#last mistake i make which it would edfinitely be the last bc i will throw myself into my pool and drown if im fired i cant affodr it | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

bma-2020 · 5 years ago

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me: makes a singular mistake at work

me, an autis/tic who overreacts but also knows her boss overreacts somtimes and could potentially do it bc hears all the complaining of past ppl constantly: WHAT IF I GET FIRED IF I GET FIRED I DONT DERERVE TO BE ALIVE WHAT IF PROOF THAT I AM A WORTHLESS HAPPENS AND THEREFORE I ENED TO BE DIED I AM ANXIETY I AM NOT OKAY I CANT NBREATHE

#out.#negative #ish #more so #vee having a panic attack if we're honest #and trying to make it seem less serious than it is by making a joke out of her own panic #ahahaha i am actually crying tho like she hasnt responded yet but like i kind of wanna throw myself into my pool until my lungs fill up and #dont have to ever think again at all because i wont be around to worry abt it #ahahahahahahahahahaa see this is the aprt of a/utism ppl dont want you to hear about #we're taught from such a young age that everything we do is so wrong #that we make one mistake and kind of just wanna die because we feel fucking worthless because of it #and i still cant breathe my ribs hurt my stomach hurts #i just wanna die tbh it hurts my brain hurts everything hurts adasdosa #i just opened my computer too when i got the message ahahahaa #shes gonna be doing the clint for a bit too i already know im gonna be elled at sh e ways she yells at all fo them at least once #i havent bene yeleled at yet bc i always try to be the good one but what if this one mistake i have made is laso the #last mistake i make which it would edfinitely be the last bc i will throw myself into my pool and drown if im fired i cant affodr it #im gonna go throw up tbh #then try to find a way to caml down #rhen do teplies #bc i want other ppl to b ehappy even if um not #i feel sick #suicide cw #ishish #imc ant rneatje my lnjds hurt

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