#last time i missed an A in math by 1/2 marks and i don't want the same thing to happen this time 😔😔

[stemacademics]

small update

ok so um I got my number theory paper today, and the TA had cut marks for me because i left the answer at 66^2 and not 4356 (fermat's little theorem) 😔 I even wrote the full proof

my friend told me I should mail the TA about this, I got 14/20 and should be getting 17or18/20 😔

scores aside, number theory is so much fun, so much fun. the only good thing here is that I know the concepts well, and I fully knew the paper (still fucked it up, because I'm so frickin slow while writing and time). and it hurts worse because there's not enough proof that validates my knowledge. which in turn makes me question if i actually do have any.

I am, in general, a person who does well in concepts but screws up the exams (70% of the time) and I'm trying, I'm trying to get myself out of this "exam paniK" that I often spiral into, just minutes before the exam. I hope I change and grow; I hope, I hope.

[cityandking]

photo album, mixtape, psyche, shooting star for minah, vesper, & caes!

tyyyyy!! // oc ask meme

photo album: describe one of your OCs’ favorite memories.

MINAH — answered! VESPER — sitting in solas' study talking about some semi-obscure magical theory and being delighted by the way solas approached it from his (assumed) hedgemage perspective and how that reframing added something she'd missed in her circle education. dorian, overhearing them, had leaned over the banister from the library above and was so insistent on getting in on the discussion that he was halfway through a lecture before solas asked if perhaps he'd care to join them for tea and scones, or if he was too loathe to abandon his pulpit. they'd been at it so late that leliana had dinner sent over, and vesper had just been satisfied and thrilled and grateful, which were novel and delightful things to feel in the middle of the war and the chaos. CAES — also answered!

mixtape: 5 songs that describe your OC(s) or songs they themselves would like.

MINAH — 1. bad blood - bastille (all this bad blood here / won't you let it dry? / it's been cold for years / won't you let it lie?) 2. part of me - noah kahan (even through the pain, I can't recall your face / just the ache of knowing everything was gonna change / I got so close to love with you, my dear / but I don't miss you / I miss the way you made me feel) 3. final girl - chvrches (telling all the tales took time that I just do not have / sifting further through the wreckage, I think you just have to laugh) 4. you can run - adam jones (truth gonna come out, someday / it's gonna wipe that smile right off your face) 5. liar - the arcadian wild (my life’s become this grand game of deception / my mind’s ignored all my heart’s good intentions) VESPER — 1. dear doubt - michael schulte (dear doubt, you wore out a path to my door / and it's needless to say that there's no way that I want you here) 2. make them gold - chvrches (we are made up of our longest days / we are falling but not alone / we will take the best parts of ourselves / and make them gold) 3. son - sleeping at last (so I will try, try, try to breathe / 'til it turns to muscle memory / I'm only steady on my knees / but one day, I'll stand on my own two feet) 4. woodblock - joe gil (I don't have to take my burdens home / I don't have to do this on my own) 5. be yourself - harrison storm (take on the colors on / and fire fight the winter storms) CAES — 1. everybody wants to rule the world - tears for fears (all for freedom and for pleasure / nothing ever lasts forever / everybody wants to rule the world) 2. forces of the unseen - cloud cult (I'm gonna make it through, you'll see / I swear I'll prove you wrong / you haven't seen the last of me / I am way too strong) 3. culling of the fold - the decemberists (listen up boy / and listen up girl / it's a shallow little trench / and it's giving off a stench / it's a shallow little world) 4. heat stroke - black math (you're breathin' hard but I still got a hundred miles / untouchable I live for this / I breathe for this / I bleed for this) 5. my songs know what you did in the dark - fall out boy (be careful making wishes in the dark / can't be sure when they've hit their mark / and besides in the mean-meantime I'm just dreaming of tearing you apart)

psyche: what’s their head space like? do they have any mental illnesses? how do they process difficult or emotional situations? what are their coping mechanisms?

MINAH — it... could be worse? like it's not great up there but she's perfectly functional. she just ignores some stuff (or obsesses over it too much, or swings wildly between the two). processing emotions is not really part of her skill set, so most of her coping mechanisms are rooted in avoidance, distraction, and deflection all piled together into a wobbly card tower of maladaptive techniques. but honestly, she's fine. VESPER — her headspace is mostly just bleak. kind of a constant churn of what-if and not-again. she's definitely got a bit of an undiagnosed anxiety thing going on, but she copes with it pretty well all things considered. her emotional processing works overtime to keep up with how much thinking she does all the damn time, and her coping mechanisms tend to be Working Even More. one of the upsides of the inquisition is that she finally gets a proper support network. CAES — pristine. you've never met anyone better at compartmentalizing. he's a horrible little man who doesn't know how to let go of a grudge but he will have it sorted by date, location, responsible parties, and weather at the time. I'm not sure he "processes" his emotions but he sure does Do Something About Them (exact revenge, be petty, plot people's downfalls, etc.)

shooting star: if your OC(s) could have one wish what would it be?

MINAH — she doesn't know. she's so torn about what she wants most that it would be almost impossible for her to choose just one thing to wish for. maybe to go back and do it all over again. maybe just to have all the facts, so at least she'd know what went wrong. VESPER — part of her would feel obligated to wish for things for other people—a stop to the fighting, peace in southern thedas, that sort of thing. I think probably in actually she'd wish for happiness, or the chance to talk to solas again—to try to change his mind, or just to understand why he's so determined to continue down this path. CAES — power, probably. the sort of power you can dangle over people's heads; the sort of power that works quiet and in secret and bends the world to your will. it's why he wanted so badly to join the magisterium—it may be cutthroat and bloody and twisted, but it's also the center of everything and a great place to be to get shit done.

[soraarchives]

this is a rant. it's personal. now i feel so let down i am clinging to any sort of outlet to let go of shit.

i lost my grandma around 2 months ago. i had my final exams during that time. not only that i got to know she's no more on the very day when i had my maths 2 exam. i left for college by 10 am even when my exam was from 2 pm. i was supposed to make up for maths 1 paper in maths 2. i have been in an academic slump for a long while. i've just been pushing myself through and i ended up failing a few of my exams because of this. i had back papers along with my final sem exam and the schedule was too hectic. i had an exam each day for three consecutive days.

while my grandma passed away none of my cousins with whom i have really good relationships show up on any of the three fucking days of the rituals while it was also a weekend so they couldn't even make up job excuses. and after a few days when i was sad for losing a family member and having a shitty exam season one of my three cousins (we four are very close to each other in age) made an insensitive comment about me feeling low and negative.

these exams were important to me because based on this i could take up admissions in college for masters. i had a college which i desperately wanted to get into and i almost missed it's deadline because it clashed with the passing away of my grandma. i got lucky enough for it's deadline to be extended and had an interview around mid june and i got sick with gut infection on the exact same day which affected me being able to answer in the interview. it was too late by the time i figured out that something's wrong with my health. i just thought it's becuase i'm sleep deprived and i'll be fine,

so now i have not only not made it to my dream college but also failed my last semester. i had to come back to my hometown while i was away from it trying to have a reset. the margin of me failing my subjects wasn't much. i needed around 5-6 marks for physics and 3 marks for maths. i went to college today to fill out the re-evaluation forms and now when i'm back at home at 6 pm the college calls me to tell that i can give only one subject (or two papers in total) for rechecking and that they have already submitted my physics re-evaluation form so i'll have to cancel the maths one. which is so sad because me having maths re-evaluted was a greater chance at me passing it and not having to appear in the exams. studying for physics is way easier than reappearing for maths. and ifi don't pass in physics now i'll have to reappear for both maths and physics anyway.

while i was in another city i kept telling my family i'm just going through a tough period where nothing is working out for me. people who cheated in exams and were caught passed them while otherwise you have zero chances of it. and i though to myself it couldn't get any worse than this as a reminder to take it easy in life. now it just feels like life is so bitchy

[racingliners]

F1 Re-Watch 2013: Round 13 - Singapore

So I've been taking my sweet time in carrying on with my 2013 watch through bc a) following the 2023 season is eventful and b) I wanted to ensure I would have the proper time to watching Singapore in full because, for anyone who's new here, it is one of my absolute favourite races and on top of that it's a Seb win at Singapore so this race needed my undivided attention.

(also the race replay is two and a half hours)

I did watch this race at the time, and apart from Seb being iconic we also have the now-famous Webber-Alonso taxi ride, and my only other memory is Jev crashing out which 😭

fair warning I may go off about how pretty the track is, like, a lot:

Getting slightly triggered about Crofty talking about humidity after watching Qatar 2023, but we move on

*deep inhale* Singapore preeeeeeeeeetty 😍

So, starting grid overview!: Seb pole (🥰), Rosberg P2, Grosjean P3, Lewis P5, Fernando P7, Jenson P8, Dan P9, and Jev 12

Man, seeing Perez down in 14th knowing he won the race last year is quite the F1 whiplash.

Super Soft and Mediums are the tyre compounds for this race, and all but one driver (Sutil) are starting on the super softs.

oh. my. god. Seb's v sparkly helmet. I ADORE it.

[Formation Lap]: Aaaaaand cue the mad dash of mechanics and engineers running back to the garages.

"Let's go lesbians let's go!"

(am I talking about the mechanics, or the drivers on the formation lap, who's to say?)

(plot twist it's both)

oooh infrared camera on the tyres, love that

Seb's championship lead was over 50 points at this point in the season, please inject it into my veins at the earliest opportunity

[Start/Lap 1]: Rosberg leads into turn 1!!!

but he goes wide and Seb retakes P1

Also Fernando's up into P3, man's had speedy af starts since the dawn of time

[Lap 2]: whew the gap between Seb and Nico is already 1.9 seconds

argh Lewis has to give a place back to Massa for going wide, he's now P7

"Sebastian Vettel half a second quicker on this lap" THAT'S THE LION OF SINGAPORE BABY!!!

Lewis is running a non-yellow helmet but the camera isn't focusing on him for long enough for me to be able to tell what colour it is. It looks kinda pretty though.

(Stay tuned for more thrilling Helmet Watch updates)

[Lap 3]: oof Dan's down to P14 after starting P9

Current top 5 is: Seb, Rosberg, Alonso, Webber and Grosjean

With Seb having a 4.6 second gap over P2. 🏃‍♂️💨

Remember when they briefly called sprint race winners Speed Kings? That's Seb rn.

Gosh I will never ever tyre of watching the cars drive round Singapore, I really do love the track layout.

Every street circuit apart from Monaco wishes they were the Marina Bay Street Circuit.

Anyway, start replay! You can see Dan get bogged down, hence the drop in track position. Also Nico's start was pretty aggressive, had he not ran out of track he'd probably still be leading

oh, Lewis did the same thing to Massa as he did at Singapore this year 😭 (still love you mate don't worry)

[Lap 5]: "Remember there are safety cars out there, save your tyres" You can hear the mild passive aggressive 'Seb slow tf down' in Rocky's voice dvbjdfbj

He's 6.4 seconds ahead of Rosberg

[Lap 6]: Not much overtaking going on rn has to be said

[Lap 7]: Gosh I miss it when the cars had glossy liveries, they look so shiny under the floodlights

This is mainly why I have beef with matte liveries ngl

[Lap 8]: "Alonso P3 is holding the pack up" Singapore 2013 🤝 Monaco 2022: Bono calling out Fernando for on-track nonsense

I assume this is all to do with track gaps and pit windows and all those things I don't currently have the brain to do maths for

Oh I'd forgotten all about Seb and Mark's gearbox issues from Monza, they both have the same gearboxes in their cars rn

(I don't think we had any gearbox issues this race, but my memory of 10 years ago is obviously patchy)

[Lap 9]: Anyway, no change in grid order. The track is still pretty.

And a David Beckham sighing in the Merc garage!

[Lap 10]: Gap between Seb and Nico now just over 7 seconds

[Lap 11]: And Raikkonen is the fist car to pit, he takes another set of super softs

Comms and Ted speculating that with the tyre wear the drivers are reporting it's looking like a 3-stop race

[Lap 12]: An Alonso fastest lap, while Gutierrez and Jev pit

oof, replay of Lewis having a lock-up while chasing Massa

[Lap 13]: Rosberg with a 3.4 second gap over Alonso

[Lap 14]: Webber pits for mediums, Massa did the same a lap earlier

Jenson also pitted.

[Lap 15]: And in comes Alonso, also for mediums.

And Nico being called in to cover him almost immediately

Suddenly, Tom Jones

Anyway, traffic wise Alonso came out behind Di Resta, who's doing a great job at holding him up

[Lap 16]: and in pits Rosberg for mediums.

Merc with the double stack, Lewis has also pitted.

Top 5 currently: Seb*, Rosberg, Di Resta*, Fernando and Webber. Interestingly with Alonso being unable to pass Di Resta his gap to Mark is now only 1.2 seconds. (* = still to stop)

and cut to Maldonado v Perez v Hulkenberg for 11th

✨midfield spice✨

[Lap 17]: Seb with a 30 plus second gap over Rosberg, so he should retain the lead when he pits at the end of the lap

and he also takes on a set of mediums, and keeps the lead of the race

[Lap 18]: Di Resta remains the only car on track left to pit, Alonso still can't get past him

[Lap 19]: Seb is still doing Seb things, 8 second gap ahead of Rosberg

[Lap 20]: Make that 8.5

And Alonso is *still* behind Di Resta,

"These tyres feel terrible" "Message understood" The predecessor to "Bono my tyres are gone?" or are they genuinely shit? Lewis this is why I have trust issues

Helmet watch: finally a slow mo shot of Lewis, his helmet looks like it's all over silver which I love!!

(I absolutely will try and find pictures for my post-re-watch blogging later)

also also hi Merc pit wall!

[Lap 21]: After 84 years, Di Resta pits for his first stop

The top 10 is now: Seb, Rosberg, Alonso, Webber, Grosjean, Lewis, Di Resta, Massa, Jenson and Raikkonen

[Lap 22]: I don't know about you, but I'm feeling twenty-two...

(sorry, I had to)

[Lap 23]: Still not much racing going on

But Grosjean just set a purple first sector 👀

"We've seen a lot less driver errors this year" I fear an incoming commentator's curse now

[Lap 24]: And cut to Tom Jones sat with the Lotus mechanics

and in racing news, there's just over 4 seconds covering 3rd-6th place

And a Toto sighting in the Merc garage!

[Lap 25]: There's Dan in the wall at turn 13 😭

He's absolutely fine, the front end is ever so slightly dented as he was braking for the corner.

But there's are Safety Car

(also silly me for getting my Toro Rosso's confused)

[Lap 26]: and in come a whole bunch of cars to pit under the SC, though Seb, Rosberg and Webber have stayed out.

[Lap 27]: Can't say I have a lot of thoughts, I did manage to find pics of Lewis' helmet though! It's an early version of his white and red helmet design he ran for a good while, one of my favourites of his

[Lap 28]: Rocky giving Seb some restart coaching, bless

Alright I've restrained myself for long enough, the Singapore skyline at night is bloody gorgeous

[Lap 29]: "If Ted's been doing maths I want to hear this in full" I will give Crofty that one right

Ted's back! He thinks it's going to be a 57-58 laps race (ie hitting the two hour race limit before the full race distance of 61 laps)

[Lap 30]: SC in this lap!

"The radio failed when I talk" That's definitely something you want to hear mid-race 😬 (This was Rosberg hopefully talking to his engineer)

Anyway, looks like Seb's restarted!

[Lap 31]: Post SC pit-stops, the top 5 is: Seb, Rosberg, Webber, Lewis and Alonso

If we get a Lewis v Fernando battle I fear my heart may not take it

[Lap 32]: oof that's a lot of marbles on the main straight

Meanwhile, Seb is back to doing Seb things, 4.1 gap to Rosberg

Not Lewis thinking he'd ran over debris and asking to the to check his tyre pressures. stress.

I think he's fine

[Lap 33]: Seb fastest lap 🥰

"More collective groans from the sofas of the world" Respectfully Crofty, shut up.

Niki vibing at the back of the garage with David Beckham

oof Romain being told to pit because his engine is having a problem with air consumption??????

"What is wrong with this car" Great question mate

This is the most bizzare thing I have ever seen.

He's just sat there while a Renault engineer puts some air into the car.

Sheesh. He comes out in 21st.

[Lap 35]: Right, hopefully we don't have to do that again.

Also no I'm still not used to hearing GP on Di Resta's team radio.

Fun fact, super soft is the same in Italian as it is in English. This was brough to you by Andrea Stella's radio to Fernando

[Lap 37]: Seb has a 12 second gap over Rosberg. 🏃‍♂️💨💨

ooooooof replay of Gutierrez juuuust missing the barriers as he went off the track, well saved has to be said.

[Lap 38]: and just to add to Rosberg's woes he has a chunk of rubber stuck in his front wing, which is losing him a little bit of aero performance

[Lap 39]: ✨another Seb fastest lap✨

and a Lewis PB!!

Ahhh, RBR want Seb to build another pit stop gap in case he needs it. clever.

oh no Romain DNF :(

[Lap 40]: we're at 40mins left of race time.

Thankfully the TV graphics still have a lap count

[Lap 41]: Webber pits for another set of mediums

sounds like we might get another pit stop shuffle

[Lap 42]: and lo and behold in comes Rosberg, also pitting for another set of mediums

and he's jumped by Webber!

They're down in 11th and 12th but that will likely change with the cars ahead pitting.

Though there's a change Alonso (now P3) can go to the end

[Lap 44]: STOP THE RACE!!! JENSON IS P4!!!!!

also in comes Lewis , who also stops for mediums. He comes out in 10th

Okay now we can stop the race JENSON'S P3!!!!!

Seb also called into pit.

[Lap 45]: He takes on a set of super softs, and is clear ahead of Alonso in P2.

livery watch: god the glossy red Ferrari under the lights really does hit different, I miss it 😭

meanwhile Rosberg is arguing with his engineer about the strategy and whether or not he should be pushing or saving his tyres

this is all under the assumption that Fernando has to stop again when he technically doesn't have to.

[Lap 46]: Anyway I'm jus to going to stare at Jenson being P3 on the timing screen because I have MISSED IT SO

Perez is also running P5, McLaren have potentially pulled a blinder.

[Lap 47]: The slow mo shot of Seb in his sparkly helmet >>>>>>

[Lap 48]: The Merc pit wall realising they're going to have to overtake some cars since those ahead on track are trying to run to the end

since those guys (Alonso, the McLarens and Raikkonen) all pitted under the SC, it's not surprising that they're trying to stretch their second stint out for as long as they can

[Lap 49]: First Webber, then Rosberg get past Gutierrez who's on older tyres

aaaand as does Lewis. (Webber now P7, Rosberg P8, and Lewis P9)

[Lap 50]: It's quite fun watching this strategy stuff play out because at a regular track, it would absolutely favour the 3 stoppers, but with Singapore being a street track it's slightly more difficult to make it work

also: OVERTAKES!!

[Lap 51]: I find it hilarious that Seb going so fast is going to be the decider as to whether or not the race goes to full distance or the 2hr time limit. King shit.

(I love him your honour)

[Lap 52]: He has a 13.5 second gap over Alonso in P2.

"Lewis Hamilton is starting to gain on his team mate" *2014-2016 flashbacks*

[Lap 53]: Damn I wish I had snacks, watching Webber and the Mercs charge through the field is so fun

[Lap 54]: Jenson is still in P3 but I know he doesn't finish there :(

and Webber gets past Hulkenberg for P6!

and Raikkonen gets past Jenson 😭

it was fun while it lasted

Top 3 now: Seb, Alonso and Raikkonen

[Lap 55]: And both Mercs take Hulkenberg

Di Resta in the barriers, though not by much.

While that happened Webber got past Perez

[Lap 56]: ...and now Jenson

I am equal parts thriving and in the trenches

[Lap 57]: 🚨5 laps remaining klaxon🚨

and Rosberg takes Perez

oh Massa's here

and Webber's shortshifting issues have returned.

[sirens, gunshots, the distant sound of sobbing strategists]

Rosberg gets past Jenson, and Lewis gets past Perez.

[Lap 58]: And Lewis overtakes Jenson into turn 1

I have no idea where any of these guys are position wise. Damn the scrolling positions graphic.

[Lap 59]: and as I say that it scrolls back: Seb P1, Alonso P2, Raikkonen P3, Webber P4, Rosberg P5, Lewis P6

But Webber's just been told he has to nurse his car to the end

[Lap 60]: We've also got a 4 car battle for P8. Jenson, Perez, Hulkenberg and Sutil are all running nose to tail

And both Mercs take Webber in the span of a couple of corners.

[Lap 61]: Final lap!!

something about the duality of Red Bull drivers, the onboard with Webber does not sound healthy.

While Seb has 34 seconds over Alonso.

[Finish]: and SEB WINS IN SINGAPORE!!!!! 🎉🎉🎉

King. Shit.

Alonso P2, Raikkonen P3, Rosberg P4, Lewis P5, Massa P6, Jenson P7, Perez P8, Hulkenberg P9 and Sutil round out the top 10.

WHEW. That's probably one of Seb's most dominant wins ever. Which is like iconic as hell. And he drove so fast that we did make it to full race distance. I only really enjoyed the latter stages of watching the 3 stopper cars carve their way through the field. The nature of the circuit meant they had to work for it, and they were all really great overtakes.

So that was very, very fun. Next race - South Korea!

[butterfly-lies-chase-them-away]

That Bruno Teacher!AU Fic was simply amazing, I really hope you make a series out of it 🙏 ! ( Loved how infatuated but guilty he was ahh )

Don’t Stand So Close To Me (18+)

Part 2

Teacher!Bruno Madrigal x Student!Fem!Reader

Modern Day!Imagine Non-Magic AU

Summary: After getting caught in the rain, reader gets a ride home with Bruno but ends up having to stay at his for a bit for the rain to settle

Warnings: Swearing, Agegap, inappropriate thoughts, teacher/student (STUDENT IS OF AGE), sir kink, maybe slight bimbofication if you squint, slight scent kink

Word Count: 2845

Italics will mostly be his direct thoughts or his imagination

Author Note: I definitely had a huge hand in the plot for this one in the comment section of the last part. I have also added a taglist, so if you would like to be in it, just comment it down below. This one is also significantly longer than the last.

Don't Stand So Close To Me (Masterlist)(Part 1) >(Part 2)< (Part 2 Reader POV)

(I do not own this gif)

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Bruno POV

Exams are coming up in a couple of months, so I have to start preparing my students with practice tests and revision. Just the other day, I had given them a practise test on what we had learnt at the beginning of the year.

While my students do revision questions I had put up on the board, I begin marking the tests. Getting through the first few was quick and easy. It was about the fifth paper when I hesitated.

Her paper.

I skim over the first page with her name written in beautiful handwriting. I graze my fingers over the dried ink, admiring her penmanship. I made sure to inspect every inch of the paper, not wanting to miss anything.

...Maths. Just maths, everything on there was maths.

What am I even looking for? This is her test paper, not a love letter!! Idiot!

I go back to the start, sighing and begin to actually mark her paper. I click my tongue a few times at the mistakes made on the paper. She seemed to be struggling with even the basic questions. 

I should have noticed this when teaching, but nooo, I just had to get distracted.

I give her a grade that's not a fail, but close to it. If she doesn't get help before the final exam, she won't pass. 

I sigh again before I look up to see her with a look I can only imagine being complete confusion. 

That poor girl. If she had a decent teacher, she wouldn't be in this problem in the first place.

I reluctantly go back to grade the rest of the test papers. 

I had managed to finish them all by the time classes were to be dismissed for the day. I go around the class, handing each of them their papers back. As they exit the class, I watched as Y/N shoved her paper in her bag, only getting the chance to look at the grade on the front before rushing out of the class.

Bus maybe?

I look out the window to see it absolutely pissing down with rain. 

I hope she's got an umbrella.

And with that, I go back to my desk, packing all my things into my bag and making my way out of the classroom. I pull out my umbrella as I make my way out into the rain. I have to rush to my car cause even with the umbrella, I was still getting wet. I struggle to get my keys out of my pocket and juggle my bag and umbrella. I eventually manage to get my car open and I toss everything in the back before hopping in the front. The second I turn the car on, I put the heater on, warming up the car. I removed my jacket before taking off. 

Not even two minutes into my drive, I spotted someone standing in the rain at the bus stop. They'll catch a cold in this weather. As I got closer, I was able to make out who it was. 

It's her.

I quickly pull up next to her. I roll down the window and there she is, wet- no, drenched. 

"Are you okay?"

Really Bruno...out of all the things you could have said…you ask if she's okay…idiot!

"Yeah! I'm fine, I just missed the last bus so I'm waiting for the next!" She had to shout over the rain. 

"The next bus won't come for other hours, is-is there anyone you can call?" I asked. 

She shook her head. 

Fuck, do something!

"Hop in, I'll take you home".

….AAHAHHHHHH!! SINCE WHEN HAVE I EVER BEEN THIS CONFIDENT!?! 

"It's fine! I don't want to bother you!" She yelled.

"It's pissing down, I'm not letting you stay in the rain," I say. 

She looked down the street before rushing over to my car. She quickly jumped in as I put up the window. Once she was in, she let out a relieved sigh while dropping her head back onto the seat.

"Thank you," she said, sounding out of breath.

I just give her a tight smile, before turning back to the road but before I could take off, she let out a small cry.

"I'm all wet! I don't want to ruin your car," she cried.

I look over at her and she had a slight pout on her lips. 

Fuck, she's adorable- Hey! Snap out of it! Get her a towel or something, you dick!

"I should have a towel or something in the back," I said, reaching into the back and grabbing a towel from the ground. 

I handed it over to her and she had the cutest smile on her face. 

"You're a life saviour, sir!" 

Well fuck.

There goes my dick again, bloody hell. I can't help but look at her as she dries herself off. I can't help my gaze from drifting down to her breast as she dries her chest. Her shirt was clinging to her chest from the rain. I suck in a quick breath before turning back to the road. I roll up me sleeves, nervously.

I sure hope she doesn't see, otherwise, I'm fucked. 

"What's your address?" I asked, focusing on anything that might distract me. 

She told me her address.

"That's like a 40-minute drive from here," I say, relieved I had got to her in time.

"Yeah, it's okay if you don't drive me all the way, I can-" 

"No! U-uh, no, it's okay, I can take you," I said, having to calm myself down. 

"I-uh just really don't want to send you back into that rain, ya know,"

Wow, smooth Bruno……

"Thank you, Mr. Madrigal," she said, looking at me. 

My god, the way my name just rolled off her tongue, fuck.

It was about 10 minutes after I had picked her up and the rain had gotten worse. I could nearly see through the window with the rain sliding down it. I had to lean forward a bit, hoping that I would be able to see a bit better but nope! Still completely blind.

It's not safe to keep driving in this weather, I would never forgive myself if I got into an accident with her in the car.

"It's too dangerous to drive in this weather, are you okay with just stopping in at my house and letting it settle down a bit?" I asked, not wanting to make her uncomfortable. 

"Yeah, I think that might be best," she said, with her voice quivering a bit.

I look over at her and see her trying to hide the obvious fear on her face. 

"Hey, are you okay?"

"Y-yeah, just...can't see, ya know?" Laughing a bit after.

"Don't worry, okay, I won't let anything happen to you," I say.

A take a turn off the original route and head towards my house. Less than two minutes later, I pull into my drive and park the car. I reach into the back grabbing all my thing and handing my umbrella to Y/N. 

"You probably need it more than me, I'm already wet," she tried to argue but I was not having it. 

"I want you to take it," I say, a little more aggressive than I intended.

She took the umbrella with a little 'thank you'. We both look at each other, subconsciously counting down, before we shot out of the car and run to the door. She holds the umbrella over the both of us while I quickly open the door. We are both extremely relieved upon entering the house, internally thanking myself for pre-setting the gas fireplace in my house to turn it on before I got home. 

"Follow me," I say, making my way to the living room. 

It was only then that I realized what I had just done. 

Did I just invite the one person I should not be alone with into my house…

It feels as if someone had just punched me in the gut. 

Shit, I just have to act natural. That shouldn’t be too hard, right?

Yeah, no, I began freaking out immediately. I rush her to the fireplace and sit her down in front before I sprinted to get her a blanket. Once getting back, I quickly hand her the blanket and crouch down next to her, shaking a bit. 

“Is there anything I can get you? Do you need a shower or anything?” I almost spewed the words out of my mouth.

"No, thank you, I'm fine, really," she said, looking up at me with the biggest eyes.

She is so gorgeous looking up at me, so thankful for making her feel good- wait.

"Uh, sir, I had a look at the grade on my paper and was wondering if you could take me through the paper and my mistakes," she asks, slightly embarrassed.

"Uh, of course".

I sat down beside her as she reached into her bag to pull out the wrinkled paper. She smoothed it out a bit before handing it to me. I took the paper and opened it to the first page. 

"You see, here, you used the first formula instead of the third and you don't have all the information needed for that one, so that's why you couldn't finish that question," she nodded a little at my statement.

I take her through all the questions and explain the mistakes she made and what she should have done instead.

"I feel like an idiot!" She says, smacking her hand over her face. 

"No, it's okay! Plenty of the students had trouble with this test!" I try to reassure her.

She sighed as she dropped her hands. 

"I just really want to pass the test, sir," she mumbled.

The sadness in her voice absolutely broke my heart. 

This is my chance to be a better teacher for her. 

"Uh, how would you feel about tutoring sessions? If you'd like, I could help you".

"Really?" She had a little sparkle in her eye.

"Of course, we could start tomorrow if you'd like?" 

"Oh my gosh, thank you, sir! You are the best teacher I could have asked for!"

I highly doubt that.

"Just doing my jobs," I say with a tight smile, trying not to let her praises get to my head.

“No, really sir, it means a lot”.

I’m not gonna survive one week.

Before either of us could say another word, all the lights shut off.

“Woah! What happened?” she asked, frightened by the sudden light change.

“Must be a power cut,” I say, standing up  to look out the window to see all the street lights off too. 

This weather is really testing my patience.

“How long do you think it will be like this?” she asks.

“I say at least another hour or so”.

I sighs a little.

“Come, sit down,” she scoots over a bit.

“W-what?” 

“Sit with me, you’re probably cold,” she said, patting the spot next to her.

She was right, I am cold.

I slowly approach her, not wanting to get too close. I lower myself, in front of the fireplace, next to her. 

Calm down, Bruno, it’s not a big deal.

That’s when she scoots a bit closer to me.

Fuck! fuck! fuck! fuck! fuck! fu-

“Are you married?” she suddenly asked.

That caused me to chock on my own saliva.

“Wh-aT?” my voice cracked.

“Are you married? Or seeing someone?” she asked again, as if it was nothing.

It was probably nothing, I’m just over dramatic.

I couldn’t speak, so I just shook my head. 

“Really?! How come?” 

“I-I don’t know, I guess no one really wants me”.

Wow, way to go and sound all desperate and lonely.

“I find that hard to believe, I’m sure you could get anyone you want”.

My face heats up, and it’s not from the fire.

Not when the person I want is my student.

The room goes quiet.

Come on, man, keep the conversation flowing!

“Are you seeing anyone?”

...You dumbfuck.

“No,” she answered, looking into the fire.

“Oh”.

OH!? OHH!? 

“What?” she giggled a bit.

“It’s just that-”

Don’t say it.

“I thought-”

Shut up!

“a beautiful girl like you-”

Don’t you dare!

“Might be dating someone”.

Do I have a death wish or something?

“Beautiful?” she looked at me with puppy eyes.

“W-well, yes,” I mutter, nervously.

She quickly looked away, her cheeks reddening a bit.

“Thank you,” she almost whispers.

We sit there, in silence, for a little bit. I then out of the corner of my eye watch her head start to droop a bit. When I turn to look at her, she falls onto me. My heart is completely freaking out.

Is she okay?! What happened?!

I don’t know how it took me that long to realise she just fallen asleep but man, my heart. 

“Uhh, Y/N?” I call quietly, not wanting to disturb her. 

She didn’t move, just snuggled in closer to me. I look down at her face, squished up against me. 

Well that one way to go into cardiac arrest.

What I’d give, just to kiss her once.

I slowly let my arms wrap around her body, moving her gently into a more comfortable position. I lay back on the coffee table behind me and stare into the artificial flames with the girl I’ve been infatuated by in my arms. 

⌛

It was around 8PM by the I woke up with her still in my arms.

I must of dozed off.

The light had come back on and the rain outside had significantly calmed down. I turn back to her about to wake her up but when I get a good look at her, everything in my body is telling me to let her rest. 

But I can’t, It’s wrong.

I slowly sit up a bit before lifting her off of me. I didn’t want to wake her while she was still on me, it was to save both of us from embarrassment.

“Hey, Y/N. You need to wake up now,” I whisper.

She tosses around a little, resisting me pleas. 

“Y/N”.

She begrudgingly lifts her head a little, a tired, pouty face. 

“You have to wake up now, the rain has calmed down”.

She sits there for a bit, trying to process my word. 

“What time is it?” she asks, rubbing her eyes.

“8ish, I’ll take you home now”. 

“Okay,” she said, as she slowly stood up and began a packing up all her things.

My heart sunk.

I don’t want her to leave.

“You got everything?” I asked.

She nodded and we went to the front door.

We rush to the car, avoiding the rain as much as possible. And with that, I take her home.

⌛

“Here we are!” she exclaims, much more awake than she was 20 or so minutes ago. 

“Thank you, sir. For everything,” she gives me the most delicate smile. 

“Of course, I’ll uh see you tomorrow,” I bid my farewell.

“See you tomorrow, Mr Madrigal, thank you!” 

She jumped out of the car and ran to the door. Before she entered, she turned back and waved. 

And there goes my bloody heart again.

I wave back and watched as she entered her house. 

⌛

Here I am again. In bed. Jerking off.

I can’t help the moans from spilling out of my mouth. I just couldn’t help myself. I had the blanket that she was wrapped in up to my face, trying to draw out all the scent I could get from it. My moans only grow louder at the smell. 

This time, she would be covered in drool, completely mind-fucked as I would ram into her cunt from behind. We would be on our side, with her pressed against my chest and a leg hanging over mine.

“M-m-m!” she would struggle to even whine.

“What was that darling? Talk properly”.

“M-More!” 

“More what?”

“M-more p-please, s-sir!” she’d manage.

The thought of her desperate, incoherent whines filled my brain, making it harder for me to hold back. 

I’d reach down with my hand to rub her clit and this would make her go ballistic. She would be so sensitive for me.

“Shit!”

I pump my cock faster in my hand, bucking my hips up at the same time. As I near my orgasm, I breathe in more of the blanket, trying to get every last bit of her I can get. 

“F-fuck!” 

My cum shot out of my dick and landed all over my stomach. A keep stroking, however, to get every last drop out.

It took me about 5 minutes just to calm down from that. And there I was covered in my own, perverted cum.

This time, I really need to shower. 

After a quick wash down, I make my way back to my bed, as miserable as ever. 

Why can’t I hold myself back around her? It’s wrong to feel like this.

And then I remember her smile when I offered to tutor her. That damn smile.

“Fuck me”.

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Author Note: I will write this part also in the reader's POV because that was also requested in the previous parts comments. Also, if there are any kinks or anything like that that people would like to be added, feel free just to say down in the comments as well, because the next chapter (after the reader POV) will contain the real stuff ;)

I hope you had enjoyed this part and look forward to the next.

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[sk-lumen]

Hello!

How are you?

Hope you are fine!

So I discovered this blog and started following it a few hours ago and I am impressed by the amount of helpful posts and advice I found here on this blog, so helpful. There is still alot to me to see on this blog and I am willing to view through out the rest of my day.

I am really grateful to have found this now since I need some advice for some problem. Since I have no one to ask advice from on this matter in fear of being judged or not understood.

My school is next Wednesday,

So there is my best friend, first one to be my friend in my new school last year, introduced my to her friend group, So nice, she helped me alot, we got each other gifts and were there for each other. I love her so much.She is so careing.

The problem is, last year first semester she told me she had a problem in studying and she didn't want to and she needs motivation.

I tried listening to her, giving her advice, motivate her and even suggested that we do a study schedule together or some thing similar and tell each other after finishing.

Later in the semester we got our school tablet with only one app to connect with teachers or students.She made it a point for us to talk ever single day before we sleep after finishing studying. I didn't have a problem and it was fun. But she started getting mad If I miss a day or reply late, sometimes I didn't help but sleep due to being exhausted while texting since I wake up so early since I live so far away from school, while she lives 1 street away from the school so she wakes up like 2 hours later, I also spend longer time studying since I waste alot of time getting back from school, and I take longer times to understand things. So we ended up talking late in the night and staying up which leads me to being exhausted next days and sleeping accidentally through our texts. While I do call her at weekends (Since I don't want to upset her), but she apologized and it went okay.

Problem is in the 2nd semester one day she called me and decided that we study with each other, I didn't have a problem with that since I have never tried it and it might encourage her to study.Sometimes she got mad at for not being able to explain a math problem (Iam terrible at explanation sometimes) or demanded that I study with her the same subject same page right now even if I told her I am studying sth else (Sometimes we are there on the call but studying different subjects)and I brush it off saying she just anxious and stressed she didn't mean it (but sometimes that gets me anxious too but I think I am just overreacting and I know she is not responsible for how I feel)and she apologized later on(She repeats but apologizes and I know she felt guilty after getting mad at me so I always accept her apology). By the end of the semester we got better marks both, not the ones I wanted but atleast better than 1st semester. I thought we were done with the 24/7 never ending call, but it carried on through the summer vacation and if 1 hour went without the call (yes sometimes it went as far as sleeping on call too)she gets mad and shouts at me(even if we aren't talking), sometimes leaving me on hold while she isn't there and telling me if I hung up I am betraying her. It pissed me off but I tried to go with it since I didn't want to upset her since she doesn't have anyone else she can stay with at home and I had some fun too. I tried to talk to her about it but she only got mad and I felt super guilty. To the point that her call gives me anxiety and I sometimes panic when she calls. But then it thankfully stopped after 2 month because the school tablet was shut off by school.

Now she wants us to continue studying this year too like last one, she told me how much it helped her last year and I can't just say no. I care for her but I can't go through this again this year. I feel super guilty, like I am a toxic bad selfish friend, this helped her study, but I really don't want this anymore and I don't want to lose her too. She is a really great friend.She keeps talking about how much she is excited to study with me, she told me she won't study if I didn't study with her. I feel so selfish. I hate myself for this. Through out the summer vacation I found my focus time span is getting shorter and shorter and I have a problem focusing, so having a bad internet, when it gets disconnected I lost focus because I have to re-connect and start all over again.

This year is just more stressful than last one , I don't want more and I don't think I can do it again. I am willing to try again this year for the first week or first 2 to see how will it go and if it is any better than last year, but what do I do if I see it's not working out for me ?

I want advice on:

How do I tell her I don't want to study with her anymore or that I want to study on my own without ruinning our friendship ? I want her to study too. How can I help her study too(even without me)?

What if she tells me "last year you were okay with it"?

I want to be honest and without breaking her heart.

Like telling her I want to study on my own without bringing up any of her actions(Like if she stopped)like just for the other reasons I stated, just I wanna study on my own?

I feel overwhelming guilt and that I am selfish and the worst friend.

I know I am to blame.

What's your point of view or opinion on this?

I am sorry, I wrote too much and lots of ditales.

I understand if you can't respond. Again I am sorry.

Thank you so much in advance.

Hi angel,

It appears you have tried many times to explain to her how you feel and her only reaction was a negative one, to say the least.

The best policy in this case is honesty plus diplomacy. A neutral, more objective explanation is: tell her that you care about her dearly, but you want to study on your own because this is simply your priority now, and if she cares about you too, she should respect your choice. If you want a more personal explanation, but which might trigger her, add that you have to choose your own wellbeing/mental health because the way things are going is not working for you anymore. You don’t have to go into details, even if she pushes. It is what it is.

The truth is that she may likely have unresolved issues, temper related, low self worth, etc - all of which have created this vicious cycle of taking the liberty of lashing out at you/releasing her frustrations on you, only to conveniently apologize later. (Remember, the best apology is not a verbal one, but one where they actually stop repeating said hurtful actions. Anything else is just words). Although it's understandable that everyone has issues, that doesn't give her the right as a friend to let it out on you. Let me clarify in case it is not obvious, that this is not healthy behaviour. It is not friendship behaviour.

Friends don’t do that to each other; instead there is an ongoing flow of energy which is equally giving and receiving. Even if one day, one can only give 20% leaving the other to give 80%, that soon turns around and the dynamic balances out. That’s healthy and realistic and human. But giving 80% all the time, just as you mentioned, leaves you drained and anxious because this is not actually an uplifting connection for you, even if you care for your friend. You can love someone and it can still be toxic for you.

You’ve already taught her how to study better on her own, you’ve already done your part. You’re not responsible for other people’s happiness or success - only your own! Don’t forget that. You’ve already done more than you can or should.

If anyone confronts you on why it’s no longer ok to do something you used to be okay with, tell them, just because it happened in the past doesn’t make it okay to happen in the future. You’re making better choices, you are prioritizing yourself. You don’t owe anyone any explanation, it’s your choice. Choosing your happiness is something you always have the right to do, no questions asked.

As for the guilt? Darling, take that guilt & blame and throw it out the window. Your standards need to be raised. You deserve better. There’s nothing to be guilty or blamed for, you’ve already done all you can. Being a friend is NOT equal to being a doormat/emotional punching bag, and tolerating nonsense no matter what. I’ve already explained why the “ride or die” mindset is very unhealthy and should be avoided.

Likewise, there is nothing selfish in choosing your own happiness. Literally nobody else in the entire world is going to make that choice in your place, only you. You are responsible only for your own happiness and wellbeing. This is why you must always prioritize yourself, and take ownership over your healing. When the whole world plays the blaming game and nobody takes ownership over their healing, what happens is endless codependent relationships where each person expects someone else to be the key to their happiness or completion, which is a false belief and victim mindset (you’re giving away your power).

You can’t heal and strive to be your best self (starting with good grades, in your case), if you’re riddled with anxiety due to a co-dependent friendship that takes too much out of you.

Let me know how things go. I hope this advice helps and that things work out gently for you and your friend, whatever the solution may be.

Best wishes 💞✨

-Lumen

[ambivalent-anarchy]

Body

Part 1 of 2

Part 2

Masterlist

Gender: Female

Pairing: Peter Parker x reader

Warning: None

Anon requested- can I get a one shot where the reader does the body positivity trend with the new megan thee stallion song and the reader is insecure about how ppl will react to it?? Most importantly how peter will react to it?? K thanks

Awww I love doing smol readers and where Peter's actually the one that has it together lol sooo thanx for this

The TikTok is that new body positivity trend with that Megan Thee Stallion song. Couldn't link it because tumblr acts weird about links but part 2 will have a video for Peter. Also reader will be 18 (senior in high school) cuz some people think minors shouldn't participate in the trend lol

A/N: Either a motivation fairy hit me in the middle of the night or I'm really just that bored to the point where I had no choice but to get my motivation to write back. Either way I'm happy lol. Enjoy! Thanks to @yumings and @kelieah for helping me feel confident in this lol

Will definitely be a two parter🙂

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Body oddy oddy oddy oddy oddy oddy oddy-

You'd finally finished editing the video.

It was a simple, short collage of all of your favorite selfies and pictures that showed off your body well. There was a new trend going around on TikTok and when you saw it you just had to jump at it headfirst.

People would take their favorite pictures of themselves, ones that showed off their bodies just the way they liked, and they'd put it to the sound of Megan Thee Stallion's song "Body".

You looked through your entire phone gallery to find pictures that you were confident enough to post, some you'd forgotten you even took in the first place.

When you were done, you threw in the simple caption that everyone was using.

Heard we're using this sound to show off. My turn then😜

Yeahhhhhh, the caption sounded much more confident than you actually felt.

You actually thought about deleting it from the minute you posted it. Insecure wasn't even the word for it. And even with your followers there to hype you up, you couldn't help but feel self-conscious. So, albeit hesitantly, you went to your friends for support.

The first person you showed was Michelle.

"You killed that," she said in math class as she passed you the phone underneath the table so that the professor wouldn't see.

"Thanks," you said. "I was honestly kinda nervous about it." You noticed her incredulous look and explained yourself, toying with the loose strings on your jacket. "Like seriously, I don't wanna fish for compliments, it's just that there are so many better ones out there."

Michelle gave a lopsided grin. "That's just you being insecure, you dork," she retorted. "You look hot." She gave an uninterested glare at the teacher when they told her to be quiet. Then she turned towards you with a smile. "You shown Peter yet? I bet he'd agree."

You shifted in your seat nervously and MJ immediately caught on. "What, you don't wanna show him?" She gave you a look when you took a while to answer. "Dude he's literally your boyfriend. I'm pretty sure he'll like it."

"MJ, we haven't even-" you looked around secretively. "-we haven't even taken our shirts off in front of each other yet. There's literally a pic of me in my sports bra and I.." You shrugged, a little embarrassed by the conversation topic. "I-i just don't know how he'd react."

You and Peter were a fairly new couple and were taking it slow. You'd only ever kissed, cuddled, and held hands so far. Plus, you were a major causal clothes wearer. Sweatshirts and jeans, those were your specialty. The two of you were in no rush and you were both fine with that, but you had no idea how he would react to seeing pictures of you like that.

And, though it wasn't the most feminist approach, you kinda wanted to impress him. Was that so bad?

MJ, forever the voice of patronizing reason, rolled her eyes at you. "So, let me get this straight. You're not fine with your boyfriend seeing sexy pictures of you, but you're okay with literal strangers seeing you instead?"

"Look, I know it's-"

"No, no I totally get it," she said with a sympathetic smirk, before laughing. "I just wanted to show you how dumb it sounded though."

The bell rang, signaling the end of class.

"Look," she said, standing up and getting her things. "You have nothing to be worried about. Peter practically worships the ground you walk on. He'll love it."

When you showed Ned, he genuinely didn't give a shit.

"Oh my God, there's a new Megan Thee Stallion album?!"

"Uh, yeah."

"I have to listen to it right now!"

"Yeah okay, but do you like the-"

He was already plugging in his headphones before you even finished your sentence.

You showed Harry next. If anyone was gonna rate you unabashedly, it'd definitely be him.

He was the only friend you had in your lunch period, so you met up with him every day. Towards the end of lunch that day, you'll pulled out your phone and asked if he wanted to see the video. He enthusiastically agreed.

He watched the short video with an amused expression, bopping his head to the music all the while.

When it ended, he handed you your phone back and gave you a high-five. "Damn girl!," he praised. "Just throwing it out there, if Peter fails you, I'm hella available."

"Heh, thanks." You smiled as you felt your entire face heat up. "Ya think he'll like it?"

"What, you haven't shown him yet?" You shook her head, giving a nervous smile. "Oh-" he nodded confidently. "-he'll love it. Trust me."

"Are you sure?," you asked.

"Yeah," he responded with a shrug. "Why are you so worried?"

"Because he's not-..he doesn't really seem-" You couldn't find the right words for it. "I dunno, I just really want him to like it!"

Harry scoffed. "Look. Let me tell you a little secret about Peter Parker," he snickered. "Or practically all guys for that matter."

"Okay?," you said, curious as to where this was going.

He smirked. "You remember when he introduced himself to you at my party last summer?"

You nodded.

"Well, hon..." Harry lowered his head to where he was whispering in your ear. "Your personality wasn't what he was noticing from across the room.. catch my drift?" He chuckled when he saw you blushing as you caught where his eyes had wandered. "Just sayin'."

Seeing your incredulous expression, Harry continued. "Peter likes to act like he's not checking you out every second of the day, but I promise you he is. That little "I'm so respectful and bashful" crap he has going is complete B.S."

You smirked and rolled your eyes as he pulled away from your ear and kept walking. "You're an ass."

Harry shrugged. "True, but I'm a realistic ass." The alarm on his phone sounded which marked his time to start heading to his next class. Standing up, he smiled down at you. "Seriously, if I could take back all the time spent listening to Pete go on about how good you look in your jeans, I'd be one well rested guy."

You rolled your eyes, but it betrayed the small smile growing. After all, he wouldn't be Harry if he wasn't a flirtatious dweeb. "Bye Harry."

"Show him the video, [Y/N]. He'll love it. You know I'm right."

And then there was one...

Later in the day, you were talking with MJ after school, waiting because Peter always insisted on driving you home because chivalry was not going to die as long as he was alive to keep it going.

When he finally showed up, the first thing he did was take you by the hand and give you a quick peck on the forehead.

"How are you guys doing?," he asked as your little trio started to walk.

"We're good," you chirped, ever so conscious of the phone in your pocket that you were suddenly very hesitant to pull out.

MJ noticed and nudged you. "You got anything you wanna show anybody, [Y/N]?," she asked with a smirk, causing Peter to look at you curiously.

You stayed quiet, but MJ still wasn't putting up with it. "I think you may have a video that you made..."

You remained silent and Peter looked at you, a lot more confused now. MJ frowned. "Um... cough.. cough."

Peter laughed and stopped walking. "Okay, what am I missing?" He looked to you and when he didn't see your expression falter, he looked to MJ. "What's going on?"

Michelle shrugged. "[Y/N] wants to show you a dumb TikTok she made but she's scared about how you'll react."

"Michelle!," you scolded.

She shrugged again. "What? You weren't going to say anything anytime soon."

"A TikTok?," Peter questioned. "Cool, which one did you do this time?"

You could feel your face heat up for the hundredth time that day. "It's a...um.." You stared down at the ground. Jesus, this was hard. "..It's a body positivity trend."

His eyebrows went up at that. "Oh, well um.. is it cool if I see it?," he asked.

You blushed. "Sure." You pulled out your phone and opened the app. When you got to the video you quickly shoved it into his face before you had a chance to second-guess yourself.

Both you and Michelle watched Peter's face as he watched the video.

His cheeks immediately turned red but his expression was unreadable. He had to have watched it over 5 times before MJ pulled the phone out of his hand. "Helloooo, earth to Peter Parker?"

She snapped into his face several times and he started to blink wildly, apparently being pulled out of a trance. "I...um- heh.."

You gave a small, nervous smile. "..did you like it?," you asked, growing confused as stared at you, his expression still the same. "Um, Peter?"

Suddenly, he smiled and let out a little chuckle. "Sorry... just..." He laughed again and scratched his head, unable to keep eye contact. "You're just- like.... really hot."

You blushed. Fuck. "You're not just saying that are you?"

"No, really like-" He looked back at the phone. "...Damn." He bit his lip. "How on earth did I get so lucky?"

"Okay, can we please get in the car before I throw up?"

The two of you looked at an uncomfortable MJ with embarrassment riddled on your faces. "Yeah, totally," you said with an awkward cough. "Sorry."

"Nice video [Y/N]," Peter murmured bashfully, opening the door of his car for you, his face still beet red. "Really nice..."

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[castleofclouds]

7 Days A Week.

Genre ; Fluff, Slice of Life, Humor

Warning ; I'm writing this in the middle of midnight and I'm trying my best to used my last brain cells.

Summary ; A Story About you (fm reader), and your 7 dorks!

Part 1 ; Nostalgia.

Today is a normal day, nothing too different than the yesterday, except the way you started isn't by cliche way in which another character would wake up at exactly 7 AM in the morning to go to class.

Nope, you weren't doing that!

In fact, you are on your bed lying down, actually not really on top of your bed, kinda like a tent that was make with a blanket and pillows build just for the eight of you.

Yup! It's a slumber party! Surprise! How is it? Isn't it great to start it with a slumber party?

Anyway that...

"Can you stop talking?" Jeno said, currently getting irritated by how the narrator never stop telling things.

"Yeah! Like we don't need to hear it just get the spotlight down here!" Renjun remarks.

Those bastard! Anyway since the narrator felt attack I will leave it to you, take care of it.

"This is much more better!" Haechan exclaimed, feeling relief after the narrator leave.

The story telling was just too much for him.

"Anyway, how's you guys been doing?" You asked trying to change the topic.

"We been doing things that you do, except we are doing it our own way." Jisung said, being sarcastic as he should, Jaemin gasped.

"Did this baby just insulted someone?!" He overreacted, trying to tease Jisung.

"Can we stop with the baby joke? It's becoming to boring." Jisung said, even though he doesn't want that to stop, he love getting attention.

Tsundere.

"Shut it!" He shouted to the narrator at the corner of the room.

"We've been playing things like jenga and even that penguin escape." Renjun explains showing all the jenga and the penguin escape game being left alone in the corner of the tent.

"We should play something to take care of our boredom.." Mark sighed, he gets bored sometimes, but sometimes he doesn't understand how he is already 20 still love to make a tent and playing a card game, pretty sure he's just childish.

Seeing his child, Jaemin come up with a solution, it's sound like there's a lamp effect going around on top of his head.

"Aha! I got an idea!" He chirped happily, the 7 pair of eyes are lit by it.

"What is it?" You ask excitement going around your eye, you can't help it.

"Yeah yeah what is it?" Chenle said as excited as you, he hold your hands the both of you waiting for the great idea that Jaemin has.

"How about we talk about our high school life?" He said, thinking that it was the best idea he ever had.

Renjun sparkling eyes losses it's spark, now he's ready to throw some hands.

Poor boy was so happy, and either Chenle, he just want some fun, what should he hope for? It's Jaemin, Jeno best friend pretty sure Jeno teach him how to be a boomer like him.

"Seriously?! Are you being serious now?" Renjun said, getting annoyed.

Jaemin tilted his head, he thought it was a great idea, sadly not much people in here understand his efforts.

"Fine! Then come up with something nice!" He exclaimed, then Haechan start to act as if he's Sherlock from Sherlock's Holmes books series.

"Hmm... How about we talked about embarrassment that we had back in high school!" He shouted, giving his almost the same kinda idea that Jaemin just gave.

Jaemin was ready to complain how his idea sounds just like him but then he heard a lot of agreement going around.

"Not you to Jeno!" He said disbelieved how Jeno was quick to betray him.

He should have thought much before he make a deal with all of this dumbass.

"I'm sorry Jaemin, but Haechan Idea seems very interesting!" Jeno said, Jaemin felt the urge to choked his friend but he try to calm.

He isn't Renjun who are always thirst by blood and will always be the one who ready to pick a fight, he had an image and he need to keep doing it, because it's his Ninja Way! As in Naruto.

"Jaemin everyone can hear you thoughts." Renjun said, which made the boy flustered.

"Sorry, my bad." He said, excusing himself to the toilet feel ashamed.

"You don't need to go, we just start the story." You said, didn't want Jaemin to miss any of the great story that are waiting to unfold.

Jaemin who found out that you cared a lot about him, move pass Haechan who previously sit next to you.

"Hmm.. YN finally give me the attention that I deserved!" He exclaimed exclusively, while cling onto your arm like there's no tomorrow.

You pushed his head a little bit, you don't really like skinship, you are fine with some of them, but sometimes Jaemin way of affection is too much, let alone Jisung who had to endure it everytime he met Jaemin.

"How is it feel?" Jisung asked you, more like a whisper.

"Not fun, thank you." You stated calmly, while still trying to get away from Jaemin, the boy tightens his hold to your arm, his other arm are already at your waist.

Well, you gave up in the end.

"You can't get out mwaahaha!" He shouted while laughing evilly.

"Anyway let me start!" You said, taking all of the attention you get inside the room, even the narrator going closer.

What could be the interesting story you has?

"So.. I knew how all of you were very sensitive about this topic, well not really if you aren't Jaemin." You explained, Jaemin ears perked hearing his name.

"Oohhh.. What is it?" Haechan who heard the summary of your story is very excited.

"Remember how, back when we were an elementary students there are a new substitute teacher for our class?" You continue, everyone nodded their head.

But then by the power of Mark brain cell, he discovered it way faster than the other, when it comes to elementary school there's a lot of embarrassment going around the 8 of you.

And that thing is one them.

"Don't tell me.." He mumble.

"Yup! How can I forgot Miss Kang? That one teacher who made Mark, Jeno and Haechan going berserk, or you can say first love?" You smiling evilly seeing how the three mentioned boy getting shy, their ears turn to red.

"Miss Kang? Ohh yeah yeah! I remember!" Chenle chirped happily, of course he remembered.

"Yeah I knew.." Jisung whispered.

"Wait I forgot how Jisung falling for Miss Kang, it's very cute I swear!" This time you went overboard.

How back in the day, Jisung would always smiling everytime Miss Kang give him a compliment, even Mark who hated math learn it just to get noticed by Miss Kang.

Haechan would always try to point his hand toward the air, just to asked a question, and acting like he doesn't know anything when he's always the first one who knows how to finish math homework, Jeno the typical nerd he is always try to be the best students, just so he can see how Miss Kang proudly talking about him in front of the class.

And Renjun, the one who are being oblivious, that guy would always prepared an apple just for Miss Kang exclusively from his uncle farm.

Chenle in the other hand, doesn't understand a thing back in the day, he just follow everything that his friends doing, pretending like he do have a crush to while in fact he wasn't.

"Omg! Really? they did that?!" Jaemin gasped, and while getting second hand embarrassment when he heard about the story.

"Yeah, sadly you have can't join us to see how cute and naive they were, Jisung is the cutest one, poor boy was so happy because he got 97 in Math Exam to impress Miss Kang, but doesn't know that she's already married at that time." You said, ruffled Jisung hair who looked very gloomy.

"It's not my fault, I don't know that, Mark didn't tell me about it." He protests, Mark eyes turn big.

"What?! It's not my fault, Miss Kang was so beautiful I can't help to fell for her." He said taken aback.

"Anyway that was pretty fun, seeing how naive you guys were." You said finishing your story.

"Wait wait, you guys remember how Jisung literally almost burned down the laboratory?

"Omg yes!" Haechan shout happily, he remember every part of it.

"Yeah, we almost burned it if it weren't because of Jaemin smartass we would already getting sued."

That time, in a chemistry class, Jisung, Renjun, You and Jaemin were partnered to do some experiments but because of Jisung clumsy hands.

The laboratory almost burned to the ground, thankfully Jaemin who are fortunately know how to stop the fire before it become out of hands.

"Yeah yeah, I remember how literally Renjun just watching it while shouting about how he's afraid of the fire, Jisung already crying and Yn is the only one who help Jisung calmed down." Jaemin explains about the situation.

Probably that's why the 8 of you always labeled as the trouble maker back when you were still in elementary school, you know how basically every teacher hope the 8 of you ever getting transferred to another school.

Even how Mr. Ben always try to make you guys got expelled because the man are too tired to babysit, how Mark always chewed a gum on his class, even Jeno who are very obedient sometimes get out of his comfort zone because of how the 7 of you always whispering evil plan to his ears.

Anyway there's still a lot of story being told that night, you stayed up late as always other than Jisung who already falling asleep on top of Jeno shoulder.

"Well I guess we should be sleeping at this hour, Jisung seems very tired." Jeno said, while looking at his left side of shoulder.

"Yeah we should, I want to sleep next to YN jinx!" Chenle exclaimed, you nodded your head, he bopping his head excited.

Not even an hour later, the eight of you are already falling asleep, being in the most comfortable position ever.

Good night!

The narrator leave the room.

Previous / Next.

A/N ;

Okey I found this being one of the cutest thing I ever wrote, anyway, it's already morning.. Actually afternoon but you don't hear it from me, I always love this type of story actually.

Btw this story has a concept of like how the tv series showed? Like episode 1 might not be the same like how episode 2 will be so yeah, there's a whole new story everytime, and I take request.

This has something to do with NTC story, the difference is based on how this is basically a spin off, how they are best friend with you and that's is the main focus of the story.

Prepare for more fluff and humor I try my best to include it, but yeah anyway not everyday is a happy story.

See you next time! 😃 ps. I probably will upload more of 7DAW than NTC because of how I got a little bit confused on NTC.

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After making a grand total of 11 cheatsheets since starting university less than a year ago (I know, my uni is weird), I wanted to share some of my tips and tricks for making the most effective cheatsheet for your needs! They're a hassle to make, but depending on how you make yours, it could either be an incredibly useful resource or just an extra sheet of paper on your desk.

(By "cheatsheet", I mean a typically printer paper-sized memory aid, usually handwritten, that is allowed to be brought into an exam.)

1. You don’t need to write small, nor do you need to write a lot.

Some people go out of their way to buy 0.1mm pens to cram everything they can onto a cheatsheet. But okay, hear me out: unless you plan on using your cheatsheet to study (more on this later), what is the point of writing as much as you can? It is super difficult to find the exact piece of information that you need in the stressful environment of an exam, especially when you’ve written in the equivalent of size 4 font and your page is cluttered with information you definitely know . And honestly, for most exams, it’s a waste of time trying to look at your cheatsheet. Just put down whatever you’ll definitely need; the rest will only slow you down or overwhelm you.

2. Use colours, or at least find some way to keep it organized.

Once again, you need to spend as little time as possible looking at your cheatsheet in an exam. If the exam allows cheatsheets, the class probably has something else to up the difficulty level of exams. In my experience, it’s usually either application questions or a time crunch, sometimes both. So, make your cheatsheet efficient. Colour-code it so you know what to look for in order to find any given piece of information. Find some sort of format, so that you also know where exactly to look.

3. Don’t wait until last minute to make it. If it comes to that point, just put down the major points and sleep.

There are so many reasons why you shouldn’t do this. Just trust me, my lowest exam marks are from exams where I made a cheatsheet the night before. You shouldn’t be staying up the night before your exam. Copying the textbook onto a sheet of printer paper isn’t effective studying. Most importantly, your cheatsheet becomes so much more effective when you’ve actually done practice exams with it. Or else, how would you know how well it actually functions and what else you should add?

4. It doesn't need to be perfect.

Please don’t spend too much time on your cheatsheet. Obviously, interpret this advice based on practice exams and the scope of whatever course you're taking, but don't get to a point where you're relying on your "perfect" cheatsheet to pass the exam. Instead, spend your time studying the material and question formats so that you almost don't need your cheatsheet. No matter how informative or detailed your cheatsheet is, it won't matter if you don't have time to use it during the exam, or if you haven't done enough practice so you don't know how to format the cheatsheet's information.

5. Don’t worry about what everyone else is doing.

I think this goes without saying for practically anything, really. Just do you. If the prof says you’re allowed a single piece of printer paper, front and back, it doesn’t mean that you need to fill that. Nor does it mean that you should be intimidated when you walk into the exam and see that you’re the only person who hasn’t filled up your cheatsheet completely. Do whatever you need to succeed. If spending a few extra hours cramming information onto your cheatsheet won’t help you, then don’t do that. If it will, then don’t let me and my opinions stop you.

1. For the stuff that you actually don’t know and isn’t worthwhile to memorize

This is pretty obvious, but you should prioritize the stuff that you actually don’t know and is too difficult to memorize. For example, the 20 amino acids for Biology. 

2. Diagram compilation

Personally, I think that the most useful thing you can do with your cheatsheet is to add diagrams and charts. They are the easiest thing to find on your cheatsheet. Also, diagrams are able to sum up a whole list of details, so you don’t need to worry about missing something. It is always useful to refer to your diagrams for inspiration!

3. Checklist

What are the three points you need to include to describe a histogram? What steps does the prof want you to do to show autosomal dominance? If you are someone who often loses marks because of missing details or the way you format your answers, your cheatsheet can function as a checklist. Write down exactly what you need to address to get full marks on certain types of questions.

4. Personalized formula sheet

If you are anything like me (ie. I am so afraid of Math that I chose not to major in Biochemistry just so I don't have to do Calc III), then writing out some formulas in the way that you like them written might be useful, even if you are given a formula sheet. It's a comfort thing.

5. Study guide

As a heads up, this is the only situation where I would condone writing as much as possible on your formula sheet. If you're the type of person who studies by copying out your notes (ie. you memorize things by writing them out), then you might as well kill two birds with one stone and just copy your notes onto your cheatsheet. But, then again, your cheatsheet will probably be less functional during the exam, so do this at your own discretion.

Here are two of my own cheatsheets, to illustrate some of my points. The first one is for Biology, the second one is for Statistics. 

I don’t keep a consistent colour code, but generally, red is for categories or units, blue is for definitions or important terms, and blue underline is for things I commonly forget or refer to (ie. the 4 factors affecting membrane fluidity). The units follow the order that we learned them in class. Although I tend to write small and there is a lot more information than strictly necessary, I can easily find anything I’m looking for.

Here’s the bottom line: do whatever is the most useful for you!! These are just a few things that have worked for me and some people around me, but do whatever will help you succeed.

Happy studying, everyone!

[minnowrowdy]

Alrighty peeps, I got an update.

I found a system for me on catching up on late work-

that has worked for a few weeks already!!

I feel so accomplished every time I think about it, because I've been trying to drudge up all ounces of motivation, energy, courage, and more in order to ignore my anxiety about my missing work, and it hasn't worked much.

On Feb 11 or so I started a list of every assignment that I complete.

I have a separate page outlining the rules.

I know myself, and deadlines stress me out and I procrastinate until it's necessary to do them. ( In fact, this was a big reason for my current inability to complete the ones past due.)

So why should I make a deadline?

I shouldn't.

Instead, I have created on the 2nd page some rules, and something to work towards.

Since I am currently consuming every video and stream about the amigops as I can, specifically corpse_husband, I have decided to use his new streams as mine.

Then, since I know the date the stream is made days beforehand, and I know he has a playlist for live streams that have already past, it removes the obligation to do things by a certain time.

Instead, I now have excitement to work on everything to be able to watch it as soon as possible.

On the separate page, I also have added 2 labels. Complete, and Days Passed.

On the day I create my thing to look forward to, I start with 3 assignments to do. If I achieve the 3 on the first day, I add those as marks on my Completed area, and can watch. But every day I don't have the completed area achieved entirely, I add a tally to the area labeled Days Passed.

To paraphrase the last part, I start with 3 on the first day, and add 2 more things to do each tally mark of the Days Passed area, unless I have it completed.

For every assignment I do, I have also gotten in the habit of writing it down on my first page. Today, I looked at the list and it was a full page, when I still believed it was half-full. That was a nice confidence booster!

Currently, my set reward is watching the stream from the 23rd, and I am 8/13 assignments away from it!

There is a bit of math to think of each time I check the list, but that's okay because it makes me want to know how close I am to finishing even more.

The 13 assignment total looks scary, but I am happy because it's been only 5 days and I've made 8 assignments already. That's a vast improvement than previously, where I struggled to even complete 1 in a week.

There are still days I can barely remember to mark a new tally in the Days Passed before I forget, including last night where I literally had to get myself out of bed at 11:30pm because I barely remembered then and knew if I didn't it would be a while before I would again. Perhaps making this some sort of calendar might be better instead of a tally, unclear yet.

I do have to keep myself from going in the tags on tumblr to find out about the streams, though, but I sometimes do and scroll past tings quickly so I can find any more possible lobby notices by them.

I decided not to stop myself from watching any youtube videos at all or old streams of his I've already seen, because I would be bored and wouldn't feel more accomplished if I could do nothing I wanted to when avoiding work. Now, I'm procrastinating a few hours til I forgot about it and enjoying it, then willingly deciding to work on what I can to earn more tally marks in completed quicker so I can see the new streams.

Since these are late or incomplete, they don't have a deadline. So newer assignments don't quite have the same effect as these, which presents a future problem. A nice but unpredicted outcome was me actually completing today's assignment the hour it was given, because I just wanted more tallies added!

I got lucky because corpse decided to create more among us lobbies recently. 😂

I have slight guilt every time I use more of the paper in a notebook, so I tend to write to try and 'save space', which is illogical considering the amount of notebooks made in the world and how if I don't fill it the pages will stay blank and be unused anyway?

Unless you also are having missed work, an interest that is 'updated' multiple times to keep you finding new parts of it, and don't find doing a little math irritating, then this wouldn't work at all for you, but there are probably so many ways to revise this? Sorry 😞

I am mainly just sharing this because I am proud that something I came up with on a whim worked so well for the past few weeks.

I would be very interested in any possible revisions or any comments you have for this

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I've been ranting to my friends about Johnny being abused and raped recently and one of them said: Lyja has damaged and put an element of distrust into every relationship he may ever have. which is really fucking me up and I wanted to share in part bc I don't wanna be sad alone and also bc I think that's an interesting side effect of Lyja's time in his life that doesn't get talked about enough

Thank you for sharing this because the thing is I do think there is a very definite divide in how Johnny acts particularly in regards to relationships before and after his marriage to “Alicia.” I doubt this was entirely intentional on the parts of the writers who handled the book after, but I’ve said before that I think after a certain amount of time and with enough stories behind them characters tend to take on a life of their own, and even if the writers are hesitant to address it there’s no way an event like his relationship with Lyja couldn’t have deeply effected Johnny.

Simply put: I don’t think “playboy Johnny” exists before Lyja. I don’t buy into “playboy Johnny” much as a general phenomenon, because if you actually look at the canon there’s just not much to actually back it up, but he certainly has at periods played into this public (both in and out universe) perception of himself. What I mean is, pre-Lyja, there is absolutely no proof Johnny had ever engaged in casual sex. (There’s actually no proof he wasn’t a virgin when Lyja began working her way into his life while masquerading as Alicia; this panel from Fantastic Four #275 is the first time Johnny having sex is addressed:

That shirt is Johnny’s – you see him wearing it the issue leading up to this one. To be clear, there’s nothing in the issue that supports this being Johnny’s first time, either – it’s just that he doesn’t have any sex scenes prior. Either way, this is not the reaction of someone who had a good time.)

Pre-the Alilyja incident, Johnny had a grand total of three relationships: Dorrie Evans in high school, Crystal Amaquelin, Frankie Raye. He had a few dates with a girl named Lorrie Melton who called things off with him because he was more serious than she wanted to be, and shared a whole one kiss with a girl named Valeria from the Fifth Dimension (no relationship to his future niece). He also briefly pursued a girl named Julie Angel, who blatantly wasn’t interested in him. When Julie’s friend Sharon came onto him during this period, he reacted with discomfort:

(Fantastic Four #259)

So, playboy Johnny Storm, a womanizer who sleeps around – he doesn’t exist in canon at this point. (If anything, Johnny repeatedly reacts negatively to being kissed suddenly and without his permission leading up to and during the marriage.) Then you have the marriage, which happens fairly quickly – Johnny and Alicia’s relationship is “cemented” in FF #275, they get married in FF #300. I want to note that Johnny’s pretty young when he gets married, especially by modern standards – you have to do the Spider-Man math with this one, since Johnny’s age at this point in canon isn’t stated, but he and Peter both get married at roughly the same time. We know that they’re roughly the same age, Johnny being 16 when he got his powers and Peter being 15 and these things happening fairly closely together. Peter comments very shortly after he’s married that he’s been out of high school for five years, which would make both him and Johnny roughly 23 when they respectively tied the knot. Alicia is labeled during Byrne’s run as three years older than Johnny, but it should be noted that Byrne has a habit of making women younger and putting them in relationships with much older men – which would track if it’s his opinion Alicia first met Ben when she was 19. (It’s my personal belief that she should be older than that, but that’s neither here nor there.) We have no idea how old Lyja is in comparison to Johnny. So he’s young, and the relationship escalates very quickly, which, looking at it with the retcon in place, makes sense, because Lyja is on a mission to infiltrate the Fantastic Four. So it’s quick. The marriage, the Skrull reveal, and the ensuing melodrama lasts… a while after that. 

Then the big reset button that was Heroes Reborn got hit after Fantastic Four #416 and Johnny and family were shunted off to a pocket universe for a little bit, sans Lyja. Fantastic Four v2 is the first look we get at a more playboy-ish Johnny Storm in line with, say, the Chris Evans version of the character – older when the accident hits instead of being a fresh-faced teen, a bit irresponsible, comes off a little bit like he might be a dog. But this reboot canon can’t really keep it up: it reunites Johnny and Crystal temporarily, and then everyone gets snatched out of their alternate reality bubble and planted back in their regular timeline anyway. 

So let’s look at Johnny’s relationships after his marriage:

1) Alysande “Caledonia” Stuart: A young woman Johnny found and rescued in another dimension who lived with the Fantastic Four for a while. I’m including this even though it isn’t strictly a romantic relationship – Johnny appears to have feelings for Alsyande, but it’s unclear if they’re reciprocated or if she just feels a deep debt of loyalty to him for rescuing her. Either way, I really like how this relationship is handled; they’re both very respectful of each other in a way that’s missing from a lot of Johnny’s actual romantic relationships. They definitely didn’t have sex. 

2) Namorita Prentiss: The first actual romantic relationship Johnny has post-Lyja. This one’s another weird one; Johnny and Namorita first get together after teasing the paparazzi and commiserating about being famous. They then proceed to spend next to no time together. Seriously, like, to the point where the books remarks on it:

(Fantastic Four v3 #55)

Johnny and Namorita do do things like attend celebrity functions together, so I label this as Johnny’s first “publicity” relationship – less about being in love, and more about him and the other party looking really good together for the public eye. (This is also something he never did before his marriage.) Anyway, they break up off panel, although Johnny did apparently ask Nita to move in with him at one point, which she refused.

Kourtney: A second and much more prominent “publicity” relationship. Kourtney is a supermodel who we’re first introduced to when she breaks up with Johnny when the Fantastic Four go broke and he falls out of public favor. They do get back together for the duration of Marvel Knights 4, and then they apparently break up again. Nothing to write home about in this relationship – she and Johnny don’t really appear to actually like each other all that much, especially on her end. 

We enter a relationship deadzone for Johnny as we hit Waid’s run. He starts it off apparently shaking off a bad celebrity breakup, and while he goes a bit moony-eyed over a few pretty girls at the beginning, basically nothing happens. He at one point meets up with a girl from the internet who claims to be a fan of his and things seem like they might get romantic… except his body language really is screaming the opposite:

Fantastic Four #514 – I’m not saying how much of this was intentional or even what the intent was, but if there’s something a comic book artist should be good at conveying, it’s body language. Here Cole’s is aggressive – leaning in, touching his face – and Johnny’s is closed off – hands in his pockets, leaning away from her. It’s just interesting if we’re supposed to believe he’s hot for this girl.

Anyway, Cole turns out to be the Wizard’s daughter, catfishing Johnny to find a solution for her unwanted superpowers. So. That lasts two issues and nothing happens between them.

Psionics: And now we enter Millar’s run. Millar’s run is probably the biggest contributor to Playboy Johnny – not only does he have an ill-advised sexual affair with a superpowered bank robber named Psionics, he also gets walked in on – apparently – about to have a threesome with two girls cosplaying as Storm and the Scarlet Witch. I’ve had a problem with the cosplay scene for a while now, because it just doesn’t fit with Johnny’s 616 personality. Something about it has always felt very off. And while I could just go “well it’s Mark Millar,” it occurred to me on a recent reread what’s wrong with it: it feels staged. Johnny’s in the middle of filming a reality show; the camera crew is who walks in on him. If he was trying to cultivate this playboy image, well, one way to do it is to make sure you’re walked in on in a compromising situation. He and the girls are all still fully clothed, and he actually ditches the scene as soon as they’re discovered – to congratulate Ben on his engagement, but still – while the girls frankly seem more interested in each other. It’s a weird scene still, but there’s nothing in it either way to say he was or wasn’t setting it up to make it look like he was the kind of womanizing carefree celebrity party boy who has threesomes with hot cosplay girls while not actually doing that.

As for Psionics, the hot bank robber he sleeps with? Well, turns out her family from the future kidnaps him and uses him as a giant power battery in a machine that has a good chance of killing him. No bad feelings or anything, though.

Again with the awkward body language. He certainly just stands there while she kisses him. This is the exact opposite of smoldering passion. Also, next time he sees her she tries to kidnap his niece, kills his longtime family friend Alyssa Moy in front of him, and then gets murdered right before his eyes. So. That all happened.

He has one apparent would’ve-been one night stand in Hickman’s run after this, except she turns into a bunch of bug monsters and activates the Negative Zone portal. He also has a highly implied brief sexual relationship with Daken Akihiro at this point, who… uses that connection to make Johnny feel horribly guilty over Daken’s apparent death and then so Daken can steal a weapon from the Fantastic Four. There’s a weird pattern here.

Darla Deering: The last and most recent of Johnny’s publicity relationships – Johnny starts seeing Darla, a major pop star, sometime after his experiences in the Negative Zone. This is another “they’re in a relationship but they don’t spend any time together” fling, too – at the end of the relationship, when Darla’s gotten together with Scott Lang, Johnny actually admits that he liked dating Darla because of Darla’s celebrity lifestyle more than he liked her. 

Here we hit Robinson’s run. Johnny does a lot of partying after he’s lost his powers, and while it’s not explicit, there’s something of an implication during this point that he is sleeping around. However, his most serious relationships in this run are with his family, Wyatt Wingfoot, and Peter Parker, and he has no consistent romantic partner. 

Which brings us to his last serious relationship: Medusa. This one’s a weird one, too, and it’s one where I’m not hesitant to blame the writer’s lack of research at all when Medusa and Johnny were genuinely very close during her stint on the Fantastic Four team. It’s clearly a placeholder relationship – we know Black Bolt/Medusa were going to get back together. If anything, I think here Johnny’s holding onto a piece of his then-missing family the only way he knows how.

So, a couple of relationships post-marriage, but by in large, with the exception of Namorita where we see hardly any of their actual relationship on page and perhaps Medusa, nothing serious. Certainly nothing like his impassioned “head over heels” falls for Crystal and Frankie Raye. So there’s very definitely a change in Johnny after Lyja and in how he behaves in romantic relationships – the implication that he does have casual sex, the uptick in relationships that are clearly for the public eye, a lack of a previously held deep devotion to his partner. I think you could make a really good case for all this coming about as a result of lingering and unaddressed trauma from Lyja. 

There’s also, and this isn’t explicitly romantic, the appearance of this little quizzing game:

(Fantastic Four: Secret Invasion) This actually is Lyja in her only appearance since FF #416, disguised as Sue and trying to convince Johnny that Ben is a Skrull for… well for nothing good, obviously, but the book never actually gets into why she’s attempting to separate Ben from Johnny, except that separating him from his family is exactly what she tried to do before she was discovered to a be a Skrull during their “marriage.” But it’s telling that when Johnny feels like something isn’t right, he immediately starts quizzing “Sue” about things she should know. Definitely seems like the kind of game someone who unwittingly married and was abused by a shapeshifter would invent to make sure that the people in his life are really who they’re supposed to be.

So I definitely think there’s a lot of lingering trauma there that, if a really good writer dug into it, could inform a lot about both the romantic relationships he had after that point and his romantic future, especially if it was paired with a story where he explores his romantic feelings for men. It’d be interesting to see it doubled up with doubts after his relationship with Daken in that regard, since Daken also used him to gain access to the Fantastic Four. I’d love to see it all really gotten into and actually, for the first time, addressed, especially if it was in the context of a romantic relationship with Wyatt Wingfoot, who was present during the early days of Lyja’s seduction of Johnny and is also who Johnny ran to after he discovered the truth about the monster Lyja told him was their child. A lot of history to get into there.

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I'm heading back over to Wolvden next week and I am preparing now!

This is a big reminder post for my sake of what I do that's different from regular Wolvden gameplay. I'm writing this stuff for my reference so some of it's going to not have a lot of context. It's mostly just to get it all in one post so I don't have to go digging.

((Note as always, the Wolvden Democracy Calculator is entirely my own doing and does not reflect normal Wolvden gameplay. Other mechanics I describe below are my own ruleset to limit gameplay.))

Rank

The Pack Leader has a rank of 4.

The Pack Leader’s Mate has a rank of 3.

The Pack Leader’s pups have a rank of 2.

Other wolves (siblings of Pack Leader, mates of pups) have a rank of 1.

This is how many votes they have each vote.

Home Tile Weirdness

Leader can only Explore places adjacent to the home biome. If I want to Explore somewhere else, I'll need to move the whole pack.

Scouts can only Scout areas adjacent to the home biome (though can rescout anywhere). I will need to move to fill out the map.

Hunting I guess should also be in adjacent areas.

Always return to home biome during Autumn through Spring.

Herbalist-specific stuff

The Herbalist will start with 100% healing points, just to give it a name, each day. The Herbalist can only cure as long as they have healing points left.

The first cure of any illness takes 100%, so to start off, a novice Herbalist can only cure one illness a day.

Each time the Herbalist cures an illness, they get better at curing that illness, and it’ll take half the healing points it took before to cure it next time. So the first Open Wound takes 100%, the second 50%, the third 25%, and so on. I might use fractions instead of percentages just for easier math.

Democracy

Decisions will be run over the weekends like on the Lioden fight calculator, for each season's Hunting/moving and Lunar event if either are happening the next week. When I come back to Wolvden, the next week will be a Lunar Event and it will turn Summer in two days, so I need to roll for both of those (as well as what I'm doing in Spring).

What Rolls with New Pups

Hunting preference for the season: Largest Prey, 50% catch chance, 30% catch chance (even chance for each option). 1/3 chance no opinion, 1/3 chance weak opinion, 1/3 chance strong opinion.

Lunar event preference: Bases, Decor, Eyes, Markings, Claws/Skin/Nose (even chance each option). 1/3 chance no opinion, 1/3 chance weak opinion, 1/3 chance strong opinion.

Favorite Biome: home biome, randomly-chosen non-home biome (even chance for each option). 1/3 chance no opinion, 1/3 chance weak opinion, 1/3 chance strong opinion.

Focus: Not a roll - choose it yourself and make it different each wolf.

Breeding Preference: 9/10 straight; 1/10 randomly roll whether gay, bi, or ace. Gay=same-sex Pair Bond; Bi=any Pair Bond; Ace=may have Pair Bond, may not, will never breed. Not democracy-related, but pair bond related. Non-canon wolves chosen to be mates will not roll; they'll be whatever's most convenient.

Breeding Origin: 3/4 from non-canon hunters, 1/4 NBW

Speaking of, Mate Choices

Runner is this generation's mate's mother. Runner's pups/NBWs will form their own parallel hunting team. Pair bonds will be set once the canon pups become 4 years old, at which point they can start having pups of their own (if able).

This hunting team will be in flux until the Pair Bonds are set, being the best NBWs and best pups of Runner, matching up to the canon wolves' preferences.

What happens next generation to the non-leader lines?

Depends if the leader has/can have pups! If they do, the rest of the pack gets phased out (usually Chased) so their pups take over. If not, other young wolves in the pack will fill out the roles and be treated as if they were the pack leader's pups.

How long will this generation last?

If my math's right, assuming I take no breaks it'll go until late October. Which means I'll miss the Wolvden November event again. But also means I get a chance at some Lioden October stuff, which I missed last year. (I took a break from both sites around the end of the year.)