#larchelle-ffxiv

[amphsy]

i was in an abusive relationship with tumblr user Kiodi for 8 years.

This is a proper write-up of my previous post, which I had written under intense panic and the fear of publicizing something so personal. Our relationship was heavily online, so I felt that this was the best place to post this.

The people in this post are heavily involved in the FFXIV community. I wouldn't be making this post if I didn't believe they were dangerous. Their mains are Lotus Djt-Setlas and L'archelle Gozen on Brynhildr, Crystal DC. On tumblr, their blogs are Kiodi, Larchelle-ffxiv, and Itsbeechtime. I highly suggest blocking these people, as they've put me through hell and I don't want to allow it to happen to anyone else.

For brevity, I will only be covering the past couple of years of abuse (2023-2024) which has arguably been the worst of it.

In January 2023, I was facing a devastating time in my life, with my mental health at rock bottom as I'd been trying to accept my past sexual trauma. During this time, Kiodi/Morgan sparsely messaged me despite me reaching out daily. The only way I could actually get their attention was to log on FFXIV.

In February, they told me they were visiting their friends in Florida, an (at the time) married couple they met on Tumblr/FFXIV. I was initially excited for them, but a little apprehensive as they'd told me that one of these friends, Magnolia/L'archelle was particularly flirty with them. I gave them a set of boundaries to follow and they agreed to them, insisting everything was completely platonic.

During this trip, they cheated on me. Apparently, there was discussion of them telling me, but they never did, instead keeping me in the dark. However, it was obvious from their interactions online that there was something more going on.

They constantly gaslit me about this whenever I'd bring it up, pinning it on me for being too jealous/clingy. This was a constant cycle and eventually I began to think I was the one constantly causing problems. As a result, I was pushed to call my doctor and up my antidepressants.

After the Florida trip, they love-bombed me, complaining that the entire trip they had been missing me and mentioning they wanted space from their friends for a while. I was desperate for their attention, so I immediately booked a 4-month stay with them.

During none of this time did they tell me they were seeing Magnolia behind my back. While staying with them, I was pretty much cooped up in their room because they refused to leave the room when their family was around. I had very limited access to food and water, and the bathroom I DID had access to had serious plumbing issues.

During that stay, I spent a lot of time by myself while they would spend hours on call with Magnolia and playing FFXIV. They did all of this under the guise of "helping them through their divorce." I put my trust in them. We did spend time together, but it always felt like a time-filler until the next time they could get online.

In July 2023, I fell incredibly ill in their care and ended up passing out, resulting in a broken nose and a concussion. I pleaded with them to bring me to urgent care (as I couldn't drive, nor did I know the area) but they refused with excuses like "you can't afford it" "they'll just give you an ice pack."

I was out of state with no friends or family other than them. I was scared and in pain, so I called up my mom, who had to tell me to leave the room so they could explain to me that this was abuse. I felt like I could agree, but my feelings for my partner persisted.

I took these photos a day after the incident (excuse the pose/sticker, I'm not yet comfortable with posting my face online.) I felt so ugly and I was constantly battling headaches and nausea for the rest of the trip.

My flight home was in August of 2023. With time away from them, I'd been able to begin processing everything that happened over the trip. Things went back to normal - they were absent from our conversations (unless I was insistent about it/offered to buy them something.)

In September, I broke things off with them myself under the impression that I was toxic and codependent. They agreed, leaving me under the impression that it was an amicable split and that we'd remain friends.

I still did not know they were cheating on me the whole time. I believe it was around this time Kiodi and Magnolia moved in together- something they intentionally hid from me (but not very well.) They also insisted that I cut off contact with our mutual friends at the time, which made me suspicious, but I obliged to avoid further conflict.

I spent a lot of time with family and friends. I talked openly about my visit, and I began to understand what Kiodi had conditioned me to think was normal wasn't normal. It felt like I'd completely lost touch with reality and my sense of self.

My support system has helped me tremendously through this time, though I still struggle with PTSD and anxiety from this whole mess.

I only found out a week ago today that they were cheating on me for most of 2023. There were poorly-hidden interactions between Kiodi and Magnolia on Tumblr that confirmed it. I immediately blocked them both.

I also had conversations with other parties around them at the time that also corroborated this and everything that had happened during their trip to Florida. There were very intentional walls put up so that I couldn't contact anyone that knew, and they couldn't contact me.

To end this, first of all, I'm so fucking sorry for posting something like this - I prefer to keep my life as private as I can and I take no comfort in posting this.

Thank you for reading to the end, though. If you're going through or have gone through something similar, please know that you're not alone. Please don't be afraid to talk about it. I'm wishing everyone (and myself) a safe healing journey.

Amphy

[lavampira]

describe your oc through memes

ty to the lovely @narrativefoiltrope @coldshrugs @scionshtola for the tags <3 passing it along to @hythlodaes @lilas @birues @creaking-skull @aphoticfairy @veeples @rosebarsoap @lvllns @oschonseleven @galadae @auricfog @larchelle-ffxiv @aster-skies @icehearts and YOU!!

— d'alia liveq, meme edition

[alannah-corvaine]

People I Want To get To Know Better

tagged by @myreia 🤎

tagging @gobbieboom @allyennah @nyxvaledoeswriting @larchelle-ffxiv @ink-dreams-ffxiv @felinemoony @domesticatedanimal

last song: los angeles by the midnight (i totally change what i'm listening to when this question is asked so it's something less embarrassing).

favorite color: black, silver, indigo, royal blue, phthalo green.

currently watching: season 4 of Unsolved Mysteries but i'm not really feeling it tbh, my interest in true crime has cooled off a lot.

last movie: Beetlejuice 2. it had some fun bits that i enjoyed but mostly the writing was a mess and it was a frankenstein of half baked plot, underutilized characters, and wild musical interludes that i probably should have anticipated but did not.

sweet/spicy/savory: sweet or savory, depending on what i'm in the mood for. i have exactly zero spice tolerance.

relationship status: childless cat lady.

current obsessions: dragon age (fenhawke has me in a chokehold, send help), the storyline im playing out in the sims 4 based on the plot of a supernatural romance mobile game, an unwritten plotless drabble that's currently rattling around in my head.

last thing i googled: how to spell 'phthalo,' lol.

[kai-2124]

Giveaway prize pictures for @SE_bunboi and @larchelle-ffxiv Thanks for the support! 

[jqupohtia]

Drawn for @larchelle-ffxiv and @kiodi!

[kaiffxiv]

Time for the Tomble winner as well

Again my apologies for this being a day late, had some stuff come up yesterday, BUT

Congrats to @larchelle-ffxiv​ !! ✨ Will be poking you in a bit for details

Thanks everyone for joining, I want to try doing some more scribs in the future but for now, thanks again !!

🌟Late 669+ follower raffle cause funny number (over @ Twitter)🌟 ------------------------------------ ❓2 Winners | 1 Twitter & 1 Tumblo 🎨Flat colored full body scrib ------------------------------------

☘️How to Enter☘️ 🔹- Be following 🔹- Reblog ( so i can yoink you for the actual raffle ) 🔺- No giveaway accounts 🔹- Optional: Pictures of your character

Since some of us migrated (back) to Tumblr it only seemed fair to toss this here as well

[bi-disastersoup]

Random R'alma Lore Drop!

Pulled some questions from this OC Question Generator, the link for which I got from @larchelle-ffxiv.

How forgiving is your oc? Do they hold grudges?

He can be forgiving, but holy crap does he hold a grudge. He had a falling out with Thancred during 5.0, and is only just starting to mend that relationship after the events of 6.0.

How expressive is your oc? Do they talk with their hands a lot, or are they more rigid?

He tends to be mostly reserved in that department, but he has some more subtle tells if you know to look for them. Mostly he can't keep his emotions off his face for the most part. I also hc that his ears are very expressive and tend to give away his mood.

Would your oc want to change their name, and if so, what would their new name be?

He could have changed his name a long time ago if he really wanted to, but he actually has a good relationship with his parents, so he chooses to continue going by the name they gave him. If he were to change it, it would be to the Dotharl name that Sadu gave him, which he hasn't told to anyone.

Does your oc make decisions with their head or their heart?

He tries to make decisions rationally, but in the end he usually ends up being driven largely by his emotions.

Does your oc believe in soulmates?

Nope, R'alma does not. But Apollo did. Or, at least, she said she did. No one was ever really sure if she actually meant that or if she was just trying to rile up Hades.

[lavampira]

people I want to get to know better

ty @larchelle-ffxiv for the tag <3 and passing it along to @winedark @disequilibria @cassandra-allegra @fooltofancy @capriciousvisage @dearestcherry @veilguards @azemessence @lysehexts @astralogian @kibellah @aphoticfairy @kirnet if anyone wants!!

last song: hush - the marías

favorite color: green (especially shades of sage and olive)

currently watching: grey’s anatomy. the hospital drama has such a grip on me lmao

last movie: trigun badlands rumble (again.)

sweet/spicy/savory: spicy > savory > sweet

relationship status: single babeyyy

current obsessions: ffxiv (and d’alia, her relationships, and some worldbuilding stuff with her clan), dragon age, trigun, the hello kitty cross stitch kit that @hythlodaes sent for my birthday, and my fave pumpkin coffee creamer now that it’s in stock again

last thing I googled: the distance between the venue where I’m seeing hozier in a couple weeks, the hotel I booked, and a cafe for brunch in [redacted city] c: