#kofi won’t be my only source of income! it just really helps and I have a lot of fun doin requests

[an-albino-pinetree]

New goal has been put up on my Kofi!

I apologize for the shameless plug, but I feel like I haven’t drawn attention to this in a long while

A reminder that I do have a

🌲 KO-FI! 🌲

For drawing requests!

I like to keep things fun and light on here as much as possible. However due to a recent decline in my mental health, I have gone down in days at my job, per my therapist’s recommendation- meaning I am no longer making a livable, pay check to pay check, wage.

It is solely the fact that I am still living with my parents, that I can care for myself and my pets, and I can’t thank them enough. 👍🏻💚

Since I am very much still trying to get my feet back under me, I am stuck with this current job situation.

Any amount helps tremendously!

5$ Can get you any Jax related content you desire! ✨💜 (except for NSFW content, for now, or anything that makes me uncomfortable personally <:] )

Thank you so much, for your continued support, and motivation to do what I do. It means more than you guys will ever know. - 🌲

[rainbowsans]

um alright,

So here’s the deal; I’m not doing okay. I’m kind of tired of pretending I’m doing okay. I’m so sorry. I never wanted y’all to worry about myself on how I’m doing and such, but the past 4 days I haven’t seen doing good. in fact, bad.

my dominant drawing hand/arm haven’t been improving, I’d like to lie and say it is but it’s not. It still hurts. my muscles are strained, as I draw my entire hand and wrist strains, making it harder to grip on the pen as I draw and it starts to shake. I was lucky to finish 3 comms the past 4 days. Resting it at night seems to help but as soon as I pick up something or use my arm it strains. I’ve gotten a brace for it; idk if braces are supposed to hurt but they do, ive done stretching constantly; no help, and I’ve gotten cream that is supposed to relief muscle/join pain: those are no help as well.

I wanna say I can power through it but the irritating feeling really bothers me as I work. even typing and holding my phone is irritating. So uh; I’ve got 10 commissions left, and 3 comics to do. October is nearly over and Ive came to a horrible realization that….I can’t do more comms. I can’t. So i won’t be able to open November comms at this rate. I’m so sorry;

Drawing is my main source of income, as my hand/arm aches I can’t do the thing that’s my main source of income. The only thing that’s gonna help me with rent and stuff is going to have to be when I publish the Paps Plush Preorder; and to top it off the shipping price for the bulk order on the junior plushies (their done btw and there’s an entire ARMY haha) are a bit pricy so they’re gonna wait until then but I’ll get that paid when I do…aka: using some of the paps plush money to do it because your guys shipping money for when I SEND it is safe and secured, no worries. it’s just getting difficult.

but um, yeah. I’m probably being over dramatic and whatnot but like; I can’t find any reason or closure in my head right now. All I’m thinking is the paranoia of what if’s and possible worse outcomes because it seems logical to me as of right now: I’ve called my clinic to request an urgent appointment so I’m waiting for a call back;;;; the sooner I see my doctor the better….

Art is my life, it’s what I love to do, to be able to not do it….that’s hell for me.

I’ve gotten to a breaking point where I hurt myself, I couldn’t sit still and relax because I wanted to do something but all the activities I wanted to do required my hands;;; it was agony to sit back and do nothing and be alone with my thoughts…..it broke me. I always strive to be productive since I fidget if I do nothing.

-sigh- to my commissioners, thank you for your patience….I’m sorry for this outcome….comms are gonna take a while for me to finish but I’ll get them done in time.

Plush buyers, you’ll get your little junior. I can assure you….just give me time as well!

uh, yeah that’s it: idk what I’m gonna do tbh; novermber comms are going to have to pass until my hand gets better or wait until the doctor tells me what’s up. there’s still time;;; I just I’m not thinking clearly.

A preorder listing for my paps plush will be up soon (the manufacturer hasn’t send me pictures yet bc the plush sample hasn’t been done yet! They’re still in the embroidery stage) but if you all dont mind me posting a listing soon if they don’t send me an update until the 26th I will still post the listing on my kofi shop…maybe; idk;;; the plush is gonna be the only thing that’s gonna help me pay the bills and the junior plush shipping order for November;;;;

but yeah….uh, that’s all. sorry. that’s all; just wanted to give you guys an upset.