#kkulfm

[wwilloww]

congratulations on the milestone, sweet willow!! 💕 for my beloved trickster god jin, been up to any new tricks lately? 🥰😇

(first of all, thank you!!!! this is so sweetttt)

Jin slouches a little further in the plushy chair you've found him in.

"Hm. Are they really new if I've been performing the same goddamn things for millennia? Maybe not. But I've been taking a particular liking to making frogs pour out of the mouths of men who interrupt, or worse, speak over their wives. They like having their mouths busy so, why not fill them for them? And really, who doesn't like an amphibian inspired champagne tower?"

Ask my characters a question!

[dntaewithluv]

cheers kenz!! hope you're having the bestest betsest bday 🥰💕💖

Evie you better stop before I cry omg 😭😭 Thank you so so much love you're such an angel truly 🥺💕💕

[miscelunaaa]

3, 4 & 15, if you'd like! 💖

3 (fave line or scene) was answered already here but here’s another! i made myself laugh way too hard at the invincibility star plushie joke in life mushroom and it remains yet another fave 💜

4. total number of words I wrote this year

in fics: 63,547

essays for my neglected substack: 10,018

other neglected fiction wips: 4616

total: 78,481

15. something i learned this year

i think learning to work with what gives out energy is really really important! as fic writers, we forget sometimes that what we write is still primarily for ourselves even if we share it with others. because of that, you have to sort of follow the energy and write what makes you happy or what brings you joy, whatever that might look like for you. above, i mentioned the words i wrote in nonfiction partially because i wanted to show what the difference in energy can mean. at the beginning of the year, it was sucking me dry. and then i started reading fics and it’s like i got my energy to read back. and this is to say nothing of writing fics, which has been one of the greatest gifts i could give myself this year. creative energy is important. respect it and follow it! see where it takes you!

ask me something from this end of the year list!

[shuadotcom]

it's your birthday??? CONGRATULATIONS CHERRYYYYY HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Yes!!!! Thank you evie!!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺❤️🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

[coepiteamare]

violet! i hope you're doing well!! dropping in some love for you 🥰🥰🥰 (and some strength to get through the cb, they really are set on putting us through it huh?)

EVIE!! hello! this is...so late....but i hope you're doing well. i miss you

[bangtanmademedoit]

minaaaa~ please tell me about 2, 4 & 10!! 👀🥺🥰

Ahhh Evie~ thank you so much! 🥺 These were fun to answer, and have made me want to get back out of this writing rut I've been in. Sending you all the warm vibes and bear hugs. 🥰💜

2) Tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project

Ahh, this question. I don't have anything I'm really actively working on.. After finishing my most recent fic, I kind of ran out of steam and didn't know what to do with myself!

But there's a fic idea that's been in my brain for years (it's actually a fic I started writing years ago and then abandoned).. it's an idea for a OT7 fic..👀 It's something I dream about all the time but just don't have the confidence to pull off at this point.. But I would like to at least try some day! Other than that, I'm just hoping to get back into the habit of writing again because I really don't want to lose it again after finally rediscovering it.

4) Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like)

Ooo, this one is interesting but also so hard for be because I'm still quite unconfident in my writing.. but I would have to say overall the entirety of "being together" makes me really proud because it was the first time I wrote anything after years of struggling to write anything after a traumatic experience, and it pretty much just wrote itself and I actually still quite like it. And also there are a lot of parts from "take me home" that I really like because I really pushed myself with that fic and really tried to break out of myself with it. I can also just really relate to a lot of what was going on in the reader's head. I think if I had to choose one paragraph it would be this:

"He had been reeling from a break up that had ripped open his heart, and I was just the new friend who wanted to help. I remember how hard I tried to take his mind off things when it got too much. I remember how many hours I spent listening to him lay out all the insecurities and fears that she had left him with. I remember how hard I tried to convince him of just how amazing, how strong, how kind, how worthy he was, all while falling in love with him myself."

I don't know why, but I just like the way it sounds, especially the last sentence.

10) How would you describe your writing process?

An absolute mess. There is no plan. There is no order. Half the time there isn't even a general idea. I literally just sit down with my notebook (yes, I still do most of my writing on paper first.. it's a habit I've had since I started writing fanfiction in middle school) and just write whatever comes to mind. Usually it starts with a scene, and then it kind of flows out from there. Then when I have most of it written, or I start to get stuck, then I start to type it up onto the computer and edit it as I go. Usually the edits are small things like word or grammar changes, and I also add some details here and there to just flesh things out. But I really spend minimal time editing, and most of my writing is really just write and go. What comes out onto the paper is pretty much what gets posted. This is mostly because I’m trying to ease myself back into things, and I know if I overthink things I might lose momentum again.

The only exception would be "take me home". I had the idea for that fic for literal YEARS. It's actually based off of an IU song, but I could never bring myself to write it. I had an overall idea of what I wanted to do, but no idea how to do it. And I struggled a lot with writing it because I really wanted to push myself to really write dialogue and interactions because I have a tendency to just monologue in my writing. It took me a long time, and a lot of edits went into it, but I'm really proud of myself as a result!

Fun meta asks for writers

[yeojaa]

just wanted to send you some love, i hope life is treating you well ♡

evie, i love you i love you i love you! i hope you’re doing well and taking care of yourself. i think of you when i eat yogurt 💖

[bts-trans]

[ENG] 150611 [BTS Kkul (Honey) FM 06.13] 2nd BTS birthday 'BTS FESTA 2015'

@bangtansubs 

[suga-ssi]

SG: We came together as bts to make good music. Even though daesang & bbma are good, we need to reflect even more now. Records are great but I'm trying not to feel burdened. We've achieved things we didn't expect. I'm really thankful and we will work even harder. Just sitting here drinking coffee and talking to you guys is special and really meaningful to me so thank you.

©syubbae

[dntaewithluv]

HAPPY BDAY KENZ 🥳🥳🥳🥰🥰💞💞🌸

EVIE THANK YOU ANGEL YOU'RE SO SWEET 🥺💕💕

[jeongguk]

anon, by that ignorant ass logic, then Ignis could not post on a solid 90% of social media sites

i guess so...

fruitbowel​ said: eh they can piss off people should respect the things you say anyways

i wish it was that easy lmao...

kkulfm​ said: i'm ready to beat the shit out of rude ass anons and spread love + positivity to you at the same time

kill em babe make sure to punt them in the knees if u cant reach their face

jeonxguk​ said:First of all it's your own blog so you can post whatever you want and if you don't want anyone to reblog or share it then people should respect it. And that's totally okay that you got angry. I don't know what will those people achieve by sending rude anons like?????? chill. If they don't like it then they should unfollow you since its less harm than sending anons. I hope you're okay now?

most of it was one person... its funny because once i blocked them i suddenly got a bunch of ghost notifications (like at least 6) but no asks... hmmmm i wonder who it couldve been lmao... but yeah im good. took a break from tumblr for a few hours but ill still stick around, i just might not be as talkative as i usually am, lmao.

sonjirnin​ said: honestly wtf like if you don't like a blogger then u unfollow them idk why anons have to be so petty like leave bye

as soon as people have a mask they get to say what they want without fearing repercussions, n thats when they get ugly lol...

anonymous said: I just wanted to pop in here and say that I love having you on my dash and you don't ever annoy me aND IDK I JUST GENUINELY HOPE THAT YOU FEEL BETTER it would be rly sad to see you leave and all :-( ily

ily2... sorry if i whine too much even now lmao... whenever anything like this happens i just feel like ***im*** being overdramatic and stuff and should just shut my mouth... but i appreciate the sentiment :~( thank you ;;

anonymous said:u r super duper important to me so like i understand if you wanna leave tumblr but i'd be happy knowing you were content doing something else

really, i enjoy making content and i enjoy helping others, so i think ill stick around for a little while longer. i got some advice from a few different friends and i think ultimately ill just try to ignore the bullshit, it wasnt really just one thing that made me really want to leave for good-- the anons earlier were just kind of the icing on a really, really shitty cake thats been baking for months now. i dont wanna burden you guys with it but... yeah. im still figuring out how i feel, but i wont leave just yet. ive gotten too far with this blog to up and start over =^=

anonymous said: Hey, I'm not here to tell you to stay or go, but I am here to remind you that you helped me understand K-POP more and helped educate me on things I wasn't fully aware of. Honestly, I HOPE you stay so you could help future fans like me. However, if you leave, I want to thank you. Thank you for helping me understand this community more and thank you for educating me.

this makes me really happy... because thats all i really want, you know? to help others. and a part of me does like feeling wanted-- who doesnt-- and thats probably why im so attached to this blog, not because of the ~~~fame~~~ or whatever but because i legitimately love you guys and interacting with you guys and even if most of you will only ever interact with me on anon, i still love you regardless. id miss you guys a lot if i left and thats probably one of the biggest things keeping me here, tbqh. thank you. this does mean a lot to me, and all i want is to make a positive difference in people’s lives, so knowing that i have is a really nice thing to hear.

anonymous said: when i stumbled across your blog a while ago it was one of the things that made me finally become an army and im really glad they're in my life now and i thought i should thank you. incase you do leave i just wanted to tell you this!!! and i wish you good health ^^

awww omg... i know the fandom has been a bit of a mess recently and i dont blame you if youve been fed up, but i love bts and i love armys so im glad youre here with us ;___;

chimmjinn​ said: i don't know if i am allowed to respond to your post;; i'm sorry you feel that way.. the overwhelming feeling i understand, and i'm sorry tumblr is making you feel like that - i think your personality is just honest? maybe some people don't have it in them to appreciate that but that's just up to them - i know it's easier said than done but "just do you" applies here;; your blog isn't for other people, its for you! i'm running out of characters so i'll cut short, but i'm sending lots of hugs! x

i want to positive, but honest, so yeah, i think youre right. i just... dont like putting up with bullshit? so ill call people out on it if i see it (and its my place, of course; still learning that part) but even so... i cant say that my blog is ***for me*** anymore because people can still infringe on my wishes and reblog things from me even if i dont want them to, which really fucking sucks. i wish tumblr would implement a system where you can mark certain posts as being incapable of being reblogged, because then i might finally get some peace of mind lmao... and i just wanted that post left alone bc i was sharing it in hopes of getting feedback, and yet because of the vast number of followers i have, i STILL had people reblog it. still. its just. exhausting.

anonymous said: nonono please please don't leave... .__.

im still here!! ;o;

anonymous said: hello, a friendly reminder that you are amazing and i will respect whatever decision you make. [virtual hugs u]

[yeojaa]

uhhh excuse me but you 100% deserve all the support 🥺 (also i still think that was so frigging clever?? and woah you have journalism muscles to flex that's so COOL) rip i feel your pain about not writing out planned stories, relatable 😂 but if you do get back around to ghost in my bed i'll be so incredibly excited to read it!! and nAMJOON YESSSSSSSS 💖

i took journalism for a single semester heuhehuehe 🙃 and attended a total of like 15 classes like the absolute degenerate i am 🤡🤡

you are the sweetest person in the world tho and one day i will erect a monument in your name or smth idk BUT until then here is me telling you you’re fabulous and so supportive and so big brained and etc. from the comfort of my tiny inbox xoxo

[bts-trans]

[ENG] 170612 [BTS Kkul (Honey) FM 06.13] Happy BTS birthday! 'BTS FESTA 2017'

@bangtansubs

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[suga-ssi]

SG: I recorded the guide for so far away with jimin so the first guide was recorded by him

©syubbae

[dntaewithluv]

for the end of the year fanfic asks! 1, 12 & 14!!

Omg Evie thank you so much for sending these in 🥺

1. My favorite fic I wrote this year was probably Criminal Influence because it felt like a complete story and it really challenged me as a writer and I was actually pretty proud of how it turned out 🥰

12. My favorite character to write about this year was probably pizza boy JK from my Piece of You series because I always have so much fun writing him he's just so chaotic and ridiculous and I love him 😂

14. Ooh a fic I didn't expect to write is such a good one! This would probably be my latest Tae fic Tempted, You Know because for some reason I have a really hard time writing Tae lmao and I really struggled with the last Tae fic I wrote, but I wrote this one in like a week and was unexpectedly happy with how it turned out so that was nice lol