#krisley x 008.

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IRREPLACEABLE ➝ KRISLEY.

TAGGING ➝ Hadley Meeks, Kristy Meeks.

LOCATION ➝ Hadley & Kristy’s bedroom.

TIME FRAME ➝ 5/3, around 4 am.

WARNINGS ➝ None.

NOTES ➝ Hadley can’t sleep, Kristy wakes up and they make a big decision.

HADLEY MEEKS

To say that the last few nights had been difficult would be a massive understatement. They’d been unbearable. Hadley and Kristy had had two wonderful weeks with their baby girl, before she had been taken away. Her wife and Brad and Rain were really the only things keeping Hadley going right now. But everything about having a new born just seemed so right, and she couldn’t shake away the feeling that that was how things were meant to be. Maybe it was just grief but she kept having dreams about being pregnant, about her and her wife raising a baby, and it was all she could think about. She’d woken up and couldn’t stay in bed any longer. Instead she found herself pacing around the room, the idea of another round of IVF floating in her mind. She’d stuck to her hormone regiment through all of this, because they hadn’t made a decision on what to do with their remaining eggs yet, so it was possible, she just didn’t know how smart it was, if getting their hopes up again and losing it all again was something either of them could take.

KRISTY MEEKS

How things had gone from so perfect to so terrible would’ve been a mystery to Kristy, except she’d begun to come to terms with the idea that she was just some kind of jinx. She and her wife had never had any luck with babies, and just when they seemed to have broken the pattern, they’d had everything taken away from them. It was like the death of another baby for them, it brought up memories of Bradley. Except they didn’t even get to have a real send off for Evie, she was just gone. Continuing on was important, however, because she and Hadley were mothers to Brad and Rain now, too. They had to keep going for them, and for each other, which was perhaps the only reason Kristy had managed to fall asleep tonight; she needed to be alert and present for her children tomorrow. The sound of footsteps, however, tore her from a dreamless sleep, and Kristy glanced over to see her wife pacing the room. “Hadley,” she sighed softly, sitting up in their bed. She reached over to turn on the bedside lamp. “Sweetheart, what are you doing? Come back to bed.”

HADLEY MEEKS

Hadley sighed as she heard her wife behind her, she hadn’t wanted to wake her. She turned to look at her as the light was switched on and smiled sadly at her. “I can’t sleep, I just keep thinking about everything.” She said, perching herself on the bed next to her wife. “I think we should try IVF again. I know that our odds are low, and I know we’ve had so much pain lately, but I think we should. Nothing can replace Bradley or Evie, but I just have this feeling in my gut that we need to try again.”

KRISTY MEEKS

“I understand,” Kristy sighed softly, moving over to sit beside her wife once she’d perched down on the bed. They had a lot going on, clearing their minds really wasn’t easy. She reached out to place her hand gently over the top of Hadley’s, her fingers easily lacing with the other woman’s. The idea wasn’t entirely crazy, but they really had suffered so much loss, the thought that they could potentially have to go through it all again was a lot. She didn’t know how to respond at first, and instead pressed a comforting kiss to her wife’s shoulder, thinking for a moment. “You know that it might not work again, right?” She questioned, looking up at her. “But if you’d like to try one more time, then I’m of course onboard.” Kristy paused, pressing another small kiss to Hadley’s shoulder, her voice softening. “I think we should make this the last time, though. We have our children to think about now, too. We can’t put them through anymore loss, they already lost Evie just like we did.”

HADLEY MEEKS

Hadley relaxed into her wife’s touch, and sighed as she listened to her speak. She knew that the chances weren’t great, that they could end up with even more pain, but she couldn’t shake the feeling and nodded. “I know. I think that’s a good idea. One last try.” She whispered softly, turning to place a soft kiss to Kristy’s lips. She knew they had Rain and Brad to think about, too, and it had been weighing on her for most of the night. Between their mother, their home, Evie, there had been so much change and loss for them, but even still, she just couldn’t seem to change her mind on this. “We won’t tell them right away. Not unless it works and we get far enough along. That way if it doesn’t work out, they never have to know.”

KRISTY MEEKS

Truthfully, she didn’t love the idea of Hadley putting her body through this again, not when their chances were so slim, but Kristy was never going to tell her wife not to do something she wanted to do, and she’d support her entirely. “Thank you,” she mumbled against the other woman’s lips, smiling — albeit a small smile, but a smile all the same — for the first time since everything had happened. She nodded her head, listening to what Hadley had to say. “I agree, I think that’s the best option. We’ll make the call first thing tomorrow, okay?” She scooted back over to her side of the bed, taking ahold of her wife’s hand and gently tugging her closer. Kristy wrapped her arm protectively around her, pulling her into her side. “Right now, I think we should try to get to some sleep.” She pressed a small kiss into her wife’s hair. “Don’t you? We’re going to have two children waking us up in a few hours, ready to start their day.”

HADLEY MEEKS

Hadley sighed, contented, relieved, in love, all of it. She was still unbelievably sad, but she couldn’t help but to hold on to hope for this. She wrapped her own arms around her wife and pulled them gently back down the pillows. “You’re perfect,” she whispered against her ear, reaching over to turn off the lamp that Kristy had turned on. “Sleep is a good idea, as long as I get to hold you all night.”

KRISTY MEEKS

They were generally on the same page, which was perhaps one of the reasons the two of them worked so well together. They seemed to be in agreement about this, and if Hadley was ready to try once more, Kristy was going to be right there beside her, holding her hand. Right now, they needed to go back to sleep, something they hadn’t gotten much of lately anyway, and she found herself smiling softly as Hadley pulled her back down, with Kristy curling into her side. “And you are the bravest person I know,” she whispered, leaning up to press a gentle kiss to her wife’s lips, before nuzzling her head into the crook of her neck. “You can hold me all night,” she promised, draping an arm across the other woman’s middle, her fingertips gently stroking over the spot of skin they landed on. “But you have to try to sleep, okay? We have two children who need us to be up and at ‘em in a couple hours.” It should’ve been three, but they weren’t going to give up on Brad and Rain. If anything, Kristy was sure this would just make them hold onto them even tighter.