#lady maria x plain doll

[katyspersonal]

Moon Presence might actually be PETTY! Hear me out

Okay, I pointed out before that it is 99.99% that the picture on Maria’s table in the Nightmare is taken from Old Workshop:

I was thinking it had to be something sentimental, but on the second look....

Could this be a low resolution Pthumeru chalice? I mean, if that was the intention, they sure could have tried a bit better to reproduce it accurately, but still, there is a chance that this is what’s implied? Especially because, from what we can see, it was supposed to be filled with blood - that should be part of the ritual to break the seal.

The chalices were a big thing for Old Hunters of Gehrman’s kind, not just for Tomb Prospectors, and it is likely that Maria was helping to raid the tombs too.

So what it has to do with the picture?

Well, she is in the Hunter’s Nightmare. In hunting attire after she regretted being a hunter, with her weapon after she threw it away. So maybe the chalice is there to further anchor her to the troubled past and sins she just can’t escape in basically the Hell realm - raiding the tombs of Pthumerians! And... so, this is the picture she hates looking at, but is forced to always find back, even if she tried to throw it away.

I still personally see three people in the picture - one in the middle and two by either side. And think that the middle figure gotta be Maria (pale hair and the spot that might be her white collar). One of the others could be Gehrman, too.

But, yeah, I didn’t think of it before, but it could be there to remind her of hating her time as the hunter (or even hating Gehrman personally).

The strange bit here is that this picture is MISSING from the Dream version of the Old Workshop, that was supposed to have been reproduced as it was in the moment of the Hunter’s Dream creation. So, did someone already take this picture? Of course, if we follow ‘bad memories’ route, Maria COULD have taken the only picture of herself in the “don’t dare to even look at me like THIS!” to Gehrman manner, but you know what ELSE was in the “real” version of Abandoned Workshop? Maria’s hair ornament!

So why did not Hunter’s Dream repeat that too, and Doll only saw the ornament from us for the first time? Well, what if that’s because Moon Presence didn’t want Gehrman to think about Maria the way she really was?

In THAT case, Gehrman not even mentioning Maria when he is asleep, that supposedly was a dear person for him, could easily mean that the plan to wash her away from his memory with years succeeded; and maybe it was easier to do with the Doll being near that has her face, so could somewhat ‘replace’ image of Maria entirely with more ease.

And that makes the Doll, who is animated by Moon Presence, speaking about how ‘creation loves its creator because creator made it this way’ feel like sort of passive-aggression from Moon Presence, as if hinting towards how she wants to be treated! I just think this is funny.. but also somewhat dark. But also somewhat funny (in a slightly repulsive way).

[art-that-fucks-you-up-tournament]

Behold, a bracket!

Text form below the cut because trying to copy all the 256 into the alt text sounded.... horrifying. Warning for 128 matchups, seriously, this list is long, and so I've avoided adding the artists until the polls.

a note: the pinned post has started misbehaving, so only open polls will be directly linked. closed polls instead have the results page linked in the set header, all the polls are linked from there

Set 1

The Lament for Icarus (Miao He) vs The Lament for Icarus (Herbert Draper)

The angel came to me in a fever hallucination, perched upon my bed as I returned from the bathroom. vs Sweet Brown Snail

Figures vs A Philosopher Lecturing on the Orrery

Happy Shoppers vs Hubble Deep Field

Lovers Painting vs Bath Curtain

Dr. Helen Taussig vs Une Martyre

Orangoutang étranglant un sauvage de Bornéo (Orangutan strangling a Borneo savage) vs Can’t Help Myself

Rape vs Technicolor Hiroshima

Set 2

A Walk at Dusk vs Based on “Autoportrait with the Model” by Maria-Rayevska Ivanova

Diary Page vs Les Jours Gigantesques (The Titanic Days)

Dead of Night vs You Won't

Christina's World vs Bobby

Untitled (I’m Turning Into A Specter Before Your Very Eyes And I’m Going To Haunt You) vs Two Sisters (On the Terrace)

Sharecropper vs Lustmord

The Parca and the Angel of Death vs Untitled (Zdzisław Beksiński)

Stress vs The Fallen Angel

Set 3

Device to Root Out Evil vs Travelling Light

Diana vs Fifty Days at Iliam: The Fire that Consumes All before It

The Plains, from Memory vs Exotic Bodies

Doubting Thomas vs Self-Portrait in the Bathroom Mirror

Empty Nest vs Somebody Fell From Aloft

Anguish vs If I Died

Cat in Obsolete Bath vs You're Not Boring Anymore

Salvator Mundi (Savior of the World) vs Untitled (billboard of an empty unmade bed)

Set 4

There Will Be No Miracles Here vs Symphony of the Sixth Blast Furnace

Fox Hunt vs Tarpaulin

Khajuraho Group of Monuments vs Ranakpur Jain Temple

ปราสาทสัจธรรม (The Sanctuary of Truth) vs Grande Panorama de Lisboa

Heroic Head of Pierre de Wissant, One of the Burghers of Calais vs The Weather

The Daughters of Edward Darley Boit vs If this is art

Statue of Vincent and Theo van Gogh vs Jeanne d’Arc écoutant les voix (Joan of Arc listening to the Voices)

Fountain vs Judith Slaying Holofernes

Set 5

Cueva de las Manos (Cave of Hands) vs Cave of El Castillo

Chauvet Cave Bear vs Uffington White Horse

Laocoön and His Sons vs Winged Victory of Samothrace

Crouching Aphrodite vs Statue of Taweret

Guardian Figure vs Kūya-Shonin (Saint Kuya)

Ancient Greek doll vs Arena #7 (Bears)

Enbu (炎舞) (Dancing in the Flames) vs Yearning Shadows

Belfast to Byzantium vs Freedom

Set 6

The Kama Sutra of Vatsyayan vs Portraits

The Blood Mirror vs Nighthawks

Electric Fan (Feel it Motherfuckers): Only Unclaimed Item from the Stephen Earabino Estate vs "Untitled" (Portrait of Ross in L.A.)

Lady Agnew of Lochnaw vs Forgotten Dreams

Saint Bride vs Pixeles (a group of 9 works)

War Pieta vs The Sunset

The Handmaidens of Sivawara Preparing the Sacred Bull at Tanjore for a Festival vs Ajax and Cassandra

Nāve (Death) vs Abstraction

Set 7

Yes vs Meeting on the Turret Stair

Hacked to Death II vs Stańczyk

Closeness Lines Over Time vs Voice of Fire

The Maple Trees at Mama, the Tekona Shrine and Tsugihashi Bridge vs Portrait of Sir Thomas More

Survival Series: In a Dream You Saw a Way vs Takiyasha the Witch and the Skeleton Spectre

Death blowing bubbles vs The Kitchen Table Series

Painting 1946 vs In the Grip of Winter

Untitled (Black and Gray) vs NAMES Project AIDS Memorial Quilt

Set 8

Blue Plate Special vs Red Cedar

Palace of Fine Arts vs Mosque–Cathedral of Córdoba

Le Château des Pyrénées (The Castle of the Pyrenees) vs Susanna and the Elders, Restored - X-Ray

Moby Dick vs Viva la Vida, Watermelons

Venus Envy Chapter One (Of the First Holy Communion Moments Before the End) vs how to look at art

St. Sebastian vs Untitled #12

Carroña vs The invincible one

Untitled (Two Dogs) vs The Dog

SECOND HALF

Set 9

David (Donatello) vs David (Michelangelo)

The Other Side vs The Temptation of St. Jerome

Seated Woman with Bent Knees vs Starry Night

Headdress - Shadae vs Untitled for the Image Flow's Queer Conscience exhibit

Woman with Dead Child (Frau mit totem Kind) vs Les Amants (The Lovers)

Siroče na majčinom grobu (Orphan on Mother's Grave) vs You Make My World a Better Place to Find

Fighting Against SARS Memorial Architectural Scene (弘揚抗疫精神建築景觀) vs Fallingwater

Resting vs The Hull

Set 10

Olive Trees vs Worship

Glow vs Wheatfield with Crows

Study after Velázquez's Portrait of Pope Innocent X vs Untitled (He Plays Very Badly)

D.I.Y. by John Wiswell vs The Tragedy

Judith and the Head of Holofernes vs Beethovenfries (Beethoven Frieze)

The Memory of Me (How Could I Forget) vs oh god i had a really big epiphany about love and personhood but i’m too drunk for words

I am happy because everyone loves me vs 瀕危形態 (Endangered Forms)

Three Scaffolders vs Ivan the Terrible and His Son Ivan

Set 11

San Giorgio Maggiore at Dusk vs Water-Lilies, Reflection of a Weeping Willow

The Grief of the Pasha vs Monolith in Vigeland Sculpture Park

Passion vs Space Diner

Hamlet and Ophelia vs Two Earthlings

Ellen Terry as Lady Macbeth vs Seer Bonnets

Photograph from "SNAP OSAKA" Collection vs Clytemnestra after the Murder

“Untitled” (Perfect Lovers) vs The Lovers (TIE)

Kedai Ubat Jenun vs Orange Store Front

Set 12

The Apotheosis of War vs Portrait of the Dancer Aleksandr Sakharov

Julie Manet vs Mouth

The Icebergs vs Kaleidoscope Cats III

Maman vs Caza Nocturna (Night Hunt)

The Book of Kells Folio 188r: Luke carpet page vs Ardagh Chalice

Yusuf and Zulaikha vs Dome of the Rock mosaics

Rowan Leaves and Hole vs Untitled (prisonhannibal)

Le Désespéré (The Desperate Man) vs The Dedication

Set 13

Deimos vs Dog and Bridge

The Mocking of Christ vs Prudence

The Broken Column vs Siberian Ice Maiden shoulder tattoo

Transi de René de Chalon (Cadaver Tomb of René of Chalon) vs Head of Christ

The Day vs Spirit of Haida Gwaii

Eleanor Boathouse at Park 571 vs Jatiya Sangsad Bhaban জাতীয় সংসদ ভবন (National Parliament House)

Juventud de Baco (Bacchus Youth) vs Barges on the Seine

Oath of the Horattii closeup vs Visit hos Excentrisk Dam (Visit to an eccentric lady)

Set 14

Christ Crucified (With Donor) vs St. Francis

Thunder Raining Poison vs Piazza d'Italia

The Grove vs Among the Waves

Pintura Mural de Alarcón vs Sagrada Família stained-glass windows

Noonday Heat vs La Dame à la licorne (The Lady and The Unicorn)

Matroser i Gröna Lund (Sailors in Gröna Lund) vs Gielda Plakatu

Reply of the Zaporozhian Cossacks vs The Garden of Earthly Delights

Kuoleman puutarha (The Garden of Death) vs Haavoittunut enkeli (The Wounded Angel)

Set 15

i've wasted a lifetime pretending to be me vs da oracle

minus #37 vs Panel from Fun Home

Excerpt from illustrated edition of The Rime of the Ancient Mariner vs La Mort de Marat (The Death of Marat)

The Veil vs Düsseldorf 4 (Museum Kunst Palast)

Capriccio vs Zodiac calendar for La Plume

The official imperial portrait of empress dowager Cixi vs José y Maria

Blooming Lilacs vs Lágrimas De Sangre (Tears of Blood)

An Interlude vs Boy Staring at an Apparition

Set 16

Mermer Waiskeder: Stories of the Moving Tide vs The Gran Hotel Ciudad de México Art Nouveau interior

Unfinished Painting vs To Arms!

Memorial to a Marriage vs The Island

Dropping a Han Dynasty Urn vs A Few Small Nips

Saturn Devouring His Son vs Guernica

Fairy Princesses vs Lamentation over the Dead Christ

Mummy with An Inserted Panel Portrait of a Youth vs Little Girl Looking Downstairs at Christmas Party

Agnus vs The Cup Of His Murders Is Flowing Over And In His Coat Shall Be Many Curses

[kumiaku]

Kinktober 2024 Collection

Beep boop, guess who's participating this year! Me! Hi, hello, yes, I have the first couple days ready as well as a list.

List is below the cut -

Omg you actually clicked.

Anyway, here is the list. The Asterisk* Means I am not set on it, there will be an alternative list as well, so if you'd rather see one of those, you can tell me and I might replace it. 

Day 1 - Harness - Dottore (Genshin Impact) (Link)

Day 2 - Threesome - Black Swan, Acheron (Honkai: Star Rail) (Link)

Day 3 - Crossdressing - Kirschtaria Wodime (Fate/Grand Order) (Link)

Day 4 -  Knotting/Breeding - Maliketh (Elden Ring) (Link)

Day 5 - Masturbation - Edelgard (Fire Emblem: Three Houses) (Link)

Day 6 - S&M - Tartaglia (Genshin Impact) * (Link)

Day 7 - Daddy Kink/Pseudo-Incest/TeacherxStudent - Arlecchino (Genshin Impact) (Link)

Day 8 - Belly Bulge/Size Kink - Radahn (Elden Ring) * (Link)

Day 9 - Sharing/Voyeurism - Hu Tao, Zhongli (Genshin Impact) * (Link)

Day 10 - Tentacles - Moon Presence (Bloodborne) (Link)

Day 11 - Uniform/Gangbang - Fatui Grunts (Genshin Impact) (Link)

Day 12 - Temperature Play - Shenhe (Genshin Impact) * (Link)

Day 13 - Branding - Kinich (Genshin Impact) (Link)

Day 14 - Breathplay - Patches (Soulsbornering) (Link)

Day 15 - Double Penetration - Neuvillette (Genshin Impact) * (Link)

Day 16 - Object Insertion - Mhin (Touchstarved Game) (Link)

Day 17 - BDSM - Kafka (Honkai: Star Rail) (Link)

Day 18 - Pregnancy - Marika/Radagon (Elden Ring) * (Link)

Day 19 - Knife/Sword Play - Lady Maria (Bloodborne) (Link)

Day 20 - Oral Fixation - Laios (Dungeon Meshi) (Link)

Day 21 - Hate Sex - Pantalone (Genshin Impact) * 

Day 22 - Somnophilia - Gehrman (Bloodborne) * 

Day 23 - Sex Pollen - Kabru (Dungeon Meshi) * 

Day 24 - Pegging/Dacryphilia - Scaramouche (Genshin Impact)

Day 25 - Blackmail - Ningguang, Yelan (Genshin Impact) 

Day 26 - Forced Prostitution/Praise Kink - Capitano (Genshin Impact) 

Day 27 - Aftercare - Edmond Dantes (Fate Grand Order) 

Day 28 - Fear Kink - Feixiao (Honkai: Star Rail) *

Day 29 - Swallowing/Body Worship - Dimitri (Fire Emblem: Three Houses) 

Day 30 - Monsterfucking - Ebrietas (Bloodborne) 

Day 31 - Deep Throating - Gwyndolin (Dark Souls) 

Alright, now that we got the list down, let me go over some alternatives. I got a lot. :)

Alt 1 - Temperature Play - Jingliu (HSR) (Link)

Alt 2 - Double Penetration - Malleus Draconia (TWST) 

Alt 3 - Teacher x Student - Cynthia (Pokemon) 

Alt 4 - Somnophilia - Xiao (Genshin Impact) 

Alt 5 - Hate Sex - Oberon-Vortigern (Fate Grand Order) 

Alt 6 - Object Insertion - Albedo (Genshin Impact) or Ranni (Elden Ring) 

Alt 7 - Face Sitting - Eula (Genshin Impact) 

Alt 8 - Orgasm Denial/Overstimulation - Riddle (TWST) 

Alt 9 - Public Sex - Robin (HSR) 

Alt 10 - Selfcest/Threesome - Merlin, Lady Avalon (Fate Grand Order) 

Alt 11 - Master/Servant - The Plain Doll (Bloodborne)

Alt 12 - Sharing - Enkidu, Gilgamesh (Fate Grand Order) 

Alt 13 - Lactation - Raiden Shogun (Genshin Impact) or Rennala (Elden Ring) 

Alt 14 - Aftercare - Fia (Elden Ring) 

Alt 15 - Pregnancy - Rennala (Elden Ring) 

Alt 16 - Soft/Romantic - Ereshkigal (Fate Grand Order) 

Alt 17 - Rika (Pokemon). Just Rika. That's literally the pitch, I just want her. 

Alt 18 - Toxic Relationship - Volo (Pokemon) or Belos (The Owl House) (when they go low, go lower, is the idea) 

Alt 19 - Crossdressing - Yuri (Fire Emblem: Three Houses) 

Alt 20 - Monsterfucking - Ludwig (Bloodborne) or Enjou (Genshin Impact) or Lusamine (Pokemon) or Esther (my fic, Hunter of the Cosmos) 

Alt 21 - Cult - Rika, Saeran, V (Mystic Messenger) or Belos, Hunter (The Owl House) 

Alt 22 - Crack - Claude/Wriothesley (Fire Emblem: Three Houses and Genshin Impact) 

Other possible fandoms include - Baldur's Gate 3, BNHA, LOTR/The Hobbit, Demon Slayer, and more - just ask and recommend! (recommend me My Little Pony fanfic ideas, I will comply) 

As I said, any with the asterisk are replaceable with any of the ideas above. Please feel free to suggest different ideas, if I like them I might go crazy and write a day .5 or just switch something out.

Generally, each will include the reader as the main character using second pov (so you/your) so most should be gender neutral, but with some of the chapters the reader would use specific biology so the chapters where it is relevant I will call it out. If there are any pronouns used, they will be they/them, if I slip up please lmk. Always open to constructive criticism, as the main purpose of this challenge is actually to have me learn to write a variety of different characters + scenarios that are briefer than 10k words per chapter in a shorter period of time. 

Wherever you are and whoever you are, I hope you have a good day!

[fareehaandspaniards]

Farese! For the ask game

12.How do you feel about the Plain Doll?

15. Favorite build? 16. Favorite starter class?

19.Favorite Old Hunter?

12. How do you feel about the Plain Doll?

I love her so much!

But I don't love how her fans mostly see her. Obedient, gratuitously loyal and immediately loving maiden, "perfect waifu". It annoys me when she's only loved for her helplessness, also adding pervert stuff from incorrect localization.

But getting away from the topic of hating, the NPC herself fascinates me. She's something chthonic and ancient, an echo of Maria's soul, absorbed into her feelings and Gehrman's, mixed with the power of the Great Ones themselves. I have a headcanon that sometimes the Doll responds and speaks phrases of Maria from different times, scaring and breaking Gehrman's heart. She sounds so vivid and real, like it's the real Maria standing in front of him.

At first, I associated her with the flashlight of a fish - an angler. Only in the role of the fish is the Moon Presence.

But that was wrong. The Doll is independent, nonetheless!

I also believe that her clothes are analogous to what Maria wore during the peace time in Yharnam. Only Herman made these clothes himself, especially for Doll, thus expressing his love. But Lady Maria herself wore EXACTLY the same set of clothes, just simpler.

Sometimes Doll prays for Gehrman's peace in death, and this also puts a great deal of pressure on his already disturbed psyche.

I love her as a chthonic spawn <3

15. Favorite build

Strength/Dex + Arcane. I'm very corny and went through the game with a saw cleaver, and ended up getting so used to that weapon that I had a BIG deal of trouble switching to another weapon xD

16. Favorite starter class?

Waste of skin!

19. Favorite Old Hunter

I would choose Tomb Prospector Olek, but does he count as an Old Hunter? Technically yes I think. Also a Queen Killer! I think of him as an old Logarius' friend and even former mentor, who helped him to realise and comprehend the vision that became a Radiance rune.

But if we look only at the DLC. Let it be Ludwig and Maria. I can't choose sorry x)

[fantomette22]

Thoughts on the Plain Doll (long post ahead)

« There’s a LOT to say about the plain doll but for now I will only talk about why I think she was made in the first place. What’s her original purpose ? »

If you played Bloodborne, you certainly know the Doll. The Plain Doll. A ray of light and comfort in this horrible night of the hunt. In this nightmare. 

She’s a sentient and animate doll in the Hunter’s dream. In the real world she’s not. She’s just a doll, in an abandoned old workshop (but is she really just that ?) Even if she’s not a real human being she’s much more than just a doll or an animated object.

Surprisingly some actions she does are closer to the one of a human. A doll wouldn’t need to sleep or to breathe right ? and yet she does. (Doll don’t shed tears or blood ? Well it’s not human tears or human blood but… she does that too…).

She’s not just “animated” she genuinely seems to have at least a little part of a human soul. (But not enough to be fully human…). Why and how she came to life remain a some kind of mystery. Well we can guess but we will probably never know in detail what happened. When was she animated?  When the dream was create ? Some time after ? Who knows...

Well I’m not planning to talk about this for now, no. I wanted to talk about something a bit different. 

There’s a LOT to say about the plain doll but for now I will only talk about why I think she was made in the first place. What’s her original purpose ? 

I know it’s kind of a sensitive subject. I don’t want to start anything and it’s not a way to continue anything. I just want to share my thoughts and maybe offer a different view on this topic to people who like Bloodborne and are looking for differents takes. Who are doing research to try to learn more & understand this amazing game more. (Personally, I would have like a lot to find more things like this when I began my own researches).

First allow me to explain how much I love her. Before even playing the game I already really like her. For the first few dozen hours of my first run she was my favorite character (yes my first run took me 100h that’s why).

So, There’s many interpretations and speculations about the doll. I’m not going to talk about everything or we never going to finish (i won’t go into detail about Maria, Gehrman or the winter lanterns for exemple) So I will concentrate only one main thing (+ minors interpretations). The main idea I believe about is that originally, the doll is supposed to be a mourning doll.

So what’s a mourning doll ?

First, we need to talk a bit about the Victorian era (Europe, XIXe century) and their custom about death. Some things they did to honored and remember their dead were really differents from what we do today. We could even say they are disturbing today. Death was something more common (expecially among children) and a less taboo subject. They had post-death pictures (a last photography of someone who is already dead like they were still alive, sometimes taken alongside relatives who are still alive), death mask (plaster mask of the face of the deceased person), jewelry made with hair and morning dolls.

So mourning dolls. They were made to represented a dead child. Help the family grief, to honor their memory, to remember them. That depend the age of the child but they were a lot smaller that the true size of the child. It was quite expensive to make so not everyone could order one . It was generally the size of an infant/baby or a small child, for the bigger one. 

They were made in the likeness of the child  they were supposed to represent. Usually the clothes they wear belong to the child. Sometimes the hair of the doll came from the dead infant as well.

After the funeral the dolls were usually place on the grave of the lost child. But sometimes they were kept by the family. Placed resting in the crib. And sometimes aven taken care of. We could say they were some sort of surrogate children ? They filled the emptiness left during grief.

I believe it correspond with the doll. Even if of course the doll is not based on a child but on an adult woman. (And she’s scale 1/1 and 2 meters tall..)

We know that the doll is based on Lady Maria. She might have die a big while before the event of the game. And we know that Gehrman probably made the doll, (at least her clothes. Thanks to the description. They were made with great love) after the death Maria (it makes the most sense).

"Discarded doll clothing, likely a spare for dress-up."  "A deep love for the doll can be surmised by the fine craftsmanship of this article, and the care with which it was kept."  "It borderlines on mania, and exudes a slight warmth."

So I think this work whatever the interpretations of the relationship between Maria & Gehrman you believe in.

(Ok maybe not the creep one. I’m not really a fan of this one though? But that depend I guess… she’s the only one doll we saw in the game. So this method of coping with her loose might be quite unusual for Yharnam. By the way a lot of things on this subject are in fact mistranslations).

Anyway if you consider the father/ daughter relationship it completely make sense ! He made a mourning doll based on his daughter/ daughter figure ! Completely in the theme. And also on the theme of the great one losing their child and earning for a surrogate.

Now, about the second big interpretation(s) (romantic/ oneside feelings etc) I believe it work too. Her looses disturbed him so much he made the doll for the reason people made one.  So yes it’s not the usually reason why people made morning dolls but I think it has the same final purpose. To honored her memory and to have something to take care of.

Remember how mourning dolls can be placed next to the grave too?

Well now I can’t saw this the same ever again… if you consider this is indeed Maria’s grave. 

My thoughts on this topic

About the doll face / appearance :

So it’s basically the same as Maria (almost). The « cracks » is probably because the painting on the faces is really old and hasn’t been done in quite some times. The grave is half broken because of the plants too.. it’s been awhile since nobody take care of them in the real world. Still, the doll is in a pretty good state.

Her face is a bit pale too… with dark circle under her eyes, white/ grey hair…a bit weird ? Did Maria really look like this before her death ? (When we fight her she looks more dead too…)

She could not have been in really good health and that’s why… but there’s another explanation.

The doll could be base on Maria after her death. But I don’t think he just take her corpse as a model and made the doll directly based on that… my view is the same as the following :

The last memory he have of her is probably after her death. The sight might have such a huge impact on him that unconsciously he made her that way / he could only remember her looking like this.

About the clothes.

Some tend to criticize a lot Gehrman about it. I don’t really agree with this view.

First we know that Maria stop being a hunter and took care of the research hall. And throw away her Rakuyo. 

The doll clothes are not made for fighting (really low defense. Only a little fire def like all the other Yharnamites clothes + probably a good quality fabric. It’s one one the most expensive set you can sell too). (And the cainhurst dress cost nothing 😭).

So that kinda respect her wish right ? Even if she never wear that kind of clothes maybe Gehrman wanted to give her comfortable and nice clothes, far from the hunt.  There’s a lot of layers it’s proper and really respectful. Yes she even got an orange short trousers underneath her skirt :

(And that came from a girl who doesn’t wear a lot of feminine clothes XD ! No dress, no skirt…).

And maybe she did wear such clothes, outside of the hunt. (The one we get who have an extra bow tie is describe are the spare set, that Gehrman probably made. We don’t know about the first one but it might be the same thing too?)

Maybe it’s even hers. Remember how morning dolls can wear the original child clothes ? (there's the pendentif too!) (+ the clothes are black and look like mourning clothes too).

Or maybe she begin to wear this when she begin to work at the research hall. Ok i know the patient are blind but maybe it wasn’t always the case ? A Lady Hunter sight like Maria will certainly scare quite some of them. But someone who is more like the doll we know? You would certainly trust her faster. 

Both even have almost the same boots ! I find it a bit modern even ? I’m not sure people wear that type of clothes together ? It remind me of something more modern. Like a dress/ skirt with some doc/ boots.

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Also need to talk shortly about the cut content. Original the doll wasn’t was probably not a mourning doll. Bloodborne had multiple rewriting of it’s story + a lot of cut content so originally the doll was based on a different character (Queen Annalise. She was supposed to be a surrogate for the child of the Vileblood/ cut umbilical cord description ver 1.0/ but well it was retcon. And after it was someone else (when the apprentice, Gehrman & the doll were 3 differents characters) and after she was based on Lady Maria). 

But what I always found fascinating was that she seems to be a mixt from someone from Cainhurst (clothes/look) and the Healing church (black skirt, woman salute of the church…). It was probably so intriguing before dlc.

When I saw this it clicked in my head !

Other complementary interpretations / minor interpretations : 

Also it could be a desperate way to bring her back + to reach the next level of evolution.

I’m not sure that Gehrman really wanted to animated the doll in the real world but it’s also an idea I like 👍 so maybe he did ask help from the Moon Presence too.

Or Flora noticed that Gehrman was growing more and more tired and sad and all and was like : Tada! I made you a friend to keep you company. Using the doll of the person you care a lot about. That make you Happy right ? Right ?

Another idea I like, is how the church/ Laurence could be involve in the creation of the doll. 

Trying to bring back the soul of someone into an artificial body. Who doesn’t age, doesn’t get sick, doesn’t bled, you can change the part of… isn’t it’s on the theme as to try to evolve humanity to the next stage of evolution ? Closer to the great one ?

And I read a really cool theory on Reddit (Can’t find it again…) about how the winter lanterns are dolls yes but created by the church/Mensis to take care of Mergo/ help hunters in the nightmares. But  they get corrupted… (The common ideas is that the winter lanterns are some sort of nightmare of our hunter/ Maria / Gehrman / patient of the research hall. And I agree with this too.

So hm… that was long. There’s really a lot to say about Bloodborne, the lore and the characters. I could talk about it for hours maybe.

Thank you for reading this ! I hope it was interesting. I wish we can talk more about this subject nicely if you want to add something ! Thank you :)

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hide and seek | steve rogers ; 3

summary | You had a history of playing this game. Steve looks back as he waits on the other side of the door.

words | 5.1k+

genres | angst, fluff, e2l

pairing | steve rogers x agent!reader

warnings | mentions of blood

note | this was supposed to be part of the final chapter but I unintentionally wrote it too long and I felt like there will be a lot of things happening if I add this there. Don't worry, the finale will immediately follow. For now, here is a not-so-little back story on how they met.

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“Doll, Y/N…” he called out softly. He heard a muffled sob and he knew that you are crying not because of that sudden headache. It took a few more knocks and calls before you answered.

“Please, leave me alone, Steve.”

It breaks his heart to hear your broken voice as you pushed him away again. But he would never get tired no matter how hard you try to hide your real emotions from him. This isn’t the first time you hid from him. If he have to beg for you to show yourself, he would. 

“Please talk to me. I’m here, sweetheart.”

Louder sobs followed from the other side of the door. He rested his hand on your door, looking down at his feet. This is torture. As much as he wanted to talk to you last night and clarify his plans after returning the stones, he still wanted to wait for you. He is draining any remaining patience he has in him because he knows how badly you two need to speak. 

With you hiding or running away every time he tried to reach for you, it reminded him of how you arrived and disappeared from everyone’s lives before. 

“She is a newly hired agent, employed specifically by me. Agent Y/N will be working closely in the IT unit.”

Steve crossed his arms as Fury introduced you to everyone in the room, The Avengers. Except for Thor, he was in Asgard. You don’t seem intimidated though since your face has a neutral look. Your eyes were impassive. At first glance, you looked like a simple lady who goes to her eight-to-five office job. You wore a plain, white blouse and a black pencil skirt, matching your low-heeled pumps. Natasha had the same pose as Steve, but she seemed proud as she looks at you. Clint, who was next to her, offered you a single nod. Bruce gave you a short, polite smile. Tony was the first one to say something.

“Just because I told you I’m taking a break, you’re hiring a new girl for the tech?” he seemed offended as he talked to Fury. He, then, turned to you,  “Can you go out for a sec–”

“I don’t think you would want me to leave after letting me in in your highly secured building,” you spoke nonchalantly while looking around.

Fury smirked, “Y/N has very sharp memory skills and is a master hacker. Also, she has been trained as a martial artist ever since she was eight. She used to work as a spy and marksman for various groups and organizations.”

“Who were you working for before?” Bruce asked.

Instead of answering the question immediately, you turned your head to Nick. He gave you a single nod.

“I worked for a lot of people. I don’t really know most of them since the higher-ups just give me assignments. I was required to follow with no complaints or else…” your voice trailed off. Everyone in the room could see your eyes getting lost for a second before you sighed heavily. 

Steve later learned that Natasha was originally the one who brought you to SHIELD. It was Natasha's solo mission to take down the training program you were in. Out of almost fifty people in that program, you were the most proficient and definitely the only one who almost defeated the Black Widow herself. She talked you into coming with her while having an intense one-on-one battle with you.

 

“We were both already bloody by the time I took her to the jet.” Natasha quipped. “She later revealed that she was also the one messing up with my comms when I got into their location.”

Before you are officially recruited, you went through tests and interviews with Fury and Maria. You refused to answer without Natasha's presence. Like she was your lawyer or something. But at that moment, she was the only person you trust from SHIELD. You can feel her genuine empathy and honesty to you when she also shared how she got into SHIELD.

Just from hearing stories from Natasha, Steve can tell that you are highly skilled in what you do. But he cannot help to be curious about the sudden recruitment of you. SHIELD already has its practiced IT department, why hire a new one? It became more suspicious when you were separated from other IT specialists in the organization. You have your office on Fury’s floor in the SHIELD headquarters in Washington. In your first weeks, you worked in the office. A month after your arrival, you were assigned to join Steve and Natasha to retake the Lemurian Star that was hijacked by pirates.

“Why is she joining us?” Steve asked Natasha while they waited for you to finish your briefings with Fury. “Isn’t she supposed to be with Fury all the time?”

“She is not his assistant, Rogers. She’s also an agent.” she reminded him, rolling her eyes.

Steve didn’t say anything more. You later joined them in the debriefing with STRIKE while on the quinjet. Steve noticed how quiet you were. You didn’t ask any questions but you seemed focused and ready for the task. You simply nodded when he assigned you to your spot. Steve jumped off the aircraft first. 

Minutes later, he was asking for everyone’s update in the comms. You were the only one not responding if you were in your spot. Just when Steve smashed Batroc into one of the rooms, he sees you pulling out a flash drive from the computer. Your unbothered eyes met his. His eyebrows scrunched together. He was about to say something but the pirate threw a grenade in your direction as he escaped. With your shared coordination, you two jumped to another room. Both you and Steve tried to catch your breath as you two ran for miles.

“Let’s go back to the jet,” you whispered almost breathless. You stood up and walked away, leaving Steve more confused.

“It’s weird to stare.” 

Steve automatically moved his gaze away from you. You two are now in a smaller aircraft SHIELD sent out on the way back to the headquarters. Natasha is with STRIKE and other hostages on the other quinjet. There was an apparent air between you two as you sat in front of each other. You put your leg on top of the other as you continue, 

“You know, if you have questions, you can just ask.”

Steve didn’t hold back and went straight to what he was curious on, “What were you doing with that flash drive?”

“I was getting some files,” you replied matter-of-factly.

“What files? Why?”

“That was my mission.”

“Our mission is to rescue hostages,” Steve stated. He is too annoyed to notice you only answered one of his questions. 

You shook your head, “No, that’s your mission, Captain. I have mine.”

The jet was landing already but you and Steve continued talking.

“You almost jeopardized the whole operation.” he hissed.

“How so?” You raised an eyebrow. “The mission was done well, right? No one really died or got hurt except for the pirates. I retrieved the files I was asked to get while you saved the hostages. I don’t really see any jeopardization there, Cap.” 

You are too composed that Steve can feel his blood boiling from your headstrong attitude, “What are those files for anyway?”

“Eh, none of your business,” you answered cheekily, standing up from your seat.

“Did Natasha even know about this?!”

He did not receive the answer as you strolled out of the jet. Almost half an hour later, Steve marched into Fury’s office later that day, still wearing his stealth suit. Just when he was walking in the hallway to his door, you were walking out of the said office. His jaw clenched when you greeted him with a sarcastic smile,

“Oh, hey, Captain.”

He ignored you, looking ahead. As soon as he entered the room, Steve expressed his dismay and frustration to the director, who was quick to defend you from him. 

“Agent Y/N had a different mission than yours.”

“Which you didn't feel obliged to share.” Steve interjected, “I can't lead a mission when the people I'm leading have missions of their own.”

To gain his trust again, Fury showed him the plans for Project Insight. It didn’t last long since Steve decided to leave before another argument began. He was a few seconds in the elevator when the door opened, revealing you. You now wore a more casual outfit than the one you wore on the mission. Jeans, a striped shirt, and a denim jacket. You also have glasses. It was a new look of yours that he sees since you often wore normal office clothes. There were seconds of silence, only the sound of you opening a lollipop wrapper can be heard. Steve pursed his lips before asking,

“So, the data are for Nick?” You remained quiet and he took it as a silent answer for yes. “

“Look,” you took the candy from your mouth and turned your head to Steve.  “I understand that you don’t really trust me since I suddenly showed up here. I don’t trust you either, okay? You don’t have to waste your time speculating about me and my presence around you. I swear, if you’re going to search my name on Google again, I’m gonna put the worst virus in your phone and computer.”

Blood came rushing to his cheeks and ears. He did search for your name on the Internet. It was a dumb move but he was itching to have any kind of information about the people you worked for.

You proceeded, “I’m just here to do my job to Fury. Not to SHIELD. He needed my skills, I needed to pay for things I’ve done before. Once I cleaned off some dirt on my name to him, I’ll get off this organization.”

“You’re leaving?”

He didn’t mean to sound disappointed but he was obviously surprised. You eyed him like you did not expect him to have such a reaction. You two were in the middle of your exchanged glances when the elevator let out a sound, signaling that you have reached the ground floor. You were the one who broke the exchange, walking out.

“Goodbye, Cap.”

With your stuffed backpack and tied-up hair, you walked farther away. That was the last time Steve saw you. Then, a lot of things happened. A day after that last interaction with you, Fury was shot in Steve’s apartment, where he take possession of the same flash drive you had. Natasha helped him in finding out what was in it. When he asked her about you during a drive to New Jersey, she said that you don’t really plan on staying to be a SHIELD agent or maybe an Avenger.

“She’s probably soul-searching somewhere.” Natasha blurted out, staring out the car window. “That girl has been through shit. The training program she was in almost worked in the same way as the Red Room. She should be living her life the way she wants.”

They discovered later that SHIELD was infiltrated by HYDRA. While in Sam’s place, he wondered if you knew about it. Maybe that was your secret mission to the director. More events happened. He saw Bucky once again. Fury was shown to be alive, aided by Maria Hill. He half-expected that you were with them in their secret facility but you were not. They took down SHIELD and the group’s hidden files were leaked by Natasha to the Internet. Your information is, of course, nowhere there. It was like you made sure that you will never be found by anyone again.

More years and events passed. Ultron happened.  You still passed by Steve’s mind every once in a while. The Sokovia Accords and Avengers split happened. He was too busy that he finally got you out of his head. After laying low, Natasha helped Steve in getting the imprisoned Avengers in the Raft. He had no idea where to go. But fortunately, Natasha says she knows a place where they can stay.

“She…is alive.”

Steve watched you quietly as you socialize with Wanda and Sam. For the first time in years, he saw you again. You welcomed their team into your isolated farm in a foreign country, offering them more comfortable lodging and meals. He was surprised to see you go out of the house when Natasha was landing the quinjet. You still wore the same plain expression on your face but he can see from your eyes that you were more at peace.

“Of course, she is. She just left the country and lived a different life.” Natasha chuckled, sitting beside Steve. “You knew she is alive, right?”

“I did… I guess. But seeing her again after a long time is like a confirmation.”

In their first few days, you and Steve didn’t really interact. You have a large homestead farm, he can see how you can manage living by yourself. He’s been wanting to talk to you. He was unsure why but he knows he wants to apologize. 

“Be patient with her. She doesn’t really talk much about herself to new people unless needed.” Natasha once told him.

“I’m no stranger to her. We worked together before.” Steve spoke defensively.

Natasha clicked her tongue, “Please. In the whole two months she was in SHIELD, you never personally introduce yourself to her.”

Before Steve can get lost in looking back on the time he met you, she spoke again, “If you really want to talk to her, you can try. Just try and have patience.”

Two weeks exactly after they arrived at your place, Steve asked if he can come with you when you were leaving the house to work around your farm. You scanned your eyes from his head to toe before looking back at him again, “Okay.”

“I’m just picking fruits today. So, there’s nothing really much to do.” you shared.

The weather was perfect. The morning sun was kind enough to not be too hot for your skin. You two strolled far away to the house. You seemed more comfortable this time as you were humming some melody like a little kid. Steve’s heart warms seeing that you seemed better than the time you got recruited.

“I really appreciate you letting us stay here for a while, Y/N.” he began, making you pause. “And I want to apologize for being too cynical of you before.”

“It’s fine. I understand,” you replied, not turning around to properly talked to him and just continued walking to one of the trees. “I was someone who have a bad record and worked for wicked people. I wouldn’t trust me either if I were you.”

Steve cannot see your face but the emotion in your voice speaks a lot. It was clear as the blue sky that you still carry the burden of whatever happened in your past.

“It’s not your fault,” Steve spoke softly.

Finally, you turned around, instantly meeting his eyes with a melancholy smile, “I know. But, I still did it. My hands will forever be stained by all the things I’ve done… ”

He can see your eyes turning glossy before you blinked and looked away. You were quick to shake off any threatening tears that could show your weakness. Suddenly, you opened your arms, presenting the tree next to you with a grin.

“Here is my favorite tree in the whole yard!” 

Steve would be lying if he say that he didn’t find it amazing how fast you can change your expressions, almost believable. But he didn’t talk about it. He lets it pass since you seemed pretty excited telling him about the fruits. He didn’t know how long he helped you pick out various fruits such as apples, peaches, and a few oranges. But he didn’t notice that the basket he was holding was full until you pointed it out and told him that you two should wander back to the house.

“How did you have this farm by the way? If you don’t mind me asking.” Steve inquired carefully.

“An old couple sold it to me for a low price. I paid them with the money I got from Nick after doing that job for him. At first, I was aiming for the couple’s house only since I loved how secluded it is. Then, they told me that this farm is included, which was amazing since it can help me avoid driving away to the city every other day for food. So yeah, I bought it.” 

Steve thought that that will be the longest dialogue you would ever say to him. But as every day went by, you got more relaxed in telling him about yourself. You two bonded over early morning coffee chats and picking fruits. And yes, Steve introduced himself to you, letting you know that you can call him by his name. You introduced yourself too with slight mocking:

“Okay, Steve. I’m Y/N. Don’t worry, that’s my real name. Google won’t give you any other name of mine.”

You love waking up early to see the ravishing sunrise while Steve sometimes struggles to fall asleep as he thinks about Bucky in Wakanda and the aftermath of the accords. So, most of the time, the other Avengers in your house will see you two in the morning sitting on the top steps of your front porch with two cups in between.

“Wanda said she’s planning to go with Vision,” Steve confessed in one of your mornings.

You don’t seem surprised as you continued to look ahead and take a sip from your cup, “Yeah, I know. They’ll be staying in Europe.”

“Do you think it will be safe for them?” he expressed his worry with that question.

“He’s an android robot made of vibranium. She can move things with her mind. Steve, I think they are going to survive.” you grinned. But Captain America seemed too serious and concerned with his friend, so you turned in his direction, “Look, they’re going to be fine.  Wanda and Vision are a literal power couple. I don’t think they will let anyone hurt or even lay a finger on them. And based on what Natasha told me, she can see Wanda still evolving her power. I cannot imagine what more she can do when someone hurt anyone she loves. And I know you guys will always come to them if they ever needed help.”

You two sounded like parents who are having a conversation about letting their daughter go live independently. Steve nods at everything you said. Maybe he’s just overthinking things. 

“Whatever you are feeling, it’s fine. You are their leader and you are just concerned about your members.” 

That was the first time he felt your hand over him, giving it a soft squeeze. He saw you doing it to Natasha once when you two were talking alone in the kitchen. He didn’t mean to eavesdrop but it was time Natasha was talking about her sister. You also gave her comfort through your words just like how you did with him now. Other than being a spy or hacker, Steve learned that you were a great friend to everyone too. You and Sam get together well and you can ride along his jokes. With Wanda, you enjoy cooking and watching something on your television. You even prepared an impromptu going away dinner for her before she leaves with Vision. You are like a shapeshifter who can easily get along with everyone.

“Yeah, I definitely became a shapeshifter at one point.” you joked one time. You were getting cozy in one of your cool early mornings with him. You were wearing a white cardigan over your grey nightgown. “By the time Natasha leaked all of SHIELD’s files, I was already out of the United States. I am always ready. I have fake passports and identification cards for different purposes before. I erased all of my information from SHIELD before I left, I knew the government will be after me if I didn’t.”

“Where did you go?”

“I moved from one country to another. It’s fun, you know? Trying out different names and identities. It’s like playing hide and seek.” you shrugged. “Unbeknownst to me, Natasha and Clint were both tracking me down after Ultron happened. They thought they can ask me to join you, guys to avoid such tech issues again. But after what happened to SHIELD, one of the highly-secured organizations before, I don’t think I would want to join any kind of group.”

Steve nodded, “Yeah, it’s hard to trust again after that.”

“That’s why you didn’t sign the accords,” you mumbled like it was a fact.

He didn’t answer but you both know that it was the truth. You two let the silence slip at the moment, only watching the far sky. It was like a painter’s work of art. The rising sun painted the sky with captivating, calming shades of orange, yellow, and pink. Steve tilted his head in your direction when he heard you slowly let out a shaky breath. A single tear rolled down your cheek, making him concerned.

“Are you okay?”

You chuckled, wiping your eyes with the sleeves of your cardigan, “I just love the colors so much.”

You met his furrowed brow gaze. You tried to smile but your lips trembled, “T-This is my fourth year out of that horrible training program. Thanks to Natasha.”

Steve smiled as he was happy with that. You sounded proud and he wanted to maybe greet you for this achievement. But your tears don’t look like from joy, it seems painful.

“Also the same day my mom was shot dead in front of me and I don’t know what to feel about it,” you admitted, sounding more defeated. “I never really got to cry about her death since I was brought to the program right away and we were not allowed to feel anything there. We cannot laugh, cry, or even hum anything. We will be punished if we don’t follow. That… that really sucks.”

You chuckled, one of your many ways to cope. Steve watched you with sympathy. 

“Yet I got away. I’m here.” you wept. But tears kept coming in. “But with all the immoral things I’ve done as a spy, I don’t know if I deserve to be here or feel happy at all. I don’t know.”

It’s not your fault, Steve wanted to remind you again. But you continued, “And I usually spend my days alone. I always try to work around here to distract myself from any kind of emotion. But now, to sit here in peace with someone, in front of this sunrise, my feelings are really all over the place and I feel unworthy of it.”

Gently pushing the coffee cups aside, Steve scooted closer to you. He wrapped an arm around your slumped shoulders. He lets you cry to his shoulder, damping that part of his shirt.

“I know I should feel happy for escaping hell. But my heart hurts so much.”

For the first time in years, you admitted what you have been feeling inside. You never told everyone about it before. Steve is very much aware that you just shared the most intimate confession you had and he appreciates you trusting him with it. 

Two, three, or four minutes flew by, Steve is still holding you to his shoulders and you were calming down. He felt you lifting your head.

Your chest still heaves from your sobs when you spoke, “I-I’m sorry about that. I probably got carried away–”

You stopped when Steve shakes his head side by side slowly, “No, it’s fine. You don’t have to be sorry for everything. It’s okay for you to feel emotions. You’re a person and everything you are feeling right now is valid. You can express whatever you want. Laugh. Cry. Sing whatever song you want. You’re free. No one’s going to hurt you now.”

The moment he said that last sentence, he read the relief showing from your glistened eyes. Your shoulders were shaking when you cried harder. You turned your head down, hiding your face. Steve’s hands carefully reached down to your cheeks. His thumbs softly swiped the trickling tears.

“Feel free to take your time processing your emotions. You can cry for now but you don’t have to carry it with you all the time. And you will never be alone now. You accepted this group of war criminals in your home, so we will stay with you forever. You have no choice.” he tried to lighten up the mood and he grinned when he heard your lips letting out a giggle. “Natasha is here. I’m here. You can come to me, okay?”

You nodded wordlessly against his palms. Steve smiled and you did too, showing more ease than earlier. You looked back at the sky, and he mirrored. The sun is about to shine bright with the white clouds any time now. The mix of colors is almost gone. 

“Everything you said meant a lot. Thank you, Steve,” you murmured. Your eyes are beginning to puff and get weary from that bucket of tears you poured out. You opened your arms and you two shared the warmest bear hug. 

“Thank you for opening up to me, sweetheart,” he replied before planting a kiss on your hair.

That moment unquestionably got you two closer. Your two other housemates, Natasha and Sam, were not shy about showing you two that they noticed it. They would sometimes tease you about it. But you two shook it off.

“Y/N, this is obviously favoritism.” Sam accused you.

Steve and Sam were playing scrabble. Natasha was keeping scores while you check their words in your hefty dictionary book, also given to you by the old owners of the farm.

“No, it’s not, Mr. Wilson. The word was here in my handy dictionary. It’s acceptable.”

The Falcon rolled his eyes, “No one uses flapjack in a sentence anymore.”

“You just did.” you teased him.

Both Natasha and Steve chortled. Sam gaped his mouth open, dramatically reacting.

That’s how their first four months happened in staying in your house. Steve almost forgot that they were just laying low. They still have to be alert to every danger that comes to Earth. Of course, with your tech skills, you still helped them with getting information and making useful gadgets for them with limited resources. Steve was thankful that you lend your skills in tracking growing harmful groups in different countries.

“Can I join you guys?”

Steve paused from fixing his boots when you suddenly barged into his room with a single question. It was unexpected. Earlier that day, Wanda, who’s currently in Scotland, sent out a message to you about Vision’s mind stone. Something strange was going on with it. Steve, Natasha, and Sam immediately planned to go to them as soon as possible. 

“Are you sure, doll?” 

Steve stood from the edge of his bed and walked to you. It has been two years since they came to your quiet farm and they’ve done a lot of missions with your assistance for their techs. But you never volunteered for going on missions.

“I am. I feel like I’m ready and I can help. I will be a great backup.” you insisted. Steve knows something’s going on in your head to make you have a decision like this. He seemed to be thinking deeply, so you added, “I can feel that this is a big mission, Steve. I don’t think I can just sit and wait for you three to come back here. I really want to go this time.”

Steve stared at you even longer. He knows that you are fit for joining them, you are one of the most competent persons he has ever known. But he doesn’t want you to be placed in any dangerous situation. It was like after knowing for a couple of years, all he wants is to keep you protected in this private land you own. But with your strong-willed attitude, he knows he can’t. 

“Steve, you know that I will still go with you even if you say no, right?” you calmly asked.

“Then why are you still asking me this?”

You gulped, stiffened your posture, “Because… I want you to know that I trust you and you are important to me. Even if I won’t follow you if you’ll say no, you are important to me.”

With how quiet the whole room became, he can hear the heavy beats of your heart. He knew, by the rhythm of it, that it was almost identical to his own heartbeats every time he sees you at the start of his day.

“I know you are already Captain America but I want to be with you in all of your battles. I want to fight next to you than to stay here, wondering how are you.  I want to protect you. So I can make sure that I will still see you at the end of the day. I want to make sure that I will hear your voice calling me whatever nicknames you like because I love it. I love it and all the other things you do for me. The simple meals, the walk to the trees,  the coffee sessions in front of sunrise, and all the hundreds of kisses you left on my hair, forehead, cheeks, and nose. All of them. And sometimes, I wish you just–”

Absolutely caught off guard, Steve pulled your waist closer to him and placed his lips on yours. You didn’t react at first but you kissed him back. And at that moment, he cannot think of anything else except you. Your charming smile, your hearty laugh, and the humming of your voice every time you two walked outside to pick fruits. He suddenly felt your fingertips combing through his growing hair. He gasped when you slightly pulled his hair. But before the kiss could deepen, you pulled away.

“Your beard tickles,” you murmured, making Steve laugh. “But I like it. You looked really good with it.”

Instead of responding, Steve just peppered your face with kisses.

“Okay, I’ll take that as a ‘Yes, you can go with us’.” you giggled.

Steve raised a brow, “It means to say ‘I love you’. But yeah, sure, come with us.”

You squealed and ran out of the room to prepare. Steve grinned seeing you so excited. But then, you come back, poking your head to his open door.

“Oh, and I love you too.”

Steve already played this game with you before. Now, he is willing to wait. But it’s hard when it feels like you’ve been pushing him farther and farther away.

additional a/n: whoo! that was my longest writing. i'm really sorry it took me long to update. I'll be posting the final/next chapter of this series before posting for my other works. that's all. thank you for reading<3

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Shiganshina Trio Underground Trio The Vets The 104th The warriors Whole cast Old Levi Squad New Levi Squad The Ackermans

Ships:

Main ships:

Eren and Levi: 

Eren x Levi (all content)

Ereri / bottom Levi (nsfw)

Riren / top Levi (nsfw)

Platonic ereri

Asexual ereri

BDSM / sub Levi / dom Levi

Mobuhan Erumike Yumihisu Jeankasa Mikasasha

Side ships:

Erejean Winmin Nicosasha Arumika Jeanmarco / erejeanmarco Levihan Eruri / eruriren Springles Yelepiku Reibert

Titans (yes, seriously)

Rogue Titan Armored Titan Colossal Titan Female Titan Jaws Titan Beast Titan Warhammer Titan

Universes

Canonverse Modern au Reincarnation au Mafia au College au Highschool au Supernatural au

Vampire!Levi

Vampire!Eren

Werewolf!Eren

Werewolf!Levi

Demon!Levi

Wing au

Merpeople

Mer!au

Mer!Levi

Mer!Eren

Mer!ereri

Space au Soulmates Victorian au Coffeeshop au

Little twists:

Pastel/punk:

Punk Levi / Smoking!Levi

Punk Eren / Smoking!Eren

Punk Ereri

Pastel Eren

Pastel Levi

Tattoo artist Levi

Genderbend:

Fem!Levi

Fem!Eren

Fem!Ereri

Boxing:

Boxer!Levi

Boxer!Eren

Singing:

Musician!Levi

No name!Levi

Singer!Eren

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My writing My commissions Things I commissioned Fandom gifts (this tag is for me, okay) My posts

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Not safe for work (smut) Kinktober (nsfw) Ereriauweek Fanfics Angst Comics Doujinishis Crossovers Crack / Just Ackerthings 50 shades of Ereri

Cosplay:

Ereri Cosplay

Levi Cosplay

Eren Cosplay

Warnings:

Blood Body horror Dark content

Holidays:

Valentines day Christmas New year

Bloodborne:

Plain Doll Lady Maria Father Gascoigne Eileen Yurie Valtr Simon Gehrman Iosefka The choir Vicar Amelia Micolash Ludwig Kos Alfred Cainhurst Crow Research patient

Yuri on Ice:

Yuuri Katsuki Viktor Nikiforov Yuri Plistesky Otabek Altin

Viktuuri Otayuri

Will (possibly) be updated. Let me know if the links aren’t working!

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A pregnant Maria?

So Bloodborne is very wrapped up in pregnancy and childbirth. Everything revolves around it. I know some people have brought up the possibility before, but, could the umbilical cord in the Abandoned Old Workshop be from a child of Maria? Now personally, I’ve never liked the theory. It appeals to me much more for it to be Annalise’s, because there’s more tragedy for me in a woman struggling to get pregnant who had given birth before (and the child was killed). Plus I like the question of how ‘bad’ something seems in relation to how you view the victim; i.e. Annalise is evil, therefore any suffering is justified (as far as someone like Alfred might see it). I also have a case I plan to post later to argue Annalise and Cainhurst’s nobles interacted with the Moon Presence prior to the Hunter’s Dream being formed. HOWEVER one discovery earlier today has me questioning that assumption. Quickening is a word we understand to mean speeding up, the dictionary’s example sentence being: “she quickened her pace, desperate to escape.” Fair enough, the Art of Quickening does indeed make you move faster in the game (well, your dodges are more like teleportations, but). It’s also used by both genders. BUT HERE IS WHERE IT GETS INTERESTING.

Archaically, quickening referred to pregnancy. Specifically, being able to feel the child move (the dictionary lists it as a fetus showing signs of life). This was in use up to at least forty years ago. Given how much of Bloodborne’s theme revolves around labour and childbirth, I think it’s safe to assume they chose this word knowing its meaning. Quickening was the name given to the teleportation, and an ‘old art’ that was ‘teased’ from the bones of one of Gehrman’s oldest apprentices. Popular opinion holds that the bone is from Maria. (I don’t want to rehash the arguments for why it’s believed to be hers, but this theory does rely on the assumption it’s her bone.) We gain quickening from Maria’s remains. We know that Vileblood women (or assume so) are able to bear children of the cosmos. Arianna gives virgin birth, Annalise is under the impression she can (she turns down being lovers but still expects to become pregnant, despite being the ‘sole survivor’ of Cainhurst), so it isn’t too far off to imagine Maria could become pregnant through the gods as well. Miyazaki has said all names in the game are chosen very deliberately (” Names are an incredibly important part of any world you want to depict,” Drained of Blood, Hidetaka Miyazaki) and I’m sure more Western audiences are familiar with a certain woman who became pregnant without sleeping with a man -- one who shares a very similar name to Maria. The Maria/Virgin Mary connection I had always assumed referred to forgiveness, but this is kind of a silly assumption since she... doesn’t forgive you? Or operate in the game as someone with any relation to that? She isn’t a judge, she’s an Old Hunter. You can argue she needs to forgive herself, but that’s true of a lot of characters in Bloodborne. Gehrman is relieved of his guilt by killing the Orphan of Kos, not by killing Maria. Furthermore, it explains her succumbing to despair. She didn’t kill herself right after the Fishing Hamlet, she didn’t even become a recluse -- she went to work for the Healing Church in a different capacity. If she gave birth and the child died, that could be a final straw scenario. (I’m sure the guilt over what happened with Kos would be especially palpable too, once she became a mother). The other neat thing is that if it was her child, the Moon Presence being beckoned and giving life to the Plain Doll makes even more sense. The Moon Presence can potentially adopt the Hunter as her surrogate child, but who takes care of the Hunter first? If the Hunter surpasses the Moon Presence, the Doll assumes the role of mother, as that is what major part of her was preserved -- her function as a mother. This, specifically, is my theory. The Old Hunters used blood from the labyrinths -- old blood, which granted the ability of Quickening, of a movement wholly supernatural. In imbibing this blood, they became surrogate children, in essence, to the Great One(s). Lady Maria, also being a vileblood, was closer to those from the labyrinth that served the Celestial Kin than her human brethren. Thus, she was ‘blessed’ with a child. The umbilical cord was used to beckon the Moon Presence, who created the Hunter’s Dream and became the patron of Hunters to come. Moon Presence also brought the Plain Doll, cast in Maria’s likeness, to life. We know that before Maria committed suicide she returned to the (Abandoned) Old Workshop; the smashed photo beside her matches the style of those from the Old Workshop and, perhaps even more telling, a photo is clearly missing from the Workshop’s mantle (x - (source 1), (source 2)). As she gave up hunting ‘on the spot,’ (cast Rakuyo in the well) there was no reason for her to return to the workshop. (As a fun aside, did you know; “Rituals surrounding medieval childbirth included [...] burning of the newborn's umbilical cord in the household fireplace.”) So that’s my theory. You are using the bone from a woman with a ‘blessed womb’ to gain the ability to teleport, essentially existing much closer to the Great Ones than any other ‘modern’ humans. We know the Great Ones can be confused as to the true identity of a Hunter, because holding the eyeball of a blood-drunk hunter is enough to be mistaken for an actual blood-drunk hunter. The umbilical cord being there makes a lot more sense compared to Annalise’s, and why Laurence and Gehrman would have access (Maria died still greatly admiring Gehrman, and she was working for the Healing Church).

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Music taste 2005-2016

Here’s the list of bands I have interest in since 2005:

ADD Aaron lewis (seen 3x) adelitas way (seen 2x and met band) adema afi Alice in chains all that remains (seen 2x) all american rejects (seen 1x) alter bridge Ancient Bards Anew revolution Another animal Apocalyptica (seen 1x) aranda art of dying (met/seen 5x) atom smash Atreyu audioslave avenged sevenfold Backstreet law black stone cherry (seen 1x) Black sunshine blink 182 Blue october bo bice Bon jovi boston Boy sets fire breaking benjamin (seen 3x) Buckcherry bullet for my valentine (seen 1x) burn halo bush Byzantine Candlebox Candlelight red (seen/met 2x) carolina liar cavo (seen 1x) cereboca Chevelle (seen 1x) cinder road Cold (seen 1x) collective soul course of nature Cracker Cranberries crossfade (seen/met 1x) damageplan daughtry Dave matthews band David cook days of the new decyfer down deepfield def leppard Default Deftones Delain (seen 1x) Demon hunter Destrophy Diecast digital summer disturbed divide the day Divide by zero domeshots Doors Dope dorydrive (seen/met 5x) Dream theater dropping daylight drowning pool eagle eye cherry eagles Earshot edwin mccain egypt central (seen 1x met singer) 18 visions Eleventh hour ember Emphatic (seen 3x) era 9 (met/seen 2x) Eurythmics evanescence (seen 1x) evans blue Eve to adam (seen 1x) everlast exies exit 2 enter fall out boy Fear factory five finger death punch (seen 2x) five for fighting fleetwood mac flyleaf (met 1x seen 3x) foo fighters Foreigner Fountains of wayne Framing hanley fuel Gavin rossdale genesis gin blossoms (seen 1x) Godsmack goo goo dolls good charlotte Green day Guns n roses H.I.M Halestorm (seen 8x met 3x have pix with arejay an josh) Hellyeah hinder (seen 2x) hoobastank hootie & the blowfish hurt (seen 1x) Icon for hire (seen 1x met ariel an adam) in this moment (seen 2x have pic w/maria) incubus Its alive john mayer Journey Kataklysm Kenny wayne sheppard killers Killswitch engage Krypteria lacuna coil (seen/met 1x) Lamb of god Leaves Eyes (seen 1x met elina) Lenny kravitz Like A storm (seen/met 2x) Lifehouse Lifer limp bizkit Lindsey Stirling (seen 1x) Linkin park (pre cataclysm album) live Lost in a name (seen 20x) Lostprophets lynam Lynyrd skynyrd Machine head marilyn manson Mastodon mat kearney matchbox 20 Metallica Mnemic modern day zero modern echo (seen 30x) modern english motorhead Mudvayne mushroomhead naked eyes Nickelback (pre darkhorse album) nightwish (Seen 1x) NIN no address no doubt nonpoint (seen 1x) oar oasis October Rage (seen 3x) offspring oleander on a dead machine onesidezero operator otherwise our lady peace ozzy POD Pantera papa roach (seen 1x) Papercut massacre parachute (seen 1x) paramore pearl jam A perfect circle Phil collins pillar Pink floyd plain white t’s Poison pop evil (seen 1x) Powerman 5000 puddle of mudd RA Rage against the machine Rains (seen 2x) rammstein randy Red (seen 4x) red jumpsuit apparatus (seen 1x) REM reo speedwagon Rev theory Rise against (seen 1x) rob zombie Royal bliss (seen/met 6x) Safetysuit saliva Santana Savage garden saving abel Scorpions secondhand serenade Seether Serj tankian seven mary three Sevendust (seen 2x) Shadows fall Shallowside (seen 1x) shamans harvest (seen/met 1x) shinedown (seen 3x pre amaryllis) sick puppies (seen 3x met 1x) simple minds Sirenia sixx am Skid row skillet (seen 4x met ben) skindred slipknot smashing pumpkins smile empty soul (seen 1x) Sonata Arctica (seen 2x met 1x) Soil (seen 3x) soundgarden spineshank staind (seen 4x) static x stereomud Stereoside stone sour (seen 4x) seen corey’s solo show once as well STP submersed Sugar red drive Switchfoot system of a down Taking dawn Tantric Taproot (seen 2x) tarja turunen Temple of the dog theory of a deadman (seen 3x met joey) third eye blind 3 days grace (seen 1x) tom petty tomandandy Tonic Tool Tracktor bowling train trapt (seen 4x met 2x) u2 Uncle kracker Union underground vandals veer union (met singer still waiting to see concert tho) velvet revolver volbeat warrant white tie affair within temptation Xandria yellowcard 10 years (seen 3x met singer) 12 stones 16 second stare 2 cents 3 doors down (seen 6x) 30sec to mars 32 leaves

Will reblog at end of 2017 with updates 😎🤘

[katyspersonal]

Okay I am dumb but I am playing Bloodborne and I just noticed

If when Doll channels your blood echoes you look real hard through the pop-up menu, you see she holds hunter's hand ok? But like. In the same fashion as how when Maria still holds onto hunter's hand before letting them go.

That's why Maria holds hunter's hand like this as if almost reluctant to let go! Reflex from the Doll because when one is asleep another is awake. But jeez, the DETAIL in BB is still insane