#last innings

[uncharted-constellations]

Cdiverse i love u unironically

[alchemistc]

911 was always in my periphery bc of how popular Buck x Eddie is on Tumblr and Ao3. I didn't really want to watch a cable network procedural drama, especially one that came off as so unserious. I could also see how such invested shipping by a lot of fans who are young and think it’s ok to demand things from the cast and crew would inevitably become a toxic cesspool. I stand by that assessment of the show based on the behavior of the fandom these last months, as well as the overall quality of the writing and how often good story lines just get dropped or undermined.

However, I heard about Buck coming out. Over the summer, I was going through a lot and feeling aimless, so I finally started watching the show. And I liked Buck and Tommy, but what I really loved was the quality of the fan works they inspired. At the end of the day, I never really had real expectations of high quality television from a show like 911; that’s not what it’s for.

Despite this, what really affected me last night—which was also the first episode I bothered watching live ever because of how terrible this last week has been—wasn’t even how badly it was executed or the fact that they broke up. But how unnecessarily and viciously cruel the whole thing felt?

What was the point of showing Tommy as a caring, supportive, present partner in the previous episode if it was going to lead to an unceremonious break up? What was the point of showing his yearning for connection and family only to see him throw it all away? Why have him say such wonderful things about Buck moments before questioning the commitment of their relationship after six months together? What was the point of Buck getting that speech from Josh and bringing up marriage and moving in together and that Tommy had been a transformative relationship when it was going to end with him being dumped? It just felt so horribly cruel to see a character bare his tender heart and see it get stomped on. He looked so sad at the end.

Up till the very end of the episode, I was actually really enjoying it. Their acting was so good from heart eyes to heartbreak, and the show seemed to understand Tommy’s reaction to Buck getting hit on by those women would cause friction. It even made sense to me that Tommy would recoil at the prospect of moving in together because Buck clearly hasn’t come to terms with being queer yet (sir, you haven’t researched the Kinsey scale? You?) And Tommy is also clearly afraid to reach for the connections he wants and the seeming inevitability of his heart being broken and is masking that with nonsense about Buck needing to play the field and the biphobia present wherein. It was such an interesting depth to his character! I thought the break up speech was so well-acted, and I was so ready for the conversation they were going to have that would address it and let them move on together stronger. To see Buck learn from Josh and see the scars Tommy was unintentionally revealing in that moment and address them.

And then the credits started rolling and I felt like I got punched in the gut.

It was definitely the straw that broke the camel’s back for me, with the election and other personal stuff really stressing me out this week. Last night, I felt sick and unable to sleep, and I spent the morning bawling my eyes out. It feels like one of the few things I really looked forward to had been snatched away for the shock factor. I believe the interviews are the definite death knell, but even if you don’t follow the interviews, it was just a cruel way to end the episode. Even if this ends up being a temporary roadblock or they “fix” it, it’ll always leave a bad taste in my mouth.

Anyway, I’m upset that I let a show I always knew wasn’t very good affect me this much, and I regret spending months of my life on it. But the reason I wanted to send this ask was because my real hyperfixation these last few months was never the show itself; it was always the Bucktommy fandom. Reading some of the most beautiful fanfiction, including yours, these deep and intense character studies or au’s or future fics that show more love to these characters than the show does. The stunning art, the lovingly rendered gifs, the startlingly funny and insightful writing. The fandom has been my real love, and I hope that despite this huge blow, people like you will continue being so immensely creative and artistic for this ship.

I’m sorry this has been so long and vent-y, but I wanted to send you this ask because you’re one of my favorite fic authors, and I’ve been following your posts since last night and you’re still responding to anonymous asks. I’ve always been stealth in the fandom to avoid certain parts of it, so didn’t want this on my own blog. If you do publish it, I hope the other authors and artists and creators who have made my life better get to see it too <3 And that they don’t regret the time and passion and love they’ve poured into the last few months. I have appreciated it, if nothing else.

Hi.

First of all, please don't apologize for the length of this.

Everything you pointed out were exactly the reasons people joined this fandom. Everything you listed here is EXACTLY the reason it left such a bad taste in our mouth.

I'm sorry I won't be more eloquent in this post, because this is such a kind and thoughtful and lovely summation of all the things I've been hearing and seeing and feeling.

The point of all that, if we are to believe Lou (which I do, and honestly props to him for being as gracious as he was in those post-mortems: fucking TWO exit interviews for a guest star? wtf abc), WAS to pull the rug out from under the audience. It WAS to end it all on a shocker of heartbreak. They filmed the bulk of Tommy's S8 scenes AFTER the breakup. It is absolutely vicious and cruel and meant to make people talk about it. The engagement they are getting right now is to some extent WHAT THEY WANTED. I went straight to my notes after work and I can't be fucked to check the insta or FB to see if they've posted anything new and/or what the comment count is on the 8x06 posts but THIS IS THE INTENDED RESULT. Broken hearts, upset people, an increasingly toxic fandom crowing.

That's where I'm at. I think that's where a lot of people have landed. And it's so disheartening to see something that really genuinely drew people in because it was handled so gently and kindly at first just be ripped away and the door shut on it.

And honestly if they close the mid season OR open or close 8B on a premise that includes one of them being injured and the other having a Realization™️ I won't trust this team to do it genuinely or truly. Even the breakup would have held so much potential for me, but not like this.

Anyway. I'm sorry you're feeling so disappointed. I am grieving the missed potential of literally every plot they built up this season for every character and if I do watch it won't be live and I will likely have very little trust for it's potential. There has been So Much wasted potential.

And I want to say thank you. Even if you lurked, even if you disengage now, the creators who made those works made them out of love and they wanted to share them and the community around it all has been lovely to see. Thank you.

Some of us will still be hanging around building the world that could have been. I hope, if you feel up to peeking at that sandbox, that you feel welcome to go play in it or even just clap from the sidelines.

♥️

[kurz-qw]

it's dyes birthday today so i made him elster doodles because he cannot get enough of her ... real proud of these

[angels-of-death-posts]

[too-many-rooks]

ERROR - YOU'RE GOING TO BE ALONE AGAIN

(Flashing images/eye strain)

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[sophfandoms53]

And the hell cycle begins my friends 🥂

[nero-neptune]

season 2 of interview with the vampire so far

[igotsnothing]

Somewhere along the shore in Selvadorada...

{Relaxing sound of small waves lapping the shore}

*DING*

"What's this? Dear Alejandro Flores: Congratulations! You are an official contestant on 'Mad About Dodo', the exciting new BC that- "

"OYE! INES! INES! Get over here! Your big bro is going to Sulani!"

"Queeeee? Sulani? How did you swing that?"

"So simple! I saw an ad for a BC. I have no idea what a BC is but it mentioned a free trip and stay in Sulani. It must mean 'Bird Competition' because we're going to be looking for dodos."

"Umm...Dodos have been extinct for ages, dude. Can you share the message you got with me?"

"...Hmm...Okay. Listen, Ale: BC here means 'bachelor challenge'."

"Wait, what? No birds?"

"It says here that you will be competing on an island with a bunch of other people for the bachelor. His name is Dodo. Here's his picture."

"Ooh! Look, Ines! He's cute!"

"He IS cute...But why is he wearing those swimming trunks?..."

"So if I win, what do I get?"

"...A boyfriend. Ale... I don't know if you should be going to this. I think you're going to be at distinct disadvantage."

"Disadvantage nothing, mija! I'm gonna go, have fun, make some new friends, surf, eat some king sandwiches, and if Dodo doesn't chose me, maybe he'll give me those swimming trunks as a consolation prize! It's all good!..."

"Okay, bro. Good luck to you. But if you show up in that swimsuit, I'm pretending I don't know you..."

(Check out @akitasimblr's super fun Mad About Dodo challenge)

[thankyouforthememoriesworld]

Missing the international team 😔

[cursedthing]

.baby's first ytp

[ashidaii]

LOVED venom 3 but rly didn’t care for the ending so im gonna need my friends at ao3 to get to it asap

[kitnita]

speed.hd: check out how many went in 👀

[loopscereal]

dulces, vampiros, insomnio, bromita :pp

precious fnafhstober drawings:

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[ferretonfire]

REDDIE SHIPPERS IF UR STILL OUT THERE I HAVE RECS FOR U!!!

i present to u: my favorite reddie fics that i've accumulated over the years

hey there demons (its me, ya boy) - dharmainitiative its a buzzfeed unsolved au and its so silly

any fic by dumpsterbeagle but specifically "im talking head first heavy baby, cellar dive" bcs its sooooo good it makes me twirl my hair and kick my legs

hello, stranger - trashmouthrobin as it was the first reddie fic i ever read and it holds a special place in my heart <3

richie tozier versus the flu - loserchildhotpants bcs sick fics r cute

we don't talk about it (we don't have the time) - theletter_a its quite possibly my all time favorite reddie fic (enemies to lovers waterpolo au??? so random but SO GOOD)

i was born a believer, i believe in the way you call me - stormysirens my other fav reddie fic its just so cute and so well written

literally ANY FIC by Car on ao3 every ove ive read so far slaps 🙏😭 two i read recently were Pants On Fire and Cooking Up Trouble but there are so many more

these r all the SFW ones but if u guys want NSFW recs i can do those too :P

[blushydollypoppy]

After a night of Bambi Sleep bimbo-doll hypnosis followed by infantalising diaper-encouragement hypnosis, I've woken up feeling ~so~ good. The soggy diaper between my legs is helping ☺️

After all that I'm starting the day so subby and mushy baby dolly brained.

I'd be so easily led right now 😇

[aqours]

Just had to say goodbye to the most amazing lil guy in the world, my little guy Bruce. He was 12 years old, diabetic, and constantly a huge pain in my ass. But he was one of the best things that ever happened to me.

I have an abnormal sleep schedule and fall asleep at different times. But he could always tell when the noise from my room stopped. He would always jump on my bed. And if I put a pillow on my chest, he’d crawl on me. And without fail whenever my alarm rang, he would run up ready to ask for breakfast. He was the dumbest cat to ever live, I think, but when it came to me he was smart. He also knew how to meow in a right way to make me give him more food, too. But everything else, this cat was the fucking stupidest thing to ever live, I think. And that was part of his charm.

You were such a completely stupid pain in my ass Bruce. But more than that you were a sunshine in my life. Mama loves you and misses you so much. I know how hard diabetes was for you and how you were always hungry and now you’re in a place where you’re never ever going to be hungry again, you can eat as much as you want and you can poop wherever you want and nobody is going to be mad you didn’t use your litter box. I know how much you hated living in an apartment and how much you missed the stairs back in the house. You always tried to escape into the hallway to roam more, I know this apartment was a hard adjustment for you. You’re in a place where you can roam and run the way you used to before the diabetes made you weaker. Do you remember how you used to climb the support beams back in the house when you were a kitten filled with SO MUCH energy and you could jump down? God is making sure you have anything you can climb do your heart's content. And whenever you want Temptations or Feline Greenies, God is always going to be right there ready to let you eat out of the palm of his hand.

Mama loves you, Brucey. She already misses you very much.