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[lover-of-mine]

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I will assume this is about my thoughts on the ways the date you're losing me was written recontextualizes the great war for me. This has a very healthy dose of *projection* as someone who ended a 9 year relationship earlier in the year so keep that in mind lol and please assume this is about some random she, I'm not really speculating on her relationship, this is just how I like to put the 2 songs together. Anyway, ever since you're losing me came out, I am putting it along with the great war in my head, but the pipeline was the great war into you're losing me, mostly because "I wouldn't marry me either" for me never felt like "you refuse to propose", it felt like "you gave me a ring to make me shut up about it and now I'm trying to plan a wedding and start thinking about our marriage but you refuse to work with me" because getting engaged changes the dynamic of a relationship, it will expose all the cracks. So I kinda saw it as "we thought the war was over but I was wrong" song. Now though, I'm seeing you're losing me as a song written in the midst of the battle. Like, a full on plea to get in the fight with her. Something you write during the "somewhere in the haze got a sense I've been betrayed". And I still see the "I vowed I would always be yours cause we survived the great war" as something that eventually grew into "you gave me a ring to shut me up but at this point there were already too many cracks in the foundation, so the more it went on the more unsustainable it got". I see the great war as the expectation, as a "you did decide to fight for us" but at the same time I kinda feel like it has this feel of at this point is it too late to save us? They're entangled in a sense. "I drew curtains closed drank my poison all alone" -> "now I just sit in the dark and wonder if it's time", "cursed you as I sleep talked" -> "every morning I glared at you with storms in my eyes". I don't know, but the imagery I get is like, you're losing me is the "tears on a letter", that moment of indecision where you're about to pull the pin off the grenade and blow everything up because you feel alone in the fight and you need to do something to be noticed "fighting in only your army, front lines don't you ignore me", and the great war is after the moment you almost set off the bomb but he chose to fight for you so you're giving it a chance "your finger on my hairpin triggers, soldier down on the ice ground, looked up at me with honor and truth so I called off the troops". And it's interesting the way this makes the fight get turned around, because it starts off with "fight for me or else you're losing me" and it goes into "that was the night I nearly lost you" because it became a "my impulsivity almost made me punish you for something that now you're making it seem like it was all in my head", everything stop being about her feelings and it became about her reaction.