#kuraraxmemori

[missgirlinred]

March 22, 2023

good thing i didnt listen. good thing i continued. good thing i tried again.

few years ago, my confidence and self-esteem were tested. i tried multiple performing clubs and shits just to gain that confidence back (even tried joining pageants). i was in the verge of giving up and turning my back away from what i used to love—performing.

joining pep squad was never my first choice, in fact, it was teatro lasalyano (bc atheneum theater club made me do it). but, teatro didnt accept me (edi wow emz). i wasnt hurt at all (kasi sanay na ko ma-reject hahaha) because i know that something will come up unexpectedly just like when a door closes, a window opens. and so it did. pep squad is the window that opened. and it was the best thing that happened. i am very happy. in fact, the happiest. also, the people behind all of this made me stay and continue what i started (shoutout dlsu babies esp aleksin and ysa, coach, capt, ate sam, AND KUYA SNOOPY the best kasi he looks so proud while watching us perform as in nakasmile siya)

so here’s me, in her cheerleader era

(see u at moa arena for uaap cdc 87 🤪)

[aboutthegirlwhodecidednotto]

Saw this on my fyp in tiktok kanina.

I remembered last night asking for God a sign. A sign that will tell me if i have to wait or not anymore. And maybe this was His sign.

I opened my tiktok for the first time this morning and eto ung unang lumabas. As in. Eto talaga.

I dont want to dwell on what ifs anymore. Maybe thats how our story ends, Fab. Maybe this is the real sign that I am waiting and searching for.

Good bye for good, my love.

[carelineee]

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[missgirlinred]

Enero 01, 2023 | start of anew

[missgirlinred]

this is probably the sign

Poems & Words

[missgirlinred]

I have never felt this peace and comfort to anyone. And for the first time, i felt home. You are my home.

Finally, i can say this sincerely. You are the love of my life and will forever keep you. I promise and will do my best to take care of you and be the most annoying yet loving girlfriend you’ll ever have. I love you, my Quino! <3

ABRIL 17, 2022 | 9:26 PM

[missgirlinred]

That 5-month difference. Woah.

[missgirlinred]

1:10 AM 10/29/21

[missgirlinred]

JULY 12, 2021

napaginipan ko ulit si fab.

we're okay. we're very close.

just like the old times, his hand on my waist habang nasa byahe.

we're happy.

[missgirlinred]

there are some parts of me that i dont understand. like, my mood swings. there are times that i am okay but recently lagi akong irritated and lahat nalang ng bagay kinagagalitan ko. di ko alam kung bakit.

is this somehow related to anxiety or depression?

gulong gulo na ko sa sarili ko. di ko alam kung bakit ako ganito. i feel like this isn't me. :(

[missgirlinred]

idk where to post this so dito nalang hikhok

quite feeling myself today tho :)

[missgirlinred]

AGOSTO 13, 2021 | 1:49 PM

I saw familiar faces.

And familiar fears. I dont know if i will be able to make it. I dont know if i will be able to get out of this alive. I am scared once again. I feel regret. I think i should’ve stayed on my comfort zone. Fuck.

[missgirlinred]

AGOSTO 05, 2021 | 10:15 PM

I don’t really want you to come back anymore to me. But i just wish that for once, i will be able to see you again and catch up with you. :)

That’s all that really matters to me now.

[missgirlinred]

seseryosohin ko na talaga ang self improvement ko. promise to. i will lose weight, magdidiet ako, ieexpand ko vocabulary ko. i'll read books. promise.

weight as of feb 25. 2021: 50.45

weight goal: 45 or 40

lets do this!!!!

[missgirlinred]

AGOSTO 03, 2021 | 10:33 PM

Then again, when it comes to me, it’s okay not to give too much attention. But when its him.

[missgirlinred]

AGOSTO 03, 2021 | 5:50 PM

I see myself in three ways:

1. i see myself working in a company and i always wear any outfits. the salary can meet my needs and wants. i live in a condo or an apartment. and i own a car. very simple yet i think i am satisfied with that - knowing that it can meet all my needs and wants naman.

2. i see myself wearing a lab coat. a white lab coat. and from time to time, in scrubs as well. but most likely, i will spend most of my night on textbooks, notes, studying. i think, when i enter med school, there is no turning back anymore. i need to gather all my thoughts and strength for that. i need to commit myself to that. its definitely hard but ik in the end, it will pay off. i will be able to get that Dr. before my name and MD after.

3. i see myself as a theatre performer. it has been my passion and sometimes i want to continue it and make it my career as well. however, hindi naman masyadong nabibigyan pansin ang mga theatre performer dito. and in that case, napapaisip akong umalis ng bansa at ipagpatuloy 'yon sa lugar na nabibigyan iyon ng pansin.