was#whatever#it’s been two years and I’m sad as fuck#leave me alone
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